This may sound very stupid and heartless but this video reminds me of that Doctor Who quote "If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best."...So probably if u know u'll die u should try to forget all those crappy moments in ur life :)
This might be late; but I'm so sorry...I feel ya in some ways, not all, but lets just say my family is a "troubling" one with different sorts of issues, but I would like to say it warms my heart to see people warming up and both expressing themselves maturely as you have, and as empathetically as you have. Might not make sense, but Its tough for me to make it make sense...grammer sucks..anyways...good luck, and happy trails.
I believe travelling to parallel universe would be easier than time travel, then again it could in itself require such a thing, there is always the singularity though or if it means that much to you, you could gamble on quantum immortality to force the universe to submit to your demands, forcing yourself into a reality where what you wish for is true, very risky strategy the last one though.
That was beautiful. I have sat here trying to think of what to say and nothing that adequately matches how much that touched me will come out of my fingers via the keyboard. It is just nice to know that there are strangers like you in the world.
I only found you today but wow. Kinda reminds me of your skype-video about when you just want to hug people. But that's not what you want to hear probably since you said you did this post-SitC for a reason so I'm going to say: You are awesome. I haven't really immersed myself in the youtube community much but I'm starting to and it's just so nice to see a video like this and hear about what a wonderful place it is and how supportive and nice youtubers can be. XD
I just started watching your vids through savannamazing and emilythebravee and I gte y u don't want my sympathy..so no sympathy just the fact I wanted to say tht stay strong... k no more mushiness :)
Fake Hank Green? French The Llama I love nerdfighteria.
I feel a bit awkward about online friendships as well. I find it helps to think of them as normal relationships, but instead of all the lovey feely physical crap, it's a relationship based ENTIRELY on communication, which I see as a good thing.
I really want to jump into my computer screen and just hug you. Not because I'm being sympathetic but because I understand. I've found my family,and I'm glad you have too. Whenever I find someone who's relative has passed away because of suicide,it gives me hope to know that I'm not alone. You're brave and amazing,I'm so glad I found this video. Thank you,for just being you and for being so honest to everyone.
I felt like watching some of your videos, since, well, you were on Stickaid. And I love this, what you said about VidCon, because it's the exact way I felt about Stickaid. It was just awesome, the whole experience. I wasn't there, and I couldn't stay awake all the 24 hours, but still. It was the best thing ever. Okay, bye! :) You seem like an amazing friend, I just have to say that.
i keep trying to write a comment and end up deleting it.... but thereloads of comments here that sum up what i want to say and do so more elequantly than i ever could (and their spellings better) but you seem like a lovely person and i cant believe this is the first of your videos that i've seen.
My friend (the short random teenage girl that'll hug you @Pixiestix123321) sent me here and I'll be hugging you as well :) I like hugs and maybe I'll wear my freehugs shirt? Making friends through hugs and youtube is the way to go
This video touched me so much and I wanted to let you know that. You're such a genuine person. Stay gold!
I don't suppose there is much that can be said that would be of much condolence...
What I will say is that I've watched your vlogs for years now, unlike a lot of people you always seem genuine. So while we obviously only see and hear about small bits of your life, I kind of feel like I know you and what you're really like. Which is so very odd due to it's one sidedness :)
...Speaking of lions, I'm totally seeing the Lion King in 3D this weekend.
Sorry, was that insensitive? I really didn't mean it to be... If I ever randomly just happen to see you in real life, you're getting a hug. You'll know it's me, because it's not every day that a short, teenage girl hugs a stranger for no apparent reason.
And I thought I was the only one who didn't like sympathy. And that I was being a bit ungrateful. When something bad happens to me I don't want people mentioning it, it just makes me sad and it makes me want to cry. So I completely understand you and feel a bit better about my not liking sympathy. :)
I really like your videos too. Looking forward to seeing more of em. :)
Thank you so much for that Video. Because of my history it really touched my heart. You seem like an amazing person and I would be honored to be a part of your YouTube family. Already subscribed :o)
Hey I watched this video before and didn't really know what to say so after seeing it again I think I will comment this time. I'm Indra and I saw you around VidCon a couple times and I wish I came up to talk cause you seem like a really cool guy. I am really happy I subscribed cause you seem to be one of the most meaningful youtubers in my subscription box :)
This is the first video of yours i've ever watched but you already made me cry. Hello Ali, I'm Mishie. :) Hopefully next year I'll be able to attend VidCon. And if I see you there, I hope you don't mind if I give you a hug. Hehe.
I saw you around VidCon but I saw you once and you were talking to a couple people and I just sort of walked by and you and the people you were talking to gave me sort of dirty looks and I felt bad like I intruded on something. But, I'd like to be friends :)
I don't comment a lot because I tend to watch on my mobile, but I do watch every video you make, which may say a lot since the only others who could claim that are John&Hank,Chris Kendall,Peter Kuo,Simon(jarhead)&Bill, but as hard as it is for me to watch this, I understand,&while I wish you didn't have any reason to tell (I wish she was here), I am glad you shared so we can be appropriately insensitive: so we can still poke&jab&make lame jokes because you're as much a fun guy as any mushroom.
I had to come and watch this after your newest video and OMG i nearly cried ... I havent read Looking for alaska ... But i shall purchase it to fully understand what you meant when you said id means more to you.
I love the Youtube community and you are an amazing person :D <3 ...
Emily the Brave brought me here, and I'm a new fan of hers, so I really have no idea who you are. I just want to say that this made me cry. A lot. I'm so sorry, and I love how you're brave enough to talk about something like this. I just started watching you and I already love you so much. I'm looking forward to seeing more of your videos soon. <3
This is one of the first videos that i saw of yours. I felt like i had stumbled onto something i shouldn't have, because this was just so honest, personal and heartful that i felt i wasn't supposed to hear it. Watching it, i cried. Thinking about it, and a situation where my brother died, got me hysterical and i couldn't calm down for several minutes. Though i admit that's nothing to your pain. I wish that i could hug you right now, because this is one of the bravest things i've ever witnessed.
I can't pretend to understand what you went through, but I respect you so much. There's just something that makes you respect a man who isn't afraid to cry.
This is the very first video of yours i seen ( tallatstarbucks mentioned you in a video) and i really liked the some of the stuff you said about the youtube community! You seem really awesome and looking forward to seeing more of your videos! DFTBA
uhm, so hi. ive watched this twice now. cried twice now. i think ill just watch it again and again. because im trying to understand, but i dont think i will because ive never lost anyone that close to me. my cousin, whos been my sister through out my short life tried to kill herself and i just felt helpless. sure shes an annoying fuck, but really, she'll always be my sister. it sounds confusing. but if she succeed i would be as strong as you or be able to keep going. your an inspiration.
