@abht01 no I didn't switch. I kept my same beliefs for a while while "trying out" different things. Funny thing, I found they were overwhelmingly the same and not at all what I needed.
That was brave of you to talk about your personal experiences. I don't mean to be insensitive, but, I was wondering about the person you said raped you. What happened to him? Was he ever charged for attacking you? Have you ever had contact with him again and did he apologized?
I definitely share your three goals - as an adolescent when my father would ask what I wanted to be I often answered 'happy'. I recently lost a baby and found myself teetering on the edge of depression. Each day has been difficult but I am finding strength and inspiration in my faith, friends, and surprising to me here on YouTube. Every day is a little better. This was a great video, thank you for sharing.
Have you ever witnessed a flower or plant growing and thriving in an odd place? Maybe you thought to yourself how extraordinary it was that it could somehow take deep root and prosper on rocky ground. Your story makes me think of such an extraordinary flower, one that somehow managed to prosper and grow even though it's roots had to bypass stones to anchor it's self. Thank for sharing your story!
Good morning! Thanx so much for sharing your secrets. And as the mom of a young teen, I'll be sure to pay attention to this issue. I think I've shared it b4, but in case I haven't, one of my greatest secrets was the shame and suffering I endured as a result of 5 years of infertility. Through faith and perserverance, I'm able to say that I am the biological mother of a beautiful 13 year old boy.
thank you so much for sharing this video. you're a very brave soul to have done that. and i believe because of it, someone's life will be saved. God bless you, Ria. much love.
Lovely video! I know it took alot of courage to share your story. Im glad that you have taken steps to overcome your past to step into your bright new future. Much success!
You are very brave to do a video on your secret(s). I am sure a lot of people watching can relate and you have touched so many with this one video. I don't do videos but I just had to comment and thank you for being so strong. Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to what happens to you. Don't be afraid to show the true you.
I liked the fact that you could share your secrets. I heard this statement once, I think it was Joyce Meyers; when you have a problem/pain/sorrow... 'don't go the phone, go the throne'. Let God lead your path, he is always with us, he will never leave us, because he knows us. May you countinue to grow in your journey in discovering what is right and good for you. I know and speak from my heart, God Will make it Right!
I was also raised as a Witness until age 12. I still hold many of their ways close to my heart, but count myself as an Evangelical Christian, currently. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope that your experiences help others to find ways to communicate with their children about their lives and their mental state.
1) Ria, this is not only in response to your video, but to the comments posted by girlabee, flygirl1975, tdgore1s, NappyNFree and GirlGoneNatural. As someone who began studying the Bible in 1966, went away to college and got baptized as a JW in 1971, married and raised a family and stopped attending meetings in 2008 there is much I would like to share with you; however, I do not believe that YT is the appropriate platform for that conversation. What i will say is:
2) there is a world of difference between Truth and religion. Truth is truth and is not governed by men... any men, but by what IS. As you will recall, when Moses asked God "who shall I say sent me" when he went back to the Israelites, God said tell them "I AM." Scripture tells us that GOD IS, that He IS SPIRIT, that HE IS TRUTH (for he cannot tell a lie).
3) So, our beef is not with GOD (whom we call Jehovah) our beef is with any man or men who presume to take his place, knowingly or not. This is what often happens to religious leaders be they Jehovah's Witness, Baptist, Methodist, Mormon, etc, etc, etc. They may know what GOD says; but they relay their own interpretations to those who follow them... this is where the problem lies. Unfortunately, when we are either young or naive we tend to listen exclusively to the "men" ...
4) We forget that they are NOT GOD! He has given us all a brain, a conscious and most importantly a heart. If we listen to the TRUTH which he shows us in all that is good, pure, kind, righteous, just and loving, He guides us to Him. (I use "He and Him" just to indicate power and authority as we know it). No one religious organization has a monopoly on God's Love. He Love All Mankind... So we have no right to judge another based on how he comes to know and love God.
5) Unfortunately most, if not all, religious organizations tend to "judge" others who do not teach or follow the same creeds as to they. Yet, man's creeds are flawed so none of them are perfect. I could go on, but chose not to at this time. I only want to say, do not speak negatively of anyone, for we are all flawed. Do not judge, less we want God to judge us. Just continue to seek to please the Creator in the way that TRUTH dictates... your 3 goals seem to have you right on track for You.
I was raised as a witness as well. My mother still makes e feel guilty that I do not believe as I once did. I'm now more interested in spirituality and just doing my best to be a good person. Awesome video. Attaining happiness is sometimes the hardest thing for me, but I will continue to try for it.
@girlabee My dad does the guilt trip thing too. But not as often as he used to. I think he gets that that life is just not for me. Have you ever considered just being happy? In other words, take whatever it is you think of happiness and rather than thinking it as something to get, something separate of you, just decide that you and it are one in the same? I know that sounds rather odd, but just a thought. :-)
@SumKindaWndrful yes! yay :) i actually have the same problem you had i think.. never really thought about me overachieving so much being a mask for my depression. Made sense after you said it.
Thank you for this. It brings my heart peace to know that there are others that share or have shared my daily struggles. What's even more amazing is how you smiled with every card held. Thanks, Rita.
therapy is good, but if you are considering antidepressant medication you should do thorough research and understand the risks. antidepressants have lead to suicide in adults and especially children
This video sparked some memories that I have buried also. Sometimes you think that you are the only one. You are so brave, and will help someone to feel validated.
