"Watch a cat when it enters a room for the first time. It searches and smells about, it is not quiet for a moment, it trusts nothing until it has examined and made acquaintance with everything."
- Jean-Jacques Rousseau
"What have you done to the cat, dear? He looks half-dead."
- Mrs. Schrödinger
“For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.”
It feels like I'm stuck inside a tumor of cancerous people constructing cancerous systems, raping and destroying the environment and each other, and I at this point have only a fragment of sanity and light left which I hold on to and protect from the world.
I retreat into nature as I feel kinship with the Earth and Trees and the Light itself.. My heart feels Presence with Nature, I'm not alone there. But humans are destroying that too. So I feel you. Know that. Keep working on what you Love.
Story of my life. It has always been hard for me to link up to the social hypnosis, the most horrible things like fascist laws, wars and torture and rampant destruction of environment being taken for granted as "normal behavior". The loneliness is horrible, and more than once I've considered leaving this place. I haven't left yet. I've turned my solitude into meditation. Now I rely on the solitude, as I can't rejoin the world of humans. I'm truly sick to my stomach of it, it's killing me.
You just connected with the human race my friend. Life is a journey. Now seek the ones that can feed not just your mind, but your sol. Slow down look around you. Your eyes are open and there is a reason for it. We are like a catapiler about to bust out of our cacoon like a butterfly. Dont fear your on emotions dont question your feelings. You are on the right path.
5--do. To see the horros of their actions is too much to bear. I can only look at it sideways. and it is that SHOCK and revulsion that is natural, because what they kill is themselves. But they have made earth, animals, everyone into objects. all around is insanity so us sane ones gotta stay in touch and spread out
4--this. I hope you know that. Not everyone is asleep. Their evil is their propaganda and even occultism/magick which is used to create this unenlightened mass and this is how they spread their tyranny. they depend on us being unconscious of what they are up to. But we aint, and to make sure to spread this awareness around. this is a big reason they want to shut down the internet, but even if they were to they cant shut down spirit.
if they had ANY feeling, any empathy they couldn't do what they
3--and loved to cmoke draw was all EXCITED about the firework effects of the war. i was UTTERLY disgusted with her, and will never forget that horrible reaction to the horror of that.
YOU are having an ongoing enlightenment experience. not the phony new age shit, but real enlightenment where you see how those around you are unconscious! It must be exactly the same as those in Nazi Germany would have felt to be aliienated from the zillions of hypnotized Hitler robots!! tyou are NOT alone with
2--So i literally feel like an ALIEN. I am puking shocked to my core what is going on and most of my shit is exploring how the fuck this has happenened, and whys. So it is asking questions like you. cause THAT is how we fukin find out!
I will never foreget seeing the first video war evil of the first Gulf war. I was round at some friends, and the daughter of the woman who was married in her early 20s
I cannot describe how much I love your videos. And this one goes VERY deep into me. You have a way of intimately talking to --or through the camera--to me.
I have felt VERY fukin alien for a LONG time! I can identify with 'real aliens' who must look aghast at what the fucks and those asleep who support them are doing to the Planet Earth, all other species, and their own kind.
one of my favorite things to do is pretend i'm an alien. it cracks me up how "these beings" are so wrapped up in their idea of isolation and seperateness. i can't help but think of how funny it will be when the moment of realization occurs for them...because it must. the paradigm "these creatures" dwell in is so unhealthy and dangerous that it is inevitable for them to Actually See very soon.
i want people to see that the whole political system is an outdated dogma that isn't good for anyone.
Your not alone brother, I feelthe same from day to day. I ask myself why? how? and for what?.....I still dont know....You are lucky to have a child play with him show him this world the beatiy of it, because if he gets the chance to live his life he will see the rest of it.
i feel sheltered, and ignorant at the same time, cause i can't stomach the news. i feel blessed to live where i live ('stralia), and dislocated at the same time. but i don't mind to feel alien - would be more grieved if i identified with the things that are passing away. my family are the bugs and creatures who are alien to this culture too. i feel like i want to help people more, and stop the harm - but my art is for kids and i'm finding it real hard to be positive. one more :) for good luck
weather is important :) work environment isn't a natural setting for relationships. nothing you talk about is weird. but how you talk about it is quite lovely and it's clear you that you care very deeply. i know it doesn't help but i'm glad you don't care about cars anymore :)
Yes.. alien. Disconnected. Horrified at all of it. I don't think I have had an authentic conversation with anyone for many years. So what is your answer to the important question... "Am I doing something wrong?"
