My Kundalini Experience: Part 1 of 3 / Bipolar Disorder Spiritual

[AndeKatWhaaat]

This happened to me 6 months ago when my doggie passed away and a few other things. I'm still dealing with it today. Sometimes I'm afraid, just being outside or talking to someone.

[Jonzen77]

Well congratz what you described in the video is like THE recepy for activating kundalini. Any meditation over 1 hour repeated espessially repeated over several days. It all depends on how deep you get , one ussually hears the OOHM sound from the planet/universe right before it happens. Anyway your lucky as you dont seem to have any emotional/ego blocks , or you would feel kundalini pains. It will be a long time before you can meditate again without making it a kundalini meditation.

[svariar]

hi sean.....i recommend that you try this practice.....agnihotra....just youtube it.....i would recommend that you experiment with this practice and strictly follow it according to the instructions.....u need to have the exact materials for this and a timetable of the exact time of sunrise and sunset.

[ultimategamer78]

would you attribute the loss of your inner monologue as a form of "ego kill"? Did it come back? if you achieved ego-kill during your kundalini experience, did you ever regain some of your old senses of "self"?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@ultimategamer78 I think meditation like this pulls you back from an ego orientation. I've had ego death experiences before and they actually feel like you are dying or that your life, as you thought it would be is over and there is no hope. Once you accept that very painful truth, a 'layer' of ego is killed, as you say, and you open up to a wider reality, wider possibilities and a higher energy level. But I think there will always be levels of ego to work through (I think).

[ultimategamer78]

@bipolarorwakingup ah, i guess what i was trying to ask was whether or not your kundalini experience permanently killed your ego.. The reason I ask is because my experience seems to mimic the one you went through (symptom-wise), my inner voice left 3 months ago, along with a large chunk of my consciousness /personality. I'm starting to worry neither of those things will return to how they were before all of this. If you could shed some light on this, it would serve as great aid.. Thanks,

- Marv

[bipolarorwakingup]

@ultimategamer78 I suggest you watch all of my videos on consciousness, starting with video #9. They explain more than I can here. No, my ego was not permanently killed, and chances are neither is yours. You are just getting comfortable with the new psychic space you live in. You will never return to the way you were, but you have a great chance to move forward to a new you. The videos explain why.

[jmecrg]

@bipolarorwakingup yep ur rite ....or atleast i feel the same

[uneveNeven]

Very interesting story Sean...  a bit different from mine, but definitively fascinating.

Please check my own story on my channel. Neven

[FunnelOfFire]

Thank you for this video, its helped me understand what has been happeneing to me for along time. God bless

[maz1344]

They say he is a man with a full awakened Kundalini : watch?v=EA22431spOk&feature=re­lated what do u think ?

[Squeegee33]

Thanks for replying. I posted on another video asking if you've ever "unleashed" your power, by that i mean bring on a manic episode purposely by ways of not sleeping etc, and if so, is it detrimental?

by the way, love your vids. great stuff.

[Squeegee33]

This Kundalini experience sounds very much like the beginning of a manic episode, the way the birds just chirp and the feeling of the wind and all that, the heightened senses and feeling of love for everything etc.

I wouldn't be surprised if only people like us (people with bipolar) can achieve this kundalini experience.

since bipolar is only recognized in the western culture as a mental illness, these people who experiences kundalini could very well be bipolar and not know it,.

cool stuff.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@Squeegee33 It was very similar to my spiritual ´psychosis´of 13 years ago. I think that is this kundalini experience had happened to me 10 years ago, it probably would have lead to a psychosis. However, at this point in my development, my mind was better prepared, and I knew what was happening. It felt much more physical that mental. The other episode was much more mental in orientation.

[johnkinney10943]

Let your sexual fluid build up,it will travel up the spine after 11 days of not spilling semen.That is the secret of chakras.

[wojtek1425]

I know exactly what you are talking about, since I used these techniques for athletic performance ( extremely effective ).

Since I used to do it more intuitively , crossed legs were out of question , as it was creating obstacle

Forcing ourselves to do what other folks are very comfortable with is a major obstacle in achieving a goal.

In my case it took minutes , not days.Very powerful energy.

[ZeoDyce]

Have you spoke with aliens? (or "angels"/god if you're still into that)

[bipolarorwakingup]

@ZeoDyce Nope, but it sure felt like they were close...like right there. Angels, aliens, gods? who knows!

[madhurjibhai]

Could it be that your bipolar problem 'helped' you achieve all this in just a matter of days?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@madhurjibhai If you see my video on my ´bipolar´psychosis, you will see that at the time, I saw that as a spiritual awakening, without a doubt. Doctors were sure it was a psychosis. Now I see it as a successfuly processed psychosis. And you are correct, without a doubt, passing through that process a decade ago, made it much easier to pass through this kundalini experience.

