wow. I don't think i can find the words to say just how amazing this video is. But i need to thank you for making something like this and helping those who struggle with your same problems you truly are a wonderful person and it's people like you who make this world a better place :)
there are not enough thankyous in the entire world for all that you do for not only me but everyone you inspire. i cried b/c this video is me...
it's me because those are my thoughts they just sound so much more concise when YOU put them together its like for the first time they make sense to me.
i have been on a "regular" diet of 1 meal a day for 2 weeks now which is a big step for me so that i feel less of a need to binge/ purge
i dont feel asinclined to purge b/c i know the exact amount..
of food im getting and its an amount i put out there in my mind as acceptable while within that amout of calories/fat/sugars/ etc. im kicking my cravings so i wont feel the need to bieng. my esophogas is already worshiping me but its going to be a long time till the thought of its gone if it ever is
but long story short youve really helped in my roed to recovery b/c ive been following your videos for a while now
so so far my system for no bienge/purge is working XD
Oh sweetie, this is such special news - especially you having your meal a day and working on b/p behaviors. It reminds me of how I need to continue to try as well, I engage too much and have a lot to work on still. Some days I am more motivated, others I am not and the day is a major bulimic blow out...Your progress is inspiring for me, I can't claim abstinence because I still addict DAILY, ocd style, but your progress gives hope. I know the battle can be won... as long as we fight. Love u
just stick with it hun. i know you can get through this you just have to keep trying. you know as well as anyone that there will be good days and bad days but its not impossible. theres not a single day that goes on that i dont atleast think about it if not walk into the bathroom and neal in front of the toilet but every time i do i just have to try to get control and stop just long enough to get a grip on myself and what i want in comparison to what bulimia wants. and thats the hardest part
that was beautiful!! i really luv all ur videos cant wait to see more of it!it helped me alot 2day it's like 1st day to stop throughing up&ur videos r really helping me.luv u hun xoxo
You are so freakin talented. I love it! I checked out your art before and poetry...LOVE IT! You are so amazing at what you do, don't give it up EVER and keep going with it.
Excellent job on the video Johnny. I love the font colors and fade-in to the pictures. I remember all your work so well. These images are quite powerful, so I think this will affect a lot of people. I'm glad you are expressing your art in a new medium. :)
And I did chug a shake in bed, I forced myself. I threw in a bunch of shit to add calories ... dates ... walnuts ... banana ... drank the entire thing and crashed
aw, why sweetie? it's about fighting back, fighting to abstain from addiction. sadness in the fact that i must deal with this? or was it the art itself?
Oh it just saddens me knowing what you have been through and are still going through, and then there are those people who say stuff like "you have such a beautiful body" and to me that's like cheering you on, like applauding the dangerous and unhealthy behavior. To me it's like you're standing naked on the edge of a cliff and there are those people who are beckoning you back to safety away from the ledge and there are those cheering you on saying "go ahead jump". I just fear for you, my friend.
Good point but read my comment above. I would like in the long run to be able to, like you, embrace a body that's naturally meant for me. I do not feel their intention was to root me on, sometimes beauty in a body is the way it's articulating itself, rather than purely it's size, you know? Like I could dance ballet right now and get the same compliment and they could mean it as the way I move my body rather than the sickening size.
and this makes me think, the other day I got an email about how lovely my "skinny arms" were and to "keep going" as far as losing weight. I was appauled and ripped them back a new one. There is nothing glamorous about this lifestyle or the detriments that go with it. Thank you for your concern sweetie, do not fear - just believe, believe in the power of logic and healing and the ability to beat addictions, of all kinds.
Thank you. I had some more health on me then, not enough but more than I do now. I hope to one day embrace my body as the size it's naturally meant to be... whatever that is?
I love your art, you have such a knack for it.. this piece was beautiful, very well done. it shows such a different side to the disease. i know your going through your cycle with the bulimic urgencies but just know your stronger then that and it is all going to be worth it in the end.. unfortunaley, no pain no gain hun! xox <3
thank you! i love to use clothing as props for my photography. if i didnt mix it up people might get sick of looking at me lol my mom got me those towels when i was in IP the first time!
hey i am so sorry but i was not able to watch the vid all the way through.. i had to stop it at :43 cuz i am dealing with stuff at the moment - but i am so glad that you put it up and i might try and watch it in the next couple of days.. HUGS to you....
stay strong i am dealing today too, not sure what happened, need to rest and think about it later though - btw. this art piece has a positive outcome, about fighting to abstain from addicting, im glad you set your boundaries and will return to it when YOU are ready, that is most important, love to you babe
Great poetic video in pics and words. Desperate pain of ED and inspiration for seizing recovery.
