i can't remember what made me think i'm fat. it was soo long ago, since like the first or second grade i would cry because i thought i was so fat and ugly. i didn't start starving myself and bingeing and purging until last year though.
I'm sorry that it had to be your mom who triggered this in you. I understand exactly how you feel. For me, I was 10 years old and just starting puberty. I started to feel self-conscious about my thighs getting bigger. I didn't want to wear skirts or shorts anymore because I didn't like feeling them touch. One summer I went to visit family out of state and when I came back, my mom told me I had gotten chubby... And that's when I really lost my innocence... Thank you for sharing this. :)
I was always a shy girl and each year since kindergarten, I grew more self conscious about myself. I got teased so much and when people laugh I would automatically think they're laughing at me. Then, my self esteem hit rock bottom. But now.. I have a very loving boyfriend. He tells me how beautiful I am but I feel as though I don't deserve to be called that at all. On the bright side, we will all be stronger people in the end.
I was in second grade :/ i was like 7 and it was when i started to get kinda chubby.. we were watching a movie in class, and i was wearing a skirt.. sitting down next to a super skinny girl. She looked right at me and was like, "look at those jiggly thighs" :I yeah.. that's how it went.
when i see a beautiful girl like you.. feeling soo bad about herself... i just feel like i'm shit... you are soo much prettier than i am.. i just can't believe you feel like that..it makes me soo sad
wow u made this video 3yrs ago,but I just have to ask..who told u MY childhood story?lol.This video reminds me so much of myself. Can't believe I made a bridge w/someone through my computer screen:))
I used to be a confident kid in elementary school until 4th grade when I went to K-Mart with my mom and saw a guy get shot in the head less than twenty feet from me. I never though it effected me much but looking back on it that seems to be the point at which I became the socially awkward person I am today.
My mom triggered it for me, too. When I was 9, my mom told me I needed to watch what I was eating because my thighs were fat. She didn't even remember. I told her about it a few months ago and how it triggered me and she started crying.
All so so true. I have exactly the same feelings. Thankfully I recovered from anorexia 2 years ago this month. Awful times. You're a beautiful girl too! x
I can't remember not feeling awkward with my body. I was always much taller than other girls and though thin for my height (at the time) I was much bigger than the other girls. I can remember be self-conscious in first grade. Things got worse in the 3rd grade when I started wearing a bra. I wore my jacket the entire year, hoping the other kids would not notice. Things just progressed from there.
omg! my mum was also the thing that started my ed. We were in the car and i was wearing a pair of shorts and my mum said to me ' you shouldnt wear shorts like that' and i said 'why not' and you know what she replied? she said 'because you have thighs like an elephant'. And i've always had a problem with my legs and the fact that my own MOM said it really made my self esteem just plumet and i just stopped eating. i still remember that moment so clearly & i've never felt good about my body since
The first time i felt fat was in 4th grade.. we had to play a game in gym that involved rolling over eachother for some reason.. but after gym a boy that i had a crush on told me that when i rolled over him he thought he heard his bones crack.... and ever since then..11 years later.. i am so embarassed about what i look like even though everyone tells me im not fat... just that ONE comment from a boy in fourth grade ruined how i will think about myself...
You're gorgeous and really should believe in yourself! I can relate to you a lot, it started off with my thighs and carried on...
I remember telling a friend of mine I could only just fit my legs into a size 10 (size 6 in America) and she just said "well you have fat legs then". Society's attitude towards weight sucks.
The first time I felt fat... was in Pre-K, when a boy in my class told me I looked like I was about to have a baby. That's when I started to worry about my weight... but my ED didn't really start until my Uncle painted a picture of me when I was 10, he intentionally made me look much larger than I was, painting me with double chins and such. The next day i started throwing up my food.
I lost my childhood happiness nearly overnight as well... :( I had to pick up and move to another country at the age of 12 and all of a sudden I've been depressed and feeling negetive about myself since that day. Ugh, that was like 10 years ago!
I remember the first time I went completely without food for two or three days in order to lose weight. I was probably nine or ten. When my mom wasn't looking I snuck my breakfast into the trash... That's pretty young I guess.
you are so gorgeous!!! your hair looks super pretty and so does your face!! i guess there are a lot of girls who envy you and a lot of guys who would love to call you their girlfriend!!!
I admire your strength for posting about such a hard time for you in your life..and the start of the whole journey in itself. <3
It was the summer transitioning into highschool. One of my friends wouldn't eat and I couldn't help her through that time with words, so I thought actions would work..so I stopped eating too. Now she's fine, and I still need to have the control of making sure others are okay. Three years later, clinically diagnosed with 'hardcore' bulimia and it's not getting better
sad to say i think your mom knew what she was doing with being very careful with her words so u could not pick up on it,but i think she said them things really under handed to have more control over you.
We who have ED'(s), typically, were very happy & "care-free". I now envy that innocence and FREEDOM that I see in little kids running around, playing as hard as they can w/o a care in the world--no matter how dirty their little faces are or how messy their hair is, the joy that radiates from their laughter, enthusiasm, & huge, genuine smiles are so beautifully authentic & priceless...
-The old cliche,"Misery loves company", happens to be a sad fact.
I could really relate. Its always the negative comments we remember the longest.
I had always been an athletic child. When I hit puberty freshman year of high school, I gained weight and I was uncomfortable about it, and thought about it quite a bit. But the biggest trigger for me came when my father said I could probably do with toning up my thighs when I was in a two piece. Then, the guy I was seeing then dumped me. I rationalized that it was all b/c I was overweight and not good enough.
one of my friends is taller than everyone else and she isn't fat but of course, she weighs more. One day my friends said something about how much did she weigh, and when she said she weighed 100 pounds, they all laughed at her and called her fat. she wasn't of course, but she was tall so that really added to her weight. i defended her...
i remember when i was in the 3rd grade and i was eating lunch. a kid that i have known my whole life was in my class and we were sitting at the same table. he had some snack that he didnt want so he asked if anyone wanted and i said i would take it. he said "no, you eat too much". i think that was probably the time when i started thinking about my weight. jerk.
It really sucks that someone as gorgeous as you worries about things like this so much when people like me don't really give too much thought about it.
I lost mine a looonnng time before 8th grade. I was not fat.. not chubby... just a healthy elementary aged girl. I had two friends who were very small framed.. on the other hand I had a bigger frame and was very athletic and muscular. But still they would brag about how i could never be as skinny as them and to this day I remember then lifting their shirts and telling me this as we were all outside playing.
it's amazing how effective someone's harmless comment can be. i'm not overweight now but i was quite chubby as a kid, and i also started puberty early. when we went on holiday to see some family in a different and hot country, they were tactless!! and very harsh, and not even in a malicious way. but that's why i haven't been in 10 years. i have to go this summer but that really insecure and really exposed feeling always stuck with me. it is a loss of innocence.
umm, i have always been super skinny (im a dancer, ballet) but since i was 11 i have thought i am obese pretty much...im 15 now, 5'3" and 103 pounds...what do you think??