[JDurden33]

@bipolarorwakingup many but still, game and not game i say to you: 333, 48, 92, 458, 11, 13,8 and 2 xxx

[bipolarorwakingup]

@madhurjibhai Part 2: If this had happened to me 15 years ago, for sure I would not have been able to handle it. I feel that, at 44, I was spiritually and intellectually prepared to accept this process and simply let it pass through me. For most others, I expect their fear would have blocked the process. I literally felt like a puppet of God.

Also, the engergies are still passing through me, a year later, but in more sublte forms, when I sleep, after meditation.

[emofreetech]

Very important information. Thank you for uploading!

[madhurjibhai]

I had awakening once when i was 16, i felt like an elemental force, like an ocean, i was even able to levitate a piece of paper, but that was the first and the last time

[HumbleHermit7]

the retreat sounds like there giving you guys thousands of years of spiritual practice in 10 days. really cool.

i need help with kundalini. im only 19 and im having spasms and small bouts of spinal tingling(like lightning)

[bipolarorwakingup]

Meditate! I have some videos on it. It will help you process that spinal tingling (unless you just have a back problem - it could be just nerves).

[1488bill]

I've never had bipolar symptoms but experienced some type of Kundalini while attempting vibrational Out of Body states.I started with controlled lucid dreaming,then projecting to the various planes and conscious visions during meditation.Reading the occult literature of the Theosophists,I was convinced of objective out of body states,i.e. non subjective, and practiced the techniques of Robert Monroe.OVERWHELMING. I still suffer from restless leg syndrome-excess tingling,non sublimated energy.

[Nacluw]

Now I know what people mean when they say "you dont know what love is" well I dont know what it is cuz i certainly didnt know it can come out of your chest cuz i think it needs another peroson or am i wrong? I could use some spiritual awakening as well but havent been lucky with that

[bipolarorwakingup]

Start meditating!

[saltycreefer]

This helped get me started. Up to you if you want to watch from part 1- watch?v=U0XFMxht8Uw

[PunchinTheMunchkin]

(cont'd)... Later on, after I got involved in Vajrayana with qualified lamas, I realized I was very glad I stopped when I did. They don't miss a beat when you ask them about different practices; they are quick to inform you what is dangerous and why it's dangerous and that you need qualified instruction. I don't want to get too into it for various reasons, but a qualified lama can really help you through this stuff in ways most people wouldn't even think possible.

All the best to your future!

[bipolarorwakingup]

I'd love to work with one of those guys. the leader at out retreat was a joke.

[AdamIAM2012]

I asked a lama once. It told me nothing and then spat near my foot. I had then reached enlightenment. This lama had four legs and a long neck. Laugh and the world laughs with you. Weep and you weep alone.

[PunchinTheMunchkin]

That's called a "llama" (with two l's).

[PunchinTheMunchkin]

It's a shame nobody told you, but this sort of thing is very common in Buddhist retreats and you CAN reach out and ask for help if you need it from one of the lamas or other leader! In fact, you're SUPPOSED to. You could have been helped right then and there. Mantras are a protection for the mind. It's so weird that I found this video right after I mentioned in your other vid that the bipolar experience is like a too-fast kundalini experience. Purification experiences are confusing w/o guidance!

[PunchinTheMunchkin]

You probably should have taken the teachers advice to meditate some more. The lama is like the doctor; if we ignore his advice, he can't help us. Sorry to hear about your experience, but happy that you've healed yourself and learned from the experience! It's very inspiring and I hope you help a lot of people with this series.

[bipolarorwakingup]

The retreat was outside of Rio, and while it was an established Goenka, Vipassana retreat, I was very dissappointed with the meditation leader. She was not a Lama. Perhaps a lama could have been more helpful. She was useless.

[PunchinTheMunchkin]

That sucks. There are a few good books on sudden Kundalini awakening. My Life With Kundalini is a good one, but I don't know if it will teach you much you already haven't experienced firsthand. In my experience, I was practicing Kundalini Yoga by MYSELF from BOOKS (bad!) and started to have these weird experiences which scared me into immediately stopping. I knew from research you weren't supposed to do it w/o teacher, but I was brave (until something happened!).

Later on, after (cont'd)...

[bipolarorwakingup]

I asked. Unfortunatley, at this retreat, the leaders knew nothing of this experience. I was only told to keep meditating, which was impossible for me. I could barely stand up for parts of it. I was also concerned that more meditation could lead me into psychosis. I trusted my intuition, which said to lay down and rest.

It was the right thing to do and my process completed itself without incident.

