mental illness.

[Blarson11]

Alot of people think its just i your mind and its fake because they can't see anything physical but when you start behaving strangley might be the only time people might notice this condition. Mental illness for the most part it an invisible disorder unlike being physically disabled.

[reshmecka]

i agree thanks for posting your thoughts

[1thebabyalex]

@Blarson11 A very slippery slope, conceptually! I do not subscribe to mental illness, but in the metaphorical, and legalistic-moral sense. Being labeled as mentally ill, is a way of framing problems in living and social conflict, and is as a "medical" and "biological" condition, such is very recent. Behaving badly need not capture the attention of those who are the labelers and stigmatizers, but when such attention is sought (or not), then, the psychiatrist is the social engineer par excellence.

[thecrackwalker]

Iam glad you "came out". I am coming out too.

good for you. bravo

[reshmecka]

thanks..congrats

[realsamwise]

Notice how I am not "fun69stein" and I did not post that. I am supportive, I have the issue myself

[Alora666]

Thanks for your honesty & bravery.I'm open bout my mental illness & attempt to educate people tho receiving ridicule as well..if I can help anyone my vulnerability is worth it no matter how much hurt.People suffer to varying degrees & mental health is still so stereotyped,shunned,denied.I'v­e gone thru alot & struggled 20+ yrs.-still get so frustrated by peoples ignorance.I'll always battle this disease daily,but must remember not alone & as lovable as any,even those "functional" peps!

[reshmecka]

thanks for the comment and compliments.. i agree 100% im lucky to be dealing with in in a generation thats a bit more understanding.

[ferretbussiness]

I do know how you feel about some things like I was diagnosed over 15 years ago as bi-polar II mixed, rapid cycling and this is NOT situational it is a physical illness and the brain is a part of the rest of the body. Thanks for your video. ferretbusiness

[srijune]

There actually exists healing! If you know someone who is seeking for help, there is more than hope. Convince yourself

[fun69stein]

mental illnesses are caused by years of masturbation. Stop masturbating and in 6 weeks time your brain recovers and you'll get your life back.

Drug companies make 250bln $ just on masturbation so don't expect them to find are the real cause.

Ask your local rabbi/priest/whoever who knows the Bible - and he'll tell you that Onan was killed as he was masturbating

[reshmecka]

what happens if you continue to masterbate?

[fun69stein]

man die as they loose copper with their semen.

liver, brain and kidneys cannot work without copper.

Woman get crazy.

Both sexes loose immunity and may get any disease, most often cancer.

[reshmecka]

ahh well mental illness isnt a desease you "catch" because you have low immunity..sorry you've gotten your facts mixed up. unless you were being humorous in that case..carry on

[tarquin08]

LMAO, I hope you were just trying to be funny.

[reshmecka]

i hope soo too haha

[realsamwise]

I would like to point out again that this person is not me.. *I* have a bi-polar issue and *I* am supportive.

[open4lunchanddinner7]

but I read before it is like a chemical imbalance. Is does happen if you get older if a person had a tragic event maybe, or an accident plus coming back from Iraq close to two years later, and it happening now has something to do with other things maybe who knows.:)

I know that this person show go out and meet friends see what happens and how they would transform into delicious but not yet though that's for later.

[Addydawn]

Situational depression can get as low as wanting to commit suicide. I have Bipolar Disorder and have experienced situational depression, also - that no med in the world can change. At least, there are meds for clinical depression. The situation has changed and I feel much better. I have also been able to go off of one med and am tapering off another. I am on a very good med for Bipolar stabilization. It is just that when I was in the sit. depression, they kept giving more meds. We can have both.

[reshmecka]

i certainly hope so.. and i'm glad to hear that you're happy with how everything is going i like it when people leave happy msgs its encouraging.

[rxqueen187]

Im bipolar too thanks for this video. Its hard to explain mental illness and people dont understand how it feels.

[reshmecka]

thats what i was a lil ticked about in this vid... .it is indeed hard to explain to people

who dont know

[thecrackwalker]

I am so glad you expressed this. I am just satrting in yourtube and Like this community. You inspire me.

