Im an 18 year old girl who never met her dad.Your video really touched my heart.Every Father's Day is hard for me saddest day of the year probaly.But my mother is my father.May your dad's soul rest in peace.
Im really sorry about your loss. I lost my dad on this past may 9, and i just turned 19 on maya 19. This is my first fathers day without him, it's pretty damn sad. I really enjoyed your video, you have a way with words, summed it up pretty well. Good luck with everything in your future :D
I cried watching your most touching video. I just posted Father's Day In memoriam . I lost my Dad when he was murdered . The pain is unbearable. I'm so glad to have pictures and videos to comfort me.
Glad you were abled to establish a relationship with your dad before he died. Mine is very much alive, not 10 miles from my home and isn't even interested in the names of my children. So it goes... I'm not bitter; just full of resolve NEVER to become a man like him. All I've learned from my father is merely a checklist of what a father is NOT to do.
oh my God, I am so touched. bless you for making this video. I know so many fathers who've been pushed out of their children's lives by ex-spouses making false allegations of abuse. And I know so many single mothers who think their exes will never come back into the kids' lives. bless you so very much for sharing your story.
We just have to be thankful for what we have. Even if things are tough, remembering that it will get better with positive thoughts. Remember that those before us that are family who have passed, their blood runs through our veins. We are a product of them. So better yourself and make sure of your happiness, and this will represent them. Blessings.
I watched this video! AND I know how you feel! I lost my mother 2 years ago...but I can't even imagine losing my dad! I am a daddy's girl! :) ...it does get easier every year though...doesn't it?
I offer my condolences. I know that the first several years can be very difficult--my father died of cancer when I was twelve years old. No one can really get over a loss like that.
My father took off when I was 8 months old and despite various attempts by my mother's family to get him to acknowledge his fatherhood, he never did. Maybe us abandoned kids are a bit of a pushover but even if I'd had a deathbed acknowledgment it would have made all the difference. So, all you runaway fathers, it's never too late.
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At least she had a good dad, my dad who is still alive is a piece of shit, I feel I was robbed more than her, but I am not going to make a stinking video about it.
you're a balanced person. Forgiveness is huge. I miss my dad too -- although I find holidays ridiculous for many reasons.......I find all days are good days to tell our family we love them.... I'm 32 and have no parents....it's tough and I'm so happy that I was taught to love daily and give cards/gifts often to those you adore. But still although I never celebrated those days it's still a reminder that I don't have them when those holidays come around. take care and I admire your success!
I'm glad you had that wonderful chance with your dad for all that time. Indeed, his decision to be with you as a dad is a great example of a parent doing the right thing. Most people don't realize what it can do to a child's LIFE to not have the acceptance, support, guidance, approval of a parent around. You ever need a friend let me know... you're a special girl.
goddamit you again? I hate you what the fuck is wrong with you This is not changing the world.now stop this...shove the camra up your asshole it would be more entertaining god your are so dull,I just wanna piss on your face,if I was your daddy I would have left NOW FUCK OFF....
Oh my gosh, v7nf. What is wrong with you? Have some class. If you have a problem with what she is saying, don't watch. You make me sick.
Faintstarlite: My heart goes out to you. Too many kids have to live without their fathers. I think you should find someone you can talk to in person about all of this. It will be so much more effective to find real life support instead of putting up with YouTUBE losers like these. God bless, Hon.
click on here screen name, look at all the videos she has made. This person is an "ATTENTION WHORE" ! If people start ignoring her she will stop making these stupid videos.
Good video. You made me tear up. My dad died when I was 10, and my mom in 2000 (I was 27). Having my own son (who is almost 3 now) has made me realize how much they must have loved me, and made me wish they could have been around for me to tell them again how much I love them. Cherish each other while we can. Thanks for the video!
its ok... dont worry about those fathers days that come around... youll grow only more as each year passes by, and its good that you dont take your loss and change into anger... you have a positive aura about you. good! you are an encouragment and strength to those out there who don't have a dad either.
my dads a sick fuck and i hope he rots in fucking hell. he beat my mom when she had me and left her in the middle of a highway when she was pregnent. i came out to be fine and i got a job at 15 now...so you dont always need a father....just a good mom..and thats whats i truly belive...and im not dedicating this to my dad...im dedicating it to my mom....
I think having a baby is a beautiful thing and you should be proud. Don't feel bad-your daughter needs a Dad. I'm actually looking for a nice gal and would love to settle down and be a husband and father. So you'd be just what I'm looking for.
Also I really like your pretty little pierced nose. Anyway I'd like to see some pictures of you and your daughter so email me back OK? It's gilbert159 at hot mail dot com OK sweetheart?
I'm sorry you're alone. I lost my mother so I know how you feel sweetie. It's Kevin Again. You didn't know your Dad till eight?? Where was he? What's your name by the way?
Let's chat pretty lady. You seem lonely. Where do you live? Again Email at gilbert159 at hot mail dot com OK?
I sense a feeble attempt from Royalshockey to gain empathy from faintstarlight as part of his strategy to win her over neo-you-tube-dating-style.