TRUST me. I am a dancer, and even if you were obese (which I highly doubt you are) you don't want to have an eating disorder and have to go to ballet class for 3 hours every day. NOT GOOD!!!! It's really not... I don't know what else to say, I hope my answer will get to you and you will listen to me even though you posted this 6 months ago. PLEASE don't be unhealthy. It's not fun or glamorous or even helpful in any way...
man, your story sucks. the thing is, you'll never forget that and even if you recover, it'll creep up in the back of your mind from time to time. i dunno what to say except that i get where you're coming from and that i encourage you to think about other things, find your purpose :)
i wanted to be attractive to the boys at my school....and i started exercising at home alot and it just down spiraled from there. Istarted to not eat in the mornings and not eat at school and when i came home i would only eat fruits and vegetables, i wouldnt alow myself any fats or proteins (meat) for the fear of gaining weight...i still do this :(
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You need to grow up. You are very skinny, you should be thanking god that theres nothing seriously wrong with you. My friend cant wear a swim suit because she has a skin disease. thats a real reason to be sad.
for me, it was at a summer party (I can't remember my age) and I was getting a third piece of watermelon and my uncle hugged his beautiful wife and said, "Emily, you need to start jogging."
i lost my innocence on how i felt about my body in about 3rd grade after everyone started to make fun of me calling me fat..im in 19th grade and im still called fat once in a while..but in 3-5th grade it was horrible i would come home crying everyday because i literally had no friends and everyone made fun of me because one person told them to =/ but its not like i was skinny because i wasn't but still you know? it was a bit much...
for me it started when I was 8 and my granny grabbed my thigh and stated:"oh, it's all muscles! then it's ok..." so I thought: "ok....did she really think I was FAT????" to explain: I have always been a really sporty and muscular girl, but always slender at the same time. anyway, since that comment I have been feeling really pretty chubby all the time which is now for 15 (!!!) years. terrible, how triggering ONE simple remark can be...
Oh the memory just came to me lol! The bathing suit thing was a different time. I remember I went with my two friends and their moms to go shopping. And it was a store just for young girls. And I remember that I couldn't fit into ANY of the shirts because I had boobs and my friends didn't. Because I hit puberty at nine. So here were my two skinny friends trying on all these cute clothes and me starting to get some curves. It was so embarrassing and I just felt like everyone was judging me.
For me it started way earlier than that. But it did have to do with a bathing suit. Weird huh? But I can't remember what triggered it. It was so early on for me. I think I was like 9. It's awful.
i'm not happy with how i look either but i know i'm not fat. i'm just trying to eat healthier & be happy with who i am. it helps to give yourself a compliment every day.
...Mine was when i was 14,and it was the first time anyone had EVER called me pretty,kinda screwed up right?it just triggered something that made me think so have i been ugly until now?they said it after i had lost a couple of pounds, so that began this whole eating disorder thing for me,making me lose loads of weight so that more people would call me pretty,they did,my lowest weight 88lbs,sorry for rambling,but you're voicing what girls are thinking and feeling,you've said it so well,thank you
Um...I think it was last year...I was 20. One of my "friends" came over and he kept grabbing my "love handles." I started obsessing then... When I walked around at work I could feel the fat moving... I hate my butt in a swim suit, my thighs touch too and they have stretch marks. I wish I weighed 115 again. I weigh 135. I feel fat now. I started only eating 2 meals a day instead of three, and I applaud myself when I eat only one.
I first started obsessing over calories, and how my stomach looked when I was 10.
Peopl had always called me fat kid, jokingly. But it still hurt.
I'h had a very bad day once, and my mum ordered pizza for me. I ate it, and ate a lot. My brother called me fat.
I went to my room and tried to throw it up. When I did I learned that not eating is a lot easier. So i didn't eat, and that's how I was sucked into Anorexia.
My mom said something like that to me...O evreyone used to say that you were fat because your stomach stuck out but now we know that you werent fat you were just bloated because of your celiac. um okay thanks mom.
U have such a captivating presence. U were born 2 be in front of the camera. U R also so incredibly articulate. R U currently pursuing a career in the performing arts and/or broadcasting?
You are so pretty. Don't worry honey, all girls have insecurites. I think mine started when i became a teenager and got new friends that were just so vicious about everybodies flaws. I was always skinny and didn't really think much about my looks until i met them. Now years down the track i don't want to leave my house most days because a bad hair day or most of the time " i'm having a fat day." I don't even want to sleep in because i feel as if it makes my face look fat and puffy. LOL
The first time I felt fat was when i was in grade 2 or 3 and i looked at the skinnier kids and looked down at my stoumach and pinched my fat. I was in the hallways of the shcool when i did that. And than it went from there on and offf. hating myself, loving myself, and than it started to get worse and worse and worse. and now i hate everything about myself
This is a really touchy subject for me. I mean, listening to your story made me cry. haha. I just turned 15 two days ago, but I lost my innocence when I was in the 3rd grade. So I was like, 7 or 6? I have the lowest self esteem ever. I absolutely hate going out, and if I do, my insecurities always transform me into a jerk. Not to everyone else, but to my mom or whoever Im with. Im so paranoid, thinking that everyone is critizising me. Its like a disease. Its the wost and its tearing me apart.
i was skinny as a child my grandma always tried feeding me bc i was too skinny i started2 gain weight nd wen i started skul i was the fatest kid every1 used2 make fun of me but my mom nd grandma acted like nothin was happenin we moved nd istarted swiming nd i got really skinny but i got an injury and had2stop so the weight started comin bck iwas feling good about my self bc i didnt notice i was gainin weight but my mom nd friends started talkin of me beein fat am only 15 =/
i first started feeling fat in probably the third or fourth grade i dun member but i think iwas the fatest kid in the class and my cousin was on her way to being a model and at home all we had to eat was poptarts and other super super fatty foods that was the first time i ever tried starving myself didnt try again till 7th grade
I've always been really skinny. I didn't reach 100 pounds until i was like 16 (i was like 5'2) I never even thought about my body at all until i was 18 and got a boyfriend who told me to get down to 95 pounds. Now I can't stop thinking about it.
@khattamshud; You are a really nasty hating troll. How dare you. I'll bet a thousand dollars you aren't nearly as pretty (or good-looking, since I don't know if you're a guy or girl) You just get your kicks out of trying to make other people feel bad about themselves. That's just sick. Get a life!
I was in high school. I walked into the classroom and my so called best friend was sitting with a few classmates including the boy I liked. I was standing there wearing a new pair of jeans that I thought looked nice. My friend was sitting at her desk. She patted her thighs lightly while looking shocked and stared straight at my thighs saying...."What happened?".
moms always seem to say the wrong things and they really think theyre helping.. they are totally not.. u got triggers in 8th grade... i loved 8th grade i got triggers in the beginning of 10th.. as you said thats when i lost my innocence.. lucky you were carefree..' i always hated my weight but i was happier than i am now.. i was comfortable and ignored the insults but now..smh yup things changed...
