Pot and me

[ISawLifeTwice]

I used to love smoking pot.I haven't in months.It helped me,it kept me calm.And distant from the pain in my body from the irreversible damage I did to it.I concur with your opinion and information on this.

[HarrySackthatsme]

smoked my last joint 2 weeks ago, for a while, might start again when i live alone. its a great drug, maybe the perfect drug.

[mara0facoma]

please watch"RUN FROM THE CURE" it is uploaded on youtube....this could help you and any other sufferers of bpd...

[NancyToday]

Celexa is my happy pill. No bad side effects for me. I'm sorry you have such difficulty.

[hazard2000]

@NancyToday The only happy pill you should need is red or green and we call it BEANS!

[noahm123]

I have been using cannabis for about 2 and a half years regularly everyday. I've lately noticed that ive been having some chronic depression. Its hard to explain how i feel but its horrible. im always judging what i do, i find it harder to socialize with people, i feel ugly. it seems like life is going by super fast and its bothering me. its like i went from being a little kid to an adult in an instant. could it be from the cannabis? someone please help.

[thecrackwalker]

@noahm123 IMHO If you have been using regularily and not had any depressions over the 2 yrs I would say the depression is not from the pot. but hey, who am I. try to stop using for a couple months, or until your depression lifts. Then try it again and check your results. Best of luck with your depression

[GAREMPOTS]

@noahm123 ye i do bellieve its related too your problems im talking through exprience you need too stop it and take up an active life get the endorfeens round your brain plenty of sun light and good food too do this you have too really change your life ive beaten addictions its hard but you should feel better quickly if you stop and take exercise good luck

[MindAndMarzipan]

Pot does give me anxiety, but I can use it once in a while as a release valve. Medications do not work for me. I've given up on them.

[hazard2000]

@MindAndMarzipan Pot shouldnt give you anxiety, you are probably using the wrong kind of pot for your symptoms, the most common * race * of weed is called Indica, Indica is a great plant for helping people with sleep/eating disorders and those who need pain relief. It gives you what we call * couch lock *, however it can make you slightly paranoid at times, and make you think alot which can turn to anxiety quickly, espically if your on meds and have mental illness or anxiety problems

[hazard2000]

@MindAndMarzipan Sativa however is the opposite, it wakes you up, and has a very psychedelic feeling and can be overwhelming if its your first time smoking or have low tolerence, Sativa makes you think less, and will keep you awake, when using marijuana as medication its extremely important to use the right kind, or you may make your symptoms worse, which is why its important to do it legally if you want to medicate with it so you know 100% your getting what you need, not what some1 else does

[soullavee]

You need to meditate and get in touch with your Soul". smoking to numb a pain of depression is like drinking to try and forget. you wake up in the morning with a piled up feelings, the feelings you suppressed with pot instead of facing and dealing with them. pot is a smoke screen and will put you out of touch with your feelings. you are an intelligent and beautiful woman, don't succumb to some illusion :-)

[thecrackwalker]

@soullavee I don't use pot and lose touch with my soul. Pot makes it easier to do that. It helps me greatly in my illness. I am not suppressing my pain, I am facing it

[CantWeedThis]

@soullavee

When i smoke its the only time i can actually experience my feelings so i dont know what youre on about. There are billions of people and cannabis just so happens to be one of those things that effects everybody in unique ways. I dont like when people talk like their experience will apply to every other person.

[hemigod2]

when ever i tried to smoke pot id think about my sick father so much id scare myself sober.I am a musician, i am becoming very famouse, but when i dont play music I am either with my dad or alone with my thoughts of my dad....my only escape from the pain is my guitar.

