Stone Butch Blues is an excellent book. It was THE book that solidified for me what I had been going through and allowed me to come out to myself, which was huge, really. I feel very similar. not that i'm really attached to being queer - but that i don't really want to be a modern straight white guy. and that I'm sort of in the mind set that I'm born into this ugly, beautiful, crazy, amazing, wild, female, male body for a reason....
i was at the start of my (very short) physical transition when some of the feelings your talking about wouldnt go away, i thought i was just scared but Julz-JulzB525 introduced me to stone butch blues and it just made me realise i was going to be just as lost as jess was. there are changes T would give me that i crave everyday but facial hair etc isnt my thing. i do want a more masculine body but to go on T for that reason isnt enough, like you i dont think i could handle not being visibly queer
Thanks for presenting your take on your identity... I think it's really important to try and create whatever space is necessary to hold our unique selves, whatever they be, whatever that looks like... even if it is largely unaccepted within straight and/or queer circles.
you make amazing videos. I'm happy that we have woman out there like you. Your gorgeous as a lesbian, as am I. Keep faith in yourself and your beliefs. You have a lot to say and you just might be helping some people. =)
Ahh this clarifies your feelings immensely for me! I feel like I can understand your hesitance to become part of the straight white male community. I would guess being able to pass as a member of dominant male society would confer a ton of weird feelings and guilt.
Stone Butch Blues is an excellent book. It was THE book that solidified for me what I had been going through and allowed me to come out to myself, which was huge, really. I feel very similar. not that i'm really attached to being queer - but that i don't really want to be a modern straight white guy. and that I'm sort of in the mind set that I'm born into this ugly, beautiful, crazy, amazing, wild, female, male body for a reason....
brrrly 1 year ago
i was at the start of my (very short) physical transition when some of the feelings your talking about wouldnt go away, i thought i was just scared but Julz-JulzB525 introduced me to stone butch blues and it just made me realise i was going to be just as lost as jess was. there are changes T would give me that i crave everyday but facial hair etc isnt my thing. i do want a more masculine body but to go on T for that reason isnt enough, like you i dont think i could handle not being visibly queer
BlatantGenderFuck 1 year ago
Hey,
Thanks for presenting your take on your identity... I think it's really important to try and create whatever space is necessary to hold our unique selves, whatever they be, whatever that looks like... even if it is largely unaccepted within straight and/or queer circles.
XO
theocracydie 2 years ago
you make amazing videos. I'm happy that we have woman out there like you. Your gorgeous as a lesbian, as am I. Keep faith in yourself and your beliefs. You have a lot to say and you just might be helping some people. =)
alyshampeters 2 years ago
Ahh this clarifies your feelings immensely for me! I feel like I can understand your hesitance to become part of the straight white male community. I would guess being able to pass as a member of dominant male society would confer a ton of weird feelings and guilt.
Rock on Ashton.
daniellezm 2 years ago
Yeah, I don't know why I was never able to articulate this very well via LJ or any other medium.
And yeah, it would be really bizarre. I can't imagine going to Pride and being read as male and not lesbian; I think that'd be terrible.
Thanks, Danielle. :)
ashtreechill 2 years ago
Great set of vids...too bad you can't combine them...and maybe use them this week on the channel! :) You rock my young friend!
MainelyButch 2 years ago