I once had a bunch of kids ask me to come out and play (I think I was about 5) and when I got within sight of them they ran away calling me fat, so I know how heartbreaking it can be.
Yes I so agree Gina before I use to feel so unworthy like I couldnt love myself so I couldnt even like no one cuz u know u think if u let ur guard down every1 well do u bad.But all that is gone now,now Im all grown up I learn to change to forgive and forget to love myself n others to cope with the ugly mean ppl n now I know dat no matter how poor rich, pretty, ugly,old ,young, fat or thin we are all gods children.No1 is better than no1...
Do a video response to this vid.....and label it My "Sandbox" - The Dr.s Office" I should've told everyone to share like that. Had no idea I would get such an outpouring of transparency. It's tough....
Well first time I felt really sad was at school like u and Im not 5'9 but I still would get picked on Im 5'4 now but I was also taller than most and I developed my curves before them so I was bullied alot and it hurt.I was not fat ever I was thin but tall and I had curves big boobs and booty before them.I seek Jesus every day and by seeking him I learned to love myself again!Now I know why ppl do wat they do sum belittle others to feel better bout themselfs
This is soooo important, Gina. Thanks for laying it all out there for us. I like the "multi-level" support system and I'll do my best to be there for others. A big part of what you're saying is there is always reason why we overeat (barring some medical condition). Until we acknowledge, accept, and move past these reasons, we will never be in control of our weight.
We need to do side by side vlogs.....me for the ppl who really enjoy a lengthy discussion, you for ppl you like it in a nutshell....great job breakin it down V.....you are my twin....now, break it down hammer style....lol (where did that come from...it's like a pancake moment...lmao)
I'm SO offended! lol. There are too many examples of feeling fat in childhood to name. I was encouraged to eat so my parents wouldn't have to actually deal with me. I get that. But that's the past and this is the present. I SEEK to forgive.
Your vlog is right on time, Gina! While at work today I kept remembering the wrongs done to me lately and feeling upset about it and I prayed "God, help me forgive" these people. And then I get on here and you're talking about forgiveness...
Ok, so that last statement just totally gave me the chills....I uploaded it late last night....but you just NOW saw it. God's timing IS perfect!
So you baby girl are leaving it ON the family table....that is your "sandbox" term.....the next time you are struggling to want go off protocol...say that outloud. We accept you and love you just as you are. We LOVE to BE WITH you....we don't just DEAL with you....got it....times are a changing...and so are you.
Exactly! Hoopes Street is PART of your puzzle! When you want to cheat, or whatever you call it....say OUT LOUD...I'm leaving this "___" at Hoopes Street. Hoopes Street does not control you or drive you, or the monster that pushes you ANYMORE! It won't work EVERY Time, but it will slowly take hold, because you will NOT want Hoopes Street to control you. It is a practice exercise....eventually it will pay off.
I think because I have used food almost my whole life to numb from life's drama, it is so hard to let that go. I guess the habit of using food for anything but keeping my body alive is what I want to leave in the sand box. How would I put that? Does it make sense?
Very much so....ok, you're little exercise is finding one of the FIRST life's dramas that possibly had you reach for food...that's what I'm getting at...there are usually many....really dive deep. I totally understand what you're saying...there are many facets to my eating...I want you to find a 1 or 2 word discription, so you can use it when you are aware you're eating. It's not THE reason....this is something to keep you "conscious"...it will help you maintain later...
My Mom put me on weight watchers when i was six ( very athletic , not fat , but she was afraid I would be because she was. I spent the summer being totally deprived and things were hidden on me. When I found them ( cookies cakes) I ate it all. That is the instance where it changed for me, then I became chubby and the vicious cycle began
OMG....same here! Except I was ate, and things weren't hidden because we rarely had junk food. She just restricted me, she has apologized and said, I was scared you were going to have to struggle like me. She's always watched it, but never been more that 15lbs overwt. They say most that having eating disorders get them from the views of their mothers.....I don't blame her....I'd rather this struggle than an other, because I'm about done with this one!! Yea! Thank you Zoe! xoxo
I am a student of " A Course In Miracles" the whole premise is forgiveness, but it means to over look what we believe is bad, and know that all is for our good, and that everyone of our brothers is a perfect son of God. We stop judging because it is not our place to know what is good or bad.