[reshmecka]

aww thanks a lot.. ive gotten a lot of nice comments about these types of vlogs.

[Applextr]

You're either were born with mental illness or something bad happened to you, like you were abused or raped. People who have no one they love with mental illness will be quick to judge, but if a friend or family have of theirs have an illness than they quickly change their minds. I think that's cheap that they would wait until one of their loved ones have an illness to change their minds. They shouldn't even judge in the first place.

[reshmecka]

thanks

[thecrackwalker]

Yw, stay strong. rememeber the worst patrts are waves - they disapate sooner or later and life changes again... until the next time. so enjoy life to the fullest when you can. You rock.

[opticage]

"Mental illness" is a social construct, period. I am shunned and labeled and put into a convenient little box because people are cruel. At work, a girl asked me if I was a serial killer. That hurt so bad. I mean it hurt really bad, knowing that many people reject me without knowing me or understanding that I have feelings. They are the ones who are mentally ill. I have a unique perspective on life that I wouldn't trade for anything because it is the normal one.

[tonymack0471]

Find your local Depression Bipolar Support Alliance DBSA and build it. Here in San Francisco, we meet to talk, cope with those who are symptomatic, and swop info. about medication. It's like we're in church only we talk about hell more.

[reshmecka]

this was made a year ago.. and i was and am stable now... i see my shrink ever 6 months for new meds.. but other then that its smooth sailing.. thank you very much for your suggestion.. i do know where the mood and anxiety programs are in this city too now though.

[BeanSawx3]

When you feel down, remember- the earth itself is bi-polar.

[DazedandBemused]

I am totally right there with you. You're not alone. I can't stand it when someone says "cheer up, it'll be okay"...........cuz they don't understand what it's really like when depression really hits a mentally ill person like you or me.

[reshmecka]

soo true

[Addydawn]

I live in Philadelphia. I came from a smaller community in Southern NJ. I was being swallowed up by the cold, insanity of city life. Since living here, i have been in a psychiatric hospital 6 times in 2 years for Bipolar disorder. I do take prescribed meds., but situations still make me cycle rapidly and feel suicidal. I have found that going home to my roots makes me feel like my old self. Situations have as much to do with our disorder as biochemistry. Be well all!

[cosmanthony21]

excellent observation, last sentence.

[lucqybastard]

I have bi-polar and severe brain damage from when I fell due to a blood sugar outage.. Outside of a very every-day stutter (normal, occasional) and having to work slightly harder to speak clear, I display fine. I find it funny that I can pretend to be normal, be ok. But in all my lil rant I want you to know - if your a freak, I want to be one also, if we're freaks then its the normal people I would worry about - they seem kinda mean to me :p

BIG FREAKING HUG BABE :)

[gothicprincessgem]

i suffer badly with depresson & paranoid thoughts

its baditconsumes you .& yeah people don't understand but close family do

& it'll never change & like your happy then i just feel so down im going to my doctor lol

[Schizophrenik7]

I have schizophrenia and social phobia. I can understand every word you are saying. HOld on tight and never let people abuse you cause you are bi polar.:)

[dyluver14]

i used to have a friend that sufferedwith a mental defficiancy. she was diagnosed with a bi-polar disorder and i dont remebr the other one but it made her feel suicidal . and umm ...i was watching your video and i know excatly what your coming from because my friend used to tell me how she hated how people would think she was crazy because she suffered from a mental illness. she's much better now!!....although i hope you feel better!

[reshmecka]

bi polar is a disorder a mood disorder..not a defficiantcy.. that implies youre mind is difficiant.

bi polar can cause suicidal thoughts a lot i would attribute then to the bi polar more then likely.

i'm glad shes much better.... this vid was made a year about i was feeling fine then just pissed with non understanding people.. and i'm still doing well.. thanks for commenting

[dyluver14]

your welcome thanx for explaingit to me!!!!!

[rayburne]

I feel you 100%. I have a family member that suffers from depression. Too many people define those with mental illness by the illness alone. We do not call people "heart attack" or "strokes", why then are people called schizoid? Those of us that know better must speak up. Salaam.

