Losing My Virginity

[kbinco]

As usual, we only hear the woman's side, and then it gets sensationalized. And naturally, everyone flocks to her to support her. Most people just don't do random acts like that, without a reason.

Let's hear the guys side for a change!!

[blakespower]

stupidest movie I ever watched, I didn't even bother with the real dialogue and only watched it with the commentary to see what is behind the twisted mind of the director.

[snouter]

Tara, please redo the audio. It has been muted. Damnit!

[juneride]

THANK YOU for this encouraging message!!! I'm only 50. If a 55 YO fat and bold guy could get that chick, I think I should try too. Recession is coming, I have a recession-proof job and a nice apartment. Young women will be struggling, and I can use it.

[BRAK54]

hahahaahahahahahahah

[KNWQA]

the whole point of being sexy is so men are attracted to you and can have sex thats life

[Bl0odVomit]

STUPID DUMB WHORE

[kidmassive18]

....THIS IS STUPID

[pokemondiamondzac]

why is everyone being a total cock

[ant1slam]

this is highly conceptual and for a movie called Crush Google Nathalie Dickinson

[Odbarc]

You should find the same guy and give him anal.

[ineedsomepoison]

I don't find this hard to belive...

[EimaiOtiGamao]

sorry to hear that.

[stfu76]

wow so fckin fake

[wcpur3pker]

well dont worry u look ugly already u probably made da move on da fat guy or its whole loada lies..

[12345alireza]

Hey you little bitch you wouldn't kill your self ever, you know what others do after the first sex they are giving up their pussy to every on it's better you to go and work in a motel

and give the costumers a good service looool

[clevis9155]

well i guess you'll either have to get tons of psychotherapy or live with pain your whole life

[putesputes]

Err, I find this story hard to believe, a couple of questions:

1)Why didn't you walk out?

2)Were you tied up?

3)If you were tied did you file rape charges?

4)Is the guy I jail now?

I still don't think this is true and maybe you should be indicted for falsely painting 55 year old balding counselors as sleazy rapists.

Guest what, maybe you shouldn't be walking around the park in short skirts showing your knickers or this will most likely happen again. But next time it won't be a twisted fantasy.

[fiteme987]

nice legs!

[Pilaf2]

Did he cum inside of her?

[blackomen69]

uhh.... problems are bad, but keep ur head up.

^^ nobody will love u like u do or should, that's all there is to it.

and ppl that don't care, take time to say nothing...

[BandxOfxBrothers]

Uhm, you are pretty ignorant. She Acts.

[blackomen69]

uhhh... it's called sarcasm, and it's still good.

[BandxOfxBrothers]

Uhm, no thats not sarcasm. And Even if it was, its difficult to make out sarcasm on the computer because theres no emotion to the typed words.

[blackomen69]

jesus christ, ur such a nagg...

and i don't fucking care, i like this vid.. that's all i'm saying.

[BandxOfxBrothers]

I never said I dont like this video. I think it's a good video too. You should learn to say Geez, instead of jesus christ. Just to respect others religion. And I am a nag, then dont reply. geez.

[blackomen69]

....ok?

[JoeAuriun]

am I supposed to believe these videos? if they're real my bad but they dont eeem real to me .. its more like a movie .. a very very sad one and I feel like crying :/

[sallyandtina]

I have friends who i've known since i was 4 and i haven't even told them its b/s ur an attention whore who gets the attention by putting urself down and sharing tragic details of ur life w/e and btw wtf is up w/ da random cartwheels?

[RAYisRAY]

Seriously she has nothing to be ashamed of people nor does anyone who was a victim of such and act. It's has nothing to do with her and everything to do with the perp.

[sallyandtina]

this all seems really fake to me i've had 2 experiences w/ being molested and even though they were about 10 years ago to this day i cannot talk about it w/o crying ur face had absolutely no emotion it felt like it was read from a script if ur not lying ur still an attention whore becuz no one goes parading around and shring such a personal experience

[MrThaddeusZ]

Are you serious? If someone is interested in making you a model, they dont make you sleep with them. The fact that you FUCKED a 55 year old fat man is all your fault. Dont blame others. Its not like he raped you.

[iabhornc]

lame

[DimexoneR]

is she a pornstar now?

[SheekFro51]

your an actor

[johnny2cold]

fat, balding sleazy she slept with tom leykis in other words

[letspk]

your so pretty hehe ---- ashley

[DubinKarypto]

Well I thought this was a shoe commercial...boy was i wrong!

