"Trans lesbian" what BULLSHIT. People like you are damaging the war for GENUINELY transgendered people to be taken seriously when you have such a flippant, indecisive, airy-fairy attitude towards something that is a matter of life and death to others. Going on T is not a form of body modification and the lesbian identity is NOT a label to be taken off and put back on again every few months or years. If this video became viral, do you realize what a joke transsexuality would quickly become?
@IdleElectric I agree one trillion percent, Idle. I'm sorry, but this video is just ammo for people who want to argue that trans people are just confused or playing some kind of game. So, you are a 'lesbian', but you don't identify as a girl? Yet you also don't identify as a guy? Still, you want to be called 'he' although you don't identify as a guy...
@Sorchify ... Of course your gender identity and how you fool around with it is totally up to you. but as a so-called 'cis' female lesbian who already struggles with how my identity is dragged through the mud by bisexuals who want to feel they have a right to claim that they are lesbians and men who see this as proof that lesbianism is a joke that they can 'fix', your flippant, entitled attitude to the your 'rights' regarding the Lesbian label enrages me...
@Sorchify ... shoe on the other foot. If I woke up tomorrow and decided that I had the right to start declaring myself a Trans man yet still presented as a female in every way, referred to myself as 'she' and felt perfectly happy in a female body and expressing myself in feminine ways... and plastered videos all over youtube declaring that I am a Trans man and no one has the right to tell me that I'm not...
@Sorchify ...Do you seriously think that the Trans community would be ok with that? Would I have the 'right' to claim a Trans identity simply because I felt like it? Do you not think that there are certain criteria to rightfully claim the 'Lesbian' label, same as there are criteria to claim the 'Trans' label? Maybe tomorrow I will decide that I am a non-binary, bi-curious, gender-fluid, lesbian-identified, hetero-romantic, pansexual, female-bodied trans man, after all it's my right!
"Your only obligation in any lifetime is to be true to yourself. Being true to anyone else or anything else is not only impossible, but the mark of a false messiah."
It doesn't matter if you have decided to "identify" as neither male nor female--both labels which are biological and not socially constructed, man and woman are social constructs--you are still not a "lesbian." That's just a fact. The definition of lesbian doesn't change because you "feel like" one.
@PearlMorphine THANK YOU! My thoughts exactly! Please check out my channel in regards to some videos I've made about many of the things this "identity confused" person has brought up. I'd love to hear your thoughts.
I really appreciate you taking the time to tease out the nuances and share your story and journey. Shades of grey may be harder to perceive than black and white, but make for much more interesting art :)
@uppercaseCHASE1 You said you've been feeling depressed and I assumed from the content of the rest of the video that you felt you regret going on T and ...well I made you a video but I don't know if I'm going to upload it. Maybe I should just send you a private message.
Hey you mention there's not a lot of documentations on people going back except one movie. I saw one a little while ago, its swedish and called The Regretters (Ångrarna in swedish) it won the price for best documentary this year in my country, so just though I would mention it if you're interested. Wish you all the best! :)
P.S I am not an angry sepratist lesbian.I'm a trans* guy who hates labels.Labels should be on cans.Just be Chase,whomever you love, however u f*ck them and irrespective of gender. Labels are only gonna box u in and bring u down.That's what queer theory was orginally all about. The only reason a person uses a label is to feel safe and part of something. The true pioneers don't need that sh*t to fence them in, they set the rules then break em' and call it freedom not 'ism'.
To be candid, it appears to me that you are pretty confused.It concerns me that you began on youtube as a seemingly happy young lesbian and then moments later you had jumped right into taking T.Now you're off T and you're a lesbian male.Perhaps u felt u didn't fit into any camp and you were exploring your identity, but you don't need to be in any camp, u can just be yourself. The msg to kids out there considering transition should be THINK ABOUT IT! THINK LONG AND HARD and THINK INTO THE FUTURE.
Seriously you're a male lesbian? U do realise that the term 'lesbian' refers to women who are attracted to other women? When u use the term as u are it renders it utterly meaningless. U pupport to b living your inner truth and eschewing traditional gender roles but seem very preoccupied with how soceity labels you and how u label yourself.Why u feel such an imperative to label yourself at all when the labels u are using are rendered meaningless by putting them in that context is beyond me.
I am happy for you, you need to take care of yourself and if you think this is right for you then the FTM community will support you. I SUPPORT YOU!!!