So true Zoe....FOR OUR GOOOD. I see that more and more every day. And it's why he sent us the Holy Spirit as our comforter....he KNEW we would need one. He knew we'd have trials. And without my struggles....ya'll would not be seeing this better version of myself! :)
What color was the house Jenny? Or what street was it on? Be specific, so that when a moment from that hurt or you want to eat for that moment...say it's over, I leave it on Franklin Street. I've done that with different moments. You my love, are destined.
I want you to get a new hat every 10lbs (or 5 if you want) you lose, just for me....you are TOO cute in them! And name them on the label..."160lbs" 150etc. I want to buy the 130 hat ok?? PALEESE!! I love you too J.
Thank you Chistie....I am too. Being a nurse and very independent too....I tend to nurse myself with food....I'm growing all the time, and it's coming all together.....much love C>......Im glad I inspired YOU...and you will inspire many....I will touch many lives THROUGH YOU! Thk u
I can't say I got picked on in school to much, it was when I hit about 19. I got out of school and I started hearing the rumors...they hurt. I'm leaving it in the past and I'm moving on. I am a wonderful person and really, weight doesn't determine how good of a person I was or am. "I'm leaving it at the sandbox".
Ok, where were you at the moment you felt that hurt or heard the rumor for the first time? A restaurant, your house sitting on your bed? The park? See what I'm getting out...the memory of the place you received the blow, the hurt....that is your "sandbox" And you are a wonderful person.....nothing will EVER change that. xoxo provo
You're so welcome....I'm just glad I can at times, and throw some fun in there too...OR inspire fun and then get in some profound moments...it's all good rightt??
"in the mouths of babes" seriously, kids could say the meanest things and it sticks with us for life. we've all gone through something similar. thanks for sharing!! when i was saved, (my freshman year in college) it all turned around for me. i realized there were things in life that were more important and to not sweat the hurtful words. luvyougirl!
Girl, that's so weird, I didn't mean to delete that! i actually recommented and made it longer. now i'm irritated because i put a lot more and i don't remember what it was. grrrr!! i meant to say that we always seek ;) the strength inside of us to fight off the hurtful words. :) something along those lines. hahaha!! thanks for emailing me, or i woulda never known that my comment was deleted!! luvya!
Wonderfully said! I'll let you know.....my comments get eaten all the freakin' time! I'm going to have to start coping before I send so that they don't. I'm glad you recommented.....good stuff. xoxo love u!
I need to leave it in the classroom, my 4th grade classroom specificially. Hopefully I'll remember and I'll talk about this in a vlog soon. You are fantastic missy!!!
The classroom....PERFECT....I want everyone to try to get it down to 1 or 2 words....I think it's a better visualization. I can't wait to hear you share...it's therapeutic to voice the hurts. It truly helps you move past them....and it's free!
And that's a process like moving past the wt issues and keeping the wt off. I get better with each passing yr! Ppl need to understand Christians are not perfect....
love the videos!!! but seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you!!! matthew 6:33
mjc13slc 2 years ago
Did I quote that wrong in my Gratitude video??? Oh no, I need to check! Glad you like them...luv u MJ
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
Love u too G! Keeping you and the family lifted up and Praying u thru sister! God Bless You!
Wise men still seek HIM.
luvpinkskies 2 years ago
I'm counting you to do that! Agree to agree!!
xoxo
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
Oh I forgot I think they tricked me into thinking we would be playing hide and seek. ;-)
morphingTom 2 years ago
I once had a bunch of kids ask me to come out and play (I think I was about 5) and when I got within sight of them they ran away calling me fat, so I know how heartbreaking it can be.
morphingTom 2 years ago
So.....where was it you got sight of them? That "place" is your sandbox. I know exactly how you felt in that moment....
Now, leave it there and get back on the train...
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
Yes I so agree Gina before I use to feel so unworthy like I couldnt love myself so I couldnt even like no one cuz u know u think if u let ur guard down every1 well do u bad.But all that is gone now,now Im all grown up I learn to change to forgive and forget to love myself n others to cope with the ugly mean ppl n now I know dat no matter how poor rich, pretty, ugly,old ,young, fat or thin we are all gods children.No1 is better than no1...
chiquitababy5 2 years ago
I couldn't have said it better...and chiquita....YOU NEED TO VLOG!!! You have something to share girl....share it! It would help us all grow.....