[cosmanthony21]

are you sure that mental disorder is the same thing as a heart attack or stroke. It being physiological in nature...

[reshmecka]

this vlog was mad in angry i was ranting its my observation i'm not spewing facts.

[junkielora]

I hope you get better Reshmeka. You have a lot of reason in everything you say

[reshmecka]

im much better thank you.. and thank you for your comment

[Medusa63]

I totally relate to your vlog. I have also been diagnosed with BPD, OCD and ADD. Damn, all those D's lol Anyway, I was also taking Lamictal, Effexor and Serequel. It "does" get better though. I'm living proof. I am now working a job that I love and I rarely get depressed. I get stressed every now and then, but nothing like I used to. Hope you are well :)

[reshmecka]

thak you for commenting.. i am well actually.. was well when i made this too but even better then that now.

[jbhr1]

i no were you are im ther to thanks for your vid your not alone

[Peggie118]

I too am

[InGodWeTrust75]

Hi reshmecka I understand how insulting ppl can be when it comes to this. I am bipolar stage 2, OCD, and I have Manic Episodes..You nailed it on the head when you said ppl dont' know what it's like until they have lived it. I can't be around alot of ppl cuz i end up w/ anxiety. I wish you the best and I think it's great you do vlogs like this. Maybe one day ppl will understand, but then again there will always be that one asshole in the bunch that has something negative to say. I;m with ya.

[reshmecka]

thanks.. i know what its like to not want to be around a lot of people i have social and generalized anxiety.. they suck. one day people will be more understanding ... just think 50 years ago people like us got locked up.

[cosmanthony21]

so why perpetuate the idea that mentally ill people are somehow different than the rest of the people in the world.

[reshmecka]

mentally ill people ARE different in some aspects.. theres no way around that fact. but its natural for us to not wanted to be treated like that.

[cosmanthony21]

isnt that attitude an example of how "mentally ill" people are people and not simply pigeonholed as mentally ill. There are variations of human life, no doubt, but to alienate and ostracise yourself based on these theories and concepts does no one any good.

[reshmecka]

i dont alienate myself for any reason let alone because i have disorders and people like you who try to argue about how i deal with or talk about it are the exact type of people i'm talking about in this video.

[cosmanthony21]

I dont think Ill be able to convince you otherwise...Ill leave with this, because you say "People like you" you identify as a victim, Ive done this before and lost a dear friend for alienating her.

[reshmecka]

i say people like you because i'm used to people not understanding what it feels like inside everyone can sympathize but seeing it and feeling it are two different things... and i'm defensive about total strangers questioning my methods and beliefs about my own disorders... ive been fully functioning symptom free for over 3 years now and as i said this vlog was a rant about someone who insulted me. if you want to know how i really see it when im not angry look at my other bipolar vlogs.

[cosmanthony21]

i get that, i know how it feels when someone doesnt GET IT. Pain is pain. To think anyones pain is more exotic than anyone elses is stupid.

[reshmecka]

what exactly were you hoping to do by questioning and disagreeing with most of what i've said in this vlog.. really i dislike arguing a great deal i dont know what else i can say

[panickingjuggler]

the label "mentally ill" was created by the rest of the world. that's a seperation from it. so it's the rest of the world who create that boundary & then push people outside of it. the "mentally ill" are treated as the mentally ill, they're treated differently, looked at differently, which makes them feel different. society creates the label, the difference, not the person themselves.

[reshmecka]

THANK YOU! thats what i was trying to say...im not the one who made the stigma i'm the one who has to deal with it whenever i tell someone im bi polar or have social anxiety.. watch something in their eyes change to almost pity..

[TrueSin12]

The label "Mentally Ill" is just another label, it does not mean you're "Seperated" from the rest of the world, it just means that you have something that most people don't, it's not a label to make you feel horrid or anything that depends on the person who uses it, and of course Mentally Ill people are going to be treated differently, i mean look at all the different kinds of illness, some of the illness cause extreme anger and what if you say something that pisses you off, we dont know that.