Ive had anorexia-and still suffer from it cuz i cant stop-but-u should always love yourself---well u see I was always teased cuz of my weight-and-the same ppl who teased me-try to get me to eat now--I dont understand them --but hey--I love myself for who I am--no matter how I look--or the type of person I am--I'm not ashamed of anything lolz ^^
U are amazing... u look amazing... i mean ive been slightly over weight since i was 6 or 7. i think i relized it when a girl in my 2nd grade class called me big butt for like the entire year. i mean that was in 2nd grade. i still remember having people pick on me. im 15. i never felt ok about myself since then. please dont pick on people if they are fat or short or anything like that. u can do damage. alot more than u may think.
i stopped really eating for weeks.i think the longest i went without eating was one week and 5 days.and when i did eat: it was like half a granola bar.then i started throwing up.
but im better now.i still wish i could lose weight,but im eating more and i havent thrown up in a couple of months.
Furthermore, in the cases of extreme Anorexia/Bulimia the standard "rule of abuse" almost always applies. (And I'm talking in about 85% of cases.) When a person is hospitalized at 90 pounds, with non-functional bowels and/or reproductive system, you can "bet the farm" that this person was abused (and generally, in the case of women, it is sexual in nature.)
The media may make these problems worse, but they are SELDOM (if never) the root cause.
I hate my thighs too, because theyre like..the most fat part of my body, plus they have growing scars on them..But I'm rollerskating now, to make them tighter..Just sucks that its raining in winter, and this whole week too.
One thing that's all it takes, one body part, one moment, one sentance, one obsession and suddenly everything you knew or thought you knew - changes - for good.
you're so pretty i wish i had touching thighs! what's so great about skinny, boney, shapless leggs. idk but i think a skinny girl with slighty bigger thighs is better. and lot of people would agree! especially guys
Promiscuity goes hand-in-hand with anorexia/bulimia. (And sexual abuse.) It's a veritible "one-two" punch to the psyche, and it kills these young ladies more often than not. The two psychological disorders that claim the most lives every year are anorexia and bulimia.
Female anorexics/bulimics use promiscuity as a means of self-validation: If they can get laid, they reason, then they must not be as ugly and wretched as they think they are.
Most anorexics/bulimics are cutters! That's right; they cut themselves. They report they do it for various reasons.
What brings about this type of extreme self-destructive behavior? What makes a young girl wish she was dead? (So much so, that she seeks to starve herself and plays with knives against her skin?)
The answer: Sexual trauma. Abuse. NOT popular media, or t.v. commercials, or the one time when your mom said you had fat thighs.
But most of the time serious Anorexia/Bulimia is attributed to serious trauma. This is a statistical fact.
And you might be suprised to learn that many people (even those you count as your best friends), are not always so willing to divulge info. regarding their possible traumatic past. Often times, they tell NO ONE. (Out of fear, shame, guilt, etc.) Just because your friend does not admit to a trauma, does not mean it did not happen.
Actually, statistically speaking, most anorexics/bulimics have had a serious trauma in their lives. (And it is sexual abuse more often than it is not.) This is a fact, just go ask ANY treatment facility that treats anorexia/bulimia.
The ads on tv may make the problems worse, but they are not its origin.
In the case of abuse, well, the abuser is to blame. But generally it all comes down to a lack of parental involvement, and personal responsibility.
its strange how things change. I can realate! I see these kind of things happening to happy people that think they can take control so they can be happy all the time.. nothing is ever perfect, the more you know the more you relice this. Wish you could let go of the self hatred and accept. it's all about finding a balance.. but its the hardest thing ever, I know :S
for me i was in ninth grade and i had recently moved and couldnt see any of my freinds and had to make new ones my family had a really big meal each friday night and then all the kids of the neigborhood would hang out i relized that the prettier people got more attention and i knew that everyone complimented me that i could eat like a cow and be so thin but after that huge meal my stomach got bigger too so taking lessons from s movie i saw once i made myself puke and then it snowballed
I can't help but think... maybe if you spent some time working in a soup kitchen feeding hungry people, maybe you wouldn't have time to be so self-absorbed. Maybe then you wouldn't feel "fat."
Wow... I don't know what made me start calling myself fat... Either way, I remember the end of 7th grade when we went to the beach with our class. I was wearing a bikini and felt so "fat" that I sat in the shade the entire trip with my arms crossed over my gut. Now, almost a year later, I've quit the swim team and gained about 5 lbs of flub and I feel fatter than ever... I wonder how I could ever have felt fat then, because I was so skinny!
I think you look lovely from what i see, your face is glowing your shoulders and tiny with thin lovely arms. From 3 years old my dad did want to hold me anymore cos i was fat even at 7 i was fat to 13..16 i was fat and you know what i look at pics of me for those years and i wasnt fat at all. I was the size i was ment to be and missed out on everything. I wore large baggy sweaters for years and i could have been lovely, dont wast it your a lovely blond goddess.
You were lucky it happened to you in 8th grade. I went to private schools as well (from kindergarten) and I remember grade 6 other kiks pretended I was the sun and they were orbiting around me. That's how it started for me too... I knew I was fat, but I never really cared until then.
Anyhow, you are a very pretty girl and may God bless you :)
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Women have body image issues because they are weak. Period. Obesity is a healthy issue, and considering this girl is clearly thin, I'm not going to pander to her "AM I FAT?!?" garbaggio. Moles can turn cancerous. I would be more concerned with that, frankly. She is pretty, but only an idiot would whine on about how fat she "feels." Grow up.
oh my god, i can relate so much. i've never been actually categorized as "fat" in my whole, but until about 6 months ago, my inner thighs have always always always touched. i remember being 9 years old and wondering why mine touched and no one else's did. wow, that's crazy.
i am just say that if you listen to this person her preoccupation is solely with her own vanity and neurosis. perhaps if she focussed outside of her own bourgeois quote: "fat rolls" world she might find that comparitively she has little to truly worry about. this person has affluenza which simply does not merit this kind of attention in a world where so much true suffering is occurring, i dont try to offend here just offer some advice.
Thankyou for sharing your story. I hope that women everywhere will understand to never call your kids fat, for whatever reason. People are so insensitive, I don't care if they are family members. The size of a person's thighs has barely anything to do with fat. Usually it is stomach girth. But should never the less be brought up with a kid.
