yes i remember those stingy showers. i didnt have schizophrenia, i had MDD. i slit my forearms (not just wrists) and swallowed pills to overdose. i felt an enormous relief when i did that. a local psychiatrist gave me a medication called Haloperidol. i don't how it affects other patients, but i felt extremely agitated, restless. i couldn't stand or sit, only crawl up like a ball in bed. i can't even explain the feeling. it's like you got ants running on the inside of your skin.
You are amazing! Such an inspiration and I hope all is well with you, and those last minutes i just broke down. That is so true, you are not your mental illness.You are still YOU. <3 much love!!!!
thing new, may not know what ur experiencing at every moment but i do know what it is to live with someone with schizphrenia and ive talked to others with it,i realise it is a yo-yo affect but what types of therapy r u receiving?
god, this is scary, i ahve to move things in symetrical order as well i personally thought it was either ocd or bi polar because i have sporadic changes in my energy levels, extreme polar opposites of moods from depression, less suicidal ideologies nowadays if any at all, but i am going to school for social work and also have an older brother with paranoid schizophrenia, going to school has kind of turned me into a hypchondriac cuz i almost want to self diagnose myself every week with somethi
Amazing! It is awesome that you are speaking out like this. My situation was somewhat similar. I wasn't diagnosed with BPD until I was already in my 20's even though I have felt I was living with symptoms most of my life. I also just told the doctors I was depressed because I was too embarrassed to talk about the other stuff I was going through. I never heard anyone else talk about that kind of thing before so I thought I was the only one! That is why I talk about it now.
Hi.. I have watched most of your uploads now and i can honestly say that I think you are an utter legend.. I have never or have never known anyone who have suffered with schizophrenia and although i suffered with depression quite badly when i came out i have no right in telling you that i know what your going through or how your feeling as i dont.. What i do know is that i have the upmost admiration for you and you have probably helped more people on here than u know or can imagine.Legend.!!
I have always been very open about depressive thoughts, and have found that very few people actually respond well to it, given the stigma and all. I really appreciate you telling us about your experience. Though I may not have the same condition as you and may draw some other conclusions, this helps people realize the humanity of our situation.
Thanks so much for this video....I am using it for my undergraduate psychology class. Very good example of living with a mental illness. Best of luck to youl
Thank you for posting this. I was raised by my mother, who took care of my schizophrenic grandmother since I was 5 years old until she passed away when I was 17. I was diagnosed with Schizotypal personality disorder when I was 14. Your video is very inspiring and it really made me happy to see you doing so well. Thank you very much.
I just want to say a massive thank you for posting this. I am a primary care mental health worker in London who work with people suffering depression and anxiety. Occasionally GPs refer people to me that really should be supported at a higher level, but because of the stigma or lack of knowledge they have been offered nothing, often for years.. Stories of recovery are vital. I have had major depression myself and I have a very normal life now, helping others. So are you. Keep it up! Well done!
hey, i can relate with everything you say, except for the hospital part and so on. i have thought about going to a hospital because i thought i was really crazy. this video takes a huge load of my shoulder! a huge motherfucking load man! thank you soooooooo much.
@SuperRevelacao You're not crazy. Try not to let your thoughts overwhelm you. When they do, focus on your breath and try and breathe as deeply as you can. That often helps me when my mind becomes overpowering.
It's all in your head man. Find a way to shake it even if you have to get out of your comfort zone. You're not on a hidden camera show either, I can assure you that. Good luck.
Thank you and I love you, I suffer from lot's of things similar to this. Unfortunately, I got very good at not showing it....I have a family that doesn't understand, and they hate me more than you know, if I do not keep quiet in this house they could even call the police. My mind is broke, and my body get's tortured...I'm not lying and it sucks really bad. Sure, I will beat it all...but it has robbed everything from me, one by one it is all gone. Thank you for the video
@cOlleDgeEjuKated I'm sorry to hear that. Keep looking forward to the future. Make plans. You've got a whole future ahead of you and there's so much you can achieve. Don't let what's happening now to you hold you back because it is just temporary. I know you can and will get through it. Be strong.
Please don't give up, and don't let those blind haters all over YT and the whole world get to you. Sometimes you may be weak, but other times you might be invincible. There is hope, yes. It takes a caring individual to think about others' well-being and try to help them in ways you can contribute; and it also takes courage to post it here. You look lovely and thank you for posting.
How the hell can you get past this and a recovery. I can't recover and it's terrible. I can't have a normal life. I just want to be able to hangout with friends and have fun and laugh, but I can't. Schizophrenia stopped me.
@IhaveSchizophrenia1 You can recover..or you can at least learn to manage your schizophrenia. Are you taking meds and receiving therapy? Perhaps it's worth talking to your doctors about trying different form of therapy? Different forms work for different people. Don't give up though..things can get better. Thinking of you. Remember that you're not alone.
Bravo. Congratulations on a courageous, compelling video story. As father of a young man in your situation, I appreciate hearing and seeing what it must be like from your personal vantage point. I'm taking the liberty to post the video on my website for families navigating the maelstrom of mental illness. (Find my site by googling "psychodyssey".) By increasing their understanding, it will promote support for recovery. Keep up the good work.
I just want to say I admire you! I think you are an incredible person from the 25 minutes I have had the pleasure of learning about you. I am a psychiatric nurse in Canada and I really appreciate what you have to say. It is rare I encounter someone with your profound insight and ability to account for their psychotic experience. Thank you! I mean that! I think you are someone I would be proud to know. I wish you the very best and know that you well regarded!
@brucinda01 Damn right we're all acting like its the end of the world, bitch.
Social stigma works like this: People have dumbass, uninformed oppinions they pass as fact, everybody passes gossip and rejection along like a brainwave, not content with having outed this person. they continue to patronize, bully, abuse, blame discredit and villify the person. a mentally ill person trying to behave and function in society has a lot of complex social situations to deal with.
@sireweezsmucker1 in other words, a mentally ill person CANNOT make mistakes and has to deal with his/her own image, speech, body language, other people's insecurities, other people's gossip, brainwaves, misinformation, etc
other people can say and do all the dumb shit they want and later cry about it. they dont know and they dont give a fuck
You cannot afford to say dumb shit like this around a schizophrenic, have some decency.
@sireweezsmucker1 The fact that you are calling me a bitch just shows how cruel you are. My twin brother and i both have schizophrenia, so you don't need to patronize me with your cruel hurtful words. Tu dit que je suis une idiot, mais tu a tort!! Si j'etais stupid, il serais imposible pour moi a ecrire a toi en francais!!! YOU are judging me before you know me, i have schizophrenia, but i didn't let it stop me studying French at Uni, so you are very wrong in your evil opinion
@brucinda01 yeah there's being mentally ill and having people be unfair while you try to recover and then there's this bullshit, abusing your mental illness to act like a bitch.
I'm schizophrenic, otherwise i wouldnt give a fuck to know all that and come here. youre not a man, fuck off.
@brucinda01 you are such a fucking bitch im wasting my time with you. youre probably a bad troll too lying about your schizoprenia and trying to get a rise out of survivors here, which doesn't make you any less of a bitch.