If I can do it...trust me, you can....the first is the hardest...
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
"The Dr. Office" - i'll elaborate more soon.
BigBeautiful008 2 years ago
Do a video response to this vid.....and label it My "Sandbox" - The Dr.s Office" I should've told everyone to share like that. Had no idea I would get such an outpouring of transparency. It's tough....
I look forward to it Kelsey...
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
Well first time I felt really sad was at school like u and Im not 5'9 but I still would get picked on Im 5'4 now but I was also taller than most and I developed my curves before them so I was bullied alot and it hurt.I was not fat ever I was thin but tall and I had curves big boobs and booty before them.I seek Jesus every day and by seeking him I learned to love myself again!Now I know why ppl do wat they do sum belittle others to feel better bout themselfs
chiquitababy5 2 years ago
I'm feelin' ya girl....I had the curves too....and got 'em FAST too.
Isn't that one thing that's wonderful about getting older? There such clarity in so many things...
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
This is soooo important, Gina. Thanks for laying it all out there for us. I like the "multi-level" support system and I'll do my best to be there for others. A big part of what you're saying is there is always reason why we overeat (barring some medical condition). Until we acknowledge, accept, and move past these reasons, we will never be in control of our weight.
violetgrl 2 years ago
We need to do side by side vlogs.....me for the ppl who really enjoy a lengthy discussion, you for ppl you like it in a nutshell....great job breakin it down V.....you are my twin....now, break it down hammer style....lol (where did that come from...it's like a pancake moment...lmao)
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
I will....but we can all still remind each other RIGHT??? teehee
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
... love that Law of Attraction & love you too! ♥
Yoliechula 2 years ago
I'm SO offended! lol. There are too many examples of feeling fat in childhood to name. I was encouraged to eat so my parents wouldn't have to actually deal with me. I get that. But that's the past and this is the present. I SEEK to forgive.
Your vlog is right on time, Gina! While at work today I kept remembering the wrongs done to me lately and feeling upset about it and I prayed "God, help me forgive" these people. And then I get on here and you're talking about forgiveness...
Yoliechula 2 years ago
Ok, so that last statement just totally gave me the chills....I uploaded it late last night....but you just NOW saw it. God's timing IS perfect!
So you baby girl are leaving it ON the family table....that is your "sandbox" term.....the next time you are struggling to want go off protocol...say that outloud. We accept you and love you just as you are. We LOVE to BE WITH you....we don't just DEAL with you....got it....times are a changing...and so are you.
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
Today, you found another piece of your puzzle! I love you too.
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
Thanks, you are SO SWEET!
Yoliechula 2 years ago
Exactly! Hoopes Street is PART of your puzzle! When you want to cheat, or whatever you call it....say OUT LOUD...I'm leaving this "___" at Hoopes Street. Hoopes Street does not control you or drive you, or the monster that pushes you ANYMORE! It won't work EVERY Time, but it will slowly take hold, because you will NOT want Hoopes Street to control you. It is a practice exercise....eventually it will pay off.
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
I think because I have used food almost my whole life to numb from life's drama, it is so hard to let that go. I guess the habit of using food for anything but keeping my body alive is what I want to leave in the sand box. How would I put that? Does it make sense?
tennis2me 2 years ago
Very much so....ok, you're little exercise is finding one of the FIRST life's dramas that possibly had you reach for food...that's what I'm getting at...there are usually many....really dive deep. I totally understand what you're saying...there are many facets to my eating...I want you to find a 1 or 2 word discription, so you can use it when you are aware you're eating. It's not THE reason....this is something to keep you "conscious"...it will help you maintain later...
