Bulimia - The story of a girl lost in her own mind

[MsClarinetful]

i dont purge often, but i was scared once that i needed help. its one of the most scary things being that out of control.

[TheBrootalbreakdown]

This describes one of my friends that I'm really is worried about, I need as much advice about this and how to help her, because nothing anyone tries to do will get through te to her, and I'm scared one day it's going to be to late..

[TheLegolines]

Fuck society. Girls, u are ALL pretty the way u are!!

[Pwnagemasterdude]

I am ashamed to live the current society. A society that judges what is pretty and what is not by so many variables that in the end mean nothing. So what if a girl is fat? That girls has the best personality ever made. So what if that girl is goth? She's very artistic. So what if that boy is gay. At least he's happy. Society has created a world where people need to shape themselves to be what is perceived as good. This is wrong, and hurts so many people. I am ashamed, and wish we could go back.

[blackcat88able]

I can't believe it i found a video dead on, on how i feel... it is a constant battle everyday i am so sick of it but i can't stop it i want to i just can't.. everytime i go through an episode i say this is my last one but i know it's not i just wish it was.. it is just so hard but it is nice to know i am not the only one.. i wish everyone out there with an ed good luck stay strong c:

[annieefknanatomyy]

@recko323 Im Bulimic. If you want to help your girlfriend, surround her with your love. Dont try to change her. Keep her busy. Tell her how much she means to you, treat her like your world. If you know shes doing it. Tell somebody. Its the only way she can get help. I know its hard, but darling, you have to help her. Its dangerous, and scary. She needs help. Ill be the first to admit that. Just love her.<3

[xxaliciajeanxx]

eating disorders suck. period

[Genesisapple5]

Wow this really touched me, i can relate to this cuz ive been bulimic for many years now :/

[Bulimia97]

My name is Nora (14) and i think i have bulimia.. I dont binge too mutch, but i purge every day. I have been doing this in about one month now.. I also use laxetives,but not more than 2pills a week or so..do i need help?

[recko323]

my girlfriend is bulimic,and it's a hard thing to cope with because i want to get her help but she does not want to be helped and makes me feel bad because i love her.For a entire year i've tried to give her space and it hurts when i see her doing harm to her body.I don't know what else to do.

[fienchen1704]

Your Video is great, it makes me tears in my eyes...there is hope in the video...

[TheMushroom37]

you've said everything that runs through my mind as a bulimic, i know that i need help, but i could never ask for it. ive even been offered it, but i just cant take it, i cant tell anyone what its like, im just so ashamed of myself. and i couldnt tell any of my friends because im afraid they would think 'well, why arnt you skinny then' ....... this just feel like a lifestyle to me now, one thats going onto a path of destruction, and i have no idea where im going to end up :/

[rocketsandmustaches]

...But thank you for posting this. It made me break down.

Cuz that's me and I wouldn't wish any of those emotions and experiences on anyone....

Anorexia and bulimia is killing my love and joy towards anything...

Again, thank you for posting this.

[rocketsandmustaches]

My best friend is severely bulimic..... So am I... (not severely)

We haven't been bff's that long (almost a year). She has been hospitalized in Denver 4(ish) times. This past summer she went back... She's at the point where she considers the recovery center a second home... Her parents sent her to Teen challenge. But she was kick out cuz she wasn't anywhere near stable.... I miss her so much. She's in Alabama now and I haven't had any contact with her for 4 months.

Idk why I said all that...

[TopGearFans1]

I'm afraid I can't stop yet..I feel so lonely and sad..

[shokoladka1986]

I suffered from bulimia for many years. It ruined my life on so many different levels. But the person who hurt me the most was myself. I am 25 now, much better but still struggling with my weight and still obsessing about food sometimes but God gave me a beautiful baby and a man who loves me. I know I can't disappoint them and let myself go that road again. Girls, be strong and try to love yourself. You might not see it now but future holds good things for you. Give them a chance to happen. xxx

[TheMuicciaPrada]

My best friend has bulimia, I dont know what to do, i love her like a sister and its so horrible for her to have to go through this

[vikas2joshi]

My best friend has it..I am going to be wid her all her life and we will see through it together ...

[angel12345667]

i have bulimia and i can't stop i need treatment but i dont want to tell my family i don't know how they will react what do i do

[sillykali456]

@angel12345667 me too :(

[sccooperca]

i can relate to this its a very painful thing and a lot people say they understand but unless you have and eating disorder or had one you don't understand at all thanks for the video

[beautifulone696]

@MzPooh0211 are you better? :s it's really difficult..

