What I hate is when people, who don't understand, think it's easy to just 'get yourself together' and 'stop feeling sorry for yourself', but it's not easy. They make ME feel guilty for feeling like this. Lord knows I've tried to be 'normal' and just get on with life; put one foot in front of the other, etc.... but I ALWAYS come crashing down again. My Mum used to have a saying for me, even from an early age: 'Angel is on the crest of a wave; God help us all when she comes crashing down'.
@MrsFooFoo yeah I agree with you there. its called stigmatizing the victim. people who repeat these things are really in need of an education in mental illness. we are trying to enlighten the world.
yeah, i can have terrible mood swings sometimes x.x, ive gone from happy to mad to happy and back to mad in a single day x.x, im just good at keeping my emotions to myself, so most of the time no one notices
I can understand that. Sometimes when I can't hold it in, I yell at everyone near me. I'm angry and I can't control it and must blow off steam.. they take it as they will, but I gave them warning my moods were swinging..
yeah ive also figured out how to mellow myself out, i skateboard a lot, and half the time im alone, i look angry and like a crazy head sometimes, because im out there yelling and screaming at my board, but its because im so emotional sometimes i need to get it out, and usually afterwards i get a few days of peace before it comes back
thanks :], yeah its been a big help since i was an angry kid, and now im like the exact opposite of how i was when i was younger, im happy and energetic, with lots of good friends and getts B's in school :P
Great video, I have bipolar 1 and I am on lithium and it works really well for me, your video covers a lot of issues and well done for such an honest and insightful approach to mental illness.
I was on lithium 2700 mg for months then dropped me to 1500 mg and made me fat cuz i was always tired and empty however i didnt steal and overdraw my bank account or make bad choices I also love my mania's and feel normal and my speech is quick and confident Im so intelligent and yet always trying to fix someone I hate meds because its takes away my manic highs! but I know for my kids and not to end up in jail i need my meds go figure???? Can anyone help me?
You have to stay on your meds, but maybe you can ask for a much lower dose. I took 1800 and it gave me the shakes really bad. lithium made me feel like a zombie
I have Bipolar type 1. I have many of the same symptoms as you do. I'm on 600mgs of Lithium twice a day. It seems to take away all my cravings for marijuana and alcohol as well as control my mood swings.
I was on lithium for about 5 yrs. It made me deader than a zombie. I didn't realize how zombified I was until I cam off it. I don't seem to need it anymore.
I take a seizure medication called Lamictal , It was working really well for a while , It seems to controls my manias ( SEVERE ANXIETY) but I think its time to maybe increase the dosage.
I call that med lamotrigine, I opted not to take it. It was too harsh.. higher doses may lead to that rash you are warned abiout.. have you tried olanzepine?
I was on doxepine for a few years and I was always suicidal on that med. Then I went to zoloft later and in between I tried paxil and prozac. paxil made me nuts, prozac made me hyper.. so I settled with zoloft for like 4 years. Then I got off everything for ayear.
my depression came back and so did the suicidal ideations I got back on zoloft again. It lifted my depression and I am not suicidal. My libido is fine I am on a low dose I will stay on it until I feel stable again and get off it again
psychiatric drugs actually prmote suicides not prevent.. make you fat irritable and impotent without any libido. Please go to Yahoo and type in the search with the phrase "Horrible Truth About Psychiatric Drugs" and also do the search "Documented Proof Psychiatric Drugs Shorten Lifespan" to see information on psychiatric drugs that no psychiatrist will ever tell you.... Shocking and revealing..... Oh and be sure to include the quote marks around the phrase when doing the search....
I really am not sure. The symptoms seems to be there but I don't get really bad mania and that is the real defining point I think. Thanks so much for your resonse and interest.
thats what she said she was bi 2, but just because you are bi 2 you can still have a bi 1 experience in a life time and go years without having any problems at all,alot of it is what is happening in your life at that given time
I have Bipolar 3 I hate it please check out my videos.
mrsangelp 1 year ago
What I hate is when people, who don't understand, think it's easy to just 'get yourself together' and 'stop feeling sorry for yourself', but it's not easy. They make ME feel guilty for feeling like this. Lord knows I've tried to be 'normal' and just get on with life; put one foot in front of the other, etc.... but I ALWAYS come crashing down again. My Mum used to have a saying for me, even from an early age: 'Angel is on the crest of a wave; God help us all when she comes crashing down'.
MrsFooFoo 1 year ago
@MrsFooFoo yeah I agree with you there. its called stigmatizing the victim. people who repeat these things are really in need of an education in mental illness. we are trying to enlighten the world.
thecrackwalker 1 year ago
@thecrackwalker im bipolar too i couldn't agree more..
MultiRitalin 10 months ago
OMG!!!! I can relate to almost all of what you're saying. Sorry to hear all your troubles. Thank you for sharing this. You're very brave! xx
MrsFooFoo 1 year ago
@MrsFooFoo Same here. Almost every word..
bluesmodus 11 months ago
u sound like me xD lol
SkaetrPunk777 2 years ago
I sound like you? all fucked up? lol
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
@thecrackwalker
yeah, i can have terrible mood swings sometimes x.x, ive gone from happy to mad to happy and back to mad in a single day x.x, im just good at keeping my emotions to myself, so most of the time no one notices
SkaetrPunk777 2 years ago
I can understand that. Sometimes when I can't hold it in, I yell at everyone near me. I'm angry and I can't control it and must blow off steam.. they take it as they will, but I gave them warning my moods were swinging..