This is very inspirational and I commend you for your bravery and courage in making it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am the person standing on the bridge and you are the one who just said to me, "I've been where you are. There is hope." Thank you.
My story is similar to yours in many ways schizophrenia and even got sectioned, now recovered but you are lucky to have come off your medication, my psychiatrist are not keen to let me stop taking my meds. They say I have to realize that I'm lucky they are working for me, but I think the supportive outreach has been more therapeutic. Soon they will discharge me from the care the the community mental health care team and then care will be handed to my GP.
Very moving & powerful Johnny. I fear for the worst in terms of treatment availability with all the austerity cuts being made both in the UK & the US brought about by the greed of banksters. Mental health care in the US is all but non-existent already. A very large percentage of those imprisoned here are undiagnosed & living with mental illness. Keep the videos coming please & take care of yourself. JBG
I noticed one thing..the voices are in one's head. I recently learnt this about schizophrenia (I've got some friends who are).The subject disassociates with it so one thinks it is coming from outside the head. It is amazing that all this stuff is in the head! Some schizophrenics don't know that. I've always been interested in this illness.
thanks for posting this, i haven't been diagnosed yet but i had a psychotic break and it's looking like I'm going to have schizophrenia, your video helped me to see more clearly. thank you.
Sorry I ran out of space to ,conclude you are a very inspiring and articulate young man and I am sure your words bring a lot of comfort to many people who are struggling with either their mental health or their sexuality,any parent would be proud to call you their son.The reason for the stigma surrounding mental illness is rather like that which used to surround cancer and is basically because we are all vulnerable to it but like cancer it is eminently treatable.
My sister has schizophrenia but it went untreated and undiagnosed for so long that it became a chronic condition she was a mother at the time with a young family,my mother and I brought up her children and cared for my sister my mum died 6 years ago and Icontinue to care for my sister her kids are all successful professional people my sister has a problem with taking her meds and has had 2 relapses this year,the point is she is not bad she is ill its part of the human condition all are vulnerabl
@johnjusthuman Faced with this sort of reaction, it's no wonder people suffer in silence. Thank you for doing your bit to challenge the stigma of mental illness. I will be showing this video to as many people as I can. Xxx
@johnjusthuman Thank you for your video, it is refreshing to hear someone talk so openly and honestly about mental illness. My teenage sister has schizophrenia and is finding things difficult. She won't talk to anyone about it and I don't blame her in a way. I took some time off work a while back when my sister needed me at home, I had to tell my boss why. I was shocked to hear that my boss believed that people with schizophrenia were "knife wielding maniacs" :-( Faced with this sort of reacti
It sounds like you have been sexually abused.Don't stay to much in your head!!The truth is we all talk to ourselves and think strange things.But a lot of the things you say I hear from my clients who have had childhoods of sexual abuse.
@3909clancy No counsellor or therapist would tell someone (Online or in life) - "You must have been sexually abused, to make you hear voices". Because you OBVIOUSLY know what's happened to him. It's part of the training as a counsellor that you do not suggest something that obviously isn't true, especially without actually seeing the person in repeated sessions. You're suggesting something that didn't happen, and playing off Schizophrenia as 'hearing voices'. Go back to college.
@xmaster2 You have no clue what any counselor would ever say and as far as going back to college maybe you need to go back to grammer and learn how to spell.I didn't say he was so learn to read and spell.
Hi, thanks for posting, I too have a diagnosis of schizophrenia, I found your video to be beneficial in some of the things I too go through, my concern is now I am slowly on another downward spiral, I stopped my medication a couple of weeks ago, and stopped answering calls and moved out of my flat so I cannot be found,I feel as if i have let people down and dont know what to do anymore. Well done on your recovery
@MrAndyavfc1971 Firstly, you haven't let anyone down. I'm sure no-one feels that way-people are probably just concerned but you will not have dissapointed anyone. You need to break this downward spiral...even if you don't feel like it will you try and go outside tomorrow? Just take a walk. Put a hat and glasses on if you don't want to be seen. Try and focus on everything external..clouds, trees, buildings, people. This will help you to get out of your head, even if it's brief.
@MrAndyavfc1971 If you don't want to talk to anyone that you know, there's always me or organizations like MIND info(at)mind.orguk or the Samaritans jo(at)samaritansorg. But please do talk. Also, make a list of all the things you would like to achieve if you could. Place you'd like to go for instance? I know you can get through the darkness and achieve some of these goals. If I can do it, you can too. Don't fight this alone. Jonny
Papa thanks a million for this video. It is amazingly brave for you to speak on your life in this way. I honor you for that. It is so good to know that we are not alone whether or not we have the symptoms nor or in the past. No one wants to feel that experiences like these are only specific to them. I just produced a video about my life with Schizophrenia from my Childhood to current. I would like to send it to you as a video response.
@johnjusthuman holding the person more accountable for themselves, which sometimes leads to avoidance or maybe feelings of animosity towards the person (usually related to negative symptoms). This is what my own family was guilty of when my mum was experiencing the same things. Your video is one of the fantastic ways to educate people about the illness as many studies have shown people with prior knowledge of the illness are less likely to avoid/stigmatize schizophrenia sufferers, so thanks man!
@johnjusthuman Hey John, This is a great video you made, I grew up with my mum who had schizophrenia and she was an amazing woman. This is on eof the hardest illnesses to live with, you look like you are really recovering well. What you said about people telling you to pull yourself together maybe a result of what is called attribution, this is when an individual is perhaps seen as 'having control' of their illness, which may not then be seen as an illness but more individual related TBC..
My mom has schizophrenia... She has become a lot worse over the years. She can rarely function with the rest of the world now days. It brings me to tears to watch this. I've seen what it can do to a person. How much it can hurt and destroy.. Thank you for your video.:)
@Shabungo92 I'm so sorry that your Mom suffers from schizophrenia. I can't imagine how tough it is for both her and you as well. I see you live in the US, have you been in contact with the NMAH at all? Maybe they'll be able to give you support and advice if you need it at all? They've got a really good website that's worth checking out nmha.org/go/help Thinking of you and your Mom, be strong x
@johnjusthuman No one can help someone whom doesn't want to be helped. She refuses to get help or talk to anyone. I have taught myself to adjust to living in a certain way, so I can take care of her. It just really is a beautiful thing to see your video and know that it's possible. Thank you for sharing your story. It means a lot to me.
the one thing im scared of is what if i confess what iv done, what i want to do and what i thionk im going to do they'll lock me up and ill never recover.. what if the voices stay.. would you e-mail me i feel i really need to talk to you without everyone to see..
what if the voices you hear are your voice ? and they make you think such bad, discusting things. how do you suppress them ? .... you say the voices told you bad things would happen if you didnt do this or that such as your your parents were gunna be hurt.. what if the voices are telling you to hurt your parents or hurt children/ teenager/ oap's and tbh im scared i will do what they say... however no matter how sick i am you have given me the courage to seek psychological help. thank you
Hey guys. I'm battling from schizophrenia. I'm not asking for money or views or anything, but just for support and for people to hear me out. My psychiatrist said to let people know about your problem, but everyone thinks I'm weird and my family cannot understand or take me seriously. I made a blog about my problems, and I hope we can talk on there. My blog is battlingschizophrenia.blogspot.com . Fellow schizophrenics, you should also come. We can fight the battle together.
i just want to say thank u i need this because of u i found the strength to tell my parents i was feeling depressed thank u so much for make all of your videos thank u
John - this is a really beautiful, captivating, honest and sensitive film. Once I started watching it I was compelled to watch it straight through to the end. I'm so pleased you were able to become well again and sharing your story will help not only those with schizophrenia but with any sort of mental illness. Im not exaggerating when I say this film is a gift to people. It's beautiful - well done x
@brucinda01 your calling me rude? the guy in this video talks about his struggle with mental illness since he was a child and u accuse him of being a fake. whos the rude one?