[aquilanah]

what I am trying to say is this: i know that the kundalini experience is real, yet I know nothing of it or who to turn to in order to continue exploring it. I have always been a dreamer so my family just thinks I am telling stories. they don't believe me, or they don't think it is important. it is hard to trust anyone else in these pursuits. do you have any advise on how or where I could continue exploring the psycho-physical changes that are "kundalini"?

[bipolarorwakingup]

That's a tough question. Even at the retreat I was on, they new nothing of what I was going through. To this day, I still have not seen a good book on the subject. If I were you, I'd keep my mouth shut with others, but meditated as often as possible to help the process pass through you. Mine is still going on in a milder form.

[aquilanah]

sir: I have had a similar experience,

I traveled in india and had an amazing experience,

it would take too long to tell the story.

however, on returning to the states I told the story to a friend

and a shock tickled up my leg. suddenly

I felt this feeling in the bottom of my spine- and my spine

started to spontaneously arch up to my neck. I could tell that the arch was unable to pass my neck, my fifth chakra. the arch stopped, and since then I have had terrible pain in my shoulder and neck.

[HeyWakeUpPeople]

Thank you so much, I love hearing people talk about there kundalini experiences. I hope someday I experience it.

[sivko23]

sean i totally loved this story , it was like i was there. :)

[lauriem1967]

Hi I'm not bipolar but my mom was. thanks for your vids!

[bipolarorwakingup]

YOu're welcome!

[philthedice]

nice video series my friend.

i am wondering about your current situation. know that the love is always there and is still there waiting for you to live. the path of the heart is the most important one my friend, there we can be emptied of ourselves into the divine and truly be happy. all the best on your path and may you have the courage to revisit and embody the divine within you as a permenant state of being. love,phil

[bipolarorwakingup]

Well, the year has been a bit of a grind actually. I am still processing some of this kundalini activity. It shows up in random burning sensations in different body parts after I meditate. weird huh?

[4272Hero]

Fantastic. I've got a week off and I'm going to look at all your vids. I am a 41 yr old Police Officer. Thanks a lot :)

[bipolarorwakingup]

Amazing. And next time you get a call for someone acting `crazy` maybe you'll have a better idea of what's going on!

[4272Hero]

i am bipolar mate. ;)

[kchomer1]

and dont be stupid and just take them to a place that just shuves meds down the throats and nothing else.

[4272Hero]

you have much to learn youngster ;-)

[kchomer1]

i dont have al ot to learn. i know what they did to me there. a lot of meds and no theorpy. bipolar disorder ris a scam. i went through al of what you talk about in your vids i know the experience and i know what they do in the mental hospitals here.

[bipolarorwakingup]

I agree. Psych wards are usually a nightmare. Mine was. A necessary evil in a cold world? Perhaps. But we can change that.

[kchomer1]

im 30 i was diagnosed at age 26. i was diagnosed at an older age and i never had an episode in my life.

[oscarin124]

interesting! I hadn't heard about any of this before, I've just learned about something here.

[dinomagic]

Cool! Thanks for sharing. I do the Yogi Bhajan method of kundalini yoga, I didnt know you could experience this level of sensation. Where did this yoga place exist for? How do you feel now? Thanks -Dino

[xTommyGirlx]

wow, this is extreme irony. I just happened to look up kundalini yoga after reading about it on the internet.. it sounded similar to mania, so I looked up the relation with bipolar disorder on google.. and here was your video, posted yesterday xD

[bipolarorwakingup]

synchronicity.....! Another video!

[xTommyGirlx]

it happens to me all the time.. Usually I will hear a word or learn some information, then soon following that gain of knowledge I will be required to put it to use. It's come to the point where I can recognize what information I learn is going to be randomly recalled later, because it has a different feel or something. Nothing happens to me without purpose oo.. know what I mean?

[isforbliss]

THANK YOU

[zezt]

look foreward to 2.

I get that heart opening feeling when i feel great empathy for something. can be watching a film that clicks, or a person, some thought feeling. it is good feeling

Also had that big explosive type experience when i was lyin in bed....and was thinking about Kali and bodies all in pieces, and what it all means. Death. and i got this whoosh of an explosive chage up by body

[xTommyGirlx]

It was like what happened to me on Friday.. the person in front of me in class who had recently been broken up with.. I could feel his pain. It was devistating to me. I kept zoning out, I was extremely connected to his sorrow. It was completely connected. So I wrote him a letter.. and he said that it touched his heart and made him cry.. which was good, I think. Before, in class, he had sat, numbed. Anyways, sorry for ranting.

[ozjthomas]

Very interesting. I have a feeling we will be in agreement that many things called bipolar, schizophrenia are reactions, not some causeless disease. It's especially interesting what the meditation teacher told you, I've had this experience before, trouble in meditation and you really can't keep suppressing and controlling things like the bodys energy.