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  • So selfish to voluntarily force others to care for you because of a mental defect. Just awful.

  • dis is too sad to watch, sh** and thinking i was there ....

  • @ returnToAus...welcome to the world of eating disorders they are showing this so u can see just wot its like and wot she goes through day to day...if u dont like it and it disgusts u dont watch ...simple!!

  • i can't stand these extended shots of her eating. they're loud and just off-putting.

  • skulla vært tvangsinnlakt denne jenta å fått hjelp å kjærlighet

  • This is sooo depressing :(

  • Seeing her chew the food..arranging it....hearing her voice....I didn't understand the cause of her illness the sound is not clear but she is a God's child now. Poor innocent soul. Rest in peace.

  • some ppl should not be allowed to have children! That poor woman, God rest her soul... I hope she has found the love she so craved!

  • Her parents are the only disgusting people!

  • what a beautiful girl, she didnt deserve any of this, i hope she's happier up there, she deserves to be happy xx

  • her voice sounds childish, possably did, possably the eating disorder. This must have been heart bracking for her to talk about

  • @scans4uni yeah, i cant hardly make out what she is even saying. i have to keep rewinding it and still i'm unable to understand.. the part where they show her eating, gulping and slurping is louder then when she talks.. almost annoying to a degree.

  • Sad thing is that a lot of people at the NIH don't think things through. The LAST thing they should have done is allowed Caraline to shut herself away with enough money to just spend on food.

    They should have given her someone to assist her in living or something to manage her meals. Lots of people with mental illness, ESPECIALLY eating disorders tend to just hide away and nest.

    They enabled her and helped her kill herself. Pathetic. I hope they've revamped their system.

  • it is unfortunately not quite that easy... i live in a similar situation (to the point that i was very recently told the MH team i'm seeing is expecting that i'm one of the people they will loose because they couldn't help me).

    i, like caraline have been offered serveral opportunities to get my eating under control, but have so far been unable to do so. until i feel there is something worth staying in this world for all these attempts will be worthless, but they did exist and i even value them!

  • it is unfortunately not quite that easy... i live in a similar situation (to the point that i was very recently told the MH team i'm seeing is expecting that i'm one of the people they will loose because they couldn't help me).

    i, like caraline have been offered serveral opportunities to get my eating under control, but have so far been unable to do so. until i feel there is something worth staying in this world for all these attempts will be worthless, but they did exist and i even value them!

  • @hexenbesen1981 I was like that too. The idea of eing closer to death than life appealed to me. I had a psyche who said "Why don't you just see what you're sticking around for? Have a go at life.We're all here to help you. If you don't like it, you can always go back to where you are - but just - maybe if you're ready - just give it a go." Of course it still took over a year for it to really sink in, but l will never forget it.

  • @chargedchaos not only does it not sound sick, it sounds too mild a punishment for such scum.

  • watching this made me soooooo hungry.....i must of took in about 2600 calories or her monthly intake just during part 2

  • Where has the first part disappeared to? I watched it about 3 weeks ago.

  • its like her life evolves on food and house thats awful she should have a job to get busy with

  • I can feel my heart cracking at the seams watching this. It really is horrendous. To be 29 and so utterly broken. R.I.P. Caraline.

  • Genuinely the most heartbreaking thing to watch. I remember watching video about a year ago on here and it haunted me back then and will haunt me once again. This poor young, beautiful woman went through so much trauma and abuse as a child that she ended up hating herself so much that she resorted to these behaviours. It's heartbreaking to watch her eat like a child on the floor. 29 was far too young, I hope she's in peace now.

  • Its so sad, I felt my heart drop when she said she was going to enjoy her soup, cos with that disorder, she can never really enjoy it :( Rest in piece

  • watching her eat is vilely disgusting.

  • @rachellysak

    I feel lucky to be recovered of this illness, but I do take a bit of offense to your comment & I'll tell you why. People that are "normal" those that don't care what they're eating but can ENJOY it are disgusting to me. 4 years into recovery & I still don't enjoy food. I can't. When I see someone that can like what they're eating & not think about it, it makes me jealous & disgusts me. It disgusts me the way they eat. The sounds they make. It disgusts me entirely. So don't dis her.

  • Where's part 1?

  • @monstrar18 Just click on the down arrow up above the video right by the user name and you can find part 1.

  • I think half the problem was that her psychiatrist was male.... most women cannot fully open themselves to a male shrink - that might have contributed a little bit, at least, to her ED.

  • @ChukchiCatori Not necessarily, I think the problem is the other way around, male psychologists taking a gender essentialist approach to therapy. Perhaps it was only my poor experiences though. The women counselors were good about delving into personal issues when the men just wanted to talk about fashion magazines and what I assumed were outdated theories about fear of sexual maturity.