It's tragic that people would rip her in this video; however, when you post things on youtube, you set yourself up for a-hole responses. I have little sympathy for you-tube emo-kids who post their emotions for all to see.
sorry to hear about ur dad's death. I see people die all the time in the hospital. death sux. I can't imagine the pain uv felt with his death. I'll share your grief.
The second deepest pain i have ever felt is that my father chose not to be in my life. Especially once i understood that it was his choice. Thank you for this video.
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take the stud out of the nose because it looks like it needs to be sqeazed.
Sorry about your father...you should really see a qualified therapist instead of talking to a camera and seeking sympathy from the world. This might make you lose your mind completely.
Hi, my dad passed away when I was 11. Your topic might seem trivial for some people, especially those who never faced death in the family or take for granted the loved ones. Share what you think you have to share. Don't bother about stupid comments from losers. They'd probably always been criticised for whatever right or wrong they did so it's just hard for them to say anything constructive. Throwing shit on others is the only thing they know possibily because it's the only thing they got.
If this bores you, dukenuke72, then don't waste time watching it or commenting. Honestly, why do negative people waste their time on here bothering people. Just because you have the emotional range of a teaspoon ...
Your video really meant something to me. My parents divorced while I was in high school. I don't have a very big family, only a half brother. Ever since that divorce I haven't been close with either of my parents. Both my mom and my dad have found new partners, also each of the new partners have their own children. Frankly I have always felt like I was hung out to dry. I'm going to visit my parents this weekend, partly thanks to your video.
Thanks for sharing your heart. For this Dad, one of the biggest life goals, is to have my daughter have the feelings for me that you expressed. You are kind and generous. Thanks.
I do not know how old you are; but I that I really know is the feelings you have about usa and the sistem in your country and I feeel sorry for you ; if you want a better future move righ away from your country tyo sweden i REALLY RECOMENDED THAT I´m 47 years old but I have a younger mind an heart to take care of you without be a FATHER OTHER WAY JUST MOVE OVER SEA AND YOU GONNA GETA BETTER LIVE .
Just straight from the heart... I happened on these videos, not expecting this, but I can feel what your saying and I hope others can also. Obviously your shooting straight from the hip, and I just want to wish you well. And if enough people wish you well, then the human spirit might make a difference in your life, and perhaps you will become shootingstar rather than faintstarlite.
I lost mine 3 yrs ago from the same thing. It's the hardest thing I've been through. I'm fortunate to have a lot of good memories, and hope you do as well. They will help you get through it. You're beautiful and smart, and I'm sure he's proud. I applaud you for posting your thoughts.
hey i know, i havent seen my father for about 10 years now and i dont remember much of father's days. i wonder what does it feels or what do they do for father's day. any way ONE BIG QUESTION after your father left this world was it hard for you? i mean did ever with he wouldnt come back to your life and leave again? i wonder.
You might try something that I've found helpful. Every Father's Day & on his birthday write him a letter. You don't even have to send it (although you might take it to his gravesite). You may find that you'll find new things to say every year.
my father, dumped my family when I was 3 so I don't consider it much of a holiday. whenever i see a video like this it makes me realise what he stole from me and my family.
I'm in desperate need of some cheerful comments. Please tell me something nice. The more you get sad the sadder you wil get.
Good moments of reflection. But the bible says. No person grabbing the plower will be able to make a straight line looking backwards.(free translation).
You are attractive and what is beautiful is to be praised.
Come on initiate a very provocative discussion. I'm waiting for you.
Touching video Esther. Father's/Mother's Day does have a way of reminding so many people of good, ambivalent, or bad memories -- or some combination thereof. When, by the way, is Children's Day? If you say "everyday", I will say bullocks!
T_T my father died when i was 8, total bummer. I got over it as best i could, don't think of it that often. i still get a little surprised when i find grown men hanging around my friend's houses.
HA! HA! everyone is posting about their deceased parents! HYEA! HA! HA! HA!
I belive there is not excuse for an adult men who becomes a father to ignore is own kids!!! My father was my hero my world...until I was 8... and then he turn to crap! He abuse me in many many ways and at 26 years old... I cant forgive him!!! And I promise to my self to make him feel the same way he did to me! And I know some day I will! I hate him he dosent deseverd to be able to have any more children... he has 5!!! and he his a bastard with all of us! He dosent deserved to live!
I can kinda relate to this video, I lost my Mom to terrible circumstances only 4 weeks ago...i'm finally starting to let it sink in....Mother's Day will be like this next year. Thanks for the vid.
I can relate to this vid. I lost my father when I was six. That was a long time ago, but I still feel it at times. Especially on father's day or when I know people that are doing things with their father. I had a step father, but its not the same. I know who my father was, and miss him still.
BRAVO ESTHER!!! a truly great video, inspiring, got me all teary! ive had a rocky relationship with my parents (despite living at home most of these 24 years) but as much as we argue and disagree, i do really love them! we've had times when the barriers between us have toppled for a moment but life quickly returns to the habit of earlier times. im really happy your dad had the courage to step up and know you, and im sorry for your loss. take care, God bless!! :)) xoxoxo
This is an awesome video and it's inspired me to make a video for my dad who died in April 2006, it was also my second father's day without him. I'll post it as a response here when it's done. Thanks Esther!
Great Video Esther, very touching, straight from the Heart. Like you said you had those 14 special years with him in your life, its the good moments you have to cling on to.
