Hi livinbipolar, I can sympathize with some of what you say. I know this sounds simple to a complicated problem but there are alot of techniques that you can learn to help with racing thoughts and then hence anxiety. You kind of have to train yourself in a way. Your therapist should be able to help you with that is kind of way of revamping your thinking like putting up reminders around your house to breath or yell stop (outloud or not) at your racing thoughts. I wish you the best!
Honey, you're just parroting what psychiatrists have told you you 'have'. Do you even KNOW you have a 'chemical imbalance'. No. You're just repeating what the field of Psychiatry has TOLD you, here's a pill for it, they're 'doctors', and so must know what they're talking about. Lots of reasons for 'racing thoughts' etc. If you were smart you would research for yourself whether there is or isn't such a thing as 'chemical imbalance' not swallow everything hook line and sinker.
I don't have bipolar disorder, but I went through a stage of being soo depressed. I would have these horrible thoughts, and feelings, of death, and darkness. I'm not really depressed anymore. How did I get away from depression?
I thought about all the things to live for, and that if i died the things I wouldn't experience. Getting married, having kids, etc.
If any of you ever need to talk, just inbox me :).
All these so-called diseases are illusions - nothing more than secondhand symbolism. Be original. Live your life. Nobody is smarter than you. Listen to all the voices - they are part of you.
@SouthernRR4501 With respect, perhaps we should first look into what the term "mental illness" means to us both before either of us postulate on whether the other possesses such or not, lest we mistake our concepts for data, our words for reality. Love and peace to you.
@dfoxmaster I happen to have bipolar disorder, and have experianced racing thoughts that would never end but they eventually do. Thats just one of my symtoms. But thank fully I can deal with it with my medicine.
@SouthernRR4501 Can we transcend the polemic, one created by the logico-philosophical error of mistaking mere words for reality, and look, without condemnation or justification, at what is actually going on in our minds? I do not lack empathy. Relying on experts' opinions and prescription medication merely creates attachment and dependency. Liberation is in accepting who we are, racing thoughts, voices, darkness, and light. It takes tremendous courage, but in reality, there is nothing to fear.
@dfoxmaster I think there is something to fear if the voices in my mind call me a loser and tell me to commit suicide all the time. I don't know maybe I don't have this mental illness. I never was officially diagnosed with it. Oh well. Who the Hell knows.
@SouthernRR4501 Thanks for your response. I wouldn't concern myself with "official diagnoses." Deep down, the only office that matters is our own. Humans are all in the same boat. From my own experience the symptoms you describe are part of the human condition (based on a census of two people ;-))
@dfoxmaster Well regardless, I still think somethings not right in my head. I've thought about getting a brain scan to see if I have a brain tumor or not. I most likely don't thank god. I still think I have bipolar disorder, and if you think its a ferry tale, thats your problem, and obviously your "normal" and I'm not. I still know that nobody owes me anything though.
No not neccesarily a good idea. The "voices" are useful WHEN you are in control of them.
When you're not it's VERY dangerous to have an out of control mind. And has taken many lives. A person needs to learn to CONFRONT IGNORE and separate themsevles these voices.
@nyguy18 You raise an interesting point: control. Why do we seek to control? And who is controlling what? How can we seriously aim to "confront" and then "ignore" parts of our consciousness? This sounds like contradiction, self-deception and fragmentation to me, which I suspect is the origin of the suffering in the first place. Dangerous or otherwise, I go on seeking the truth... which, I suspect, is that there is no separation between myself and the voices I hear, no matter how distasteful.
I was totally listening, but got mesmerized by your voice. hahaha. I just got diagnosed bipolar, but 14 years ago I was diagnosed ADHD. That wouldn't have been so much of a problem, except I like to go off my medication because it's kinda fun to feel invincible and nuts. Had I known I had a more serious problem than ADHD, I might have taken it a little more seriously and gotten help before getting into all kinds of drugs, and alcohol, and tearing shit up.
Your are not alone. I have it too. I think so quickly and thoughts swirl around in my head from the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep. Don't let it get you down. Use it to your advantage. I too go through the anger spouts and depressive episodes... You are not dying. You are totally not alone! Thanks for sharing your experience. Try to get through the low points by maybe looking at nature. That's what I do. I get alone until it goes away. Please don't be down on yourself. Much love!
How did your interview go? How is your son, did everything go ok.I hope your thoughts have slowed but probably not ,you have .alot going on.My mind is still going crazy,still waiting to see what these meds are doing as you know it takes a couple weeks so I'm trying to be patient but arggg. Let me know how things went and I'm praying for you and your son.Thanx for listening. Hang in there cause we know what the alternative is.
I relate to EVERYTHING you said in this. I have the same swings, and thoughts about them. And what you said about your relationship with your family really resonated with me. It's so nice to hear from someone else that knows what it's about. Hang in there.
You probably got vaccinated and this started several months or more than a year after, right? Detox first, read my other message and then teach yourself to be less self-conscious, meaning, think through other people, see what they do, always focus on them, on their thoughts on everything, on them, not you. And stop caring about yourself and more about others, and in general, stop caring about everything.
eliminate sugar, caffeine, cigars and all other brain exciters. Eat alkalizing natural food, drink water after you squeezed a bit of lemon into it to neutralize toxins, the detox is a way to go, all the pollution affects our entire body including brain chemicals. It will make you be hungry all the time, so eat organic vegetables, yogurt and egg whites
LIVE WITH THIS MADNESS EVERY DAY.ITS GOTTIN WORSE WITH AGE.I HAVE BEEN GETTING TREATMENT FOR ABOUT 20 YEARS MEDS HELP SOMETIMES FOR ALLITTLE WHILE.BEEN ON SO MANY DIFFERANT MEDS THAT I HAVE LOST HOPE WITH THEM,ALL HAVING SIDE AFFECTS . I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO CRY,SCREAM,PRAY,I HAVE TRIED SUICIDE ONLY TO WAKE UP TO ANOTHER FAILED APPROACH TO RID MYSELF OF THIS DISEASE.LOT OF HOSTILITY GOING ON .I TAKE MEDS EVERYDAY AND STILL FEEL LIKE SHIT.ITS HARD TO TAKE THESE MEDS AND STILL FEELIN BAD!!!
@zseries32 I cant explain why but fuck me that comment...... realy made me want to fuck you up but hey i supposei just over reacted to some secretly funny joke and that your not a arrogant little prick...your secretly a comic genius.
just to tell you there is no test that checks chemical imbalance including cat scan you can ask any doctor stick with your vitamins and eat healthy pharmaceutical drugs destroy the brain and leave people even in worse situations
@JohnGotti604 Pharmaceutical drugs don't destroy the brain. Some can have damaging long term effects on the liver and kidneys. And more often than not, these drugs don't leave people in worse situations. People with mental illness sometimes have to try different meds before they find what works best. Meds alone won't work, but they are an important part of managing the illness. You will find many people with mental illness who say that their meds have given them a life.
Can I ask yo a question? Do you feel like other people irritate you and you don't want to be around them and rather be alone meaning not in public stay at home with family. Also when you' re mean to your significant other do you get angry really fast or excited for the smallest things or things they do or not do.
all of what you said is normal.. EVERYONE thinks like that... the only difference between you and everyone else is, YOU have not learned to control/cope with your thoughts, moods, and the way you act... "bi-polar" people who refuse to believe this are just weak, and want an easy way to "cop-out"
@v5u7sulh2 That's bullshit, I'm diagnosed with bipolar and I have never copped out of anything. I graduated university with honours and have a good job that I work hard at being damned good at. If anything, having bipolar just made me want to work harder to prove idiots like you wrong. And sometimes its fucking hard to control my thoughts, moods and actions but I still take responsibility for them and I bet you I'm better at controlling mine than you are at controlling yours.