  • @ideoplastic that's why I said "most women", certainly not all women

  • @ChukchiCatori Doubt it's even the majority of women, though. Do you have professional training? Is there anything in your background to make that an educated guess and not something you randomly thought of?

  • @ideoplastic Does it even matter what my qualifications are? Youtube is an opinion-based site. I was merely stating my opinion, not attempting to state fact.

  • it's so painfull to see her trying to swallow....

  • damn shame all that food and money wastted and nothing and noone saved her. u can take videos and document but why wasnt there more help??

  • This absolutely breaks my heart.

  • This is so sad.

  • What is wrong with men? Why do they find children as sexual attraction and have sex with them. This is the outcome of some of the damage done to sexually abused children. Others can become abusers.Sick. Caraline has internalized a lot. I'd bet she did not tell all of the horrors that have happened to this poor woman.She seems still childlike in her mannerims. I hope her father and mother(monsters) were punished.Caraline you RIP now your pain is over. Bless her siblings

  • how old is she? does anyone know?

  • @ILoveCityAndColour she was 29

  • how can anyone understand anything shes saying?

  • What the heck is she saying? I cannot understand a word she's saying. I would have liked to have captions so I can understand her. Good video though thanks for posting

  • i bet she loves the feel of rusty spoons against her salad fingers.

  • @ThePlayForToday HAHAHA SALAD FINGERS! But wrong video to comment about this, lmao.

  • very sad

    look how sunken in her eyes are.

  • this reminds me of the karen carpenter story , her mother never fully loved her , so she seeked control and thats how she died of anorexia..poor souls

  • She almost sounds like she could be Salad Fingers...

  • @Pepittoz I'm quite sure she was one of the inspirations behind it cause I thought the same thing when I first saw it...

  • do these videos have american subtitles?

  • @olliebeem  american?

  • what did her parents do? but at some point you have to take responsibility for your own actions and grow up, but also being anorexic your brain doesnt function that way you cant really function at all.

  • i cant understand a word shes saying

  • @mousette8 she doesn't have power to talk

  • Yup that is a symptom of Anorexia/bulimia. - it's the body's evident desperation for food - for survival. An animal instinct. It's so sad.

  • Why didn't they just hold her down, stick a needle in her arm, and administer a few TPN bags?

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  • @18lilstarz get bent (:

  • she looks so unhappy :(

  • she sounds like salad fingers.

  • I can relate to her so much. I can't stop crying watching this. She was beautiful. It's such a shame she had a negative relationship with her parents - I am grateful that that is something I don't relate with. I hope she is happier now, much happier than she has ever been.

  • everytime I see her I feel like crying from everything she goes through ='[ god bless her..

  • cant even understand a god damn word she says...they should've put some sub titles...

  • This is so sad :-(

    my mum was friends with her in school. RIP i hope she's happy and no longer in pain wherever she is now.xx

  • I'm afraid to finish watching will later It makes me queasy watching maybe thats how she feels how she first describes its. This goes to show you America, we need more health education. To be thin dont starve! eat and workout with a well balance the more you want to heavy your workout eat healthy and u will get there. Too sad to die there is much more than this this world needs help but 1st help yourself.

  • Did you...... watch the video? She was deeply traumatized from abuse when she was a child, so it went hand in hand with her eating disorder. Don't go spouting slogans about "To be thin don't starve", and "eat and work out" bologna. I agree that America needs better health education, but your response to this particular case doesn't quite fit.

  • where the hell was the help for her? poor woman, The dreadful reality is there are more people suffering in silence out there in her position, who will go un noticed. Her parents should have been strung up, the evil bastards.

  • this has made me wanna get better so baf

  • She's binging...

  • Horrible , awful , evil illness ! Why do anorexics do this to themseves ? Where are the psychologists to help these poor people ? A horrid disease born of a moment of human insanity : obsession woth thinness.

  • Yeah... and en illness of prosperity...

  • Subtitles PUHLEEZE!!!!!!!!

  • I wish i was there when her parents were about to abuse her, and i would beat the shit out of both of em, this is such a sad story, poor girl

  • Actually many people who suffer from trauma in childhood have childlike voices. It's not the bulimia that has made her voice so high.

  • i dont know if i can agree with you..

    bulimia can destroy your voice box!!

    i have very deep voice,deeper then my boyfriend,

    because of bulimia.

  • No joke =(

    its especially bad for singers

  • I think her voice is so soft because she is exhausted and her body is dying. It's just another symptom of her illness.

    I also think her abuse in childhood led to this horrendous self abuse once she got older. No one loved her, she felt unworthy. Unworthy of love, of nourishment.

    Poor tortured girl, rest in peace.

  • Both Her parents were horrible pple. Poor Caraline the way that her mom picked on her reminds me of "A Child Called It".