[sociopathicregret]

I disagree that there is no trigger for certain types of mental illness. There may be no immediate trigger, but it builds up. BTW, I think most of the stigma comes from the very idea of mental illness being an 'illness'.

[reshmecka]

i was angry when i did this vlog.. i didnt mean theres no trigger.. i meant there doesnt have to be.

clearly i know there are triggers..since i deal with my disorders daily... good theory about the stigma..

[mahlesseh]

Good point! Ppl are naturaly scared of things that are unknown for them. Because mental illness scares ppl in that way they try and label it in a way it becomes easy to deal with. Don't feel hurt when that happens, just feel pitty with the ignorent :)

[reshmecka]

now that i'm well.. and still see that look of judgement when someone heres i'm bi polar.. i do feel pity..

[riffinmon6]

hey girl- join the club- been living with bipolar a long time- family dont talk about it- looked up "stigma"- from latin for tattoo or disgrace-sign of slave atatus or criminal status- its a hard world- come on again- Id like to chat with you- hang; richard

[moob744]

Respect to you, a brave girl to say the facts like you have. I am struggling with some so-called experts who think that CBT is the whole answer, ok yes it has it's uses, but people don't always fit into their neat little boxes! take care smiler!

[reshmecka]

yes unfortunately thats true things dont always fit neatly.. but if you have patience.. they will fit.. you take care too.

[midju]

well spoken. People out there are uneduacated about this.Iive been there...I have ADD...which caused me to be so depressed and everyone would say ...get over it,quit complaining,ect.Finally after all these years i was just diagnosed. I take ADDERALL and i am doing so much better.We cant help it if we have a chemical imbalance! Half the people out there have it and dont know it. Wish you the best!

[satsqueen90percent]

its ok for mad people to make videos if it helps them but mad people like epileptics have to be watched. what if a mad epileptic was flying a plane or driving a school bus or something? There should be a government register of epileptics so that neighbours can be aware of these people.

[telemetry9]

"never explain...your friends don't need it and your enemies will never believe you anyway."

[thewildeman2]

I applaud you. Well said in all terms.

[arcanesugar]

I commend you for speaking so openly and honestly about this illness--this chemical imbalance. There is so much ignorance out there. There are vids on here that infuriate me, this one user psychetruth thinks it's all a choice, etc. You keep strong, bravo!!!

[reshmecka]

why thank you.. and yes.. those its all a choice people are the ones who dont know anyone personally or have never dealt with it.. i wish karma worked faster and they were immediately made to deal with someone close to them having something of the sort.

[anasangel]

aww that was nice of em hehe!

[anasangel]

huh how rude! well done you for restraining yr hand to punch them in their face lol

[reshmecka]

well i couldnt it was in a cam chat.. but the person saw this vlog and sent me an appology.

[anasangel]

woooo well done thats great! yer definatly it makes me so angry when i overhear people talkin!

[reshmecka]

this vlog is about someone who was doing it to my face.

[anasangel]

hi i really liked what you said i have a mental illness too but its not depression! hang in there and keep fighting! im also doing an A-level in psychology an doing my project on perception of mental illness an found some of your comments really helpful thankyou!!

[reshmecka]

thanks hun.. i'm good now... been stable for a long time.. i just hate irnorance towards mental illness.

[louart17]

been dealing with deoression for 20 years,,cant get through work unless zonked out on meds..try to be happy fpr wife and kids but inside am rotting from lack of happiness.......work for the post office which doesnt help...please hang in there your important and vital........im quiet to get through life but inside im screaming my head off...........................­lou

[twoallbeefpatties]

I really don't know if we will ever be able to educate the ignorant because i don't think they want to understand us they just want to put a label on us and laugh. It's really hard sometimes dealing with heartless mindless people.

[reshmecka]

i totally agree

[ecologique79]

It's such a shame that the stigma still exists. I have panic disorder and it sucks that I feel that I need to pick and choose who I can tell. Some of us are wired as 'sensitive' people. Have you taken a personality test before? I'm an INFJ, and we're sensitive.

Don't let the insensitive get to you too much. I think you're brave and great for making this video.