[thecrackwalker]

@hemigod2 I am sorry you have pain about your father. I also hated my father. he was cold cruel and distant. I spent 50 some odd yrs trying to get him to love me with no success. It took yrs of therapy for me to finally see he was not a good an after all. I had so uch pain and guilt. then I ade the video "dad fuck off" it helped quite a bit

[1thebabyalex]

I am wondering how you have come to reconcile your psychiatrically imposed label with your social and moral self. This "avoidant" disorder you have is most morally prescriptive of a profession that has thorouughly medicalized all manner of social and moral concerns in culture. Have you come to reinterpret your "psychiatric-self", as imposed by the those drug abuseologists, passing off their morally prescriptive approaches, as if such were truly medical! I repudiate such psych drivel!

[thecrackwalker]

My goodness.! what a response and in high language too. But I will respond as I do. My moral self and my psychiatric self are now bonded. This video is 2 yrs old. I have come a long way since then. the problems that my illness produces are now coped with by me not doctors, not meds. I am very into learning to adapt my difficulties to fit my abilities. this video is not professing anything, only my accounting of my own findings. I use meds as an extra. to help in certain areas, not zobie shit

[debbiez112]

I agree booze is so much worse than pot. I think pot should be legal. Pot works wonders for crippling arthritis as my sister B1tchy08 said so well.

[thecrackwalker]

oh ye4ah, booze makes you crazy if you take too much, you loose control of your faculties and body movenets don't work so great. None of that with pot

[B1TCHY08]

I have used it for 40 years off and on. As I get older I don't even think of it as a fun type of recreational drug, nope, now it's MEDICINE. I have severe arthritis in my spine and joints. It does alleviate most of the pain. I have cut way back on all of my prescribed pain meds because of this. My only hope is that the government will wake up and legalize it's use.

Thank you for showing us this video. :)

[thecrackwalker]

hey b1tchy08, nice to meet you. exactly. How well you put that. I have been trying to find the words and you gave them to me. May I use it? with you credited for the birth?

[B1TCHY08]

Sure you can use my words. :) Nice to meet you too.

[thecrackwalker]

awesome

[SADenmark88]

Smoking pot vs. medicin! Thats about the money, if we get better from smoking, we dont need the meds, and the corporations that make these pills will loose money. I think thats why it is illigal. Just my oppinion:)

I dont feel that the pot makes me numb, but it helps me get through an anxious situations, more comfortably.

[thecrackwalker]

the pot costs just as much as the meds if you look at street prices. I am just saying for me and a lot of other people, it is used in conjunction with our meds. I take the lowest dose possible in my meds and use the pot when meds aren't enough

[SADenmark88]

Yes, but who is making the money from the pot beeing sold on the streets? Not the same people who are getting money from the meds.

Im not saying that meds can´t be good for some people. I just feel that the reason it is illigal, and beeing used as reasons for people having social problems is that they will loose money if people prefer pot over pills.

[thecrackwalker]

pot was made nillegal by harry ANSLINGER IN THE UNITED STAtes for the purtpose of upsetting the spanish speaking community and the blacks. it was purely racial. It hAD NOTHING TO DO WITH MONEY. nOW THEY KNOW THEY CAN MAKE MONEY OFF POT, WAIT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT

[SADenmark88]

I didnt know that, but im sure that was not the case in Denmark since weo dont really have alot of spanish speaking or black people for that matter..?

So what is gonna happen next? I really feel som bad vibes from you man. I dont really know were you´r going with this?

[thecrackwalker]

oops, sorry I have answered this once before but i guess it got "lost in transission". sorry about the bad vibes.. its y typing. I can't do it. i use two fingers and I watch them. lol many ntimes I hit enter before I look at the screen. reading over what I said to you, yah... sounds like a witch hunt eh? lol sorry. no harm meant. I was in a "mood". I apologize for ruffling feathers - friends?

[SADenmark88]

Im not sure i get what you meen, but Im cool, no hard feeling:)

[HeidiJoanne34]

I have been diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder and used alcohol to self medicate from 15 to 32 and it made my symptoms ten times worse. I switched to pot about two years ago and quit drinking. I would like to stop the pot as well but I'd rather do this than be on medication because in my experience at least I know what to expect from pot and I feel more me than I do on meds.