Funny when I woke up this morning the silly old thought came to me "It's not how you start life but how you finish it" This thought was born out of my concern of all the people who have made a positive impact in life and how I have "sized up" to date.
Initially he stumbled but your Dad "finished well" with regards to being an example to you and obviously to others who were watching. That's called "Character"
To finish this chaptar, i think everything happens for a reason, i keep in mind only to share as much i can with my daugther because as you said, live is short, nobody knows when the dead comes. I share your feelings and i am very glad that at least your father was with you to share your things and feeling. kisses
I have a family and eventhough i had the chance to saw my father sometimes i dont feel angry or some other bad feelings against him, and for my mother i consider her like my friend. I have 1 sister from her and 4 brothers from him, similiar situation, they are only my friends, actually i have a brother 5 years old.
It's great that your Dad was part of your life. I'm sorry he's gone. Did you see Battim's video from a father's point of view about a daughter he didn't know he had? Both yours and his make me wish my father and I had worked out our problems before he did, but we didn't.
without my parents and that have give me the opportunity to grow and to understand that everybody has their particular reason to do things, probably ones doesnt understand them because only us know what we really want and for what reason we do things,doesnt matter we admint or not. I dont lose time to think about why they left me, sometime i am glad they do like that because God was very good with me and gave opportunities that made me the man i am
It's great that you're able to see the good even through the hard times... obviously you're empathetic to your parents' decision - and like you said, perhaps in those circumstances they were doing the best they could to help you out in the long run
Even i knew that my dad is alaive and also my mother was in another contry working, i was always very sad and the feeling to be alone stay with me until know.
I had no traumas about it, i overcome this long time ago, i knew my father when i was 21, and my mother regret until know to left me behind. But i think, that was a better chance to me, i grew in a normal enviroment, the family of my mother is very poor, i got a good education
I share your opinion about this issue. In my case my father went to USA when i was 2 years old, i grew with my dad's parents and i saw my mother not too much only at nights. When i were 10, my mother went to Venezuela to live and I finally staid with my grandparents
hi, Ok, this is too long so i will split it into 2 or 3 comments, i want to share with you my feeling too, i think it could be a chiken's soup for your soul.
Glad u made this vid, i want to say, i don't AGREE with the saying: 'that's life' because who are the people who make up 'life'? that's right us; we shouldn't blame something called 'life' because thta isn't a valid reason for things good or bad that occur.
You remind me of three very close friends of mine in my life: Their dads died when they were young. They are all very affectionate and loving people. It hurts a lot, I know. Watching this video just hurts me a lot. I dont know why..
The best way to not the make yourself sad is always remember they're up in heaven watching you to be happy. Grow strong and think otherwise. You can never win by comparing to others in this situation, but at least you can make yourself make better and help others to smile by showing you're a tough nut to crack. Make your father proud Esther. :)
Touching video. Thanks for sharing. Me and my dad are not getting along at all right now so I also found your video challenging to a degree, if you get what I mean. Thanks for giving me a different perspective on things. *big hugs*
Wow that was really eloquent and sad. Both your father dying and not knowing him for your first 8 years. It reminds me of one of my favorite books, Rabbit Run.
I wish my dad would see this and knock some sense into him too. It's such a shame when a parent could just choose to not be part of their child's life. I don't understand how anyone could do that. I hope he realizes that before it's too late.
You have been though so much, but you have turned out to be a beautiful person. NOt everyone can come through difficult times and have a positive perspective on life. I lost my brother when i was 16 and he was 18. It was the most difficult thing i've experienced. Im 22 now and I miss him everyday. I wish he could be here with me now. Thanks for sharing u heart w/ the world of YouTube!
It's especially hard when someone young dies but you never have to quit missing the person you lost.. sometimes I go on walks and talk to my dad - I might look crazy talking to myself but I think it helps.. plus I have some of his stuff around my room to keep him alive in my life
Im an 18 year old girl who never met her dad.Your video really touched my heart.Every Father's Day is hard for me saddest day of the year probaly.But my mother is my father.May your dad's soul rest in peace.
marinedream1 7 months ago
:'( I feel sad My father died this year january 31 This is the worste year ever!!!
SuperUniverseQueen 8 months ago
Im really sorry about your loss. I lost my dad on this past may 9, and i just turned 19 on maya 19. This is my first fathers day without him, it's pretty damn sad. I really enjoyed your video, you have a way with words, summed it up pretty well. Good luck with everything in your future :D
smokeyjoe4848 1 year ago
this video is very touching thnkz everything you say is so true
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I cried watching your most touching video. I just posted Father's Day In memoriam . I lost my Dad when he was murdered . The pain is unbearable. I'm so glad to have pictures and videos to comfort me.
xomemoriesforever 2 years ago
Glad you were abled to establish a relationship with your dad before he died. Mine is very much alive, not 10 miles from my home and isn't even interested in the names of my children. So it goes... I'm not bitter; just full of resolve NEVER to become a man like him. All I've learned from my father is merely a checklist of what a father is NOT to do.
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nose ring thats gross
lacey21333 2 years ago
ahmmm... would you like to listen to my band's song "Fatherless"?... its here on my channel.. I personally wrote this song for myself..
