It can be cured. It just takes time, patience and understanding. One of the main tricks is to stop trying to get rid of it. The very desire you have to 'get back to reality' is the same desire causing anxiety.For me It worked well ignoring the tv and the use of other technology . I also spent most time exercising and eating healthy. I've got it now but the symptons are light
i am a sufferer of depersonalization disorder. everything you said, i just nodded along, it made so much sense. it may not other people, but i get it all.
once you are deep in it, you'll never get out again. not thinking of it doesn't cure anything. I regret every single drug, even coffee, and it doesn't get better. curing dpd is a lie.
It's sounds to me that fear of DP still plays a role in your life. Fear of being uncomfortable in certain places by reacting and going to a safe place. At first, it's fine to do that in order to get use to the feeling of DP. But through time, one has to go through those uncomfortable feeling knowing that nothing is going to happen. Through time those feelings dissipate. By not fearing it, you will spend less time noticing it and that it half the battle.
From my experience, the only thing that can cure depersonalization is time. It varies from person to person. A major thing is that depersonalization is exacerbated by stress and anxiety, so you need to address and clear up that anxiety.
Nice Video. I feel for you, man. I need yours or someone elses opinion in this. im 15, and i feel different. I remember how life used to be for me a year or two back. I Felt great. Now i just feel different. I Dont feet like myself. I feel like im living in a repeating cycle that never changes. I feel like im revolving around someone elses body. I Feel so uncomfortable all the time. Could i have depersonalization? its just really hard to describe how i feel. I dont know, man.
@TheGameWanker69 I don't have a phD in psychology, so you should consult a professional for better answers, but it sounds like it could be type of anxiety disorder or perhaps dpd, or a couple of other things that are likely treatable.. Not enough info here to tell. Did this feeling begin with a certain event or change in your life that you can remember? And are all the symptoms prevalent all the time or can you pinpoint certain times that they exist or are worse (social situations, etc.)?
so anyways I was just wondering, when you get into this 'state' do you feel like a different person? I mean, like you aren't you, and your an entirely different person and your characteristics changes? like snapping, shouting, shutting down?
I only realized this happened to me, when 'I came back down to earth' and I was officially 'me again' talking to people, not feeling weird. it freaked me out.
and when u say you have an 'episode' what does that consist of?
I got this in 1983 from substance abuse, the 80'-90's were a nightmare for me. Now all these years later I feel very good. I think a routine & socializing were most important for me. I still feel ocassionally out of it, usually when traveling or alone in new settings but I don't fear it now. Sometimes it actually feels good now that I know I'll be alright.
the first time i got high is when this happened to me...but i just live with it and now its not much of a bother unless i get some haunted dream and wake up...that shit makes me depersonalized to the max.
i hate it when doctors do that shit. they always threw stupid drugs at me that never worked and diagnose me with things that have nothing to do with my symptoms.
@rezsk8kyd same! I spent a good part of my summer in a psych ward and got thrown anti-depressants and labeled 'anxiety'. Yeah, I have anxiety as well but that's NOT all that this is. It's not.
I'm 23 and I lived with DPD for 3 years. It was brought on my what i think was Marijuana and Adderal I had been taking for ADD. The Adderal was prescription but the Marijuana was of course recreational. Because of this I haven't touched either since. The first, if you will, episode of it lasted 6 months then just all of a sudden when away one day, but 2 years later its has returned. I would like to know if anyone has experienced this. Just waking up one day and it disappearing.
Though I've never been officially tested...I can't afford much right now in the way of medical things or mental evaluations...but I'm certain that I have DPD...I started daying my bf before my mom died, and I could feel love and give love easily...and feel all emotions and give them back...but now, even though I know I still love my bf now, years later, I can't feel a damn thing....it kills me.
Not everyone gets it from smoking weed...or drugs....I was pretty normal, up until around 18 (I'[m 22 now) I graduated high school...and in Dec. started a 4 week crash course to start my nursing career, to become a CNA and work up. My mom..killed herself...we found her...my teacher forced me to either continue the class or quit. I made myself stay for mom. Then my dad got sick and is dying now..I was in a numb shock for a long time,and only now, now I realise that's what caused my DP...trauma.
Thx for the vid. I have DPD too for about 10 years and it might sound weird but I'm actually not too gloomy about it...I don't think that its untreatable. Imo the wrong thing to do is treat it with meds. I think its more important and helpful to reduce anxiety/stress naturally. It's just my idea, but I know a little bit about psych. and its important to remember that DPD is a defense mechanism that everyone has, and it should be able to be handled naturally.
Smoked weed when I was 14 and it fucked me up.I'm 22 now and my perception has never been right since.It triggered panic attacks and anxiety that crop up every few years but the depersonalization never went away.My home and family have never looked and given off the same vibes since and I've completely forgotten what it feels to live a life without even worrying about what's real or not.This latest episode is by far my worst.Today I actually believed I was dreaming and then realised I wasn't.
for anyone out there with this, it does go away, i had it for a good year, and honestly thought it would never go away. funny enough as soon as I kinda accepted the fact that i was going to live with it forever, and got help with my enxiety and depression, it slowly just went..... I smoke weed and do ecstacy too.... very weird. Keep yourselves occupied and remember that this terrible fuckign shit does go away... anyone saying otherwise is full of fuckign shit. Best of luck to you all, god bless!
why this happened to me or why I spent as long as 20 minutes just staring at my reflection and watching it move with me and feeling detached from reality, but I have this occasional sense that my body's movements don't belong to me, and it would sometimes astonish me that I could make my body move in certain ways. Not sure why I thought I should share this, just thought I would. I still do experience this detachment from reality from time to time.
@winterpurgatory It's strange you should mention that because I've been feeling these odd sensations lately, unlike derealization where you feel this overwhelming sense of fear along with a complete feeling of being unreal, but I've been feeling a complete numbness and almost a complete removal of "myself" from my body. I think this is what you're talking about right?
@winterpurgatory im the same way dude...dp is trippy and it doesnt go away for me...its always there...sometimes i just look at shit and sit amazed at how unreal it is...it helps to remind urself that everything is real...
I'm not sure if this is of any relation to your condition, but I remember when I was a kid, even back in elementary school, when I would be getting ready for the morning and I would be looking into the bathroom mirror, and I would get this surreal feeling that the person staring back at me looked exactly like me in every single way, but somehow just wasn't me, almost like a me in another world. I would even move my body in ways just to watch my reflection follow me. I never really figured out
@illuminastymusic -- Good on ya, man. Nice video. My life took that right-angle turn 30 years ago at age 17. Back then, people didn't talk about panic attack syndrome - we'd never heard of DPD. I finally figured it out two years ago, thanks to the internet. Like you, I just got on with my life, and did the best I could. I no longer suffer from anxiety, but still have a constant level of DPD. I like your sensible approach/advice. It would be nice if someone would nail this down someday.
@bimini1212 Thanks for your comment. Sorry to hear you've had this for so long but glad to hear you no longer have anxiety. I'm currently awaiting a psychiatric assessment where I'll tell them that I would like cognitive behavioural therapy to combat my OCD before I attempt anything else as it seems to be the OCD that's catalysing both the DPD and the anxiety, not to mention all the other little problems I have grown to live with... Stay in touch, updates coming soon :)
Hello i have had what i believe to be dpd since 2004. i was around 12 or 13 and would smoke canabis with friends, not allot but just socially. i woke up in the night after smoking some canabis with what i thought was some kind of panic attack. it was a rush of feelings or sensation that left me feeling detatched from reality and myself. i went to bed feeling awfull and hoped it would go by the time i would wake up. i't didnt, and i have had the feeling ever since.
Hello i have had what i believe to be dpd since 2004. i was around 12 or 13 and would smoke canabis with friends, not allot but just socially. i woke up in the night after smoking some canabis with what i thought was some kind of panic attack. it was a rush of feelings or sensation that left me feeling detatched from reality and myself. i went to bed feeling awfull and hoped it would go by the time i would wake up. i't didnt, and i have had the feeling ever since.
@billthewanker i told my mother and she contacted the doctors and i was refurred to a doctor to assess my mental health ti the cams department witch specialised in childrens mental health. i tried to explain my felelings to the doctor witch was almost impossible, i went for brain scans as they thought i might have tempral lobe epilepsy, i didn't. eventually he came to the conclusion that i have a drug induced psycosis and i was perscribed a drug called rispiadol witch was an anti psycotic.