@dafatunicorn Hi. I find responding to comments in this video really difficult, because I don't have any answers, but I wanted to acknowledge to you, and anyone else reading this, that I am reading them.
Wow firstly I'd like to apologise for being a crappy subscriber and only just watching this video. (family holiday in France haven't caught up yet)
This made me cry, I know you said about sympathy not helping but I'm sorry for you and I wish I could give you a massive hug. I've lost people close to me before and its awful and difficult. People around you can't do anything to help but if you wanna talk to someone feel free to message me.
Also it's more awful because (from your videos) you're o
I just sumbled across this randomly. I just wanted to say that this is the bravest thing I've ever seen. I don't even know you, but I hope that some day I'll be half as couragous as you are, and I hope that everything in your life works out well :)
@BillTVMacon has always talked about how awesome you are, and how his experience on YouTube has become so much richer having known you. I'd be OK with getting to know you better, too. : )
Ive only just started watching your videos after I saw emilythebravee had linked you in her video of Vidcon and I'm pretty glad I decided on your youtube to click on. This video obviously means a lot to you and I am personally very touched by it. Youtube is your family and its great that you try and share as much as posible. I was going to make a video response but sadly I am a vlog virgin and suck with cameras. Waiting for your next update!
Awww this near made me cry :( my mum is really sick, like she's got dementia and motor neurone disease which means she's slowly losing herself both mentally and physically and it just really sucks and like people keep asking me, "How's your mum?" and I don't know what they're expecting, like she'll by some miracle be getting better? And I totally know how you feel like unless I bring it up with someone, I don't really want to talk about it.
This video meant so much to me. I'm 14 and earlier this year my best friend was killed. I still don't know if she committed suicide or if it was an accident, but everyday i think of her. I know you don't want sympathy and i remember i never did either, because like you said "only if you have a time machine". I remember all i ever wanted was a hug and i wish i could give you a real one, but right now i'll just settle for virtual. :') *hugs* Stay strong<3
This video made me smile in an odd way. You're so brave and I admire you so much seeing someone be that stron and open is really inspirational. You truely are and amazing person and I'm proud of you even though I have never met you I really am proud. :) xxx
Naww . . now you dun made me cry, Ali. You did the right thing to talk about this. I talked about something personal & painful in a t.v. docco, about 8 yrs ago. About 2.3 million viewers first time around, and then they went & repeated it on a New Year's Eve 'Docco of The Year" thingy.' Got stared at for a week or two, on each occasion, but I never regretted it and neither will you. Never dreamt that you & I would have anything in common . . but now we sorta have. Your 'sore-throat' voice = cool
ali, this video was amazing. raw. honest. everything youtube should be. i'm very glad you made it, and slightly regretful that i didn't make more of an effort to talk to you when we were near one another at vidcon. i feel like i know you a tad from honestovlog, etc. but we haven't interacted much.
anyway, i'm glad you got that moment with john, and had such a great time at vidcon. it truly was a wonderful experience. cheers.
This got lost in my sub box when you first posted it and I wish I'd seen it sooner because now I don't know what to say if you do choose to come back and read the new comments but... I have so much respect for you. I did before, but much more now, and for our community. I want to talk to you about bright things in the near future I hope :)
Wow, Ali. I *just* saw this, and I'm sorry for your loss. We should talk sometime, on Skype, same username. I have a few stories of my own. I hope you're feeling better and that your memories of your sister shall not fade.
<3 Cried. You are marvelous. I'm so glad you got to meet John and have that moment. And now I'm horrified that I bugged you so much about making videos a few months ago. Very happy you're back, though. :)
So, I'm really glad that 1) you made this, 2) Emilythebravee linked this video to one of her own, and 3) that I saw both. As someone who is super-empathetic, this really touched me. I would give you a hug if I saw you in the street for this, and then continue to chatter to you about lions and nerdiness and other such awesome things. Your honesty is refreshing, and I'm looking forward to being a new friend. :)
Cant possibly imagine what you have had to deal with, but will say that there are enough people out there (and here) who are, and will be there to support you at all times. Stay strong mate :)
So, I wish I could hug you. You almost made me cry, which is a very hard task my friend. Although, you do look a bit like Hank, except for the accent of course.
Wow, incredible video - I've known about you for a long time through the ACB vids - and saw you pop up everywhere at the two Vidcons - but this is really something special...and it's a great tribute to the YouTube community, as well. Wishing you all the best...
Oh man. We don't know each other, though I think we have a mutual youtube friend, but I just wanted to say that, even though you've probably read this a hundred times in the comments now, I don't think my amount of respect for you could be higher right now. I can't even imagine.
So so so so much respect and admiration for you from this video, if I ever have the privilege of meeting you in person 3 things shall occur: 1) the manliest of handshakes 2) the biggest of hugs and 3) the best of times!
Hello. Emily brought this video to my attention when she linked it at the end of her video a couple of days ago, and I have to say that you have my utmost respect right from the get go. I can tell it took a lot to tell your viewers, so thank you for doing that, and I do hope that we can become friends. =]
Ali, I'd been aware of you for a while because Bill from BillTVMacon is one of my favourite favourite youtubers, but it's not until now that I subscribed. Telling your viewers this meant a lot to me and I really respect you for it. I look forward to watching your future (and indeed, past) videos and I hope that we can become friends too :)
Hey, just wanted to say that it was really cool of you to be so open with you're viewers. i know a lot of people draw a line between their viewers and their life so this means a lot.
Ali, you are an absolute hero! I've respected you for many a day since I met you at the beginning of Term (you can probably guess who I am), but this is something that truly raises the bar. A powerful video and a powerful man on screen!
I admire your bravery, among many other traits that I've seen. And, this is only the first time I've watched a video of yours. You're the kind of person that I think people should strive to become, just saying (:
You have a great attitude and I wish you much success, good health and happiness always. Your work is very creative and I have enjoyed it all. I am very sad to hear about your personal tragedy and I hope you will emerge a stronger person as you realize the fragility of life. Thank you for sharing with us. I feel like we are close friends.
You are so right about making friends with all your subscribers, as I am living proof. You are really good at being a nexus of Youtubers and at drawing people in around yourself. I'm glad that VIdCon was such a positive experience for you, and that I could be a part of it. *internet hug* <3
Normally, i never cry. Not when i'm hurt, not when i watch a movie,... I realized this a few moths ago, Since then i've been trying to show my emotions more often . But every time i wanted to cry, it was as if i didn't remember how.
When i saw your video, i cried, for the first time in years. i didn't even 'want' to. It really touched me that you are so honest about yourself, although anyone can see you... This video is one of the bravest things one could do on Youtube.