[reshmecka]

ive have taken personality tests before i cant remember what i am.. sensitive is part of it though.. i tell anyone i'm talking to if it comes up or i feel they should know.. im not really sensitive about it anymore at first i was ashamed becuz of the stigma but now im not i just try to educate the ignorant now

[twoallbeefpatties]

From what i have read about Cymbalta it is a new antidepressant that is a cousin of prozac and works alot like Effexor. It works on the sserotonin and norepinephrine. I've read that sometimes you have to add something like Wellbutrin to the mix for better alertness and sex drive since the ssri's and the snri's total knock out the sex drive.

[reshmecka]

i think it would b e best to get your facts from a dr. i cant tell you which cocktails work.. only which work or didnt work for me

[twoallbeefpatties]

clonazapam is the generic for Klonopin and it is an anticonvulsant not a tranquilizer and Cymbalta is an antidepressant also not a tranquilizer and i was just wondering if anyone had any luck with the Cymbalta. I am two weeks into it and still nothing. I might try adding or switching to something a little more energizing.

[reshmecka]

clonazapam is a anxiolytic/sedative benzodiazepine. it is a tranq AND its an anti convulsion. double bonus. i've never heard of cymbalta.. but.. if its only been two weeks give it another two..from what my dr has told me it takes about a month for things to sort themselves out.

[twoallbeefpatties]

Hi, i was just wondering what kind of meds that you take becasue i may also have this. I do have the anxity and social anxity but not sure about the BPD yet.

[reshmecka]

i take an anti convulsion med for the bpd called lamotrigne or lamectol.. and clonazapam for my anxieties.. and that works wonders for me.

[twoallbeefpatties]

Thank you for sharing that with me. Do you know anything about a drug call Cymbaltra? That is what i have been percribed. I also take the Klonopin and i really like that for anxity.

[CreativeEnergizer52]

Cymbalta. Klonopin is a tranquilizer. Don't you hate it when people want to know why you don't just snap out of it? My answer is, ''are you saying that I'm lazy and enjoy being depressed and anxious and all I need is a good swift kick?" I think that a lot of people see the behavior as illogical...and therefore offer you a ''logical'' cure.

[reshmecka]

agreed. and i dont take either of those meds.

[Cayana]

Are you crying or are your eyes just really itchy?

Anyway I totally agree with you, someone who has not been through depression themselves can't truly understand what it's like.

[reshmecka]

im not sure if i was crying id have to watch it again chances are i was rubbing my eyes.. i seem to do that alot on cam.. i think its an anxiety thing

[androniko]

thankyou for your video it has comforted me i am myself very ill. you are also beautiful.

[reshmecka]

aww thank you twice.. i'm glad i could help

[lauracfc]

I know exactly what you mean. I'm sick of people who try to relate to what your going through, especially, the ones with a "great" life and also the people who make fun of it because of their ignorance.

[darkeststar82]

You're right, people who have never experienced this problem in any way have no idea what it's like. It pisses me off that people make light of it like it's no big deal or that you can control it.

[darkeststar82]

Mt ex-best friend was like that. She would say "Get over it" or yell at me when I wasn't as happy as she would have liked me to be. Can you guess why we aren't friends anymore? Back when I was suffering with Clinical Depression, I would actually be bed ridden, it got so bad. I physically did not have enough energy and also I thought there was no point. It's not only mental, but it's like I said, physical as well.

[Addydawn]

A mental health tech in a psyche hospital told me, "Get over it" and another asked us how we could ever want to commit suicide. talk about ignorance. Right in the hospital!

[reshmecka]

thats rediculous but it happens when i was suicidal i went to the hospital to be admitted and she said they couldnt take me until i actually hurt myself or something around me my mom had to hold me back when i lunged at her..

[Cayana]

Well whoever that is an idiot and should be fired. First off I've had the police rush over to my house before because I had some pills and said I wanted to take them, but hadn't done it yet. And why would they even want to wait for you to hurt yourself? Then you have to go down to the emergency room, get stitched up, get your stomach pumped, or whatever before they take you to the psych ward - way more work for them. They just like mopping up blood or something?