This drug did help at first, it helped calm me down and reduce the paranoa i also had. but i still had this horrible sensation of not knowing who i am, not really recognising my surroundings and the most horrible, my mum! i also felt as if my sences had all been tuned up or hightened, my light sencitivity and hearing seemed to sharp. i was always wincing and my eyes were constantly watering. This was in 2004 and i still have this horrible sensation today although it's not quite as bad as ...
i was just interesded in your opinion. do you think dpd is what i am experiencing?
i would love if i could talk to you about this via e-mail or somthing? as this is the first time i have ever seen people with the same symptoms as me.
please read all my message below. sorry for bad spelling and i dont really know how to use youtube so i have written you a bit of an essay thats posted in the wrong order. Thankyou x
try niacin therapy, type niacin for shizophrenia in youtube. it is used in other disorders by Dr Hoffer. What i understand it removes toxing from fatty deposits in the brain,
if you guys do FUN THINGS then the dpd/drd goes away. i just went snorkeling with my dad and sister, and i havnt really though about it, so doing fun things = not thinking about dpd/drd = symptoms fade away for the time being. thumbs up this guys so others can see... im living my life by this. if u have a bad day with dpd/drd, do something fun.
@dilberto0Oz I get on with my life not even thinking about DP/DR but I know it's still there. You can't just forget about it. I'm going in for OCD therapy 1st, then tackle the anxiety before I deal with the DPD. That's how my friend got rid of her 18 years of DPD.
@dilberto0Oz maybe its like an auto matic system that controls your body whilst your doing things out of habit, I noticed that also that when i started to enjoy life all the time, I didn't have it..
i do ecstasy, shrooms, weed, and i drink. i got this disorder a year ago from a bad shroom trip, and i've been experimenting with not doing drugs, and so far, the only thing that happens when i smoke weed i just zone out, and i really have to divert 100% of my brainpower to not zoning out. Ecstasy just gives me the regular side affects. i never mix weed and shrooms now, cause thats when i had my bad trip. never again...
@dilberto0Oz My advice is to stay away from any drugs that affect your serotonin. I was caught in a 3 month loop of derealization because I smoked a little weed and I know someone that was caught in a DR loop for 3 years because of magic mushrooms. Is it really worth the risk?
@illuminastymusic woow 3 years, perhaps shroom chemicals accumulate in the brain just like it is with LSD, what exactly were symptoms ur friend had ? THC also is fat soluble
@maciejwrotek Maybe... well if you've ever experienced derealization it's probably the worst feeling ever. Even today I had a little blip of DR and although it feels like I'd never get used to the feeling I'm able to control my thoughts and move on.
I know how to get rid of this thing now: therapy for OCD, cognitive behavioural therapy and mindfulness meditation.
HEY MAN... cool vid.. please hear me out...I HAD DR for a while man... I tried it all.. nothing worked.. then I did this... this is me, be well bro... /watch?v=lmlNbT4c9QU
@TheGenerationOfSport ive had it for a month now, been doing so much research on it lately. i found theres really no cure for it, just the mental strength you have to fight it off and eventually it will go away. i heard it wont be an all the sudden snap back to reality and feeling normal again but it slowely goes away. i guess the best thing to do is to not give it attention or think about it which is easier said than done, i know. but thats whats supposed to help it go away
@InstrumentalHipHop1 im 15, and when i smoke weed, i feel like i cant control my facial expressions, like they are really stressed or odd... its wierd...
@dilberto0Oz i think the weed breaks apart whatever is keeping me from actually doing them. but since i smoked i realized i always "do" them in my mind but they are never expressed
Something on the surface, well it kind of makes me nervous Who says that you deserve this And what kind of god would serve this? We will cure this dirty old disease If you've got the poison I've got the remedy The remedy is the experience. This is a strange enough new play on words I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend The rest of your nights with the light on So shine the light on all of your friends When it all amounts to nothing in the end. I won't worry my life away.
You are very brave to share this with the world. I wish you luck and all the happiness you can handle. I used to go to a park which i spent lots of time at, and it became very familiar and comfortable to me. I was even sitting on the swing one day thinking i was alone and i started singing, and ended up singing my heart out, then i realized a boy sitting on the bench behind me. He told me i sang pretty and we became friends. find somewhere you can be 100% comfortable in, it might help :)
My gosh i just realized the last bad experience i had where i disasociated at work, under a lot of stress and had repeated cold sores to which I was prescribed Valtrex for relief and while it stopped the cold sores i had a diassociative episode, which i have had from an early age which started as an way to cope with mulitple heart surgeries and numerous testing that when caused pain i was able to remove myself from my body and watch from across the room all the procedures. The antiboctics r bad
My gosh i just realized the last bad experience i had where i disasociated at work, under a lot of stress and had repeated cold sores to which I was prescribed Valtrex for relief and while it stopped the cold sores i had a diassociative episode, which i have had from an early age which started as an way to cope with mulitple heart surgeries and numerous testing that when caused pain i was able to remove myself from my body and watch from across the room all the procedures. The antiboctics r bad
I am sorry you have DPD. I have both Depersonalization and Derealization which both started at the exact same time suddenly when I was 10. I have tried medication and talk therapy and nothing has helped me at all. It feels like I am a character in someone else's imagination and when they wake up, I will be gone and so will everything else. Nothing exists, not even me. I live in constant terror and anxiety. Just want you all to know that you are not alone. Good luck to you and everyone...
I have Dp as well and it is a very hellish disorder...you feel as if you were unreal yourself and the world around you is unreal. You do not feel emotions or connections to other people. Mine was brought on by Drug abuse....so for all of you who do drugs think twice, because you might get this hellish disorder as well
THE REASON YOU HAVE IT IS BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO HOPE I HAD IT I WANTED TO DIE I THOUGHT I HAD EVERY DISORDER, REALLY I HAD THIS DISORDER AND I SAID FUCK IT IM FINE IM HAVING FUN BABY I WENT AND QUIT THINKING AND IT GOES AWAY I MIGHT HAVE IT A FEW HOURS A DAY BT ITS BETTER THEN 24/7 hey man you will be ok there is cures i know one is god and theres alot other mabey you have low seratonin or high seratonin levels you will be ok . TELL YOURSELF THE SAME
Oh and btw my Depersonalization/derealization has gotten a hell of a lot better throughout the years now. (18 now). I find working out (weightlifting, playing basketball (or any sport you might be interested in) makes distracts me from that disorder by making me feeling good about myself. Also watching movies like Big Daddy or any movie that makes you laugh or feel a strong connection to something, "Harsh Times", and "Batman Begins" for me. Everyone is different, but feeling positiv never hurts.
Hey, illuminastymusic, did you play video games growing up? Because I've been playing video games since I was(3-4). I have a theory that maybe being subjected to watching violence, killing without thinking, and controlling other characters and watching their lives through there perspective and observing them interact with others/immersing yourself into their world has played a vital part in my depersonalization. Maybe exposure to other's lives alters the way you perceive yourself
Hey, illuminastymusic, did you play video games growing up? Because I've been playing video games since I was a little kid (3-4). I have a theory that maybe being subjected to watching violence, killing without thinking, and controlling other characters and watching their lives through there perspective and observing them interact with others/immersing yourself into their world has played a vital part in my depersonalization. Maybe exposure to other's lives alters the way you perceive yourself
Thanks for sharing your story. I agree, marijuana is definitely to be avoided if you are an anxious, inward thinking person. I smoked it for the 1st time when I was about 15, and the next day I noticed I still felt odd. That feeling never went away, and this eventually effected my behavior. I went from being the "smart kid" in class with lots of friends to not being able to focus, and pushing everyone away.
I smoked weed and it took the depersonalization to a whole new level. It was the worse thing that I ever experienced hands down. I thought I was going to die like it was all a dream lol
@Calizactive187 I smoked pot when I was 13 (3 years after getting DPD) and I would just get stoned. When I tried stronger strains of weed (purple haze, white widow) it made me ill for 3 months!
I stay well away from any hallucinogenics and would advise anyone with any pre-existing neurological disorders to stay away from them.
@seeriktus No it doesn't. I gave up smoking for 6 months a while back and again 8 months ago. Still a non smoker. I noticed no change whatsoever between then and now.
@seeriktus : Hi. Smoking doesn't make DPD worse unless one is already dissociated and experiencing anxiety. Any stimulant, lack of sleep, stress, trauma, anxiety...that makes it a lot worse and usually makes it much more intense. I have it constantly so I have to avoid all that stuff or I can't even be alone.
I was talking from a scientific background I'm a Pharmacologist/Neuroscientist, for you perhaps it doesnt exacerbation DPD but statistically it does, people are different. Thats one of the big problems with Psych patients, they reckon if something does/doesnt happen for them then the same must go for everyone, in a subject with very difficult levels of certainty.
@seeriktus : It is nice to know you have a background with pharmacological and neuro- background. I appreciate your imput. I think you are right in that for some people, stimulants might not make it worse, but for some of us, it doesn't seem to make much difference. What is ok for one person doesn't mean it is the same for all. Thank you. :)
Hmm. i dont get depersonalization i get derealization. My derealizatrion is like a compressor of the brain waves. Its calming like im blank but im mildly anxious. I usually get it when im in outlet malls or big stores. I think it may be the bombardment of large amounts of stimulus and things trying to pursued me. its subtle.