This was such a powerful and inspiring video. I too was raised JW, I left as an adult. I totally understand the issues that can cause any kid to have. I'm still dealing with mine 16 years after leaving. Be strong. Know that u are an inspiration to so many who watch ur videos. Thank u for sharing this with us.
This is a powerful and touching video. Thank you for sharing. It took a lot of courage to put your secrets out their. It helps me more and more when I see videos like this and comments below. I find that I am not alone in these feelings I have and there is nothing to be ashamed of and I thank you for that xx
well i have always had a deep love for all women. i don't know why but every woman i meet gets the benefit of the doubt. I've only known beautiful women such as yourself and they have all had great personalities your story is moving and inspiring and you continue to be a very beautiful woman oh and please get a gun or a knife or something because the rape made me angry and i just want you to be safe in the future because you should know by know that there are some sick people out there love
THIS IS THE BEST SECRETS TAG I'VE READ! Honestly, its the only one i feel that urges me to make a difference in my actions and to help others do the same. This vid is proof that teens who have been in your situation can make it, and i thank God that you did! Continue to grow towards your goals and exceed your expectations <3 <3 <3 (i admire your strength)
wow Ria, i am sorry to hear that, all i can say is, stay positive, i can relate. not ready to do a secrets video yet, but you are not alone in your secrets. Once you hit rock bottom, there is only one way, it is up. lots of love xxx
I rarely post comments on videos but this one tugged on my heart. You are an inspiration to share your story to the world and stressing the importance of getting help. I know first hand what it's like to hit a low point, suffer from depression, and reach out for help. It was the best thing I could for myself so I hope this video inspires other to seek help. There's nothing to be ashamed or afraid of. Thank you for this video. :,-)
It takes the courage and strength of a warrior to share such intimate secrets. Your courage will help so many. You are greatly admired and appreciated.
This was beautiful, deep and incredibly inspiring. I think everyone has secrets and sharing them with others is brave yet empowering at the same time.
You definitely accomplished one of your goals by posting this because I am inspired. I am so amazed at the strength it took to post this and I will be praying for your happiness and contentment as you continue living life the best way you know how : )
This is really beautiful you inspired me to do one. Im not sure yet tho. But in time i will share my secrets. I have instagram and im gonna go look for ur username so i can follow u.
WOW ur so brave 2 do this..my experiences are very similar and I also suffer from severe depression but no 1 would ever know because like u I feel like I have 2 be strong at all times...I admire u for doing this video.
Thanks for sharing this. I too feel the same about depression, that I should be strong, and also that it shows lack of faith in God, so when given meds, although I felt better physically I stopped taking them and got sick again, so I am trying them again, because depression is something I have but it is not ME!!
Thank you for sharing your story I to suffer from depression, keeping negativity @ negative people at bay helps! wow you endured a lot of pain in those 3 yrs. I am glad college was better. Continue to heal @ be blessed!
WOW! ITS A LOADED VIDEO AND NOT A WORD WAS SAID STRANGE THATS HOW LIFE WORKS SOMETIMES. FORGIVE ME FOR TYPING IN CAPITALS...BUT IT WAS DEEP THE VIDEO THANK YOU FOR SHARING.
Ria, thank you for sharing!! I know from experience how hard it can be to tell others what you've experienced. I'm sorry to hear that you've gone through all of that during your adolescent years but happy to know that you've found some positive outlets!! I pray God continues to Bless you beyond measures!!! Blessings-Deanna
Thank you for sharing & reiterating the importance of getting help. To you & the previous posters, parents don't always want to face the possibility that their child(ren) are depressed (not just sad, huge difference) because they believe they've failed. When I finally revealed my depression to my parents in 2007, instead of first offering comfort & support my mom responded with 'I did the best I could for you'. I knew then that I would not have their support. You are truly 'SumKindaWndrful'!
Reaching ur teen yrs things r @ the most fragile time n someones life. I grew up wo a dad 2show me how a woman should b treated r how a man is n life w a mother that never even showed me how 2b a woman n around 14r15 I lost my uncle who was like a long distanced dad as well as a guy that my mom dated that I felt like he was my stepdad. I dont know if Im suffering 4rm depression r symptoms of but I do know that I want 2c a therapist when im able to afford it n mayb inspire my fam to do the same
I never really comment on vids, but I thought I would, in hopes that I may inspire you. I was raised as a Jehovah's Witness. I left the truth around junior high through my college years. While away, I felt lost and def not apart of the "world". If you have had any association of JWs, you'll now what I'm saying. There is nothing else out there. After years, I started studying again, and got baptized in 2010. The journey was well worth it. I hope you find happiness and love.
It takes a lot of courage to admit your secrets.... and iam so honored and proud to know that you trust me as in one of the us in your youtube fam with your secrets...and I pray that God will strengthen you and take away your depression ....may God bless you and remember God and I Love you just the way you are unconditionally ....faults and all.....muahhhhhhhhhh
I grew up Pentecostal and was often ridiculed for how my family believed... I always identified with the JW kids bc I knew that they could not control the religion that their family had chosen... I always felt bad when they had to leave the room for different activities (i.e. pledge, Christmas activities)
I really love how transparent you just were. It uplifted me to see someone be upfront and say "hey, I have problems just like everyone else" Thank you for posting this.... Be blessed.
This was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing a big part of you life with us here on yt. I truly needed to see this at this moment in my life. It has put a smile on my face because it's so true when you are at your lowest all you can do is go up. Once again thank you. May you continue to be blessed by God and my he continue to bless you and your family.
SumkindaWndrful, it's funny...with the exception of making videos, I do all of the stuff on your list when I am down, especially the standup comedy! LOL. It definitely helps. My latest is Kevin Hart: Laugh at My Pain. Maybe I should send my mom a gift bag full of standup. I never thought to do that...thank you!