@brucinda01 Would you say such a thing if someone had recounted the story of their battle with cancer? I very much doubt it. This is exactly the type of stigma I was trying to confront.
You've watched 25 minutes of me opening up and condensing what I can really only describe as 10 years of sheer hell and you have the audacity to hide behind your computer screen and say that it's all fake.
Judge me as you will, but think before you speak. You never quite know the effects your words can have.
@johnjusthuman Hey, don't get upset. It's a compliment to say he's acting, because it shows how normal people with Schizophrenia are. You know, it makes me laugh that you blame me for creating stigma, yet i myself have Schizophrenia. You need to chillout, i'm on your side. xxx
@brucinda01 The video looks "staged" because he went to record sections of his documentary in the places where things happened. That way you could get a better sense of the journey. All documentary's are like that. Would you rather he just sat in one room for 30 minutes and talked? Also, regardless of you suffering from Schizophrenia yourself and saying you're on his side, you still accused him of making it up. Just because you can't see someone's problem, doesn't mean it's not there.
@johnjusthuman I have schizophrenia and my brother, so you don't need to patronise me. I am intitled to my opinion. If you can't hanle it, maybe you shouldn't put videos on Youtube, you idiot.
ive heard that it runs in families. ive had a great uncle on my moms whose had it, and also a 2nd cousin who has it. sometimes i think my grandmother has it. sometimes i worry if any other familiy members have it.
My family member who had insomnia and other illness heard about a study on sleep meds (Ambien,Lunesta,ect) Helping pain levels and anxiety. They insisted their doc give them a weeks trial and their pain and coping skills were much better. The new sleep meds were a boon to helping diminish their chronic condition. Their doc was convinced it was a key to them staying well.
My boyfriend's mother and uncle both have schizophrenia. i am afraid my boyfriend is starting to experience the onset of the symptoms you described.. Thank you for this video, i will show this to him.
@MrAilingequation I'm around if you want to chat at all and there's always the organization MIND who can give you advice about your concerns. Their address is info@mind.org.uk. It's great that your boyfriend has someone like you there to look out for him. I'm sure he'll be ok.
@johnjusthuman Thank you for your offer, i have contacted MIND about my boyfriend. Though he is too afraid to talk to someone, he feels ashamed about it. His symptoms seem to get a lot worse when he is drinking, it concerns me greatly.
@johnjusthuman Life never stands still, there's often different challenges around the corner. So, you also have to be mentally prepared to receive new information and experiences: people can easily be unaware of the severity of the illness you perhaps went through, and so stereotype us on appearance or with some current notion about 'gay' people. I'm sure things will get better for you.
@johnjusthuman I'm sure we,ve all felt that other people are having a great time at University, but it's not always the case. You'll get one or two who are life and soul. I remember some homophobic bullying triggered my feelings of illness, difficult to descibe 20 years later. The people who were teasing had no insight into the suffering they inflicted, including some of the lecturers. It was just like the 1960's again in a sense, ironically. Certain things follow a pattern,regardless, I feel.
@jtaellio11 Thanks for your comment. You're right that there is a more enlightened attitude today toward mental illness and also homosexuality. A lot still needs to change though. The other day I was sitting at the theatre waiting for the show to start and the person behind me kept describing his boss as 'a schizo.' "She's a right schizo, i can't stand her, she's insane" he said whilst laughing. There's still a lot of change that needs to happen- particularly more understanding and also support.
@johnjusthuman Yes, you always get a lot of thoughtless people around. Our Uncle was unable to work ever again after he was admitted to Rauceby Mental Hospital in 1966. The ECT therapy did something to his brain, he couldn't piece his thoughts together. You seem completely different, more in control and insightful.
@johnjusthuman I'm sure we,ve all felt that other people are having a great time at University, but it's not always the case. You'll get one or two who are life and soul. I remember some homophobic bullying triggered my feelings of illness, difficult to descibe 20 years later. The people who were teasing had no insight into the suffering they inflicted, including some of the lecturers. It was just like the 1960's again in a sense, ironically. Certain things follow a pattern,regardless, I feel.
@johnjusthuman On the good point you made about the 'pull yourself together' attitude, my Dad remembers some old Doctor telling Dad's brother, who also suffered from schizophrenia, to 'do the gardening'. They had nil insight in the 1960's, preferring men to go in the army etc. Thankfully, there's a more enlightened attitude about gay people/ mental illness. I know some people like psychics do hear voices, perhaps you're a more special person who had to go through this. Time will heal also.
@johnjusthuman This was such an informative video, John, about your experiences dealing with severe mental illness. A lot of people CAN relate to your feelings of isolation and fear, to a lesser or similar degree. You made the very good point that there is a lot of prejudice about mental illness, as there is homosexuality. University can often trigger these feelings of difference. You have done so well, and are attractive with good insight. I would still monitor things like homophobic bullying.
I don't want to sound like a starker but...I SAW YOU AT THE APOLLO!! :D I didn't want to disturb you because you were with friends. It was so nice to see you though :)
..are you talking about "antidepressents" helping you alone? Or other drugs of which there are dozens specific for "Schizophrenia". And you say you have skitzoaffective disorder. They are not the same thing.
@memama2 It wasn't just antidepressants...I took Olanzapine for the schizophrenia and Venlaflaxine to overcome the depression. Schizoaffective disorder is a combination of both schizophrenia and depression. The depression was brought on by the schizophrenia i think.
johnjusthuman ...if you are this much better? It is a miracle! Have you had any side effects or continue to take meds because if you are med free and hear no voices I am not sure you could be "cured" by a few weeks of anything as schizophrenia is ongoing and you seem to be describing OCD. I pray you are well forever and never have a single day of problem ever again.
@memama2 I never said i was 'cured' in a few weeks. Far from it. I only came off my medication last year and i've been in and out of therapy ever since being diagnosed. I often get very paranoid still, especially about the smallest things. Sometimes I find myself drifting back towards a psychosis. Anxiety has been my biggest challenge, as well as insomnia. But i've learnt techniques to deal with all these things. And I try and keep positive :) Opening up has helped a great deal too. Thanks.
John you have opened up my eyes about mental illness entirely, thank you so much. My g/f is going through some troublesome anxiety at the moment and you have changed my opinion completely - thank you.