@Guitarstring187 Same here!!! Also, I get "waves of derealization when I'm in the car with my stepdad. All of the sudden I start "thinking intensely" asking myself who the hell that is and how weird it is that we live in the same house, all the while my feels all dizzy/like having a "spidey sense" but for depersonalization/derealisatio n instead of a danger warning like the super hero. Btw I believe I got depersonalisation around the same age as that guy (I was in 4th grade so about 9).
Thank you so much for this. 2 years ago i had DPD that lasted about 2 months. i cant say when i transitioned back to normal exactly but i didnt know how to describe it at all. i thought i had reached enlightenment or something, i tried to kill someone and thought i could fill a notebook without putting my pen down. i thought i was just permanently high. i enjoyed it. but not until today did i know other ppl had it too. someone i knew told me they had it. i was like wow... thank u again!
hey dude ure not alone thanx for your video though thanx for sharing makes one feel less "weird" arg and sleep deprivation is the worst definitely... weird thing is I never took drugs just went through clinical depression and this came after it makes me feel more strange in that way cause most people who have this seem to have taken some sort of drug ...
I have very good news for you my friend. I had depersonalization for years but am completely recovered. I am not a scammer, or a blogger, I seriously used this to get free, I hated DP so bad, and then I bought an ebook. go to dpmanual(dot)com, I promise you this works....Msg me if you have any questions
for me it gets better and worse at times. usually i dont think about it but when it gets really bad i can instantly feel it. 2 years ago i smoked cannabis a few times and since then ive had it. im pretty sure its the cannabis that caused it.
i know i have DPD, i havnt been diagnosed or seen any doctors or specialists. would anyone recommend seeing a doctor?
fuck anti-depressants and all those other mental medications. they all made me feel worse, and i tried 6 different kinds. its better to try vitamins and supplements and shit.
Say man, im 16 and i feel like i'm not gonna tolerate this for years. But I'm glad i found this therapy or some like that that is called Linden Method. people say it works but i need to make sure 100% is not a scam..
I have had this for about a year now. Quit all drugs, but now i drink alot, it really helps. not in the long run but it definitly helps when i drink. I really hope ill get rid of it some day, that's why i keep living. have you really tried "everything"? =/ it makes me THAT much more depressed :p Great video, actually helps me to see other people suffering from this so i know i can live with it to :) have a great week :)
been living with this, ocd, anxiety, depression and intrusive thoughts from the ocd. I have never done drugs or anything. I remember i did hit my head really badly once and im not sure if that was the cause or not. It makes me feel like i just don't care, and it worsens greatly at school and when i wake up early. The thing is, this in a way helped me get out. It made it so i feel like i can do crazy things, like and be very lively even though i still have this. I am only 14 too :(.
Hey! Sent you a message a while ago. No reply but that's ok! I am not good at replying to others. Regarding smoking, did your dp get totally worse when you quit for a while? It has for me. I've been smoke free for a few weeks now but am on the low dose of gum.
I just wondered if you might know. I zone out alot in social situations, ive been diagnosed with social anxiety disorder. I also zone out in times of stress and believe it or not, I zone when good things are happening. I feel like my voice doesn't belong to me. I don't get it all the time, sometimes it takes immence effort to feel real and connected to the world and other people, something that others take for granted as it comes so naturally to them, I was wandering if you might know anything?
@rsiegenbe That sounds like you're super aware of it and you think about it all the time...
I tend to just fill up my time with activities like making music or playing video games. When I'm waiting for a train, for example, I just let my mind wander y'know?
I don't like to think too much about my DP, I guess it still scares me to this day.
@illuminastymusic Thanks for your reply. Sorry its taken so long to respond back. I think knowing that there is a name for it has me very concious of it. I don't really think of it as having something but lacking something, maybe a sensitivity or connecting with life. I'm seeing a T@ the mo.Starting dbt in 6months.been diagnosed with ptsd so its something to do with bad experiences like a coping mechanism,i can't connect too much or I emotionally dysregulate but its different 4 every1.
yeah, meditation is great because it makes you think of nothing. I find a big problem with DP is that the lack of attention span that gets us behind the wall is forgetting that you can stop your inner-monologue.
I run five times per week (20-25 miles total), hit the gym as often as I can, ride my bike, all to the point where I get so worn out and exhausted that it supersedes the eerie sensations of DP/DR. Believe me, it helps! I'm of the opinion that we all have DP/DR in some form or another, but it's that constant ruminating and obsessing that tends to feed the DP demon, so immerse yourself with PHYSICAL activities to the point where you become really tired...you won't have time for DP/DR.
Youre so right about GP's! They just throw antidepressants at you as the first thing. When I was about 16 I was put on paxil and years after that, after quiting cold-turkey, I suffered anxiety, brainfog, depression, dp & dr for years!
In many cases its these antidepressants that CAUSE anxiety, dp etc.
I'm suffering of Depersonalization all the time as well. Did you consider trying a psychotherapie? I mean, I am not quite sure, but it might help...Did anybody here get out of DPD?
WTF!? yES!!! what the hell is DPD?! i mean i know what it is, i have it. but what im saying is...what the fuck IS it?! DPD is just a word which describes an unknown phenomenon! btw i smoke cannabis daily...weed makes my DPD levels skyrocket, yet for some reason, i still crave weed. however, i am a paranoid mess when i smoke weed (which is all day everyday). the only time i feel "normal" is when i am sober from all mind-altering substances.
i just read that and i take it back. although my dpd levels decrease when i am cannabis free, the feeling has never been totally erased. i hvae gone up to 6 months without smoking weed, and my dpd persisted.
Try this, it might help. Take benzodeazepynes half of a year or a year and then withdraw them. Here You can find help on withdraw: "h t t p : / / benzodocs . c o m". Some new elements and their connections in Your brain will emerge. When You complete this, tell me if this helped You.
Tell other people to try this. It will be experiment.
i also wanted to ask you if you are dp or dr all the time or just sometimes, i find it creeps up on me roughly 2 or 3 times a day and can last anything from an hour to 7 hours.
I have it ALL the time. And I believe both DPD and DR...
I'm going to see a specialist soon and imma throw them all the research I found out. Tell them to research it more so I can get cured. Or I'll just ask them where I can get resources from and I'll just do their job! XD
Oh yeah, I took this video off my other channel. I'm making a new one soon so stay tuned! :)
i dont think i could bare it if i had it all the time its bad enough two or three times a day. good luck with your specialist, you will have to keep me posted.
omg dude i have the same thing i think. it was like after smoking that one time my whole life changed and seemed like a distanced past, now my memory is a little bad and im always depressed
My team of doctors (a neurologist, psychologist and psychiatrist, all of great renown) told me that I very likely had some form of chronic dissociative disorder, which we all supposed could be DPD rather than DR, considering my description of the symptoms. I was 16 at the time.
I tried treatment. I popped a huuuge pill cocktail twice a day, every day. All kinds of anxiolytics, anti-depressants, benzodiazepines, including extremely high doses of clonazepam...
i so sad too hear you say that there is no cure thats not right...not thinking about it helps! and why do the drogs?? drink if you have too but dont do drogs just like you say..love from charlotte
hi thanks again for replying to my question so quickly, yeah they are like homicidal aggresive thoughts but the funny thing is im on 40mg of citalopram. do you think i should stop taking it if it could be the cause of this .i also take depakotte and quetiapine, id probably be better off all the meds theyre probably causing most of the probs.
thank you for your reply to my comment, i was given lorazapam to help with the intensity of the dr when it got really bad, and i must admit it did help take the edge of the dr, the problem i have now is i not only have dr but im addicted to the lorazapam and i was told by my doc that trying to come off benzos is as bad and addictive as heroin. really what i needed, now i wish i had never started the lorazapam.
That's a shame man. I know it's easier said than done but you need to kick that habit now before it gets worse. Y'know, I was gonna keep on the medication route but I thought I'd let my body sort itself out. Like when I took MDMC I knew it would reduce the flow of serotonin later on so I just dealt with a little depression, now it comes in waves and is easier to manage and I don't need anti-depressants now either...
I haven't looked into it that much yet to be hoest (as I just accepted it) but I believe it's a neurological disorder and may be a chemical imbalance in the brain.
I suspect it may also be dietary so I'll be video documenting on the effects of a healthier diet from recipes from Liferegenerator (look up his channel).
I have suffered with derealizatin for 9 years since i was 19. is depersonalization similar to or the same as derealization, because i find this has crippled me mentally and nobody iv spoken to really has helped, i would be grateful if you could reply.
