10. Bipolar Disorder & Consciousness Part 2: Who Heals, Who Doesn´t

[deirdreofthesorrows]

I am slowly learning to Confront family and friends at 'their' level of consiousness, otherwise its straight to the funny farm for me, again. urg! level one sounds lovely ignorance is bliss :P

[bipolarorwakingup]

@deirdreofthesorrows LOL!

[EliteHorde]

Interesting. the soteria thing is interesting too

[rykandenveezy123]

your addressing the manic episodes but what about the depressive lows that go along with bipolar disorder.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@rykandenveezy123 See video #5 as well as my video on How to Heal Depression. This isn't the whole story of depression, but it explains a lot.

[rykandenveezy123]

@bipolarorwakingup This may seem all well and fine and maybe your correct about the different stages but ive been dealing with depression for over 4 years and have gotten no where. your talking to a person which at 18 has high blood pressure, anxiety, depression, periods of mania, and ED. Or, bipolar disorder. i have yet to give up hope on a med free cure but im close to giving up. any helpful ideas?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@rykandenveezy123 If your periods of mania are my hypomanic, without psychosis and you are unmedicated and functioning OK, I would highly recommed holotropic breathwork. There is a new book by Dr.Stann Grof available on it, and I and taking their course in order to be a practicioner. It helps you release the emotional repressions and trauama that may be holding you back.

[rykandenveezy123]

@bipolarorwakingup i have been looking into the breathwork and i practiced some basics at my home. i think that i may be able to overcome my disorder with the proper help. do you know of any places that are doing this sort of therapy and recovery. i would like to focus my efforts on recovery alone. with out medication. unfortunatly i think the only way to do that would be to devote myself to that, which i think wud only be done thru a center that focuses on this.

[movadoband]

bipolar softened me up enough to be able to consider that my religion was wrong, once I was able to consider to look objectively it still took time to accept these realizations, I'm still learning.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@movadoband I was tough on science AND "one-true faith" religion in this video. Both think they hold the entire truth...but things are changing...

[aprilmalone1]

I relate to Eliana. Although- I was completely unsupported and terribly afraid and HAD to take care or break. I took care.

[photographa]

Yep, i beleive i'm post modern. And lately i'm just thinking "jesus how confused i am" it's like i want to scream!

[bipolarorwakingup]

@photographa Having been there myself, I assure you, post-modern is, by far, the most confusing level to be at. Its like you that that everyone has a valid opinion or perspective, with the exception of YOU! And your horrible society of course. :D

The ONLY way out is to just get comfortable with the uncertainly of everything and trust your intuition more.

[photographa]

@bipolarorwakingup oh i know what i have to do lol but i don't know how to do it. I still get piss off easily and i still feel so confused and every time i regret why i haven't listen my intuition more. All in all, it;s really frustrating. Thanks for reply:-)

Love your work. As i know i'm not bipolar, but i truly enjoyed watching your videos and learning new things. Regards

[bipolarorwakingup]

@photographa Hey, I`m pretty frustrated myself these days so you are in good company!

[photographa]

@bipolarorwakingup :-)

[IAMLEGEND2545]

You described me perfectly man..but I still have a major problem, dating seems ridiculous to me almost, there's wayy too much awkwardness, and these girls don't understand me at all! and it's killing me man so much, its like im too spiritual or something, but maybe its THEM with their egos...brainwashed...

[playaeyez17]

@IAMLEGEND2545 whats up man I felt the same way It's sad but thats the majority of them in this fake little american-idol-ized society, dime a dozen makes for an individuality bankrupt

[bipolarorwakingup]

@itshoisfonky You can´t. You need 24 hour support during these experiences and probably should stay away from work for a few months. I know, it ain´t easy in today´s world.

[MrJmg071769]

Your videos are fantastic. Great way of explaining everything. Bipolar is connected to so many other internal areas of life.

[jokinghorsepub]

You will love Dr Hawkins. Let me know how things go- :). I contacted you via email as well (Darcie French)

[jokinghorsepub]

Have you heard of Dr David R Hawkins Map of Consciousness? I've called what happened to my brain physiology "illumination"- was lead to inquire about mysticism, although, I did ask to see a psychiatrist and was not diagnosed as bipolar. This dr actually supported the prospect of enlightenment vs mental illness so was able to provide non-med support. The letting go of the shame to reach highs of love is integral to the experience. Good work- you are telling my story too- thank-you.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@jokinghorsepub I've never heard of him. I'l be sure to look him up. thank you!

[BRUMARTUBE]

You make interesting remarks. Some of those can, perhaps, be applied also to the experience with entheogen. Some people have so much prejudice about "god", and feel themselves so much separated from it, that they cannot surrender to it when revealed from inside. They can take that for a demon, and they may panic. Bad trip.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@BRUMARTUBE Hey! somebody out there gets it!