@v5u7sulh2 You're ignorant and rude. Does it make you feel better to criticize people over the internet? Someone who sits around on the internet saying hurtful things to people is copping out, highly doubt you're so vocally arrogant in real life.
@v5u7sulh2 I am bipolar diagnosed at age 42 !! I cant HELP the way I think or feel and niether can this girl in the video. Get a life and an education you idiot!!!
if there is a tool that have a great chance of helpping any person overcome a mental affliccion its going to be found in the observation of the mechanism of our thinking so it wouldnt be a bad idea to review some of the buddhist arguments about our thinking procces
Thats like me, I keep feeling like my families against me, even just little things they do I keep thinking in my head, they did that thing on purpose just to get at me. And wen Im out I feel like people r judging me with their eyes. Im usually ok wen Im out, cus I just try focus on wot I gotta do, but every now and then it just creeps up on me. Gotta say I find this more therapy than actually going to see the doctor lol. Thanx for sharing ur thoughts.
you're very sweet and very brave and i know just what your going through.. sometimes finding the right combination of meds can take a while too, but it's still always a bit of a problem. for me having a sense of humor about life and myself helps a lot. and playing guitar. and make sure that when you feel affection you find a way to show it. G-d bless you dear.
Good luck with everything! Im praying 4 u & ur son & hubby! I am bipolar too! And I see things in my teen daughter bt not sure if its just being an emotional teen girl. I thank u 4 sharing ur story & hope things get well 4 u soon. I hope u got the job! :)
I have been living with manic depression since I was 13. I understand everything you have said. In my experience, emotional and thought-based perturbations, while they often feel and seem uncontrollable and devastating, come from a loss of present moment focus. Life is a ride. Those with bipolar just have more extreme rises and dips.
It never goes away, but I have learned to treat it with respect and as such I am able to cope.
I know exactly what you mean, I get started on something and don't know when to quit, I know about the roller coaster, it is racing on forever, I do say that Prozac works, but it's made me fatter and eat more the effect it's had on me.
I am sorry I did mesn it that way, I do not want a woman that is allready spoken for and in a marriage, it would be unGodly of me, I want my own woman who is never been married, but if I meet a woman who is Bi-polar like me, would be nice, we could understand each other better, thats all I was really saying, I hope no offence to you and your husband.
It's ashame you married beautifull, we would be the perfect couple and battle this bi-polar disorder together, anyways if you husband decide he cant handle it no more, and wants to call it quits, will have our highs and lows together since we have so much in common!
@TheShospitali Your hitting on a married bipolar woman when she's clearly not in a good head space.....?! you really are one of the most disgusting human beings i've ever seen
You bipolar fellows should check out the global map of people with bipolar disorder at mom (mapofmates . com ) and come and talk to us other sufferers there.
Y'all need to chill, okay...we are what we are. It is what it is!!! We have to work with what we have. I get angry with this crap too, but why charge at each other? I guess I am just a peacemaker.
@Rapids4me45 yea hearing this stuff I wasn't that surprised... the person making this video seems quite normal and its okay that be experiencing some of those things given that she is unemployed and likely spending a lot of time ruminating.
also, the video wasn't that incoherent in terms of keeping the talking logical and structured.
I have a question.......what was that white thing shooting from the top left of your head towards the floor @ 5:49? it was soooo fast........just wondering.......by the way congratulations. Keep up the good work...
welcome to the darkside... haha ;) im bipolar and people ask me all the time what exacly is that. i tell them that there is a demon inside my head and inorder to keep it away i have to take pills and if i dont i would probably kill you haha
@xjoe1988x i tend to answer with 'well, at any moment i may try and kill someone. could be myself, could be you. depends what phase of my cycle i am in, and how much you piss me off'
wow i can see here that im not the only one. have been treated for depression for a few years now and wasnt getting anywhere .. so recently the doctor is treating me for bipolar which after reading up about it kinda makes sense to me. what you were talking about and how your thoughts work sound just like me. its nice to know that im not the only one and there are others out there going through these same problems and that its ok to talk about it all.
Bipolar is cause by psychological warfare. "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Ephesians 6:12 The devil and his fallen angels aim to confuse us, instill fear and or grandiose thoughts within us. God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7 Trust in Jesus Christ only He can set us free!!
@Lorelle1020 I am not a doctor but I believe that technically albuterol is one of the medications. However there are spiritual factors that play into people who suffer from bipolar tendencies. Jesus Christ is the healer of all things and if it is His will to heal someone, it will happen.
@NONEshallPERISH ok. This irritates me. so ALL bipolar sufferers (myself included) just need to pray, and it goes away?! HOLY SHIT! WHY ARE WE SPENDING ALL THIS TIME SUFFERING WHEN I JUST NEED TO TALK TO MY INVISIB:E FRIEND?
now dont get me wrong, i have nothing agains religious people, but please,dont try and tell me that if i believe in God, my problems will be cured.'Bipolar tendancies' is down right insulting, it is not a TENDANCY, it is a CONDITION.
@Lorelle1020 I suggest those who suffer to pray with their whole hearts for help. Jesus said: When you call out to me in your day of trouble I will answer you and you will glorify me. If anyone has been prescribed medication from a doctor, I recommend to continue taking it and seek help and deliverance through Jesus Christ. To fully trust in Jesus. When we give our lives to Christ He will handle everything for our good because he loves us.
@NONEshallPERISH You are a beautiful beautiful girl and gifted with truly a kind heart and understanding of being kind to your neighbor. God bless You.
@Lorelle1020 Thank you for your kind words! God bless you as well. I would love to keep whomever it is that you are concerned for in prayer. Please inbox me if you have any prayer requests or other questions. I will do my best to help. God will supply all your needs according to His riches in Jesus Christ.
I've never thought about blogging, I am so ashamed of having it. I was 'diagnosed' two weeks ago and I have had it all my life, not knowing it. Quite a surprise. Thank you for sharing.
@Lorelle1020 Thank you. Blogging has helped a lot, so has writing about it. However, getting a lot of 'buff' from people about all kinds of different areas of my life, and getting some from my mother on my Bi-polar, I just can't help but feel ashamed. I am asking all those questions you first ask yourself when finding something out like this...I guess, it's just shifting through and figuring where I stand in it all. I would be nice to know some people who care, and understand where I am in life.
#New subscriber. I Love your videos. I suffer from this same disorder and it's a struggle EVERYDAY. YES MA'AM What you said about treating your man like crap, I do the same thing to mines and thats how you know when you have a good man cause they put up with us when we treat them like crap. you described what I go thru and suffer thru 100 percent.
@Drhamburgerhill ..........food allergies and intolerances maybe huge contributors to bipolar......My dad had it... doctors arent able to do anything........but i think as do other researchers that food allergies are a key to this...... lot more research is needed
Just because you say you believe in God doesn't mean you "believe" it's called faith. If you let him heal you then you will be free! trust me, go to church.. I used to have a lot of mental & physical problems until i started going back to church and praying to God every day. He's real and he loves everyone even though some people are too in love with themselves to realize it..
Try this : Do not watch television (at all) for a week long period. Thats 7 straight days or 168 hours of no TV shows, commercials and everything else that is presented on screen today. This includes going to the movie theatres and downloading YT videos.
