my secret hell.

[marissa96100]

ì have an eating disorder for 2 years and no one cares, ive started cutting and i can't stop, ive tried but i can't..... ive even tried to kill myself.... im dieing inside and i dont know how much longer i can take of it

[jessbeth01]

It's got to the point where I self-harm everyday... I have an eating disorder too... Is that bad??

[randomness551]

@jessbeth01 its not good darlingg.. wouuld you like to talk?



[jessbeth01]

@randomness551 no, it's okay. whenever i try to talk about it i either get all moody and blame it on everyone or just don't bother so i don't think there's much point. thanks though :)

[MixedLivin]

... I have manic depressive disorder.. major anxiety.. anorexia.. I cut, I burn, I scratch, I pull on my hair.. I purge... But, I walk down the halls at school. Im the little sweet heart that wouldn't do anything wrong. You look at me, and think I'm a sweet 16 year old girl... No one sees me cry... No one knows why I've done drugs...No one knows.. The bigger problem... I don't want help.. I just want someone to know....

[Ximjustmeh]

i hav a eatin disorder and i self harm very often and i feel so damn alone i

[necromancer1138]

I like your video very much it is something that needs to be said, People going through this kind of pain need to know they are not alone and that there are others who are willing to listen and help them up when they fall. The people closest to us I think do notice but are so afraid to say anything as they feel it might make us worse or actually cause suicidal behavior when actually sometimes all that is needed is a safe place to talk it out. I am here and if you need to talk I check my email

[PrincessGothxoxo]

This is inspirational. Thank you.xoxo

[regretsremain]

is caring about me. I can tell her everything.

I swear she is the reason I live. She tells me everything.

I wish none of this would have happened.

I am tired of the low energy, depression, cutting, burning, (etc.) but I cannot not do it!! I definitely need help, but no one else can help me.

Now, why is it that people say I can come to them with problems, but when I do, they say "I do not care"?

No one knows about cutting & the supposed ED. And I still have trouble keeping them. God, help me. :'(

[regretsremain]

I agree w/ everything you said, except I am not addicted to drugs. And ya know what? I have been told that I may be developing a ED by Mikayla, an acquaintance. (I have the symtoms in my latest video on my channel. We are not sure about it. Tell me what you - anyone who reads this - thinks.)

And no one cares about it. And I cut. I try not to, but it is way to hard.

My parents do not care about this..

I am losing friends as fast as I am getting them.

There is a single girl that actually (TBC)

[Halo9109]

i almost died cause i wouldnt eat....i still dont want too

[elibeth121]

@Halo9109 Please sweetie, go into treatment and get help. Be free of this, kick this ed in the butt.

[zelma101]

im in tears right now ......... these vids always make me cry but i like them cuz it lets me feel like im not alone .... ppl think im such a strong person but  i feel like i hav to act tho cuz as soooonn as i open up ppl use me .... then forget about me and act like its A ok

[randomness551]

heyy guys. just so you ALL know im here anytime. you can message me and ill give you my email. i dont know any of you guys. but id hate for yall to hurt thinking no one cares. because i do. i know what its like to cut. and cry and feel all alone. i still do. but all my struggles have made me stronger. and even if your down so low and think you cant get up. trust me you can. and if you ever need ahand to help you up i am here. i love you guys <3

[pakitae1]

i cut.. and burn. often. i have to leave my house at night to screem. i'm in pain, and it's tangable. no one can help. and the worst bit is every wants to

[randomness551]

@pakitae1 would you like to message me? ill listen to you. <3

[taimasilentnight]

i have a eating disorder for 3 years now,

i self harme

and i tryed to kill my self

and the sad thing is no ones cares enought to realise am slowly dying

[EvalinaxCullen]

@taimasilentnight i care and if you need to talk im here for you

[randomness551]

@taimasilentnight im here if you need a friend. <3

[elibeth121]

@taimasilentnight I am here also to give you support and advice, You can write me anytime, perhaps you just need to vent or have a friend

[blackiscooler1]

wow. your story is amazing. stay strong and you'll get through :)

you have too much in common with me x

[kittybreeder4]

what are thesongs caled in this wan to add them to my playlist

[randomness551]

the first one is one voice by billy gilman

the second is outside lookin in

[rainbowhippiechick11]

2:08 is me

[NeoReineSaturn]

my "drugs" are the 10+ pills i take to keep me from killing myself but the pain isn't going away as much as they say it will i'm tired and i'm sick of hurting .... does anyone know what i should do?

[xxmoonflamexx]

Wow this is so beautiful! The poem is so true! Good work!

[xxirinakaxx]

yea i know how u feel i have the same thing in my life :/ i smoke,take happy pills(thats what i call drugs),im a cutter,i drink and more

[bekbek93]

Remember noone's perfect, and you're great just the way you are x

[XxeMo123GiRlxX]

i feel like this.... :[

[loveonherarms33]

tnis is awesome. and so true.

[XbbyXbelindaX]

i understand what you mean :)

great vid (:

x

[hsmileyrox]

Sorry just got to the end!

[randomness551]

what do you mean.....?

haha was it that bad?

[hsmileyrox]

i love the video sort of inspiring and so true that you have to fight to be someone you're not but remember no one can ever be perfect i bet load of people have these problems and they too i trying to hide it... anyway what as the first song i really liked it? xxx

[randomness551]

its called one voice by billy gilman

sorry i kinda cut it off

[angleseyes18]

Hunnie the video was great and i loved the songs. Perfect is a work that people can never be ther is not real perfect because we are all just trying to fit in to other peoples perfect it will never work. Be your self other kids can be horrible but alway know people love and care about you we love you. if you want to talk im here take care luv jad

[randomness551]

thank you. i know people cant be perfect but everybody needs me to be perfect i feel like iam letting them down if iam not what they want me to be