[jackolannerhead]

got a chub from your story

[smileyman455]

LOL!

[BigTunaAirlines]

it takes two to tango. you could have kept your legs closed. stop blaming guys for everything.

[antoniogaud]

This chick is NUTS!!!!!!

[sonicflyingmachine]

Amazing video. Sorry about what happened.

[bitchdontpissmeoff]

1 thing u should know all men r dogs blieve me

[SuperCGpro]

That's how aversion conditioning works. He was wrong. don't take it out on yourself. You are beautiful. Don't let anyone take away the beauty of spirit either.

[joemon2007]

i lost innocence only a few weeks ago but look, u r beautiful :)

[bnatty2390]

It's interesting to see people's reaction to this video. Some claim they don't care and others claim they do. Either way you obsivally had an impact on both points of view to get this many comments. On a different note know you know what it means to be brave. Sometimes you have to face great adversity to accomplish anything for yourself. Stay strong and beautiful or ugly if thats your niche in this world.

[Tyra257]

You're a beautiful girl. You know what? Shit happens. It happened to me too, but you gotta forgive that person, and move on with your life. Be positive.

You seem like you'd be really interesting to have a conversation with.

Reply if you'd like to talk. :)

xo hun.

[lilmizzee07]

this has to be the most fucking depressing shit ive ever seen in my life..........i was actually watching someting funny be4 this and now im all sad...............but fo real though life goes on.......and stab your old teacher lol

[sunray06]

Emotional disasters rarely come in a package as sweet looking as this..the shame of it all is this could be anyones story any girls..PROSECUTE the teacher and gain closure move on

[unsapo]

damm, she's hot

[CyrusGuitar]

girls whining about this shit is hilarious. if you weren't just insecure golddiggers maybe you would end up with someone decent who actually respects you.

[rdiggity1]

Come to AZ and sticking your leg over the Grand Canyon

[hyroglyphx]

How many videos do you have?!?!? Sister, are you starved for attention or something? Get over the megolomania, m'kay...?

[quake92]

who the fuck cares?

[6209828]

this is a bullshit drama queen trying to get money out of people-look at her other videos!somebody call the prosecutors office!

[cum2roll]

Fuck a prosecutor. I am the goddam police, the prosecutor, judge and jury. This bitch is a sicktwist. Let's check out where this shit is coming from. I don't like anyone using a condition that screwed my life up for years, being mocked. So, Quake, I care. I've got money that this slit is a prostitute.

[ERICK7K]

yea yea... so you choose to sleep with someone instead of working for a model spot uhhhh... dont cry over spilled milk :)

[clayLavl]

Tara..nice to see you commenting. I'm glad to finally see you around.

[marlowman]

I never know what to make of your posts, but I'm glad to see you're back. Your stories interest me, and - not to be creepy - your beauty has me watching again with the sound off. Ignore the skeptics and detractors, and love yourself...

[ProductPlacer]

I have a Cure for you.

[willardwest4]

hahahahahahaha. u shoulda got raped by a younger dude. it wouldn't have been as traumatic...

[MYSTICCHIPS]

The playground is a nice metaphor for an ostensibly lost childhood; the bridge straddle a cry for competent therapy, and the continuing lack of even a simple musical artist's credit title at the tail of your film is a sign of haughty arrogance, perhaps intellectually as sleazy as the balding, 55 yr. old overweight pedophile that continues to haunt you.

Tara, for God's sake, your work is good... don't be a shit pig! Give credit where it's due!

[puppetmasterin]

Why are all acteurs so extroverted???

[velofellowmbe]

You should take up romantic fiction writing

[ChukBxr]

Love the boots! That bridge at Mkgbrd makes even the most experienced cycle riders wince with fear of heights.

[JRfromVA]

I don't believe a word you say any more, since a prior youtube clip proved you're a professional actress, having appeared in an episode of the Fox TV series "Prison Break", though the clip has since been removed by 20th century fox for copyright reasons. why don't you try and explain that.

[betterphysique]

She has been acting since day one. Don't believe any of this tripe. It's all BS.

[kaveac]

yep..I actually thought maybe Natalie was going to be honest here. Silly me. So much for the everything explained notion.

[buffbiker71]

Fuck you ,Tara! Fuck you for making me fall in love with You!!

[Taraiscrushed]

it's so weird how the only people you fall in love with EVER are the people you can't ever have.

[halofighterhq]

@Taraiscrushed why is that?

[X9Intelectual]

@Taraiscrushed hey, I lost my virginity in less than 1 minute, and that's the only time I ever that it. Does one minute count?

