Self Injury-Freedom

[MrFlutterPie]

I'm so happy you have quit. I also found healing through God. I've been cut free for over 4 years now. My pastor and I meet every year on my anniversary of being cut free to do all you can eat :)

[Misty4everYoung]

This really touched me. Hi my name is Misty and I am a cutter. I haven't cut in 2 months. I hope I don't back. But there's no telling. I always slip back. I sometimes wish my life would end. You see I was raped 3 months ago and it has played a toll on me. Sometimes I don't know where to turn. I trust God will help me but can I help myself is the question.

[MrTravioli1975]

Your video brought TEARS to my eyes. I am currently taking a class in college. I prepared a powerpoint over self mutilation. I am going to be a middle school counselor next year! My prayer is someday I will be able to help someone who is cutting? I will be praying for you! Thank you for posting the video! I am going to show it in my college class! God bless you!

[GothicaJ]

@Gactivefy

No worries, good to hear you don't think that dear! :)

[therandomasshole]

You do realise there's no such thing as god, right? I've been struggling with SI, and it pisses me off when people use such a serious thing to promote their religion. The bible isn't some "magic cure" for SI, and even if it was, that doesn't make it true.

[GothicaJ]

@therandomasshole

Well, i would look at the evidence.

I'm not cutting anymore, and i can tell you many other stories of people who have found hope and healing in God. So don't judge those that do just because you don't believe in something.

[therandomasshole]

@GothicaJ I have looked at the evidence. I didn't find any. That's why I don't believe in god. you stopping self-injury isn't evidence for your religion. Plus, what about all the people who say they've found "hope and healing" from other religions, such as buddhism? Does that make THOSE religions true? And I wasn't judging you for being a christian. I was just saying that this video and others like it represent something that pisses me off. Thanks for responding, though. It's more than most do.

[therandomasshole]

@GothicaJ Also, I'm sorry if I came off as an asshole in the original post. I assure you that, despite my username, I'm not. I wasn't trying to rag on you too hard... just a little. So... no hard feelings?

[StampMasterMist]

@therandomasshole ... One day every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord! Jesus, the Son of God, our Creator. Praying for those with cold hearts such as yours. This isn't to promote religion, or relationship, but hope for others.. it may not be your answer, but those demons you have causing your self injury are laughing right now cuz you are choosing to follow them, and not the One that loves you. If you aren't following Christ, you're following the devil! No wonder..

[GothicaJ]

@Gactivefy

being co-dependent on an addiction to survive is not freedom.

[naominoodle]

This helped me to not self harm for tonight... its only tonight... but one small step! XXX

[brumbss]

very helpful

[XxbrokenXravenxX]

Hi, I stopped self injuring 2 months ago... I like the video and i'm glad you stopped. I know it is hard to.

Btw if you don't mind me asking, what did you use?

[adelinatheolin]

thank you <3

[TheJessiebbz]

this video is really inspiring :D

are those your scars at 2:46 and 2:51?

[GothicaJ]

@TheJessiebbz

thank you :) God is really inspiring as well. Yeah, those are my scars

[TheJessiebbz]

@GothicaJ i started self harming because i lost my faith and with help from a lot of people (mostly online, though i am still so thankful) i got my faith back and i've almost stopped harming :) God will always be there to help those in need. <3 xxx

[Pussysitos]

The main things is there are lots of us out there, and our lives have to go on, no matter what other people think.

[boangeres]

you're a beautiful lady! Praise God for deliverance!

[JemIsANinja]

you're really pretty. :)

[GothicaJ]

@JemIsANinja

thank you ^_^"

[JohnnyLProductions]

looks fade away.. it wont matter anymore than. anyway im glad u stopped.. those werent your arms... were they?

[GothicaJ]

@JohnnyLProductions

Actually my scars won't fade, but i'm okay with that :) It's been over 4 years and my scars are still there, and they will be forever. The Lord can use this too :)

Yes, and they were my arms. Thanks for watching and commenting though :) God bless!