Get all of your weekly news readings from you local newspaper source, if you must get it somehow.
Keep yourself occupied weither it be cleaning, cooking, meditation and exercising. Try taking a walk, stretch. Listen to Reiki music. Breathe.
@MultiBrittanym do not get me wrong, but I think you would do best for yourself trying to get a professional advice from a doctor about your state. It makes no good trying to talk to the camera and broadcasting such things on Internet. To me, your video is depressing as you seem so lonely, why you did not try to say all this to some living being? I think you need to talk with someone who may help in some more constructive way so you can try to fight the problem. Please do so.
@magmailable Sometimes it's good to say your thoughts out loud, especially if it helps others to understand and accept the disorder. Anonymous audience is also a lot less intimidating and judgemental then professional help. And since emotions are running high/low there is a limit as to how much you want to rant about it to your friends and family.
@ZenaBattaglia Have someone ever told you that you couldn't do something and you defied what they said could'nt be done, That's how i feel about Jesus taking all this stuff away from my mind and replacing it with unspeakable joy!
Your feelings are normal for our disorder. You are not alone honey. I pray you get the job. Make sure you go to your therapy, that is very important. Your husband is a great guy to understand it's not him you are mad at, it is the bipolar I have the same problems, I am 59 I'm still alive I go off on goat paths too. I know a 4 year old with that disorder too. She always wants to eat, its like she has a hole she cannot fill. I'm praying for you and your son. Stay strong.
i know that for me, a book called "the secret" has alowed me to learn about positive and negative thoughts and their effect. i can honestly say this (very tiny) book really did change the way i thought for the better, and then the rest followed. read the first page; if you don't like it put it back, but you will. you just have some things to work through, don't believe everything docs tell u b/c only u have ur best interest. dont line their pockets at your own expense.
wow, yeah, me too, hang in there, my meds made me put on 20kg n feel even worse. but without them, i cant breath from anxt. people without the imbalance will neva no wat its like 4 u to feel crazy. people who say lifes tuff we all feel down sometimes, i envy the crap out of them. bi polar does different things to different people, i was up there 4 a while, now i'm so down i cant stop talking to myself n wanting to disappear. My sense of humour keeps me alive when my brain is trying to kill me
WOW!!!!! I AM EXACTLY FRIGGIN LIKE THIS!!!! PEOPLE ALWAYS CRITICIZE ME FOR BEING WEIRD WHEN I ISOLATE MYSELF! I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO UNDERSTAND MY THOUGHTS ALSO RACE LIKE CRAZY AND I HAVE BAD INSOMNIA THOUGHTS OF DEATH CONSTANTLY EXTREME ANXIETY I NEED HELP! I DON'T WANT MEDICATION, IT WILL JUST SCREW ME UP MORE!!!! ANYBODY OUT THERE WHO CARES!!!!!!
I care. The problem is these, "people" don't understand the illness and don't care. Without the medication it won't get any better. You have an imbalance in your brain and it needs the help medication brings. I hate taking it, really I do, but without it I am off the chain! I can't begin to explain how bad. Therapy and medication do help. We have to learn to deal with this. It is not going away.
I feel bad for the people that do have bipolar BUT ALOT OF THE NORMAL WORLD HAS SAME FEELINGS AND THINKING AT TIMES MAYBE NOT AS BAD BUT GUYS SERIOUSLY WHAT IS NORMAL THESE DAYS? NO ONES HAPPY AND THOSE WHO SAY THEY ARE WELL MAYBE THEY ARE FOR NOW BUT TRUST ME LIFE CAN FUCK U OVER EMOTIONALLY, IVE HAD DEPRESSION AFTER WATCH MY DAD DIE BUT THATS SOMETHING THAT WOULD AFFECT ANY1, IT'S NORMAL, ALOT OF WHAT U THINK AND FEEL IS NORMAL. EVERYBODY'S DIFFERENT BUT WE ALL HAVE FEELINGS AND LIFES A BITCH
You just completely described how I feel 100%. I was diagnosed with bipolar in August... and.. I want you to know that I support you.. and you have inspired me to start blogging about this.
@freakinalecks Bi Polar is caused by Candida Albicans....look it up it causes racing thoughts, one thing on the mind ONLY.....depression etc., It can be cured by diet and medications and natural things like garlic....yeast killers.
I empathize I do. I was diagnosed BP1, with Paranoia. GAD, PTSD, you name it. I have to take sleeping meds. My mind won't shut down. It's a double edged sword. I can multi task like crazy. I feel you I am on my 4th med and I am despondent. The worst is feeling mixed mania. I do self medicate with cannabis. I helps my anxiety disorders and I know it's controversial. It has less side effects than most of the big pharma drugs. I am so past ethical arguments. I am in survival mode.
WHAT IF.... you go to church & actually have faith in God. Pray every day & you will be cured.. this is not an illness, don't listen to the doctors. You were once normal & you can be the same once again!
@HippiePower3 It's ignorance like this that keeps people from getting better. Prayer can't cure it, if so I'd be cured. Prayer helps one to believe and have faith that they will improve. It's kinda a slap in the face to tell someone they can be cured and they're their own problem and their faith is standing in the way. What if she's not religious, ever think of that? All of the world doesn't believe in a higher power.
I think ignorance is bliss & I am far from that.. I know people that have over dosed on drugs and been to hell and back.. then they started believing in God. Does everyone really need to be bad to fit into society until they die and actually realize that all their lives were a lie? Honestly, the devil is a big fat liar & if you were mature enough to know that this world is evil it's because he pretty much likes to mess with people every day like this poor weak soul!
U don't need medicine that shit makes it worst u need to live life as u are b who u r your perfectly normal all u need to do is go out and enjoy life.....
@M3shr1983 This is the worst advice you could give someone with a mental disorder. People who don't stick to meds often harm themselves and their loveones. Unless you're their doctor don't suggest for ANYONE to begin or stop taking meds. The stigma over mental disease needs to STOP right now. The problem is she can't evejoy life, DUH! She wouldn't need the meds if she felt she could do that. It's not that people can't do things to feel better, it's just that they don't actually feel better. smh
thank you x sooo many.....thank you i know i am not well and just because i don't go on a sexual binge or over spend my treatment has been delayed...thank you...what you said is what i live with every day.u r wonderful xxx
Wow this sounds so much like me. I have always felt bipolar, and my mother always thought I was bipolar, but I was afraid of looking stupid by telling my psyc. I finally told them and they put me on bipolar meds and it's a little better.
Just so your aware Hun Chemical imbalances cannot be seen with a C.A.T scan the only ONE True way to test for Bi-Polar (Manic Depressive Illness) is with A Spinal Tap. I Have Been On Lithium For 22 Years Rispiradol for about 10 and and Seriquoil for about 5 Mirtazipine Temazapan and Lorazapam. The mood swings and rapid thoughts are actually a mild form or Bi-Polar Type 2 cause u seem very calm I have never been like that even with all my meds
)I have the rarest Type Rapid Cycling it is severe downs then Manic episodes constantly No In betweens Full blown MANIA is identical to Schizophrenia hallucinations paranoia dont sleep for weeks at a time cant stop talking moving and so on looks almost identical to someone who "Does Alot Of Crack Cocaine" Type 1 you have at least 2 Full manic Episodes a year that last a few weeks Constant Fidigting cant finish a sentence cant remember what they were talking about half way into the sentence
Type 2 is a mild form You will live as long as anybody else - Rapid Cycling Manic has a quite high Suicide rate - and usually requires Psychiatric Hospitalization at least a few times a year for long periods - My longest stay was almost 4 years. Type 1 also usually requires a couple hospital stays a year when person becomes Manic. - I find so many people are being mis-diagnosed now-adays with just a Questionarre and a pencil a Dr will tell you thats what you have
and its not that simple Spinal is only true way to tell - as well you said this is something "YOU GOT" Manic (Bi-Polar) is something your born with it affects you from the time you learn to walk and talk - so if you did not have these symptoms in childhood you should tell your Dr to do some more testing - it is VERY Herideditary My Mother had it her Mother and sister have it My Daughter has it.