To be honest DPD and DR have similar effects. I'm not sure whether I have one or hte other or both. I just know I was diagnosed with DPD when I was 14.
Same as you, I have found nothing has really helped. The best thing to do is to make sure everything is good on the outside world, like eating well and avoiding stressful situations. Anything negative has an impact on my DPD.
I have a new youtube channel; SamIves85. I hope to see you there.
the other question i was going to ask you was when im derealised or dp. i get some very strange thoughts in my head that seem to be trigged by the dp/dr and sometimes they can be quiet horrific, is this something you suffer with with your dr/dp i would be grateful if u could let me know please
i hate when i get an attack and i am freaking out like a maniac people tend to think im crazy but when i look back at it after ive relaxed i feel so embarrassed :(
I only usually got bad episodes in front of family/friends and they understood what I was going through.
I did get a bad episode once and ended up getting arrested (long story) but I was walking through town going mad. That never bothered me. Strangers will walk by someone that's in pain and just forget about it so I don't care what they think.
Best thing to do is to talk to your friends and family about it and they should comfort you when it gets bad.
btw do you know the reason as to why you got it, because i got it at around age 9 and i was a stress free care free kid, i dont know why it was triggered at such a time
Hiya i was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder but have been rediagnosed with depersonaliztion disorder i feel like a ghost i go into the 'state' and look at me hand i dont feel like its mine i look around the room im breathing and walking so why do i feel there i tried explaining it to my family and they look at me like when did the doctor let u out of the funny farm ?? damit
You need people around you for support and to understand you (or try to).
The best thing to do is not to try and figure it out. When I've sat there and really thought about my DPD and even thought about all of the objects around me like "That is a red car, if I touch it it will feel smooth and cold" etc it does make it worse. Try to get your head into something like reading a book or playing an instrument. Not only will it keep your mind off it but you will learn something new...
...I've been playing video games again recently and found that playing them for hours and not sleeping properly made me feel worse and I wonder if video games were the trigger for my DPD in the 1st place as it came on around the same time I 1st started playing on them.
Thanks for commenting and if you have any questions feel free to ask. Btw, I was gonna delete this video today but your comment has given me reason to keep it up!
lol Yeah it sucks having it but it's part of my life now and I gotta get on with things. In fact, a crucial thing I forgot to mention in this vid was about how well I'm doing in "the outside world". I just got my 1 bedroom flat, I passed my Uni Music Tech course and I'm able to get a job within the music industry with it! It's all falling into place =D
If you wanted to get a good idea of DPD you should watch Numb. It's a good film and there'll be a link to it just there in realted videos --->
In over 12 years helping over 125,000 people, I have never experienced one case of DP that has lasted beyond complete anxiety recovery. I had DP for over 4 years... it went. DP isn't a disorder, it's a symptom of an Anxiety condition... this can be caused bya number of catalysts incuding trauma, stress, cannabis use, bereavement and many more. We don't have any experience of depersonalisation or derealisation existing outside of an anxiety condition.
Thanks for getting back so soon. I checked out your website and saw a lot of anxiety-related symptoms that I have. I'll stay in touch and again, thanks =]
i've had it on and off for 24 yrs. Charles you are right. You have to forget about it though to make it go away as well as address stress issues. Obsessing online does not help.
And what is the guy in this video doing smoking? For real? Are we in the 90's?
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It can be cured. It just takes time, patience and understanding. One of the main tricks is to stop trying to get rid of it. The very desire you have to 'get back to reality' is the same desire causing anxiety.For me It worked well ignoring the tv and the use of other technology . I also spent most time exercising and eating healthy. I've got it now but the symptons are light
djzoneboro 11 hours ago
i am a sufferer of depersonalization disorder. everything you said, i just nodded along, it made so much sense. it may not other people, but i get it all.
LeanneLee3 1 month ago
once you are deep in it, you'll never get out again. not thinking of it doesn't cure anything. I regret every single drug, even coffee, and it doesn't get better. curing dpd is a lie.
GuessWhoIsRobin 1 month ago
It's sounds to me that fear of DP still plays a role in your life. Fear of being uncomfortable in certain places by reacting and going to a safe place. At first, it's fine to do that in order to get use to the feeling of DP. But through time, one has to go through those uncomfortable feeling knowing that nothing is going to happen. Through time those feelings dissipate. By not fearing it, you will spend less time noticing it and that it half the battle.
jrmacabi24 1 month ago
From my experience, the only thing that can cure depersonalization is time. It varies from person to person. A major thing is that depersonalization is exacerbated by stress and anxiety, so you need to address and clear up that anxiety.
Lunarvx22 2 months ago
1:00 So funny you doing the cigarette ad and saying that you don't have anxiety but do have the smoking-cure !
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The dictionary says that you have something in addition to De-personalization.
YouAreSoRight 2 months ago
Honestly, quit smoking. Trust me, it helps alot.
bigbranchswamp 2 months ago
Nice Video. I feel for you, man. I need yours or someone elses opinion in this. im 15, and i feel different. I remember how life used to be for me a year or two back. I Felt great. Now i just feel different. I Dont feet like myself. I feel like im living in a repeating cycle that never changes. I feel like im revolving around someone elses body. I Feel so uncomfortable all the time. Could i have depersonalization? its just really hard to describe how i feel. I dont know, man.
TheGameWanker69 2 months ago
@TheGameWanker69 I don't have a phD in psychology, so you should consult a professional for better answers, but it sounds like it could be type of anxiety disorder or perhaps dpd, or a couple of other things that are likely treatable.. Not enough info here to tell. Did this feeling begin with a certain event or change in your life that you can remember? And are all the symptoms prevalent all the time or can you pinpoint certain times that they exist or are worse (social situations, etc.)?
Poet1k 2 months ago
can Ecstasy cause depersonalization?? please answer im trying ecstasy tomorrow night.
iLikeFluffyPenguins 3 months ago
You smoke, do you find that your DP gets worse only while being affected by the nicotine?
StreamFeverNZ 3 months ago
so anyways I was just wondering, when you get into this 'state' do you feel like a different person? I mean, like you aren't you, and your an entirely different person and your characteristics changes? like snapping, shouting, shutting down?
I only realized this happened to me, when 'I came back down to earth' and I was officially 'me again' talking to people, not feeling weird. it freaked me out.
and when u say you have an 'episode' what does that consist of?
Thanks.
introvert2012 3 months ago
I got this in 1983 from substance abuse, the 80'-90's were a nightmare for me. Now all these years later I feel very good. I think a routine & socializing were most important for me. I still feel ocassionally out of it, usually when traveling or alone in new settings but I don't fear it now. Sometimes it actually feels good now that I know I'll be alright.
999Atwood 4 months ago
the first time i got high is when this happened to me...but i just live with it and now its not much of a bother unless i get some haunted dream and wake up...that shit makes me depersonalized to the max.
hamoan66boi 5 months ago
Do you relate well with others. I'm finding it hard to make new friends and feel pretty uncomfortable with old and family.
Angel28luv 5 months ago
x is what caused it for me so yes dnt try it please, no one
malis96 5 months ago
i hate it when doctors do that shit. they always threw stupid drugs at me that never worked and diagnose me with things that have nothing to do with my symptoms.
rezsk8kyd 5 months ago
@rezsk8kyd same! I spent a good part of my summer in a psych ward and got thrown anti-depressants and labeled 'anxiety'. Yeah, I have anxiety as well but that's NOT all that this is. It's not.
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WildernessLures 6 months ago
I'm 23 and I lived with DPD for 3 years. It was brought on my what i think was Marijuana and Adderal I had been taking for ADD. The Adderal was prescription but the Marijuana was of course recreational. Because of this I haven't touched either since. The first, if you will, episode of it lasted 6 months then just all of a sudden when away one day, but 2 years later its has returned. I would like to know if anyone has experienced this. Just waking up one day and it disappearing.
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NotSure011 6 months ago
Though I've never been officially tested...I can't afford much right now in the way of medical things or mental evaluations...but I'm certain that I have DPD...I started daying my bf before my mom died, and I could feel love and give love easily...and feel all emotions and give them back...but now, even though I know I still love my bf now, years later, I can't feel a damn thing....it kills me.
FFXIWarriorqueen1 7 months ago
Not everyone gets it from smoking weed...or drugs....I was pretty normal, up until around 18 (I'[m 22 now) I graduated high school...and in Dec. started a 4 week crash course to start my nursing career, to become a CNA and work up. My mom..killed herself...we found her...my teacher forced me to either continue the class or quit. I made myself stay for mom. Then my dad got sick and is dying now..I was in a numb shock for a long time,and only now, now I realise that's what caused my DP...trauma.
