I wish he would get on here and actually watch this vidieo. But he is such a self centered ass that he probably wouldn't get it. PREACH ON SISTA!! love ya
P.S. Baggage has to be the hardest thing to get rid of, dammit!
Hey girl - thanks for the comment. You know what a SOB he is, hope he rots in hell...... Had a great time with you all down in the great state of Texas!!!! Luv ya
wow, ANYA walking bears comments are somthing to reflect on, sorry mine aint gona be as articulate.....
bury that fucker mr wonderfull and bury him deep but not inside you, you have now reliased that there always was a handle on that COFFIN you have been in but you have now chosen to turn it and open that lid and climb out and leave that fucker to wroght
So thats were i am @ the mo, your vid explains ot perfectly how it was already but this last shock, has really made me think, did i ever know him? did he ever really luv me.I no that i am better of without an this time there is no going back, but the pain stings like a bitch..cant waite till it go,s away, as i no in time it will,Y do men have to be so evil, uncaring, unloving an un trustworthy, y do they say they care wen they just hurt us instead? anyway brill vid chick an His loss,cause u rock
Men are not evil, or women either for that matter, but they can do things out of pain and hurt and damage that we deem "evil".
There are points where love turns sour or bad or violent, and the things that once made us smile, make us cringe. We all change and we either grow together or grow apart.
At some point you became aware that "did I ever really now him". Perhaps not, there was an attraction that brought you together?
OMG, you have said a couple times on my vid ""thats exacley how you feel or felt""
Well this vid is so what i am going through at the mo, i just have to get to the bit near the end ""were i feel better an stronger"" as i no i am better of without him, but it hurts..7yrs its been an not been good, but there was always one thing amongst the lies an let downs that i still had of him that was good, an i resentley found something out an it took even that away, an it fucking hurts so much!
This reply will cover both your comments. I sympathize with you cause "been there, done that" as they say. And, yeah, in time it will go away and hopefully you will find someone who cares for who you truly are. I really wish that for you. Take care my friend.
Its a gift to find someone who will let you be who you are without wanting you to "wear someone else's clothes" to suit them.
We also have the chance to experience asking ourselves why we stuck with them for as long as we did.. what did we need to learn, and own our part of the relationship. Thats the hard bit, but then its easier to say they were at fault.
Welcome to planet earth with all its lessons.
If he made you so miserable for 28 years.. why did you stay?
Good question - for people from an abusive background, sometimes it's easier to stick with something you know rather than the unknown. Yeah, and it is a gift to meet someone who will let you be who you really are, which is where I am today. thank God...
I really appreciate your comments. They are thought-provoking and highlight many of the things we (survivors) need to ask ourselves and try to do. I think one of the hardest things to do is to realize that yes, you do deserve a better way of life, you do deserve a caring loving person, but God it is so hard to do that. It takes a lot of time, caring people to help, and belief in yourself. Take care brother.
I was married to someone that was well....anyway, why did I stay? Because it was love, it was that in all the years of searching and hoping I could not know love because my parents never taught it to me. I was seeking someone that was like them and I found that her. Why did I stay and give the support I had for those 7 years as she abused me? Even if she hadn't asked for a divorce I would be with her today. How sad that so few parents realize how everything they do will affect a child.
I wish he would get on here and actually watch this vidieo. But he is such a self centered ass that he probably wouldn't get it. PREACH ON SISTA!! love ya
P.S. Baggage has to be the hardest thing to get rid of, dammit!
cookiefeen 2 years ago
Hey girl - thanks for the comment. You know what a SOB he is, hope he rots in hell...... Had a great time with you all down in the great state of Texas!!!! Luv ya
CANYONMOON 2 years ago
wow, ANYA walking bears comments are somthing to reflect on, sorry mine aint gona be as articulate.....
bury that fucker mr wonderfull and bury him deep but not inside you, you have now reliased that there always was a handle on that COFFIN you have been in but you have now chosen to turn it and open that lid and climb out and leave that fucker to wroght
hey told you its not articulated.
x
braveharty 2 years ago
Great video CANYONMOON....You express your thoughts very well here.