Don Victoria
picnicdon 3 years ago
i dont hav a father nor a mother they both left me for their careers when i was born. i know how it feels to be motherless as well as fatherless.
ceegkhan 3 years ago
saps
v7nf 3 years ago
You should always be thankful to have a father that loves and cares about you because he could go away, I give my father a hug almost everyday.
esh325 3 years ago
This is an incredible message! Would you please watch Obama's "Father's Day" speech and post this as a reply video?
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Thanks!
steve66oh 3 years ago
oh my God, I am so touched. bless you for making this video. I know so many fathers who've been pushed out of their children's lives by ex-spouses making false allegations of abuse. And I know so many single mothers who think their exes will never come back into the kids' lives. bless you so very much for sharing your story.
allkdathrt 3 years ago 2
It's a real drag, feeling that loss; I understand; thanks for the video.
wwrpd77 3 years ago 2
My father passed away in January and I am dreading Father's Day.
EmilyBlogs 3 years ago 2
I am so sorry and that your father passed and you are so young. I feel for you and understand your feelings. I really do.
nakedbullwinkle 3 years ago 2
We just have to be thankful for what we have. Even if things are tough, remembering that it will get better with positive thoughts. Remember that those before us that are family who have passed, their blood runs through our veins. We are a product of them. So better yourself and make sure of your happiness, and this will represent them. Blessings.
04261983 3 years ago
My dad died close to Father's day and it was really hard to experience. Father's day was never easy for me. I get all of what you're saying. :/
sarsy 4 years ago
I watched this video! AND I know how you feel! I lost my mother 2 years ago...but I can't even imagine losing my dad! I am a daddy's girl! :) ...it does get easier every year though...doesn't it?
jcarsello06 4 years ago
I offer my condolences. I know that the first several years can be very difficult--my father died of cancer when I was twelve years old. No one can really get over a loss like that.
schakj 4 years ago
how sad....very sad
haneesan 4 years ago
you have amazing teeth lol
Madi16nz 4 years ago
My father took off when I was 8 months old and despite various attempts by my mother's family to get him to acknowledge his fatherhood, he never did. Maybe us abandoned kids are a bit of a pushover but even if I'd had a deathbed acknowledgment it would have made all the difference. So, all you runaway fathers, it's never too late.
blackmore4 4 years ago
you're just great
dubaiedge 4 years ago
ur dad is a complete tosser
donkeyless 4 years ago
I'm sorry about your dad. My dad died 5 years ago and it's totally shitty. Hang in there, things will get better!
TheMay 4 years ago
Don't come down on the girl. She DID have a good dad--which is a sh*t-ton better'n I have--but let her ramble on will ya
Life's a bowl o' sh*t, when ya think of it >)
orphand11 4 years ago
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Blah blah blah crap.Stop whining already.Jeez try prozac or sumthin'.
stlllsbe 4 years ago
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yeah, swallow your pain then.
julienfrance90 4 years ago
touching
xmike87 4 years ago
iam sorry for you dad
Jenya18 4 years ago
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At least she had a good dad, my dad who is still alive is a piece of shit, I feel I was robbed more than her, but I am not going to make a stinking video about it.
thedarkoccults 4 years ago
I feel sad with you.................
shortattentionspan1 4 years ago
I started a community of writer who write about this very topic. troll-baby DOT com/category/parentless/
karenrani 4 years ago
you're a balanced person. Forgiveness is huge. I miss my dad too -- although I find holidays ridiculous for many reasons.......I find all days are good days to tell our family we love them.... I'm 32 and have no parents....it's tough and I'm so happy that I was taught to love daily and give cards/gifts often to those you adore. But still although I never celebrated those days it's still a reminder that I don't have them when those holidays come around. take care and I admire your success!
rachellemybell 4 years ago
I'm glad you had that wonderful chance with your dad for all that time. Indeed, his decision to be with you as a dad is a great example of a parent doing the right thing. Most people don't realize what it can do to a child's LIFE to not have the acceptance, support, guidance, approval of a parent around. You ever need a friend let me know... you're a special girl.
INTUBITION 4 years ago
I know how it goes, my father passed away last year and the thing that made matters worse was that the 1 year fell on fathers day.
Anyway, good vid.
-Heather
OreoNHL 4 years ago
don't listen to the negative comments... this could really help someone going through the same things
ha2152 4 years ago
i envy you fainty
SuperSly10 4 years ago
I really respect you.
lyssaxroni 4 years ago
Your a great Vlogger i must say. I'm sorry to hear about your dad though. :)
Heidiscope 4 years ago
You are a sweetheart. I've fallen in love with you
zandrewitti 4 years ago 2
goddamit you again? I hate you what the fuck is wrong with you This is not changing the world.now stop this...shove the camra up your asshole it would be more entertaining god your are so dull,I just wanna piss on your face,if I was your daddy I would have left NOW FUCK OFF....
v7nf 4 years ago
Oh my gosh, v7nf. What is wrong with you? Have some class. If you have a problem with what she is saying, don't watch. You make me sick.
Faintstarlite: My heart goes out to you. Too many kids have to live without their fathers. I think you should find someone you can talk to in person about all of this. It will be so much more effective to find real life support instead of putting up with YouTUBE losers like these. God bless, Hon.