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why not try to be intelligent and interesting instead of boring and self obsessed, you are too affluent and narcissistic - go to most of the world who arent always thinking about themselves. anorexia in africa? i doubt. they are too busy trying to stay alive. you have no life and are one of thousands of empty middleclass american bores. try and see if you are capable about getting over yourself for once. no one really cares too much is the reality.
fat? you are skinny. You are spending your time making videos about the first time you felt fat!Are you that obsessed about your weight that you make videos about the first time you felt fat?give me a break!maybe if most people were not so obsessed about being thin, everyone could relax and eat sometimes without feeling out of place!skinny is not attractice. Curves are better! don't starve yourself, eat and workout.
i can't remember what made me think i'm fat. it was soo long ago, since like the first or second grade i would cry because i thought i was so fat and ugly. i didn't start starving myself and bingeing and purging until last year though.
cmisamazingful 5 months ago
you are describing my life story.. even tho you probably won't read this, i just want you to know that you are inspiring.
killerbrownie37 7 months ago
I'm sorry that it had to be your mom who triggered this in you. I understand exactly how you feel. For me, I was 10 years old and just starting puberty. I started to feel self-conscious about my thighs getting bigger. I didn't want to wear skirts or shorts anymore because I didn't like feeling them touch. One summer I went to visit family out of state and when I came back, my mom told me I had gotten chubby... And that's when I really lost my innocence... Thank you for sharing this. :)
heatheredmiston 8 months ago
Very insightful.. thank you for the video!
I was always a shy girl and each year since kindergarten, I grew more self conscious about myself. I got teased so much and when people laugh I would automatically think they're laughing at me. Then, my self esteem hit rock bottom. But now.. I have a very loving boyfriend. He tells me how beautiful I am but I feel as though I don't deserve to be called that at all. On the bright side, we will all be stronger people in the end.
wolfesong 11 months ago
I was in second grade :/ i was like 7 and it was when i started to get kinda chubby.. we were watching a movie in class, and i was wearing a skirt.. sitting down next to a super skinny girl. She looked right at me and was like, "look at those jiggly thighs" :I yeah.. that's how it went.
yowatzcrackinbiatch 1 year ago
when i see a beautiful girl like you.. feeling soo bad about herself... i just feel like i'm shit... you are soo much prettier than i am.. i just can't believe you feel like that..it makes me soo sad
pidigrimerde 1 year ago
story of my life..
youre one of my role models
Twilight0513 1 year ago
wow u made this video 3yrs ago,but I just have to ask..who told u MY childhood story?lol.This video reminds me so much of myself. Can't believe I made a bridge w/someone through my computer screen:))
philtre27 1 year ago
I used to be a confident kid in elementary school until 4th grade when I went to K-Mart with my mom and saw a guy get shot in the head less than twenty feet from me. I never though it effected me much but looking back on it that seems to be the point at which I became the socially awkward person I am today.
CountVonPappenheim 1 year ago
My mom triggered it for me, too. When I was 9, my mom told me I needed to watch what I was eating because my thighs were fat. She didn't even remember. I told her about it a few months ago and how it triggered me and she started crying.
marahashley 1 year ago
@maliybroke What does that have to do with her mom
taija11 1 year ago
@maliybroke Dude. Don't hate her mom.
taija11 1 year ago
There's some light surrounding you. You should never be worried about what others think.
nikkira78 1 year ago
I was about 12 when I felt that way.
Never changed since then :(
angmingzhen 1 year ago
All so so true. I have exactly the same feelings. Thankfully I recovered from anorexia 2 years ago this month. Awful times. You're a beautiful girl too! x
LouFederer 1 year ago
I can't remember not feeling awkward with my body. I was always much taller than other girls and though thin for my height (at the time) I was much bigger than the other girls. I can remember be self-conscious in first grade. Things got worse in the 3rd grade when I started wearing a bra. I wore my jacket the entire year, hoping the other kids would not notice. Things just progressed from there.
opaqueheart09 1 year ago
wow its so weird how much i can relate to your story
rgdvm93 1 year ago
wow...i still think your amazing
RamonaViciousMonroe 2 years ago
omg! my mum was also the thing that started my ed. We were in the car and i was wearing a pair of shorts and my mum said to me ' you shouldnt wear shorts like that' and i said 'why not' and you know what she replied? she said 'because you have thighs like an elephant'. And i've always had a problem with my legs and the fact that my own MOM said it really made my self esteem just plumet and i just stopped eating. i still remember that moment so clearly & i've never felt good about my body since
aliciaqin1 2 years ago
when you started off about bathing suits at a family reunion, i got a crazy deja vu like feeling.. cause i have pretty much the same story too!
LyssaIsADoll 2 years ago
I have the same kind of story
highmater 2 years ago
Oh god, your mama put her foot in her mouth, didn't she? :(
I'm feeling good today so I really don't wanna think about when I first felt fat.
JasonsLea 2 years ago
i feel horrible. i want to go for a run now...why? i wish mirrors didn't exist
swatkins246 2 years ago
The first time i felt fat was in 4th grade.. we had to play a game in gym that involved rolling over eachother for some reason.. but after gym a boy that i had a crush on told me that when i rolled over him he thought he heard his bones crack.... and ever since then..11 years later.. i am so embarassed about what i look like even though everyone tells me im not fat... just that ONE comment from a boy in fourth grade ruined how i will think about myself...
Amy048 2 years ago 2
You're gorgeous and really should believe in yourself! I can relate to you a lot, it started off with my thighs and carried on...
I remember telling a friend of mine I could only just fit my legs into a size 10 (size 6 in America) and she just said "well you have fat legs then". Society's attitude towards weight sucks.
MissShrinkMe 2 years ago
You ... Are ... Gorgeous. And... Your ... personality... is ... fucking ... awesome!!.... I would love to have a friend like you.
insanelikeafox 2 years ago
The first time I felt fat... was in Pre-K, when a boy in my class told me I looked like I was about to have a baby. That's when I started to worry about my weight... but my ED didn't really start until my Uncle painted a picture of me when I was 10, he intentionally made me look much larger than I was, painting me with double chins and such. The next day i started throwing up my food.
somanydays 2 years ago
that is horrible =(
Amy048 2 years ago
aww thats sad!
weightIoss101 2 years ago
I lost my childhood happiness nearly overnight as well... :( I had to pick up and move to another country at the age of 12 and all of a sudden I've been depressed and feeling negetive about myself since that day. Ugh, that was like 10 years ago!
kmdn1 2 years ago
Don't try to change ever, your such a beautiful girl.
victoriaxxxxxrose 2 years ago 4
I remember the first time I went completely without food for two or three days in order to lose weight. I was probably nine or ten. When my mom wasn't looking I snuck my breakfast into the trash... That's pretty young I guess.
50Aleksandra 2 years ago
you are so gorgeous!!! your hair looks super pretty and so does your face!! i guess there are a lot of girls who envy you and a lot of guys who would love to call you their girlfriend!!!
headkandywhore 2 years ago
I admire your strength for posting about such a hard time for you in your life..and the start of the whole journey in itself. <3
It was the summer transitioning into highschool. One of my friends wouldn't eat and I couldn't help her through that time with words, so I thought actions would work..so I stopped eating too. Now she's fine, and I still need to have the control of making sure others are okay. Three years later, clinically diagnosed with 'hardcore' bulimia and it's not getting better
lindserrrx3 2 years ago
U resemble Zlata the contortionist but i know where you were comming from with ur eating disorder
AKgirlfan 2 years ago
you dont look fat
FutureMarine246 2 years ago 3
sad to say i think your mom knew what she was doing with being very careful with her words so u could not pick up on it,but i think she said them things really under handed to have more control over you.
timm9 2 years ago
That's very insightful & you're very close.
