Just finished watching and reading your comments. I'm sad that he had to go through that hell, but happy at least according to you that he has survived. I pray that he and those in similar sitituations find the love and acceptance we all need. Derek if you are reading this please accept my gratitude for having shared your story.
You're probably in college now. Let's see a new video about how much better it is. Leaving home is such a treat for gay young men in hostile family environments. I was blessed with Atheist parents.
Hey! I just wanted to say that when I watched this for the first time today, and you ssid it was your one year anniversary, I realized today was my one year anniversary of my coming out to my parents.
check it out... u dont need to be accept by whom u love its just something they people tell u so u can fell bad about it.... its because if they dont accept u it means they dont love u that much.. and for ur parents tell them to f''''ck off like i did before and leave as soon as u can 'cause its going to get better when u surround by whom love u not by whom accept u only !!!
@Maxwellfresh11 Maxwell Derek is now 19 and doesn't post on youtube any more. I have removed your post because I don't want people targeting yur phone number.
It's so obvious how much his situation with his parents is emotionally wrenching him inside and how alone he feels. I so wish I could tell him to tell his mom, when she says these cruel things to him like 'your such a fag', 'yeah well your such a fucking cunt for calling me a fag EVERY FUCKING DAY'. It's a tactic she's using-trying to bully and belittle the gay out of her son. The only recourse is to throw her tactic right back at her and don't relent until she does.
@darrenholcomb42 When he was here and I saw this as he was starting out, I inboxed him that what his mom was doing was emotional abuse. He eventually told her how he felt when she did it, and she stopped doing it; not that she becomae loving and accepting but at least she stopped the outright abuse. About a year later he made a vid in which he said he was so glad he was gay because otherwise he'd have grown up to be an asshole (like his parents).
just give your mother time, forgive her for being cruel,but be yourself, show her you're not going to change no matter what she thinks, gain your respect
it gets better...love is one of lifes greatests adventures...who gets to be with you, kiss you, touch you is one lucky mofo...but remember to belong to another human being is a gift so treat it right
this kid is awesome. i feel so bad for him but hes got a good head on his shoulders and a plan. most inspirational COvid ive seen. stay strong wherever you are. youve got it right man.
If you're reading this Derek, please come back! Fuck the ones who stopped you doing what you did... What will they do? What can they do? You've probably moved now right?? Much love!
@pizzaboy031 I have a different idea maybe why he quit, it prolly involved several things. One thing I found when I first posted these is that people started asking ME for help. And just talking to kids or w/e was fine but then some people were telling me horrible stories and asking me for help with things I could not possibly help with. After a while it got so bad I pulled the videos. I wonder if Derek wasn't just besieged with people making all kinds of demands and wanted to stop it.
Write your mom a letter telling her how bad it makes you feel when she makes fun of you. Tell her she should be a better mom to you if she wants to keep you as a son. Good Luck:)
Holy crap...I remember Derek. I wish he would come back one day :( He is one of, if not THE person that I used to watch when I was going through my own personal shit (which still to this day I am...) even if I am older than him lol...
Derek wherever you are, if you ever read this, I just want to thank you for being you and doing what you did for countless others I am sure!!
@alfyakuza Derek said in a vid I wish I still had, that he was very glad he was gay, because if he had not been he'd have grown up to be "an asshole" like his parents.
Derek, keep being strong u are an awesome person and some people just don't understand and what they don't understand they try to change. U will go on and yes u will be remembered but not because of ur sexuality but because of how awesome u are. U r loved. God bless u.
Derek, If you are reading the comments I wanted to lat you know that we are here for you. My mom is okay with me being gay but my dad say I am going to burn in hell and emails me almost daily about. My prays are with you and other you and me that have had to put up with things like this. I love and stay cute.
you couldhear he was nervous :O my mum is the supportive one well my whole family is aprt from my step dd he doesnt kno im gay and he hates gays :/ soo i will wait until im at college and ou of the house before i let him know :L
Derek is one of my best friends. He is the guy I credit the most with helping me accept myself. I have now begun the process of coming out to the people that I care about. I have decided not to tell everyone, just those who I feel deserve to know.
