I'm 15 and i suffer from depression. Its not because of anything chemically messed up in my brain but its because of the things that have happened to me in my life. For example, My mom cheated on my dad and had a kid with the man she cheated with. When my dad gets pissed at me he sais that if mom and him get a divorce its my fault. I finally decided to get help for depression and i'm now on medication. i thought things were getting better but now my dad has been diagnosed with cancer.
i gaint 40 kilos in 6 months :S al i did whas eat eat and eat but im on a diet now and im taking alot less medication so i already lost 10 kilos and feeling alot better about myself couse gaining wait sucks really bad and very depressing
in the past 2.5 years i tryd pils 3 times and got in the hospital after the first time not long after i tryt again nothing happend i thout i could die and got even more depresset not long after i drank alot realy alot and after some time i start cutting myself to the point i lost more than 1.5 liters of blood and where taken to the hospital and the next day i was in a psychiatric hospital for 8 months i got alot of medication also efexor and seroquel
sometimes it's not an 'illness', it's just 'life'...or one's reactions to it. the older i get, the more i come to believe everyone goes through times when they are truly tortured. fortunately, for most coming out of it is relatively easy but for some, well, that's a hard thing to reconcile...how life can treat some people so unfairly.
Because you have to take the negative along with that explination. All the people who have come back from war and successfully "off"ed themselves to escapethe pain, didn't have a purpose? Tell that to the grieving people at the funeral.
Latinlabel, I hate this saying 'God has a purpose for your life and wanted you to know that you are not in control, but He is. ' That makes someone feel worse. What could be a totally depressed persons 'purpose'? To make others aware? If thats the case than god is an ass. I don't understand how every single person on the planet can have some 'divine' purpose, and if its true, i'd sure as hell like to know what mine is.
I agree with Agent99. If you know the pain won't stop, if its cyclic, what else is a person to do (when all else has failed.) The thought of spending 80 years in mysery only to say 'at least i didn't kill myself' makes me feel more depressed than anything. I do agree with the gun thing though. A spur of the moment ending is not right, but if its something thats been thought about often i believe its more of an informed choice. A kind of psychological euthanasia.
"Impulsive" is not the right term. One can hotly desire death for weeks and months on end, and messing with civil liberties would at best provide a few extra hours. And, if someone is so ill they cannot stop the pain, or know that it will come back again, just as bad or worse, in cycles for the rest of their lives, it really ought to be up to each. Especially when one is an adult, it is our right to decide. I'm very glad you're still with us, but I think you're on the wrong track here.
Interesting beliefs. I don't think you should feel "lucky" you failed at suicide, rather you should be grateful. Additionally, God has a purpose for your life and wanted you to know that you are not in control, but He is.
God can help you, and will if you ask. And if you don't ask and you see that He still helps you it is because someone else (Gf, family member, pastor) prayed for you and you received God's grace, mercy and love.
I think God has helped you. You have lived with severe PTSD since you were 12 and you haven't killed yourself yet. I think he has made you a very tough person. He has helped you but you just haven't noticed. Maybe you have been praying that God will take away your PTSD. If thats what you have been praying for then maybe thats why he hasn't answered that prayer. God has a plan for all of us. He allows certain things to happen to us so he can use us for something.
Im gonna have to agree with the firearm thing. When I was at my lowest all I could think of was getting a gun and if I had one just like you I really dont think I would be here. Its hard to prevent suicide especially when the people around a person dont know how to reach them. It took several therapists to get to the one I have now that really somehow reached me. I guess better education on mental health with the general public and also even more mental health reform. Thanks for the video.
It is far too easy to kill with a firearm (yourself or somebody else)!
I also believe suicide is (mostly) preventable. Besides making it harder to commit the act, society needs to get better at identifying those at risk and reaching out to them (admittedly much harder than the former).
What a fantastic video! And, you look so well-rested! I don't know if you really are, but I'm jealous! hehe. Anywho...I've also attempted several times and am completely grateful to be alive. If I had had access to a firearm, I would be dead too. I actually went so far as to call a gun shop to see what kind of guns they had and how much they cost.
hey liz. thanks for posting after a long hiatus.. looking forward to more videos. :)
and yes, i would agree with the times article as well. i believe that a close family member of mine might still have been here today had someone intervened on the night of his suicide.
Oh Liz, I am such a Canadian sometimes... I hope that doesn't discount my appreciation of your thoughts regarding fire arms. I am so grateful for your beautiful youness. Thanks for being so wonderfully unsuccessful in some key 'life' choices.
the threat of it has haunted me all of my life, you are very beautiful to me
persevere67 7 months ago
"If I had owned a firearm... I would not be here today" = post-industrial natural selection.
csmcmillion 1 year ago
I'm 15 and i suffer from depression. Its not because of anything chemically messed up in my brain but its because of the things that have happened to me in my life. For example, My mom cheated on my dad and had a kid with the man she cheated with. When my dad gets pissed at me he sais that if mom and him get a divorce its my fault. I finally decided to get help for depression and i'm now on medication. i thought things were getting better but now my dad has been diagnosed with cancer.
