Depersonalization/Derealization/HPPD Marijuana

[devildude194712]

Hang in there bro, it's just life, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I've had this for almost 1 year, got it same way as yours and I'm doing good. Cheers for sharing.

[FreeMason34]

I´ve had DP and DR for one week now. Got it after smoking marijuana, I´m 33 and had never tried it, so I said to myself: ¨what the hell? I´m old enough to do it¨.

Now when I here all this ppl talking about DP after 3, 4 and 5 + years. I get scared out of my pants. Could I be stuck with this forever?

Someone pls tell me what I could do, if anything. Regards.

[opti95]

Dude, when i was a child i would feel like life was just a dream, i couldn't comprehend reality, my parents just thought i was really deep, but now i have not had it happen in years. Also i smoke marijuana daily and still the disorder hasn't come back. I understand how you feel man, lots of love, Alex.

[Buddikaman]

Thanks for sharing this video I feel the same as you do

[aglaze30]

Bro i feel the EXACT SAME WAY!!!!...

I get ridiculous visual snow...but not at night. I've had all the symptoms for a scary 2 years now.

Im a freshman in college and i can't let this take over me. I tried everything. I chill with my friends all the time and the distractions just aren't working.

[ThePunkbebe]

anyone that feels altered in anyway should try not smoking weed and see what happens. I feel like im not the guy I used to be. I was always laughing and cracking jokes and I was socially awkward because I was always saying the most funny random shit. now im in college and a few years later im still smoking and im socially awkward because I dont feel the same, i cant even laugh at my own jokes and can barely smile when I talk to people, for unknown reasons. weed can ruin lives.

[NaturalBornKillahs]

iz this grass iz this a table, your not retarded, thiz iz all bullshit, your just a goddamn retard

[tikitimeproductions]

this happened to me 11 months ago, i don't know if its depersonalization but something always feels a bit off. I feel bad for you bud, no one understands what I'm going through either but your clearly not alone, keep your head up!

[yuliya304]

oh gosh lol, lately I've been experiencing that "out of body experience" its so weird. I wonder if it ever goes away for people (like for me it pops up on and off.) You should make more videos.

[elcharrosays]

White people problems.

[almostcutmyhair101]

you know, its all about how you handle it.

[AutumnAngelx3]

I so relate to this....

However, you scared me a little when you said you couldn't be schizophrenic because 'faces on people dont change' ... that happened to me, but only once, when I was in a psych unit trying to get treatment (which did me no help)... it may have also been some side effect of the 10 million meds they had me on thank God, since it hasn't happened before or after that..

Anyhow, I'm sorry this happened to you too because it's terrible, but it's always nice to know people relate.

[frozenlime]

and become very intense. This drains the adrenal glands (releasing adrenaline), which make you become so fatigued.

[frozenlime]

felt it strongly in the solar plexus, and suddenly all the fog is gathering up like a ball and becoming extremely dense/tight in the stomach before it vanishes and I feel normal. While I'm high. Completely surreal and extremely fascinating :)

Also, did you have a panic attack? Like a strong surge of energy pulsing up your spine as well as having a hard time breathing? A panic attack is triggered by fight/flight (fear), and when your high your nerve system is sensitive so it kind of loops

[frozenlime]

I recently experienced with cannabis again and felt that weird heavy "fog" building up inside me and like a panic attack was building up. I noticed that this fog builds up when I'm high and afraid of losing control. For some reason I had this insight and reframed my thinking, and thought that I am in control of my world, and that everybody else are just mirrors, reflections. I instinctively thought "have I lost control or do I have to take it back?" and felt it strongly in the solar plexus, and

[frozenlime]

The world never felt the same afterwards, and I started to become paranoid and self-conscious like never before. I also had out of body experiences and unintended lucid dreams. But after a while I understood what had happened that night, and why I became paranoid and self-c. The weed made repressed emotions from childhood and aspects from childhood bubble up to the surface, and the paranoia stems from not integrating those aspects into your life, ergo, denying/or hiding them.

[frozenlime]

p1: I had some experiences that are similar to yours. It started when I smoked weed and felt a sting in my heart or solar plexus, and suddenly I got problems breathing, thought race, derealization, depersonalization, etc. Started getting hallucinations and shit from childhood and heard tunes playing in my head coming up. I had my first panic attack lasting for perhaps an hour, with after effects, and I was extremely fatigued for a long time afterwards.