I met you (at Impatience gathering, exams made me miss the later Great Lion Violation) you seemed like the sort of person who I wanted to be friends with and you were very friendly. Even though I don't make videos, I also see YouTube as a family place and the two gatherings I have been to so far are beginning to create a whole other type of friendship for me.
Hope life gives you a break for a while and that SITC is good.
P.S. I was the redheaded girl in the nerdfighter teeshirt
@hippyfriend Oh yeah, forgot that I'm facebook friends with you (because obviously I have such a busy IRL life that I don't notice facebook. Obviously). Still, think this is far more appropriate written here.
Also, be careful with lions from now on, having watched The Lion King a few times I know they are prepared to wait years for revenge.
This is the first video of yours I've watched and I feel closer to you than 80% of the other youtubers I'm subscribed to. I know it's hard when you lose someone and it's even harder to share it. So I admire your courage and thank you for sharing this. I hope your friends, family and this community help you to survive this tragedy.
I was almost in tears when watching this video. The YouTube community is becoming more than just people laughing at a guy making tea, it's about how each and every one of us will help another YouTuber in a time where it counts.
I got sent here from another video and the bit where you talked about the "aw" kind of sympathy from people I really understand. I've struggled with death and worse quite a few times in my life and it's really hard. Also Hugs are an Emotional Heimlich so they are awesome. Yeah I'm really glad I got redirected here via the amazingness that is the Youtube community. So good luck, and never forget where your towel is.
I think it's amazing you decided to share this. I'm struggling to tell some new friends about my mothers death and this has given me a bit more motivation
I just want to say that this was the first of your videos that I've watched, and you have my deepest admiration. you seem like a very strong, and absolute wonderful person and I look forward to watching more of your videos <3
Subscribed, liked, commented etc. but to me it can't express any emotions or sentiments other than 'ooh i like this person/video', it can't say what this video did to me so I'd give you a high-ten followed by a chest bump and a happy dance. :D
Alex sent me to Emily, who sent me to you. I didn't know about you before this...SO ummm, instead of just telling you that I wish I could hug you right now...I will talk about Lions as you've asked. Lions are one of the four big cats! They are native to sub-saharan Africa; there is also an endangered variety from Asia. Our modern name for them comes from the latin name, Leo! Ummm...that's all I got off the type of my head...
I'd forgotten about this video in my sub box as I only scaned over it once. Emilythebravee reminded me of it. It took a while to come here. I won't give you sympathy because you don't need nor want it. I will however express to you Dan Brown was wrong. You can start to understand people deeply though media, but it takes willingness on both parties to do that. I've only been around for a few months, but enjoying what you are doing and looking forward to more. Thank you, my friend, for sharing.
This was incredibly brave of you to post. I always admire when someone goes through something tragic and comes out of it true to what they believed before. It shows tremendous courage that you didn't waver from love and kindness.
Also, I can't understand how you've been such a crazy awesome subscriber to me for so long, and I never thought to check you out before! Changing that now.
Emily sent me here, and I'm so glad that she did! I subscribed, liked, favorited, all that. This video is simply wonderful. You are a brave person, and I admire you. Since I'm now subscribed, I'll work toward being your friend. (:
Thank you for being so brave, and for sharing this with us. You really are an inspiration to us who've gone through rough times, and I regret not being able to meet you at VidCon. (I saw you several times, thinking you were Hank, haha.) Hopefully I'll get to see you at VidCon next year? :)
I get that sympathy is probably the last thing you want or need, but I will tell you that what you did here was beyond brave. You should be very proud of yourself, and the feeling of understanding and...just togetherness that you have created. I am sorry for what's happened to you, but you seem very strong. You will be just fine.
Hi, I'd never seen a video of yours before this one (Emily sent me), but after watching this and a few others, I thought, "Hey, this guy is nice, honest, and excellent at making videos. I think I'll subscribe to him." So hello! I'm new to your videos.
Putting up this video must have been a hard thing to do, but I'm glad you did it and I respect you for being honest. I also respect you for keeping on doing what you love even after a tragedy. I am extremely glad I found your videos.
I'm going to be honest, this was the first video of yours that I've seen, and I feel a little bit awkward watching it. You seem like such a genuine person, and I felt a little uncomfortable knowing something so personal about you without even saying hello to you before. So, hi. My name is Nadia, and I love this community as well.
This was really beautiful, Ali. We've only ever passed each other and hung around the same groups at VidCon, but we've never really chatted, yet I've always thought you were such an interesting person. Thank you for being such an open vlogger because it's so appreciated as a viewer.
Oh, wow. I just discovered you through emilythebrave and... Id on't know I just want to get to know you. You seem like such a wonderfully brave person. Thank you for this video.
Hello. I was directed here by emilythbravee. This is the first video of yours I have ever seen (that's a damn shame for starters) This was amazing and I think your are awesome and brave and honest to make it. I will be at SitC. I will not say aw. But I would love to be your friend. Also Lions are awesome.
@ThePatrickWorld I regret saying that, especially as this video has got a bucketload of comments and I'm having too much fun in LA to respond to them.
Ali, I'm so glad I had the fortune to meet you at VidCon. You are awesome and amazing, and thank you for trusting me, as a person you've never talked to before, and shared what was going on with you at the time. I'm glad I could be that friend for you. You give the best hugs ever, and I hope we remain friends. I'm always here for talks and virtual hugs if you need me!
It was great meeting you this year! You were lively and charming and I was extremely jealous of how outgoing you were. As well as your Buffy adventures.
I really don't know what to say other than; you sir, are a very brave and admirable person for making this video. If I ever get the chance to meet you the first thing I'm going to do is say hi and give you a super amazing hug, because that's just how I am. However, i feel like that will be quite some time before I ever meet you since I live in California(and yeah, I didn't go to Vidcon) and you live across the pond. So most definitely I'm going to become friends with you in the mean time. :D
I was really set back by your revelation at the beginning of this, Ali, but as requested, I won't go there, other than to say that you just gave me a much deeper understanding of yourself.
I *wish* I'd made it to Vidcon, but it wasn't to happen. To see the emotional impact it had on you, when you really needed it, warms me deeply. I can add nothing more than a small but well intended Cyberhug.
Thank you, Ali.