We who have ED'(s), typically, were very happy & "care-free". I now envy that innocence and FREEDOM that I see in little kids running around, playing as hard as they can w/o a care in the world--no matter how dirty their little faces are or how messy their hair is, the joy that radiates from their laughter, enthusiasm, & huge, genuine smiles are so beautifully authentic & priceless...
-The old cliche,"Misery loves company", happens to be a sad fact.
elleOVE333 1 year ago
I think girls with some hips look good.
timm9 2 years ago 3
EVERYONE'S LEGS TOUCH UNLESS YOUR BOW LEGGED!!!!!!! get over it...you know your pretty.
JesusophileFan 2 years ago 2
It's not as easy as just "getting over it".
stephgrandprix 2 years ago 10
That was truly touching. When I get time, I will do a video response to this. You are beautiful. Thank you for posting this.
trulyjess 2 years ago
YOUR STUNNING!!! who cares skinny or fat..id love to look like you anyday :)
christinagomes16 2 years ago 2
I feel so bad when I see such beautiful people like you worried about how you look. Your soo pretty and skinny, your perfect :)
Jerilynski 2 years ago 9
I could really relate. Its always the negative comments we remember the longest.
I had always been an athletic child. When I hit puberty freshman year of high school, I gained weight and I was uncomfortable about it, and thought about it quite a bit. But the biggest trigger for me came when my father said I could probably do with toning up my thighs when I was in a two piece. Then, the guy I was seeing then dumped me. I rationalized that it was all b/c I was overweight and not good enough.
Hollandx 3 years ago
one of my friends is taller than everyone else and she isn't fat but of course, she weighs more. One day my friends said something about how much did she weigh, and when she said she weighed 100 pounds, they all laughed at her and called her fat. she wasn't of course, but she was tall so that really added to her weight. i defended her...
velvetvi 3 years ago
i remember when i was in the 3rd grade and i was eating lunch. a kid that i have known my whole life was in my class and we were sitting at the same table. he had some snack that he didnt want so he asked if anyone wanted and i said i would take it. he said "no, you eat too much". i think that was probably the time when i started thinking about my weight. jerk.
MudByAlexandra 3 years ago
my thighs also touch :( and i hate it...
mienchen07 3 years ago
my thighs touch, but it's not such a big deal really.
velvetvi 3 years ago 4
You're sooooo lucky to be able to say that, and believe it and be confident in that way about yourself. :)
And it's awesome you defended your friend... I wish my friends were supportive in that way.
DancerWithTheBadKnee 2 years ago
People DON'T think you're fat if your thighs touch. I've never heard, or observed this. Your SEXY, but looking into your big blue eyes makes me sad.
AfroSchmuck 3 years ago 3
you are beautiful and such an inspiration
ccchhhhriiisttaaa 3 years ago 3
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I lost my innocence when an attractive woman like you banged my brains out when I was unexpecting it. BTW: I'm not complaining.
111209 3 years ago
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What a pointless vid... Why do I care that you were called fat when you were in 8th grade?... Jesus Christ, grow up, you dumb brainless bitch!
People like you have a serious mental disease.
phoranea 3 years ago
It really sucks that someone as gorgeous as you worries about things like this so much when people like me don't really give too much thought about it.
You really are gorgeous, you know.
flomantha 3 years ago
I lost mine a looonnng time before 8th grade. I was not fat.. not chubby... just a healthy elementary aged girl. I had two friends who were very small framed.. on the other hand I had a bigger frame and was very athletic and muscular. But still they would brag about how i could never be as skinny as them and to this day I remember then lifting their shirts and telling me this as we were all outside playing.
angelgirlmegan 3 years ago
it's amazing how effective someone's harmless comment can be. i'm not overweight now but i was quite chubby as a kid, and i also started puberty early. when we went on holiday to see some family in a different and hot country, they were tactless!! and very harsh, and not even in a malicious way. but that's why i haven't been in 10 years. i have to go this summer but that really insecure and really exposed feeling always stuck with me. it is a loss of innocence.
LoneCookie 3 years ago 2
umm, i have always been super skinny (im a dancer, ballet) but since i was 11 i have thought i am obese pretty much...im 15 now, 5'3" and 103 pounds...what do you think??
crashedxox 3 years ago
TRUST me. I am a dancer, and even if you were obese (which I highly doubt you are) you don't want to have an eating disorder and have to go to ballet class for 3 hours every day. NOT GOOD!!!! It's really not... I don't know what else to say, I hope my answer will get to you and you will listen to me even though you posted this 6 months ago. PLEASE don't be unhealthy. It's not fun or glamorous or even helpful in any way...
DancerWithTheBadKnee 2 years ago
wow. that cousin of yours is A BITCH. i admire people who are comfortabe enough to walk around in bathing suits.
PrincessMe1993 3 years ago
man, your story sucks. the thing is, you'll never forget that and even if you recover, it'll creep up in the back of your mind from time to time. i dunno what to say except that i get where you're coming from and that i encourage you to think about other things, find your purpose :)
rainbowchild888 3 years ago
i wanted to be attractive to the boys at my school....and i started exercising at home alot and it just down spiraled from there. Istarted to not eat in the mornings and not eat at school and when i came home i would only eat fruits and vegetables, i wouldnt alow myself any fats or proteins (meat) for the fear of gaining weight...i still do this :(
emovampie345 3 years ago
I have a lot of overweight people in my family
and my mother is constantly going on about how she needs to diet etc.
For as long as i remember i have worried about my body but i think it started with i was about 8. A boy in my class called me fat for some reason.
I have cared abou how i look since then.
And yet i am still overweight.
My New Year's resolution is to lose 2 stone this year.
and i don't care how i do it.
=]
hananathebanana 3 years ago
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You need to grow up. You are very skinny, you should be thanking god that theres nothing seriously wrong with you. My friend cant wear a swim suit because she has a skin disease. thats a real reason to be sad.