[melissacarl2002]

wow.

1215 (dot) org/lawnotes/lawnotes/jurisdic­tion.htm

[powerpuffboy1000]

Good videos. I'm watching them all. I've been put on meds for 'generalized social anxiety disorder' and now i'm bi polar and I know it's because of the meds. Good trade thanks doc.

[boogiebuddy01]

its the culture that labels you and i

playing 2nd life is a good way to put things in perspective

i think just being in nature helps me the most

lighting a fire

being alone

climbing some trees

watching the stars

[boricuamm707]

With my personal experience, I do have a spiritual awareness come with mania. My main problem, where I seek medication, is controlling my depression. If I only had mania, I would never have a problem and never seek medication.

[bringmeahigherlovem8]

"Judge them by what they can build, not what they can destroy."

I'd like to say that since neither grammar, biology nor "credibility" have been able to save my life or my soul ~ THANK YOU FOR POSTING THESE VIDEOS!

Also ~in my subjective opinion which could of course be wrong but which I value greatly ~ for an enlightened person a statement such as "sorry, don't hate me" marks fear of being judged ~ a repression! It's ok though, WE'RE ALL STILL LEARNING! :) THANK YOU!!!!

[SapphireVelvet]

And yes, that includes a higher level of spirituality. I would also encourage those watching to embrace the wisdom in cell biology as well as Unified Field Theory. It all matters and it all makes sense. Until then, please rely on meds to help you through. For some still learning they are a god-send and will continue to be. To bipolarorwakingup, your usage of the word 'effect' in this video is incorrect. It should be 'affect.' This decreases your credibility as an informer. Sorry, don't hate me.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Effect & affect....I always get those two mixed up.

As for my credibility. I'm on Youtube. My only credibility is that, for the most part, my videos accurately reflect the experience that thousands of people are going through - not everybody...but a lot.

[SapphireVelvet]

I am a mental health "expert' and have many years of experience within the field. I have also reached a high level of spirituality that I have come to learn, never ends. I commend your authoritativeness on the subject and I find it both compelling and didactic, presented so that the average person can understand. However, I would encourage a softer side to acceptance of mental illness. Both genetics and learned behavior plays out here. The key lies in continual learning about yourself.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Have you ever been in an acute psychosis? Without experience on the Other Side, your grammar can be perfect, but regarding mental health, without experience in madness yourself, you will always be a virgin. Mind you, my more recent videos are 'softer', as you say....

[SapphireVelvet]

Oh my. You don't take constructive criticism very well. All people experience degrees of madness into diverse mental disorders. It is part and parcel of the human condition. What I personally experience is not up for discussion as I have not made it so. Furthermore, in the future you may want to simply express a "Thank you for your observation you-tube watcher. I appreciate and value all points expressed, as they help me learn much." Hmmm?? Isn't that kinder and nicer to your viewers?

[bipolarorwakingup]

You thought that was tough? I thought I was being polite. Constructive criticism runs both ways.

[Chii4Cheesecake]

Mental health specialist.... I say lol. That's all I have to say.

[powerpuffboy1000]

@Chii4Cheesecake

Ya specialist ya you're special alright and not in a good way. You know most psychiatrists are on anti psychotic/depressant meds?? That says a lot about the field.

[blahblahblahman]

SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE?!! What are you talking about, sir?!

You call this shit a SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE?! This is TORTURE, that's what it is. "Bi-polar" disorder is not some fucking GIFT, this is a CURSE. Sure there are times when I'm manic that I feel great and on top of the world, but for the most part this has ruined my life, and without meds I cannot function properly.

I am a little annoyed right now because I do not understand this new age spiritual mumbo-jumbo you're talking about.

[mephesh]

No one really knows, so you are right in being sceptical. The guy speaks authoritatively when really he can only be speculating because its such a complicated topic. He is trying to put bipolar in a positive light but to me, in a secular point of view and a sceptic, I would be hesitant to move towards this modern psychology spiritual experience.

[Chii4Cheesecake]

Hey hey, know its tough, But the big thing here is if you can't "change yourself" the idea is to change your surroundings, NOT medicate, Im not 100% against medication in the right context but you have to remember EVERYTHING in moderation. Have you tried natural medicines tho? There are alot of herbs out there that can be made into calming teas that can help you through episodes, bipolar can be calmed naturally! You don't have to just take drugs. I was diagnosed with bipolar at the age of 7

[Chii4Cheesecake]

And was heavily medicated most of my life, put in wards and hos[pitals. I was once hospitalized for 3 years straight. And for the longest time I saw it that way too. This is a fucking CURSE. Get me the fuck out of this! And I would cry and scream and yell at GOD like "why the fuck are you doing this to me?? I havnt even done anything so wrong!" I tried to kill myself repeatedly.