@philipem10 that was a long time ago and much has changed. Things are happening for LGBT people today, the likes of which Bobby and I could never conceive! We're not quite there yet, but full inclusion is within sight! It thrills me to know that you will be able to lead an authentic life as a gay man, and will even likely be able to marry the person whom you love, if you so choose! Yeah!!!! May G-D Bless You! Blaine
God, I feel sooo sorry for this guy! I know EXACTLY what he's going through because I went through and am still going throught this for 15 years now. I had told my family when I was 18 y-o and got beat up. My dad also threatened to chop me to bits if I didn't retract my coming out confession. I can't even describe the hell I've been through these past 15 years but I'm never giving up! I won't let t hem win! For others out there - FIGHT! There's nothing wrong with you! FIGHT!
I've told some people that I'm gay. Luckily, they accepted me. I told my mom and grandma. My grandma teared up, because she'd rather i be straight, but now she's overall fine with it. My mother, at first, was denying it and telling me I could change. Now, she's more accepting. It's been about 6 months now since I came out. I'm not going to tell anyone else I'm gay, unless they ask. I don't think I should have to, is because it's not necessary. Straight people didn't have to come out. Right?
I really appreciate this re-post. Derek was... is a great guy, Since he left, I never forgot him. I think of him each time I come to watch some vids on youtube. He really touches me and a lot of us I'm sure. I hope he's well, and wish him the best for everything he will do in his future. I (no, I can say We) all love you Derek ...
Wow, thank you for posting this video. It's great to see a video of his again. I really liked and respected him and thought all his videos were great and helpful for others in the community.
Am I the only one whose voice is not deep...I sound like Justin Bieber and Mylie Cyrus...Beyonce has a deeper voice than me .. what the heck..?... I look like I'm 15 and I'm 18 ...ugh... anyways ....what happened to Derek?...Wherever he is I hope life is treating him well .. and thanks for uploading this video Philipem01 I and other fellow youtubers appreciate it =]
Hey Philipe Thx for telling me u posted this... I remember when he posted this vid, we chatted some... Very glad he's doing better. was eventually able to get dad in therapy. Mom was verbally abusive for long time, prolly still is :( I hope he never stops letting that get to him. Peace lil bro!
@leominstermeditation actually he told me in an email once that his mom had stopped making those comments after he had a conversation with her about it. I don't know that things were great but at least that distressing behavior stopped.
shortly before he was forced off YT, he told me things havent changed much. I kept pushing him hard to get mom into therapy any way he could, cuz the rents thought there was some value in it for derek at least. he said, she would NEVER go.
Parents & gay kids dont realize the long term affects of that shit, esp for a sensitive kid, believe me, i know 40 years on
Maybe ask Buckweed how Derek feels about having his personal videos re-uploaded, something tells me that he probably doesn't appreciate them being put up again.
@ItsSlenderMan "something" being your psychic ability to channel Derek?
Description box: "I do think he knows this video is posted, ... If Derek wanted them removed I think he would have found a way to let me know.... One reason for uploading: in the next video Derek says one thing he doesn't want is to be forgotten." If she wanted to answer that I assume she'd have said something by now without your unsupported interjection. This is the first negative reaction I've had in 300 views.
Derek ,You are a brave young man. It will get better. I wish there was a magic word I could tell you that would make it all better but there isn't, or waite there is its called tolerance.
Its sad when people are cruel and inconsiderate. Its unacceptable when those people are your parents. Unconditional Love has no boundaries. Stand tall Derek its much harder to be yourself then to be a person that others wants you to be. You are a courageous man.
Just finished watching and reading your comments. I'm sad that he had to go through that hell, but happy at least according to you that he has survived. I pray that he and those in similar sitituations find the love and acceptance we all need. Derek if you are reading this please accept my gratitude for having shared your story.
beefree2003 2 weeks ago
Thats EXACTLY how my mom is :(
LucifersBrokenAngel 2 weeks ago
You're probably in college now. Let's see a new video about how much better it is. Leaving home is such a treat for gay young men in hostile family environments. I was blessed with Atheist parents.
captaincarl1 1 month ago in playlist More videos from philipem01
my friend told his mom that he was gay at 14 and she said "why because you had sex with a man? all men do this"
toprobone 1 month ago
who's Derek?
toprobone 1 month ago
Ok, this vid makes just wanna give you a HUGE hug! Ur so adorable! :)
MrLadyGaGaLovr 1 month ago
I just thought what a coincidence!
MrLadyGaGaLovr 1 month ago
Hey! I just wanted to say that when I watched this for the first time today, and you ssid it was your one year anniversary, I realized today was my one year anniversary of my coming out to my parents.