It is not something you "Just Get" i have been dealing with this several years my first hospitalization was age 9 - at 14 I was sent from Toronto To Houston texas because no Facitity in Canada was sure what to do with me Manic - illness was very Unchartered In Canada now it seems they are just throwing the label on everyone
beautiful heart. i can see it through ur eyes. hope ya began to care less weather ya get the job or not... then i hope ya get the job once u feel that way
I'll be your friend :) you're really preety too :) you could join some clubs and societies find more friends there? x x There's a strong link between mental health issues and creativity. I'll be thinking of you xx
sounds like me I have diagnosed with ocd at the age of 8. Still have OCD now I am 22 I have no idea if I have BPD or Bipolar. I have the mood swings as well. You talking about your husband brought tears to my eyes. I feel the same way about my boyfriend. if you ever need to talk I am here for you. Your not the only one. I feel sad for you but at the same time I am happy that I am not the only one.
I can't stop thinking "What if". And one day, I can be positive and strong saying "Okay, tomorrow, I'll do it." But the next morning, I can't.. If I really nkow I want to do it, I force myself to do it. Finally I do it, but then again comes the "What if".thoughts.
When I keep thinkng about it, I get nervous. I get cold and start to sweat, my hearts beating like crazy and it hurts, scuicidal thoughts.
'm not diagnosed, but I'm gonna check. But this is how I've been for years.
I know this is an old video but hang in there; the OCD beastly aspect is insatiable for me... but there are always positives in the future, no matter what current mindsets of negativity may deceive us into pure despair
@thumpaswirl "but there are always positives in the future, no matter what current mindsets of negativity may deceive us into pure despair" Lovely sentiment, and nice use of English :)
Just stay strong sweetheart and try to focus on being strong for your son and husband. I know its hard, I endure Chronic depression and I try to stay busy by always having something to look forward to. I find that my relationship with a higher power helps me cope. Look up, Stay focused and Be blessed.
I also have bipolar disorder. I know that is really hard to deal with this condition. We have to remain strong and try to live our best life, we only have 1 chance :)
As a person with light bipolar I have felt a much greater effect in changing my diet and training than any pill ever had. Sugar and dairy is toxic for a brain with these problems.
Hi livinbipolar, I can sympathize with some of what you say. I know this sounds simple to a complicated problem but there are alot of techniques that you can learn to help with racing thoughts and then hence anxiety. You kind of have to train yourself in a way. Your therapist should be able to help you with that is kind of way of revamping your thinking like putting up reminders around your house to breath or yell stop (outloud or not) at your racing thoughts. I wish you the best!
kittykatBflat 13 hours ago
...i feel exactly like this...my life feels life a rollercoaster...i´m either suicidal or extremly optimistic...
SuperThedefender 13 hours ago
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Cheer up bitch.
18T220 14 hours ago
Honey, you're just parroting what psychiatrists have told you you 'have'. Do you even KNOW you have a 'chemical imbalance'. No. You're just repeating what the field of Psychiatry has TOLD you, here's a pill for it, they're 'doctors', and so must know what they're talking about. Lots of reasons for 'racing thoughts' etc. If you were smart you would research for yourself whether there is or isn't such a thing as 'chemical imbalance' not swallow everything hook line and sinker.
bixbybixby 4 days ago
@bixbybixby You're absolutely right. Now progress to level 2: "Speaking the truth with grace."
dfoxmaster 1 day ago
<3
7790PPS0 5 days ago
You're fine, you look like you're medicated though. I have not been on my meds in years and has effected me greatly. I need to get back on it.
Lovingirl80 6 days ago
"It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a sick society."
~ Krishnamurti
dfoxmaster 1 week ago
I don't have bipolar disorder, but I went through a stage of being soo depressed. I would have these horrible thoughts, and feelings, of death, and darkness. I'm not really depressed anymore. How did I get away from depression?
I thought about all the things to live for, and that if i died the things I wouldn't experience. Getting married, having kids, etc.
If any of you ever need to talk, just inbox me :).
Stay strong, and think positive.
There is hope <3.
MissAppleCubes 1 week ago
All these so-called diseases are illusions - nothing more than secondhand symbolism. Be original. Live your life. Nobody is smarter than you. Listen to all the voices - they are part of you.
dfoxmaster 1 week ago 4
@dfoxmaster exactly what I was going to write. 'secondhand symbolism' - best description I have come across for a while.
AmieS92 1 week ago
@dfoxmaster Actually they're very real. You better feel fortunate that you don't have a mental illness.
SouthernRR4501 1 week ago
@SouthernRR4501 With respect, perhaps we should first look into what the term "mental illness" means to us both before either of us postulate on whether the other possesses such or not, lest we mistake our concepts for data, our words for reality. Love and peace to you.
dfoxmaster 1 week ago
@dfoxmaster I happen to have bipolar disorder, and have experianced racing thoughts that would never end but they eventually do. Thats just one of my symtoms. But thank fully I can deal with it with my medicine.
SouthernRR4501 1 week ago
@SouthernRR4501 Can we transcend the polemic, one created by the logico-philosophical error of mistaking mere words for reality, and look, without condemnation or justification, at what is actually going on in our minds? I do not lack empathy. Relying on experts' opinions and prescription medication merely creates attachment and dependency. Liberation is in accepting who we are, racing thoughts, voices, darkness, and light. It takes tremendous courage, but in reality, there is nothing to fear.
dfoxmaster 1 week ago
@dfoxmaster I think there is something to fear if the voices in my mind call me a loser and tell me to commit suicide all the time. I don't know maybe I don't have this mental illness. I never was officially diagnosed with it. Oh well. Who the Hell knows.
SouthernRR4501 1 week ago
@SouthernRR4501 Thanks for your response. I wouldn't concern myself with "official diagnoses." Deep down, the only office that matters is our own. Humans are all in the same boat. From my own experience the symptoms you describe are part of the human condition (based on a census of two people ;-))
dfoxmaster 1 day ago
@dfoxmaster Well regardless, I still think somethings not right in my head. I've thought about getting a brain scan to see if I have a brain tumor or not. I most likely don't thank god. I still think I have bipolar disorder, and if you think its a ferry tale, thats your problem, and obviously your "normal" and I'm not. I still know that nobody owes me anything though.
SouthernRR4501 1 hour ago
@dfoxmaster
No not neccesarily a good idea. The "voices" are useful WHEN you are in control of them.
When you're not it's VERY dangerous to have an out of control mind. And has taken many lives. A person needs to learn to CONFRONT IGNORE and separate themsevles these voices.
nyguy18 11 hours ago
@nyguy18 You raise an interesting point: control. Why do we seek to control? And who is controlling what? How can we seriously aim to "confront" and then "ignore" parts of our consciousness? This sounds like contradiction, self-deception and fragmentation to me, which I suspect is the origin of the suffering in the first place. Dangerous or otherwise, I go on seeking the truth... which, I suspect, is that there is no separation between myself and the voices I hear, no matter how distasteful.
dfoxmaster 3 hours ago
this is the first video that i have watched from you and i already love you!! you are so pretty and inspiring!!