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
My Mom put me on weight watchers when i was six ( very athletic , not fat , but she was afraid I would be because she was. I spent the summer being totally deprived and things were hidden on me. When I found them ( cookies cakes) I ate it all. That is the instance where it changed for me, then I became chubby and the vicious cycle began
tennis2me 2 years ago
OMG....same here! Except I was ate, and things weren't hidden because we rarely had junk food. She just restricted me, she has apologized and said, I was scared you were going to have to struggle like me. She's always watched it, but never been more that 15lbs overwt. They say most that having eating disorders get them from the views of their mothers.....I don't blame her....I'd rather this struggle than an other, because I'm about done with this one!! Yea! Thank you Zoe! xoxo
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
I am a student of " A Course In Miracles" the whole premise is forgiveness, but it means to over look what we believe is bad, and know that all is for our good, and that everyone of our brothers is a perfect son of God. We stop judging because it is not our place to know what is good or bad.
tennis2me 2 years ago
So true Zoe....FOR OUR GOOOD. I see that more and more every day. And it's why he sent us the Holy Spirit as our comforter....he KNEW we would need one. He knew we'd have trials. And without my struggles....ya'll would not be seeing this better version of myself! :)
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
What color was the house Jenny? Or what street was it on? Be specific, so that when a moment from that hurt or you want to eat for that moment...say it's over, I leave it on Franklin Street. I've done that with different moments. You my love, are destined.
I want you to get a new hat every 10lbs (or 5 if you want) you lose, just for me....you are TOO cute in them! And name them on the label..."160lbs" 150etc. I want to buy the 130 hat ok?? PALEESE!! I love you too J.
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
OH and heck yeah the Fat Mentality is harder...that's why we gain it back! We're changing that....THIS IS IT, right J? NO MORE.
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
Thank you Chistie....I am too. Being a nurse and very independent too....I tend to nurse myself with food....I'm growing all the time, and it's coming all together.....much love C>......Im glad I inspired YOU...and you will inspire many....I will touch many lives THROUGH YOU! Thk u
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
I can't say I got picked on in school to much, it was when I hit about 19. I got out of school and I started hearing the rumors...they hurt. I'm leaving it in the past and I'm moving on. I am a wonderful person and really, weight doesn't determine how good of a person I was or am. "I'm leaving it at the sandbox".
saintprovogirl 2 years ago
Ok, where were you at the moment you felt that hurt or heard the rumor for the first time? A restaurant, your house sitting on your bed? The park? See what I'm getting out...the memory of the place you received the blow, the hurt....that is your "sandbox" And you are a wonderful person.....nothing will EVER change that. xoxo provo
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
I think I was at my parents house. That's where a lot of drama and hurt happened. I'm over it and leaving it there.
Thanks girl!
saintprovogirl 2 years ago
(((HUGS))) that was great!!!
You are a beautiful person inside and out and are perfect just the way you are.
Thank you
believinnme 2 years ago
Thank you believe! We ALL are...we just need to walk in that truth! Hugs right back....
Isn't it about time for another vlog from you??? xoxo
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
Soon!! probably tomorrow. Thanks again for the inspiration. It's priceless.
believinnme 2 years ago
YEA!!! Is it your stereotype????
You're so welcome....I'm just glad I can at times, and throw some fun in there too...OR inspire fun and then get in some profound moments...it's all good rightt??
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
"in the mouths of babes" seriously, kids could say the meanest things and it sticks with us for life. we've all gone through something similar. thanks for sharing!! when i was saved, (my freshman year in college) it all turned around for me. i realized there were things in life that were more important and to not sweat the hurtful words. luvyougirl!
last20pounds 2 years ago
Girl, that's so weird, I didn't mean to delete that! i actually recommented and made it longer. now i'm irritated because i put a lot more and i don't remember what it was. grrrr!! i meant to say that we always seek ;) the strength inside of us to fight off the hurtful words. :) something along those lines. hahaha!! thanks for emailing me, or i woulda never known that my comment was deleted!! luvya!
last20pounds 2 years ago
Wonderfully said! I'll let you know.....my comments get eaten all the freakin' time! I'm going to have to start coping before I send so that they don't. I'm glad you recommented.....good stuff. xoxo love u!
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
I need to leave it in the classroom, my 4th grade classroom specificially. Hopefully I'll remember and I'll talk about this in a vlog soon. You are fantastic missy!!!
HCGShrinkingWoman 2 years ago
The classroom....PERFECT....I want everyone to try to get it down to 1 or 2 words....I think it's a better visualization. I can't wait to hear you share...it's therapeutic to voice the hurts. It truly helps you move past them....and it's free!
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago
I am here for you!!! My whole life is dedicated to seeing the world through Christ Eyes.
tennis2me 2 years ago
And that's a process like moving past the wt issues and keeping the wt off. I get better with each passing yr! Ppl need to understand Christians are not perfect....
HCGPartyTrain 2 years ago