ED Update...Got the call and going to treatment

[sugarfreejello]

I wish you well in treatment. I hope you are able to do some healing. *hugs*

[weaveamyweave08]

Thanks. I am praying also....

[anawings]

Best of luck Amy. I will be thinking of you:)

I know you are scared but I really hope that it will be beneficial to you and that you can try to embrace the supportive environment. Stay strong and focus on how you would like your life to be. Take baby steps toward that life. If freedom from this ED is what we truly desire and hope for one day we must do the hard yards to get to that place of freedom and peace. I know it souns pretty idealistic but we must keep the hope:)

Luv Chelsea x

[weaveamyweave08]

Luv u too and hope that you are doing ok.

[chihiro0]

test the waters. It's true that only you can make you better. ultimately its your power of choice. No one can force you. even in treatment, even if someone makes you gain weight, no one can force you to give up the mindset. Not possible for them. POSSIBLE for only YOU. when YOU are ready. don't panic. you know you can always cling to the disorder if you feel overwhelmed. but try to take things really slowly. think: what if I allow myself this feeling of Okay for 5 minutes..yknow?

[chihiro0]

#1) F*ck looking "overly thin" EDs ARE NOT ABOUT weight. YOU KNOW THAT. how can you not know that right now. Treatment is ABSOLUTELY necessary for overcoming the disordered mind and don't even think about the weight. IT's SO not the focus unless you're on your deathbed. And really, to be honest, you could be and you don't know it.. everyone's different.

#2 Tell your ED, because somewhere in your actual mind you know treatment is good, that you will go and "humor" your actual mind. just test the

[anawings]

So true...the weight is not important unless of course you are on your deathbed. Weight is merely a symptom of the deep seated issues that make up an ED. In order to move through the pychological stuff treatment is very important.

[weaveamyweave08]

THIS I ALREADY KNOW! I am WELL aware that it ISN'T ALL ABOUT THE WEIGHT!!! THAT is why I have been working MY F*CKING ASS OFF in THERAPY for the past YEAR! Remembering SHIT that I did NOT even KNOW OCCURED TO ME! (Multiplied by 2 seperate people!!!) To say that it's NOT all about the weight, is telling me nothing, supporting nothing. I apologise for my ANGRY words and I am so SICK AND F*CKING TIRED OF NOT BEING HEARD!

[weaveamyweave08]

I'm so sorry for those angry words above...I sent you a pm trying to explain a few things. {{{hugs}}}

[anawings]

Thats ok my dear, well received:)

All good:) take care ok xxx

[worldxxpeace]

Aw hun, this is such a hard place to be in. I've been there. I hope you decide to go through with treatment. Its worth a shot and if you hate it THAT much, you can always go back. But you may like it. Though I hope one day you find your way back to health and happiness. And I hope its soon because you really do deserve it. You seem like such a sweetheart. There is just alot of hurt. You are in my thoughts.

[weaveamyweave08]

Thanks...I appreciate it.