Chopplesticks 4 years ago 3
don't watch her videos then, how hard is that?
lisabob22 4 years ago
You have been blessed. Peace.
lilvoyce 4 years ago
click on here screen name, look at all the videos she has made. This person is an "ATTENTION WHORE" ! If people start ignoring her she will stop making these stupid videos.
ghjere 4 years ago
love the nose ring
parker4660 4 years ago
Good video. You made me tear up. My dad died when I was 10, and my mom in 2000 (I was 27). Having my own son (who is almost 3 now) has made me realize how much they must have loved me, and made me wish they could have been around for me to tell them again how much I love them. Cherish each other while we can. Thanks for the video!
jwlvs 4 years ago
its ok... dont worry about those fathers days that come around... youll grow only more as each year passes by, and its good that you dont take your loss and change into anger... you have a positive aura about you. good! you are an encouragment and strength to those out there who don't have a dad either.
AbercombiEandFitch 4 years ago
It's good that she has propagated her DNA at a young age. She has ensured the survival of her genetic lineage for at another generation...
Stardusk 4 years ago
reply to buzzin1975
JohnLay193 4 years ago
my dads a sick fuck and i hope he rots in fucking hell. he beat my mom when she had me and left her in the middle of a highway when she was pregnent. i came out to be fine and i got a job at 15 now...so you dont always need a father....just a good mom..and thats whats i truly belive...and im not dedicating this to my dad...im dedicating it to my mom....
drunk0nappl3juic3 4 years ago
I wanna fuck this bitch..er, dignified lady.
buzzin1975 4 years ago
Fuck you you dumb cock sucker
JohnLay193 4 years ago
you are a looser Johnlay193 !!!!We gonna rip you of youtube!!Go F.yurself BIG TIME LOOOOOSER !!!
jurgenrrd 4 years ago
Buzzin1975.Get lost frustrated dumb/lowhead!!!
jurgenrrd 4 years ago
Lose the nose ring.
NorthSeaProductions 4 years ago
wauw
Fkex3 4 years ago
hey that sucks ;/ i lost my step dad like month ago
plxors01 4 years ago
go to the bed it's time
jazzobassoon 4 years ago
I think having a baby is a beautiful thing and you should be proud. Don't feel bad-your daughter needs a Dad. I'm actually looking for a nice gal and would love to settle down and be a husband and father. So you'd be just what I'm looking for.
Also I really like your pretty little pierced nose. Anyway I'd like to see some pictures of you and your daughter so email me back OK? It's gilbert159 at hot mail dot com OK sweetheart?
HarryCalahan1 4 years ago
I'm sorry you're alone. I lost my mother so I know how you feel sweetie. It's Kevin Again. You didn't know your Dad till eight?? Where was he? What's your name by the way?
Let's chat pretty lady. You seem lonely. Where do you live? Again Email at gilbert159 at hot mail dot com OK?
HarryCalahan1 4 years ago
I bet your father was very proud of you.
Here's something totally off-topic, unasked-for, honest, and superficial -- but, fatherly?
I am old enough to be your father, and have two daughters myself.
You don't need that nose-ring. It detracts from an otherwise very beautiful face.
LTCJeffWhite 4 years ago
Sounds about right coming from a parent ;-)
buelltonsux 4 years ago
please stop posting videos
NappyHeadedHorse 4 years ago
I sense a feeble attempt from Royalshockey to gain empathy from faintstarlight as part of his strategy to win her over neo-you-tube-dating-style.
It's tragic that people would rip her in this video; however, when you post things on youtube, you set yourself up for a-hole responses. I have little sympathy for you-tube emo-kids who post their emotions for all to see.
ThaddeusMarcum 4 years ago
Honestly some people are complete assholes to you.
Sorry
Royalshockey28 4 years ago
The problem in "logging" of any kind is the narcistic assumption that anyone cares. :/
Nequame 4 years ago
how old is this bitch?
darkestred666 4 years ago
i wish you were in my life ;(
arthurahon3 4 years ago
hey, i'll be your daddy little girl. you've been really bad and need to be spanked! come over here!
flicksdick 4 years ago
sorry to hear about ur dad's death. I see people die all the time in the hospital. death sux. I can't imagine the pain uv felt with his death. I'll share your grief.
windmillcrusader 4 years ago
Hey i know how ya feel. This year was my second father-less Father's Day. BUt i hope happines comes to u one of these up-coming father's days.
mschaffer15 4 years ago
The second deepest pain i have ever felt is that my father chose not to be in my life. Especially once i understood that it was his choice. Thank you for this video.
Dino1013 4 years ago
Thank you for this video. It takes a lot of guts to really open up like that.
Lordbrucifer 4 years ago
I hope this offered some catharsis.
Lordbrucifer 4 years ago
I just said I'll be your daddy. In the words of Simon Cowell "It's a compliment"
dukenuke72 4 years ago
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ballintine 4 years ago
take the stud out of the nose because it looks like it needs to be sqeazed.
Sorry about your father...you should really see a qualified therapist instead of talking to a camera and seeking sympathy from the world. This might make you lose your mind completely.