IwantOutt 3 years ago
for me, it was at a summer party (I can't remember my age) and I was getting a third piece of watermelon and my uncle hugged his beautiful wife and said, "Emily, you need to start jogging."
etrox318 3 years ago 2
me when i was about 10 my aunt said to my
sisters that i was getting bigger and then
at 15 i started to feel the pressure about thinking that im fat and up to this point (17yrs) i think back to those words
and i take them thinking that im fat =(
xokizza 3 years ago 2
i lost my innocence on how i felt about my body in about 3rd grade after everyone started to make fun of me calling me fat..im in 19th grade and im still called fat once in a while..but in 3-5th grade it was horrible i would come home crying everyday because i literally had no friends and everyone made fun of me because one person told them to =/ but its not like i was skinny because i wasn't but still you know? it was a bit much...
pr3ttychikita23 3 years ago 2
10th grade lol not 19th
pr3ttychikita23 3 years ago
for me it started when I was 8 and my granny grabbed my thigh and stated:"oh, it's all muscles! then it's ok..." so I thought: "ok....did she really think I was FAT????" to explain: I have always been a really sporty and muscular girl, but always slender at the same time. anyway, since that comment I have been feeling really pretty chubby all the time which is now for 15 (!!!) years. terrible, how triggering ONE simple remark can be...
cecilessati 3 years ago 2
Oh the memory just came to me lol! The bathing suit thing was a different time. I remember I went with my two friends and their moms to go shopping. And it was a store just for young girls. And I remember that I couldn't fit into ANY of the shirts because I had boobs and my friends didn't. Because I hit puberty at nine. So here were my two skinny friends trying on all these cute clothes and me starting to get some curves. It was so embarrassing and I just felt like everyone was judging me.
emilkat64850 3 years ago
For me it started way earlier than that. But it did have to do with a bathing suit. Weird huh? But I can't remember what triggered it. It was so early on for me. I think I was like 9. It's awful.
emilkat64850 3 years ago
how could she say that to you
if she got married to someone in your family
wouldnt he be like ahhh you hoe how could you say that :P
55ashley88 3 years ago
i wish i still didnt care.
goddamn im in 7th grade still.
i've hated how i look for . . about 3 years now.
i started thinking i was fat when my brother kept teasing me about my chubby arms.
but in my opinion; you're gorgeous.
and thank you for sharing your story.
xTEXTINGxADDICTx303 3 years ago
omg thats sad and you shouldn't think ur fat!!!! you can not be fat and not ba skinny
chelsshortie 3 years ago
thanks for sharing!!
i'm not happy with how i look either but i know i'm not fat. i'm just trying to eat healthier & be happy with who i am. it helps to give yourself a compliment every day.
oh & by the way - you're so pretty!
meganchild67 3 years ago
...Mine was when i was 14,and it was the first time anyone had EVER called me pretty,kinda screwed up right?it just triggered something that made me think so have i been ugly until now?they said it after i had lost a couple of pounds, so that began this whole eating disorder thing for me,making me lose loads of weight so that more people would call me pretty,they did,my lowest weight 88lbs,sorry for rambling,but you're voicing what girls are thinking and feeling,you've said it so well,thank you
flamerithia 3 years ago 2
you probably wont believe me, you are gorgeous. It's always easier to believe the bad stuff rather than good...
flamerithia 3 years ago
wow this rele spoke 2 me thanx and for me i waz in 4th grade and it waz some of my fam so ya
cuttiequeen 3 years ago
Um...I think it was last year...I was 20. One of my "friends" came over and he kept grabbing my "love handles." I started obsessing then... When I walked around at work I could feel the fat moving... I hate my butt in a swim suit, my thighs touch too and they have stretch marks. I wish I weighed 115 again. I weigh 135. I feel fat now. I started only eating 2 meals a day instead of three, and I applaud myself when I eat only one.
TransientSylph 3 years ago
I first started obsessing over calories, and how my stomach looked when I was 10.
Peopl had always called me fat kid, jokingly. But it still hurt.
I'h had a very bad day once, and my mum ordered pizza for me. I ate it, and ate a lot. My brother called me fat.
I went to my room and tried to throw it up. When I did I learned that not eating is a lot easier. So i didn't eat, and that's how I was sucked into Anorexia.
AnaPleaseLoveMe 3 years ago
wow. Are you in recovery?
shadowygisele 3 years ago
youre great. no lie
harmani11 3 years ago
You are stunningly beautiful (:
Happens to everyone :(
PinkStarKisses 3 years ago
thanks for sharing :)
Your gorgeous girl, I couldn't stop staring at your lips & your two birthmarks- your so beautiful. Sorry I sound creepy or something...
Lagellys 3 years ago 2
My mom said something like that to me...O evreyone used to say that you were fat because your stomach stuck out but now we know that you werent fat you were just bloated because of your celiac. um okay thanks mom.
livelovelaugh626 3 years ago
U have such a captivating presence. U were born 2 be in front of the camera. U R also so incredibly articulate. R U currently pursuing a career in the performing arts and/or broadcasting?
12mock3lee 3 years ago
You are so pretty. Don't worry honey, all girls have insecurites. I think mine started when i became a teenager and got new friends that were just so vicious about everybodies flaws. I was always skinny and didn't really think much about my looks until i met them. Now years down the track i don't want to leave my house most days because a bad hair day or most of the time " i'm having a fat day." I don't even want to sleep in because i feel as if it makes my face look fat and puffy. LOL
adorablyy 3 years ago
I say straight up no one is perfect.... but the trick is, is finding someone that thinks, with all their heart, that your perfect.
kulls13 3 years ago 3
Are you a model? :) ur so pretty! plus the video almost made me cry! Have an awesome day!
CuteSunYe15 3 years ago
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she cant be a model, she wears too much make up
racheljoyk 3 years ago
wish u could see how beautiful u r... really... ;)
bitterGrrrl 3 years ago 2
american society sucks. So does South Korean society
LuciusSuperbus 3 years ago
The first time I felt fat was when i was in grade 2 or 3 and i looked at the skinnier kids and looked down at my stoumach and pinched my fat. I was in the hallways of the shcool when i did that. And than it went from there on and offf. hating myself, loving myself, and than it started to get worse and worse and worse. and now i hate everything about myself
Lilhammer001 3 years ago
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And I just ate my arm...
toosh45 3 years ago
I feel fat right now...
toosh45 3 years ago
you are absolutely gorgeous.....
illztv 3 years ago
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shut the fuck up, you so hot im only watchign 10 seconds of this shit.... your fucking hot shut the fuck up
bcpsyco 3 years ago
Oh my, you are really beautifull. Do you think you are ugly today? What beautifull eyes you have, with those sweet lips drawing your smile.
Those two "spots" up your lips (i dont know the word in english, Im spanish) are just too cute.
And you look perfect with that weight, healthy.
You have a beutifull light in your eyes.
So nice to meet you.
Zenvideo 3 years ago 5
This is a really touchy subject for me. I mean, listening to your story made me cry. haha. I just turned 15 two days ago, but I lost my innocence when I was in the 3rd grade. So I was like, 7 or 6? I have the lowest self esteem ever. I absolutely hate going out, and if I do, my insecurities always transform me into a jerk. Not to everyone else, but to my mom or whoever Im with. Im so paranoid, thinking that everyone is critizising me. Its like a disease. Its the wost and its tearing me apart.
superduperbrookeface 3 years ago
i first felt fat about 2 years after i moved from canada, so like.. 8. just because i wasnt as bone skinny as some of the kids in my pe class.
chasingstarlights 3 years ago
i was skinny as a child my grandma always tried feeding me bc i was too skinny i started2 gain weight nd wen i started skul i was the fatest kid every1 used2 make fun of me but my mom nd grandma acted like nothin was happenin we moved nd istarted swiming nd i got really skinny but i got an injury and had2stop so the weight started comin bck iwas feling good about my self bc i didnt notice i was gainin weight but my mom nd friends started talkin of me beein fat am only 15 =/
NinaNepenthe 3 years ago
i first started feeling fat in probably the third or fourth grade i dun member but i think iwas the fatest kid in the class and my cousin was on her way to being a model and at home all we had to eat was poptarts and other super super fatty foods that was the first time i ever tried starving myself didnt try again till 7th grade
xempty8beautyx 3 years ago
I've always been really skinny. I didn't reach 100 pounds until i was like 16 (i was like 5'2) I never even thought about my body at all until i was 18 and got a boyfriend who told me to get down to 95 pounds. Now I can't stop thinking about it.