[jddecart]

Hi, Jessica. Thanks for sharing. I was watching and thought she is so beautiful, who would want to hurt this beautiful girl?!?

Just wanted to greet you, God bless you. You are an encouragement.

[ItsJustAutoo]

thanks to make this video! (L)

[Cutter0913]

First I want to say thank you so much for making this video. It shows so many people that you can get out of this. I myself have broken free. Its been about 6 months now and I am thankful for everyday.

Second I want to let people know that if anyone needs help on this issue I am here. I know what it is like. I have been there. Please pm me. I will be available to talk.

[GothicaJ]

thank you for that! It is true and possible, we don't have to glorify or feed into the addiction!

Thank you :)

[SuperGemma01]

there should be more vids on utube like this. cos i too have found freedom, and i know that my path was prob diff from everyone elses. we all have diff experiences. but i do know with time anyone can stop SH u just need to keep fighting and never give up. i know that can be hard at times. dnt be too hard on yourself. x

[chissar]

Thankyou. Because of this video, I''ve finally decided that I'm never going to have another self caused wound on my body. The blade has come from the back of my phone and it will never go back inside it. Thankyou.

[GothicaJ]

Praise God! Thank you so much for that encouraging message!! God is so good! :)

[Downtownpatrol]

@chissar if only it were that easy, good luck <3 x

[KimIsMissing]

Oh god... my tyrant mind.

[xxluisa89xx]

Cool video... so glad you was able to stop. I wish every other self harmer could stop too... but no one should give up trying to stop...

[fhockeygirl25]

hey all. if you need someone to talk to just message me. i understand just about every situation. hang in there <3

[marianneR221]

Hey, i have been hurting myself for around 7months, im trying to rely on God to help me too but its hard! and i offen forget really.. Please could you write back to me, add me as a friend anything so i can speak to you. If thats okay. Peace x

[justsimplykelly]

if you offer help and adivice would you please send me a mesage thanks if not just dealte this thanks x

[Shellygurl92]

thank you for this

i recently went to youth camp and was radically changed by god in way that i could never go back to the way i once was so i decided to take the steps to stop SI

this just give me that little bit of a harder push to know that the decision i'm making to stop is going to be great

thank you

[omhsarah]

AMEN!!!!!!!!

[EmoHippieForJesus]

beautiful testimony

[darkvader76]

thank you for posting this, I went thru the same path, Ive been in close calls with death, theres hope, BELIEVE IN GOD, JESUS IS REAL GOOD WORK ON THIS VIDEO

[HayleyDawnluvsyhuu2x]

God bless you for being bold and putting this up. I believe Jesus is really living in your heart. Well done for getting better and I thank God for His work in you. I have been cutting for about two years, and I've now been referred to CAMHS and stuff, and I go to a wonderful charismatic church etc. I just can't find it in me to get better. Every time I try, I end up suicidal. the other day i almost ODd. I no Jesus but I can't see the end... :'( your story is inspiring though, thank you Jessica.

[bipolarfuckhead]

wat about others who dont belive in god?

nothing against god. i dont belive but that is just me i belive in sumthing else... im not sure what i t is but... yeah . just woundering

[RoryDoesntFrown]

well, there's the faith that you have to have in yourself.

i think my stopping had to do with a blend of God, and belief in myself. I don't want to sound preachy or anything, but thats what helped me.

[GothicaJ]

first of all, are you from the UK? noticed some of your spellings :)

Second, have you ever tried perhaps giving God a chance? And not the "i tried that, went to church, all that crap and nothing happened" kind of chance, but something real, something intimate. You see, and i appologize for this, but our generation has a very distorted view of God. And my dear, i would be willing to bet that if you got to know the God that i know, and see Him in truth, you might find something beautiful :) <3

[xXMemorieXx]

wow. thats amazing.

almost made me cry,

well done on getting better ^_^

im trying to..

[GothicaJ]

You can, and will. With God's strength though, it comes through holy surrender :) Thank you beautiful!! :) Keep strong, and if you ever need someone to talk to, please know i'm here (and online probably more than need be, lol :P)

[Johnnychristian1542]

I Sent this to my friend,Which i care about so much.