FFXIWarriorqueen1 7 months ago
Thx for the vid. I have DPD too for about 10 years and it might sound weird but I'm actually not too gloomy about it...I don't think that its untreatable. Imo the wrong thing to do is treat it with meds. I think its more important and helpful to reduce anxiety/stress naturally. It's just my idea, but I know a little bit about psych. and its important to remember that DPD is a defense mechanism that everyone has, and it should be able to be handled naturally.
Aaronthegreatest 7 months ago
Looks like almost everyone got it from smoking weed.
TheHolyMolyPoly 7 months ago
@TheHolyMolyPoly I've never smoked weed =p I don't even drink lol. It just sorta...happened.
Aaronthegreatest 7 months ago
Smoked weed when I was 14 and it fucked me up.I'm 22 now and my perception has never been right since.It triggered panic attacks and anxiety that crop up every few years but the depersonalization never went away.My home and family have never looked and given off the same vibes since and I've completely forgotten what it feels to live a life without even worrying about what's real or not.This latest episode is by far my worst.Today I actually believed I was dreaming and then realised I wasn't.
wertyui123456789 7 months ago
for anyone out there with this, it does go away, i had it for a good year, and honestly thought it would never go away. funny enough as soon as I kinda accepted the fact that i was going to live with it forever, and got help with my enxiety and depression, it slowly just went..... I smoke weed and do ecstacy too.... very weird. Keep yourselves occupied and remember that this terrible fuckign shit does go away... anyone saying otherwise is full of fuckign shit. Best of luck to you all, god bless!
17Ev 7 months ago
I completely regret smoking weed. 7 months down the track, and I'm still like this.
StreamFeverNZ 8 months ago 12
@StreamFeverNZ fuck you!
herbalist420ganja 7 months ago
@herbalist420ganja Why? For smoking weed? Yeah fuck me for smoking weed. Would take a real fuck head to actually do it at the age of 15.
StreamFeverNZ 7 months ago
@StreamFeverNZ u realized this world n the material things in it r a lie?
ssssaintmarcus 3 months ago
@ssssaintmarcus Huh? I Don't know what you mean.
StreamFeverNZ 3 months ago
@StreamFeverNZ the material world we live in is an illusion....
ssssaintmarcus 3 months ago
Well I'm less scared now since I know what I have but I'm stilled scared I just want this to go away. Damn pot fucked my life up
clgj16 8 months ago
why this happened to me or why I spent as long as 20 minutes just staring at my reflection and watching it move with me and feeling detached from reality, but I have this occasional sense that my body's movements don't belong to me, and it would sometimes astonish me that I could make my body move in certain ways. Not sure why I thought I should share this, just thought I would. I still do experience this detachment from reality from time to time.
winterpurgatory 8 months ago
@winterpurgatory It's strange you should mention that because I've been feeling these odd sensations lately, unlike derealization where you feel this overwhelming sense of fear along with a complete feeling of being unreal, but I've been feeling a complete numbness and almost a complete removal of "myself" from my body. I think this is what you're talking about right?
illuminastymusic 8 months ago
@illuminastymusic sounds like this is realizing that reality, the metaphysical world in which we live is an illusion....
ssssaintmarcus 3 months ago
@winterpurgatory im the same way dude...dp is trippy and it doesnt go away for me...its always there...sometimes i just look at shit and sit amazed at how unreal it is...it helps to remind urself that everything is real...
pointlessvoid 6 days ago
@winterpurgatory i do the same thing, like its completely amazing that were able to exist, and interact in this world
1594simonsays 6 days ago
I'm not sure if this is of any relation to your condition, but I remember when I was a kid, even back in elementary school, when I would be getting ready for the morning and I would be looking into the bathroom mirror, and I would get this surreal feeling that the person staring back at me looked exactly like me in every single way, but somehow just wasn't me, almost like a me in another world. I would even move my body in ways just to watch my reflection follow me. I never really figured out
winterpurgatory 8 months ago
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chronikful 9 months ago
@chronikful nope, one/you're born of the system.
YouAreSoRight 2 months ago
I admire your bravery, honesty, strength and courage. Good advice, and stay strong man.
JeddtheJedi 9 months ago
@illuminastymusic -- Good on ya, man. Nice video. My life took that right-angle turn 30 years ago at age 17. Back then, people didn't talk about panic attack syndrome - we'd never heard of DPD. I finally figured it out two years ago, thanks to the internet. Like you, I just got on with my life, and did the best I could. I no longer suffer from anxiety, but still have a constant level of DPD. I like your sensible approach/advice. It would be nice if someone would nail this down someday.
bimini1212 9 months ago
@bimini1212 Thanks for your comment. Sorry to hear you've had this for so long but glad to hear you no longer have anxiety. I'm currently awaiting a psychiatric assessment where I'll tell them that I would like cognitive behavioural therapy to combat my OCD before I attempt anything else as it seems to be the OCD that's catalysing both the DPD and the anxiety, not to mention all the other little problems I have grown to live with... Stay in touch, updates coming soon :)
illuminastymusic 9 months ago
Hello i have had what i believe to be dpd since 2004. i was around 12 or 13 and would smoke canabis with friends, not allot but just socially. i woke up in the night after smoking some canabis with what i thought was some kind of panic attack. it was a rush of feelings or sensation that left me feeling detatched from reality and myself. i went to bed feeling awfull and hoped it would go by the time i would wake up. i't didnt, and i have had the feeling ever since.
billthewanker 8 months ago
Hello i have had what i believe to be dpd since 2004. i was around 12 or 13 and would smoke canabis with friends, not allot but just socially. i woke up in the night after smoking some canabis with what i thought was some kind of panic attack. it was a rush of feelings or sensation that left me feeling detatched from reality and myself. i went to bed feeling awfull and hoped it would go by the time i would wake up. i't didnt, and i have had the feeling ever since.
billthewanker 8 months ago
@billthewanker i told my mother and she contacted the doctors and i was refurred to a doctor to assess my mental health ti the cams department witch specialised in childrens mental health. i tried to explain my felelings to the doctor witch was almost impossible, i went for brain scans as they thought i might have tempral lobe epilepsy, i didn't. eventually he came to the conclusion that i have a drug induced psycosis and i was perscribed a drug called rispiadol witch was an anti psycotic.
billthewanker 8 months ago
This drug did help at first, it helped calm me down and reduce the paranoa i also had. but i still had this horrible sensation of not knowing who i am, not really recognising my surroundings and the most horrible, my mum! i also felt as if my sences had all been tuned up or hightened, my light sencitivity and hearing seemed to sharp. i was always wincing and my eyes were constantly watering. This was in 2004 and i still have this horrible sensation today although it's not quite as bad as ...
billthewanker 8 months ago
i was just interesded in your opinion. do you think dpd is what i am experiencing?
i would love if i could talk to you about this via e-mail or somthing? as this is the first time i have ever seen people with the same symptoms as me.
please read all my message below. sorry for bad spelling and i dont really know how to use youtube so i have written you a bit of an essay thats posted in the wrong order. Thankyou x
billthewanker 8 months ago
try niacin therapy, type niacin for shizophrenia in youtube. it is used in other disorders by Dr Hoffer. What i understand it removes toxing from fatty deposits in the brain,
maciejwrotek 10 months ago
good explanation, brings back depressing memories...try to keep positive :)
pixienomadic 10 months ago
if you guys do FUN THINGS then the dpd/drd goes away. i just went snorkeling with my dad and sister, and i havnt really though about it, so doing fun things = not thinking about dpd/drd = symptoms fade away for the time being. thumbs up this guys so others can see... im living my life by this. if u have a bad day with dpd/drd, do something fun.
dilberto0Oz 10 months ago 4
@dilberto0Oz I get on with my life not even thinking about DP/DR but I know it's still there. You can't just forget about it. I'm going in for OCD therapy 1st, then tackle the anxiety before I deal with the DPD. That's how my friend got rid of her 18 years of DPD.
illuminastymusic 10 months ago
@dilberto0Oz maybe its like an auto matic system that controls your body whilst your doing things out of habit, I noticed that also that when i started to enjoy life all the time, I didn't have it..
andypmz07 1 month ago
i do ecstasy, shrooms, weed, and i drink. i got this disorder a year ago from a bad shroom trip, and i've been experimenting with not doing drugs, and so far, the only thing that happens when i smoke weed i just zone out, and i really have to divert 100% of my brainpower to not zoning out. Ecstasy just gives me the regular side affects. i never mix weed and shrooms now, cause thats when i had my bad trip. never again...
dilberto0Oz 10 months ago
@dilberto0Oz My advice is to stay away from any drugs that affect your serotonin. I was caught in a 3 month loop of derealization because I smoked a little weed and I know someone that was caught in a DR loop for 3 years because of magic mushrooms. Is it really worth the risk?
illuminastymusic 10 months ago
@illuminastymusic woow 3 years, perhaps shroom chemicals accumulate in the brain just like it is with LSD, what exactly were symptoms ur friend had ? THC also is fat soluble
maciejwrotek 10 months ago
@maciejwrotek Maybe... well if you've ever experienced derealization it's probably the worst feeling ever. Even today I had a little blip of DR and although it feels like I'd never get used to the feeling I'm able to control my thoughts and move on.