[maggiepubols]

I was bulimic for two years. This video sums up every emotion I had in that time. I finally went to counseling and I'm finally on the track to healing. But everyday is still a battle for me, but I never give up. Please, if you're like me, I know it seems hopeless right now, but You CAN beat this. Don't give up. You're not alone.<3

[cool981821]

I started purging at least 2-3 times a day starting a few days ago I'm not losing a lot of weight I think I should stop but don't want to what should I do

[AssHoleViolator]

When i become bulimic i actually gain weight, because its either maybe a few corrots and celery, or no food at all. or eat till i drop, and throw it all up.

[DontujustHATE]

You should make another vid about bulimia this was amazing

[PieGirlatron]

bulimia doesnt seem like such a bad disease at first. you eat, you throw up, right? well it is. this disease kills. this video is a prime example of what everyone should be doing so one day we can live in a world without bulimia.

[MissYMCMB]

im bullimic, and this video really helped. its really hard and i know i should stop but i just cant :(

[nightmarelover22]

I fear that I am on the path to an ED I am scared but I still hate my body I just don't know what to do

[beautifulone696]

Thank you for this. I have only been bulimic for almost 2 months, but everyday is so hard. Fighting the urge to eat, failing when I do, purging, etc. It's exhausting, but I can't stop. This makes me feel not so alone. <3

[75carlita]

I thought this was beautiful!!! I have been bulimiac for 20 years... I now have 132 days with no purging!! I struggle every single day!

[becca89ful]

I am having to remove comments from people who are using this film to find thinspo buddies..... this is so upsetting - please please find some help and dont go down that road. Any further comments that are posted of that nature will be removed.

[50605954]

help her, don't fight her... :(

[jkseiden]

I am a recovering anorexic who is slipping back

[lovetodrinkink]

i have an eating disorder. it is hell. thank you so much for making this vid. you will help many ppl with this vid

[heidybby1]

@XXMadiiBearXX its evenescence Hello

[XXMadiiBearXX]

This makes me feel so bad forcalling people fat and stuff in the past. I never knew what went through their mind. I never knew how bad things really were for them..I'm sorry. To everyone I ever hurt..

One more thing ... what song is this?

[EvalinaxCullen]

@XXMadiiBearXX its hello by evanescence :)

[Sunburnx17]

this made me cry

[becca89ful]

Thanku for your comments - I made this video to raise awareness - I cannot stress enough how important that is... this is avery scary illness and if this video makes anyone want to approach help then please feel free to email me. I am still a sufferer of this illness but with the support of friends and family and support groups I am moving on slowly. Please do not hestitate to contact me... help and support is out there ... you just have to be ready to ask for it xxx

[bellepad011]

WHO DISLIKES tjis is a fantastic vid i mean i dos not make me happy to hear about ppl whit bulimi it's ultra sad i teared up :'(

[NotThinYet]

This made me want to Cry. Tear up actually,...

I b/p but don't claim bulimia. Stay Safe everyone, <3 Don't let this beat u.

[renzomartinsgu]

I don't understand girls. They want a perfect boy, who really likes her, who complements her all the time, is nice, cool and who really likes them. But when a boy like this come up they just don't give a crap, they want the boys who don't give a fuck about them.

[NozomiHaru]

Thx for the vid....^^ but somehow...i dont think that puking after eating is a self torture...am i crazy? sometimes i feel that im too chubby ...so sometimes i do those things.....im not anorexic bcoz i love FOOD. But after i eat,im started to feel guilty n instantly puke it all out. But im not doing it everyday...maybe once in 2 days...or when im too depressed with all of my problems.But im not skinny....am i starting to be a bulimiers? bulimia nervosa freak? :(

[MegaBieberGirls]

@NozomiHaru yeah you are starting to become bulimic

but please stop doing it<3 or try atleast<3

tell ur mum/dad/ or whoever you trust, an adult is best though

and get help before its too late

[gymnastgirl456ify]

I have had an eating disorder for a year now i became bullimic a few days ago i feel in control my family sees me loosing weight but i ignore them i want to be skinny i weigh 109 pounds and just want to be in the 90s i wish my family would get off my back.

[WiccanPrincessa]

Why would you lie about something like that? If you think the last 6 months have been hell for you try living with it for REAL everyday. Try looking in the mirror and seeing a discusting blob when everyone tells you "you look fine". I have had BDD since I was in pre school and I've had an eating disorder for the past 5 years. It is better to tell the truth. You don't need this disease in your life. If I could get ride of it I would.