AlphaNerd3 3 days ago
She seemed so happy :( why would she? sorry for your loss
DrowningInDreams 1 week ago in playlist 15 Best YouTube Videos of 2011
This may sound very stupid and heartless but this video reminds me of that Doctor Who quote "If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best."...So probably if u know u'll die u should try to forget all those crappy moments in ur life :)
janet4759 2 weeks ago
lions :D stupid things yay stupid things...
yakupyusupov10 1 month ago in playlist 15 Best YouTube Videos of 2011
This is the firs video I've watched of yours and I know that it's people like you who make YouTube what it is. You've got a brand new subscriber :)
996o0o966 1 month ago in playlist 15 Best YouTube Videos of 2011
reeped a lion?
riveaa 1 month ago in playlist 15 Best YouTube Videos of 2011
Im glad I saw this, made me cry, your a real man!!
justajavajunky 1 month ago in playlist 15 Best YouTube Videos of 2011
This might be late; but I'm so sorry...I feel ya in some ways, not all, but lets just say my family is a "troubling" one with different sorts of issues, but I would like to say it warms my heart to see people warming up and both expressing themselves maturely as you have, and as empathetically as you have. Might not make sense, but Its tough for me to make it make sense...grammer sucks..anyways...good luck, and happy trails.
gohindha89 1 month ago in playlist 15 Best YouTube Videos of 2011
Fantastic video, always good to see a real man. one who can open up
FalseFace13 1 month ago in playlist 15 Best YouTube Videos of 2011
I believe travelling to parallel universe would be easier than time travel, then again it could in itself require such a thing, there is always the singularity though or if it means that much to you, you could gamble on quantum immortality to force the universe to submit to your demands, forcing yourself into a reality where what you wish for is true, very risky strategy the last one though.
googolplexbyte 1 month ago in playlist 15 Best YouTube Videos of 2011
That was beautiful. I have sat here trying to think of what to say and nothing that adequately matches how much that touched me will come out of my fingers via the keyboard. It is just nice to know that there are strangers like you in the world.
LuneFromage 2 months ago
I only found you today but wow. Kinda reminds me of your skype-video about when you just want to hug people. But that's not what you want to hear probably since you said you did this post-SitC for a reason so I'm going to say: You are awesome. I haven't really immersed myself in the youtube community much but I'm starting to and it's just so nice to see a video like this and hear about what a wonderful place it is and how supportive and nice youtubers can be. XD
MichaelaOnAir 2 months ago
I just started watching your vids through savannamazing and emilythebravee and I gte y u don't want my sympathy..so no sympathy just the fact I wanted to say tht stay strong... k no more mushiness :)
mermaidfairy08 3 months ago
i love that ur sensitive and that u exprest ur self other guys wouldnt dare to show there emotions on the internets.
sindyherrera1 3 months ago
Fake Hank Green? French The Llama I love nerdfighteria.
I feel a bit awkward about online friendships as well. I find it helps to think of them as normal relationships, but instead of all the lovey feely physical crap, it's a relationship based ENTIRELY on communication, which I see as a good thing.
Random stranger love <3
OrgasmandTea 4 months ago
I cried with you, but pshh no sympathy here.
A pirate walks into a bar with a ship's wheel on his crotch. Bartender says man, that looks uncomfortable. Pirate says arrgh, it's drivin' me nuts.
Lions to you Ali, we are glad to have you on youtube to enjoy.
christyt1993 4 months ago
I really want to jump into my computer screen and just hug you. Not because I'm being sympathetic but because I understand. I've found my family,and I'm glad you have too. Whenever I find someone who's relative has passed away because of suicide,it gives me hope to know that I'm not alone. You're brave and amazing,I'm so glad I found this video. Thank you,for just being you and for being so honest to everyone.
HelenaAndWhatever 4 months ago
I felt like watching some of your videos, since, well, you were on Stickaid. And I love this, what you said about VidCon, because it's the exact way I felt about Stickaid. It was just awesome, the whole experience. I wasn't there, and I couldn't stay awake all the 24 hours, but still. It was the best thing ever. Okay, bye! :) You seem like an amazing friend, I just have to say that.
Linawk 4 months ago
i keep trying to write a comment and end up deleting it.... but thereloads of comments here that sum up what i want to say and do so more elequantly than i ever could (and their spellings better) but you seem like a lovely person and i cant believe this is the first of your videos that i've seen.
nemothehobofish 4 months ago
My friend (the short random teenage girl that'll hug you @Pixiestix123321) sent me here and I'll be hugging you as well :) I like hugs and maybe I'll wear my freehugs shirt? Making friends through hugs and youtube is the way to go
This video touched me so much and I wanted to let you know that. You're such a genuine person. Stay gold!
allenexXxgolove 4 months ago
*hugs*
I don't suppose there is much that can be said that would be of much condolence...
What I will say is that I've watched your vlogs for years now, unlike a lot of people you always seem genuine. So while we obviously only see and hear about small bits of your life, I kind of feel like I know you and what you're really like. Which is so very odd due to it's one sidedness :)
Pook365 5 months ago
...Speaking of lions, I'm totally seeing the Lion King in 3D this weekend.
Sorry, was that insensitive? I really didn't mean it to be... If I ever randomly just happen to see you in real life, you're getting a hug. You'll know it's me, because it's not every day that a short, teenage girl hugs a stranger for no apparent reason.
Just saying.
Pixiestix123321 5 months ago
@Pixiestix123321 Clearly you haven't tried offering them candy.
Now THAT was insensitive...
OrgasmandTea 4 months ago
I'm new here and you just touched me so much, i hope you're coping well xx
chloemcampbellXD 5 months ago
Normally I don't cry that often, but...I am crying now.
melissamielke 5 months ago
YouTube videos rarely making me cry but this one made me bawl.
DontBlink7920 5 months ago
And I thought I was the only one who didn't like sympathy. And that I was being a bit ungrateful. When something bad happens to me I don't want people mentioning it, it just makes me sad and it makes me want to cry. So I completely understand you and feel a bit better about my not liking sympathy. :)
I really like your videos too. Looking forward to seeing more of em. :)
ursaux 5 months ago
Thank you so much for that Video. Because of my history it really touched my heart. You seem like an amazing person and I would be honored to be a part of your YouTube family. Already subscribed :o)
oTheZomgKittyo 5 months ago
DFTBA, man.
mirex951 5 months ago
Hey I watched this video before and didn't really know what to say so after seeing it again I think I will comment this time. I'm Indra and I saw you around VidCon a couple times and I wish I came up to talk cause you seem like a really cool guy. I am really happy I subscribed cause you seem to be one of the most meaningful youtubers in my subscription box :)
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MAdcityboi26 5 months ago
This is the first video of yours i've ever watched but you already made me cry. Hello Ali, I'm Mishie. :) Hopefully next year I'll be able to attend VidCon. And if I see you there, I hope you don't mind if I give you a hug. Hehe.
myfakebritishaccent 5 months ago 12
@myfakebritishaccent I look forward to it. START SAVING NOW! (That's how most of us get to VidCon. We plan ahead.)