I Hope it means as much to her,as it did to me.

[xXneonicxxstarsXx]

thank you Johnny!

it did mean a lot to me!!

love ya like a brother!

[Johnnychristian1542]

:]

Love ya like a sister.

[GothicaJ]

Glad you both were touched by it, if either of you guys ever need to talk or anything please feel free to contact! You have a good friend neon stars:)

[kitten52556]

no one loves me so i cut to feel but all i feel is pain and lifes hopeless i never have really belived in god no one has ever talked to me bout him i also pop pills but i really want is for someone to stop me catch me doing it and hug me and tell me its okay but its not okay im dieing i will kill myself eventully lifes so unfair i have 378 stitches from cutting its sad im srry u read this :(

[LoserPunkQueen]

I'm not religious. But i also found strength to stop cutting. :) Great video.

[GothicaJ]

Well i'm so thankful for that! Great job!!

[DarkAngelNCharmed]

glad you have stoped. good video.

[Liv5010]

This is amazing x

[vayage22]

wtb happy pills :`(

[GothicaJ]

I'm sorry, what do you mean? Like anti-depressants? If that's what you were saying, well, i think God works better than any pill :)

[Deadxang3l]

wow im so glade you was strong and stoped self harm.....i look up to that cos i with i could :(

[SmilingDana]

This video is even more beautiful and amazing than I had heard. It is so awesome how you use your talent and testimony to reach out to others. It's inspiring, Jessica.

10 days 'til move-in!

~Your new roomie

[justsimplykelly]

I self Harm and i do go to church know it dead fun but im feel dead scared to but mu trust in god in case i rejeted it may sound weriod but i have no idea what to do at all love the vido X

[TutuFan101]

I'm glad you found a reason to stop cutting. April of this year will make it a whole year without me cutting. Thanks for the vid.

[GothicaJ]

Congratulations :) I know from personal experience that that is not an easy feat (I'm going on 3 years this May) :) Funny how many different things random people can have in common eh? :p

[TutuFan101]

I was thinking the same thing. ^^

[GothicaJ]

Heh, great minds think alike? ^_^" :p

[vayage22]

yea, thats what I mean :/ dunnoo how ppl get on in this life

[selfharmgeek]

this video has got me thinking i have slight belief in god and now i no he loves me i dont no where to go

[SamiD29]

i dont cut but i punch walls, hit myself on walls so hard i dont care if it hurts cos it doesnt. it's a comfort to me but people dont get it.. i feel alive when i do & i do it when i get so angry, it's a way to express myself.. i dont know how to express in words or even talking to people..

[SamiD29]

I'm a Christian and on counseling, counseled by a friend, who's a pastor in our church and was my sunday school teacher many years ago.

[lonesomewonderer]

so do I, I don't cut but I literally beat myself up just to feel something. But I am slowly getting away from that. If you ever wanna talk just let me know.

[SamiD29]

I think these happens because we yearn for touch. I long for a warm loving touch but I tend to repel from touch, even from friends, because I relate it to pain even though I know they're intentions were to show they care. But I do want to be touched, even a hug but I can't or don't know how to hug. Whenever I see my friends hugging each other, I look away because I feel deprived of that act of love and feeling hurt deep inside.

[SamiD29]

Now, whenever I feel angry and the tension is building up I learn to back away and find my inner self and connect my self to God. Still is hard at times but it's a learning. Yet, longing to be with friends, to be touched, have quality time, be given with countless encouraging words, is a struggle. (P.S. Have you heard of the Five Love Languades? I'm actually mentioning 3 of the love languages.)

However, I may be deprived of love but no other love is greater than the Love of God.

[CrayonThrower]

I use to cut to. I'm so glad for you!

I stopped also, when I found out that not only was I hurting myself, but I was hurting the people around me, and God. Jesus is amazing. And I hope you pursue your faith! Praise God!