I know how to get rid of this thing now: therapy for OCD, cognitive behavioural therapy and mindfulness meditation.
illuminastymusic 10 months ago
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz making me sleep bro
wolverghost 11 months ago
HEY MAN... cool vid.. please hear me out...I HAD DR for a while man... I tried it all.. nothing worked.. then I did this... this is me, be well bro... /watch?v=lmlNbT4c9QU
lifeisharvest 11 months ago
straight up. does it go away? yes, no.
TheGenerationOfSport 11 months ago
@TheGenerationOfSport ive had it for a month now, been doing so much research on it lately. i found theres really no cure for it, just the mental strength you have to fight it off and eventually it will go away. i heard it wont be an all the sudden snap back to reality and feeling normal again but it slowely goes away. i guess the best thing to do is to not give it attention or think about it which is easier said than done, i know. but thats whats supposed to help it go away
indycardvr1 11 months ago
@TheGenerationOfSport I'm working on that right now.
This is my more active channel btw.
SamIves85 11 months ago
14 years is a possibility?
im killing my self . officially
TheGenerationOfSport 11 months ago
i do it when im high my thinking seems disatached from facial expression so i'll make hundreds of faces without thinking of it
InstrumentalHipHop1 11 months ago
@InstrumentalHipHop1 im 15, and when i smoke weed, i feel like i cant control my facial expressions, like they are really stressed or odd... its wierd...
dilberto0Oz 10 months ago
@dilberto0Oz i think the weed breaks apart whatever is keeping me from actually doing them. but since i smoked i realized i always "do" them in my mind but they are never expressed
InstrumentalHipHop1 10 months ago
@InstrumentalHipHop1 ahhh so its not really happening? its just the mind playin tricks?
dilberto0Oz 10 months ago
@dilberto0Oz for me yeah
InstrumentalHipHop1 10 months ago
Something on the surface, well it kind of makes me nervous Who says that you deserve this And what kind of god would serve this? We will cure this dirty old disease If you've got the poison I've got the remedy The remedy is the experience. This is a strange enough new play on words I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend The rest of your nights with the light on So shine the light on all of your friends When it all amounts to nothing in the end. I won't worry my life away.
XxgummydrumsxX 11 months ago
You are very brave to share this with the world. I wish you luck and all the happiness you can handle. I used to go to a park which i spent lots of time at, and it became very familiar and comfortable to me. I was even sitting on the swing one day thinking i was alone and i started singing, and ended up singing my heart out, then i realized a boy sitting on the bench behind me. He told me i sang pretty and we became friends. find somewhere you can be 100% comfortable in, it might help :)
SoleilOmbre 1 year ago
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My gosh i just realized the last bad experience i had where i disasociated at work, under a lot of stress and had repeated cold sores to which I was prescribed Valtrex for relief and while it stopped the cold sores i had a diassociative episode, which i have had from an early age which started as an way to cope with mulitple heart surgeries and numerous testing that when caused pain i was able to remove myself from my body and watch from across the room all the procedures. The antiboctics r bad
lwood2552 1 year ago
My gosh i just realized the last bad experience i had where i disasociated at work, under a lot of stress and had repeated cold sores to which I was prescribed Valtrex for relief and while it stopped the cold sores i had a diassociative episode, which i have had from an early age which started as an way to cope with mulitple heart surgeries and numerous testing that when caused pain i was able to remove myself from my body and watch from across the room all the procedures. The antiboctics r bad
lwood2552 1 year ago
what is your caffeine intake ? Check out watercure2 org treatment, hydration therapy. caffeine decreases cerebral blod flow up to 32% at dose 250mg.
maciejwrotek 1 year ago
does depersonalization comes after cannabis smoking ? Or some time after ?
maciejwrotek 1 year ago
I am sorry you have DPD. I have both Depersonalization and Derealization which both started at the exact same time suddenly when I was 10. I have tried medication and talk therapy and nothing has helped me at all. It feels like I am a character in someone else's imagination and when they wake up, I will be gone and so will everything else. Nothing exists, not even me. I live in constant terror and anxiety. Just want you all to know that you are not alone. Good luck to you and everyone...
NordicMother 1 year ago
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bhaugart 1 year ago
I have Dp as well and it is a very hellish disorder...you feel as if you were unreal yourself and the world around you is unreal. You do not feel emotions or connections to other people. Mine was brought on by Drug abuse....so for all of you who do drugs think twice, because you might get this hellish disorder as well
PATINHISWHITET 1 year ago
THE REASON YOU HAVE IT IS BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO HOPE I HAD IT I WANTED TO DIE I THOUGHT I HAD EVERY DISORDER, REALLY I HAD THIS DISORDER AND I SAID FUCK IT IM FINE IM HAVING FUN BABY I WENT AND QUIT THINKING AND IT GOES AWAY I MIGHT HAVE IT A FEW HOURS A DAY BT ITS BETTER THEN 24/7 hey man you will be ok there is cures i know one is god and theres alot other mabey you have low seratonin or high seratonin levels you will be ok . TELL YOURSELF THE SAME
MillerMan8228 1 year ago
When ever i get dpd i just take advil it helps and then sleep and i feel 70 ppercent better
NycCreative 1 year ago
Oh and btw my Depersonalization/derealization has gotten a hell of a lot better throughout the years now. (18 now). I find working out (weightlifting, playing basketball (or any sport you might be interested in) makes distracts me from that disorder by making me feeling good about myself. Also watching movies like Big Daddy or any movie that makes you laugh or feel a strong connection to something, "Harsh Times", and "Batman Begins" for me. Everyone is different, but feeling positiv never hurts.
Arodblade 1 year ago
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Hey, illuminastymusic, did you play video games growing up? Because I've been playing video games since I was(3-4). I have a theory that maybe being subjected to watching violence, killing without thinking, and controlling other characters and watching their lives through there perspective and observing them interact with others/immersing yourself into their world has played a vital part in my depersonalization. Maybe exposure to other's lives alters the way you perceive yourself
Arodblade 1 year ago
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Hey, illuminastymusic, did you play video games growing up? Because I've been playing video games since I was a little kid (3-4). I have a theory that maybe being subjected to watching violence, killing without thinking, and controlling other characters and watching their lives through there perspective and observing them interact with others/immersing yourself into their world has played a vital part in my depersonalization. Maybe exposure to other's lives alters the way you perceive yourself
Arodblade 1 year ago
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Arodblade 1 year ago
i know your pain.
harasnosilla1 1 year ago
Thanks for sharing your story. I agree, marijuana is definitely to be avoided if you are an anxious, inward thinking person. I smoked it for the 1st time when I was about 15, and the next day I noticed I still felt odd. That feeling never went away, and this eventually effected my behavior. I went from being the "smart kid" in class with lots of friends to not being able to focus, and pushing everyone away.
SirVoe 1 year ago
I smoked weed and it took the depersonalization to a whole new level. It was the worse thing that I ever experienced hands down. I thought I was going to die like it was all a dream lol
Calizactive187 1 year ago
@Calizactive187 I smoked pot when I was 13 (3 years after getting DPD) and I would just get stoned. When I tried stronger strains of weed (purple haze, white widow) it made me ill for 3 months!
I stay well away from any hallucinogenics and would advise anyone with any pre-existing neurological disorders to stay away from them.
illuminastymusic 1 year ago
Nice one smoking, it exacerbates DPD
seeriktus 1 year ago
@seeriktus No it doesn't. I gave up smoking for 6 months a while back and again 8 months ago. Still a non smoker. I noticed no change whatsoever between then and now.
illuminastymusic 1 year ago
@seeriktus : Hi. Smoking doesn't make DPD worse unless one is already dissociated and experiencing anxiety. Any stimulant, lack of sleep, stress, trauma, anxiety...that makes it a lot worse and usually makes it much more intense. I have it constantly so I have to avoid all that stuff or I can't even be alone.
NordicMother 1 year ago
@NordicMother @illuminastymusic
I was talking from a scientific background I'm a Pharmacologist/Neuroscientist, for you perhaps it doesnt exacerbation DPD but statistically it does, people are different. Thats one of the big problems with Psych patients, they reckon if something does/doesnt happen for them then the same must go for everyone, in a subject with very difficult levels of certainty.