[thecrackwalker]

alcohol only intensifies your problemms and adds anixety and guilt. Not the way to go. Pot is very helpful, but by all means if yuour condition is severe you should be on a med until you stabilize.

[abuseforapie]

I jus stumbled across your vids, and I love them. You have given me insight.

[thecrackwalker]

Well, Thank you so much. I surely hope these videos are helping some people. :)

[phsjr]

would you say that pot is psychologically addictive to you personally? as in you feel that you need/want it when you are going through or trying to prevent deppression.

[thecrackwalker]

Not really. I used to go to drink if I was terribly upset and depressed. a long time ago. That never solved anything - only numbed me for a while. the pot actually allows me to live a normal life. I am a chronic user - which means its daily so I don't get the effects a new smoker would get. I just feel relaxed and I feel like working. my brain is relieved from bad memories and I can focus on my tasks at hand.

[phsjr]

@thecrackwalker im soon to become a psychologist so thats why im kind of interested in what you're saying. you said you have a disorder, which would be a chemical deficiency or imbalance in your brain. if you have been effected by this all along then what do you know to be a normal life? not to sound mean. personally i dont believe a person could ever call their own life "normal" nor should they seek what they consider to be just "normal". a different perception of your emotions could help alot.

[thecrackwalker]

a normal life? well that would be organized thinking, reasonable mood swings, able to socialize, have faith in myself, have someone to love and to love me. Have "normal" problems as in bills and raising a family and all that goes with it. Something that is not strife with mood swings and deadly depressions. Being able to assimulate and interpret my thinking so I can enjoy life in a more understandable way. did that make sense? its not just my emotions. its the past. I have to learn to kill it.

[mcnutters17]

Oh god thats the song i listen to when i smoke. Tom petty. Either that or pink floyd. God honest truth. I smoke pot for my anxiety and sleep. Regular scribbed meds dont do a damn thing. They make me feel worse. My medication is pot. I agree with everything you said. It helps me sleep. Puts me right now. it helps with my depression also. I use it for medical reasons. I am 19 years old so everyone thinks i use it for fun. honestly it is fun but i use it more for sleeping. Good video. thank you.

[thecrackwalker]

It's good to hear people are starting to realize the hidden benefits of thc lol :) 'ere

[raine0acid]

ur fuckin super droopey

[thecrackwalker]

I guess you are allowed your opinion

[chuckchizzle]

I have adult ADD,when I smoke I am able to focus,multi-task and I have gotten 2 promotions with my company(I am a DM).

Smoking in moderation is good.

smoking for fun is good.

[thecrackwalker]

lol well I think we both agree that pot is a necessary herb for mental health then..

[metaphysicslab]

Its absurd doctors make you go through a bunch of different toxic psychiatrics before marijuana. Marijuana should be the first one.

It's nothing but bias from propaganda and lack of actual experience.

It's sad what gets passed under the guise of 'proffesional' 'intelligent' and 'medical' these days.

[youtuba87]

I was just wondering, what effects regular nicotine cigarettes have on you?

[thecrackwalker]

they addicted me

[youtuba87]

I just got diagnosed with schizoid pd. also a bipolar... i get really manic sometimes. I thought for a long time I had Asperger´s. i still think so actually, beacause I was diagnosed through a personality test not through "are you autistic?" test. All I know is that I really need some pot. They say it makes wonders. My life has been a hell. I´m only 22, handsome, and I should be enjoying life to the fullest right now, but I have a curse... Thanks for the videos!

[sausagelamo]

stop making excuses we just know you want pot because you have no job.

[thecrackwalker]

trouble maker

[abbybast]

pot head....

[thecrackwalker]

and yer point is??

[burntout84]

well said!

I've never suffered from mental illness, I enjoy pot for recreation, the way I would enjoy a glass of wine.