@georgebirley89 Thanks very much. Hope your g/f gets well soon. Things like relaxation/yoga/meditation is really good for anxiety. Cognitive therapy is also useful to combat it. Perhaps your g/f can talk to her GP about this?
Whilst making your recovery, did you try & limit the amount of bad news that you took in? Such as not reading it. Even doing things like this, seem to have quite a difference for my brother's depression... x
@MatthewPollardd I didn't but I should have at the time. Although in hospital I didn't keep up with the news at all. I think it did make a slight difference, i'm quite sensitive to what goes on around x
Jonny all I can say is that it's truly horrific, but I am so utterly thankful that you've made this video and that you're strong and still here. I'd have never met such an amazing person, and this video is proof you've out there to help. Understandably, it's incredibly painful. And I feel so terrible, that I wish I'd have been there. A little angry I hadn't. But thankful you're doing better. This documentary is what is needed, you've worked so hard on it and I am so proud of you. So much. xxx
Hi John - your timing is divine. please see my message in your YouTube inbox!!
Was gonna post more here; its in the message.
In short, my 3 years younger brother (21) was admitted basically the DAY you posted this for this condition. We're finally able to visit him (I brought him lunch today) and pull up from an initial and surreal shock... well, your video is inspiring, and instrumental in terms of finding strength now.
It'd be an honor to hear from you. I'll share this with my parents.
This deserves to be shown to a very large audience.
I am so impressed with your achievement and honesty as always.
Watching it stirred up the memories of my own illness and black depression when I was at University many years ago. I remember going through all the same thoughts & emotions.
It's great looking back to see how far the human heart & mind can grow back into wellness and happiness.
Great video bro! You really inspire many to not be afraid of people with this. I did a paper on schizophrenia and I learned so much. Your an inspiration!!
Your story is compelling and riveting, to say the least. I remained glued to my monitor throughout the entirety of this video. The courage it took to tell this story and the fortitude you had to follow it through to the finish are commendable. Thank you for this gift.
Johnny, I want to thank you for your bravery in making this film. I have never suffered from schizophrenia, but have struggled with depression since the age of about 7 (I am now 48) and feel sure that you will help many people by the courageous way that you are sharing your experience.
Great job, buddy. This was very well put together, and you are very well spoken. It takes a lot of courage to speak openly and honestly about something so personal. Kudos to you :)
funnily enough, i read that haloperidol causes deep depression along with suicidal attempts.
RussianParagon 22 hours ago
yes i remember those stingy showers. i didnt have schizophrenia, i had MDD. i slit my forearms (not just wrists) and swallowed pills to overdose. i felt an enormous relief when i did that. a local psychiatrist gave me a medication called Haloperidol. i don't how it affects other patients, but i felt extremely agitated, restless. i couldn't stand or sit, only crawl up like a ball in bed. i can't even explain the feeling. it's like you got ants running on the inside of your skin.
RussianParagon 22 hours ago
You are amazing! Such an inspiration and I hope all is well with you, and those last minutes i just broke down. That is so true, you are not your mental illness.You are still YOU. <3 much love!!!!
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813tinsaie 3 days ago
thing new, may not know what ur experiencing at every moment but i do know what it is to live with someone with schizphrenia and ive talked to others with it,i realise it is a yo-yo affect but what types of therapy r u receiving?
slimunique84 4 days ago
god, this is scary, i ahve to move things in symetrical order as well i personally thought it was either ocd or bi polar because i have sporadic changes in my energy levels, extreme polar opposites of moods from depression, less suicidal ideologies nowadays if any at all, but i am going to school for social work and also have an older brother with paranoid schizophrenia, going to school has kind of turned me into a hypchondriac cuz i almost want to self diagnose myself every week with somethi
slimunique84 4 days ago
Thank you, John. Your story has helped me move on with mine.
tessalinne 6 days ago
You are such an inspiration. I have the most respect and love for you.. :)
21SunnyDayz 6 days ago
Amazing! It is awesome that you are speaking out like this. My situation was somewhat similar. I wasn't diagnosed with BPD until I was already in my 20's even though I have felt I was living with symptoms most of my life. I also just told the doctors I was depressed because I was too embarrassed to talk about the other stuff I was going through. I never heard anyone else talk about that kind of thing before so I thought I was the only one! That is why I talk about it now.
thedanizblog 6 days ago
If u want to cause yourself pain and release stress go to the gym its helped me with depression anxiety and voices
WARLOCKakaTROLL 1 week ago
Hi.. I have watched most of your uploads now and i can honestly say that I think you are an utter legend.. I have never or have never known anyone who have suffered with schizophrenia and although i suffered with depression quite badly when i came out i have no right in telling you that i know what your going through or how your feeling as i dont.. What i do know is that i have the upmost admiration for you and you have probably helped more people on here than u know or can imagine.Legend.!!
welshguy272 1 week ago
@welshguy272 Thank-you, i really appreciate that I hope your doing ok right now :)
johnjusthuman 1 week ago
@johnjusthuman yes maye.. i am good.. have been for a good few years now.. Thanks
welshguy272 6 days ago
I have always been very open about depressive thoughts, and have found that very few people actually respond well to it, given the stigma and all. I really appreciate you telling us about your experience. Though I may not have the same condition as you and may draw some other conclusions, this helps people realize the humanity of our situation.
unholyimage 2 weeks ago
Thanks so much for this video....I am using it for my undergraduate psychology class. Very good example of living with a mental illness. Best of luck to youl
MsMidnight1970 2 weeks ago
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TheSchizopodcaster 2 weeks ago
I am so happy for you!
TheVidesi 2 weeks ago in playlist Crime
Thank you for posting this. I was raised by my mother, who took care of my schizophrenic grandmother since I was 5 years old until she passed away when I was 17. I was diagnosed with Schizotypal personality disorder when I was 14. Your video is very inspiring and it really made me happy to see you doing so well. Thank you very much.
nnygem 3 weeks ago
@nnygem Thanks for posting. I'm sorry to read about your Grandmother. I hope you're doing ok right now...keep strong :)
johnjusthuman 1 week ago
I just want to say a massive thank you for posting this. I am a primary care mental health worker in London who work with people suffering depression and anxiety. Occasionally GPs refer people to me that really should be supported at a higher level, but because of the stigma or lack of knowledge they have been offered nothing, often for years.. Stories of recovery are vital. I have had major depression myself and I have a very normal life now, helping others. So are you. Keep it up! Well done!
Taxenification 3 weeks ago
@Taxenification Thanks so much for your post. I'm glad to hear you're keeping well today :)
johnjusthuman 1 week ago
hey, i can relate with everything you say, except for the hospital part and so on. i have thought about going to a hospital because i thought i was really crazy. this video takes a huge load of my shoulder! a huge motherfucking load man! thank you soooooooo much.
SuperRevelacao 3 weeks ago
@SuperRevelacao You're not crazy. Try not to let your thoughts overwhelm you. When they do, focus on your breath and try and breathe as deeply as you can. That often helps me when my mind becomes overpowering.
johnjusthuman 1 week ago
Hi Jonny,
Just saying hi, from an old friend :). When you are up to it, would love to hear from you. My brother's hanging in there.
