Introduction to me: I have Asperger's Syndrome

[classic80svideos]

smart people have boring interests in my opinion. Actually 90 percent of the intelligent to genius people have some autism. SO don't go down on yourself. find you're own type who share the same interests. I think you are so intelligent you can't think simply .

[arizonabay15]

gregjockca also leaves messages in sites for stress anxiety,steroids,weight-loss,a­utism,American Idol,World Trade Centre,muscle-men videos,teeth whitening,abortion and the singers Sade, Billy Ray Cyrus, Michael Jackson and La Roux. Fucked in the head doesn't really cover this arsehole.

[SepherStar]

I see you and I have the same organization skills....we put everything exactly where it's supposed to go:-)

[gregjockca1001]

asperger's is bullshit. stop being a hypochrondriac, pansy.

[SepherStar]

@gregjockca1001 People with AS actually tend to be of high intelligence. It's one of the traits that distinguish it from high functioning autism.

[gregjockca1001]

hahaha, aspie retards are funny to laugh at. hopefully society will reduce them to minimum wage and they'll die off naturally. GIGGLES!

[davros1973]

Did you spell hypochondiac incorrectly deliberately as part of your bait?

You are obviously intelligent and I am flattered that you chose to test me ... but I've just got a lot going on at the moment and so must decline.

I applaud your thorough exercising of free speech. :)

Best wishes

Dave.

[gregjockca1001]

davros1973, hahaha, yeah whatever, bedwetter. ram your cunt into a papershredder.

[gregjockca1001]

@davros1973 "Did you spell hypochondiac incorrectly deliberately as part of your bait?"

ROFL! hey guys, i just caught me an aspie fish with some cheap tackle! hilarious and so easy! aspies are genetically programmed to be eaten in the wild. what useless cunts.

[SepherStar]

@gregjockca1001 Actually most people with Asperger's Syndrome are of average or above average IQ and typically fall into the "very superior" range on certain subjects.

In other words, most of them are smarter than you.

[petchharrison]

@gregjockca1001 plonker i could not think as slow as you if i was dead...jeff

[SirMoebbelsKerr]

Would you describe yourself as high-functioning?

[davros1973]

Yeah. Some people seem to resent the term as it infers they do not have difficulties integrating. If I were comfortable with you and talking about something I was knowledgeable on ... then you wouldn't think anything was "wrong" with me. I might raise my eyebrows too much, but on a good day (and when fully awake and engaged), in a quiet environment, I might come-across as intelligent, witty and even interesting. Sort of a personality equivalent of wearing one's "sunday best".

[davros1973]

... cont'd: my behaviour becomes more noticably autistic when I am "struggling". Either because of tiredness, depression/ocd etc. or because of being overwhelmed by the enviroment or social anxiety - particularly group situations. In these videos I did ... I was being unstructured - and I have other things going on in life that meant I wasn't at my "best". Apart from a mild speech impediment, I am perfectly capable of coherent, articulated and organised speech - if g'd mntal hlth + benign env

[Aspergianstar2009]

God thats a large dalek in the back

[angryangelhouse]

You would be the one to notice the dalek, wouldn't you, Aspergianstar2009. Actually, I have noticed quite a lot of Aspie Dr. Who fans, myself included! What is it about Dr. Who that fascinates us so?

[Happyautism]

Hello :)

Thank you for the lovely comment on my page!

How are you finding the comunity on you tube?

[mikehart16]

wtf are you talking about!?

[Ashenicky2009]

hey dave! :) seeing this video helped me alittle bit more :D you had a self diagnosis before you had a real one? sounds more like me.. I posted alot of videos if you want to check them out, 2 of them are about aspergers, the rest are just off the top of my mind... see yuh later dave :)

[davros1973]

I don't know if I'm just rationalising an excuse for not working (planning/scripting) ... but I wanted to reveal myself naturally etc. ... I thought that might be intrinsically useful to some in itself, rather than verbalised information content etc. When I have important content I want to relay more clearly, then I guess I'll plan/script it out a bit.

[isaacdealey]

I do then have to go back and fine-tune the script by removing stray statements or passages that aren't directly related to the points I wanted to make before I record the video, because I know I tend to ramble.

[isaacdealey]

I found actually that it was difficult for me to make sure that I got everything I wanted in the video when I just recorded it spontaneously, because I got sidetracked and ran over on time. So I've started writing out a script to keep me on track when I record videos, which seems to be working reasonably well for me.

[davros1973]

I've thought about this too much ... and now I don't really know. I think I'll stop thinking about it and have lunch and a nice cup of tea instead. :)

[davros1973]

I've thought about the original question: meltdowns vs shutdown. I think I do a little bit of both actually - but very limited eitherway. I internalise. If I can't escape ... I might have a limited meltdown. When I can escape, I shutdown. As part of coping, I might partially-shutdown (a rest state), if necessary. When alone, I guess I stim to help cope. And exercise used to be my biggest method of coping. It's complicated!

[davros1973]

Sorry - I also have a problem with "too much information and too much detail" etc. I just feel compelled to add also, that what I fear more than pain etc. is emotional conflict or emotional states of anger etc. I think I do "pick up" these emotional states and that they make me feel ill. Whether they are in others or generated internally. These things I find the most difficult to cope with and avoid. Any strong emotion is difficult for me ... including "love" - which led to my 1st depress'n

[davros1973]

... the perpretator's face (as I perceived it) ... asking them to stop it. I accidently cut the guy's face ... only a tiny shallow scratch .... but I got beat-up over that and some kind of warning thing at school - I'm not sure what happened really - I think it might have been treated as 6-of-one and half-a-dozen of the other, as it is said. I never really used to feel or fear pain - what I feared was damaging my clothes and letting down my parents!

[davros1973]

I have had moments ... mostly more recently in my life - post-first-depression ... where I'm more likely to shout/argue ... I even pushed my dad once as I couldn't stand his loud voice: made him spill his wine. When I was ... 15 I think, I think I had a bit of sun-stroke (I'm a bit light+heat sensitive I think too) and I responded to some kids throwing cans at my back by retrieving one that had got stuck between my bag and my back, ripping it open (I was very strong) - and waving it at ...

[davros1973]

While in this communciation mode, I can still "function" at some level, even when I cannot think or act clearly. It's just like acting a part. I might get so tired as to desparately ask people to leave me alone I guess. I have to escape to shutdown I guess ... with a relaxing vacuum-cleaner/hair-dryer sound + a hint of trance music and the whisper of my computer fans. In a small space. That's peace. :)

[davros1973]

I think at primary school, I had little awareness of what was going on around me and learned not to attempt socialising. I didn't experience loneliness properly until puberty etc. During secondary school I adopted a "mad-scientist" persona which helped to buffer me from the world. Even now, when engaging with people, I go into this "mode" that belies my inner state.

[davros1973]

'shutdowns' ... I think so. I say I think so as it's hard for me to relate to states of being that are not my current state. I think I practiced advoidance techniques to avoid too stressful situations. Also, as a teenager, I exercised (for fun) excessively which I think helped to balance me. I learned self-hypnosis techniques by aged 18, and had a lot of self-control over my body then. I didn't get major problems until my depression - starting 1996 I think.

[nothingunusual]

I'm not sure I've ever had a meltdown in my life. Even as a child. Then again I'm female, though I'm sure alot of girls and women with AS have them too.

When you internalize the stress over time without any way to rid yourself of it, do you ever experience 'shutdowns' and an inability to function as opposed to meltdowns? Just curious. :)