Outside of the bulimia and ED context, these are some hot photos. WIthin the context they are pwerful tragic.
Dykeborn 2 years ago
an hero.
EliteMuffBadger 2 years ago
WoW!
WorkOnWellness 2 years ago
wow. I don't think i can find the words to say just how amazing this video is. But i need to thank you for making something like this and helping those who struggle with your same problems you truly are a wonderful person and it's people like you who make this world a better place :)
I wish you all the best <3 xo
ximstraighttoxicx 2 years ago
there are not enough thankyous in the entire world for all that you do for not only me but everyone you inspire. i cried b/c this video is me...
it's me because those are my thoughts they just sound so much more concise when YOU put them together its like for the first time they make sense to me.
i have been on a "regular" diet of 1 meal a day for 2 weeks now which is a big step for me so that i feel less of a need to binge/ purge
i dont feel asinclined to purge b/c i know the exact amount..
betteroffdead123 2 years ago
of food im getting and its an amount i put out there in my mind as acceptable while within that amout of calories/fat/sugars/ etc. im kicking my cravings so i wont feel the need to bieng. my esophogas is already worshiping me but its going to be a long time till the thought of its gone if it ever is
but long story short youve really helped in my roed to recovery b/c ive been following your videos for a while now
so so far my system for no bienge/purge is working XD
love eternally
~lindi~
betteroffdead123 2 years ago
Oh sweetie, this is such special news - especially you having your meal a day and working on b/p behaviors. It reminds me of how I need to continue to try as well, I engage too much and have a lot to work on still. Some days I am more motivated, others I am not and the day is a major bulimic blow out...Your progress is inspiring for me, I can't claim abstinence because I still addict DAILY, ocd style, but your progress gives hope. I know the battle can be won... as long as we fight. Love u
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
just stick with it hun. i know you can get through this you just have to keep trying. you know as well as anyone that there will be good days and bad days but its not impossible. theres not a single day that goes on that i dont atleast think about it if not walk into the bathroom and neal in front of the toilet but every time i do i just have to try to get control and stop just long enough to get a grip on myself and what i want in comparison to what bulimia wants. and thats the hardest part
betteroffdead123 2 years ago
seperating yourself from something that is so much a part of you it feels like it IS you but its NOT
we can do this! we can strive off of each others posative energy and encoragement and get through this!
you can message me any time you need something and on my other channel <3 ill do anything i can to help.
<3<3<3 love you <3<3<3
~lindi~
betteroffdead123 2 years ago
Amazing work.
fluhks 2 years ago
You portray such a sense of sincerity and realism in your artwork. You have most certainly captured the moment in this collection.
syndicate45 2 years ago
I love all your art that I've seen so far, but the silence in this really makes your message that much clearer.
Isabet 3 years ago
i know this might not be the most appropriate setting for this but.. you have AMAZING legs :)
NikkiBevan 3 years ago
The fact that no music was used makes this particular piece that much more powerful.
bubblegumbead 3 years ago
this video made me cry.
lidespinkparty 3 years ago
I've seen these before--on pro ana and pro mia pages. :( Too bad the owners of those pages don't know the real meaning behind your art.
churippu 3 years ago 4
that was beautiful!! i really luv all ur videos cant wait to see more of it!it helped me alot 2day it's like 1st day to stop throughing up&ur videos r really helping me.luv u hun xoxo
sou90 3 years ago
You are so freakin talented. I love it! I checked out your art before and poetry...LOVE IT! You are so amazing at what you do, don't give it up EVER and keep going with it.
ice00coffee00air 3 years ago
This piece speaks volumes. I hope Thursday is a better day for you!
glamourizedtinkerbel 3 years ago
i love the message in the end of this : "I FIGHT TO ABSTAIN"
p.s. love the shoes. and the hello kitty rug. :)
insidethemusicbox11 3 years ago
Excellent job on the video Johnny. I love the font colors and fade-in to the pictures. I remember all your work so well. These images are quite powerful, so I think this will affect a lot of people. I'm glad you are expressing your art in a new medium. :)
peppernme 3 years ago
They do not compare to your computer talents LEMON LIME!!!!!!!!!!!! but thank you. I'm doing a lot better than last night, ouch.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
And I did chug a shake in bed, I forced myself. I threw in a bunch of shit to add calories ... dates ... walnuts ... banana ... drank the entire thing and crashed
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Sending hugs and lots of strength your way, Johnny. Make tomorrow better.