- Johnny
ogidni11 3 weeks ago
cool vid.....
MrJeffmurphy 1 month ago
It's all in your head man. Find a way to shake it even if you have to get out of your comfort zone. You're not on a hidden camera show either, I can assure you that. Good luck.
jlh6310 1 month ago
id rather kill myself then willingly let someone watch me wash.
lipnox88 1 month ago
this is helping me a lot right now, thank you greatly to the creator of this.
lipnox88 1 month ago
Thank you and I love you, I suffer from lot's of things similar to this. Unfortunately, I got very good at not showing it....I have a family that doesn't understand, and they hate me more than you know, if I do not keep quiet in this house they could even call the police. My mind is broke, and my body get's tortured...I'm not lying and it sucks really bad. Sure, I will beat it all...but it has robbed everything from me, one by one it is all gone. Thank you for the video
cOlleDgeEjuKated 1 month ago
@cOlleDgeEjuKated I'm sorry to hear that. Keep looking forward to the future. Make plans. You've got a whole future ahead of you and there's so much you can achieve. Don't let what's happening now to you hold you back because it is just temporary. I know you can and will get through it. Be strong.
johnjusthuman 1 week ago
Please don't give up, and don't let those blind haters all over YT and the whole world get to you. Sometimes you may be weak, but other times you might be invincible. There is hope, yes. It takes a caring individual to think about others' well-being and try to help them in ways you can contribute; and it also takes courage to post it here. You look lovely and thank you for posting.
WarriorWasser 1 month ago
Thank you for making this very informative video. I hope you have continued in this path and that you have a happy satisfying life.
pawbiter 1 month ago
How the hell can you get past this and a recovery. I can't recover and it's terrible. I can't have a normal life. I just want to be able to hangout with friends and have fun and laugh, but I can't. Schizophrenia stopped me.
IhaveSchizophrenia1 1 month ago
@IhaveSchizophrenia1 You can recover..or you can at least learn to manage your schizophrenia. Are you taking meds and receiving therapy? Perhaps it's worth talking to your doctors about trying different form of therapy? Different forms work for different people. Don't give up though..things can get better. Thinking of you. Remember that you're not alone.
johnjusthuman 1 week ago
@johnjusthuman I'm taking risperidone, I think thats what it's called. Not recieveing therapy though.
IhaveSchizophrenia1 1 week ago
Bravo. Congratulations on a courageous, compelling video story. As father of a young man in your situation, I appreciate hearing and seeing what it must be like from your personal vantage point. I'm taking the liberty to post the video on my website for families navigating the maelstrom of mental illness. (Find my site by googling "psychodyssey".) By increasing their understanding, it will promote support for recovery. Keep up the good work.
thpyle 1 month ago
I LIKE YOUR VIDEO, I WANT TO SAY THAT YOU ARE VERY CUTE :) AND IF YOU WANT TO BECOME FRIENDS LET ME KNOW... THANKS PEGGY
lilredMarrero77 1 month ago
I might have this as well hopefully it gets better for me too, thanks.
SHINIGAMIxPABLO 1 month ago
@johnjusthuman:
I just want to say I admire you! I think you are an incredible person from the 25 minutes I have had the pleasure of learning about you. I am a psychiatric nurse in Canada and I really appreciate what you have to say. It is rare I encounter someone with your profound insight and ability to account for their psychotic experience. Thank you! I mean that! I think you are someone I would be proud to know. I wish you the very best and know that you well regarded!
mrjenkins76 1 month ago
you're a courageous man. i wish you a great life
dortmundary 1 month ago
For fuck sake, i made one little comment and you're all acting like it's the end of the World. OK, maybe he isn't acting!! Jesus!
brucinda01 1 month ago
@brucinda01 Damn right we're all acting like its the end of the world, bitch.
Social stigma works like this: People have dumbass, uninformed oppinions they pass as fact, everybody passes gossip and rejection along like a brainwave, not content with having outed this person. they continue to patronize, bully, abuse, blame discredit and villify the person. a mentally ill person trying to behave and function in society has a lot of complex social situations to deal with.
sireweezsmucker1 1 month ago
@sireweezsmucker1 in other words, a mentally ill person CANNOT make mistakes and has to deal with his/her own image, speech, body language, other people's insecurities, other people's gossip, brainwaves, misinformation, etc
other people can say and do all the dumb shit they want and later cry about it. they dont know and they dont give a fuck
You cannot afford to say dumb shit like this around a schizophrenic, have some decency.
sireweezsmucker1 1 month ago
@sireweezsmucker1 The fact that you are calling me a bitch just shows how cruel you are. My twin brother and i both have schizophrenia, so you don't need to patronize me with your cruel hurtful words. Tu dit que je suis une idiot, mais tu a tort!! Si j'etais stupid, il serais imposible pour moi a ecrire a toi en francais!!! YOU are judging me before you know me, i have schizophrenia, but i didn't let it stop me studying French at Uni, so you are very wrong in your evil opinion
brucinda01 1 month ago
@brucinda01 yeah there's being mentally ill and having people be unfair while you try to recover and then there's this bullshit, abusing your mental illness to act like a bitch.
I'm schizophrenic, otherwise i wouldnt give a fuck to know all that and come here. youre not a man, fuck off.
sireweezsmucker1 1 month ago
@sireweezsmucker1 There you are, resorting to foul abusive language, is that what defines a man?
brucinda01 1 month ago
@brucinda01 you are such a fucking bitch im wasting my time with you. youre probably a bad troll too lying about your schizoprenia and trying to get a rise out of survivors here, which doesn't make you any less of a bitch.
I hope you get shot.
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3909clancy 1 month ago
This is very inspirational and I commend you for your bravery and courage in making it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am the person standing on the bridge and you are the one who just said to me, "I've been where you are. There is hope." Thank you.
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aradic4 2 months ago
My story is similar to yours in many ways schizophrenia and even got sectioned, now recovered but you are lucky to have come off your medication, my psychiatrist are not keen to let me stop taking my meds. They say I have to realize that I'm lucky they are working for me, but I think the supportive outreach has been more therapeutic. Soon they will discharge me from the care the the community mental health care team and then care will be handed to my GP.
PS, loved the film.
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Chico1584 2 months ago
Look up abram hoffer and curing schizophrenia with naicin . good stuff saved my butt
purpleloveuniverse 2 months ago
Very moving & powerful Johnny. I fear for the worst in terms of treatment availability with all the austerity cuts being made both in the UK & the US brought about by the greed of banksters. Mental health care in the US is all but non-existent already. A very large percentage of those imprisoned here are undiagnosed & living with mental illness. Keep the videos coming please & take care of yourself. JBG
bgregg55 2 months ago
so interesting
eddiebertopsp 2 months ago
I noticed one thing..the voices are in one's head. I recently learnt this about schizophrenia (I've got some friends who are).The subject disassociates with it so one thinks it is coming from outside the head. It is amazing that all this stuff is in the head! Some schizophrenics don't know that. I've always been interested in this illness.
abby495 2 months ago
thanks for posting this, i haven't been diagnosed yet but i had a psychotic break and it's looking like I'm going to have schizophrenia, your video helped me to see more clearly. thank you.
