this made me cry...i understand exactly what u mean...bulimia and anorexia at points in my life are the only thing that make me get up in the morning..
(Part Four) His friend. I realized I needed Him. I knew He was someone I could trust. I discovered that I am beautiful in His eyes and that is all that matters. No one else's opinion does. It wasn't till I legitimately BELIEVED that till I recovered from cutting, suicide, and an eating disorder.
I want all you girls out there to know that you are deeply deeply loved and it is amazing. You all are incredibly beautiful. And God loves you.
A few songs that helped me through my journey were:
(Part Three) A couple months later I thought about going to it again. I still wanted to loose weight and I still wanted to look "pretty". At that point, a weeks back, I got sexually taken advantage of by an 18 year old youth worker. I couldn't control that situation, but I knew I could control an eating disorder. I wanted to go back to it.
Months after that, I realized that I am loved by God. Truly legitimately loved by my Creator. He calls me a masterpiece. He calls me his child. He calls me
(Part Two) I wanted to be perfect for my siblings and parents. I was tired of my siblings calling me fat. I was tired of my parents not accepting me as my weight, as who I am. Long story short, my mom found out. I was seeing a therapist at that time for the cutting problem so she told my therapist. I basically had to stop because at that point she was crying and "worried" about me.
(Part One) First off, I haven't struggled with an eating disorder as much as I struggled with cutting and suicide. I guess the eating disorder started out as me being 5 feet and 130 pounds feeling fat and ugly. I wanted to be "pretty". I wanted boys to like me. I started having to hide my eating habits while my mom got suspicious. I started throwing up because I thought that it was less noticeable than the scares on my arm and I wanted to just control me.
You are a beautiful person! Take pride in that...I was struggling too, but (by the grace of God) overcame it and am helping others with ED's. All my best for sharing!
Thank you SO much for posting this video! I've been struggling with an ED for the past 13 years and I'm only 24. I've been in and out of treatment and I want to get better so bad. Some days it's hard to find that hope for recovery but you're story gave me that today! Thank you again for sharing it!
THC can be helpful for those problems!
maxman2324 2 weeks ago
this made me cry...i understand exactly what u mean...bulimia and anorexia at points in my life are the only thing that make me get up in the morning..
CaliCocoLove 1 year ago
(Part Five) A More Beautiful You by Johnny Diaz and Mirror by Barlow Girl.
Those two songs have helped me so much and I hope it's an impact on all you guys and it was to me.
ILoveKutless18 1 year ago
(Part Four) His friend. I realized I needed Him. I knew He was someone I could trust. I discovered that I am beautiful in His eyes and that is all that matters. No one else's opinion does. It wasn't till I legitimately BELIEVED that till I recovered from cutting, suicide, and an eating disorder.
I want all you girls out there to know that you are deeply deeply loved and it is amazing. You all are incredibly beautiful. And God loves you.
A few songs that helped me through my journey were:
ILoveKutless18 1 year ago
(Part Three) A couple months later I thought about going to it again. I still wanted to loose weight and I still wanted to look "pretty". At that point, a weeks back, I got sexually taken advantage of by an 18 year old youth worker. I couldn't control that situation, but I knew I could control an eating disorder. I wanted to go back to it.
Months after that, I realized that I am loved by God. Truly legitimately loved by my Creator. He calls me a masterpiece. He calls me his child. He calls me
ILoveKutless18 1 year ago
(Part Two) I wanted to be perfect for my siblings and parents. I was tired of my siblings calling me fat. I was tired of my parents not accepting me as my weight, as who I am. Long story short, my mom found out. I was seeing a therapist at that time for the cutting problem so she told my therapist. I basically had to stop because at that point she was crying and "worried" about me.
ILoveKutless18 1 year ago
(Part One) First off, I haven't struggled with an eating disorder as much as I struggled with cutting and suicide. I guess the eating disorder started out as me being 5 feet and 130 pounds feeling fat and ugly. I wanted to be "pretty". I wanted boys to like me. I started having to hide my eating habits while my mom got suspicious. I started throwing up because I thought that it was less noticeable than the scares on my arm and I wanted to just control me.
ILoveKutless18 1 year ago
You are a beautiful person! Take pride in that...I was struggling too, but (by the grace of God) overcame it and am helping others with ED's. All my best for sharing!
dmzartler 1 year ago
Thank you so much for sharing this.. there is hope
FlowersbloomforHim 3 years ago 3
Thank you SO much for posting this video! I've been struggling with an ED for the past 13 years and I'm only 24. I've been in and out of treatment and I want to get better so bad. Some days it's hard to find that hope for recovery but you're story gave me that today! Thank you again for sharing it!
alicia0123 3 years ago 3
*your not you're* haha sorry!
alicia0123 3 years ago
kendra - thank you for sharing your story. i hope that one day i am brave enough to seek help.
songgirl2003 3 years ago 2