I have found one place where I feel moved. The local "Dances for Universal Peace" bring me to tears and I am not sure why even that. LOL It's just the one right thing in the world. What am I doing wrong?
Brother I'm sick of this crap, I feel like I live in a nation full of financially, morally and spiritually illiterate and bankrupt morons. If I hear some jackass say this country is the greatest nation on earth one more time I think I'm going to fucking puke. I'm a citizen of the world not some fucking nation state empire that thinks killing brown people for OIL is fucking somehow OK while having the gall to have one nation under God in their pledge of allegiance. Yeah I feel alien alright.
I feel you on this one. Lately I have been feeling deeply affected by my sensitivity to my environment. I am finding the practice of Tonglen (taking & receiving) very helpful as I go deeper into compassion for myself and for all beings. With this practice I no longer feel isolated, but I feel deeply connected to the global family. It is a useful tool. Peace to you my brother.
"Watch a cat when it enters a room for the first time. It searches and smells about, it is not quiet for a moment, it trusts nothing until it has examined and made acquaintance with everything."
- Jean-Jacques Rousseau
"What have you done to the cat, dear? He looks half-dead."
- Mrs. Schrödinger
“For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.”
- Ecclesiastes 1:18
Tressco 3 days ago
"Human sickness is so severe that few can bear to look at it...but those who do will become well - Vernon Howard"
Beatnuk 1 month ago
It feels like I'm stuck inside a tumor of cancerous people constructing cancerous systems, raping and destroying the environment and each other, and I at this point have only a fragment of sanity and light left which I hold on to and protect from the world.
I retreat into nature as I feel kinship with the Earth and Trees and the Light itself.. My heart feels Presence with Nature, I'm not alone there. But humans are destroying that too. So I feel you. Know that. Keep working on what you Love.
Beatnuk 1 month ago
Story of my life. It has always been hard for me to link up to the social hypnosis, the most horrible things like fascist laws, wars and torture and rampant destruction of environment being taken for granted as "normal behavior". The loneliness is horrible, and more than once I've considered leaving this place. I haven't left yet. I've turned my solitude into meditation. Now I rely on the solitude, as I can't rejoin the world of humans. I'm truly sick to my stomach of it, it's killing me.
Beatnuk 1 month ago
You just connected with the human race my friend. Life is a journey. Now seek the ones that can feed not just your mind, but your sol. Slow down look around you. Your eyes are open and there is a reason for it. We are like a catapiler about to bust out of our cacoon like a butterfly. Dont fear your on emotions dont question your feelings. You are on the right path.
lastpatriot4America 1 month ago
5--do. To see the horros of their actions is too much to bear. I can only look at it sideways. and it is that SHOCK and revulsion that is natural, because what they kill is themselves. But they have made earth, animals, everyone into objects. all around is insanity so us sane ones gotta stay in touch and spread out
zezt 1 month ago
4--this. I hope you know that. Not everyone is asleep. Their evil is their propaganda and even occultism/magick which is used to create this unenlightened mass and this is how they spread their tyranny. they depend on us being unconscious of what they are up to. But we aint, and to make sure to spread this awareness around. this is a big reason they want to shut down the internet, but even if they were to they cant shut down spirit.
if they had ANY feeling, any empathy they couldn't do what they
zezt 1 month ago
3--and loved to cmoke draw was all EXCITED about the firework effects of the war. i was UTTERLY disgusted with her, and will never forget that horrible reaction to the horror of that.
