Wow,,,,it really seems like I'm listening to myself....I also feel alone no matter how many people are attempting to help me,,,,and anything anyone says doesn't really do any bit of good. I'm going through alot of very upsetting and tragic events in my life and sometimes I'd like to just drive off a cliff....and like my life feels like a broken record....but for whatever reason I'm still here....but yeahhh...life...really is annoying when most of the things you care about end up going away..idk
knock that shit off, you are beautiful,,somebody should be holding you. go out, get on line, find someone, believe me, you need someone. stop thinking, stop analyzing, stop all that crap. rent funny videos, laugh. you are feeding all of you fears and problems by taling about them. your fine, look at you. it sucks that you dont see how beautiful you are.
sometimes talking about it makes it better. Its better to talk than to hold it in, otherwise, you carry it with you for more years to come. My gma had allota stress with her, never talked about it and from age 40 to now, 83, looked the same. Age 40 and looked TWICE her age. I love my gma, but man-o-man, she looked like hell.
Is it about help or is it about escaping(sorry for the obvious)?Where are all the lucky people,the ones with clear heads?What is it that we're looking for, what emmotions are right,what thoughts, what actions,what rewards?I understand the circles, I've traveled the world.I don't know what I want,just not to hurt?But I think if we had the energy,a certainty, then the symptoms would fade away.But what can give you that?What is self?I wish I could make all your pain go away=)
The problem is nobody can fix you but yourself, that's why nothing you've tried has worked. I came to hate and be paranoid of doctors because it seemed they only made me worse. I did the meds and therapists and suffered for years and nothing helped because I wasn't ready to be helped. Basically I had to hit bottom for my lightbulb moment to happen and now I'm getting better. Just keep hanging on.
yeah..i dunno..i hit rock bottom quite a lot. would have figured if that would have 'woken me up', it would have a long time ago. just takes longer for my brain i guess..i think it's missing some pieces.
I'm so sorry that everything feels so tough right now for you! It can get so frustrating to feel like no one understands! (And I know how people don't actually have EDs just DON'T get it.) I hope you continue to reach out and find the support that you need. This fight is not hopeless. Recovery can exist- don't ever forget that, even in the darkest moments.
ashley, maybe meds are something you need to reconsider. Don't stop trying. The circles will open up eventually. Please dont give up. *hugs* you CAN get through this
out of line. She is TRYING to access the help that she needs. Don't assume that she just wants a free ride. Why would she delete this tho, she isnt a coward, she's just struggling.
She has deleted everything else I and others have written that is critical so why not this? She has been offered all sorts of help but doesn't want it or won't follow through. Health professionals have to make tough choices using their limited resources where they will do the most good. People who want to get better should get the help...
obviously she hasnt been listening at all to what you have to say, dont bother deleting, just let people see how ignorant some people can be. I know you're trying and so does anyone else who is paying attention.
I lived in my head and was in T for years and it's not until just now exploring more body-expressive type therapies that things are starting to integrate, attach and become more connected to the body. Of course take what fits for you and leave what doesn't, but I wanted to share in case it could help u.
The human brain is the most complex thing known to exist in the universe. How can any of us hope to understand its functioning? I think it's best just to break mental problems into tiny pieces and work on one piece at a time. I wish you good luck with all this, Ashley!!
i KNOW the root of my issues. i don't mean normal as in NORMAL. i mean normal as in, not horrible, unpredictable mood swings or anxiety..or intrusive thoughts..or whatever else that tortures me.
you say you won't try more talking, more meds, or more food, soooo...looks like you need to decide if you actually want anything to change or not. you think you know best, but that hasn't worked out so well for you thus far.
2nd part:dont know wat i expect from others sometimes and not from myself. You are good in analysin ur situation just as me but we are both kinda lost at times in
sometimes it seems like everybody is pretendin to wanna help but when u wud need somebody to reach out for u u are the one who has to reach out tho u dont have the strength and that hurts...i was the same ive never really done wat my therapist told me n i always felt bad goin there n tellin i failed in the set goal!I see myself in u sometimes not physically but like i
Wow,,,,it really seems like I'm listening to myself....I also feel alone no matter how many people are attempting to help me,,,,and anything anyone says doesn't really do any bit of good. I'm going through alot of very upsetting and tragic events in my life and sometimes I'd like to just drive off a cliff....and like my life feels like a broken record....but for whatever reason I'm still here....but yeahhh...life...really is annoying when most of the things you care about end up going away..idk
gothicvixen1313 2 years ago
I can probably put it in words; you're broken, misunderstood, and craving to be the opposite of both.
Fieldhouse12 3 years ago
knock that shit off, you are beautiful,,somebody should be holding you. go out, get on line, find someone, believe me, you need someone. stop thinking, stop analyzing, stop all that crap. rent funny videos, laugh. you are feeding all of you fears and problems by taling about them. your fine, look at you. it sucks that you dont see how beautiful you are.
bobby81001 3 years ago
sometimes talking about it makes it better. Its better to talk than to hold it in, otherwise, you carry it with you for more years to come. My gma had allota stress with her, never talked about it and from age 40 to now, 83, looked the same. Age 40 and looked TWICE her age. I love my gma, but man-o-man, she looked like hell.