RogueBlueJay 5 months ago
@RogueBlueJay On a whole, how much would you say you spent? :O Planning ahead and all.
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@RogueBlueJay On a whole, how much would you say you spent? :O Planning ahead and all.
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7Girls1Adventure 5 months ago
I saw you around VidCon but I saw you once and you were talking to a couple people and I just sort of walked by and you and the people you were talking to gave me sort of dirty looks and I felt bad like I intruded on something. But, I'd like to be friends :)
teganbowiefreak 5 months ago
@teganbowiefreak Dirty looks :( Shame, it would have been nice to hang out.
RogueBlueJay 5 months ago
@RogueBlueJay It would have! Next year, I guess.
teganbowiefreak 5 months ago
I don't comment a lot because I tend to watch on my mobile, but I do watch every video you make, which may say a lot since the only others who could claim that are John&Hank,Chris Kendall,Peter Kuo,Simon(jarhead)&Bill, but as hard as it is for me to watch this, I understand,&while I wish you didn't have any reason to tell (I wish she was here), I am glad you shared so we can be appropriately insensitive: so we can still poke&jab&make lame jokes because you're as much a fun guy as any mushroom.
122172639 5 months ago
I had to come and watch this after your newest video and OMG i nearly cried ... I havent read Looking for alaska ... But i shall purchase it to fully understand what you meant when you said id means more to you.
I love the Youtube community and you are an amazing person :D <3 ...
helloitsmasterhulk 5 months ago
Who the hell disliked this? Don't people have any respect anymore?
daire0528 6 months ago
I LIKE GORILLAS.
hberg520 6 months ago
Emily the Brave brought me here, and I'm a new fan of hers, so I really have no idea who you are. I just want to say that this made me cry. A lot. I'm so sorry, and I love how you're brave enough to talk about something like this. I just started watching you and I already love you so much. I'm looking forward to seeing more of your videos soon. <3
TotallyObsessed98 6 months ago
@TotallyObsessed98 Seconded :) <3
aphness 6 months ago
This is one of the first videos that i saw of yours. I felt like i had stumbled onto something i shouldn't have, because this was just so honest, personal and heartful that i felt i wasn't supposed to hear it. Watching it, i cried. Thinking about it, and a situation where my brother died, got me hysterical and i couldn't calm down for several minutes. Though i admit that's nothing to your pain. I wish that i could hug you right now, because this is one of the bravest things i've ever witnessed.
RhondaAnaconda123 6 months ago 6
This video, in combination with the lion humping and the offensive jokes pretty much shows that you're an awesome person.
Nannirk 6 months ago
LIONS! FUUUU YEAH!
Nero111417 6 months ago
I can't pretend to understand what you went through, but I respect you so much. There's just something that makes you respect a man who isn't afraid to cry.
TheHarlequinade 6 months ago
luv ur accent!! awwwwwwwwwwwwwww dnt cry!!!!!!!! gna mke me cry!!
XiLUVeuJUNGx 6 months ago
luv ur accent!!
XiLUVeuJUNGx 6 months ago
This was just amazing. I love how unbelievably honest you were in this video. Bravo.
neondreamscollide 6 months ago
This is the very first video of yours i seen ( tallatstarbucks mentioned you in a video) and i really liked the some of the stuff you said about the youtube community! You seem really awesome and looking forward to seeing more of your videos! DFTBA
lawkaiti 6 months ago
LIONS ARE THE BEST.
maoismdoesntwork 6 months ago
I came here cause of Emilythebravee, and I'm glad I did :)
Nerdzareprettytoo 6 months ago 19
@Nerdzareprettytoo me too :)
dimplez293 6 months ago
:|
GoodjobStephen 6 months ago
uhm, so hi. ive watched this twice now. cried twice now. i think ill just watch it again and again. because im trying to understand, but i dont think i will because ive never lost anyone that close to me. my cousin, whos been my sister through out my short life tried to kill herself and i just felt helpless. sure shes an annoying fuck, but really, she'll always be my sister. it sounds confusing. but if she succeed i would be as strong as you or be able to keep going. your an inspiration.
dafatunicorn 6 months ago 3
@dafatunicorn Hi. I find responding to comments in this video really difficult, because I don't have any answers, but I wanted to acknowledge to you, and anyone else reading this, that I am reading them.
RogueBlueJay 6 months ago 5
@RogueBlueJay this video just kind of meant alot to me
dafatunicorn 6 months ago
Wow firstly I'd like to apologise for being a crappy subscriber and only just watching this video. (family holiday in France haven't caught up yet)
This made me cry, I know you said about sympathy not helping but I'm sorry for you and I wish I could give you a massive hug. I've lost people close to me before and its awful and difficult. People around you can't do anything to help but if you wanna talk to someone feel free to message me.
Also it's more awful because (from your videos) you're o
Alura 6 months ago
I got here from EmilytheBravee's video... This was very brave <3
backformore06 6 months ago 3
This is one of the bravest things I've ever seen anyone do. You're an inspiration.
paulisnatis 6 months ago
That was very brave of you. Thanks for sharing.
matthewdryden 6 months ago
I know this has been said a lot of times already, but this video is so moving. It made me feel very sad and verry happy at the same time.
I find it so brave of you, that you shared this with all of Youtube. Really.
EmmaSOlesen 6 months ago
I just sumbled across this randomly. I just wanted to say that this is the bravest thing I've ever seen. I don't even know you, but I hope that some day I'll be half as couragous as you are, and I hope that everything in your life works out well :)
chazzalyn 6 months ago
I'm sorry for your loss.
MsKOgden 6 months ago
i think i just fell in love with you.
orkavaradu84 6 months ago
@BillTVMacon has always talked about how awesome you are, and how his experience on YouTube has become so much richer having known you. I'd be OK with getting to know you better, too. : )
~ Jethro.
IJethrobot 6 months ago
Ive only just started watching your videos after I saw emilythebravee had linked you in her video of Vidcon and I'm pretty glad I decided on your youtube to click on. This video obviously means a lot to you and I am personally very touched by it. Youtube is your family and its great that you try and share as much as posible. I was going to make a video response but sadly I am a vlog virgin and suck with cameras. Waiting for your next update!