[reshmecka]

both my mother and i were very upset i didnt understand why either.. maybe its to weed on the people who are attention seekers i have no idea who would want to be places in a mental health hospital for attention.. i thought she should be fired too

[reshmecka]

yes i know these things already. if you look at my other vlogs i have three mental illness vlogs two outlining certain illnesses.

[gabagirl]

I completely agree. That's why I have no friends.

[reshmecka]

i have very few and the ones i do have are friends ive i had most my life...

[DXborderline]

There is alot of stigma attached to mental illness, it stinks. People tell me alot too things like "your more put together than I thought" because I am labeled mentally ill.

[str8jackit72]

awesome video darlin! Didn't realize you had such an awesome name ;o)

Bekkah xoxox

[reshmecka]

thanks.. aww youre a Becca too.. haha we rock dont we?

[str8jackit72]

you know it! lol

[reshmecka]

check out my other mental illness vlogs if the topic interests you

[str8jackit72]

Oh darlin, I'm already on it hehe xoxo

[robrobbins]

I feel some responsibility to mention what I found to be the cure for depression. If you can access the deeper reaches of the psyche and become more aware of the mythic imagination, it can be a powerful tool to control mood.

[reshmecka]

while i appriciate your mentioning this as it may help someone else watching.. its not applicable to my disorder.. bipolar is a brain disorder different from the normal ups and downs that everyone goes through..again thanks for the comment tho it may help someone else :)

[robrobbins]

I don't buy the "chemical imbalance" and "brain disorder" theory which denies any psychological factors because you always find out later that a person was molested as a child or there was something else of a psychological nature to explain the problem. Yet we are asked to believe that it is totally inexplicable. I just find the logic flawed in terms of cause and effect.

[pleonardsolis]

Well, I can say that I have had a great life as a child and a great life as a young adult, and I have have been suffering from a mental illness for a while now. There are many reasons as to why, and there is so much more to understand about the brain, however just because the logic doesn't work for you personally doesn't mean my mental illness, or anyone else's for that matter, doesn't exist.

[LizaJane77]

This video is so well stated, I wish I could verbalize this as well.

I also know how you feel about the stigma that goes along with things and how it at one time would have been embarrassing to say that you have any sort of mental issue.

XOXOXO

[fatdwarf56]

Resh, I am glad you did this vlog. And am glad you are my friend. :)

[SadieDammit]

It takes all kinds...

Good that you shared this!

[TroubleSquad]

Resh, thanks for sharing your rant (((hugs))).

[SeeVeeBee]

Anybody with respect for others wouldn't give you shit like that anyways. People suck sometimes.

[reshmecka]

i'll catch shit from someone i'm sure but fuck it its my opinion and im entitled... and i couldnt agree with you more alot of people suck haha you dont tho.. so its all good.

[Kratzlaff]

Do I hear mea in the background or is it just my stickam going off?!?! anyways I understand where u are coming from. People like to think things differently...people dont understand whats going on. they hear one things and turn around and ahhh..I duno..but I feel you missy! I love you dear I am here for u!

[reshmecka]

thanks hun.. this really isnt a i need support vid i'm pretty good at dealing with everything that comes with the disorders now. appriciate your support tho *hugs* love you too sista' friend.

[MeaCulpa66]

Oops ... I believe you got the "Live Comment" version :cP

[Kratzlaff]

lol it was live but I muted everyone so it was like still not muted it was weird LOL

[MeaCulpa66]

I know it's sometimes hard, but you should never let negative persons get to you ... negativity never is constructive, and we are here to grow ...

Afterall ... who cares what they think ... ((( Becca )))

[reshmecka]

this is true trish.. and even tho i dont want to insult anyone with this vid.. its my own feelings about it and its such a sensitive topic with me i had to say something... people can disagree with me if th ey like.. thats fine...as i said this is my opinion and my gut reaction...so in my mind i cant be wrong becuz its how i feel... thanks for the support *HUGS*

[reshmecka]

the dont piss off the crazy person line is from a window car sticker i have.. its a joke about me i'm not calling anyone "crazy".