MeHeartsYoo 3 years ago
that boyfriend is soooo not worth your time or energy.
charlieglue 3 years ago 5
yeah I realize that now but now the weight thing isn't about him it's about me. It kinda stuck.
MeHeartsYoo 3 years ago
wow ur lucky...i felt fat in at least 6th grade
dylanluver93 3 years ago
@ melabesas
I really don't want to know how you look like!
cujen88 3 years ago
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damn!! those shit sparks on your upper lip are really disgusting!!!
melabesas 3 years ago
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the tipic stupid brainless blonde whore ja ja
melabesas 3 years ago
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not to mention those nasty ass moles on your lips. what the fuck?
khattamshud 3 years ago
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i think you need to lose a few pounds there, chubbycheeks.
khattamshud 3 years ago
@khattamshud; You are a really nasty hating troll. How dare you. I'll bet a thousand dollars you aren't nearly as pretty (or good-looking, since I don't know if you're a guy or girl) You just get your kicks out of trying to make other people feel bad about themselves. That's just sick. Get a life!
2hotinaz 3 years ago 4
I was in high school. I walked into the classroom and my so called best friend was sitting with a few classmates including the boy I liked. I was standing there wearing a new pair of jeans that I thought looked nice. My friend was sitting at her desk. She patted her thighs lightly while looking shocked and stared straight at my thighs saying...."What happened?".
timbos999 3 years ago
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I really hate watching skinny girls complain about how 'fat' they are i mean really, come on people! GROW UP.
smileeeee45 3 years ago
I live in a giant bucket
obliviousdreamer 3 years ago
MyKiCkNtOoNiE 3 years ago
Ive had anorexia-and still suffer from it cuz i cant stop-but-u should always love yourself---well u see I was always teased cuz of my weight-and-the same ppl who teased me-try to get me to eat now--I dont understand them --but hey--I love myself for who I am--no matter how I look--or the type of person I am--I'm not ashamed of anything lolz ^^
yuliya304 3 years ago
U are amazing... u look amazing... i mean ive been slightly over weight since i was 6 or 7. i think i relized it when a girl in my 2nd grade class called me big butt for like the entire year. i mean that was in 2nd grade. i still remember having people pick on me. im 15. i never felt ok about myself since then. please dont pick on people if they are fat or short or anything like that. u can do damage. alot more than u may think.
AngrySherpa 3 years ago
wow...i don't want to sound like a jerk, but you had it easy...
danipants3116 3 years ago
about last december.
i stopped really eating for weeks.i think the longest i went without eating was one week and 5 days.and when i did eat: it was like half a granola bar.then i started throwing up.
but im better now.i still wish i could lose weight,but im eating more and i havent thrown up in a couple of months.
JamisonJonas 3 years ago
your "cousin person" is a biatch!!!
curryice 3 years ago
ur so pretty
mayreal13 3 years ago
for me it was third grade, and that summer i lost twenty pounds. i was so ashamed, you know?
elocina94 3 years ago 3
Furthermore, in the cases of extreme Anorexia/Bulimia the standard "rule of abuse" almost always applies. (And I'm talking in about 85% of cases.) When a person is hospitalized at 90 pounds, with non-functional bowels and/or reproductive system, you can "bet the farm" that this person was abused (and generally, in the case of women, it is sexual in nature.)
The media may make these problems worse, but they are SELDOM (if never) the root cause.
It is all very unfortunate. :(
MerkavahmkIV 3 years ago
I hate my thighs too, because theyre like..the most fat part of my body, plus they have growing scars on them..But I'm rollerskating now, to make them tighter..Just sucks that its raining in winter, and this whole week too.
sappyxsorb 3 years ago
One thing that's all it takes, one body part, one moment, one sentance, one obsession and suddenly everything you knew or thought you knew - changes - for good.
craaazychiiick 3 years ago
you're so pretty i wish i had touching thighs! what's so great about skinny, boney, shapless leggs. idk but i think a skinny girl with slighty bigger thighs is better. and lot of people would agree! especially guys
liplylips 3 years ago
And yet another bit-o-statistical info!
Promiscuity goes hand-in-hand with anorexia/bulimia. (And sexual abuse.) It's a veritible "one-two" punch to the psyche, and it kills these young ladies more often than not. The two psychological disorders that claim the most lives every year are anorexia and bulimia.
Female anorexics/bulimics use promiscuity as a means of self-validation: If they can get laid, they reason, then they must not be as ugly and wretched as they think they are.
*sigh*
MerkavahmkIV 3 years ago
Another interesting factoid:
Most anorexics/bulimics are cutters! That's right; they cut themselves. They report they do it for various reasons.
What brings about this type of extreme self-destructive behavior? What makes a young girl wish she was dead? (So much so, that she seeks to starve herself and plays with knives against her skin?)
The answer: Sexual trauma. Abuse. NOT popular media, or t.v. commercials, or the one time when your mom said you had fat thighs.
*sigh* kids...
MerkavahmkIV 3 years ago
Um, not always. I know many ppl who were never raped, harassed or abused in anyway but ended up in the hospital because of anorexia.
triathlonqueen 3 years ago
No, not always. Certainly not.
But most of the time serious Anorexia/Bulimia is attributed to serious trauma. This is a statistical fact.
And you might be suprised to learn that many people (even those you count as your best friends), are not always so willing to divulge info. regarding their possible traumatic past. Often times, they tell NO ONE. (Out of fear, shame, guilt, etc.) Just because your friend does not admit to a trauma, does not mean it did not happen.
MerkavahmkIV 3 years ago
Actually, statistically speaking, most anorexics/bulimics have had a serious trauma in their lives. (And it is sexual abuse more often than it is not.) This is a fact, just go ask ANY treatment facility that treats anorexia/bulimia.
The ads on tv may make the problems worse, but they are not its origin.
In the case of abuse, well, the abuser is to blame. But generally it all comes down to a lack of parental involvement, and personal responsibility.
Don't blame anyone but yourself.