Nicotine can exaccerbate DPD.
seeriktus 1 year ago
@seeriktus : It is nice to know you have a background with pharmacological and neuro- background. I appreciate your imput. I think you are right in that for some people, stimulants might not make it worse, but for some of us, it doesn't seem to make much difference. What is ok for one person doesn't mean it is the same for all. Thank you. :)
NordicMother 1 year ago
Hmm. i dont get depersonalization i get derealization. My derealizatrion is like a compressor of the brain waves. Its calming like im blank but im mildly anxious. I usually get it when im in outlet malls or big stores. I think it may be the bombardment of large amounts of stimulus and things trying to pursued me. its subtle.
Guitarstring187 1 year ago
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Arodblade 1 year ago
@Guitarstring187 Same here!!! Also, I get "waves of derealization when I'm in the car with my stepdad. All of the sudden I start "thinking intensely" asking myself who the hell that is and how weird it is that we live in the same house, all the while my feels all dizzy/like having a "spidey sense" but for depersonalization/derealisatio n instead of a danger warning like the super hero. Btw I believe I got depersonalisation around the same age as that guy (I was in 4th grade so about 9).
Arodblade 1 year ago
Hey it's nice to see a fellow English person with this disorder. Whereabouts are you from? I'm from Essex, would love to chat sometime :-)
StaceyJo19 1 year ago
@StaceyJo19 I am living in East Sussex at the moment.
Send me a message with your facebook address and we can talk on there :)
illuminastymusic 1 year ago
Thank you so much for this. 2 years ago i had DPD that lasted about 2 months. i cant say when i transitioned back to normal exactly but i didnt know how to describe it at all. i thought i had reached enlightenment or something, i tried to kill someone and thought i could fill a notebook without putting my pen down. i thought i was just permanently high. i enjoyed it. but not until today did i know other ppl had it too. someone i knew told me they had it. i was like wow... thank u again!
thinkingundermoon 1 year ago
wat is despersonalization? i didnt get it...
is it that the person doesnt know who she/he is and start acting as if life was a movie? explain pls, im curious..
how do u feel? why do u think u feel different than normal ppl?
rockisbetter 1 year ago
hey dude ure not alone thanx for your video though thanx for sharing makes one feel less "weird" arg and sleep deprivation is the worst definitely... weird thing is I never took drugs just went through clinical depression and this came after it makes me feel more strange in that way cause most people who have this seem to have taken some sort of drug ...
cerise333 1 year ago
I have very good news for you my friend. I had depersonalization for years but am completely recovered. I am not a scammer, or a blogger, I seriously used this to get free, I hated DP so bad, and then I bought an ebook. go to dpmanual(dot)com, I promise you this works....Msg me if you have any questions
Earthtobella12345 1 year ago
for me it gets better and worse at times. usually i dont think about it but when it gets really bad i can instantly feel it. 2 years ago i smoked cannabis a few times and since then ive had it. im pretty sure its the cannabis that caused it.
i know i have DPD, i havnt been diagnosed or seen any doctors or specialists. would anyone recommend seeing a doctor?
MatiChooseName 1 year ago
fuck anti-depressants and all those other mental medications. they all made me feel worse, and i tried 6 different kinds. its better to try vitamins and supplements and shit.
iowneveryone30 1 year ago
Say man, im 16 and i feel like i'm not gonna tolerate this for years. But I'm glad i found this therapy or some like that that is called Linden Method. people say it works but i need to make sure 100% is not a scam..
lileyoubeezy 1 year ago
I have had this for about a year now. Quit all drugs, but now i drink alot, it really helps. not in the long run but it definitly helps when i drink. I really hope ill get rid of it some day, that's why i keep living. have you really tried "everything"? =/ it makes me THAT much more depressed :p Great video, actually helps me to see other people suffering from this so i know i can live with it to :) have a great week :)
LzI 1 year ago
been living with this, ocd, anxiety, depression and intrusive thoughts from the ocd. I have never done drugs or anything. I remember i did hit my head really badly once and im not sure if that was the cause or not. It makes me feel like i just don't care, and it worsens greatly at school and when i wake up early. The thing is, this in a way helped me get out. It made it so i feel like i can do crazy things, like and be very lively even though i still have this. I am only 14 too :(.
xjado321 1 year ago
Thank you all for the comments! Sorry I aint been around; still using my new channel and still aint uploaded any new videos regarding DP.
Updates: I quit smoking again and I'm also attending Mindfulness sessions. DP is still the same and tbh I'm thinking I'll never get rid of it...
illuminastymusic 1 year ago
@illuminastymusic
Hey! Sent you a message a while ago. No reply but that's ok! I am not good at replying to others. Regarding smoking, did your dp get totally worse when you quit for a while? It has for me. I've been smoke free for a few weeks now but am on the low dose of gum.
unigirlb 1 year ago
@illuminastymusic - I have problem (24/7) with DP last 21. years :(... It seems never end...
cilkacat 1 year ago
I just wondered if you might know. I zone out alot in social situations, ive been diagnosed with social anxiety disorder. I also zone out in times of stress and believe it or not, I zone when good things are happening. I feel like my voice doesn't belong to me. I don't get it all the time, sometimes it takes immence effort to feel real and connected to the world and other people, something that others take for granted as it comes so naturally to them, I was wandering if you might know anything?
rsiegenbe 1 year ago
@rsiegenbe That sounds like you're super aware of it and you think about it all the time...
I tend to just fill up my time with activities like making music or playing video games. When I'm waiting for a train, for example, I just let my mind wander y'know?
I don't like to think too much about my DP, I guess it still scares me to this day.
illuminastymusic 1 year ago
@illuminastymusic Thanks for your reply. Sorry its taken so long to respond back. I think knowing that there is a name for it has me very concious of it. I don't really think of it as having something but lacking something, maybe a sensitivity or connecting with life. I'm seeing a T@ the mo.Starting dbt in 6months.been diagnosed with ptsd so its something to do with bad experiences like a coping mechanism,i can't connect too much or I emotionally dysregulate but its different 4 every1.
rsiegenbe 1 year ago
I got it from smoking weed. I still smoke somtimes cuz it calms me down. Do you know if theres any known cure from getting it from weed?
MachinimaMonsters 2 years ago
@MachinimaMonsters I got it from weed myself.. I quit... Still have it though...
LzI 1 year ago
Have you tried meditation ? It helped me.
Wishing you well.
Santiagojimenezb 2 years ago
yeah, meditation is great because it makes you think of nothing. I find a big problem with DP is that the lack of attention span that gets us behind the wall is forgetting that you can stop your inner-monologue.
tugger 2 years ago
This has been flagged as spam show
im 15, ive had this for two years now,
but i only found out there was a name for it about a month ago,
i was kinda relived to find out there was other people in the world who felt this way.
i thought i was the only one, i thought i was a crazy :/
my friends didnt understand.
mine doesnt come and go though,
i havnt had one single second without feeling like i wasnt in a dream in these whole two years.
anyone who think they can help ?
pleasee ?
x x
missJenniferThomson 2 years ago
I run five times per week (20-25 miles total), hit the gym as often as I can, ride my bike, all to the point where I get so worn out and exhausted that it supersedes the eerie sensations of DP/DR. Believe me, it helps! I'm of the opinion that we all have DP/DR in some form or another, but it's that constant ruminating and obsessing that tends to feed the DP demon, so immerse yourself with PHYSICAL activities to the point where you become really tired...you won't have time for DP/DR.
Good luck.
tinian33 2 years ago
Mine can last for hours & even days, But I can't imagine having it for years. I would go insane.
Dickey19888 2 years ago
Youre so right about GP's! They just throw antidepressants at you as the first thing. When I was about 16 I was put on paxil and years after that, after quiting cold-turkey, I suffered anxiety, brainfog, depression, dp & dr for years!
In many cases its these antidepressants that CAUSE anxiety, dp etc.
kevvie100 2 years ago
I'm suffering of Depersonalization all the time as well. Did you consider trying a psychotherapie? I mean, I am not quite sure, but it might help...Did anybody here get out of DPD?
MrsMyabelle 2 years ago
WTF!? yES!!! what the hell is DPD?! i mean i know what it is, i have it. but what im saying is...what the fuck IS it?! DPD is just a word which describes an unknown phenomenon! btw i smoke cannabis daily...weed makes my DPD levels skyrocket, yet for some reason, i still crave weed. however, i am a paranoid mess when i smoke weed (which is all day everyday). the only time i feel "normal" is when i am sober from all mind-altering substances.
sentryclothes 2 years ago
i just read that and i take it back. although my dpd levels decrease when i am cannabis free, the feeling has never been totally erased. i hvae gone up to 6 months without smoking weed, and my dpd persisted.
sentryclothes 2 years ago
Try this, it might help. Take benzodeazepynes half of a year or a year and then withdraw them. Here You can find help on withdraw: "h t t p : / / benzodocs . c o m". Some new elements and their connections in Your brain will emerge. When You complete this, tell me if this helped You.