Very nice of you to share! I sometimes wonder why it's so difficult for us (all people) to show our humanity. When I see expressions like this....I realize that it's what makes us uniquely beautiful. Managing our weakness is what makes us stronger not hiding them.....
Thank you so much for sharing. It's very courageous of you. I've been feeling extra down over the past few months and it's things like this that give me hope.
I am back to watch again. I was telling my husband that I never would have guessed that you struggle with depression. My mother suffers from severe depression. I used to wish that it would just go away, but now I just wish that she could find something (other than a pill) that inspires her (even if just a little bit) to move forward. It's a struggle, but I always feel better when I see people who find healthy ways to cope with the condition. Your strength is inspiring.
@20feettall71 Thank you :-) I think that is another reason why I wanted to share because outsider's perceptions have gotten rather overwhelming those they are mostly positive. I hope all the best for your mother. I do not take any medication but use other means to deal. My goal is to eradicate it, but I am just not there yet. I exercise, eat healthy, make videos, write, watch stand up comedy if I am especially down, play with my kid and I refuse to watch bad news on TV or have negative influence
Something I was ashamed of: I did very well in high school, but when I got to college my first two semesters were GREAT...the remainder of my college career did not go as planned...grades wise. That I blame on me because I did not study as much as I should/could have. I was not the partying type at all. I lost focus. Some how God kept me from going INSANE. I owe it all to Him. I graduated from college and now I am waiting to hear from my future employer.... It gets better..just do not give up.
@NappyNFree I am always so curious to find out about other people who were JW. I assume you aren't anymore. I wonder if it affected them the way it did me? It was not a pleasant experience in the end.
@SumKindaWndrful I was raised a JW, too so I can only imagine what it was like to be raped with the views about premarital sex and to keep that as a secret frort over with new family and friends, but I rather do that tham your parents. Were you baptized? My husband and I left the religion when we were in our early 20s (after marriage) and so it was very difficult at first but I rather start over than not be able to think for myself.
@GirlGoneNatural I was never baptized. Oddly (though thankfully) my parents discouraged from doing so when I wanted to at age 10. Most of the kids I grew up with in the hall have been disfellowshipped and left. I did have to sit down with elders when I was 16 to "explain myself" and despite begging for sympathy and help, they publicly made an announcement about me no longer being a publisher. They waited almost 2 years after me not being there to corner when I came to hear my brothers talk SMH
(1) Well, I will reveal some "secrets" that I don't share with a lot of people. My dad is a JW and my mom isn't,so I was raised with one foot in and one foot out. I stopped going to the meetings when I left home for college. However, I have always felt it was the "truth" and speaking to people of other religions about their beliefs never - for ME - jivved with the bible said. I did start studying again in 2001 and was baptized shortly after. Then I reconnected with an ...
(2) old boyfriend and we were married in 2007. He is not a JW and I married before anything "bad" happened. :-) I have not been to a kingdom hall since. I do feel guilty, but love my husbands lots. I don't tell people I am (or was) a JW because I don't want to do or say anything will reflect negatively on Jehovah and prejudice people against learning about the bible.
I understand that many people had unpleasant experiences. I watched my dad go through some stuff and...
(3) it did make me extremely bitter for a long, long time. However, I came to learn that people are imperfect and you have people within the organization who don't always make the best decisions or do the best things for people. That is hard to understand when you are a child and it took me almost 15 years to realize that.
I have Depressive Disorder & my parents didn't even tell me, I had to find out at SCHOOL by my Case Manager or whatever. I still don't even know how to deal w it or what to take etc. I know that I will be HAPPIER if I move out, get out of this small town & live w Open Minded ppl. But I'm stuck where I am now until I get out of college.
The topic of the video, depression/suicide is so sad, but necessary to expose. Especially amongst us black people. I have had suicidal thought for years. I'm 25. I still have the thoughts b/c I have yet to attain my academic goals and the parents are not on my side. This video is very powerful and I sincerely thank you!!
@ade52286 Often, I think, the pressure to succeed can exasperate depression. It gets hard with parents because sometimes they are unwilling to acknowledge issues in their kids. I hope that I have helped in some way and good luck and thank you for always watching my videos!!! I appreciate you :-)
Thank you for sharing so much about yourself. It has been a helpful video. I too suffered and still suffer from depression but I'm too scared to discuss it.
@amyy164 If you are afraid to talk to someone you know, find a therapist to talk to instead. Regardless your situation, they are available everywhere and even some do sliding scale for people who can afford it.
We all have things we go through and things that happen to us that create our story. Some of those things are so bad and terrible they make us feel alone and ailenated because we think no one "normal" could possibly have experienced our pain, our trauma. Thank you for sharing your story to remind us we all have things to go through but we can overcome it to be better people. You are definitely loved, definitely an inspiration, and definitely blessed.
Thank you for sharing!! Now I'm Inspired :)
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amazing story Ria. very inspiring! did you switch to another religion at 14?
abht01 1 month ago
@abht01 no I didn't switch. I kept my same beliefs for a while while "trying out" different things. Funny thing, I found they were overwhelmingly the same and not at all what I needed.
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
That was brave of you to talk about your personal experiences. I don't mean to be insensitive, but, I was wondering about the person you said raped you. What happened to him? Was he ever charged for attacking you? Have you ever had contact with him again and did he apologized?
GradyBaby13 1 month ago
@GradyBaby13 he wasn't charged because I never reported it. I spent the rest of high school with him but I have no intent of contacting him ever.