Powercruncher 4 years ago
hey again sweet heart :)
pedrobarroso1995 4 years ago
Hi, my dad passed away when I was 11. Your topic might seem trivial for some people, especially those who never faced death in the family or take for granted the loved ones. Share what you think you have to share. Don't bother about stupid comments from losers. They'd probably always been criticised for whatever right or wrong they did so it's just hard for them to say anything constructive. Throwing shit on others is the only thing they know possibily because it's the only thing they got.
dongpedroyi 4 years ago
I'll be your daddy
dukenuke72 4 years ago
If this bores you, dukenuke72, then don't waste time watching it or commenting. Honestly, why do negative people waste their time on here bothering people. Just because you have the emotional range of a teaspoon ...
HarmonicWave 4 years ago
Sorry, my last comment was for donellimick and anthonyalain, not dukenuke72. I got the posts mixed up.
HarmonicWave 4 years ago
dont you have any friends you could bore with this crap?
anthonyalain 4 years ago
Esther, thanks for sharing. It's SO very important to cherish important moments. 5/5.
valleyforge20 4 years ago
that was a cheap shot
valleyforge20 4 years ago
Your video really meant something to me. My parents divorced while I was in high school. I don't have a very big family, only a half brother. Ever since that divorce I haven't been close with either of my parents. Both my mom and my dad have found new partners, also each of the new partners have their own children. Frankly I have always felt like I was hung out to dry. I'm going to visit my parents this weekend, partly thanks to your video.
adamruck 4 years ago
my mother is also death, breast cancer 12 years ago. I youst need to say that. UFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!
32BitDistro 4 years ago
Thanks for sharing your heart. For this Dad, one of the biggest life goals, is to have my daughter have the feelings for me that you expressed. You are kind and generous. Thanks.
Dollardan1 4 years ago
I do not know how old you are; but I that I really know is the feelings you have about usa and the sistem in your country and I feeel sorry for you ; if you want a better future move righ away from your country tyo sweden i REALLY RECOMENDED THAT I´m 47 years old but I have a younger mind an heart to take care of you without be a FATHER OTHER WAY JUST MOVE OVER SEA AND YOU GONNA GETA BETTER LIVE .
kiltroloco 4 years ago
youre hot :)
anold33 4 years ago
you are such a nice n brave gal.. i admire
biscoeboyz 4 years ago
You're really cute.
WinterEdge 4 years ago
Thats so sweet... so sad... I'm an orphan, I have no parents, and I miss those holidays the way they used to be
MariasStory 4 years ago
My mum know's exactly how you feel but her dad died on Valentines day so it's sadness on father's day too.
10Cnote 4 years ago
Just straight from the heart... I happened on these videos, not expecting this, but I can feel what your saying and I hope others can also. Obviously your shooting straight from the hip, and I just want to wish you well. And if enough people wish you well, then the human spirit might make a difference in your life, and perhaps you will become shootingstar rather than faintstarlite.
Grey80002 4 years ago
I lost mine 3 yrs ago from the same thing. It's the hardest thing I've been through. I'm fortunate to have a lot of good memories, and hope you do as well. They will help you get through it. You're beautiful and smart, and I'm sure he's proud. I applaud you for posting your thoughts.
tk0173 4 years ago
im sorry to hear about your father. I think some of us can relate to your prediciment, I can only relate to those that have been abused.
weapondrift 4 years ago
QQ IMO
leafblower 4 years ago
hey i know, i havent seen my father for about 10 years now and i dont remember much of father's days. i wonder what does it feels or what do they do for father's day. any way ONE BIG QUESTION after your father left this world was it hard for you? i mean did ever with he wouldnt come back to your life and leave again? i wonder.
metalspider666 4 years ago
superbly composed video
Querm 4 years ago
THANK YOU VIDEOCANVAS!! I AGREE 100%
Cheeomeelah 4 years ago
my father died 2 :(
hollisterrocksgirl 4 years ago
you have a really beautifull face, i LOVE you
videocanvas 4 years ago
your father would be proud. Smart, pretty, everything a daughter could be....now my friends will see this and laugh, but whatever.
2Halifaxion2 4 years ago
too hot too handle
nevill101 4 years ago
sorry about your dad
sccerpro 4 years ago
You might try something that I've found helpful. Every Father's Day & on his birthday write him a letter. You don't even have to send it (although you might take it to his gravesite). You may find that you'll find new things to say every year.
Dog480 4 years ago
You are Beautiful!!
41special 4 years ago
my father, dumped my family when I was 3 so I don't consider it much of a holiday. whenever i see a video like this it makes me realise what he stole from me and my family.
paulosham 4 years ago
show some skin girl now that youre 105
Lekter 4 years ago
Very poignant.
apeppink 4 years ago
faintstarlite, you are amazing, i live like a kazillion miles away from you in Chile, and english is not my language (so sorry for the flaws).
I felt touched by every video. Thank you. I'll keep watching.
iurak6868 4 years ago
I am sorry for you
zakibenz 4 years ago
My Lady Faintstarlite,
I'm in desperate need of some cheerful comments. Please tell me something nice. The more you get sad the sadder you wil get.
Good moments of reflection. But the bible says. No person grabbing the plower will be able to make a straight line looking backwards.(free translation).
You are attractive and what is beautiful is to be praised.