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BipolarRockStar 2 weeks ago
'Why would I buy you a gay ass teddy bear bitch you're already Bi-Polar'
BigBagOfKush 2 weeks ago
I was totally listening, but got mesmerized by your voice. hahaha. I just got diagnosed bipolar, but 14 years ago I was diagnosed ADHD. That wouldn't have been so much of a problem, except I like to go off my medication because it's kinda fun to feel invincible and nuts. Had I known I had a more serious problem than ADHD, I might have taken it a little more seriously and gotten help before getting into all kinds of drugs, and alcohol, and tearing shit up.
MrButtRocket 2 weeks ago
Your are not alone. I have it too. I think so quickly and thoughts swirl around in my head from the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep. Don't let it get you down. Use it to your advantage. I too go through the anger spouts and depressive episodes... You are not dying. You are totally not alone! Thanks for sharing your experience. Try to get through the low points by maybe looking at nature. That's what I do. I get alone until it goes away. Please don't be down on yourself. Much love!
GorillaUzzi 2 weeks ago
How did your interview go? How is your son, did everything go ok.I hope your thoughts have slowed but probably not ,you have .alot going on.My mind is still going crazy,still waiting to see what these meds are doing as you know it takes a couple weeks so I'm trying to be patient but arggg. Let me know how things went and I'm praying for you and your son.Thanx for listening. Hang in there cause we know what the alternative is.
MsRobinkay 3 weeks ago
Your eyes are beautiful.
hytlerson 3 weeks ago
I relate to EVERYTHING you said in this. I have the same swings, and thoughts about them. And what you said about your relationship with your family really resonated with me. It's so nice to hear from someone else that knows what it's about. Hang in there.
schpoopy 3 weeks ago
You probably got vaccinated and this started several months or more than a year after, right? Detox first, read my other message and then teach yourself to be less self-conscious, meaning, think through other people, see what they do, always focus on them, on their thoughts on everything, on them, not you. And stop caring about yourself and more about others, and in general, stop caring about everything.
codergames 3 weeks ago
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eliminate sugar, caffeine, cigars and all other brain exciters. Eat alkalizing natural food, drink water after you squeezed a bit of lemon into it to neutralize toxins, the detox is a way to go, all the pollution affects our entire body including brain chemicals. It will make you be hungry all the time, so eat organic vegetables, yogurt and egg whites
codergames 3 weeks ago
LIVE WITH THIS MADNESS EVERY DAY.ITS GOTTIN WORSE WITH AGE.I HAVE BEEN GETTING TREATMENT FOR ABOUT 20 YEARS MEDS HELP SOMETIMES FOR ALLITTLE WHILE.BEEN ON SO MANY DIFFERANT MEDS THAT I HAVE LOST HOPE WITH THEM,ALL HAVING SIDE AFFECTS . I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO CRY,SCREAM,PRAY,I HAVE TRIED SUICIDE ONLY TO WAKE UP TO ANOTHER FAILED APPROACH TO RID MYSELF OF THIS DISEASE.LOT OF HOSTILITY GOING ON .I TAKE MEDS EVERYDAY AND STILL FEEL LIKE SHIT.ITS HARD TO TAKE THESE MEDS AND STILL FEELIN BAD!!!
MsRobinkay 3 weeks ago
@MsRobinkay Praying for you. :)
Rae015473 3 weeks ago
Whoa! its the reincarnated Micheal Jackson!
zseries32 3 weeks ago
@zseries32 I cant explain why but fuck me that comment...... realy made me want to fuck you up but hey i supposei just over reacted to some secretly funny joke and that your not a arrogant little prick...your secretly a comic genius.
TheKarhn 2 weeks ago
does anyone else see these flying lights moving beside her??
akoslo87 3 weeks ago 4
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imbored0830 3 weeks ago
niacin vitamin b3 helps cure bipolar and other mental disorders!!!!!
Tanya123aminov 3 weeks ago
just to tell you there is no test that checks chemical imbalance including cat scan you can ask any doctor stick with your vitamins and eat healthy pharmaceutical drugs destroy the brain and leave people even in worse situations
JohnGotti604 3 weeks ago
@JohnGotti604 Pharmaceutical drugs don't destroy the brain. Some can have damaging long term effects on the liver and kidneys. And more often than not, these drugs don't leave people in worse situations. People with mental illness sometimes have to try different meds before they find what works best. Meds alone won't work, but they are an important part of managing the illness. You will find many people with mental illness who say that their meds have given them a life.
lemcgill1 3 weeks ago
@JohnGotti604 If eating healthy and taking vitamins were the solution then what are we waiting for??? :) lol
lemcgill1 3 weeks ago
what if it's not a chemical imbalance, mabye it's some repression coming to light.
movadoband 4 weeks ago
Can I ask yo a question? Do you feel like other people irritate you and you don't want to be around them and rather be alone meaning not in public stay at home with family. Also when you' re mean to your significant other do you get angry really fast or excited for the smallest things or things they do or not do.
joeymantera 4 weeks ago
yeah i know how you feel im that way all the time especially when i skip my medication.
TheThunderGirl1 4 weeks ago
@MultiBrittanym fuck u how dare you make fun!!!
Peta659 1 month ago
I was wondering if you had your son while you were on medication. Also if you don't mind me asking what meds your on to treat your bipolar?
MINDFULNHGAL 1 month ago
all of what you said is normal.. EVERYONE thinks like that... the only difference between you and everyone else is, YOU have not learned to control/cope with your thoughts, moods, and the way you act... "bi-polar" people who refuse to believe this are just weak, and want an easy way to "cop-out"
v5u7sulh2 1 month ago
@v5u7sulh2 That's bullshit, I'm diagnosed with bipolar and I have never copped out of anything. I graduated university with honours and have a good job that I work hard at being damned good at. If anything, having bipolar just made me want to work harder to prove idiots like you wrong. And sometimes its fucking hard to control my thoughts, moods and actions but I still take responsibility for them and I bet you I'm better at controlling mine than you are at controlling yours.
mechaguess 1 month ago
@mechaguess u are the minority
hh73 1 month ago
@v5u7sulh2 You're ignorant and rude. Does it make you feel better to criticize people over the internet? Someone who sits around on the internet saying hurtful things to people is copping out, highly doubt you're so vocally arrogant in real life.
BeeperKristen 1 month ago
@v5u7sulh2 I am bipolar diagnosed at age 42 !! I cant HELP the way I think or feel and niether can this girl in the video. Get a life and an education you idiot!!!
Tourettesmum 4 weeks ago
@v5u7sulh2 You are the epitome of a twat!! Get real you thick idiot!
smileywand 4 weeks ago
if there is a tool that have a great chance of helpping any person overcome a mental affliccion its going to be found in the observation of the mechanism of our thinking so it wouldnt be a bad idea to review some of the buddhist arguments about our thinking procces
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johnmalory26 1 month ago
Thats like me, I keep feeling like my families against me, even just little things they do I keep thinking in my head, they did that thing on purpose just to get at me. And wen Im out I feel like people r judging me with their eyes. Im usually ok wen Im out, cus I just try focus on wot I gotta do, but every now and then it just creeps up on me. Gotta say I find this more therapy than actually going to see the doctor lol. Thanx for sharing ur thoughts.