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
I definitely share your three goals - as an adolescent when my father would ask what I wanted to be I often answered 'happy'. I recently lost a baby and found myself teetering on the edge of depression. Each day has been difficult but I am finding strength and inspiration in my faith, friends, and surprising to me here on YouTube. Every day is a little better. This was a great video, thank you for sharing.
pookinapp16 1 month ago
Sharing your story shows your inner strength:)
wakingupnatural 1 month ago
wow that's beautiful
leciberlanga 1 month ago
wow that's beautiful
leciberlanga 1 month ago
Have you ever witnessed a flower or plant growing and thriving in an odd place? Maybe you thought to yourself how extraordinary it was that it could somehow take deep root and prosper on rocky ground. Your story makes me think of such an extraordinary flower, one that somehow managed to prosper and grow even though it's roots had to bypass stones to anchor it's self. Thank for sharing your story!
NaturalBornIdentity 1 month ago 3
U're right, in sharing our secrets, we assure others that they are not alone. Thanx again and please keep doing what you're doing!
maximuslyricus 1 month ago
Good morning! Thanx so much for sharing your secrets. And as the mom of a young teen, I'll be sure to pay attention to this issue. I think I've shared it b4, but in case I haven't, one of my greatest secrets was the shame and suffering I endured as a result of 5 years of infertility. Through faith and perserverance, I'm able to say that I am the biological mother of a beautiful 13 year old boy.
maximuslyricus 1 month ago
that was deep, thank you for sharing YOUR story!
MyNaturalHue 1 month ago
What a GREAT VIDEO. how inspiring. I totally LOVE the life goals.
bounette0523 1 month ago
Oh dear girl... I had a similar experience with a boy in high school.
He pushed me into the boys bathroom and went for it.
I always felt that I could have and should have fought harder.
But I never considered how sick he must have been...or how lucky I am that things didn't go beyond the place that they did...until seeing this.
I thank you.
crispybluu 1 month ago
Breathtaking!! Thanks for sharing your story. This will help others. Many blessing, love and peace..
lasheavibez 1 month ago
Thank you...truly. Many blessings....
fatima520 1 month ago
Thanks for sharing your story. Your life will inspire others. :)
JayBlount23 1 month ago
Awsome!!
hls909 1 month ago
You are very brave to share this, I'm speechless because our stories are sooooo alike OMG! Stay strong sis.
glamourdoll37 1 month ago
thank you so much for sharing this video. you're a very brave soul to have done that. and i believe because of it, someone's life will be saved. God bless you, Ria. much love.
ahnatural2011 1 month ago
Wow..Awesome video! Thank you :)
Fatima0504 1 month ago
thank you for this. I made a vid response to it, bc I feel like there are things I need to get off my chest, in order to help others.
TheNaturalistaFiles 1 month ago
This was profound! Thank you for sharing:)
softeelocs007 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing
inqui36 1 month ago
Lovely video! I know it took alot of courage to share your story. Im glad that you have taken steps to overcome your past to step into your bright new future. Much success!
missthis897 1 month ago
God Bless You!
FitBusia 1 month ago
Beautiful video ♥
enikki223 1 month ago
You are very brave to do a video on your secret(s). I am sure a lot of people watching can relate and you have touched so many with this one video. I don't do videos but I just had to comment and thank you for being so strong. Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to what happens to you. Don't be afraid to show the true you.
jusBcuz01 1 month ago
I liked the fact that you could share your secrets. I heard this statement once, I think it was Joyce Meyers; when you have a problem/pain/sorrow... 'don't go the phone, go the throne'. Let God lead your path, he is always with us, he will never leave us, because he knows us. May you countinue to grow in your journey in discovering what is right and good for you. I know and speak from my heart, God Will make it Right!
pinkymuffy100 1 month ago
I was also raised as a Witness until age 12. I still hold many of their ways close to my heart, but count myself as an Evangelical Christian, currently. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope that your experiences help others to find ways to communicate with their children about their lives and their mental state.
NoelleNaturally 1 month ago
Wow great vid
AmeeraHill 1 month ago
1) Ria, this is not only in response to your video, but to the comments posted by girlabee, flygirl1975, tdgore1s, NappyNFree and GirlGoneNatural. As someone who began studying the Bible in 1966, went away to college and got baptized as a JW in 1971, married and raised a family and stopped attending meetings in 2008 there is much I would like to share with you; however, I do not believe that YT is the appropriate platform for that conversation. What i will say is:
Larjo15 1 month ago
2) there is a world of difference between Truth and religion. Truth is truth and is not governed by men... any men, but by what IS. As you will recall, when Moses asked God "who shall I say sent me" when he went back to the Israelites, God said tell them "I AM." Scripture tells us that GOD IS, that He IS SPIRIT, that HE IS TRUTH (for he cannot tell a lie).
Larjo15 1 month ago
3) So, our beef is not with GOD (whom we call Jehovah) our beef is with any man or men who presume to take his place, knowingly or not. This is what often happens to religious leaders be they Jehovah's Witness, Baptist, Methodist, Mormon, etc, etc, etc. They may know what GOD says; but they relay their own interpretations to those who follow them... this is where the problem lies. Unfortunately, when we are either young or naive we tend to listen exclusively to the "men" ...
Larjo15 1 month ago
4) We forget that they are NOT GOD! He has given us all a brain, a conscious and most importantly a heart. If we listen to the TRUTH which he shows us in all that is good, pure, kind, righteous, just and loving, He guides us to Him. (I use "He and Him" just to indicate power and authority as we know it). No one religious organization has a monopoly on God's Love. He Love All Mankind... So we have no right to judge another based on how he comes to know and love God.