[lonesomewonderer]

you are very courageous for stopping, i am trying desperately to help a friend to stop from cutting but they don't really seem to wanna try and give it up cause its such a big part of their life.

[alwaysbabe26]

Thank-you for sharing You are very brave I quit for 4 yrs and started up again in June 2008 I do not know how to stop again it is hard. I find cutting easier to deal with life so thanks for sharing

[Vicki4U]

Jessica, Wonderful to see what God does! Great that you are getting the word out, that is great to share the healing and love of God. May you be used in an amazing way to help others. Keep sharing.

God rocks!

Vicki Duffy

[GothicaJ]

Amen, God DOES rock! And thanks for watching!

[Swiecicki2008]

This is very touching, and I am very apprecative that you could share this. I am so very proud and happy that you have been clean for that long. I am sure it gives us all hope that one day we will be able to accomplish that many days of freedom. I am currently 5 days free, and counting. =)Thanks so much for sharing. <3

~TWLOHA~

[rempanda]

i love that song! its on my iPod. =]

luv ur vids =]

xXxGOD BLESSxXx

[lilras18]

Jessica,I know how you (felt). However I still cut. I've been trying to stop,but every time I see my wrists/arm. I get to thinking how much I'm losing. I've lost my friends due to this, I've lost my parents due to this. I've almost lost my life. A few years ago I tried to kill myself. Thank god that he didn't take me on up/down (whatever).

[winjunk]

I write this through tears to my sister in Christ. Thank you, thank you for taking time for this ministry video. I am a dad of three daughters. I cut sometimes as an adolescent but found Christ, and my daughter cut a few years ago a little, and she knows Christ now. It is not what we do in the highs of faith that counts, it is what we do during the lows. Utter is name is all I could do sometimes, and it was enough to bring me back to Him, HE PULLS ME THROUGH. I pray he does for all who ask

[arbeloi]

So inspiring and touching. Thanks and good luck.

[jerrylucas76]

wow. that was deep.

[XxBreakingHeartxX]

That was a wake up call...

I cut.... But not anymore. never again.

because of you... thx for freeing me.

[luvinme1994]

this is an amazing video

I haven't cut in a week and im not going to.

I have been in hospital for attempted suicide and i was in a critical way so i am stopping self harm and being bulimic. I know its hard. Someone see's a scar thats it.. ''emo, attention seeker. wierdo, sort you f***ing head out'' some of the names i get called every day. Im non of those im me, and i do it as a release from reality, for control. Its hard and we need to stick together because not many people understand it xxx

[irishgurl92]

this is really good...right now i'm 2 months "free"

this video reminded me how absolutely hopeless i was before i became a christian and then its like all my hopelessness disapeared..but yeah it is possible to get over this..its not easy but it is possible and i'm working on it :)

oh and helpplease its casting crowns and now my lifesong sings...they have another one called lifesong but they're different...just fyi =)

[helpplease08]

can someone tell me wat song this is please.

i WANT to download it.

x-meg-x

[helpplease08]

"i was lost but now im found" wow..im crying right now. 3 years of cutting. And its the people like you who are helping me.

thank god for people like you who put out there hearts

thank you . you have touched me

x-meg-x

[fcrabbath]

Absolutely amazing.

[CrAzyBladE831]

Excellent video..Im crying...I am self injury since 9 years ago..I cut myself just since a few hours ago, I cant stop, I want to die so hard, last night when I get home drunk as usual and I was cutting and pushing the blade so bad that I was wondering to broke some vein but nothing happends. Im glad that you are out of this...I admire you courage but just that..I cant apply it in me.

Letizia

[BreakOutPraise]

Hey crazy blade. I want you to know that i to was once depressed, felt lost and alone. I thought i could only trust myself, and no one else. but if you believe in god or not. he died for all your heartaches... Jesus was rejected in his hometown and persecuted by many. Before he died he prayed to god and asked if there was any other way than the cross, but if that was the only way for the world to find hope and salvation; he said not my will but your will be done. I encourage to look upon Jesus.

[destinygirl8]

That was amazing, i have tears. *hugs* You did such a wonderful job, it was beautiful.