Come on initiate a very provocative discussion. I'm waiting for you.
Cheers
boechat100 4 years ago
Sorry about Your Dad faintstarlite
stupidfilms101 4 years ago
You really are lucky.. :)
laccepte 4 years ago
Touching video Esther. Father's/Mother's Day does have a way of reminding so many people of good, ambivalent, or bad memories -- or some combination thereof. When, by the way, is Children's Day? If you say "everyday", I will say bullocks!
KobyBrandt 4 years ago
Great topic!!!
jven11 4 years ago
I enjoyed this video very much, and I am glad that you had those 14 years to spend with your dad. Thanks for telling your story.
LotSix66 4 years ago
T_T my father died when i was 8, total bummer. I got over it as best i could, don't think of it that often. i still get a little surprised when i find grown men hanging around my friend's houses.
HA! HA! everyone is posting about their deceased parents! HYEA! HA! HA! HA!
T_T
lemuelbecc 4 years ago
I belive there is not excuse for an adult men who becomes a father to ignore is own kids!!! My father was my hero my world...until I was 8... and then he turn to crap! He abuse me in many many ways and at 26 years old... I cant forgive him!!! And I promise to my self to make him feel the same way he did to me! And I know some day I will! I hate him he dosent deseverd to be able to have any more children... he has 5!!! and he his a bastard with all of us! He dosent deserved to live!
ladydayana 4 years ago
I can kinda relate to this video, I lost my Mom to terrible circumstances only 4 weeks ago...i'm finally starting to let it sink in....Mother's Day will be like this next year. Thanks for the vid.
glennjpeace 4 years ago
I can relate to this vid. I lost my father when I was six. That was a long time ago, but I still feel it at times. Especially on father's day or when I know people that are doing things with their father. I had a step father, but its not the same. I know who my father was, and miss him still.
Swidhelm 4 years ago
Not to make you feel bad for me, but my dad died this year and I'm only 12
Smookieh 4 years ago
Not to make you feel bad for me but my dad died this year and I'm only 12
Smookieh 4 years ago
Is that the faint star lite on your nose? lol..beautiful diamond.
sunnyguy13 4 years ago
Ive just had my 2nd mothers day without mum and its my birthday today and I miss her.
stormeee 4 years ago
BRAVO ESTHER!!! a truly great video, inspiring, got me all teary! ive had a rocky relationship with my parents (despite living at home most of these 24 years) but as much as we argue and disagree, i do really love them! we've had times when the barriers between us have toppled for a moment but life quickly returns to the habit of earlier times. im really happy your dad had the courage to step up and know you, and im sorry for your loss. take care, God bless!! :)) xoxoxo
gozza83 4 years ago
This is an awesome video and it's inspired me to make a video for my dad who died in April 2006, it was also my second father's day without him. I'll post it as a response here when it's done. Thanks Esther!
budkin 4 years ago
i had a fatherless father's day too...
loves2laff 4 years ago
How could ANY Father be ashamed of such a beautiful young woman as yourself? I hearby volunteer to be your Father.Keep your head up, you WILL go far.
BreathDoctor 4 years ago
i feel inspired by this video...it made me call my dad to tell him i love him
bi9130 4 years ago
If your boyfriend doesnt black out , red kisess 4 you hani , By the way I'll hug you any way : )
bahrambeni 4 years ago
Great Video Esther, very touching, straight from the Heart. Like you said you had those 14 special years with him in your life, its the good moments you have to cling on to.
kingjimsix65 4 years ago
*hugs*
chromaKi 4 years ago
All I can say is.. Great Video.
JohnTheWolf 4 years ago
there are sign everywhere to remind you, and i always forget. I suck
skooterx 4 years ago
beautiful video, by a beautiful girl.
Xaves511 4 years ago
I had a daughterless father's day.
saturateu 4 years ago
talk74 WIPE YOUR NOSE !!!!!!!!
majoha2020 4 years ago
thanks for making another one of your videos! you are an inspiration :)
talk74 4 years ago
Funny when I woke up this morning the silly old thought came to me "It's not how you start life but how you finish it" This thought was born out of my concern of all the people who have made a positive impact in life and how I have "sized up" to date.
Initially he stumbled but your Dad "finished well" with regards to being an example to you and obviously to others who were watching. That's called "Character"
Now a days some say it's in short supply.
Orboy1 4 years ago
"Now a days some say it's (character) in short supply." Sadly true. And we all sure pay for it.
apeppink 4 years ago
To finish this chaptar, i think everything happens for a reason, i keep in mind only to share as much i can with my daugther because as you said, live is short, nobody knows when the dead comes. I share your feelings and i am very glad that at least your father was with you to share your things and feeling. kisses
cancerverus818 4 years ago
I have a family and eventhough i had the chance to saw my father sometimes i dont feel angry or some other bad feelings against him, and for my mother i consider her like my friend. I have 1 sister from her and 4 brothers from him, similiar situation, they are only my friends, actually i have a brother 5 years old.
cancerverus818 4 years ago
It's great that your Dad was part of your life. I'm sorry he's gone. Did you see Battim's video from a father's point of view about a daughter he didn't know he had? Both yours and his make me wish my father and I had worked out our problems before he did, but we didn't.