[Chii4Cheesecake]

But since moving to portland and surrounding myself with spiritual people (not christians) I have come to a higher copnsiousness and Im NOT taking meds. I don't freak out anymore, Ive said fuck you to "drama' and I am generally a much better person. And since "earning my wings" everyone around me has taken the last year into account and seen tremendous spiritual growth!

[jdmk20guy]

so what u are saying is go with the flow ??ill b fine?

[bipolarorwakingup]

That sounds like a plan.

[jdmk20guy]

i feel kinda better knowing what i have understanding im staying as positive as i can

[jdmk20guy]

today is my 16th birthday and i realize that im not fine i will live with this my whole life maybe its just the enviroment im in i just feel like its too late hopefully i make it to 18 get a job live the life i wanna live thanx

[sivko23]

Sean very good point about post modern, this is so true, if we dont doubt we accept and from acceptance comes healing, this is a proven fact.

However minds are conditioned and this maturing of mind needs to take time.

[SolusWanderer]

this is insane this is kinda like those people in that one church that protest at soldiers graves and say they should die.... rediculous you must have done alot of drugs or something

[bipolarorwakingup]

I´ve never done any drugs...not even weed.

[Famehater]

@bipolarorwakingup i stoped smoking weed about a year ago, what stopped me was i was in a relationship with a girl who rejected me after i got very scared of losing her and she thot i was being "clingy"i got relli suicidal, i have recently came to realise the reason i needed her so much was she was the first person i ever opened up to and she helped me through my disorer but i have never been diagnosed altho i told her i thot i was bi polar she laughed it off, is this experience normal?

[babiesarefood]

i forgot to mention I endured countless hours of therapy, hospitalization and prescription drugs which made me feel hollow and even worse than before before I decided to let myself be.

[bipolarorwakingup]

How are you now? Have we talked yet?

[babiesarefood]

well, i don't really know how i am, but thanks for asking. i guess i'm just getting exhausted from realizing the truth about life, because every time i realize something new, it adds an extra weight on my life bringing me down. questioning things all the time.

[AlmostFamous2009]

@babiesarefood its good to keep questioning, its what we do, its how we realise who and what we are and what indefinatley will set us apart from the normal people which i think is a great thing, just remember if you think youve found who you are by questioning and you dont like what you find then thats not who you are , you are what you love never forget that

[babiesarefood]

i am a 17 year old girl and I too had a similar experience. I was having "insane" thoughts and I couldn't stand being in my own head.

These were thoughts of how the world truly is and of how insignificant we are and I was obsessed with reality and space and death and the never-ending questioning of all things.

I had to come to my own answers and conclusions and I am grateful I let myself do so, or I would have never entered such a wonderful state of being.

[christl301]

I have bipolar type one, and very much feel it was a "Spiritual Awakening" I have been medicated for ten years and feel it would be a bad idea to go off my meds but wish I could and believe one day I will, when I'm ready.

[bipolarorwakingup]

I think it will get easier for people like yourself, medicated for 10 years, as time passes. In the meantime, a more spiritual approach to life can get you ready. Its never to late to get in touch with your inner spirit. My latest video is about that.

[christl301]

I don't really want to be unwell again and I don't want to be medicated and I hope there is a balance.

[Famehater]

@christl301 i dont want to be disrespectfull to you but i see you probobly have religeous beliefs,and in my experience the worst thing for bi polar people to have is a belief in religeon altho it can seem to be the olny thing that helps sometimes it was olny when i realised what i was feeling was beyond any religeon of the past that i bacame stable and happy even elated,

[christl301]

@Famehater Where did you get the idea I am religeous, a part from the time I thought I was Jesus....Lol I"m just a happy medicated loon.

[Famehater]

ohh ok XD

yeah i was similar altho i didnt think i was crist i thot i was a representative of some alien race who was put here to help the human species find its true self, well in someways i still believe it lol

[TerryOlinger]

'Spiritual Emergency: When Personal Transformation Becomes a Crisis' -

Stanislov and Christina Grof. Validates what you are saying, for doubters....

Keep posting!!

[bipolarorwakingup]

I list that book in my reading list. I´m all about the Grof´s baby!!!

[TerryOlinger]

I love them. "Adventure of Self-Discovery" Hololropic breathwork., and such. Haven't seen your reading list. All reading lately has been pretty much K. Yoga. Very interesting. More vidoes tomorrow.

[wolffenhaus]

what I needed was radical doses of love. I was suffocating from the regular and needed to see joy in action. After reading A course in Miracles and other spiritual works my "emergency" was right and powerful. I was mishandled (to put it mildly) . Your exploration is unique and necessary. Break new ground and God speed your journey.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Make sure you see parts 1 and 3 of this series! This is an edited repost.  I´d also love to hear more of your story if you want to write me.