Tell other people to try this. It will be experiment.
VegEdGoku 2 years ago
i also wanted to ask you if you are dp or dr all the time or just sometimes, i find it creeps up on me roughly 2 or 3 times a day and can last anything from an hour to 7 hours.
thejameson1981 2 years ago
I have it ALL the time. And I believe both DPD and DR...
I'm going to see a specialist soon and imma throw them all the research I found out. Tell them to research it more so I can get cured. Or I'll just ask them where I can get resources from and I'll just do their job! XD
Oh yeah, I took this video off my other channel. I'm making a new one soon so stay tuned! :)
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
i dont think i could bare it if i had it all the time its bad enough two or three times a day. good luck with your specialist, you will have to keep me posted.
thejameson1981 2 years ago
im not sure if i have this or not but i got it about 7 months ago and i think from smoking weed. wat kind of dr. should i see or will it go anyway?
bballjulien 2 years ago
omg dude i have the same thing i think. it was like after smoking that one time my whole life changed and seemed like a distanced past, now my memory is a little bad and im always depressed
pugby25 2 years ago
are you taking meds?
quantumracionalist 2 years ago
I apologise if I haven't responded in a while. This is my old account.
I'll upload this same video to my new channel: SamIves85 and I hope we can all continue discussion there.
I also had some news come through regarding DPD and i'll check that out and let you all know.
Also, I'm going back to the doctors to try to sort it out again.
Speak soon,
Sam
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
I sympathize with you.
My team of doctors (a neurologist, psychologist and psychiatrist, all of great renown) told me that I very likely had some form of chronic dissociative disorder, which we all supposed could be DPD rather than DR, considering my description of the symptoms. I was 16 at the time.
I tried treatment. I popped a huuuge pill cocktail twice a day, every day. All kinds of anxiolytics, anti-depressants, benzodiazepines, including extremely high doses of clonazepam...
Elimination11189 2 years ago
did you find anything to help you?
lelefairy123 2 years ago
No I haven't yet but I'm looking into the Linden Method...
I'm also changing my diet to see if that helps (plus to put on weight...) :/
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
MOST people get it?
hm.. maybe that's true.
b1nphk66 2 years ago
i so sad too hear you say that there is no cure thats not right...not thinking about it helps! and why do the drogs?? drink if you have too but dont do drogs just like you say..love from charlotte
louiefriis 2 years ago
hi thanks again for replying to my question so quickly, yeah they are like homicidal aggresive thoughts but the funny thing is im on 40mg of citalopram. do you think i should stop taking it if it could be the cause of this .i also take depakotte and quetiapine, id probably be better off all the meds theyre probably causing most of the probs.
thejameson1981 2 years ago
thank you for your reply to my comment, i was given lorazapam to help with the intensity of the dr when it got really bad, and i must admit it did help take the edge of the dr, the problem i have now is i not only have dr but im addicted to the lorazapam and i was told by my doc that trying to come off benzos is as bad and addictive as heroin. really what i needed, now i wish i had never started the lorazapam.
thejameson1981 2 years ago
That's a shame man. I know it's easier said than done but you need to kick that habit now before it gets worse. Y'know, I was gonna keep on the medication route but I thought I'd let my body sort itself out. Like when I took MDMC I knew it would reduce the flow of serotonin later on so I just dealt with a little depression, now it comes in waves and is easier to manage and I don't need anti-depressants now either...
SamIves85 2 years ago
hi i was also goin to ask you as im not sure is dp/dr some type of psychosis or border line between greater state of conciousness and psychosis
thejameson1981 2 years ago
I haven't looked into it that much yet to be hoest (as I just accepted it) but I believe it's a neurological disorder and may be a chemical imbalance in the brain.
I suspect it may also be dietary so I'll be video documenting on the effects of a healthier diet from recipes from Liferegenerator (look up his channel).
SamIves85 2 years ago
I have suffered with derealizatin for 9 years since i was 19. is depersonalization similar to or the same as derealization, because i find this has crippled me mentally and nobody iv spoken to really has helped, i would be grateful if you could reply.
thejameson1981 2 years ago
To be honest DPD and DR have similar effects. I'm not sure whether I have one or hte other or both. I just know I was diagnosed with DPD when I was 14.
Same as you, I have found nothing has really helped. The best thing to do is to make sure everything is good on the outside world, like eating well and avoiding stressful situations. Anything negative has an impact on my DPD.
I have a new youtube channel; SamIves85. I hope to see you there.
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
im like you..never smoked or took drugs but still very dp.. an you right live your life!
louiefriis 2 years ago
the other question i was going to ask you was when im derealised or dp. i get some very strange thoughts in my head that seem to be trigged by the dp/dr and sometimes they can be quiet horrific, is this something you suffer with with your dr/dp i would be grateful if u could let me know please
thejameson1981 2 years ago
What, like homicidal thoughts? Or aggressive thoughts? I had them when I was taking an anti-depressant called Citalopram.
SamIves85 2 years ago
Look into anafranil - it really helped mine. I had it preceding my two major depressions.
cchotwire 2 years ago
Hi - I think I need some help.
My boyfriend has all symptoms and is very unhappy. Do you have any tips for me how to help him?
I would do anything 4 him
sefi100 2 years ago
The best thing you can do is to understand how he feels and to give support. There really is nothing anyone else can do to be honest.
I'll be uploading new videos on DPD and DR on my new youtube channel; SamIves85. Hope to see you there.
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
i hate when i get an attack and i am freaking out like a maniac people tend to think im crazy but when i look back at it after ive relaxed i feel so embarrassed :(
huss11 2 years ago
I only usually got bad episodes in front of family/friends and they understood what I was going through.
I did get a bad episode once and ended up getting arrested (long story) but I was walking through town going mad. That never bothered me. Strangers will walk by someone that's in pain and just forget about it so I don't care what they think.
Best thing to do is to talk to your friends and family about it and they should comfort you when it gets bad.
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
btw do you know the reason as to why you got it, because i got it at around age 9 and i was a stress free care free kid, i dont know why it was triggered at such a time
huss11 2 years ago
I havn't a clue. I got it at 10, same, no stress or anything happening at that age. It's odd...
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
Hiya i was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder but have been rediagnosed with depersonaliztion disorder i feel like a ghost i go into the 'state' and look at me hand i dont feel like its mine i look around the room im breathing and walking so why do i feel there i tried explaining it to my family and they look at me like when did the doctor let u out of the funny farm ?? damit
rayners4life 2 years ago
You need people around you for support and to understand you (or try to).
The best thing to do is not to try and figure it out. When I've sat there and really thought about my DPD and even thought about all of the objects around me like "That is a red car, if I touch it it will feel smooth and cold" etc it does make it worse. Try to get your head into something like reading a book or playing an instrument. Not only will it keep your mind off it but you will learn something new...
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
...I've been playing video games again recently and found that playing them for hours and not sleeping properly made me feel worse and I wonder if video games were the trigger for my DPD in the 1st place as it came on around the same time I 1st started playing on them.
Thanks for commenting and if you have any questions feel free to ask. Btw, I was gonna delete this video today but your comment has given me reason to keep it up!
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
I didn't know about this until clicking on you from seeing a post you made in the kaossilator kp3 vid. :O
kyleismrsmiley 2 years ago
lol Yeah it sucks having it but it's part of my life now and I gotta get on with things. In fact, a crucial thing I forgot to mention in this vid was about how well I'm doing in "the outside world". I just got my 1 bedroom flat, I passed my Uni Music Tech course and I'm able to get a job within the music industry with it! It's all falling into place =D
If you wanted to get a good idea of DPD you should watch Numb. It's a good film and there'll be a link to it just there in realted videos --->
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
Ah okay, good!
And thanks I'll look for it.
kyleismrsmiley 2 years ago
In over 12 years helping over 125,000 people, I have never experienced one case of DP that has lasted beyond complete anxiety recovery. I had DP for over 4 years... it went. DP isn't a disorder, it's a symptom of an Anxiety condition... this can be caused bya number of catalysts incuding trauma, stress, cannabis use, bereavement and many more. We don't have any experience of depersonalisation or derealisation existing outside of an anxiety condition.
CharlesLinden 2 years ago
Thanks for getting back so soon. I checked out your website and saw a lot of anxiety-related symptoms that I have. I'll stay in touch and again, thanks =]
illuminastymusic 2 years ago
i've had it on and off for 24 yrs. Charles you are right. You have to forget about it though to make it go away as well as address stress issues. Obsessing online does not help.
And what is the guy in this video doing smoking? For real? Are we in the 90's?
strong1here 2 years ago