L x
LenaMaa1 6 months ago
Awww this near made me cry :( my mum is really sick, like she's got dementia and motor neurone disease which means she's slowly losing herself both mentally and physically and it just really sucks and like people keep asking me, "How's your mum?" and I don't know what they're expecting, like she'll by some miracle be getting better? And I totally know how you feel like unless I bring it up with someone, I don't really want to talk about it.
ammiella 6 months ago
This video meant so much to me. I'm 14 and earlier this year my best friend was killed. I still don't know if she committed suicide or if it was an accident, but everyday i think of her. I know you don't want sympathy and i remember i never did either, because like you said "only if you have a time machine". I remember all i ever wanted was a hug and i wish i could give you a real one, but right now i'll just settle for virtual. :') *hugs* Stay strong<3
carilloony 6 months ago
This is the first video of yours I've seen, but you are SO BRAVE.
I'm sorry for your loss, and I'm sure you'll get through this =)
Grabblar 6 months ago 3
This made me smile and laugh.
Kynthiafernable 6 months ago
@Kynthiafernable and cry.
Kynthiafernable 6 months ago
I like Lions too :D
TheCHADE3 6 months ago
Im so so sorry about your sister:( i feel so bad.i dont know what else to say.keep strong.
AdrianRocket98 6 months ago
This video made me smile in an odd way. You're so brave and I admire you so much seeing someone be that stron and open is really inspirational. You truely are and amazing person and I'm proud of you even though I have never met you I really am proud. :) xxx
Ionaspheric 6 months ago
OMG, at first i wasnt sure if this was serious but i am soo happy for you!! Be strong sweetheart :D xxx
1993tahira 6 months ago
I love you lots and lots too. :P I admire the fact that you take time to respond to us. :)
natzau 6 months ago
Naww . . now you dun made me cry, Ali. You did the right thing to talk about this. I talked about something personal & painful in a t.v. docco, about 8 yrs ago. About 2.3 million viewers first time around, and then they went & repeated it on a New Year's Eve 'Docco of The Year" thingy.' Got stared at for a week or two, on each occasion, but I never regretted it and neither will you. Never dreamt that you & I would have anything in common . . but now we sorta have. Your 'sore-throat' voice = cool
stufish4040 6 months ago
Thank you.
DaftBryan 6 months ago
ali, this video was amazing. raw. honest. everything youtube should be. i'm very glad you made it, and slightly regretful that i didn't make more of an effort to talk to you when we were near one another at vidcon. i feel like i know you a tad from honestovlog, etc. but we haven't interacted much.
anyway, i'm glad you got that moment with john, and had such a great time at vidcon. it truly was a wonderful experience. cheers.
fecklessman 6 months ago
i already was super thrilled that i got to hug you at VidCon (cuz like, seriously, Ali hugs are like the champagne of hugs) but now even more so.
also, even i did a double take one time. except i was like, "hey, there's Ali. or wait, is it Hank? no, it's Ali." :P
although maybe you should make a twitter and DailyBooth account where you post pictures and tweets as if you were Hank. "fakehankgreen" XD
ChelseaIRL 6 months ago
This got lost in my sub box when you first posted it and I wish I'd seen it sooner because now I don't know what to say if you do choose to come back and read the new comments but... I have so much respect for you. I did before, but much more now, and for our community. I want to talk to you about bright things in the near future I hope :)
MichelleTells 6 months ago
Wow, Ali. I *just* saw this, and I'm sorry for your loss. We should talk sometime, on Skype, same username. I have a few stories of my own. I hope you're feeling better and that your memories of your sister shall not fade.
zottepark 6 months ago
Totally awesome.
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MrUHeep 6 months ago
It's a wonderful community and I'm glad you're part of it--new subscriber.
songsqueer 6 months ago
<3 Cried. You are marvelous. I'm so glad you got to meet John and have that moment. And now I'm horrified that I bugged you so much about making videos a few months ago. Very happy you're back, though. :)
eversinceimmortal 6 months ago
So, I'm really glad that 1) you made this, 2) Emilythebravee linked this video to one of her own, and 3) that I saw both. As someone who is super-empathetic, this really touched me. I would give you a hug if I saw you in the street for this, and then continue to chatter to you about lions and nerdiness and other such awesome things. Your honesty is refreshing, and I'm looking forward to being a new friend. :)
PolesitterPictures 6 months ago
Making this video was so courageous of you. It's beautiful. And lions and rawr and stuff. <3
rocketwreck 6 months ago
Cant possibly imagine what you have had to deal with, but will say that there are enough people out there (and here) who are, and will be there to support you at all times. Stay strong mate :)
strauchanside 6 months ago
I can't say anything more then all of the other people who've commented, but this was incredibly touching, thank you for sharing it.
AdamOfNebb 6 months ago
There is a lion video?
BobbyJellyBean 6 months ago
So, I wish I could hug you. You almost made me cry, which is a very hard task my friend. Although, you do look a bit like Hank, except for the accent of course.
teenwriter89 6 months ago
You're my hero.
Harrypottergals123 6 months ago
Wow, incredible video - I've known about you for a long time through the ACB vids - and saw you pop up everywhere at the two Vidcons - but this is really something special...and it's a great tribute to the YouTube community, as well. Wishing you all the best...
WorldAccordingtoRich 6 months ago
:') thanks for sharing that...
a couple months ago, my uncle commited suicide. he had a wife. he had kids. there was no note, and no one know why he did it. but he did.
Thanks for opening up...and hello new friend. :)
ASilveryBlue 6 months ago
I just stumbled upon this video. It hit me hard. Thanks for sharing this.
MisterMrErik 6 months ago
You've shown such amazing character from this one video, I find it heart-warming there are people like you in this world. Continue to be amazing.
tregard 6 months ago
I don't think you really know how brave and amazing you are. Never stop being incredible, love <3
findloveineverything 6 months ago
Oh man. We don't know each other, though I think we have a mutual youtube friend, but I just wanted to say that, even though you've probably read this a hundred times in the comments now, I don't think my amount of respect for you could be higher right now. I can't even imagine.
knowahsark 6 months ago
I only just found your videos through this but you're an amazing person <3
RackiePlib 6 months ago
So so so so much respect and admiration for you from this video, if I ever have the privilege of meeting you in person 3 things shall occur: 1) the manliest of handshakes 2) the biggest of hugs and 3) the best of times!