MrLadyGaGaLovr 1 month ago
it's so hard watching this video. you could almost feel the pain in his every word. i hope things worked out fine for you Derek :(
2mysterious8 2 months ago
@2mysterious8 They did - read the info box on his vids...and on my channel
philipem01 2 months ago
His mother is a fucking cunt and needs a good punch to her cunt face!
brama1969 3 months ago
TT^TT why can't he come back?? he's so cu~u~ute!!
OneJumpFromEden 3 months ago
I hope everything worked out for you bro !
Shortandslicked911 4 months ago
Derek,
you gave me courage to be me
snax4max 4 months ago
check it out... u dont need to be accept by whom u love its just something they people tell u so u can fell bad about it.... its because if they dont accept u it means they dont love u that much.. and for ur parents tell them to f''''ck off like i did before and leave as soon as u can 'cause its going to get better when u surround by whom love u not by whom accept u only !!!
melvins168 4 months ago
@Maxwellfresh11 Maxwell Derek is now 19 and doesn't post on youtube any more. I have removed your post because I don't want people targeting yur phone number.
philipem01 4 months ago
It sounds as though his mom is a f**king bitch. He is well rid of her.
I also congratulate Derek on being a masculine homosexual.
Good on him.
morphboy407 4 months ago
hope things have changed for you!
Jacquesgeyser 4 months ago
It's so obvious how much his situation with his parents is emotionally wrenching him inside and how alone he feels. I so wish I could tell him to tell his mom, when she says these cruel things to him like 'your such a fag', 'yeah well your such a fucking cunt for calling me a fag EVERY FUCKING DAY'. It's a tactic she's using-trying to bully and belittle the gay out of her son. The only recourse is to throw her tactic right back at her and don't relent until she does.
darrenholcomb42 5 months ago
@darrenholcomb42 When he was here and I saw this as he was starting out, I inboxed him that what his mom was doing was emotional abuse. He eventually told her how he felt when she did it, and she stopped doing it; not that she becomae loving and accepting but at least she stopped the outright abuse. About a year later he made a vid in which he said he was so glad he was gay because otherwise he'd have grown up to be an asshole (like his parents).
philipem01 5 months ago
wow . . . that was pretty moving . .. too bad his mom doesn't appreciate what a fine son she has.
guess we don't get to choose our parents.
greenwoodelk 5 months ago
just give your mother time, forgive her for being cruel,but be yourself, show her you're not going to change no matter what she thinks, gain your respect
jtskeen1 6 months ago
it gets better...love is one of lifes greatests adventures...who gets to be with you, kiss you, touch you is one lucky mofo...but remember to belong to another human being is a gift so treat it right
jtskeen1 6 months ago
this kid is awesome. i feel so bad for him but hes got a good head on his shoulders and a plan. most inspirational COvid ive seen. stay strong wherever you are. youve got it right man.
jayunit85 7 months ago
I hope he'll be back one day :(
he helped and inspired me and so many others!
If you're reading this Derek, please come back! Fuck the ones who stopped you doing what you did... What will they do? What can they do? You've probably moved now right?? Much love!
pizzaboy031 7 months ago
@pizzaboy031 I have a different idea maybe why he quit, it prolly involved several things. One thing I found when I first posted these is that people started asking ME for help. And just talking to kids or w/e was fine but then some people were telling me horrible stories and asking me for help with things I could not possibly help with. After a while it got so bad I pulled the videos. I wonder if Derek wasn't just besieged with people making all kinds of demands and wanted to stop it.
philipem01 7 months ago
@philipem01 hmm no... if it was like that, he could just tell people to stop... No one could demand anything of Derek... :(
pizzaboy031 7 months ago
Write your mom a letter telling her how bad it makes you feel when she makes fun of you. Tell her she should be a better mom to you if she wants to keep you as a son. Good Luck:)
jadyqg12511 7 months ago
@jadyqg12511 Details in the info box.
philipem01 7 months ago
wats dereks channel?
alex1992om 7 months ago
@alex1992om Details in the info box.
philipem01 7 months ago
@alex1992om it was r0sewhip137... but he deleted the account
19RossBoss94 3 months ago
i love derek
mrnobodyzzz 10 months ago
hi im ryan and im 17 and can we talk because i want to tell my parents
ryanbasky1993 1 year ago
Holy crap...I remember Derek. I wish he would come back one day :( He is one of, if not THE person that I used to watch when I was going through my own personal shit (which still to this day I am...) even if I am older than him lol...