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Sorry I ran out of space to ,conclude you are a very inspiring and articulate young man and I am sure your words bring a lot of comfort to many people who are struggling with either their mental health or their sexuality,any parent would be proud to call you their son.The reason for the stigma surrounding mental illness is rather like that which used to surround cancer and is basically because we are all vulnerable to it but like cancer it is eminently treatable.
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My sister has schizophrenia but it went untreated and undiagnosed for so long that it became a chronic condition she was a mother at the time with a young family,my mother and I brought up her children and cared for my sister my mum died 6 years ago and Icontinue to care for my sister her kids are all successful professional people my sister has a problem with taking her meds and has had 2 relapses this year,the point is she is not bad she is ill its part of the human condition all are vulnerabl
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aw youre cute
nycall21 2 months ago
@johnjusthuman Faced with this sort of reaction, it's no wonder people suffer in silence. Thank you for doing your bit to challenge the stigma of mental illness. I will be showing this video to as many people as I can. Xxx
nattymctatty84 2 months ago
@johnjusthuman Thank you for your video, it is refreshing to hear someone talk so openly and honestly about mental illness. My teenage sister has schizophrenia and is finding things difficult. She won't talk to anyone about it and I don't blame her in a way. I took some time off work a while back when my sister needed me at home, I had to tell my boss why. I was shocked to hear that my boss believed that people with schizophrenia were "knife wielding maniacs" :-( Faced with this sort of reacti
nattymctatty84 2 months ago
It sounds like you have been sexually abused.Don't stay to much in your head!!The truth is we all talk to ourselves and think strange things.But a lot of the things you say I hear from my clients who have had childhoods of sexual abuse.
3909clancy 2 months ago
@3909clancy No counsellor or therapist would tell someone (Online or in life) - "You must have been sexually abused, to make you hear voices". Because you OBVIOUSLY know what's happened to him. It's part of the training as a counsellor that you do not suggest something that obviously isn't true, especially without actually seeing the person in repeated sessions. You're suggesting something that didn't happen, and playing off Schizophrenia as 'hearing voices'. Go back to college.
xmaster2 1 month ago
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@xmaster2 You have no clue what any counselor would ever say and as far as going back to college maybe you need to go back to grammer and learn how to spell.I didn't say he was so learn to read and spell.
3909clancy 1 month ago
Hi, thanks for posting, I too have a diagnosis of schizophrenia, I found your video to be beneficial in some of the things I too go through, my concern is now I am slowly on another downward spiral, I stopped my medication a couple of weeks ago, and stopped answering calls and moved out of my flat so I cannot be found,I feel as if i have let people down and dont know what to do anymore. Well done on your recovery
MrAndyavfc1971 2 months ago
@MrAndyavfc1971 Firstly, you haven't let anyone down. I'm sure no-one feels that way-people are probably just concerned but you will not have dissapointed anyone. You need to break this downward spiral...even if you don't feel like it will you try and go outside tomorrow? Just take a walk. Put a hat and glasses on if you don't want to be seen. Try and focus on everything external..clouds, trees, buildings, people. This will help you to get out of your head, even if it's brief.
johnjusthuman 2 months ago
@MrAndyavfc1971 If you don't want to talk to anyone that you know, there's always me or organizations like MIND info(at)mind.orguk or the Samaritans jo(at)samaritansorg. But please do talk. Also, make a list of all the things you would like to achieve if you could. Place you'd like to go for instance? I know you can get through the darkness and achieve some of these goals. If I can do it, you can too. Don't fight this alone. Jonny
johnjusthuman 2 months ago
Great job. I have schizo too and I know it's hard to talk about it. Best of luck to you.
rachelstarlive 3 months ago
a good documentary of mental illness, thank you...very brave
andysplace67 3 months ago
Extremely well made. Congratulations on both your recovery and this movie!
yourrrrtube 3 months ago
Papa thanks a million for this video. It is amazingly brave for you to speak on your life in this way. I honor you for that. It is so good to know that we are not alone whether or not we have the symptoms nor or in the past. No one wants to feel that experiences like these are only specific to them. I just produced a video about my life with Schizophrenia from my Childhood to current. I would like to send it to you as a video response.
Hope that you will accept it.
Much Love,
Miguel!
soymiguelalejandro23 3 months ago
@johnjusthuman holding the person more accountable for themselves, which sometimes leads to avoidance or maybe feelings of animosity towards the person (usually related to negative symptoms). This is what my own family was guilty of when my mum was experiencing the same things. Your video is one of the fantastic ways to educate people about the illness as many studies have shown people with prior knowledge of the illness are less likely to avoid/stigmatize schizophrenia sufferers, so thanks man!
Michaelisanannoying 3 months ago
@johnjusthuman Hey John, This is a great video you made, I grew up with my mum who had schizophrenia and she was an amazing woman. This is on eof the hardest illnesses to live with, you look like you are really recovering well. What you said about people telling you to pull yourself together maybe a result of what is called attribution, this is when an individual is perhaps seen as 'having control' of their illness, which may not then be seen as an illness but more individual related TBC..
Michaelisanannoying 3 months ago
My mom has schizophrenia... She has become a lot worse over the years. She can rarely function with the rest of the world now days. It brings me to tears to watch this. I've seen what it can do to a person. How much it can hurt and destroy.. Thank you for your video.:)
Shabungo92 3 months ago
@Shabungo92 I'm so sorry that your Mom suffers from schizophrenia. I can't imagine how tough it is for both her and you as well. I see you live in the US, have you been in contact with the NMAH at all? Maybe they'll be able to give you support and advice if you need it at all? They've got a really good website that's worth checking out nmha.org/go/help Thinking of you and your Mom, be strong x
johnjusthuman 3 months ago
@johnjusthuman No one can help someone whom doesn't want to be helped. She refuses to get help or talk to anyone. I have taught myself to adjust to living in a certain way, so I can take care of her. It just really is a beautiful thing to see your video and know that it's possible. Thank you for sharing your story. It means a lot to me.
Shabungo92 3 months ago
the one thing im scared of is what if i confess what iv done, what i want to do and what i thionk im going to do they'll lock me up and ill never recover.. what if the voices stay.. would you e-mail me i feel i really need to talk to you without everyone to see..
boselectfuk 3 months ago
what if the voices you hear are your voice ? and they make you think such bad, discusting things. how do you suppress them ? .... you say the voices told you bad things would happen if you didnt do this or that such as your your parents were gunna be hurt.. what if the voices are telling you to hurt your parents or hurt children/ teenager/ oap's and tbh im scared i will do what they say... however no matter how sick i am you have given me the courage to seek psychological help. thank you
boselectfuk 3 months ago
can you message me I want to talk about something but not for everyone to read
blackxs2008 3 months ago
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Hey guys. I'm battling from schizophrenia. I'm not asking for money or views or anything, but just for support and for people to hear me out. My psychiatrist said to let people know about your problem, but everyone thinks I'm weird and my family cannot understand or take me seriously. I made a blog about my problems, and I hope we can talk on there. My blog is battlingschizophrenia.blogspot.com . Fellow schizophrenics, you should also come. We can fight the battle together.
jaco0bx 3 months ago
i just want to say thank u i need this because of u i found the strength to tell my parents i was feeling depressed thank u so much for make all of your videos thank u
TheJWub 3 months ago
schizophrenic or not, you're insanely handsome.
tomoe1986 3 months ago 4
I just fully watched this for the first time. Thank you Jonny :)
You're a wonderful, authentic human being. Keep it doing, and you won't just find happiness, but will have fulfilment.