FantasticBabblings 4 years ago
without my parents and that have give me the opportunity to grow and to understand that everybody has their particular reason to do things, probably ones doesnt understand them because only us know what we really want and for what reason we do things,doesnt matter we admint or not. I dont lose time to think about why they left me, sometime i am glad they do like that because God was very good with me and gave opportunities that made me the man i am
now.
cancerverus818 4 years ago
It's great that you're able to see the good even through the hard times... obviously you're empathetic to your parents' decision - and like you said, perhaps in those circumstances they were doing the best they could to help you out in the long run
faintstarlite 4 years ago
Even i knew that my dad is alaive and also my mother was in another contry working, i was always very sad and the feeling to be alone stay with me until know.
I had no traumas about it, i overcome this long time ago, i knew my father when i was 21, and my mother regret until know to left me behind. But i think, that was a better chance to me, i grew in a normal enviroment, the family of my mother is very poor, i got a good education
cancerverus818 4 years ago
I share your opinion about this issue. In my case my father went to USA when i was 2 years old, i grew with my dad's parents and i saw my mother not too much only at nights. When i were 10, my mother went to Venezuela to live and I finally staid with my grandparents
cancerverus818 4 years ago
hi, Ok, this is too long so i will split it into 2 or 3 comments, i want to share with you my feeling too, i think it could be a chiken's soup for your soul.
cancerverus818 4 years ago
Glad u made this vid, i want to say, i don't AGREE with the saying: 'that's life' because who are the people who make up 'life'? that's right us; we shouldn't blame something called 'life' because thta isn't a valid reason for things good or bad that occur.
oy 4 years ago
You remind me of three very close friends of mine in my life: Their dads died when they were young. They are all very affectionate and loving people. It hurts a lot, I know. Watching this video just hurts me a lot. I dont know why..
sunnyguy13 4 years ago
Thank for sharing your story. A great story told from the heart. I'm glad your father got to know what an incredible daughter he had.
appeals2me 4 years ago
touching video!
my father died 8 years ago but it's still hard for me. father's day sucks...
it's great to see how well you seem to get along with it =)
frauke2008 4 years ago
Your video is listed on the uk.youtube site because you have set UK in your profile. I was surprised to hear an american accent.
smaugyy 4 years ago
Oh funny - yeah, I just moved from the UK & haven't changed my location I guess
faintstarlite 4 years ago
The best way to not the make yourself sad is always remember they're up in heaven watching you to be happy. Grow strong and think otherwise. You can never win by comparing to others in this situation, but at least you can make yourself make better and help others to smile by showing you're a tough nut to crack. Make your father proud Esther. :)
Tuxedo12 4 years ago
I think you're beautiful and your nose ring is cute! Anyone saying otherwise has no taste! ;)
indiedezz 4 years ago
HEY! has your nose always been pierced?! :o :D
Sullenstarlght 4 years ago
Yup - for the past 6 years. =)
faintstarlite 4 years ago
I think being with others (especially who have been through the same loss) is very comforting at times like this
faintstarlite 4 years ago
I'm so glad your dad stepped up to the plate. My 'biological' father never did. But my "Real Dad" was always there for me!
daligoddess2006 4 years ago
It's so great that you had a dad who was there for you - someone definitely doesn't have to be biologically related to be a parent
faintstarlite 4 years ago
Touching video. Thanks for sharing. Me and my dad are not getting along at all right now so I also found your video challenging to a degree, if you get what I mean. Thanks for giving me a different perspective on things. *big hugs*
illusivemcsorley 4 years ago
Yea, life is short.. I found at the end the fights & frustrations don't mean very much
faintstarlite 4 years ago
Yeah, they don't. They're good things to avoid. When you can.
apeppink 4 years ago
Touching video Esther. :)
Castaa 4 years ago
Wow that was really eloquent and sad. Both your father dying and not knowing him for your first 8 years. It reminds me of one of my favorite books, Rabbit Run.
AmateurAstronaut 4 years ago
You will only get out of this feeling when you get married and have your own babies.
You are craving for family life.
Larry from Luxembourg
Write me a line. Let's get together.
I'm sending you emails on your account in you tube
boechat100 4 years ago
Sorry if I haven't replied I'm waaay backed up.. it's become a daunting task to get caught up but I'm slowly working on it
faintstarlite 4 years ago
I wish my dad would see this and knock some sense into him too. It's such a shame when a parent could just choose to not be part of their child's life. I don't understand how anyone could do that. I hope he realizes that before it's too late.
indiedezz 4 years ago
I hope so too
faintstarlite 4 years ago
thanks for sharing, great video!!!
glock882 4 years ago
big hugs!!!
You have been though so much, but you have turned out to be a beautiful person. NOt everyone can come through difficult times and have a positive perspective on life. I lost my brother when i was 16 and he was 18. It was the most difficult thing i've experienced. Im 22 now and I miss him everyday. I wish he could be here with me now. Thanks for sharing u heart w/ the world of YouTube!
-Sonia
sonyflores 4 years ago
It's especially hard when someone young dies but you never have to quit missing the person you lost.. sometimes I go on walks and talk to my dad - I might look crazy talking to myself but I think it helps.. plus I have some of his stuff around my room to keep him alive in my life
faintstarlite 4 years ago