Derek wherever you are, if you ever read this, I just want to thank you for being you and doing what you did for countless others I am sure!!
Boomchakalaka07 1 year ago
This made me cry :( Derek Ilove yuh(: thinqs will qet better.
koolboyiskool 1 year ago
How can people be such assholes?
alfyakuza 1 year ago
@alfyakuza Derek said in a vid I wish I still had, that he was very glad he was gay, because if he had not been he'd have grown up to be "an asshole" like his parents.
philipem01 1 year ago
hey wassup, my name is brandon & im 15 also looking 4 someone to talk to about whats going on, can u write me in my inbox?
youngbishere13 1 year ago
Derek, keep being strong u are an awesome person and some people just don't understand and what they don't understand they try to change. U will go on and yes u will be remembered but not because of ur sexuality but because of how awesome u are. U r loved. God bless u.
dcollins7901 1 year ago
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bul8tt 1 year ago
no I'm already out it's just the video part I'm worried about but I'll make 1 eventually
PyroBoii93XBL 1 year ago
I want 2 make a coming out vid but I'm kinda scared I guess???
PyroBoii93XBL 1 year ago
@PyroBoii93XBL Scared to come out? Or scared to make the video? Come out first and get comfortable before you make a video...
philipem01 1 year ago
Derek, If you are reading the comments I wanted to lat you know that we are here for you. My mom is okay with me being gay but my dad say I am going to burn in hell and emails me almost daily about. My prays are with you and other you and me that have had to put up with things like this. I love and stay cute.
bdcello1 1 year ago
i love you <3
TotallyTommeh 1 year ago
you couldhear he was nervous :O my mum is the supportive one well my whole family is aprt from my step dd he doesnt kno im gay and he hates gays :/ soo i will wait until im at college and ou of the house before i let him know :L
chasee1995 1 year ago
Derek is one of my best friends. He is the guy I credit the most with helping me accept myself. I have now begun the process of coming out to the people that I care about. I have decided not to tell everyone, just those who I feel deserve to know.
PTulini 1 year ago
@philipem01
This then is for Derek, care of Philip! I hope things are going well for you,
and I pray that your folks will come around! Please make no mistake, that
what ever unkind words or deeds are directed your way, you are of high
value or worth, if you will!
May G-D Bless You!
Blaine
blainebill39 1 year ago
@philipem01
I can't help but being so proud of you my friend! The world you will be
"out" in is a far less hostile place than that which I came out in as a boy!
When I was not yet 18, I met and fell in love with a boy named Bobby
Griffith(Prayers for Bobby). His family at the time was dogmatically
religious, and the pain of the closet was unbearable for him. He took
his own life in 1983! Thankfully
blainebill39 1 year ago
blainebill39 1 year ago
hey
thanks for reposting philip!
i've been for a while trying to find these videos and the author again, to pay some tribute as they helped me and others i know in the past.
so many thanks to the original author, derek :)
if you're reading this, derek, you're a good person...
be well and just be happy ;)
tourito69 1 year ago
thank you
i really miss him a lot
but im not one of those people whos like OMG DEREK
still sad though :/
Brody454 1 year ago 6
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plexx365 1 year ago
God, I feel sooo sorry for this guy! I know EXACTLY what he's going through because I went through and am still going throught this for 15 years now. I had told my family when I was 18 y-o and got beat up. My dad also threatened to chop me to bits if I didn't retract my coming out confession. I can't even describe the hell I've been through these past 15 years but I'm never giving up! I won't let t hem win! For others out there - FIGHT! There's nothing wrong with you! FIGHT!
plexx365 1 year ago
This is just upsetting
td17ify 1 year ago
So so sad !!!
Some fucking straights don't deserve to be parents !!!
eliote17 1 year ago 2
I've told some people that I'm gay. Luckily, they accepted me. I told my mom and grandma. My grandma teared up, because she'd rather i be straight, but now she's overall fine with it. My mother, at first, was denying it and telling me I could change. Now, she's more accepting. It's been about 6 months now since I came out. I'm not going to tell anyone else I'm gay, unless they ask. I don't think I should have to, is because it's not necessary. Straight people didn't have to come out. Right?
hattersuffa 1 year ago
I really appreciate this re-post. Derek was... is a great guy, Since he left, I never forgot him. I think of him each time I come to watch some vids on youtube. He really touches me and a lot of us I'm sure. I hope he's well, and wish him the best for everything he will do in his future. I (no, I can say We) all love you Derek ...