*HUGS*
CREATIVERAIN 2 years ago
wow. that was an AMAZING video. full of emotion too. sometimes the simpliler the better! =D
hope your doing good,
Shadow
wolfy99955 3 years ago
Thanks chiquita - appreciate your input. I'm doing better; how about you? Take care.
CANYONMOON 3 years ago
im ultra-happy your diong better. =D
wolfy99955 3 years ago
So thats were i am @ the mo, your vid explains ot perfectly how it was already but this last shock, has really made me think, did i ever know him? did he ever really luv me.I no that i am better of without an this time there is no going back, but the pain stings like a bitch..cant waite till it go,s away, as i no in time it will,Y do men have to be so evil, uncaring, unloving an un trustworthy, y do they say they care wen they just hurt us instead? anyway brill vid chick an His loss,cause u rock
wiccaress 3 years ago
Men are not evil, or women either for that matter, but they can do things out of pain and hurt and damage that we deem "evil".
There are points where love turns sour or bad or violent, and the things that once made us smile, make us cringe. We all change and we either grow together or grow apart.
At some point you became aware that "did I ever really now him". Perhaps not, there was an attraction that brought you together?
walkingbear56 3 years ago
OMG, you have said a couple times on my vid ""thats exacley how you feel or felt""
Well this vid is so what i am going through at the mo, i just have to get to the bit near the end ""were i feel better an stronger"" as i no i am better of without him, but it hurts..7yrs its been an not been good, but there was always one thing amongst the lies an let downs that i still had of him that was good, an i resentley found something out an it took even that away, an it fucking hurts so much!
wiccaress 3 years ago
This reply will cover both your comments. I sympathize with you cause "been there, done that" as they say. And, yeah, in time it will go away and hopefully you will find someone who cares for who you truly are. I really wish that for you. Take care my friend.
CANYONMOON 3 years ago
*****
oldarizona 3 years ago
Thanks for the rating! Take care.
CANYONMOON 3 years ago
Its a gift to find someone who will let you be who you are without wanting you to "wear someone else's clothes" to suit them.
We also have the chance to experience asking ourselves why we stuck with them for as long as we did.. what did we need to learn, and own our part of the relationship. Thats the hard bit, but then its easier to say they were at fault.
Welcome to planet earth with all its lessons.
If he made you so miserable for 28 years.. why did you stay?
walkingbear56 3 years ago
Good question - for people from an abusive background, sometimes it's easier to stick with something you know rather than the unknown. Yeah, and it is a gift to meet someone who will let you be who you really are, which is where I am today. thank God...
CANYONMOON 3 years ago
There is a song by Alanis Morrissett called Princes Familiar ;-
"papa love your princess so that she will find loving princes familiar
papa cry for your princess so that she will find gentle princes familiar
papa laugh with your princess so that she will find funny princes familiar
papa respect your princess so that she will find respectful princes familiar.
How many of us are damaged by the things that our parents didn't do or did do? How many of us replay the same scenario?
walkingbear56 3 years ago
How many of us find it impossible to accept that we cannot change those things,
but we can transform them...
there is always choice, making that choice is the most difficult thing to do when we live within the nightmare.
Sometimes survival instinct kicks in and we obtain escape velocity.
Sometimes we don't and we die, either emotionally or physically.
Hardest person to say "I love you" to is ourselves.
Try it sometime in the mirror.
It's refreshing to see people open up like this.
walkingbear56 3 years ago
I really appreciate your comments. They are thought-provoking and highlight many of the things we (survivors) need to ask ourselves and try to do. I think one of the hardest things to do is to realize that yes, you do deserve a better way of life, you do deserve a caring loving person, but God it is so hard to do that. It takes a lot of time, caring people to help, and belief in yourself. Take care brother.
CANYONMOON 3 years ago
Journey well. It just gets better from here on in.
walkingbear56 3 years ago
I was married to someone that was well....anyway, why did I stay? Because it was love, it was that in all the years of searching and hoping I could not know love because my parents never taught it to me. I was seeking someone that was like them and I found that her. Why did I stay and give the support I had for those 7 years as she abused me? Even if she hadn't asked for a divorce I would be with her today. How sad that so few parents realize how everything they do will affect a child.
ACloudWalker 3 years ago
I think my reply to WalkingBear56 applies here too. I sincerely hope you are feeling a bit better these days though.......
CANYONMOON 3 years ago