YOU are having an ongoing enlightenment experience. not the phony new age shit, but real enlightenment where you see how those around you are unconscious! It must be exactly the same as those in Nazi Germany would have felt to be aliienated from the zillions of hypnotized Hitler robots!! tyou are NOT alone with
zezt 1 month ago
watch?v=jSXkHB9FOKM
fckuvrymch 1 month ago
watch?v=BP0QSYwCzuo
fckuvrymch 1 month ago
2--So i literally feel like an ALIEN. I am puking shocked to my core what is going on and most of my shit is exploring how the fuck this has happenened, and whys. So it is asking questions like you. cause THAT is how we fukin find out!
I will never foreget seeing the first video war evil of the first Gulf war. I was round at some friends, and the daughter of the woman who was married in her early 20s
zezt 1 month ago
i love you and i see your eyes are heavy with the weight.
i want to see your eyes beam again.
fckuvrymch 1 month ago
I cannot describe how much I love your videos. And this one goes VERY deep into me. You have a way of intimately talking to --or through the camera--to me.
I have felt VERY fukin alien for a LONG time! I can identify with 'real aliens' who must look aghast at what the fucks and those asleep who support them are doing to the Planet Earth, all other species, and their own kind.
zezt 1 month ago
i can totally relate. i have trouble relating to people in public situations.
oh god, almost all of what you say from 4:20 to 4:32 is right in tune with me.
unplug. go to a retreat if you need to.
inner peace is a priority to me.
i cant find divine wisdom if i dont first have peace in my mind.
fckuvrymch 1 month ago
seriously ask yourself what inspires you, austin.
look back over your life and see what really makes you weightless.
fckuvrymch 1 month ago
thanks for sharing. we love you, man.
donHooligan 1 month ago
one of my favorite things to do is pretend i'm an alien. it cracks me up how "these beings" are so wrapped up in their idea of isolation and seperateness. i can't help but think of how funny it will be when the moment of realization occurs for them...because it must. the paradigm "these creatures" dwell in is so unhealthy and dangerous that it is inevitable for them to Actually See very soon.
i want people to see that the whole political system is an outdated dogma that isn't good for anyone.
donHooligan 1 month ago
Your not alone brother, I feelthe same from day to day. I ask myself why? how? and for what?.....I still dont know....You are lucky to have a child play with him show him this world the beatiy of it, because if he gets the chance to live his life he will see the rest of it.
earthpilgrim0 1 month ago
i feel sheltered, and ignorant at the same time, cause i can't stomach the news. i feel blessed to live where i live ('stralia), and dislocated at the same time. but i don't mind to feel alien - would be more grieved if i identified with the things that are passing away. my family are the bugs and creatures who are alien to this culture too. i feel like i want to help people more, and stop the harm - but my art is for kids and i'm finding it real hard to be positive. one more :) for good luck
weeearthlings 1 month ago
weather is important :) work environment isn't a natural setting for relationships. nothing you talk about is weird. but how you talk about it is quite lovely and it's clear you that you care very deeply. i know it doesn't help but i'm glad you don't care about cars anymore :)
weeearthlings 1 month ago
You remind me of someone typing this.
I feel your pain bro.
PauliesCustoms 1 month ago
Yes.. alien. Disconnected. Horrified at all of it. I don't think I have had an authentic conversation with anyone for many years. So what is your answer to the important question... "Am I doing something wrong?"
I have found one place where I feel moved. The local "Dances for Universal Peace" bring me to tears and I am not sure why even that. LOL It's just the one right thing in the world. What am I doing wrong?
RunAMuckGirl2 1 month ago
Brother I'm sick of this crap, I feel like I live in a nation full of financially, morally and spiritually illiterate and bankrupt morons. If I hear some jackass say this country is the greatest nation on earth one more time I think I'm going to fucking puke. I'm a citizen of the world not some fucking nation state empire that thinks killing brown people for OIL is fucking somehow OK while having the gall to have one nation under God in their pledge of allegiance. Yeah I feel alien alright.
UU361 1 month ago
I feel you on this one. Lately I have been feeling deeply affected by my sensitivity to my environment. I am finding the practice of Tonglen (taking & receiving) very helpful as I go deeper into compassion for myself and for all beings. With this practice I no longer feel isolated, but I feel deeply connected to the global family. It is a useful tool. Peace to you my brother.
aces122 1 month ago