Many thanks Philipem01
starfisher38 1 year ago
can someone tell me what happened to him
004Daniel 1 year ago
Wow, thank you for posting this video. It's great to see a video of his again. I really liked and respected him and thought all his videos were great and helpful for others in the community.
12thLeveIWizardKing 1 year ago
Am I the only one whose voice is not deep...I sound like Justin Bieber and Mylie Cyrus...Beyonce has a deeper voice than me .. what the heck..?... I look like I'm 15 and I'm 18 ...ugh... anyways ....what happened to Derek?...Wherever he is I hope life is treating him well .. and thanks for uploading this video Philipem01 I and other fellow youtubers appreciate it =]
furiousjuffowup 1 year ago
Who is messing with my email address???
leominstermeditation 1 year ago
sad sad sad story.... =( (sorry for my english) I want to talk with this guy, this story is terrible. made me very sad =(=(=(=(
malotus86 1 year ago
Oops that last comment was me (sleekcartim) on my friends puter lol.
sleekcartim 1 year ago
Hey Philipe Thx for telling me u posted this... I remember when he posted this vid, we chatted some... Very glad he's doing better. was eventually able to get dad in therapy. Mom was verbally abusive for long time, prolly still is :( I hope he never stops letting that get to him. Peace lil bro!
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1 LIFE
leominstermeditation 1 year ago
@leominstermeditation actually he told me in an email once that his mom had stopped making those comments after he had a conversation with her about it. I don't know that things were great but at least that distressing behavior stopped.
philipem01 1 year ago
shortly before he was forced off YT, he told me things havent changed much. I kept pushing him hard to get mom into therapy any way he could, cuz the rents thought there was some value in it for derek at least. he said, she would NEVER go.
Parents & gay kids dont realize the long term affects of that shit, esp for a sensitive kid, believe me, i know 40 years on
sleekcartim 1 year ago
@leominstermeditation Who is messing with my email address???
leominstermeditation 1 year ago
Maybe ask Buckweed how Derek feels about having his personal videos re-uploaded, something tells me that he probably doesn't appreciate them being put up again.
ItsSlenderMan 1 year ago
@ItsSlenderMan "something" being your psychic ability to channel Derek?
Description box: "I do think he knows this video is posted, ... If Derek wanted them removed I think he would have found a way to let me know.... One reason for uploading: in the next video Derek says one thing he doesn't want is to be forgotten." If she wanted to answer that I assume she'd have said something by now without your unsupported interjection. This is the first negative reaction I've had in 300 views.
philipem01 1 year ago
Man just grab your balls and be a Man.. Gay man Rocks.. pity and victim is shit!
Derek don't be a pussy wenker The World Is Yours!!! Have fun and be Happy BE GAY!
thesimpleguru 1 year ago
@thesimpleguru The video was first posted at least 2-3 years ago. Derek posted many more videos later and became a very strong and confident man.
philipem01 1 year ago
GOOD For you Derek, You would SHIT if you heard how I HAD to come out in my Sr Year
dennyfinn2003 1 year ago
is it me or do you just wanna hug this poor guy? :(
jrojroj 1 year ago
It makes my day to see Derek back, he was awesome and I'll hope he'll be back one time.
Thank you for reposting!
SIRC0L0RS 1 year ago 11
This is very sad. I'm glad he's doing better. Thanks for posting. I wondered what happened to him.
tgerald 1 year ago
Derek ,You are a brave young man. It will get better. I wish there was a magic word I could tell you that would make it all better but there isn't, or waite there is its called tolerance.
psdgipper69 1 year ago
@psdgipper69 "this is NOT me! read the box!"
philipem01 1 year ago
Its sad when people are cruel and inconsiderate. Its unacceptable when those people are your parents. Unconditional Love has no boundaries. Stand tall Derek its much harder to be yourself then to be a person that others wants you to be. You are a courageous man.
tidemover 1 year ago
@tidemover "this is NOT me! read the box!"
philipem01 1 year ago
@philipem01 Relax I know its not you. Its written to him in case he sees the video. That's why I used his name and not yours :)
tidemover 1 year ago
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tidemover 1 year ago
@nickkkkkk18 Read the box and see his next video. Yeah this was tough but he came out of it fine.
philipem01 1 year ago