Larjo15 1 month ago
5) Unfortunately most, if not all, religious organizations tend to "judge" others who do not teach or follow the same creeds as to they. Yet, man's creeds are flawed so none of them are perfect. I could go on, but chose not to at this time. I only want to say, do not speak negatively of anyone, for we are all flawed. Do not judge, less we want God to judge us. Just continue to seek to please the Creator in the way that TRUTH dictates... your 3 goals seem to have you right on track for You.
Larjo15 1 month ago
Continued...your honesty is truly amazing. I wish you all the best.
Kamiele1908 1 month ago
As a Social Worker, I find your bravery commendable. Your honesty isntr
Kamiele1908 1 month ago
Wow, I love your honesty. Your story (secrets) are all so powerful. Thank you for sharing. You have inspired me; maybe one day I'll share mine.
zoenicole2000 1 month ago
WHAT A WONDERFUL VIDEO. I HAD TO SHARE ON MY FACEBOOK.
faqu529 1 month ago
Wow great video hopefully one day I'll do one
LaReinaMcMeanie 1 month ago
Well,just know that in my eyes you've reached those 3 goals.
You've inspired me....when I'm more empowered I'll share "My Secrets".
You.....Are.....Loved.....Hearts&HUGS
Hope that makes you as happy as you make me.
I'm making no secret of it....I think.....You really are AllKindsOfWonderful!!!!!!!!!
prowoman 1 month ago
@prowoman Awww :-) Thanks lady! ((HUGS))
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
I was raised as a witness as well. My mother still makes e feel guilty that I do not believe as I once did. I'm now more interested in spirituality and just doing my best to be a good person. Awesome video. Attaining happiness is sometimes the hardest thing for me, but I will continue to try for it.
girlabee 1 month ago
@girlabee My dad does the guilt trip thing too. But not as often as he used to. I think he gets that that life is just not for me. Have you ever considered just being happy? In other words, take whatever it is you think of happiness and rather than thinking it as something to get, something separate of you, just decide that you and it are one in the same? I know that sounds rather odd, but just a thought. :-)
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
I really like your video btw.
breekwhal 1 month ago
what's the song?
breekwhal 1 month ago 2
@breekwhal Thank you. The song is "Universal Reprise" by 4Hero
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
@SumKindaWndrful yes! yay :) i actually have the same problem you had i think.. never really thought about me overachieving so much being a mask for my depression. Made sense after you said it.
breekwhal 1 month ago
Beautiful!!!
BxBornRetro 1 month ago
waw..that was beautiful..greetings from a J-W in germany..
amandine78054 1 month ago
@amandine78054 Thank you. My parents became witnesses when we lived in Berlin in the early eighties. Small world :-)
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
Beautiful...I am inspired to do my own.
butterflyzhaven 1 month ago
Thank you Thank you Thank you for sharing your secret. I was inspired and encouraged!
UTubeMisty 1 month ago
wow touchn story!
goldilocksvscherri 1 month ago
Powerful! Thank you for sharing your story to help others. Bless you.
TheChanaImani 1 month ago
Don't you think about the Hereafter? My 3 goals in this life would be :
Be on the straight path of Allah and gain the max of good deeds.
Live an honoring life, where I am Happy and I make the ones around me happy.
Be healthy all my life, inshaAllah.
Those statistics of depression are due to the lack of Iman, all what people worry about is this stupid cheep life and it's illusions.
But Allah created us for a purpose, and when one live without the purpose he was created for, he is lost.
ampholyte1 1 month ago
Very inspiring. Peace and Blessings.
GoldenBlonde69 1 month ago
I think you're very brave for exposing yourself in this way and I respect your honesty and strength.
mannypedib 1 month ago
Your honesty and openess is truly inspiring - thank you
shalymecca 1 month ago
Thanks for being brave and vulnerable! :) This was excellent!
JinakiSweetness 1 month ago
POWERFUL message sis. Thank you <3
NoNAPStightCOILS 1 month ago
I loved this video and cried because it sounded so much like my story....thank u for this beautiful video....
Got2bedestiny 1 month ago
Thank you so much for sharing.
MissNaturalMystery 1 month ago
Thank you for this. It brings my heart peace to know that there are others that share or have shared my daily struggles. What's even more amazing is how you smiled with every card held. Thanks, Rita.
With much Love,
-Sug
BrownSuga2882 1 month ago
Exactly!! Well said. Thank you for sharing!
bigwdy27 1 month ago
Absolutely beautiful and powerful!
MsKelabug 1 month ago
Thanks for sharing!
bossgal3 1 month ago
powerful.great video
MsKPJ 1 month ago
You are truly inspiring!:)
chachilopez999 1 month ago
Love you.
beyondeeobvious 1 month ago
therapy is good, but if you are considering antidepressant medication you should do thorough research and understand the risks. antidepressants have lead to suicide in adults and especially children
naturalnaturelover70 1 month ago
peace to you my Sister. we have to listen to our children.