  • This is just sad. What evil parents.

  • why does she sit omn the floor and not at the table

  • She's reverting to a childlike state when she does this. Curled up... safe...

  • @LLightwhammy Her mum made her sit on the floor whilst eating. Maybe she still didn't feel 'worthy'

  • @RainingSilence

    So that would partly explain why she sits on the floor now when eating and being unworthy and throwing up the food.

  • She seems very childish in ways. The way she speaks (her voice too, but I relieze thats from the bulmia) and just little things. It's hard to explain but I feel like she was still a child in someways, still trying to move on from her childhood and just grow up.

  • that´s one of the syntoms, they refuse to grow up.

  • You're right... She didn't know how to grow up. No one taught her how to grow up. No one taught her anything. So sad...

  • up untill now i didnt realise this video existed it was an awfull reminder of a intelligent beautiful waste of life and for those out there who think that her siblings should have done something they dont know me or my siblings or how growing up ourselfs we were effected less we not be prejudgemental i was there for my sister on many of occasions sitting outside the bathroom talking to her whilst she had her head stuck down the toilet we also had fun times going into brighton having a race

  • who could eat the biggest mars bar and belgium bun but people wouldnt know this it is so easy for you all to judge without knowing me or my siblings we all loved caroline and always will and well never forget her. love you sis ( and aunty) forever and always in our hearts minds and thoughts xx

  • wasnt just my sister she was like my mum best friend i did see my sister and will always remember her.

  • id like to think that my sister didnt die in vain she helped a awful lot of people when she made the documentary which she was very proud off she had 5brothers of cause me the only sister we suferred when my sister died we were close im cross because i was interview on this documentary but it wasnt glossy enough to show you have portraide my siblings and i as if we didnt care that is totally unreal i loved my sister caroline she

  • Love You Aunty Caraline We All Do R.I.P Our Angel Xxxx

  • That makes me so sad....some years agoI was looking like her and this remembers me that horrible time... She needs help, nobody should just let her die...not in this way :'(

  • She eats on the floor because she had a god awful childhood. Her mum probably made her eat on the floor with her other siblings. It's all related and culminated into what you see now. She eats like a starving persons first meal every day because she cant keep anythin down.

  • I've only watched part one and part two and plan to watch the rest. Sound is poor, she's hard to make out but headphones do help. This is so sad. It makes me want to cry. Is this bad? the chewing and drinking is anoying though, but I cant stand it when anyone does stuff like that in real life.

  • Why did someone just video this and not try to get her some help?

  • with such a miserable life it's great she's gone ...

  • :( this is extremely heartbreaking

  • why does she eat on the floor?

  • I wouldn't mind continuing to watch, but I can't quite comprehend her words through her mewling....

  • Such a sad story. The only thing that irks me about this is I can't STAND hearing people chew and swallow and its the only part of the film I can hear :(

  • lol

  • Such a shame, if only she had the power to keep the food down..terrible life she was given. hope she is having lots of fun and eating loads in heaven. :P rip xxxxxx

  • rest in peace and love, dear! this is sooo sad, such a sweet person!

  • I can't hear what she's saying.

  • Northampton accent? Right? Like around Essex etc..?

  • In the intro, it said she was in Brighton.

  • r.i.p Caralineee ='/

  • sorry for the crappy spelling

  • its sad how she was very much robed of her childed hood but notice how she is very child like now her voice and how she says 'ill be very cross if i bur nmyself ' in a silly voice

    its so hard my heat go out to her

    <3

  • How much does she weigh?? oh i have a question why does she eat on the ground??

  • shes weighs 3 and a half stone and she probably eats on the floor because when she was abused she was made 2 eat or be on the floor alot. it could also be because she feels she doesnt deserve 2 eat at a table

  • 1 stone is 6 kilograms (for the metric people!)

  • 3.5 stone

    49 pounds

    21 kg

    pending the system you are using.

  • her story is nothing but sadness

    for those who cant hear:

    she talks about the abuse she and her brother recieved from her parents, emotionally from her mom physically and sexually from her dad

    at a very young age.

  • OMG what evil parents! they destroy their kids life! :( poor girl! I dont hear her very well too, even her voice was weak and she looks so sad and unhappy...

  • It can be very hard to understand people with ED's who are really really skinny, because it also affects their voice in some cases. A girl who later became my friend in recovery was like that. I could barely hear her talk even standing close to her. But she's all better now and so am I :)

  • This is so sad, when she was talking about her mum, you could tell how upset she was inside. EDs are so fucked up, it's horrible that she was taken in + had to suffer so badly. R.I.P x x

  • no no, she starves then eats large amounts of food at once then purges allof it, so in effect she doesnt ever retain any nutrients, it's how the disease is, you can eat even weeks worth of food in one sitting.