[cali1296]

You're a decent actress. Why haven't you addressed on here that you're acting? You respond to some of the positive comments you receive, but ignore the "are you acting?" ones.

[javadave2]

I guess Natalie isn't planning on being forthcoming in this channel. ;-)

[puppetmasterin]

LOL, so her real name is Natalie?

[Taraiscrushed]

Which natalie?

[OAPestOutWest]

Thank you for sharing your life here Tara. I love your vids...you show that theres no shame in revealing the bad parts of childhood and life.

[RayBosh]

I c y tara is crushed. feel beter it ok

to have hard time with men. go to wimmen until

you ready to jump back over.

[Taraiscrushed]

do yo ryme.

i done my time.

i earn my deed.

yo f my steed.

[Taraiscrushed]

thank you. my fault is conspiracy.

[lambeausouth]

Hard to believe that an attractive women like yourself Tara needs to worry about attention from men; if that's the case.

[Taraiscrushed]

men only give attention to what they can tap. we all know that! men don't ever really want a girl they can love.

[aegir5]

Sadly, you hava a very warped view of men. Trouble these days is that some women don't want love just access to money and will use their sex to get it.

[LOSAT]

You can tell she's a slut. It's the body language and the eyes. They never lie.

[blindingsunshine]

whoa. that's pretty harsh. my take is a little different: she has gotten screwed by more than one man and those experiences have altered her perception on what makes her valuable... i haven't checked out your page yet (i will) but i assume you are a male. likely one with little life experience. either way--give a girl a break. don't pass judgement until you have walked in somebody's shoes, my friend.

[millerlalala]

you can tell you're an ass. it's the ignorance and judgmental shittiness. They never lie.

[gstarr1266]

You look hot in those outfits

[Taraiscrushed]

thank you!!

[Chaingang99]

that is my all time favorite song by the Cure...great choice Tara....JUMP!!!!!!!!!!

[absinth84]

this "I got raped and now I dress like a whore"-stereotype doesn't work for me. but location and camera angles are very cool.

[blindingsunshine]

actually, that "stereotype" is pretty common and pretty real. not cool that you say it "doesn't work for" you... it is kinda weird if you have never experienced it or don't know anything about it but the norm is usually just that - - a girl is raped (or something comparable)and she starts using that sexuality that fucked her in the first place... just wanted you to reconsider passing such quick judgement.

[clayLavl]

Are you a filmmaker?

[theonlywoj]

so is this stuff ... real? it's hard to take the information seriously because they come off like "productions". but I've always thought that with your vids. whether you were "real" or if this was always an act. I'm still not sure. between the "tara is a ho" and Taraisstrong ...who knows.

[aegir5]

Hard to believe you anymore Tara. Bringing a camera to school is a long way from sex. Seems like all the tramas in your life that you have shared with us has to do with men and sex. True?

[Taraiscrushed]

Guess i have a target on my head huh?

[aegir5]

No target Tara but you sure seem to be looking for attention from men which seems to get you into trouble. Are you looking for a dad?

[aegir5]

If you stabbed a guy for putting his hand in your pants, what did you do to this guy? I assume you turned him in and he lost his job? If not why not?

[Taraiscrushed]

In this case it wAs different. I felt i did something wrong.

[aegir5]

Hope you're not suggesting that you seduced the guy to get whatever it was that you wanted...

[Wizjkahna]

So I guess the obvious question is...how long did it take before you started to feel like you wanted to become attractive to the opposite sex again? What was the catalyst for that?

[tech4156]

halicyon, i quite agree. even at 01:16 you show an upsirt shot?? I don't know whwre the hell you comin from.

[charos1971]

sugar dont panik you are sobeautyful the future is on the way

you have the most beautyful eyes in the world

keep going .

[tetsuorocks]

That type of thing happens alot even today. I always read in the newspaper of the lastest teacher/student scandal. I also know a friend who claimed she was treated the same way by a teacher who apparenlty now harasses her and some of her female colleauges over the internet.

[Taraiscrushed]

wasn't even a teacher for me. just a friend., was supposed to watch out for me and chose to molest me :(

[Majpain007]

Sorry to hear that.

What a scum bag. Who takes advantage of a girl?

[IdleOz]

Have you seen the news lately? it happens all the time. Its horrible, but sadly its nothing that surprises me anymore.

[Majpain007]

Yeah I know it happens all the time. The sad thing is nothing is being done about it.

[Taraiscrushed]

you know, the first time a guy touched me was against my will. i asked him to stop, and he kept on. that's what guys do.