1958DeeDot 1 month ago
Thank you.
ashlenymarshall 1 month ago
I love 4Hero! Thanks for sharing
gcsugirl 1 month ago
I do knowingly embrace you sis; now and always. God bless you and thank you for sharing....
curlybliss 1 month ago
This video sparked some memories that I have buried also. Sometimes you think that you are the only one. You are so brave, and will help someone to feel validated.
melsue40 1 month ago
You went through a lot for a 14 year old, oh my
seygra20 1 month ago
This was such a powerful and inspiring video. I too was raised JW, I left as an adult. I totally understand the issues that can cause any kid to have. I'm still dealing with mine 16 years after leaving. Be strong. Know that u are an inspiration to so many who watch ur videos. Thank u for sharing this with us.
flyygirl1975 1 month ago
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU !!!!
yattamook 1 month ago
we shared a lot of similar secrets, this video touched me great;y/ thanks for doing this video
JaedaBarbie 1 month ago
Girl I had to come back and look at this again....POWERFUL!
TrayTrayBaby 1 month ago
This is a powerful and touching video. Thank you for sharing. It took a lot of courage to put your secrets out their. It helps me more and more when I see videos like this and comments below. I find that I am not alone in these feelings I have and there is nothing to be ashamed of and I thank you for that xx
QueenChezabelle 1 month ago
please keep the image that i have of you safe and alive by being safe and live long ria i got love for you
andreduffy1 1 month ago
well i have always had a deep love for all women. i don't know why but every woman i meet gets the benefit of the doubt. I've only known beautiful women such as yourself and they have all had great personalities your story is moving and inspiring and you continue to be a very beautiful woman oh and please get a gun or a knife or something because the rape made me angry and i just want you to be safe in the future because you should know by know that there are some sick people out there love
andreduffy1 1 month ago
This had me in tears.... Its true. Thank you.
Splendifphorus 1 month ago
Thank you.
NikkiiDior 1 month ago
You are SOOOOOOOO BRAVE & BEAUTIFUL!!!!! You are not alone and we ARE kindred spirits...This made you my friend...Cyber Friends :)
mzbonitap 1 month ago
THIS IS THE BEST SECRETS TAG I'VE READ! Honestly, its the only one i feel that urges me to make a difference in my actions and to help others do the same. This vid is proof that teens who have been in your situation can make it, and i thank God that you did! Continue to grow towards your goals and exceed your expectations <3 <3 <3 (i admire your strength)
xXcHUCKIIEtAYZXx 1 month ago
wow Ria, i am sorry to hear that, all i can say is, stay positive, i can relate. not ready to do a secrets video yet, but you are not alone in your secrets. Once you hit rock bottom, there is only one way, it is up. lots of love xxx
louloumatou 1 month ago
very inspiring and brave.
ThickNCurly1 1 month ago
I rarely post comments on videos but this one tugged on my heart. You are an inspiration to share your story to the world and stressing the importance of getting help. I know first hand what it's like to hit a low point, suffer from depression, and reach out for help. It was the best thing I could for myself so I hope this video inspires other to seek help. There's nothing to be ashamed or afraid of. Thank you for this video. :,-)
angel8princess5 1 month ago
Very inspiring. Thanks for sharing. God bless!
kristenjdec 1 month ago
God Bless You!!!!!
margo33 1 month ago
So many emotions while watching Your Heartfelt, Truthful Video, I identified with Everything You said...
ConnectedToMeNow 1 month ago
That was beautiful. You are so brave & inspiring.
shortysgs03 1 month ago
It takes the courage and strength of a warrior to share such intimate secrets. Your courage will help so many. You are greatly admired and appreciated.
Peace and blessings to you...
gneesee 1 month ago
This was beautiful, deep and incredibly inspiring. I think everyone has secrets and sharing them with others is brave yet empowering at the same time.
DejaVu807 1 month ago
Wow...thanks for sharing
sandrarenee0908 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing.
LyfeGozOn 1 month ago
definitely heartfelt!!! like...a butterfly in the stomach kinda heartfelt moment...oh so inspired!!! this video is pure inspiration indeed...
RoyalTee242 1 month ago
You definitely accomplished one of your goals by posting this because I am inspired. I am so amazed at the strength it took to post this and I will be praying for your happiness and contentment as you continue living life the best way you know how : )
bholmes87 1 month ago
This is really beautiful you inspired me to do one. Im not sure yet tho. But in time i will share my secrets. I have instagram and im gonna go look for ur username so i can follow u.
AyEEniCKii 1 month ago
@AyEEniCKii follow me on twitter @sumkindawndrful I have instagram posts linked in my tweets THANKS!!!
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
You are amazing, and thanks for sharing this. It means a lot. Just watching teaches me yet again how important it is not to judge people
thedivinehostess 1 month ago
You are so beautiful and strong.
Your subscriber, Ria W :)
ohyeahmon21593 1 month ago
(whisper) amen
MITZZB 1 month ago
Wow you are so brave to share your story,stay strong girl!
MissDundada93 1 month ago
This was really good
caisme 1 month ago
WOW ur so brave 2 do this..my experiences are very similar and I also suffer from severe depression but no 1 would ever know because like u I feel like I have 2 be strong at all times...I admire u for doing this video.
one2keepitrl 1 month ago
Thanks for sharing this. I too feel the same about depression, that I should be strong, and also that it shows lack of faith in God, so when given meds, although I felt better physically I stopped taking them and got sick again, so I am trying them again, because depression is something I have but it is not ME!!
conichka6 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing your story I to suffer from depression, keeping negativity @ negative people at bay helps! wow you endured a lot of pain in those 3 yrs. I am glad college was better. Continue to heal @ be blessed!
mezier50 1 month ago
Powerful.
joyhill1 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing. A very beautiful person.