SwobyJ 4 months ago
John - this is a really beautiful, captivating, honest and sensitive film. Once I started watching it I was compelled to watch it straight through to the end. I'm so pleased you were able to become well again and sharing your story will help not only those with schizophrenia but with any sort of mental illness. Im not exaggerating when I say this film is a gift to people. It's beautiful - well done x
born2makeu 4 months ago
I don't believe that this is authentic. I thing the man here is an actor, it's too staged.
brucinda01 4 months ago
@brucinda01 well thats your ignorant perception isnt it...
grehan19 4 months ago
@grehan19 There is no need to be rude.
brucinda01 4 months ago
@brucinda01 your calling me rude? the guy in this video talks about his struggle with mental illness since he was a child and u accuse him of being a fake. whos the rude one?
grehan19 4 months ago
@brucinda01 He's been discussing this for quite some time. It's not fake.
SwobyJ 4 months ago
@brucinda01 Would you say such a thing if someone had recounted the story of their battle with cancer? I very much doubt it. This is exactly the type of stigma I was trying to confront.
You've watched 25 minutes of me opening up and condensing what I can really only describe as 10 years of sheer hell and you have the audacity to hide behind your computer screen and say that it's all fake.
Judge me as you will, but think before you speak. You never quite know the effects your words can have.
johnjusthuman 3 months ago 17
@johnjusthuman Hey, don't get upset. It's a compliment to say he's acting, because it shows how normal people with Schizophrenia are. You know, it makes me laugh that you blame me for creating stigma, yet i myself have Schizophrenia. You need to chillout, i'm on your side. xxx
brucinda01 3 months ago
@brucinda01 The video looks "staged" because he went to record sections of his documentary in the places where things happened. That way you could get a better sense of the journey. All documentary's are like that. Would you rather he just sat in one room for 30 minutes and talked? Also, regardless of you suffering from Schizophrenia yourself and saying you're on his side, you still accused him of making it up. Just because you can't see someone's problem, doesn't mean it's not there.
xmaster2 1 month ago
@johnjusthuman I have schizophrenia and my brother, so you don't need to patronise me. I am intitled to my opinion. If you can't hanle it, maybe you shouldn't put videos on Youtube, you idiot.
brucinda01 1 month ago
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ive heard that it runs in families. ive had a great uncle on my moms whose had it, and also a 2nd cousin who has it. sometimes i think my grandmother has it. sometimes i worry if any other familiy members have it.
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MsSMSgirl 4 months ago
I am in love with this guy... damn....
hhiram14 5 months ago
hey, good to hear ur update..hope u doing well...nice documentary tho...
Capiel89 5 months ago
Wow! This is really Good!
russtex 5 months ago
This
was
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AmAzing film
I loved it, and kudos to you for creating it, I want to go on and on, but I shall hold back.
For now.. liked, faved, shared & all the shit
bests, -theJamesPope
JamesEzSecretChannel 5 months ago
My family member who had insomnia and other illness heard about a study on sleep meds (Ambien,Lunesta,ect) Helping pain levels and anxiety. They insisted their doc give them a weeks trial and their pain and coping skills were much better. The new sleep meds were a boon to helping diminish their chronic condition. Their doc was convinced it was a key to them staying well.
memama2 5 months ago
Really inspiring! Watched this in a lecture today and gave a brilliant insight into schizophrenia. Thanks for sharing :)
Plumbobrockstar 5 months ago 2
@Plumbobrockstar Thank-you. Hope it didn't send too many people to sleep! I used to find myself falling asleep all the time in lectures!
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
My boyfriend's mother and uncle both have schizophrenia. i am afraid my boyfriend is starting to experience the onset of the symptoms you described.. Thank you for this video, i will show this to him.
MrAilingequation 5 months ago
@MrAilingequation I'm around if you want to chat at all and there's always the organization MIND who can give you advice about your concerns. Their address is info@mind.org.uk. It's great that your boyfriend has someone like you there to look out for him. I'm sure he'll be ok.
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
@johnjusthuman Thank you for your offer, i have contacted MIND about my boyfriend. Though he is too afraid to talk to someone, he feels ashamed about it. His symptoms seem to get a lot worse when he is drinking, it concerns me greatly.
MrAilingequation 5 months ago
@johnjusthuman Life never stands still, there's often different challenges around the corner. So, you also have to be mentally prepared to receive new information and experiences: people can easily be unaware of the severity of the illness you perhaps went through, and so stereotype us on appearance or with some current notion about 'gay' people. I'm sure things will get better for you.
jtaellio11 5 months ago
@johnjusthuman I'm sure we,ve all felt that other people are having a great time at University, but it's not always the case. You'll get one or two who are life and soul. I remember some homophobic bullying triggered my feelings of illness, difficult to descibe 20 years later. The people who were teasing had no insight into the suffering they inflicted, including some of the lecturers. It was just like the 1960's again in a sense, ironically. Certain things follow a pattern,regardless, I feel.
jtaellio11 5 months ago
@jtaellio11 Thanks for your comment. You're right that there is a more enlightened attitude today toward mental illness and also homosexuality. A lot still needs to change though. The other day I was sitting at the theatre waiting for the show to start and the person behind me kept describing his boss as 'a schizo.' "She's a right schizo, i can't stand her, she's insane" he said whilst laughing. There's still a lot of change that needs to happen- particularly more understanding and also support.
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
@johnjusthuman Yes, you always get a lot of thoughtless people around. Our Uncle was unable to work ever again after he was admitted to Rauceby Mental Hospital in 1966. The ECT therapy did something to his brain, he couldn't piece his thoughts together. You seem completely different, more in control and insightful.
jtaellio11 5 months ago
@johnjusthuman I'm sure we,ve all felt that other people are having a great time at University, but it's not always the case. You'll get one or two who are life and soul. I remember some homophobic bullying triggered my feelings of illness, difficult to descibe 20 years later. The people who were teasing had no insight into the suffering they inflicted, including some of the lecturers. It was just like the 1960's again in a sense, ironically. Certain things follow a pattern,regardless, I feel.
jtaellio11 5 months ago
@johnjusthuman On the good point you made about the 'pull yourself together' attitude, my Dad remembers some old Doctor telling Dad's brother, who also suffered from schizophrenia, to 'do the gardening'. They had nil insight in the 1960's, preferring men to go in the army etc. Thankfully, there's a more enlightened attitude about gay people/ mental illness. I know some people like psychics do hear voices, perhaps you're a more special person who had to go through this. Time will heal also.
jtaellio11 5 months ago
@johnjusthuman This was such an informative video, John, about your experiences dealing with severe mental illness. A lot of people CAN relate to your feelings of isolation and fear, to a lesser or similar degree. You made the very good point that there is a lot of prejudice about mental illness, as there is homosexuality. University can often trigger these feelings of difference. You have done so well, and are attractive with good insight. I would still monitor things like homophobic bullying.
jtaellio11 5 months ago
What a remarkable video. Thank you for sharing your story. You're saving lives with your courage.
condovo 5 months ago
I don't want to sound like a starker but...I SAW YOU AT THE APOLLO!! :D I didn't want to disturb you because you were with friends. It was so nice to see you though :)
Iwritesinsful 5 months ago
@Iwritesinsful You should have come and said hello!!! I would have been so happy to have met you!