  • shes not eating, shes binging. Do you understand bulemia? you dont eat then u eat too much for ur body to handle or even digest and u throw it all back up again. she can hardly speak becuase of her eating disorder. I myself have an eating disorder, i understand the bining and purgein, trust me the weight from the food is all throw out if u eat enuf

  • Wow, really? Why were you watching this if you didn't even know anything about eating disorders just out of curiosity?

  • what was she saying... i can`t undrestand a word???

  • she weighed 49 pounds...

    that's simply devistating.

  • I don't understand a word she says...

  • Due to the purging, her stomach acids have damaged her throat, causing her voice to be damaged too.

  • I can't Fucking understand her! It's all fuzzy sounding!

  • she needs spiritual support

  • the sound quality is shit. u cant understand a word shes saying

  • Oh well gee. Why didn't she or the other millions of suffers, the medical teams, the hospitals, the researchers and the endless other amount of people think of that! Just. Don't. Puke!

    Eureka! You've solved it! Way to go!

  • ThaLovelyBitchisme: It is not that easy. At the beginning they throw up because they want to, but when the disease has developed enough, they cannot help it. They don't want to puke, but their body is so used to it, that it just does not hold the food any longer.

  • I am going to nominae you for the Nobel Prize. You have saved millions of lives with that sudden insight.

  • she wanted to die

  • ur such a daft idiot it's amazing

  • I am just amazed at everything she ate!

  • aeahbze, you are an idiot. It's "losing." Your opinion would hold more merit if you were literate.

  • hmm, you have no fucking clue what anorexia is do you? its not just an exaggerated diet retarded. i wish ppl could see the mindset clearly. i don't blame you for thinking its stupid cus it appears that way. and the stuff you learn in school about it doesn't really explain why they do what they do. and can't make you feel how they do...

    so howabout all you ignorant fucks shut the hell up :]

    you think its normal when someone looks like that and still tries to lose weight,itsa mental disorder

  • HottSecsForMePlz: Nobody can explain why people with ED do what they do or feel how they feel, because it is different for everyone. It cannot be generalized. ED are very complex. And yes, most times it begins as an exaggerated diet, and then people just loose control.

  • thank you

  • Rest in Peace Caraline. I hope you are now safe and happy and free from the torment you struggled with here xoxo

  • oh my god! i just want to hug her. poor dear.

    i wonder if maybe she actually didnt want to die. if she was just pleading to someone for love and help, because if she wanted to die so badly she could have suicided another, quicker way. but considering her deptivation of food as a child, death by starvation might have been the only way for her.

  • I have recently created a pro-recovery forum for people suffering/recovering from an eating disorder. If you would like the url for the forum feel free to message me as Youtube won't let me post links on here.

    Take care :)

  • I always wonder why the sounds of her chewing and swallowing are so magnified when you can hardly understand what she says a lot of the time? Anyone have an answer?

  • I hope her parents are rotting in prison somewhere! I am so sick about this!

  • If not,I hope they rot in HELL!!!

    Her parents were fucked in the head...maybe if THEY'D gotten psychiatric help,Caraline could be married with kids and happy now.

    But no,she is dead somewhere and her parents are still alive.

    no fucking justice in this world.

  • I hope they rot in HELL when they die!!!

  • NO.....her parents!!

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  • her mother has her death on her hands

  • People have Anorexia Nervosa for different reasons (developmental, psychological, emotional, etc.) This woman seems very much to want to disappear and not be seen, invisible really. She's speaks about her parents issues and being abused by her father. Bulimia is different in nature and does not affect one's vocal cords as much as you people are trying to say it would. I know this because I was in Renfrew for four months (for Anorexia) where they filmed the HBO documentary Thin.

  • All the bulimics I knew (they're dead now) had voices like 60-year-old-3-packs-a-day-unfi­ltered smokers, but none of them smoked and they were all teens like I was, in high school all together

  • You have a skewed perception of bulimia and obvious a bitter outlook on eating disorders. Your comments are not helpful to the ED community and as a recovered anorexic, I find you to be distasteful and rude.

  • mguritz, I dont care what you find me to be. I simply replied to your comment from my own perspective. I know about ED's from my own experience, & while it is NOT the same as everyone else's, it's just as valid & not so skewed at all. Distasteful & rude...then SKIP my comments. You have that choice. A bitter outlook? Well, yes. It's a bitter disease, w/horrible consequences as you know. Caraline is that example, unfortunately. Lets keep this about Caraline.

  • that wasn't a response to you, it was a response to NandiniJT (you should read her comment)...

  • mgurits, I apologize. It came into my inbox as a response to my comment. Im gonna check out Nan's comment. Sorry again.

  • crap, I cant find it. Was her comment deleted?