UmmAmirAbdullah 1 month ago
WOW! ITS A LOADED VIDEO AND NOT A WORD WAS SAID STRANGE THATS HOW LIFE WORKS SOMETIMES. FORGIVE ME FOR TYPING IN CAPITALS...BUT IT WAS DEEP THE VIDEO THANK YOU FOR SHARING.
p4173 1 month ago
Love you for this.. Ur an inspiration. My new friend in my head, thanks for sharing..
prettyrican34 1 month ago
MAN....God has a calling on your life.
MeanGenene 1 month ago
Ria, thank you for sharing!! I know from experience how hard it can be to tell others what you've experienced. I'm sorry to hear that you've gone through all of that during your adolescent years but happy to know that you've found some positive outlets!! I pray God continues to Bless you beyond measures!!! Blessings-Deanna
NaturallyCreole 1 month ago
This was truly beautiful. Thank you for sharing your secrets to the world. Very courageous to do so!
BargainPrincess 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing & reiterating the importance of getting help. To you & the previous posters, parents don't always want to face the possibility that their child(ren) are depressed (not just sad, huge difference) because they believe they've failed. When I finally revealed my depression to my parents in 2007, instead of first offering comfort & support my mom responded with 'I did the best I could for you'. I knew then that I would not have their support. You are truly 'SumKindaWndrful'!
Lovingthenaturalme 1 month ago
Reaching ur teen yrs things r @ the most fragile time n someones life. I grew up wo a dad 2show me how a woman should b treated r how a man is n life w a mother that never even showed me how 2b a woman n around 14r15 I lost my uncle who was like a long distanced dad as well as a guy that my mom dated that I felt like he was my stepdad. I dont know if Im suffering 4rm depression r symptoms of but I do know that I want 2c a therapist when im able to afford it n mayb inspire my fam to do the same
NeedISayMore5683 1 month ago
Also Just curious ...what are your thoughts on religion and God since you were brought up a Jehovah's witness????? And what is your religion? ???
TheGoldenRose25 1 month ago
I never really comment on vids, but I thought I would, in hopes that I may inspire you. I was raised as a Jehovah's Witness. I left the truth around junior high through my college years. While away, I felt lost and def not apart of the "world". If you have had any association of JWs, you'll now what I'm saying. There is nothing else out there. After years, I started studying again, and got baptized in 2010. The journey was well worth it. I hope you find happiness and love.
tdgore1s 1 month ago
It takes a lot of courage to admit your secrets.... and iam so honored and proud to know that you trust me as in one of the us in your youtube fam with your secrets...and I pray that God will strengthen you and take away your depression ....may God bless you and remember God and I Love you just the way you are unconditionally ....faults and all.....muahhhhhhhhhh
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TheGoldenRose25 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing! I also suffer from depression and it brings comfort when I see others speak about out. You have inspired me!
MzDee23z 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing. Your experiences and the resulting strength are encouraging and inspiring.
mgillespie12 1 month ago
This is sooo nice..Tks for sharing.
Neosoulbooty 1 month ago
I grew up Pentecostal and was often ridiculed for how my family believed... I always identified with the JW kids bc I knew that they could not control the religion that their family had chosen... I always felt bad when they had to leave the room for different activities (i.e. pledge, Christmas activities)
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swtcarmel1 1 month ago
I really love how transparent you just were. It uplifted me to see someone be upfront and say "hey, I have problems just like everyone else" Thank you for posting this.... Be blessed.
MsMle2009 1 month ago
This was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing a big part of you life with us here on yt. I truly needed to see this at this moment in my life. It has put a smile on my face because it's so true when you are at your lowest all you can do is go up. Once again thank you. May you continue to be blessed by God and my he continue to bless you and your family.
OnicaTaylor 1 month ago
SumkindaWndrful, it's funny...with the exception of making videos, I do all of the stuff on your list when I am down, especially the standup comedy! LOL. It definitely helps. My latest is Kevin Hart: Laugh at My Pain. Maybe I should send my mom a gift bag full of standup. I never thought to do that...thank you!
20feettall71 1 month ago
This was awesome... And really deep. A blessing to someone it was... Blessings, blessings, blessings to you...
PneumaB 1 month ago
Very nice of you to share! I sometimes wonder why it's so difficult for us (all people) to show our humanity. When I see expressions like this....I realize that it's what makes us uniquely beautiful. Managing our weakness is what makes us stronger not hiding them.....
remilace 1 month ago 2
Thank you so much for sharing. It's very courageous of you. I've been feeling extra down over the past few months and it's things like this that give me hope.
AVAbiola827 1 month ago
More power to you for sharing such a potentially damaging personal story.
starrey55 1 month ago
Thank you for your courage.... I too was sexually and physically abused most of my early childhood.
boldgolddreads 1 month ago
Thanks for sharing and inspiring as you evolve... beautiful.
SimpleeCha84 1 month ago
I am back to watch again. I was telling my husband that I never would have guessed that you struggle with depression. My mother suffers from severe depression. I used to wish that it would just go away, but now I just wish that she could find something (other than a pill) that inspires her (even if just a little bit) to move forward. It's a struggle, but I always feel better when I see people who find healthy ways to cope with the condition. Your strength is inspiring.
20feettall71 1 month ago
@20feettall71 Thank you :-) I think that is another reason why I wanted to share because outsider's perceptions have gotten rather overwhelming those they are mostly positive. I hope all the best for your mother. I do not take any medication but use other means to deal. My goal is to eradicate it, but I am just not there yet. I exercise, eat healthy, make videos, write, watch stand up comedy if I am especially down, play with my kid and I refuse to watch bad news on TV or have negative influence
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
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TheBrittbritt14 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing this. It was amazing. I too was sexually abused and never told. This was a very important video.
mpenny226 1 month ago
well...what if i could possibly help u with ur depression (at least a little)..?