SamC74 3 years ago
I started early my dear, I made tonight better!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Hey Cherry Top.. gotta say love the shoes luv,,, Remember tomorrow is a new day.. *s*
Angitia39 3 years ago
This saddens me.
SuperSizedSexy 3 years ago
aw, why sweetie? it's about fighting back, fighting to abstain from addiction. sadness in the fact that i must deal with this? or was it the art itself?
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Oh it just saddens me knowing what you have been through and are still going through, and then there are those people who say stuff like "you have such a beautiful body" and to me that's like cheering you on, like applauding the dangerous and unhealthy behavior. To me it's like you're standing naked on the edge of a cliff and there are those people who are beckoning you back to safety away from the ledge and there are those cheering you on saying "go ahead jump". I just fear for you, my friend.
SuperSizedSexy 3 years ago
Good point but read my comment above. I would like in the long run to be able to, like you, embrace a body that's naturally meant for me. I do not feel their intention was to root me on, sometimes beauty in a body is the way it's articulating itself, rather than purely it's size, you know? Like I could dance ballet right now and get the same compliment and they could mean it as the way I move my body rather than the sickening size.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
and this makes me think, the other day I got an email about how lovely my "skinny arms" were and to "keep going" as far as losing weight. I was appauled and ripped them back a new one. There is nothing glamorous about this lifestyle or the detriments that go with it. Thank you for your concern sweetie, do not fear - just believe, believe in the power of logic and healing and the ability to beat addictions, of all kinds.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I understand sweetie, and I agree! I'm glad you wrote them back and gave them the ol' one two.
I believe in you! I know you'll beat this!
XOXO
SuperSizedSexy 3 years ago
i love your art , your body is so beautifull, i never seen something like that before.you rock
natzsoprano 3 years ago
Thank you. I had some more health on me then, not enough but more than I do now. I hope to one day embrace my body as the size it's naturally meant to be... whatever that is?
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Beautiful absolutly magnificent, it is actually really getting me through the hard time im having, so thank you for this...its beautiful and helpful.
forevermuddledme 3 years ago
Bah, you're Magical. These pics are stunning, not that I'm surprised. Hehe. ^^
XxSaraBluexX 3 years ago
Amazing...Thank you for sharing it!
ambernc 3 years ago
I love your art, you have such a knack for it.. this piece was beautiful, very well done. it shows such a different side to the disease. i know your going through your cycle with the bulimic urgencies but just know your stronger then that and it is all going to be worth it in the end.. unfortunaley, no pain no gain hun! xox <3
kaymarie888 3 years ago
i love all of your stuff^^
it's really supporting
eleanarei 3 years ago
hugs::: thanks honey!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
beautiful....love love love the hello kitty towels:) and the heels....gorgeous!
jlftrackstar 3 years ago
thank you! i love to use clothing as props for my photography. if i didnt mix it up people might get sick of looking at me lol my mom got me those towels when i was in IP the first time!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Very powerful and raw,beautiful thank you Johnny. xoxo
PringlesMinis 3 years ago
hugs, your user name makes me giggle, it is so cute. thanks love xoxo
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
once again,brilliant!
physcoticlostsoul 3 years ago
thank you, this piece really called out to me today. maybe it will help bring me strength to pick myself out of this stupid cycle going on right now.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
hey i am so sorry but i was not able to watch the vid all the way through.. i had to stop it at :43 cuz i am dealing with stuff at the moment - but i am so glad that you put it up and i might try and watch it in the next couple of days.. HUGS to you....
galaxycat3 3 years ago
stay strong i am dealing today too, not sure what happened, need to rest and think about it later though - btw. this art piece has a positive outcome, about fighting to abstain from addicting, im glad you set your boundaries and will return to it when YOU are ready, that is most important, love to you babe
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
yeah, i just want to return to 'my old self' when i was happy; & 'meeting' people like yourself does give me strength - more than you will ever know
galaxycat3 3 years ago
you will dear, what's going on for you right now?
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago