I self harm and have for many years now. im 17 and suffer from depression, anxiety, bpd, bipolar, bulimia and psychosis. I've overdoesed many times and also been on life support. i cut most days and burn as well as tablets and poisons as well as many other things. I dont believe i could describe self harm any better than you have and thankyou for posting it!!
I'm thinking about telling my parents, do anyone have any tips so that they wont freak too much? They'e really the freak-out people and they're probably gonna ground me if I tell them, so if anyone could give me some advice on how to make them not overkill.
I'm thinking about letting my boyfriend, who knows everything and supports me alot, being there when I tell them. Do you think this is a good idea?
this vid makes me wanna cry. i agree that its embarrassing to talk about and im hoping that noone i know finds this comment, (but i doubt they will) because too many of my friends know about me already. it all just came out one week. i guess almost everyone saw it when i had to scratch my arm, my scars tend to itch alot and now i just feel paranoid like everyones always looking at me when theyre not. i moved away so noone at my new place knows but im still paranoid. however im glad im not alone.
I don't know what to say, exept for... thank you so much. I have problems. In a twisted way, it's always nice to be reminded that there ARE others. Many, many others. We all need help. Again, thank you.
@jesmalu you bring up an interesting point, having autism is a risk factor. I am a cutter ( have SI'ed for years). I will soon be doing some volunteer work for autisum.org as a befriender (to try to achieve even them smallest amount of self worth). What the heck should I do if I find out the person I'm responsible for does it as well? will I be to blame? will I have to inform my manager?
ive cut myself since i was in the 4th grade. to remove the feeling from the inside.. to... the outside.. so i can show wuts hurting when it hurts ...inside... i cant handle it.. its when u see the blood ur like.. this hurts.. b/c i did it.. its bleeding thats why it hurts.. and its only worse at night. im currently going to be 22 years old... i think its safe to say.. i have a problem... none of that other shit works..
ive cut myself since i was in the 4th grade. to remove the feeling from the inside.. to... the outside.. so i can show wuts hurting when it hurts ...inside... i cant handle it.. its when u see the blood ur like.. this hurts.. b/c i did it.. its bleeding thats why it hurts.. and its only worse at night. im currently going to be 22 years old... i think its safe to say.. i have a problem... none of that other shit works..
so manny peaple did it but so manny peaple can recovery anytime im in recovery now i lost 2 teeth and some skin do to self harm but i feel good about recovery and dont worry we are all human we do stuff that we dont understand in life but there is always help each problem got a solution
I have self harmed since about 12 years old, your video is spot on, i have cut, broken bones, burnt. punched and headbutted walls. I can't stop wonder if i ever wil.
hi, im trying to get more people watching my videos, and subscribing etc, this vid really affectedme, and i wadered if anyone could check out my videos? btw, i love thesong.
I used to cut myself....I sometimes still wish I could....It really helped me...I didn't do it for attention....I faked a smile everday. No one ever saw through it. You just kinda explained my feelings. I did it to feel alive, some people do it because they feel it to be punishment. Like it's all their fault. It isn't. Remember that! You are important and no deserves to be punished for a crime they did not commit. We mostly punish ourselves though. Don't. You have no reason to.
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stop caring this world is falling apart so fuck the pain enjoy life and the little things its easy to demonize ur life stop feeling sorry 4 ur self just keep wanting more
Any1 thinking of sarting to self harm dont do it. Because I understand the way you feel. Please tell an adult about this because I have seen to many people go through its horrible effects.
1:12 How would SI Help someone Take controll of an uncontroll of a uncontrollable situation. That makes no sence at all, If you just feel even worse when you see whats left afterwards your dun with yourself.
the importance of a good shrink with u is massive,even tho they may seem like enemies who will tell ur parents everything.some will,some won't.its up for US to find who's honest. SI may help,but as you said, BE SAFE. dont go deep in this idea. dont try suicide. it might not work, you might have serious consequences,like me.now,if i could go back i would've learned all i know bfore doing SI. u can b depressed and SI. after doing it u WILL be even worse at some point as time go by.
I used to "scratch "my leg when I was younger, I did it for a long time, then on halloween when was trying on my custom she saw my leg and she freaked, I havent done it for 3 or 4 years now ,and I got help so Im doing better
i do it nd i like it. there is nothing wrong with it, ppl r just 2 pu**y 2 take the truth that cuttin is a good thing. that stuff can't replace it nd ppl need 2 stop trying 2 find things 2 replace it,, b/c nothing beats seeing you'r blood flow.
Wow this video is amazing its everything i want to tell people like my mum and the stupid fxcking counciller and it explains the ways to deal with it. its brilliant. thanks for the help info i'm gonna try the red marker thing i already tried the ice cubes (i got bored) and the rubber band (just didn't work)
when something triggers, something reminds you of another thing & upsets you. so my video may trigger someone to think of something else that reminds them. like if i watched the video, i can say i got triggered by a picture, ...omg its tough to explain..
@woahXgirl94 for people who are addicted to cutting, seeing pictures or hearing about cutting can either greatly upset them and cause them to shut down, or make them WANT to cut just because of the pictures. i can look at pictures and hear about it now without wanting to, but when i first got addicted to it at 11(started at 10) if i saw a picture of someones cutting or heard something about si, it made me want to.
@woahXgirl94 something reminds you of something negative. eg. someone watches this, something makes them remember a time that they cut of a time they were depressed or something bad that happened, and it makes them rly upset. that could in turn make somebody si.
i just got done haveing a fight with my parents. i used to feel warm and clean when i would get home but now i feel like i have to hide. ive been crying everynight sence the beginning of high school. i feel like im losing my friends... i was an a student now im a c to b student. i feel like im losing everything. this rollercoaster wont stop. i dont know what else to do........
really like ur vid, i'm 28 and i cut but i dont want help, i might talk to someone one day but all my friends left me behind, its my only way to feel alive instead of numb
hey, this is a pretty good video...but just to let you know, The rubber band things works for a while, but then it gets really old, it it leaves really mad makes when its done hard enough
thank you ...... i really wish to meet someone like me .... see, cauz i dont really have a reason to SI, but i cant stop ...... !! :'( ...... but this video helps.
Thank you for making this video. At 1:25 there's an image of a word cut into skin... Knowing I'm not alone in that...knowing I'm not the only person to struggle with this makes a difference.
i cut...and this video explains why. people at school say ''shes doing it coz she thinks shes cool'' but i feel so lifeless inside and numb...and it just hurts even more when they say these thangs..and now i cant stop cutting
Numb as in no emotions?? If so me too O_o I'm not depressed any more, but after the meds, that made me have no emotions is even worse -_- So I cut, and even better for me, bang me head against things trill I'm dizzy and feel at ease... hard to explaine...
You're outstandingly brave and beautiful. TY for sharing your videos w/ us. Some people are immature online & like to hate on other people's videos. Don't take their comments seriously. U R above that.
I think you're beautiful & resilient. I don't know what trauma happened 2 you or who did it, but the fact that you're here, now, is proof that good can overcome bad.
Anyone who hurts a child or an animal is ill to say the least. I admire u so much!
I self harm but not that bad i feel i don't do enough of it when I see self harm and depression i feel i want to be more like that i do it for attention but then i keep it s secret. I have mild scitsofrinia but they don't say to do it. ive ony told to people and one just looked sakred and carried on as normal the other asked why and just ignored it but i really wanted to talk but i don't waht to push them.
I remember when I used to SI. I've been clean for a month. It hurts when your family finds out and their reaction is to accuse you of being crazy. Just thinking about it makes me ache. They never once tried to help me, they always pushed me away. And when I finally told them why I did what I did, they wouldn't believe me. They said I made it all up. That's probably what hurt the most. Cutting was my way of balancing out the pain. I thought I'd feel better if I felt the same on the outside. Eh..
ummm, not to be an ass, but i thought this had to do with how to swallow razor blades without destroying my esophagus, cause it was in the related videos menu to a magic trick vid, and i thought this was some safety precaution thing, the whole "self injury awareness" but yea, i was wayyyyyy off target on what i was looking for. sorry
Wishing you didnt have the feelings is right for everyone, No one that feels this way wants the feelings, most of the time the only thing we want is love, someone that accepts and wont judge us, someone that will just come into our life and stop everything wrong, make it all right, Cuttings not really a bad thing just not safe. be carfull, be curtiouse to others, just remember, thers ALWAYS someone to talk to =) if anyone wants to talk you can message me- Jeremy
People who want to cut themselves are trying to release deep rooted pain inside themselves. I remember I wanted to cut myself when i was in 5th grade. I picked up a razor blade and then put it up to my skin and then hid the blade from myself. THE NEXT DAY I was in the basement and saw the t.v. on.....there was someone talking on one of the first talkshows with 3 guests who cut themselves. I listened to them and didn't feel alone. I never looked for that blade again...for them.
i feel the same ... all those words describe what is going on inside me every second minute hour . i wish i did not have the feelings... they just wont go away
well this is my tune. and i dont cut but know the dangling and finger tips on the edge turning blue just hanging on and not realy knowing if i am going to make it , one tear down my face, dripping off the edge of my cheek , falling and letting go ... freedom?? ... peace... end of pain ?..... no more hurt? ..... not afraid to die... want to live ... but so so overwhelmed to the point of just letting go of the whole vicious cycle of pain and destruction, not mattering to any one or thing,= Me...
there is no help i self harm well i used to less than a month ago and it everyday i feel like it will happen again everyday i feel more and more alone there is no help what if my family is not supportive wat if they are part of the reason for my self harm and all where is the support everyone talks about cuz i dont see it
My family is also like that, and I used to feel iccolated and alone to, things change dont worry, I cantsay im better now cuz my gf just left me but things will work themselves out, and no ones going to help you unless you reach our your hand for it =) im here to talk to if you want
omg lol most ov ths stuff spesh the part were its on bout the rubber band n ice wow i got told off the hospital i used to do it n sumtimes i feel like doin over n over agen but i tell my self tht my family love me n tht they wunt like me to die - so i bare with it and things always turn out the best when u dont do it n u dnt feel like u HAVE to do it thank you if u hav read this x x x Rachael - aged [[ 14 ]] x x x
I self-harmed once, but I don't understand why, I guess I wanted to see how brave I could be, now I try to hide the cuts but at the same time I want someone to know or someone I can show them to. When I look at the cuts on my legs, I am very scared and it disgusts me...I just don't understand
A great vid, describes everything perfectly, and although the reasons are different it is totally all about expression. SI can last a lifetime, but with the right support system it
The answer is Jesus! I know He will set you free. I myself feel love for you but none can love like He does. Ask Him and He will free you from this devil of self injury in the name of JESUS CHRIST!
wow this is the first vid ive seen that doesnt say stuff like if u know som1 hu SI's tell their parents or stuff..thnx 4 puttin it up, its helped me a lil
Omg i cried during this. May i ask a question? Ok here it is, if you have anxiety when your kid, does this mean you will be trying to hurt yourself when you get older? Like it gets worse each year you get older? Please tell me! I need to know so bad!
great video i have self injured since i was 11 as well. I've tried markers and ice and such when i was much younger. but this is great advice! and informative! great job for saying triggering! thats important. ppl need to know that. anyway thanks for sharing. =)
cutting isn't as much painful as you think. during cutting there are endorphines, which are hormones that makes the pain feeling like you snipped you finger a lil bit at wood. endorphines makes you feel better.
thats the reason why cutting ,helps" for some minutes.
It must be painful and That would reason enough not to cut oneself in my opinion.
So you say they do this to feel something because they don't feel much they just feel 'numb'. so does that mean when you cut yourself you aren't sad? because you're numb so I think that means you aren't really feeling much emotion or am I very wrong about what feeling numb means?
Hi, I've just watched this and some of your other videos about SI. Well done for being so honest. I wondered - do you have DID as well as BPD? I hope today is a good one for you..
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If you do this you needa go kill urself.Only a retarded meaning less noncontrolable person would do that.Deal with stuff like every1 else. life sucks and it goes on quit being lil bitches.Suck it up.Crybaby bastards.Ur not special so jus deal with life like any1.ur jus lookin for a way out.basicAlly QUITERS
You're a fucking bastard, my dad DID kill himself from this kind of stuff and here you are saying all this shit about self-harmer's, why don't you go fuck yourself!
You're a fucking bastard, my dad DID kill himself from this kind of stuff and here you are saying all this shit about self-harmer's, why don't you go fuck yourself!
I'm sorry I haven't watched this before, this was very very good, very real, I appreciate your honesty and openness. I hope your information can help parents and those who live with this.
I self harm and have for many years now. im 17 and suffer from depression, anxiety, bpd, bipolar, bulimia and psychosis. I've overdoesed many times and also been on life support. i cut most days and burn as well as tablets and poisons as well as many other things. I dont believe i could describe self harm any better than you have and thankyou for posting it!!
94clon 2 weeks ago
true! ive cut, and btw this song was in Cyberbu//y
facethemusic1344 1 month ago
i just tried to tell my mom. she completely ignored it. fuck my life
supersoccerstar08 6 months ago
THE SONG IS "SIA- BREATHE ME"
ToxiicTearsxx 7 months ago
I love this vid.
I self-harm, badly, and I want to stop.
I'm thinking about telling my parents, do anyone have any tips so that they wont freak too much? They'e really the freak-out people and they're probably gonna ground me if I tell them, so if anyone could give me some advice on how to make them not overkill.
I'm thinking about letting my boyfriend, who knows everything and supports me alot, being there when I tell them. Do you think this is a good idea?
Please, help me with this!
Ms61314 7 months ago
this vid makes me wanna cry. i agree that its embarrassing to talk about and im hoping that noone i know finds this comment, (but i doubt they will) because too many of my friends know about me already. it all just came out one week. i guess almost everyone saw it when i had to scratch my arm, my scars tend to itch alot and now i just feel paranoid like everyones always looking at me when theyre not. i moved away so noone at my new place knows but im still paranoid. however im glad im not alone.
qwentonomore 11 months ago
I don't know what to say, exept for... thank you so much. I have problems. In a twisted way, it's always nice to be reminded that there ARE others. Many, many others. We all need help. Again, thank you.
tacolabeanz 1 year ago
I cut myself a little, but only when im really upset so ive got it under control. Some people do it way too often
DurintheDeathless91 1 year ago
@jesmalu you bring up an interesting point, having autism is a risk factor. I am a cutter ( have SI'ed for years). I will soon be doing some volunteer work for autisum.org as a befriender (to try to achieve even them smallest amount of self worth). What the heck should I do if I find out the person I'm responsible for does it as well? will I be to blame? will I have to inform my manager?
thegigm 1 year ago
the name of the song is (breath me).............
mindfreak247100 1 year ago
Thank You So Much <3
SW33T1206 1 year ago
ive cut myself since i was in the 4th grade. to remove the feeling from the inside.. to... the outside.. so i can show wuts hurting when it hurts ...inside... i cant handle it.. its when u see the blood ur like.. this hurts.. b/c i did it.. its bleeding thats why it hurts.. and its only worse at night. im currently going to be 22 years old... i think its safe to say.. i have a problem... none of that other shit works..
AnasgayforNina 1 year ago
ive cut myself since i was in the 4th grade. to remove the feeling from the inside.. to... the outside.. so i can show wuts hurting when it hurts ...inside... i cant handle it.. its when u see the blood ur like.. this hurts.. b/c i did it.. its bleeding thats why it hurts.. and its only worse at night. im currently going to be 22 years old... i think its safe to say.. i have a problem... none of that other shit works..
AnasgayforNina 1 year ago
I think some of you may like my video as well? Idk...watch it if u feel like it
MrDarkseer24 1 year ago
Great video <3
LAURADANIELA123 1 year ago
so manny peaple did it but so manny peaple can recovery anytime im in recovery now i lost 2 teeth and some skin do to self harm but i feel good about recovery and dont worry we are all human we do stuff that we dont understand in life but there is always help each problem got a solution
dumbtrooper 1 year ago
Thank U SOOOO Much!!!
MegRocks88 1 year ago
self injury consumes your life. it consumed mine.
iamamango1972 1 year ago
I have self harmed since about 12 years old, your video is spot on, i have cut, broken bones, burnt. punched and headbutted walls. I can't stop wonder if i ever wil.
pickett1981 1 year ago
i want to stop so bad :(
hiyaimjereme 1 year ago
I cut my self but i do it so i dont have to concentrate on the emotional pain involved with life
beckylfc3 1 year ago
hi, im trying to get more people watching my videos, and subscribing etc, this vid really affectedme, and i wadered if anyone could check out my videos? btw, i love thesong.
UniqueRkw 1 year ago
I used to cut myself....I sometimes still wish I could....It really helped me...I didn't do it for attention....I faked a smile everday. No one ever saw through it. You just kinda explained my feelings. I did it to feel alive, some people do it because they feel it to be punishment. Like it's all their fault. It isn't. Remember that! You are important and no deserves to be punished for a crime they did not commit. We mostly punish ourselves though. Don't. You have no reason to.
torisangel101 2 years ago 2
what does SI mean?
Brittney1096 2 years ago
it was suppose to be since it was spelt si'n or if she used it a different way it might have ment self injure lol
emogirl4532 2 years ago
We all need help, support, love!
Alora666 2 years ago 11
It gives me something to think and learn from, which is always a good thing.
montoyavincent313 2 years ago
I use to cut myself before for unknown reasons but now as I watch these videos.I
now kinda know why it's hard to trust and get close to people. vm
montoyavincent313 2 years ago
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stop caring this world is falling apart so fuck the pain enjoy life and the little things its easy to demonize ur life stop feeling sorry 4 ur self just keep wanting more
Americanrevo1 2 years ago
Any1 thinking of sarting to self harm dont do it. Because I understand the way you feel. Please tell an adult about this because I have seen to many people go through its horrible effects.
candyabac 2 years ago 2
3:32 works and theres no mark afterwards like 10 min after
cooljoeh13 2 years ago
1:12 How would SI Help someone Take controll of an uncontroll of a uncontrollable situation. That makes no sence at all, If you just feel even worse when you see whats left afterwards your dun with yourself.
Ashenfly 2 years ago
A lot of people feel all of their emotional pain leave them when they SI. Instead of talking, they SI.
IamAnneMarie 2 years ago
:'( this is deep
Slipknot44579 2 years ago 2
the importance of a good shrink with u is massive,even tho they may seem like enemies who will tell ur parents everything.some will,some won't.its up for US to find who's honest. SI may help,but as you said, BE SAFE. dont go deep in this idea. dont try suicide. it might not work, you might have serious consequences,like me.now,if i could go back i would've learned all i know bfore doing SI. u can b depressed and SI. after doing it u WILL be even worse at some point as time go by.
b safe jesmalu
littlevixxen 2 years ago
i made a video of my scars
RoseLoveMeOrHateMe 2 years ago
I have one main reason why i SI-- BEEN BULLIED ALL MY LIFE BASICLY!
blackmor3Princess 2 years ago 8
same with me although i don't SI/SH
kiedog250 2 years ago
I used to "scratch "my leg when I was younger, I did it for a long time, then on halloween when was trying on my custom she saw my leg and she freaked, I havent done it for 3 or 4 years now ,and I got help so Im doing better
korikuulei 2 years ago
song is Breathe Me by Sia. one of my favourites
hamippo 2 years ago
I've cut me self , a friend linked this video and i personally think its really strong ... God ...
Name of the song is ?
Thanks For UL ^^,
dropdeadkim 2 years ago
thank you for taking time to watch!
jesmalu 2 years ago
i do it nd i like it. there is nothing wrong with it, ppl r just 2 pu**y 2 take the truth that cuttin is a good thing. that stuff can't replace it nd ppl need 2 stop trying 2 find things 2 replace it,, b/c nothing beats seeing you'r blood flow.
yippiebaby 2 years ago
@dropdeadkim it's breath me by sia
Innergoth333 1 year ago
@dropdeadkim Breathe Me-Sia
AbercrombieGirl2011 1 year ago
@dropdeadkim Breathe Me- Sia
Rowdiumx 1 year ago
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nina17ross 2 years ago
thnks 4 the triks but doesnt help at all 2 numb i guess
complicated040 2 years ago
im really embarassed to say tht i self harm
Channingfan151 2 years ago
Wow this video is amazing its everything i want to tell people like my mum and the stupid fxcking counciller and it explains the ways to deal with it. its brilliant. thanks for the help info i'm gonna try the red marker thing i already tried the ice cubes (i got bored) and the rubber band (just didn't work)
x
duckslikepoo 2 years ago
yh ive tried stuff lyk tht aswell, it rly jst dnt wrk the sme as cuttin does
LifeOrDeathx 2 years ago
i cut and cut and cut. til theres pain. and that is not even enoughe
Sk8BoarderPremo 3 years ago
I have seen many videos of this, but this is just exceeding it all....
I tried the marker though, and it did not really help me....
gothicallysuicidal 3 years ago
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If you are a self cutter please contact me
I helped few good friends and I may be able to help you too
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katdanmo2 3 years ago
this video is excellent, thanks x
LucyShugz 3 years ago
what song is in this video??
RasuLOVEeLiNaonly 3 years ago
Britney Spears - breathe me
gothicallysuicidal 3 years ago
The songs is not by britny spears. its
Song: Breathe-Sia
pinkmonkeysrock11101 2 years ago
breathe-sia (itt`s on her `clolour the small one` album)
666lam666 2 years ago
wat do you mean by trigger?
woahXgirl94 3 years ago
when something triggers, something reminds you of another thing & upsets you. so my video may trigger someone to think of something else that reminds them. like if i watched the video, i can say i got triggered by a picture, ...omg its tough to explain..
jesmalu 3 years ago
@woahXgirl94 for people who are addicted to cutting, seeing pictures or hearing about cutting can either greatly upset them and cause them to shut down, or make them WANT to cut just because of the pictures. i can look at pictures and hear about it now without wanting to, but when i first got addicted to it at 11(started at 10) if i saw a picture of someones cutting or heard something about si, it made me want to.
LuvstepLover 8 months ago
@woahXgirl94 something reminds you of something negative. eg. someone watches this, something makes them remember a time that they cut of a time they were depressed or something bad that happened, and it makes them rly upset. that could in turn make somebody si.
lolipopz564 6 months ago
am i becoming depressed?.......
hatdam 3 years ago
ryc: i dont know. maybe see a doctor to find out?
jesmalu 3 years ago
i just got done haveing a fight with my parents. i used to feel warm and clean when i would get home but now i feel like i have to hide. ive been crying everynight sence the beginning of high school. i feel like im losing my friends... i was an a student now im a c to b student. i feel like im losing everything. this rollercoaster wont stop. i dont know what else to do........
hatdam 3 years ago
but girls who cut themselves is a turn on for me
nikoliberty13 3 years ago
Why is that a turn on?
Being one of those people sucks sooo much.
whateverlife232 3 years ago
really like ur vid, i'm 28 and i cut but i dont want help, i might talk to someone one day but all my friends left me behind, its my only way to feel alive instead of numb
itsthemar 3 years ago
I passed this video to few of my friends. And this makes me so sad. Ah
Daekoni 3 years ago
Hey great videa x what song is this?
ireriin 3 years ago
it's in the info.... "breathe me, by sia"
maya9312 3 years ago
There was me thinking that all we all really need is love. And with children, the worse the self-harm, the bigger the PERCEIVED love-deficit.
For 'love' read 'attention'. (And for attention read love).
With adult self-harm, the child's habits are ingrained, sadly. But it's really the same thing.
If you care, always be on the lookout for attention seekers. They really need attention!
And you know that's true because we all do.
ludocrat 3 years ago
I belong to recoveryourlife and try to promote the site where and when I can.
Just wanted to say a quick thanks for taking the time to make this vid.
tifctaylor 3 years ago
hey, this is a pretty good video...but just to let you know, The rubber band things works for a while, but then it gets really old, it it leaves really mad makes when its done hard enough
CrAzYpUnK962 3 years ago
i know how you feel.
but are you getting advice or help?
coz ive been talking to my school nurse about it. and shes helping me. but it is really hard.
kazawoka 3 years ago
thank you ...... i really wish to meet someone like me .... see, cauz i dont really have a reason to SI, but i cant stop ...... !! :'( ...... but this video helps.
cecihc 3 years ago
Thank you for making this video. At 1:25 there's an image of a word cut into skin... Knowing I'm not alone in that...knowing I'm not the only person to struggle with this makes a difference.
katagillian 3 years ago
i have so many scars...
and if it wasnt for a friend i wouldnt be here.
unfortunately it will take more than a video to help me, but this is a very good thing for the ones who find better ways to deal
zephon13 3 years ago
ever tried DBT?
jesmalu 3 years ago
i feel numb icut
a7x4life1234599 3 years ago
i cut...and this video explains why. people at school say ''shes doing it coz she thinks shes cool'' but i feel so lifeless inside and numb...and it just hurts even more when they say these thangs..and now i cant stop cutting
ILovetomKaulitz12 3 years ago
Numb as in no emotions?? If so me too O_o I'm not depressed any more, but after the meds, that made me have no emotions is even worse -_- So I cut, and even better for me, bang me head against things trill I'm dizzy and feel at ease... hard to explaine...
KimIsMissing 3 years ago
no numb as in horrible...sad like i cant ''feel'' yer and i understand
ILovetomKaulitz12 3 years ago
Oh I thought it was being emotionless. I hate this emotionless numb state, I would rather be sad again, just to feel again.
KimIsMissing 3 years ago
i do understand, just try & keep safe & try DBT if you haven't heard of it.
jesmalu 3 years ago
very well done video, thanks!
12cookie24 3 years ago
You're outstandingly brave and beautiful. TY for sharing your videos w/ us. Some people are immature online & like to hate on other people's videos. Don't take their comments seriously. U R above that.
I think you're beautiful & resilient. I don't know what trauma happened 2 you or who did it, but the fact that you're here, now, is proof that good can overcome bad.
Anyone who hurts a child or an animal is ill to say the least. I admire u so much!
Have a good day & stay strong.
Linds
Rh1no1 3 years ago
I self harm but not that bad i feel i don't do enough of it when I see self harm and depression i feel i want to be more like that i do it for attention but then i keep it s secret. I have mild scitsofrinia but they don't say to do it. ive ony told to people and one just looked sakred and carried on as normal the other asked why and just ignored it but i really wanted to talk but i don't waht to push them.
XJackSkeletonRulesX 3 years ago
great video
slimgirl9 3 years ago
thanks!
jesmalu 3 years ago
thnx for the tps ... i likes the ice one.
cecihc 3 years ago
does it work for you?
jesmalu 3 years ago
2:28 i sccoool
cecihc 3 years ago
I remember when I used to SI. I've been clean for a month. It hurts when your family finds out and their reaction is to accuse you of being crazy. Just thinking about it makes me ache. They never once tried to help me, they always pushed me away. And when I finally told them why I did what I did, they wouldn't believe me. They said I made it all up. That's probably what hurt the most. Cutting was my way of balancing out the pain. I thought I'd feel better if I felt the same on the outside. Eh..
whateverbioch 3 years ago
I hear the pain as a past cutter can (15 years).
I will be in DBT training soon for my job as a certified peer support specilist and am scared I will give in to impulces of old copeing habets.
need to cry soon and decompress...
piececore 3 years ago
ummm, not to be an ass, but i thought this had to do with how to swallow razor blades without destroying my esophagus, cause it was in the related videos menu to a magic trick vid, and i thought this was some safety precaution thing, the whole "self injury awareness" but yea, i was wayyyyyy off target on what i was looking for. sorry
t3hXroJo 3 years ago
Wishing you didnt have the feelings is right for everyone, No one that feels this way wants the feelings, most of the time the only thing we want is love, someone that accepts and wont judge us, someone that will just come into our life and stop everything wrong, make it all right, Cuttings not really a bad thing just not safe. be carfull, be curtiouse to others, just remember, thers ALWAYS someone to talk to =) if anyone wants to talk you can message me- Jeremy
7533455 3 years ago
People who want to cut themselves are trying to release deep rooted pain inside themselves. I remember I wanted to cut myself when i was in 5th grade. I picked up a razor blade and then put it up to my skin and then hid the blade from myself. THE NEXT DAY I was in the basement and saw the t.v. on.....there was someone talking on one of the first talkshows with 3 guests who cut themselves. I listened to them and didn't feel alone. I never looked for that blade again...for them.
giraffepoo 3 years ago
What is this song.
XxwondersxX 3 years ago
Breathe Me by SIA :)
sillyslicker1 3 years ago
i feel the same ... all those words describe what is going on inside me every second minute hour . i wish i did not have the feelings... they just wont go away
MyPinkRainbow 3 years ago
great video by the way, ifeel you trust me
MyPinkRainbow 3 years ago
well this is my tune. and i dont cut but know the dangling and finger tips on the edge turning blue just hanging on and not realy knowing if i am going to make it , one tear down my face, dripping off the edge of my cheek , falling and letting go ... freedom?? ... peace... end of pain ?..... no more hurt? ..... not afraid to die... want to live ... but so so overwhelmed to the point of just letting go of the whole vicious cycle of pain and destruction, not mattering to any one or thing,= Me...
MyPinkRainbow 3 years ago
*hugs* i can understand. hang in there
jesmalu 3 years ago
i almost fainted because of cutting.. did that ever happen to you?
lunachi007 3 years ago
no, u cuttin too deep or losing too much blood? be careful
jesmalu 3 years ago
I'm wishing everybody a harm-free day one day a week.
iraqidolphin 3 years ago
this is a beautiful and powerful video jessie. thank you.
ask123321 3 years ago
teh one was goood with the rubberbant. and ice too! i felt loverd when i vatched the video
xxtodarkxx 3 years ago
great vid.
AxGingerFish 3 years ago
have u got any advice like to stop doin it...coz i really want to but im like strugglin..so if u can plz help x
xxizzy2oo8xx 3 years ago
im hoping you are able to keep yourself safe
jesmalu 3 years ago
powerful way to get the message across. thanks.
viomeow 3 years ago
thanks for watching
jesmalu 3 years ago
musiclova019 3 years ago
there are support groups online for people who need the extra support. check it out. you'd find a lot of people who undestand.
jesmalu 3 years ago
My family is also like that, and I used to feel iccolated and alone to, things change dont worry, I cantsay im better now cuz my gf just left me but things will work themselves out, and no ones going to help you unless you reach our your hand for it =) im here to talk to if you want
7533455 3 years ago
omg lol most ov ths stuff spesh the part were its on bout the rubber band n ice wow i got told off the hospital i used to do it n sumtimes i feel like doin over n over agen but i tell my self tht my family love me n tht they wunt like me to die - so i bare with it and things always turn out the best when u dont do it n u dnt feel like u HAVE to do it thank you if u hav read this x x x Rachael - aged [[ 14 ]] x x x
Rackle1234 3 years ago
that helps me sometimes with the rubber band
jesmalu 3 years ago
this is a really good video....there aint no stereotype or nuffin there shud be way more or this stuff its rad
xxizzy2oo8xx 3 years ago 2
thanks
jesmalu 3 years ago
I self-harmed once, but I don't understand why, I guess I wanted to see how brave I could be, now I try to hide the cuts but at the same time I want someone to know or someone I can show them to. When I look at the cuts on my legs, I am very scared and it disgusts me...I just don't understand
Waterlou25 3 years ago 2
common. glad you dont do it anymore.
jesmalu 3 years ago
i self harm you are not alone
jacobjay09 3 years ago 2
hugs
jesmalu 3 years ago
A great vid, describes everything perfectly, and although the reasons are different it is totally all about expression. SI can last a lifetime, but with the right support system it
can be dealt with and perhaps overcome.
Thanks for sharing this.
PoeticLioness 3 years ago
yea
jesmalu 3 years ago
This video is really great. I hope that it helps to bring more awareness to the pain that you and I and many others share.
zoegirl2006 3 years ago
thanks for watching
jesmalu 3 years ago
it's very real and this video is excelent for understanding thie state os mind
t4ldu 3 years ago 2
thanks
jesmalu 3 years ago
The answer is Jesus! I know He will set you free. I myself feel love for you but none can love like He does. Ask Him and He will free you from this devil of self injury in the name of JESUS CHRIST!
faxchase 3 years ago
That is so terrible.
I hope and pray you find peace enough
within yourself to forgive yourself and others.
If people truly loved one another there would be no reason to SI.
Maybe one day the world will grow up.
tomken8dy 3 years ago 3
wow this is the first vid ive seen that doesnt say stuff like if u know som1 hu SI's tell their parents or stuff..thnx 4 puttin it up, its helped me a lil
iHATEburberry 3 years ago
awesome video, i've cried watching this
i do some of those things
sjastie 3 years ago
who dose this song???????
aire420 3 years ago
its on the side bar & at the end of the video
jesmalu 3 years ago
Omg i cried during this. May i ask a question? Ok here it is, if you have anxiety when your kid, does this mean you will be trying to hurt yourself when you get older? Like it gets worse each year you get older? Please tell me! I need to know so bad!
Lawsonluvswebkinz999 3 years ago
is drinking a form of si?
batmann57 3 years ago
yes
jesmalu 3 years ago
yes. in extreme cases. IE: you drink til you pass out repeatedly to cope with life.
unsweeteneddoll 3 years ago
*nods*
jesmalu 3 years ago
Jesus helps me to not self injure, maybe He could help you too:)
germantonsy 3 years ago
great video i have self injured since i was 11 as well. I've tried markers and ice and such when i was much younger. but this is great advice! and informative! great job for saying triggering! thats important. ppl need to know that. anyway thanks for sharing. =)
ImUrFadingMemory 3 years ago
cutting isn't as much painful as you think. during cutting there are endorphines, which are hormones that makes the pain feeling like you snipped you finger a lil bit at wood. endorphines makes you feel better.
thats the reason why cutting ,helps" for some minutes.
Scaryelle 4 years ago
yeah,..
jesmalu 4 years ago
It must be painful and That would reason enough not to cut oneself in my opinion.
So you say they do this to feel something because they don't feel much they just feel 'numb'. so does that mean when you cut yourself you aren't sad? because you're numb so I think that means you aren't really feeling much emotion or am I very wrong about what feeling numb means?
HermionesTheBest 4 years ago
when im numb,i want to feel, therefore i end up hurting myself. worse in fact.
jesmalu 4 years ago
Hi, I've just watched this and some of your other videos about SI. Well done for being so honest. I wondered - do you have DID as well as BPD? I hope today is a good one for you..
misstiggykins 4 years ago
yes, was diagnosed with DID /PTSD & borderline.
jesmalu 4 years ago
You explain SI and its link to dissociation very well. Your videos will help many to understand SI, I'm sure.
misstiggykins 4 years ago
yea...thats what i was tryin to do & still want to. thanks for watching.
jesmalu 4 years ago
In 10 words explain this vid, this feeling? lol
skullboi01 4 years ago
eh?
jesmalu 4 years ago
I can't finish watching it to much,the singer sounds like you don't you think?.
Aloverssoul 4 years ago
nope, not me ;)
jesmalu 4 years ago
Love the vid..
skullboi01 4 years ago
thanks
jesmalu 4 years ago
cool vid
but i feel bad for ppl that do that
and its also hard to understand too
cuz how can anyone just cut them selfs
it hurts so much!!
dpaga1 4 years ago
The ppl do that do understand, have many reason for doing it. For ppl that don't understand usualy say to them you idiot..
But seriously calling someone an idiot cus they are inflecting pain on themself doesnt help. Just makes things worse..
But I like your comment.
skullboi01 4 years ago
i agree
jesmalu 4 years ago
This comment has received too many negative votes show
If you do this you needa go kill urself.Only a retarded meaning less noncontrolable person would do that.Deal with stuff like every1 else. life sucks and it goes on quit being lil bitches.Suck it up.Crybaby bastards.Ur not special so jus deal with life like any1.ur jus lookin for a way out.basicAlly QUITERS
Almostsk8ter4 4 years ago
thanks, im not offended nor bothered by this. your the idiot for bothering to watch it in the first place. you dumb fuck!
jesmalu 4 years ago
You're a fucking bastard, my dad DID kill himself from this kind of stuff and here you are saying all this shit about self-harmer's, why don't you go fuck yourself!
People like you make me sick!
BansheeChild 4 years ago
You're a fucking bastard, my dad DID kill himself from this kind of stuff and here you are saying all this shit about self-harmer's, why don't you go fuck yourself!
People like you make me sick!
BansheeChild 4 years ago
yep...
jesmalu 4 years ago
Wasn't saying it to you. Was saying it to the Almostskater4 person.
I think you do great videos.
BansheeChild 4 years ago
o i knew that =) was agree with you.
jesmalu 4 years ago
Why are you watching the vid If u feel the way you do??
You can't realy stumble onto a vid like this either.. lol
skullboi01 4 years ago
Love the music you picked.
isaglow 4 years ago 2
I'm sorry I haven't watched this before, this was very very good, very real, I appreciate your honesty and openness. I hope your information can help parents and those who live with this.
mythreeguys 4 years ago
This has been flagged as spam show
hurry up and kill yourself
hunglikeant2 4 years ago