[TheDancerIta]

I don't know why, but watching this makes me wanna stop eating..

[CaliCocoLove]

all i gotta say...i understand just how you feel...its a bitch that just bites u right n the ass...and its so hard to let it go...soooo hard i know

[mecheleteresa]

Becca please check out this site if you really want to get some support and not struggle on your own, I found a place not to far from where I live to go to counselling once a month, I think thats a start, they also have links for online and phone support.

[hellomonkeyish]

I told people i was bulimic and anorexic when i wasnt. all 400 of the kids in my grafde found out. no one knows its fake. I have tried starving myself. I tried to throw up a lot. only did 3 times...in 3 days. I am only going to allow myself to have 200-300 calories a day. (this girl did that and lost 30 pounds) im 12/13 5'2 and 135 everytime i eat i am going to purge. Im not going to tell anyone exept maybe 1 close friend who ik wont stop me. right now im in the uk and friends r in usa.

[hay2311]

@hellomonkeyish ive been caught in a lie like that before, so many of them in the past 5 months and its hard to deal with it but its easier to tell the truth than to hurt your body , trust me

[hellomonkeyish]

@hay2311 last 6 months have been hell! im not so sure about that. i want to tell the truth but i cant even imagine how people would respond.....

[hay2311]

@hellomonkeyish Most will be mad and hate you, but at least you'll know who your true friends are.

[hellomonkeyish]

@hay2311 no no no. its been taken to such an extreme through rumors that NO ONE would talk to me.

[carashines1]

This doesn't make me want to tell anyone...

[mecheleteresa]

Thanks for making this video Becca, anyone who doesnt understand eating disorders and reacts to someone with an eating disorder with anger and, judgement needs to watch this.

[becca89ful]

@mecheleteresa thanku - I am still a struggler with this disorder and its so hard without support. I was hoping this would send a message. I am glad it has been well received.

[MsWiccabitch]

omg, i feel so bad for people like this, if i can find a way to help i will, i already posted it to facebook and asked people to help also

[SigridSteen]

@Justininabieber (Sorry for my hopeless english, I really hope you understand me...) Don't! You're just 12 years old and your body is not finished yet. Soon will everyone in your class looks exactly like you do now, that's normal! When I was 12 I was 163 cm and my weight was 55 kg and I really, really hated it. But now, when I and my friends is 15, we all looks as the same. Take it easy, IT'S NORMAL!

[becca89ful]

no no no please.. this is not what you want - this video is not a promotion for bulimia. Bulimia is scary and dangerous - there is nothing wrong with your weight, and you are very young - your body is going to be going though loads of changes and your weight will naturally change very quickly. Please please dont go down the same road I did. Be strong - I am always here if you need someone to email x

[justininabieber]

i'm so fat! i'm the heviest student in my class! i'm 12 years old, i'm 163cm and i'm 51kg!!!!!! that really is a lot!!!

i want to be ill from bulimia! i want to be perfect!!!!! i want it

[merbethmango]

@justininabieber no please don't. i'm 160 and 5 ft8. how do you think i feel? last year i was 150 and the year before i was 140. the year before that i was 130. last year, I thought I was fat when I really wasn't. It all started out with just one little 3 month phase of trying to be a vegetarian. I was finding out what foods were good and bad for you. I was counting calories and excercising what people would call "obsessive" amounts every day. Bulemia is not just for purging. It could also be

[merbethmango]

@justininabieber binging (eating way over the normal amount of a food that's needed inorder to gain a certain amount of calories from the food within less than an hour) and then exercising for an execissive amount everyday. I binge atleast 3-5 times a week. And inorder to exercise off the amount of calories that you gained while binging. i found out today that apparently that is a part of bulimia.

[becca89ful]

Thank you for your comments... you are not alone - I am still a sufferer..

[TheElizabeth12395]

I just want to be perfect, I hope I know the limits and won't end up in the arms of death.

[wasupimalyse]

I'm that girl.

[missystarr2334]

i fit all the things in this video.

i am tht girl 100%.

i am too fat to do nothing. i cant eat chinese vegetables w/out it fattening me

[becca89ful]

Thank you for your comments - Im glad this has helped you in any way that it can. If you need anyone to email for support - please feel free to contact me

[laughingmonkey2011]

Thank you for the video :)

[AbreeLynn97]

This has really inspired me, lately i have been making myself vomit but I only eat an apple a day and feel bad about it so I purge, I know how it feels to be outside the crowd, thanks for making this video! -3