MerkavahmkIV 3 years ago
you're so gorgeous. you're GORGEOUS. don't listen to what ANYONE ELSE says. you're beautiful!
electrogreenchic 3 years ago
its strange how things change. I can realate! I see these kind of things happening to happy people that think they can take control so they can be happy all the time.. nothing is ever perfect, the more you know the more you relice this. Wish you could let go of the self hatred and accept. it's all about finding a balance.. but its the hardest thing ever, I know :S
Alvette 3 years ago
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man you are really a fat slob. lose some weight you fat ugly cow, put down the cheeseburgers.
stupid fat americans
werethename 3 years ago
who the fuck are you to be judging someone, you fuckin ignorant asshole!!!!!!!!!!!!
ktygrl01 3 years ago 7
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i'm your daddy bitch
werethename 3 years ago
for me i was in ninth grade and i had recently moved and couldnt see any of my freinds and had to make new ones my family had a really big meal each friday night and then all the kids of the neigborhood would hang out i relized that the prettier people got more attention and i knew that everyone complimented me that i could eat like a cow and be so thin but after that huge meal my stomach got bigger too so taking lessons from s movie i saw once i made myself puke and then it snowballed
RivRacOst 3 years ago
That's almost exactly like my story... hehe
triathlonqueen 3 years ago
my thighs touch
ive never really put much thought in2 that but now im thinking :| ohh im soooooo fatttt o well fuckk ittt '' who gives a shit like .
laurajaynehall08 3 years ago 2
ur gorgeous
cullenvampssluv 3 years ago
I can't help but think... maybe if you spent some time working in a soup kitchen feeding hungry people, maybe you wouldn't have time to be so self-absorbed. Maybe then you wouldn't feel "fat."
jonesy1995 3 years ago 2
its funny how those who have the negative comments such as bennedettocharlotte never have the guts to post any of their own pictures or videos.
perfect1daysoon 3 years ago 7
Wow... I don't know what made me start calling myself fat... Either way, I remember the end of 7th grade when we went to the beach with our class. I was wearing a bikini and felt so "fat" that I sat in the shade the entire trip with my arms crossed over my gut. Now, almost a year later, I've quit the swim team and gained about 5 lbs of flub and I feel fatter than ever... I wonder how I could ever have felt fat then, because I was so skinny!
triathlonqueen 3 years ago
I think you look lovely from what i see, your face is glowing your shoulders and tiny with thin lovely arms. From 3 years old my dad did want to hold me anymore cos i was fat even at 7 i was fat to 13..16 i was fat and you know what i look at pics of me for those years and i wasnt fat at all. I was the size i was ment to be and missed out on everything. I wore large baggy sweaters for years and i could have been lovely, dont wast it your a lovely blond goddess.
Geszelda 3 years ago 4
You were lucky it happened to you in 8th grade. I went to private schools as well (from kindergarten) and I remember grade 6 other kiks pretended I was the sun and they were orbiting around me. That's how it started for me too... I knew I was fat, but I never really cared until then.
Anyhow, you are a very pretty girl and may God bless you :)
puggyiscute 3 years ago 2
thats exactly how it happened for me. the whole thighs touching thing is my main obsession. and i was lucky enough to be carefree until i was 15
pbjseaturtles 3 years ago 2
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Women have body image issues because they are weak. Period. Obesity is a healthy issue, and considering this girl is clearly thin, I'm not going to pander to her "AM I FAT?!?" garbaggio. Moles can turn cancerous. I would be more concerned with that, frankly. She is pretty, but only an idiot would whine on about how fat she "feels." Grow up.
benedettocharlotte 3 years ago
women are not weak, it's only set in this messed up patriarchy!Men like you oppress women and that quite frankly concerns me!
ryoko79 3 years ago 2
..benedettocharlotte...how sad..
ryoko79 3 years ago
they are jeliouse (i cant spell) of how pritty she is! your pritty.
girlwithoutaface 3 years ago 2
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I'd really be more concerned with whatever that is on your upper lip, sweetie.
b3n3d3tt0ch4rl0tt3 3 years ago
Shut up!
KatrinTube 3 years ago
you are a dick
how deluded are u
u target a girl already with major body issues
and tell her she has something else
that she has to potentially worry about
try to think a little b4 open ur obnoxious mouth nxt time
tess19888 3 years ago 2
you're beautiful
lupiuxyoyo 3 years ago 3
i can relate to that... it's good you stated your opinion on here!
marla6singer 3 years ago
WOW that cuzin of yoorz that woz married into the family woz a reely bitch
reberoo8 3 years ago
i feel bad for you
XxKabukiAngelxX 3 years ago
oh my god, i can relate so much. i've never been actually categorized as "fat" in my whole, but until about 6 months ago, my inner thighs have always always always touched. i remember being 9 years old and wondering why mine touched and no one else's did. wow, that's crazy.
klsoren1 3 years ago
i realized i was fat when...lol as long as i could remember! not no more! WHOO...LOL
truvipbabee 3 years ago
i am just say that if you listen to this person her preoccupation is solely with her own vanity and neurosis. perhaps if she focussed outside of her own bourgeois quote: "fat rolls" world she might find that comparitively she has little to truly worry about. this person has affluenza which simply does not merit this kind of attention in a world where so much true suffering is occurring, i dont try to offend here just offer some advice.
penseurlibre 3 years ago
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It's not her fault that the kids in Africa don't have any food, isit?
greengreen48 3 years ago
Quote: why not try to be intelligent and interesting instead of boring and self obsessed.
Quote: you have no life and are one of thousands of empty middleclass american bores
You dont try to offend here?
Yah. And bush is doing america a lot of good.
OnHerFeet 3 years ago
hahaha. the indifference must be killing you. i know its killing me
werethename 3 years ago
Hmm..Wtf are you on about?
OnHerFeet 3 years ago
don't act like you don't understand....
you know what the word indifference means don't you?
werethename 3 years ago
I didn't realise people ("normal" people) think you're fat if your thighs touch.
It's kind of disturbing.
0fayelynn0 3 years ago
Thankyou for sharing your story. I hope that women everywhere will understand to never call your kids fat, for whatever reason. People are so insensitive, I don't care if they are family members. The size of a person's thighs has barely anything to do with fat. Usually it is stomach girth. But should never the less be brought up with a kid.
incognitoincarnate 3 years ago
i started to think i was fat when i was 8 years old....
heymf 3 years ago
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why not try to be intelligent and interesting instead of boring and self obsessed, you are too affluent and narcissistic - go to most of the world who arent always thinking about themselves. anorexia in africa? i doubt. they are too busy trying to stay alive. you have no life and are one of thousands of empty middleclass american bores. try and see if you are capable about getting over yourself for once. no one really cares too much is the reality.
penseurlibre 3 years ago
Sweet eyebrows.
Personally, I love thicker women anyway. I don't see why girls want to be so damn skinny.
Shapelander 3 years ago
Your so pretty :)
Sarah10160 3 years ago
fat? you are skinny. You are spending your time making videos about the first time you felt fat!Are you that obsessed about your weight that you make videos about the first time you felt fat?give me a break!maybe if most people were not so obsessed about being thin, everyone could relax and eat sometimes without feeling out of place!skinny is not attractice. Curves are better! don't starve yourself, eat and workout.
poeticsoul2608 3 years ago