Also I don't know if I can completely agree with you. I feel that any time you rely on a substance in the long term you will have problems.

[thecrackwalker]

because of my mental illness, I must take anti-anxiety drugs. these are all addictive. I would be addicted to them my whole life. I don't want a life of addiction. so I smoke pot. I have to rely on a substance whether it be prescribed or illicit

[FOSxPwnage21]

im having mental illnesses but idk if its from the weed or just from stress, i fight with my mom ALOT and i know pot does help me but idk...

[giovnniiiiiiiiiiiiii]

damn lady your too cool haha your videos crack me up your awesome i give you props!

[thecrackwalker]

we are not alone.. we just have to find each other

[GloFreak]

I hear myself in your words. thank you for sharing and thank you for speaking out.

[TonyKaku]

Hi crackwalker, you are in Ontario, so you can get the strain you want through the mail - no fuss, no muss. If you want, I can give you a few contacts. Just send a message to me and I can forward them to you.

[thecrackwalker]

I admire your guts - dealing on the net...

--no thanks

[TonyKaku]

Not me, I have neither bought nor sold on the net of off. I am just saying that I know of at least one reliable (and presumably licensed) service that does. In the very least, they can supply seeds that would allow you to take things into your own hands.

[thecrackwalker]

seeds are freely solg anywhere is canada.. but i do not need this help.. please stop offering this.. I am not interested

[TonyKaku]

My apologies.

[SuuperNouva]

are you using sativa or indica pot?

[thecrackwalker]

I am not a conniseur. :) My friend i smoke street pot. whatever is in da bag dude...

[SuuperNouva]

hee hee. yeah sad. that is prohibition does to all of us.

[thecrackwalker]

yeah but any pot fills the void

[thecrackwalker]

good for some, bad for some, personal decision

[WannaTalk2GOD2]

Weed is Ok, It just makes me EAT TOO MUCH! However it does help the pain!! They should legalize it!

[PiNGGTGTGTG]

My stance is you already have a low watt brain. and when you super charge a lowwatt brain with pot it wont help. for an intelligent person marijuana will not make you lose memory or any of that garbage. You just dont have the mental capacity to remember so many things..lmao

[thecrackwalker]

My first "snerp". I'm honoured.

[rjaya05]

Wow! well put Joe Rogan.

[magickcatmojo]

how do you post videos longer than 10 minutes? also I noticed some time counters don't show how long vid is they just count down. and does it take an hour or more for your vids to upload mine take forever it seems

[thecrackwalker]

They just seem to take them no matter how long they are. I have seen some in here over an hour. It takes forever to upload. It depends on your connection speed and computer.

[taotapp]

Legalize it! :D

By pot, you mean marijuana, right? If so, the only bad thing I've heard about it is that it messes up your hippocampus, which is like the memmory area, if I remember correctly.

In any case, it's great that you found something that works. Good luck in the future, and /screw/ doctor prescribed medication that gives awful side effects.

[taotapp]

Oh, and also, you should mention that alcohol supplies its drinkers with estrogen which, when given to men, can result in impotence if it's ingested too frequently.

[thecrackwalker]

Yes marijuana. lol It does frig with your memory but only while you are high. it blocks pain and pain is caused by memories so the bad things get forgotten while you are hig and made into warm fuzzies.. you don't forget the past or you don't lose reality.. just fuzz it up some. :) and that's the point. numbing pain. easing discomfort.

Don't get me wrong, meds are good sometimes too or maybe in conjunction with pot. Like i am doing.

[thecrackwalker]

Yup good ol' weed.

Your memory does get a little short when you are high, you get forgetgful, but it isn't long lasting, only while you are high and its not really all that bad, the memory is there you just have a problem accessing it.

[maximotion]

Will email you on my thoughts on this but basically agree with your stance.

[thecrackwalker]

ok got your e-mail... and I fixed the spam thing.. ta-dahhhh I rock!