DoctorHutton 6 months ago
This is the bravest video I've seen. Brave, especially, for the amount of joy you expressed. Much love. See you soon.
mickeleh 6 months ago
Hey Ali, I miss you and can't wait to give you the biggest hugs at SitC. lots of love, Georgia, your daughter :) <3
GiaPotato 6 months ago
Hello. Emily brought this video to my attention when she linked it at the end of her video a couple of days ago, and I have to say that you have my utmost respect right from the get go. I can tell it took a lot to tell your viewers, so thank you for doing that, and I do hope that we can become friends. =]
livinonaprayer802 6 months ago 3
Ali, I'd been aware of you for a while because Bill from BillTVMacon is one of my favourite favourite youtubers, but it's not until now that I subscribed. Telling your viewers this meant a lot to me and I really respect you for it. I look forward to watching your future (and indeed, past) videos and I hope that we can become friends too :)
KatieAtLarge 6 months ago
Hey, just wanted to say that it was really cool of you to be so open with you're viewers. i know a lot of people draw a line between their viewers and their life so this means a lot.
thatonechickbec 6 months ago
I saw you around VidCon several times, but never came over to say hi. Wish I'd come to give you a hug now! Take this virtual one? *hugs*
BrandNewGen 6 months ago
I found this through Emily's video. It was really moving. You seem really awesome so I'm gonna subscribe :)
Also, hope to see you at SitC!
aquatius5 6 months ago
Sending you love and stuff and letting you know you're one of the uni people I miss the most. Up there with Carrie. YEAH.
If you don't feel loved now you are a FOOL! <3
Nayomie1992 6 months ago
so, i'm only just seeing this now since you're not talking at me in person anymore =p but yeah, i'm glad you did get this up. <3
LivonIsMe 6 months ago
Ali, you are an absolute hero! I've respected you for many a day since I met you at the beginning of Term (you can probably guess who I am), but this is something that truly raises the bar. A powerful video and a powerful man on screen!
Hope you're well, and I'll see you in October!
IAmTheSecretOfMana 6 months ago
This was sad and beautiful and lovely. Thank you.
UsingATelescope 6 months ago
I haven't really thought of anything perfect or fitting to say. So, Ali, all of he hugs go to you.
emmfan09 6 months ago
<3
TheDanc1nghawk 6 months ago
I admire your bravery, among many other traits that I've seen. And, this is only the first time I've watched a video of yours. You're the kind of person that I think people should strive to become, just saying (:
thegrandyfinale 6 months ago
Oh my God that so sad I don't know what I do if I lost my sister I'd probably fall to pieces I'm so glad you haven't stay strong Ali
Chrisindapurplehouse 6 months ago
You have a great attitude and I wish you much success, good health and happiness always. Your work is very creative and I have enjoyed it all. I am very sad to hear about your personal tragedy and I hope you will emerge a stronger person as you realize the fragility of life. Thank you for sharing with us. I feel like we are close friends.
Cosperus2 6 months ago
You are so right about making friends with all your subscribers, as I am living proof. You are really good at being a nexus of Youtubers and at drawing people in around yourself. I'm glad that VIdCon was such a positive experience for you, and that I could be a part of it. *internet hug* <3
P.S. I'm glad you like the screwdriver. :)
TropeGirl 6 months ago
Normally, i never cry. Not when i'm hurt, not when i watch a movie,... I realized this a few moths ago, Since then i've been trying to show my emotions more often . But every time i wanted to cry, it was as if i didn't remember how.
When i saw your video, i cried, for the first time in years. i didn't even 'want' to. It really touched me that you are so honest about yourself, although anyone can see you... This video is one of the bravest things one could do on Youtube.
Thank you
TobyAGO 6 months ago 53
I met you (at Impatience gathering, exams made me miss the later Great Lion Violation) you seemed like the sort of person who I wanted to be friends with and you were very friendly. Even though I don't make videos, I also see YouTube as a family place and the two gatherings I have been to so far are beginning to create a whole other type of friendship for me.
Hope life gives you a break for a while and that SITC is good.
P.S. I was the redheaded girl in the nerdfighter teeshirt
hippyfriend 6 months ago
@hippyfriend Oh yeah, forgot that I'm facebook friends with you (because obviously I have such a busy IRL life that I don't notice facebook. Obviously). Still, think this is far more appropriate written here.
Also, be careful with lions from now on, having watched The Lion King a few times I know they are prepared to wait years for revenge.
hippyfriend 6 months ago
I'm not really sure what to say, but I know I want to leave a comment.
I guess I'll go with the, your video made me cry and I'm glad you decided to share it with us. I know it must have been hard for you.
Also, I'm glad you had fun at vidcon. Fun is always a good thing,
ElswortNEA 6 months ago
This is the first video of yours I've watched and I feel closer to you than 80% of the other youtubers I'm subscribed to. I know it's hard when you lose someone and it's even harder to share it. So I admire your courage and thank you for sharing this. I hope your friends, family and this community help you to survive this tragedy.
shibani2011 6 months ago
I hope to see you at SitC :D
02Laurenx 6 months ago
I was almost in tears when watching this video. The YouTube community is becoming more than just people laughing at a guy making tea, it's about how each and every one of us will help another YouTuber in a time where it counts.
ohaicallum 6 months ago
<3
JoyfulJoyful04 6 months ago
subscribed!!
mrdanieljohnson 6 months ago
This video made me cry. In a good way,. It makes me so happy that youtube can become so big in peoples lives.
lianneinthebigworld 6 months ago 23
I got sent here from another video and the bit where you talked about the "aw" kind of sympathy from people I really understand. I've struggled with death and worse quite a few times in my life and it's really hard. Also Hugs are an Emotional Heimlich so they are awesome. Yeah I'm really glad I got redirected here via the amazingness that is the Youtube community. So good luck, and never forget where your towel is.
NoMorePoocky 6 months ago
I think it's amazing you decided to share this. I'm struggling to tell some new friends about my mothers death and this has given me a bit more motivation
pigeoniminimi 6 months ago
Subscribed.
imafntn3 6 months ago
Ive never seen a video of yours before, in saying that here is a (part of a) poem about tigers:
Aunt Jennifer's tigers prance across a screen,
Bright topaz denizens of a world of green.
They do not fear the men beneath the tree;
They pace in sleek chivalric certainty.
Aunt Jennifer's fingers fluttering through her wool
Find even the ivory needle hard to pull.
The massive weight of Uncle's wedding band
Sits heavily upon Aunt Jennifer's hand.
ScottZaborski 6 months ago
Aww man, you almost made me cry.
I'm glad you had a good Vidcon experience. :)
kateisanerd 6 months ago
I just want to say that this was the first of your videos that I've watched, and you have my deepest admiration. you seem like a very strong, and absolute wonderful person and I look forward to watching more of your videos <3
trashcanfranx 6 months ago
Can lions taste sweetness? I know cats can't...
Subscribed, liked, commented etc. but to me it can't express any emotions or sentiments other than 'ooh i like this person/video', it can't say what this video did to me so I'd give you a high-ten followed by a chest bump and a happy dance. :D
affenonkel 6 months ago
Alex sent me to Emily, who sent me to you. I didn't know about you before this...SO ummm, instead of just telling you that I wish I could hug you right now...I will talk about Lions as you've asked. Lions are one of the four big cats! They are native to sub-saharan Africa; there is also an endangered variety from Asia. Our modern name for them comes from the latin name, Leo! Ummm...that's all I got off the type of my head...