RaikenXion 1 month ago
you're very sweet and very brave and i know just what your going through.. sometimes finding the right combination of meds can take a while too, but it's still always a bit of a problem. for me having a sense of humor about life and myself helps a lot. and playing guitar. and make sure that when you feel affection you find a way to show it. G-d bless you dear.
108vasudeva 1 month ago
Oh darling! You are not alone, I get exactly the same thoughts, I wish no one had it at all, but at the same time I'm glad I'm not alone.
Rossco795 1 month ago
Good luck with everything! Im praying 4 u & ur son & hubby! I am bipolar too! And I see things in my teen daughter bt not sure if its just being an emotional teen girl. I thank u 4 sharing ur story & hope things get well 4 u soon. I hope u got the job! :)
missyme82 1 month ago
I have been living with manic depression since I was 13. I understand everything you have said. In my experience, emotional and thought-based perturbations, while they often feel and seem uncontrollable and devastating, come from a loss of present moment focus. Life is a ride. Those with bipolar just have more extreme rises and dips.
It never goes away, but I have learned to treat it with respect and as such I am able to cope.
Peace and love
f56789123 1 month ago
I know exactly what you mean, I get started on something and don't know when to quit, I know about the roller coaster, it is racing on forever, I do say that Prozac works, but it's made me fatter and eat more the effect it's had on me.
TheShospitali 1 month ago
Can anybody tell me how is it living with a wife with bipolar? I think my wife have bipolar disorder
carlospiedras 1 month ago
I am sorry I did mesn it that way, I do not want a woman that is allready spoken for and in a marriage, it would be unGodly of me, I want my own woman who is never been married, but if I meet a woman who is Bi-polar like me, would be nice, we could understand each other better, thats all I was really saying, I hope no offence to you and your husband.
TheShospitali 1 month ago
It's ashame you married beautifull, we would be the perfect couple and battle this bi-polar disorder together, anyways if you husband decide he cant handle it no more, and wants to call it quits, will have our highs and lows together since we have so much in common!
TheShospitali 1 month ago
@TheShospitali Your hitting on a married bipolar woman when she's clearly not in a good head space.....?! you really are one of the most disgusting human beings i've ever seen
Th3venom91 1 month ago
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illflywithyounow 1 month ago
Y'all need to chill, okay...we are what we are. It is what it is!!! We have to work with what we have. I get angry with this crap too, but why charge at each other? I guess I am just a peacemaker.
Base2lovesBase1 1 month ago
You do not have Bipolar. If you are looking for a title its BPD, but as a Psychiatrist it is terrible to label people like this.
unholypenguin4 1 month ago
@unholypenguin4 actually, i prefer to say i HAVE bipolar, not i AM bipolar. Im not bipolar, im Th3venom91.
Th3venom91 1 month ago
Everyone obsesses with the what if's after an interview.
Rapids4me45 1 month ago
@Rapids4me45 yea hearing this stuff I wasn't that surprised... the person making this video seems quite normal and its okay that be experiencing some of those things given that she is unemployed and likely spending a lot of time ruminating.
also, the video wasn't that incoherent in terms of keeping the talking logical and structured.
just my 2 cents!
abizzybee 1 month ago
oh dear! I'm just hearing myself... I just realized that I have bipolar... I hope that I'll get help very soon...
eva2110 1 month ago
its ok 90% of women are bi polar
TyVlog 1 month ago
I have a question.......what was that white thing shooting from the top left of your head towards the floor @ 5:49? it was soooo fast........just wondering.......by the way congratulations. Keep up the good work...
ria2000rda 2 months ago
brittany Jackson or Michael Spears
xAS50 2 months ago
welcome to the darkside... haha ;) im bipolar and people ask me all the time what exacly is that. i tell them that there is a demon inside my head and inorder to keep it away i have to take pills and if i dont i would probably kill you haha
xjoe1988x 2 months ago
@xjoe1988x i tend to answer with 'well, at any moment i may try and kill someone. could be myself, could be you. depends what phase of my cycle i am in, and how much you piss me off'
Th3venom91 1 month ago
equals this GIRL! :)
Ryann2891 2 months ago
Brittney Spears..
Ryann2891 2 months ago
PLUS
Ryann2891 2 months ago
micheal jackson!!!
Ryann2891 2 months ago
wow i can see here that im not the only one. have been treated for depression for a few years now and wasnt getting anywhere .. so recently the doctor is treating me for bipolar which after reading up about it kinda makes sense to me. what you were talking about and how your thoughts work sound just like me. its nice to know that im not the only one and there are others out there going through these same problems and that its ok to talk about it all.
yurei87 2 months ago
Bipolar is cause by psychological warfare. "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Ephesians 6:12 The devil and his fallen angels aim to confuse us, instill fear and or grandiose thoughts within us. God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7 Trust in Jesus Christ only He can set us free!!
NONEshallPERISH 2 months ago
@NONEshallPERISH What type of medication helps bi-polar?
Lorelle1020 1 month ago
@Lorelle1020 I am not a doctor but I believe that technically albuterol is one of the medications. However there are spiritual factors that play into people who suffer from bipolar tendencies. Jesus Christ is the healer of all things and if it is His will to heal someone, it will happen.
NONEshallPERISH 1 month ago
@NONEshallPERISH ok. This irritates me. so ALL bipolar sufferers (myself included) just need to pray, and it goes away?! HOLY SHIT! WHY ARE WE SPENDING ALL THIS TIME SUFFERING WHEN I JUST NEED TO TALK TO MY INVISIB:E FRIEND?
now dont get me wrong, i have nothing agains religious people, but please,dont try and tell me that if i believe in God, my problems will be cured.'Bipolar tendancies' is down right insulting, it is not a TENDANCY, it is a CONDITION.
/rant
Th3venom91 1 month ago
@Th3venom91 I was given the same advice by a NURSE during my recent hospitalisation... not much has changes in last 100 years then.
FigaeBeing 1 month ago
@Lorelle1020 I suggest those who suffer to pray with their whole hearts for help. Jesus said: When you call out to me in your day of trouble I will answer you and you will glorify me. If anyone has been prescribed medication from a doctor, I recommend to continue taking it and seek help and deliverance through Jesus Christ. To fully trust in Jesus. When we give our lives to Christ He will handle everything for our good because he loves us.
NONEshallPERISH 1 month ago
@NONEshallPERISH You are a beautiful beautiful girl and gifted with truly a kind heart and understanding of being kind to your neighbor. God bless You.
Lorelle1020 1 month ago
@Lorelle1020 Thank you for your kind words! God bless you as well. I would love to keep whomever it is that you are concerned for in prayer. Please inbox me if you have any prayer requests or other questions. I will do my best to help. God will supply all your needs according to His riches in Jesus Christ.
NONEshallPERISH 1 month ago
I've never thought about blogging, I am so ashamed of having it. I was 'diagnosed' two weeks ago and I have had it all my life, not knowing it. Quite a surprise. Thank you for sharing.
PrincessVictoria777 2 months ago
@PrincessVictoria777 nothing to be ashamed of, God wants us to live a happy life.
Lorelle1020 1 month ago
@Lorelle1020 Thank you. Blogging has helped a lot, so has writing about it. However, getting a lot of 'buff' from people about all kinds of different areas of my life, and getting some from my mother on my Bi-polar, I just can't help but feel ashamed. I am asking all those questions you first ask yourself when finding something out like this...I guess, it's just shifting through and figuring where I stand in it all. I would be nice to know some people who care, and understand where I am in life.
PrincessVictoria777 1 month ago
I have obsessive thoughts if something's on my mind i will think about it all day until it pisses off everyone around me.
Someimes i can go into a rage for little reason.