BoyishlyCuteBritYank 3 years ago
Is it about help or is it about escaping(sorry for the obvious)?Where are all the lucky people,the ones with clear heads?What is it that we're looking for, what emmotions are right,what thoughts, what actions,what rewards?I understand the circles, I've traveled the world.I don't know what I want,just not to hurt?But I think if we had the energy,a certainty, then the symptoms would fade away.But what can give you that?What is self?I wish I could make all your pain go away=)
trivialpursuit5 5 years ago
Stay strong...
SiHasMyHeart 5 years ago
The problem is nobody can fix you but yourself, that's why nothing you've tried has worked. I came to hate and be paranoid of doctors because it seemed they only made me worse. I did the meds and therapists and suffered for years and nothing helped because I wasn't ready to be helped. Basically I had to hit bottom for my lightbulb moment to happen and now I'm getting better. Just keep hanging on.
flinder 5 years ago
yeah..i dunno..i hit rock bottom quite a lot. would have figured if that would have 'woken me up', it would have a long time ago. just takes longer for my brain i guess..i think it's missing some pieces.
justagurl23 5 years ago
I'm so sorry that everything feels so tough right now for you! It can get so frustrating to feel like no one understands! (And I know how people don't actually have EDs just DON'T get it.) I hope you continue to reach out and find the support that you need. This fight is not hopeless. Recovery can exist- don't ever forget that, even in the darkest moments.
deadweight92 5 years ago
i wish you hadnt deleted that note ash...people need to see other people's ignorance
xXParadoXx 5 years ago
ashley, maybe meds are something you need to reconsider. Don't stop trying. The circles will open up eventually. Please dont give up. *hugs* you CAN get through this
xXParadoXx 5 years ago
out of line. She is TRYING to access the help that she needs. Don't assume that she just wants a free ride. Why would she delete this tho, she isnt a coward, she's just struggling.
xXParadoXx 5 years ago
She has deleted everything else I and others have written that is critical so why not this? She has been offered all sorts of help but doesn't want it or won't follow through. Health professionals have to make tough choices using their limited resources where they will do the most good. People who want to get better should get the help...
bentbikerx 5 years ago
i delete ur comments because u r an ass, plain and simple, who has no idea about my life or what i do or don't do. shove it.
justagurl23 5 years ago
obviously she hasnt been listening at all to what you have to say, dont bother deleting, just let people see how ignorant some people can be. I know you're trying and so does anyone else who is paying attention.
xXParadoXx 5 years ago
proffessionals arent the answers. they dont know you really. if you dont 'get better' then they get frustrated and the 'blame game' starts.
you will feel SO hopeless at the moment because your mind is starved. anorexia is a fiend. my heart is just breaking for you in this video
. i'm gona pray for you sweetie. we see you.
xxx xxx x
jodiebakesalot 5 years ago
I lived in my head and was in T for years and it's not until just now exploring more body-expressive type therapies that things are starting to integrate, attach and become more connected to the body. Of course take what fits for you and leave what doesn't, but I wanted to share in case it could help u.
tskjolde 5 years ago
Keep making this videos. They are important. And please, consider what Ive been saying, there must be something and you have to be willing to do it.
Shivafaa 5 years ago
dont lose hope cause your to beautifal
scottty55 5 years ago
The human brain is the most complex thing known to exist in the universe. How can any of us hope to understand its functioning? I think it's best just to break mental problems into tiny pieces and work on one piece at a time. I wish you good luck with all this, Ashley!!
TJay9000 5 years ago
All these years and you haven't identified the root of your issues? =(
I'm praying for you Ashley.
You'll be ok, "normal" is overrated. ;)
WideGauge 5 years ago
i KNOW the root of my issues. i don't mean normal as in NORMAL. i mean normal as in, not horrible, unpredictable mood swings or anxiety..or intrusive thoughts..or whatever else that tortures me.
justagurl23 5 years ago
i hope you feel a bit better in a feel days, i really do.
bojay26 5 years ago
I almost cried. I wish you all the best.
bwhahrhr 5 years ago
please dont lose hope.
trulyurangel82 5 years ago
you say you won't try more talking, more meds, or more food, soooo...looks like you need to decide if you actually want anything to change or not. you think you know best, but that hasn't worked out so well for you thus far.
sick2long 5 years ago
Are you DID?
MrsRachelbyday 5 years ago
Hang in there hun... this too will pass. You have a friend in me Ashlers
blumac81 5 years ago
2nd part:dont know wat i expect from others sometimes and not from myself. You are good in analysin ur situation just as me but we are both kinda lost at times in
SoulFlava141 5 years ago
sometimes it seems like everybody is pretendin to wanna help but when u wud need somebody to reach out for u u are the one who has to reach out tho u dont have the strength and that hurts...i was the same ive never really done wat my therapist told me n i always felt bad goin there n tellin i failed in the set goal!I see myself in u sometimes not physically but like i
SoulFlava141 5 years ago