[zakmeister1]

i feel your pain brother. i to have suffered from hppd for the last year and a half (specifically taking a mixture of bromo dragon fly and lsd) i know exactly bout the snow... it gets so annoying, but mine is more like tv static with white dots flying through. on any solid surface be a wall or the sky. it does sound like youve been through a lot man and i really do feel for you. i hope it clears up for you as it does for me man. peace

[almostcutmyhair101]

@zakmeister1 be careful

[fcukthebluepill]

@zakmeister1 whats up do you feel 100% back or will it always be there?

[zakmeister1]

@fcukthebluepill hey mate. and yeah i still suffer daily from hppd, and mild cases of depersonalization. probs directly related to me still smoking pot on a daily basis (which ive done for bout 6 years now). its got me through some hard times, including addictions to other drugs, so i have a deep respect and connection with the plant. my advice would be to stop all drug use if youre gettin any warning signs. that being said everyone knows/has their limits, so just go with your gut feeling

[nlo13]

Dude, I am going through the EXACT same thing. Been going on for 2 years now. It's really fucking scary. Best wishes.

[CannaToker1994]

That's fucked up dude! I have had marijuana induced panic attacks numerous times, but nothing like you described. I too am very self conscious and shy. I believe I may one day develope this, but I have been smoking for a couple years now and I have deloped a strong psychological dependency.

[thestrapman]

I think of all the people I have listened to on youtube, I am convinced that you are the most  in line of what I am experiencing. Whenever I watch another person describe their symptoms, I always have doubts that we are experiencing the same thing which makes me start thinking I have something worse. I have had it now for 14 months...weed trigger. Night is the worst for me. So would you say things are better now than a year ago?

[almostthere2368]

@thestrapman yes things are a lot better than a year ago.. but i don't know whats going on anymore.. i think i'm getting worse because a got really drunk a couple of weeks ago and its been going down hill from there. i will make a video this month so i'll explain everything in there

[mdio1234]

@almostthere2368 That could be due to a sertonin depletion, I believe I have hppd and I avoid heavy drinking as my brain chemistry is quite sensitive at this point.(moderate drinking seems to go ok though)

[parrevan]

@thestrapman

I had the same trigger as you a few years ago. The worst thing is not being able to explain it to anyone. It feels like no one will ever understand. Mine went away for about a year and a half and came back recently after me being an idiot and smoking weed again. I now am going through total shit and working on getting rid of it again. It takes time, a lot of time. I wish you the best.

[trankilow]

could you explain more about your out of body experience, it'd be very appreciated man...

i went through the same thing after smoking a laced joint... after a year, no medication, no therapy, not telling anyone i got over it with time... i went through hell.... i respect you actually being able to have everything else going on your life...

this won't kill and will only make you stronger, try to let go of what ever you fear.

[almostthere2368]

@trankilow out of body experience... its like when you look down at your body it looks/feels like its someone elses body.. like you don't feel in your head but right aside of it or above it. it gets really bad when i focus on my body especially my arms because you use them the most. you feel like your floating and thats when the disconnection comes along. severe confusion on who you are and what's going on around you. thats when i usually go outside and run my ass of bc running makes it go away

[almostthere2368]

@trankilow running makes it go away for some reason. but i'm gonna make another video next month once i get my laptop explaining the improvement i've made. and thanks bro for the question. good luck

[trankilow]

@almostthere2368 that sounds like depersonalization which I suffered too, an actual out of body experience is when you feel as though you quite literally jump out of your body and one can view oneself from another physical perspective... anyways, just clarifying... I'm glad to hear you've had improvements.

[KrikitBoi]

Like many people, I believe I got DP/DR from Marijuana use. I've only felt this way for under 3 months since my first panic attack, and to hear others say they've been suffering this for two, three, four years or more is extremely disheartening. I just wanna know how you guys have coped with it this whole time? 

[trekkian88]

lol what a bunch of pussies! It's all in your heads emos. Fucking new generation can't handle simple weed. It's called getting high and yes you will feel stupid and forget things. Fucking idiots.