Can't relax and will not stop talking or working.
poodtang1 2 months ago
#New subscriber. I Love your videos. I suffer from this same disorder and it's a struggle EVERYDAY. YES MA'AM What you said about treating your man like crap, I do the same thing to mines and thats how you know when you have a good man cause they put up with us when we treat them like crap. you described what I go thru and suffer thru 100 percent.
SoulSistahDiva 2 months ago
@SoulSistahDiva That's how I felt when watching this. It's so very true.
PrincessVictoria777 1 month ago
Have you had an allergy test done......try detoxing from gluten ...... food addictions are alot of the times because of allergies
Drhamburgerhill 2 months ago
@Drhamburgerhill ..........food allergies and intolerances maybe huge contributors to bipolar......My dad had it... doctors arent able to do anything........but i think as do other researchers that food allergies are a key to this...... lot more research is needed
Drhamburgerhill 2 months ago
@Drhamburgerhill Thank you so much, I do believe gluten makes the problem worse - It's so expensive to go gluten free
Lorelle1020 1 month ago
thank u so much for sharing your story. You are very brave.
InnerBlissChannel 2 months ago
Just because you say you believe in God doesn't mean you "believe" it's called faith. If you let him heal you then you will be free! trust me, go to church.. I used to have a lot of mental & physical problems until i started going back to church and praying to God every day. He's real and he loves everyone even though some people are too in love with themselves to realize it..
HippiePower3 2 months ago
i think its the bipolar i have that feeling probably even worse! i dwell on little things ! i cant even work because of it
jennita374 2 months ago
The worst part is the intellect remains intact
Javeriffic 2 months ago
I can use telepathy, send and receive up to few kilometer.
VinkoRajic 2 months ago
You guys should come and talk to us other sufferers at map of mates . comm!
misscoveryyy 2 months ago
Search up "Oprah's Lifeclass watch online free" on Google and watch the episodes. Seriously. It'll help you out tons.
mariopatai 2 months ago
Try this : Do not watch television (at all) for a week long period. Thats 7 straight days or 168 hours of no TV shows, commercials and everything else that is presented on screen today. This includes going to the movie theatres and downloading YT videos.
Get all of your weekly news readings from you local newspaper source, if you must get it somehow.
Keep yourself occupied weither it be cleaning, cooking, meditation and exercising. Try taking a walk, stretch. Listen to Reiki music. Breathe.
flylow2cre8u 2 months ago 2
I was told I was Bipolar and i found making music idles my mind
Casetopfloor 2 months ago
she is rockin the micheal jackson nose lol
MultiBrittanym 2 months ago 31
@MultiBrittanym do not get me wrong, but I think you would do best for yourself trying to get a professional advice from a doctor about your state. It makes no good trying to talk to the camera and broadcasting such things on Internet. To me, your video is depressing as you seem so lonely, why you did not try to say all this to some living being? I think you need to talk with someone who may help in some more constructive way so you can try to fight the problem. Please do so.
magmailable 1 month ago
@magmailable Sometimes it's good to say your thoughts out loud, especially if it helps others to understand and accept the disorder. Anonymous audience is also a lot less intimidating and judgemental then professional help. And since emotions are running high/low there is a limit as to how much you want to rant about it to your friends and family.
FigaeBeing 1 month ago
@MultiBrittanym Fuck you asshole.
vanessadoll31 1 month ago
@MultiBrittanym Well someone had to get it in the will lol.
Pyraclipse 1 month ago
@ZenaBattaglia Have someone ever told you that you couldn't do something and you defied what they said could'nt be done, That's how i feel about Jesus taking all this stuff away from my mind and replacing it with unspeakable joy!
NorCalMediGrower 2 months ago
Your feelings are normal for our disorder. You are not alone honey. I pray you get the job. Make sure you go to your therapy, that is very important. Your husband is a great guy to understand it's not him you are mad at, it is the bipolar I have the same problems, I am 59 I'm still alive I go off on goat paths too. I know a 4 year old with that disorder too. She always wants to eat, its like she has a hole she cannot fill. I'm praying for you and your son. Stay strong.
ZenaBattaglia 2 months ago
i know that for me, a book called "the secret" has alowed me to learn about positive and negative thoughts and their effect. i can honestly say this (very tiny) book really did change the way i thought for the better, and then the rest followed. read the first page; if you don't like it put it back, but you will. you just have some things to work through, don't believe everything docs tell u b/c only u have ur best interest. dont line their pockets at your own expense.
artgirlwethepeople 2 months ago
I feel for u ..what kind of medication are u on ?? Have u tried Lithium ?
reacteur84 2 months ago
hope things work out for you. best wishes!
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Killerbeez1994 2 months ago
wow, yeah, me too, hang in there, my meds made me put on 20kg n feel even worse. but without them, i cant breath from anxt. people without the imbalance will neva no wat its like 4 u to feel crazy. people who say lifes tuff we all feel down sometimes, i envy the crap out of them. bi polar does different things to different people, i was up there 4 a while, now i'm so down i cant stop talking to myself n wanting to disappear. My sense of humour keeps me alive when my brain is trying to kill me
bradricho84 3 months ago
WOW!!!!! I AM EXACTLY FRIGGIN LIKE THIS!!!! PEOPLE ALWAYS CRITICIZE ME FOR BEING WEIRD WHEN I ISOLATE MYSELF! I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO UNDERSTAND MY THOUGHTS ALSO RACE LIKE CRAZY AND I HAVE BAD INSOMNIA THOUGHTS OF DEATH CONSTANTLY EXTREME ANXIETY I NEED HELP! I DON'T WANT MEDICATION, IT WILL JUST SCREW ME UP MORE!!!! ANYBODY OUT THERE WHO CARES!!!!!!
NorCalMediGrower 3 months ago
@NorCalMediGrower
I care. The problem is these, "people" don't understand the illness and don't care. Without the medication it won't get any better. You have an imbalance in your brain and it needs the help medication brings. I hate taking it, really I do, but without it I am off the chain! I can't begin to explain how bad. Therapy and medication do help. We have to learn to deal with this. It is not going away.
ZenaBattaglia 2 months ago
I feel bad for the people that do have bipolar BUT ALOT OF THE NORMAL WORLD HAS SAME FEELINGS AND THINKING AT TIMES MAYBE NOT AS BAD BUT GUYS SERIOUSLY WHAT IS NORMAL THESE DAYS? NO ONES HAPPY AND THOSE WHO SAY THEY ARE WELL MAYBE THEY ARE FOR NOW BUT TRUST ME LIFE CAN FUCK U OVER EMOTIONALLY, IVE HAD DEPRESSION AFTER WATCH MY DAD DIE BUT THATS SOMETHING THAT WOULD AFFECT ANY1, IT'S NORMAL, ALOT OF WHAT U THINK AND FEEL IS NORMAL. EVERYBODY'S DIFFERENT BUT WE ALL HAVE FEELINGS AND LIFES A BITCH
MrWeaponx82 3 months ago
your beautiful!! :O)
kingpinkilla1984 3 months ago
awr your a lovely girl! : ) angel blessings... x
basindigo 3 months ago
You just completely described how I feel 100%. I was diagnosed with bipolar in August... and.. I want you to know that I support you.. and you have inspired me to start blogging about this.
freakinalecks 3 months ago 12
@freakinalecks Bi Polar is caused by Candida Albicans....look it up it causes racing thoughts, one thing on the mind ONLY.....depression etc., It can be cured by diet and medications and natural things like garlic....yeast killers.
girlznguitarz 1 month ago
@freakinalecks
The blogging helps.