SurreallTV 1 month ago
@SurreallTV Thanks for the offer, but I am fortunate to have a reliable family network and other support :-)
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing this video. I pray that it continues to get better for you, dear. You are an inspiration.
drroberson4 1 month ago
Something I was ashamed of: I did very well in high school, but when I got to college my first two semesters were GREAT...the remainder of my college career did not go as planned...grades wise. That I blame on me because I did not study as much as I should/could have. I was not the partying type at all. I lost focus. Some how God kept me from going INSANE. I owe it all to Him. I graduated from college and now I am waiting to hear from my future employer.... It gets better..just do not give up.
drroberson4 1 month ago
Wow. I am amazed at how many events occurred when you were 14. It is a wonder you coped so well. I was raised as a JW, too.
Wonderful insightful video.
NappyNFree 1 month ago
@NappyNFree I am always so curious to find out about other people who were JW. I assume you aren't anymore. I wonder if it affected them the way it did me? It was not a pleasant experience in the end.
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
@SumKindaWndrful I was raised a JW, too so I can only imagine what it was like to be raped with the views about premarital sex and to keep that as a secret frort over with new family and friends, but I rather do that tham your parents. Were you baptized? My husband and I left the religion when we were in our early 20s (after marriage) and so it was very difficult at first but I rather start over than not be able to think for myself.
GirlGoneNatural 1 month ago
@GirlGoneNatural I was never baptized. Oddly (though thankfully) my parents discouraged from doing so when I wanted to at age 10. Most of the kids I grew up with in the hall have been disfellowshipped and left. I did have to sit down with elders when I was 16 to "explain myself" and despite begging for sympathy and help, they publicly made an announcement about me no longer being a publisher. They waited almost 2 years after me not being there to corner when I came to hear my brothers talk SMH
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(1) Well, I will reveal some "secrets" that I don't share with a lot of people. My dad is a JW and my mom isn't,so I was raised with one foot in and one foot out. I stopped going to the meetings when I left home for college. However, I have always felt it was the "truth" and speaking to people of other religions about their beliefs never - for ME - jivved with the bible said. I did start studying again in 2001 and was baptized shortly after. Then I reconnected with an ...
NappyNFree 1 month ago
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(2) old boyfriend and we were married in 2007. He is not a JW and I married before anything "bad" happened. :-) I have not been to a kingdom hall since. I do feel guilty, but love my husbands lots. I don't tell people I am (or was) a JW because I don't want to do or say anything will reflect negatively on Jehovah and prejudice people against learning about the bible.
I understand that many people had unpleasant experiences. I watched my dad go through some stuff and...
NappyNFree 1 month ago
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(3) it did make me extremely bitter for a long, long time. However, I came to learn that people are imperfect and you have people within the organization who don't always make the best decisions or do the best things for people. That is hard to understand when you are a child and it took me almost 15 years to realize that.
NappyNFree 1 month ago
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NappyNFree 1 month ago
Well you have inspired me
blossoming12 1 month ago
This blessed me! Thank u for sharing and may GOD continue to bless yo abundantly
WannaBeCurlie2 1 month ago
WOW.....Powerful!! Thanks for sharing and informing!!!
aynot321 1 month ago
Keep doing your thing and may God continue to bless you abundantly.
11zeaky 1 month ago
you are so beautiful for sharing this.....thank you :-) ( i wish i was as brave as you)
21bahamas 1 month ago
I admire you so much for making this video. Thanks!
20feettall71 1 month ago
I have Depressive Disorder & my parents didn't even tell me, I had to find out at SCHOOL by my Case Manager or whatever. I still don't even know how to deal w it or what to take etc. I know that I will be HAPPIER if I move out, get out of this small town & live w Open Minded ppl. But I'm stuck where I am now until I get out of college.
virgo138 1 month ago
The topic of the video, depression/suicide is so sad, but necessary to expose. Especially amongst us black people. I have had suicidal thought for years. I'm 25. I still have the thoughts b/c I have yet to attain my academic goals and the parents are not on my side. This video is very powerful and I sincerely thank you!!
ade52286 1 month ago
@ade52286 Often, I think, the pressure to succeed can exasperate depression. It gets hard with parents because sometimes they are unwilling to acknowledge issues in their kids. I hope that I have helped in some way and good luck and thank you for always watching my videos!!! I appreciate you :-)
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
thanks for sharing!
Kinkycurlycoil 1 month ago
thank you for sharing ria...ur an inspiration
07blessing 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing so much about yourself. It has been a helpful video. I too suffered and still suffer from depression but I'm too scared to discuss it.
amyy164 1 month ago
@amyy164 If you are afraid to talk to someone you know, find a therapist to talk to instead. Regardless your situation, they are available everywhere and even some do sliding scale for people who can afford it.
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
The best video on youtube ever!! I wish I could create a video to respond...
MissToi0 1 month ago
@MissToi0 Thank you!
SumKindaWndrful 1 month ago
I commend you for this! You are strong, and don't think otherwise! Peace Love and Happiness !
God Bless beautiful!
SheaCocoNautral 1 month ago
We all have things we go through and things that happen to us that create our story. Some of those things are so bad and terrible they make us feel alone and ailenated because we think no one "normal" could possibly have experienced our pain, our trauma. Thank you for sharing your story to remind us we all have things to go through but we can overcome it to be better people. You are definitely loved, definitely an inspiration, and definitely blessed.
cdever09 1 month ago