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
@johnjusthuman I guess I was just shy :) But its such a small world!
Iwritesinsful 5 months ago
..are you talking about "antidepressents" helping you alone? Or other drugs of which there are dozens specific for "Schizophrenia". And you say you have skitzoaffective disorder. They are not the same thing.
memama2 5 months ago
@memama2 It wasn't just antidepressants...I took Olanzapine for the schizophrenia and Venlaflaxine to overcome the depression. Schizoaffective disorder is a combination of both schizophrenia and depression. The depression was brought on by the schizophrenia i think.
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
johnjusthuman ...if you are this much better? It is a miracle! Have you had any side effects or continue to take meds because if you are med free and hear no voices I am not sure you could be "cured" by a few weeks of anything as schizophrenia is ongoing and you seem to be describing OCD. I pray you are well forever and never have a single day of problem ever again.
memama2 5 months ago
@memama2 I never said i was 'cured' in a few weeks. Far from it. I only came off my medication last year and i've been in and out of therapy ever since being diagnosed. I often get very paranoid still, especially about the smallest things. Sometimes I find myself drifting back towards a psychosis. Anxiety has been my biggest challenge, as well as insomnia. But i've learnt techniques to deal with all these things. And I try and keep positive :) Opening up has helped a great deal too. Thanks.
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
John you have opened up my eyes about mental illness entirely, thank you so much. My g/f is going through some troublesome anxiety at the moment and you have changed my opinion completely - thank you.
georgebirley89 5 months ago
@georgebirley89 Thanks very much. Hope your g/f gets well soon. Things like relaxation/yoga/meditation is really good for anxiety. Cognitive therapy is also useful to combat it. Perhaps your g/f can talk to her GP about this?
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
NO ONE CAN EVER DISLIKE THIS VIDEO THIS IS FUCKING BEAUTIFUL STORY.
fudgebucket55 5 months ago
This video is so helpful... Will be glad to have ur contact n assistance... kwartengababio@yahoo.com
B1811Agyapong87 5 months ago
@B1811Agyapong87 sure i'll send you a message
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
Whilst making your recovery, did you try & limit the amount of bad news that you took in? Such as not reading it. Even doing things like this, seem to have quite a difference for my brother's depression... x
MatthewPollardd 5 months ago
@MatthewPollardd I didn't but I should have at the time. Although in hospital I didn't keep up with the news at all. I think it did make a slight difference, i'm quite sensitive to what goes on around x
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
Nightmares about homelessness, I don't like the dump all label of schizophrenia in itself.
hopokuk 5 months ago
Thank you, John Very important and helpful video! You are providing a very positive and hopeful message!!
philethio 5 months ago
Thank you so much.
saunderspark 5 months ago
Amazing video! The last sentence and the bit of music struck me..
bonpain 5 months ago
vivd, scary memories. the mind is so strong; you seem to be doing better. i love your honesty.
newsblastsocialmedia 5 months ago
Great video, I think I have some kind of problem, can I send you a message? I don't feel comfortable leaving it in the comments
blackxs2008 5 months ago
@blackxs2008 Sure, yeah send me a message.
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
Jonny all I can say is that it's truly horrific, but I am so utterly thankful that you've made this video and that you're strong and still here. I'd have never met such an amazing person, and this video is proof you've out there to help. Understandably, it's incredibly painful. And I feel so terrible, that I wish I'd have been there. A little angry I hadn't. But thankful you're doing better. This documentary is what is needed, you've worked so hard on it and I am so proud of you. So much. xxx
xmaster2 5 months ago
Hi John - your timing is divine. please see my message in your YouTube inbox!!
Was gonna post more here; its in the message.
In short, my 3 years younger brother (21) was admitted basically the DAY you posted this for this condition. We're finally able to visit him (I brought him lunch today) and pull up from an initial and surreal shock... well, your video is inspiring, and instrumental in terms of finding strength now.
It'd be an honor to hear from you. I'll share this with my parents.
ogidni11 5 months ago
@ogidni11 I'm really sorry to hear that. I got your message, just sent you one back :)
johnjusthuman 5 months ago
John, your film is absolutely top shelf.
This deserves to be shown to a very large audience.
I am so impressed with your achievement and honesty as always.
Watching it stirred up the memories of my own illness and black depression when I was at University many years ago. I remember going through all the same thoughts & emotions.
It's great looking back to see how far the human heart & mind can grow back into wellness and happiness.
Peace be with you Brother.
You're a real champion in my book :)
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MatthewPollardd 5 months ago
Thanks for sharing mate!
topup73 5 months ago
Am I the only one who thinks he is "Sexy as a mofo!!!!.... talk about YUM!" lol :)
FritzFashionista 5 months ago 20
Amazing video! I hope you don't mind me asking but what medication were you on for the schizophrenic symptoms?
PsychosisUnitFM2 5 months ago
Great video bro! You really inspire many to not be afraid of people with this. I did a paper on schizophrenia and I learned so much. Your an inspiration!!
COOLIKEDATAZIAN 5 months ago
This took so much courage and dude some of your poem's are were i am at in this life
twittydale 5 months ago
Your story is compelling and riveting, to say the least. I remained glued to my monitor throughout the entirety of this video. The courage it took to tell this story and the fortitude you had to follow it through to the finish are commendable. Thank you for this gift.
HahnJames 5 months ago
I posted this video on my Facebook wall and everyone loves it. Thank you for sharing with us :)
Iwritesinsful 5 months ago
Johnny, I want to thank you for your bravery in making this film. I have never suffered from schizophrenia, but have struggled with depression since the age of about 7 (I am now 48) and feel sure that you will help many people by the courageous way that you are sharing your experience.
You are remarkable.
John.
johnmcdougall 5 months ago
Beautifully well done! I respect your bravery and honesty. Thank you for posting this, Jonny! x
LadyIce48 5 months ago
I admire your courage.
I think your story will help a lot of people.
By the way you are a very nice and handsome young man.
olpe52 5 months ago
Great job, buddy. This was very well put together, and you are very well spoken. It takes a lot of courage to speak openly and honestly about something so personal. Kudos to you :)
Jimplicit 5 months ago
Thank you for this information! I plan on watching this whole video! Since I dont know much about it. :) Good luck :)
123moscowman 5 months ago