DanameaTheBattleLock 1 month ago
good video i'm in the same boat
dntsynuthn 3 months ago
I empathize I do. I was diagnosed BP1, with Paranoia. GAD, PTSD, you name it. I have to take sleeping meds. My mind won't shut down. It's a double edged sword. I can multi task like crazy. I feel you I am on my 4th med and I am despondent. The worst is feeling mixed mania. I do self medicate with cannabis. I helps my anxiety disorders and I know it's controversial. It has less side effects than most of the big pharma drugs. I am so past ethical arguments. I am in survival mode.
danielsaun1 3 months ago
WHAT IF.... you go to church & actually have faith in God. Pray every day & you will be cured.. this is not an illness, don't listen to the doctors. You were once normal & you can be the same once again!
HippiePower3 3 months ago
@HippiePower3 It's ignorance like this that keeps people from getting better. Prayer can't cure it, if so I'd be cured. Prayer helps one to believe and have faith that they will improve. It's kinda a slap in the face to tell someone they can be cured and they're their own problem and their faith is standing in the way. What if she's not religious, ever think of that? All of the world doesn't believe in a higher power.
TyraNeche 3 months ago
@TyraNeche
I think ignorance is bliss & I am far from that.. I know people that have over dosed on drugs and been to hell and back.. then they started believing in God. Does everyone really need to be bad to fit into society until they die and actually realize that all their lives were a lie? Honestly, the devil is a big fat liar & if you were mature enough to know that this world is evil it's because he pretty much likes to mess with people every day like this poor weak soul!
HippiePower3 2 months ago
U don't need medicine that shit makes it worst u need to live life as u are b who u r your perfectly normal all u need to do is go out and enjoy life.....
M3shr1983 3 months ago
@M3shr1983 This is the worst advice you could give someone with a mental disorder. People who don't stick to meds often harm themselves and their loveones. Unless you're their doctor don't suggest for ANYONE to begin or stop taking meds. The stigma over mental disease needs to STOP right now. The problem is she can't evejoy life, DUH! She wouldn't need the meds if she felt she could do that. It's not that people can't do things to feel better, it's just that they don't actually feel better. smh
TyraNeche 3 months ago
You are also beautiful and brave and more.
Spikeleedlich 3 months ago
@Spikeleedlich That was so sweet of you to say
TyraNeche 3 months ago
thank you x sooo many.....thank you i know i am not well and just because i don't go on a sexual binge or over spend my treatment has been delayed...thank you...what you said is what i live with every day.u r wonderful xxx
zeroskillsful 3 months ago
Wow this sounds so much like me. I have always felt bipolar, and my mother always thought I was bipolar, but I was afraid of looking stupid by telling my psyc. I finally told them and they put me on bipolar meds and it's a little better.
dirtyrottensecret 3 months ago
Does bipolar mean you travel between the North and South pole?
smokiebird06 3 months ago
@smokiebird06 eh?
stealth1692 3 months ago
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xKimberlyx666 3 months ago
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)I have the rarest Type Rapid Cycling it is severe downs then Manic episodes constantly No In betweens Full blown MANIA is identical to Schizophrenia hallucinations paranoia dont sleep for weeks at a time cant stop talking moving and so on looks almost identical to someone who "Does Alot Of Crack Cocaine" Type 1 you have at least 2 Full manic Episodes a year that last a few weeks Constant Fidigting cant finish a sentence cant remember what they were talking about half way into the sentence
xKimberlyx666 3 months ago
Type 2 is a mild form You will live as long as anybody else - Rapid Cycling Manic has a quite high Suicide rate - and usually requires Psychiatric Hospitalization at least a few times a year for long periods - My longest stay was almost 4 years. Type 1 also usually requires a couple hospital stays a year when person becomes Manic. - I find so many people are being mis-diagnosed now-adays with just a Questionarre and a pencil a Dr will tell you thats what you have
xKimberlyx666 3 months ago
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and its not that simple Spinal is only true way to tell - as well you said this is something "YOU GOT" Manic (Bi-Polar) is something your born with it affects you from the time you learn to walk and talk - so if you did not have these symptoms in childhood you should tell your Dr to do some more testing - it is VERY Herideditary My Mother had it her Mother and sister have it My Daughter has it.
xKimberlyx666 3 months ago
It is not something you "Just Get" i have been dealing with this several years my first hospitalization was age 9 - at 14 I was sent from Toronto To Houston texas because no Facitity in Canada was sure what to do with me Manic - illness was very Unchartered In Canada now it seems they are just throwing the label on everyone
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xKimberlyx666 3 months ago
beautiful heart. i can see it through ur eyes. hope ya began to care less weather ya get the job or not... then i hope ya get the job once u feel that way
thallious9876 3 months ago
I'll be your friend :) you're really preety too :) you could join some clubs and societies find more friends there? x x There's a strong link between mental health issues and creativity. I'll be thinking of you xx
MsLeceline 3 months ago
I'll be your friend :) you're really preety too :) you could join some clubs and societies find more friends there? x x
MsLeceline 3 months ago
sounds like me I have diagnosed with ocd at the age of 8. Still have OCD now I am 22 I have no idea if I have BPD or Bipolar. I have the mood swings as well. You talking about your husband brought tears to my eyes. I feel the same way about my boyfriend. if you ever need to talk I am here for you. Your not the only one. I feel sad for you but at the same time I am happy that I am not the only one.
ravenroxursox 3 months ago
livinbipolar, you shuld come join us other sufferers on mapofmates. com :) my name on there is express1.
miissmiaa 3 months ago
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@sexendrugs She's not a Jew stupid.
ehamby1071517 3 months ago
... Just like me.
I can't stop thinking "What if". And one day, I can be positive and strong saying "Okay, tomorrow, I'll do it." But the next morning, I can't.. If I really nkow I want to do it, I force myself to do it. Finally I do it, but then again comes the "What if".thoughts.
When I keep thinkng about it, I get nervous. I get cold and start to sweat, my hearts beating like crazy and it hurts, scuicidal thoughts.
'm not diagnosed, but I'm gonna check. But this is how I've been for years.
ThisIsLove94 3 months ago
I know how you feel
xToddsterx 3 months ago
I know this is an old video but hang in there; the OCD beastly aspect is insatiable for me... but there are always positives in the future, no matter what current mindsets of negativity may deceive us into pure despair
thumpaswirl 4 months ago
@thumpaswirl "but there are always positives in the future, no matter what current mindsets of negativity may deceive us into pure despair" Lovely sentiment, and nice use of English :)
Blexine 3 months ago
Just stay strong sweetheart and try to focus on being strong for your son and husband. I know its hard, I endure Chronic depression and I try to stay busy by always having something to look forward to. I find that my relationship with a higher power helps me cope. Look up, Stay focused and Be blessed.
lookupbeblessed 4 months ago
I also have bipolar disorder. I know that is really hard to deal with this condition. We have to remain strong and try to live our best life, we only have 1 chance :)
tracylfreeland 4 months ago
this is exactly how it effects me. big ups for the words. xx
writadj 4 months ago
As a person with light bipolar I have felt a much greater effect in changing my diet and training than any pill ever had. Sugar and dairy is toxic for a brain with these problems.
ManicMindTrick 4 months ago
JESUS will be your BFF...
jesusdefeateddeath 4 months ago
talk about one thing and then start with another thats just a conversation
xxalisonleaxx 4 months ago
are you sure it's not just stress?
toneage7 4 months ago