[aegir5]

Not all guys Tara...

[Majpain007]

not all guys.

There are nice guys in the world. Sadly I hear we finish last :(

[kellovesorangesoda]

loosing vriginity is a.k.a defloration, where the hymen is punctured, for first time it bleeds, hmmmmmmmmm

[Taraiscrushed]

i don't think it's for me. i am taking a vow of chastity.

[halicon74]

would'nt you think if you were "raped" you would not were such revealing clothing? just a thought

[Taraiscrushed]

are u justifying rape?

[boneznet01]

For one, learn to spell.. And secondly, if someone is raped that doesn't mean they are going to wear baggy jeans and a parka for the rest of their lives. C'mon.

[Taraiscrushed]

right, boneznet01. i think i have been raped. and i am not wearing baggy jeans and a parka.

[Tucknrollgrampa]

Seems like this is a character yet not. She seems very sincere in her eyes and tone and realistic, but the camera shots and color quality is pretty good.

She pretty and interesting you wonder why she doesn't hang out with many people (so it seems) but a lot of emotional wreckage to keep people distance and unsure that it's convincing how she seems to be lonely.

I love "The Cure" btw! Thanks for playing it in the video. :)

[Taraiscrushed]

i am not really that pretty if you see me in person. i seem to have some kind of weird talent for lighting myself. i am really not pretty. don't think that i am.

[clayLavl]

Tara, I have the same issue..I look great on camera but off-screen I'm just some regular looking guy.

[aegir5]

If you have that talent why not go into modeling?

[autotyme]

Yes !!! you are Tara

I really enjoy your videos

[autotyme]

WOW

[Spike81d]

Tara, is this another plot twist from your production team...anyway, happy thanksgiving!

[eldonboxer]

youre always beautiful.

[Taraiscrushed]

you think so? which is my most beautiful video to you???

[afletch]

very good video

[Taraiscrushed]

thank you. why do you like it so much? :)

[Taraiscrushed]

really easy actually. Just use the rail posts as a point of reference. :) thanks for the complement though.

[Wizjkahna]

This video has convinced me that someone else is behind the camera. The tight shots of you on the bridge are too good and far away for you to have done it by yourself.

I remember seeing a shadow of someone turning off the camera in one of your videos with Elana (the end of the GirlsTalk Pt2 video where you two are sitting beneath that SafePlace sign).

[mlrosier30068]

Tara if you didn't want to be physically attractive to guys, you're failing lol!

[Taraiscrushed]

thanks

[nanquan491]

You mean he RAPED you?!?!?

[Taraiscrushed]

I think that is fair to say.

[nanquan491]

jeez what a piece of crap! You know that lowlifes like that make real men really angry! So, I'm sorry to hear that... if it's true. Sorry but after your last parody video I don't really know what to make of this channel and if all this is just your act or not...

But one thing is for sure, you are gorgeous :)

[Taraiscrushed]

thank you. i wish i had a boyfriend to keep me safe.

[aegir5]

Perhaps if you could accept love and closeness you would have a boyfriend

[bmd66]

I didn't realize that this is a story, and not necessarily completely true until after reading the above comments, but in any case, I'm sorry to hear about this experience. Unfortunately, it happens to far too many people. If it still troubles you today, speak with someone professional, it's worth your time.

[hlmtjr33]

Your crazy but, I love it! I love you and your story. If your stringing us along, you've done an excellent job! Your videos are incredible. I still see your pain in your beautiful eyes. Your life story explain everything. You can be saved! You have stole my heart!!!!

[Taraiscrushed]

thanks!

[gaudeo]

has anyone figured out what this actresses real name is? or what she's been in before?

[Taraiscrushed]

tara?

[snouter]

This upskirt series rocks.

[Taraiscrushed]

behave!

[LouRyder]

Tara, is it you who's framing these shots, because they're absolutely beautiful! I love it!

[Taraiscrushed]

thanks!

[MuZicKrAZy]

wow.. I hope there are more parts to this everything explained story it makes me realise that its not only me that has had the worst life ever!

[Taraiscrushed]

More lots more...

[lloydhywel]

There is a gravity, undefined in everything you do Tara. And as with gravity, the pull of your story is relentless in its power. Told with with an eloquence which defines its description.

[Taraiscrushed]

wow!

[lambeausouth]

First and foremost Tara your definitely an attractive women. We all have our ups an downs and to expect otherwise is unrealistic!

[Taraiscrushed]

thanks!