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RoddyGinhell 3 years ago
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RoddyGinhell 3 years ago
i gaint 40 kilos in 6 months :S al i did whas eat eat and eat but im on a diet now and im taking alot less medication so i already lost 10 kilos and feeling alot better about myself couse gaining wait sucks really bad and very depressing
Moeshinx 3 years ago
Suicide is absoluty Preventable
in the past 2.5 years i tryd pils 3 times and got in the hospital after the first time not long after i tryt again nothing happend i thout i could die and got even more depresset not long after i drank alot realy alot and after some time i start cutting myself to the point i lost more than 1.5 liters of blood and where taken to the hospital and the next day i was in a psychiatric hospital for 8 months i got alot of medication also efexor and seroquel
Moeshinx 3 years ago
sometimes it's not an 'illness', it's just 'life'...or one's reactions to it. the older i get, the more i come to believe everyone goes through times when they are truly tortured. fortunately, for most coming out of it is relatively easy but for some, well, that's a hard thing to reconcile...how life can treat some people so unfairly.
deemilieu 3 years ago
Must be nice to be a elitist. Well shoes shape changed today for the fall season. I think you need to shop.
Mystery207 3 years ago
I think it is a fake thought process and I choose not to act on it. train your mind.
akfuzero 3 years ago
maybe you should travel around a litle..
A change of scenery may help for a while..
I`ve never been there but I heard Norway is great during springtime..
augustina91 3 years ago
"God has a purpose for your life" is bull. Why?
Because you have to take the negative along with that explination. All the people who have come back from war and successfully "off"ed themselves to escapethe pain, didn't have a purpose? Tell that to the grieving people at the funeral.
markae0 3 years ago 2
Latinlabel, I hate this saying 'God has a purpose for your life and wanted you to know that you are not in control, but He is. ' That makes someone feel worse. What could be a totally depressed persons 'purpose'? To make others aware? If thats the case than god is an ass. I don't understand how every single person on the planet can have some 'divine' purpose, and if its true, i'd sure as hell like to know what mine is.
missdoobs 3 years ago
I agree with Agent99. If you know the pain won't stop, if its cyclic, what else is a person to do (when all else has failed.) The thought of spending 80 years in mysery only to say 'at least i didn't kill myself' makes me feel more depressed than anything. I do agree with the gun thing though. A spur of the moment ending is not right, but if its something thats been thought about often i believe its more of an informed choice. A kind of psychological euthanasia.
missdoobs 3 years ago
"Impulsive" is not the right term. One can hotly desire death for weeks and months on end, and messing with civil liberties would at best provide a few extra hours. And, if someone is so ill they cannot stop the pain, or know that it will come back again, just as bad or worse, in cycles for the rest of their lives, it really ought to be up to each. Especially when one is an adult, it is our right to decide. I'm very glad you're still with us, but I think you're on the wrong track here.
Agent99 3 years ago
Interesting beliefs. I don't think you should feel "lucky" you failed at suicide, rather you should be grateful. Additionally, God has a purpose for your life and wanted you to know that you are not in control, but He is.
Latinlabel 3 years ago
I think you should take to the streets and see how many people concur with the 'god has a purpose for you' theory.
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RoddyGinhell 3 years ago
God can help you, and will if you ask. And if you don't ask and you see that He still helps you it is because someone else (Gf, family member, pastor) prayed for you and you received God's grace, mercy and love.
Latinlabel 3 years ago
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RoddyGinhell 3 years ago
I think God has helped you. You have lived with severe PTSD since you were 12 and you haven't killed yourself yet. I think he has made you a very tough person. He has helped you but you just haven't noticed. Maybe you have been praying that God will take away your PTSD. If thats what you have been praying for then maybe thats why he hasn't answered that prayer. God has a plan for all of us. He allows certain things to happen to us so he can use us for something.
kylexysbiggestfan 2 years ago
I am glad you are here also.
It is good to see you.
Pigseye 3 years ago
Im gonna have to agree with the firearm thing. When I was at my lowest all I could think of was getting a gun and if I had one just like you I really dont think I would be here. Its hard to prevent suicide especially when the people around a person dont know how to reach them. It took several therapists to get to the one I have now that really somehow reached me. I guess better education on mental health with the general public and also even more mental health reform. Thanks for the video.
cat12muffin 3 years ago
It is far too easy to kill with a firearm (yourself or somebody else)!
I also believe suicide is (mostly) preventable. Besides making it harder to commit the act, society needs to get better at identifying those at risk and reaching out to them (admittedly much harder than the former).
CousinoMacul 3 years ago
What a fantastic video! And, you look so well-rested! I don't know if you really are, but I'm jealous! hehe. Anywho...I've also attempted several times and am completely grateful to be alive. If I had had access to a firearm, I would be dead too. I actually went so far as to call a gun shop to see what kind of guns they had and how much they cost.
ichbinkeinberliner 3 years ago
hey liz. thanks for posting after a long hiatus.. looking forward to more videos. :)
and yes, i would agree with the times article as well. i believe that a close family member of mine might still have been here today had someone intervened on the night of his suicide.
obehr 3 years ago
Yes Liz, you said a very important thing...the torture a person is feeling will pass. The light can push back the darkness. Thanks, and huge hugs.
tommax26 3 years ago
Great video, Liz. I agree with you completely, and thought similarly right after the Supreme Court struck down the DC gun ban.
t0nyc0nde 3 years ago
i am certainly glad you are still here, Liz. please make more videos!
TJay9000 3 years ago
Oh Liz, I am such a Canadian sometimes... I hope that doesn't discount my appreciation of your thoughts regarding fire arms. I am so grateful for your beautiful youness. Thanks for being so wonderfully unsuccessful in some key 'life' choices.
Freshette 3 years ago