DFTBA! =D
strengthofwill 6 months ago
You deserve an Internet hug for how brave you are. and You deserve all you experience with the YouTube community.
I Love your videos, and I watched this and felt you needed to hear this:
you're great, and i wouldn't have shed a tear for this video if i Didn't think you weren't.
did that sentence make sense?
i sure as hell hope it did i'm not good at wording at 1:17am
spotted3star 6 months ago
You're really brave, lad. See you at SITC <3<3<3
starfishsushi 6 months ago
I'd forgotten about this video in my sub box as I only scaned over it once. Emilythebravee reminded me of it. It took a while to come here. I won't give you sympathy because you don't need nor want it. I will however express to you Dan Brown was wrong. You can start to understand people deeply though media, but it takes willingness on both parties to do that. I've only been around for a few months, but enjoying what you are doing and looking forward to more. Thank you, my friend, for sharing.
NickGreyden 6 months ago
This was incredibly brave of you to post. I always admire when someone goes through something tragic and comes out of it true to what they believed before. It shows tremendous courage that you didn't waver from love and kindness.
Also, I can't understand how you've been such a crazy awesome subscriber to me for so long, and I never thought to check you out before! Changing that now.
JustMargaret 6 months ago
Emily sent me here, and I'm so glad that she did! I subscribed, liked, favorited, all that. This video is simply wonderful. You are a brave person, and I admire you. Since I'm now subscribed, I'll work toward being your friend. (:
astheinkfades 6 months ago
Thank you for being so brave, and for sharing this with us. You really are an inspiration to us who've gone through rough times, and I regret not being able to meet you at VidCon. (I saw you several times, thinking you were Hank, haha.) Hopefully I'll get to see you at VidCon next year? :)
kathleensezhai 6 months ago
This was incredibly beautiful. I appreciate how honest and open you are.
shaylaluna 6 months ago
we love you lots and lots and lots and lots!
i know its another species, but tigers don't like peppers. Allan told me
ForgetTheLie 6 months ago
wow what a powerful video and a perfect example of how to deal with life when awful shit goes down. You officially have a new subscriber/friend!
barrito101 6 months ago
I get that sympathy is probably the last thing you want or need, but I will tell you that what you did here was beyond brave. You should be very proud of yourself, and the feeling of understanding and...just togetherness that you have created. I am sorry for what's happened to you, but you seem very strong. You will be just fine.
iamagryffindor 6 months ago
Hi, I'd never seen a video of yours before this one (Emily sent me), but after watching this and a few others, I thought, "Hey, this guy is nice, honest, and excellent at making videos. I think I'll subscribe to him." So hello! I'm new to your videos.
Putting up this video must have been a hard thing to do, but I'm glad you did it and I respect you for being honest. I also respect you for keeping on doing what you love even after a tragedy. I am extremely glad I found your videos.
SuperEggplantMan 6 months ago
I'm going to be honest, this was the first video of yours that I've seen, and I feel a little bit awkward watching it. You seem like such a genuine person, and I felt a little uncomfortable knowing something so personal about you without even saying hello to you before. So, hi. My name is Nadia, and I love this community as well.
hpobsessed21 6 months ago
If someone dislike this, I´ll punch him on the face
spacetimebomb 6 months ago 2
You are so incredibly brave. I was sent here by Emily andI'm really glad. This video had me in tears I really just wanted to give you a hug <3
iwishfortherain 6 months ago
This was really beautiful, Ali. We've only ever passed each other and hung around the same groups at VidCon, but we've never really chatted, yet I've always thought you were such an interesting person. Thank you for being such an open vlogger because it's so appreciated as a viewer.
LizzieRadio 6 months ago
Lions are cool, but I think ocelots are cooler.
SamarkandChan 6 months ago
Much love, Ali.
It was really great to meet you at vidcon.
ANDYGLOV3R 6 months ago
Meant so much to me...
Oh, wow. I just discovered you through emilythebrave and... Id on't know I just want to get to know you. You seem like such a wonderfully brave person. Thank you for this video.
SamarkandChan 6 months ago
I want to hug you now.
letstartariotxx 6 months ago
Hello. I was directed here by emilythbravee. This is the first video of yours I have ever seen (that's a damn shame for starters) This was amazing and I think your are awesome and brave and honest to make it. I will be at SitC. I will not say aw. But I would love to be your friend. Also Lions are awesome.
LoudIndoorVoice 6 months ago
Love You Ali, Hope you had an awesome time at vidcon *so jealous*
See you tomorrow/SITC
JoelFeller 6 months ago
Thanks for sharing. Next time don't hold back so long in telling your brothers of your pain. Hugs & Hugs. Ali
Ronc303c 6 months ago
*hugs*
you're proper amazing, you :)
OoohASquirrel 6 months ago
ausome as per ever... i would like to be freinds and yeah porbably havent tried hard enough. :)
ThePatrickWorld 6 months ago
@ThePatrickWorld I regret saying that, especially as this video has got a bucketload of comments and I'm having too much fun in LA to respond to them.
RogueBlueJay 6 months ago
Ali, I'm so glad I had the fortune to meet you at VidCon. You are awesome and amazing, and thank you for trusting me, as a person you've never talked to before, and shared what was going on with you at the time. I'm glad I could be that friend for you. You give the best hugs ever, and I hope we remain friends. I'm always here for talks and virtual hugs if you need me!
JordynJitters 6 months ago
It was great meeting you this year! You were lively and charming and I was extremely jealous of how outgoing you were. As well as your Buffy adventures.
Fundippsoyeah 6 months ago
I really don't know what to say other than; you sir, are a very brave and admirable person for making this video. If I ever get the chance to meet you the first thing I'm going to do is say hi and give you a super amazing hug, because that's just how I am. However, i feel like that will be quite some time before I ever meet you since I live in California(and yeah, I didn't go to Vidcon) and you live across the pond. So most definitely I'm going to become friends with you in the mean time. :D
NessaR12 6 months ago
I was really set back by your revelation at the beginning of this, Ali, but as requested, I won't go there, other than to say that you just gave me a much deeper understanding of yourself.
I *wish* I'd made it to Vidcon, but it wasn't to happen. To see the emotional impact it had on you, when you really needed it, warms me deeply. I can add nothing more than a small but well intended Cyberhug.
(((((Ali)))))
anmoose 6 months ago
I am a new subscriber, but I am already feeling like I am getting to know you. Thank you for sharing.
cointhis 6 months ago