[siafan08]

I've been helped by Him too:)

[1313becca1313]

this was a really inspiration video...  I have self-harmed for seven years.. I stopped May 3rd and so far I have not slipped yet. I pray that God will give me the strength to keep going. Thank you so much for making this video. You give me hope.

[vampiper]

I'm crying.

You're such an inspiration. You went really hard on SI and you are over with it now. And promoving health.

I'll take you as an idol, if you don't mind. =).

(been one month and a little bit more without hurting myself... that's progression to me!)

[ntboyd]

Jessica,

I am an employee at Faith Academy's Loganville Location and I was at graduation last night. I just wanted to tell you that your story was incredible and really touched a lot of people. It is remarkable to see everything that God is doing in your life. Continue to follow him. Congrats on graduating but more than that thanks for standing strong for our Savior.

[kaz208]

im a christian and a selfharmer trying to stop.. how did you stop cutting. im finding it so hard.your video was awsome by the way.

your so inspiring for sheing your story

[tiff18amor]

wow this is really inspiring to me..i am a strong christian, but i do cut...ive walked away so many times, but it always seems to come back, im trying really hard right now, and God is getting me through. i am proud of you for giving it up..you are so special and beautiful and i thank God for you!

[jr112606]

this video really touched me. i understand completly what you went through. i'm glad that there are people out there that can actually say "yeah i did it, but i don't anymore". i also feel that you chose a good song. the pictures and the words in the song were synced. i really enjoyed it altogether.

-Jennifer

[GothicaJ]

thank you so much Jennifer! I'm glad what i went through could touch another person :) Did you use to cut or have an ed? I hope your doing better. Thanks, i love this song too! I heard it and just started thinking of all the amazing things Gods done for me. It's all i can do to give my life for him when He's given it back to me. God Bless!

[jr112606]

yea unfortanetly i did cut but not anymore. i didnt do it as much once i started going out with my boyfriend rocky(the one whos making the pic video). once he found out he tried to help me and thankfully did. i am so grateful for him and im glad that you stopped too. its takes time but in the end you know its worth it. keep up the good videos.

-Jennifer

[beautywithin85]

I loved it... love the version of amazing grace too...ur inspiring...

[jevans1492]

wow. this is oddly enough like me.

amazing pics

and yay flute!

[GothicaJ]

thanks for the comment :) I hope your doing better with the self injury! God bless!

[lemmycake]

This is awesome, I hope you are so proud of yourself... and keep going :)

Well done!

One question, where did you find the picture with the girl and the dove?

It's amazing.

And so are you!

Love and Hugs xxxx

[koalastephanie]

I am struggle with SI too but i am doing good so far, have not been cutting myself lately, I am doing better than when i was a few year ago. I am coping.

[PreciousAngel05]

I am so proud of you sissy! And everyday continue to be proud of you for staying clean!!! I knew you could do it and with everything you've been through I know that your testimoney WILL touch lives and help people with the same issues. God will continually use you to help others, I can't say enough how Proud I am of you! And I am excited to see of what all God has instore for you and for your life and how he will use you for his Glory. I love you sissy! You're an inspiration to sooo many!!!!

[ashmillard]

hey, great video

im a self harmer too, was, im 15, i started self harming wen i was 12

im trying to stop and i have had some succes, its bin a whole month today since ive done it, ive tried to find other ways to self destruct

how did u stop? if u dont mind me asking?

[lemoonlimebubbles]

great video. i just started to go back to church about a year ago. I haven't cut in nearly two months. You're in my prayers, hun. Good job on staying clean this long. :]

[stopselfinjury]

GREAT video, no not many like it out there. I too am a Christian that self injured, I cut and burned for 15 years, and stopped 8 years ago. Telling people YOU stopped WILL save lives. I will never cut again for any reason, glad you were brave enough to post this video. God bless you!

[airforce4life2008]

amazing video I have a similar testimony I just got saved a month a ago and havent cut in one month and 19 days so keep trucking as I do the same