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
@thecrackwalker
yeah ive also figured out how to mellow myself out, i skateboard a lot, and half the time im alone, i look angry and like a crazy head sometimes, because im out there yelling and screaming at my board, but its because im so emotional sometimes i need to get it out, and usually afterwards i get a few days of peace before it comes back
SkaetrPunk777 2 years ago
at least that is positive, you are controling you anger by directing to an inanimate object, instead of at living beings. kudos!
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
@thecrackwalker
thanks :], yeah its been a big help since i was an angry kid, and now im like the exact opposite of how i was when i was younger, im happy and energetic, with lots of good friends and getts B's in school :P
SkaetrPunk777 2 years ago
Yes actually I am reading, i was terrifed my mind would wander so I wrote out what I wanted to say.. and then read it while i was making the video..
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
Great video, I have bipolar 1 and I am on lithium and it works really well for me, your video covers a lot of issues and well done for such an honest and insightful approach to mental illness.
christl301 2 years ago
thx for tyhe nice things you said.
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
Oh my god. I'm scared... i think i have bipolar disoder but i dont know if actually am... :(
06hochpi 2 years ago
I was on lithium 2700 mg for months then dropped me to 1500 mg and made me fat cuz i was always tired and empty however i didnt steal and overdraw my bank account or make bad choices I also love my mania's and feel normal and my speech is quick and confident Im so intelligent and yet always trying to fix someone I hate meds because its takes away my manic highs! but I know for my kids and not to end up in jail i need my meds go figure???? Can anyone help me?
Ibluvinjames 3 years ago
You have to stay on your meds, but maybe you can ask for a much lower dose. I took 1800 and it gave me the shakes really bad. lithium made me feel like a zombie
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
I have Bipolar type 1. I have many of the same symptoms as you do. I'm on 600mgs of Lithium twice a day. It seems to take away all my cravings for marijuana and alcohol as well as control my mood swings.
TheNielsenFamily 3 years ago
I was on lithium for about 5 yrs. It made me deader than a zombie. I didn't realize how zombified I was until I cam off it. I don't seem to need it anymore.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
I feel your pain........sorry
BiPolarSick 3 years ago
My pain is lifting with kind words like that. :) ty
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
I have bipolar 1 and adhd my best advice is medical marijuana cause i self medicaded myself and it really works.
MichaelMartinez984 3 years ago
Oh yes, I use pot as a medication too. but its not for everyone.. and should be used properly, not all night parties etc
just maintain a comfortable buzz.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
agree you should really support HR 5842 and HR 5843 its a bill before congress about pot you should check it out and vote for it.
MichaelMartinez984 3 years ago
I'm canadian.. the bills you pass there don't affect me..
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
I take a seizure medication called Lamictal , It was working really well for a while , It seems to controls my manias ( SEVERE ANXIETY) but I think its time to maybe increase the dosage.
copacabana71 3 years ago
I call that med lamotrigine, I opted not to take it. It was too harsh.. higher doses may lead to that rash you are warned abiout.. have you tried olanzepine?
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
my doctor has me on abilify. that is some good stuff compared to any other one i have ever been on. trazadone helps me to
BnMills4 3 years ago
I have never tried abilify. I need to check that out, trazadone didnt agree with me.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
I was on doxepine for a few years and I was always suicidal on that med. Then I went to zoloft later and in between I tried paxil and prozac. paxil made me nuts, prozac made me hyper.. so I settled with zoloft for like 4 years. Then I got off everything for ayear.
my depression came back and so did the suicidal ideations I got back on zoloft again. It lifted my depression and I am not suicidal. My libido is fine I am on a low dose I will stay on it until I feel stable again and get off it again
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
psychiatric drugs actually prmote suicides not prevent.. make you fat irritable and impotent without any libido. Please go to Yahoo and type in the search with the phrase "Horrible Truth About Psychiatric Drugs" and also do the search "Documented Proof Psychiatric Drugs Shorten Lifespan" to see information on psychiatric drugs that no psychiatrist will ever tell you.... Shocking and revealing..... Oh and be sure to include the quote marks around the phrase when doing the search....
medspatic777 3 years ago
i agree you i was diagnosed with bipolar 1 and You sound alot like me!!
kelluvshop27 3 years ago
its nice to know we are not alone
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
Thank you for your support :)
thecrackwalker 4 years ago
stay strong!
bminternet43 4 years ago
oops I mean you ARE bp1 IMHO
magickcatmojo 4 years ago
I really am not sure. The symptoms seems to be there but I don't get really bad mania and that is the real defining point I think. Thanks so much for your resonse and interest.
thecrackwalker 4 years ago
you're describing rapid cycling which is definately bipolar 1 , I'm sorry but from my personal experience and what I've read you are not bp1 but bp2
magickcatmojo 4 years ago
thats what she said she was bi 2, but just because you are bi 2 you can still have a bi 1 experience in a life time and go years without having any problems at all,alot of it is what is happening in your life at that given time
helpmepic1 3 years ago