[almostthere2368]

@trekkian88 how am I a fucking pussy you fucking piece of shit.. if it's all in my head why the fuck do i wake up with my vision distorted every fuckin day. I didn't even know I had depersonalization and i went to psychiatrist and she told me I had DP with the symptoms I told her. Or should I just take advice from a dumbass who probably never finished high school. Get a fucking life you dumbass bum

[trekkian88]

@almostthere2368 shut up fag... i messaged me twice and both times I didn't read shit.... fucking fagwad

[redcomet2010]

@almostthere2368 dont worry man, he is a hater pay him no mind.....you get haters when you make youtube vids its a part of the deal not everyone is going to understand what you are going through except the people that have gone through it or are going through it , forget that guy

[RayRox17]

@almostthere2368 Umm I smoke pot and I feel like what you describe, does that mean I have all the disorders you do? Just asking

[almostthere2368]

@RayRox17 well some people can get it chronically like me or one can get it mild... could take people days, months or even years to get rid of it. but everyones body's different so you may not get all the symptoms.

[xSCARxFACEx]

@trekkian88

You're cool....calling people pussies over the internet.....I bet you get laid a lot right????? Well just to throw in my two cents I've got this "Fake" disorder and mine isn't from weed. Mine's from a hell of a lot of other drugs I regret doing now.....get over yourself kid. You wouldn't call someone a pussy that couldn't eat peanut butter cause they're allergic to nuts would you???? Same deal just cause you can smoke down all the time doesn't mean everyone else can. Grow Up.

[fingers9898]

@trekkian88---its an actual disorder, often triggered from pot use, look in the DSM, maybe you can become a little less ignorant.

[stevewwe123]

i feel the same way bro =\ been feeling like this for 2months. but if you got better then im sure i will too(:



[dreamaboutchanging]

You'll make it. We'll all make it <3

[almostthere2368]

thanks guys for the support. lately i have been feeling a lot better. today it feels like i can go outside and take in the nice weather. My surroundings are seeming to look like a whole again (real again).. and let me tell you it's breathetaking, almost cried tonight because i felt happiness again LOL felt like me again. but then one day will come along and i would feel so depressed but at least i feel something. Its been a long journey but i know We will make our lifes worth wild afterthis

[eiji850]

u are not alone i think that this thing is happening to more and more people lately its seems i find a bunch of people on here and all young people i have yet to see someone over 30 on here with this it seems that it attacks those who dont know themselves or are depressed and anxoius as well . anxiety and panic have a lot to do with this too .

[eiji850]

im so sorry man i have this for a year now finally getting over it but its hard i also would get lightheaded like crazy all the time now its only when im super tired but it has gone a lot , im doing exersize and stop doing drugs cold turkey man . the mind is so complex it can take up to 2 years for your mind to recover .

[xocoach86]

Do not take resperidol - that is the worst medication you can take with HPPD -it makes it worse

[xocoach86]

you have hppd - you have a sensitive brain - it cant handle drugs - sorry. my daughter has it and was diagnosed by the only doctor in the world who studies this - henry abraham, you aren't dying, you arent psycho - but you may have to deal with this a long time. learn to live with it, try nit to think about it - stay busy and keep your mind iff it and maybe some day it will go away.

[CadreFighter]

I've had similar experiences with pot, especially the visuals. Visual snow is actually common in everyone, it's a firing of phosphenes, look up closed-eye hallucination, it's grainier in the dark. When my high kicks in, the visual snow slows down in a strobing manner, almost like a layer in front of my vision. I measure how high I am by how noticeable the phosphenes are. I've has derealization before, familiar locations felt so new and unfamiliar, "dreamlike". Pot can induce psychotic ideation.

[Ubluntu]

You are definitely not alone with this disorder. I understand what you are going through. I want to confirm you to you that I have smoked Marijuana before, and after I had a drug test which came back negative. At the time I had been smoking everyday. You will be ok man. Love <3

[THEAcronymking]

added u...

[THEAcronymking]

my family thinks im gay but im not.. i had a gf my senior year of hs for 2 months. got nothing out of it. she broke up with me... all i feel is fear. i have little. i have never spoken to anyone who has this disorder. i just found out 4 months ago what all this was....i feel like i dont control my body.....but i am getting somewhere with a cure.... please message back....i'd add you but i deleted my fb...

[THEAcronymking]

hey man.....im speechless....i got my dersonalization/derealization from my 3rd time smoking marijwana april 27th 2007.... yea ik coming up on year 4..... so much has gone on since then...extreme panic attacks nt being able to communicate. i can barely think straight...... im 18 now and i go to community college, can barely communicate with my friends, girls and my family. Everywhere i go i feel like im in danger.... i have never spoken to anyone who has this disorder.