Dude, do what makes you happy! "Real happiness does not have a label" (I don't know if someone has said that before but I just did! I like it I am gonna start quoting myself now! I agree about the younger trans peoples, they need to figure themselves out first, it makes life lot better, not easier, but like is not easy!
Your life is your life, just sayin'. You are who you are and if being a trans lesbian off T is what makes you happy, why not :) What blog is it that you're talking about?
hey chase. not sure if you were referring to me or not about documenting detransitioning, but to clarify regardless, i meant just showing what changes happen to your body/brain as you go off of T, because changes will happen. i didn't mean you'd go on estrogen to reverse T changes which some people do, just continuing your vlog, basically, and you keeping on being awesome shizzy you. i heart you chase! don't ever look back. just keep growing and blooming and living to love and loving to live.
My genitals are female and can be referred to as "she".
The rest of me is male and must be referred to as "he".
If you are referring to me as she, you must be attempting to communicate directly with my genitals and therefore you should probably bend a little lower as "she" can't hear you very well down there. But the only response you'll get from the rest of me is a knee in the face while you're down there.
I think you are wise and courageous to do what's right for you and your body. And I'm sorry you were targeted by dirt. I do wish that transguys would stop reading and responding to her blog, however. It's hate speech and has nothing valuable to contribute to our lives. If we stop reading, she ceases to have any relevance.
I really love you last couple posts, not that I havent loved your vids up until now...but I feel like these last couple you've matured to a point where you truly know you :)
So how you have said it, your basically genderqueer? Its part of the Transgender spectrum.. Thats just what I picked up from what yourself. I'm not trying to trash you or offend you or anything. But yeah, I'm just trying to understand in my weird way..
@xDangerousDisasterx And also, I'm not trying to tell you what you are. I agree with you on a lot of these videos. I'm trans, and I'm 14. But I don't want T yet because I know that even though I don't think I will, there's a slight possibility I could grow out of it. I'm not making any big decisions about transitioning until I'm a legal adult, and I'm 100% sure its not a phase. I support you either way dude.
Dude, THANK YOU FOR THIS. As a young trans guy (17,pre everything, have only come out to a handful of people) it's kool to see that someone feels like this. I want to go on T, but not forever, and until now, I didn't know that it was possible to do that. You're awesome for not giving in to pressure or anything and just doing what you wanna do, and being who you feel you are. Way to stick up for those of us who only want to transition so far.
im sorry you got put on the dirtblog bs. u are who you are and only u can know what is right with you..i dont see you any different t or no t. i also love lesbians. i dont personally id as one but want to date them still. i also agree with you that i feel sometimes kids jump into it way too quick. i have questioned my gender since childhood, and at 17 really started to think about what i wanted to do. i am happy i waited until 27 to start my transition that way i knew for sure what was right4me
p.s you are my favourite person on youtube, HANDS down. utter chase fanboy here! i watch your videos as soon as they come out. it excites me to see your face on my subscriptions. jus' sayin'
@felixtalks awww thanks so much for the long comment, and the stalking of me, i like it haha :D
and im not saying that me making this vidoe will in ANYWAY make trans people "come out" and tell the world they dont feel comfortable, but im saying that its nice that you shared your story with me, means a lot :)
SOOOOOOORY for the huge mass of comments! i think i probably took up a whole page of comments, heh... in retrospect, it probably would have been better to post this to your page wall or message you, but i publicly wanted to express my experiences with the things you are saying because they relate a lot to myself. i've been looking for an outlet to get rid of all these thoughts because a lot of my friends don't get it, and yet it's so central to my history. so THANKS, and stay awesome, you <3
[...] self worth which made me think i had to change a major physical and social aspect of my life in order to be happy. but instead, it took me about a year and a half to realise that happiness comes from within. and just because i'm not using a male name or pronouns anymore, or have no desire to commit to medical transition any time soon, it doesn't mean i'm not trans*. i'm still trans*. but now i'm just myself as well. and it doesn't bother me that my identity isn't recognisable. i'm just me
[...] in a worse off position that i was already in. i felt pressurised to conform to a binary identity and a binary, "traditional" transition by getting an early start, going on t, changing my name and using male pronouns, because i thought nobody would take me seriously otherwise and because i thought it would cure my unhappiness. lo and behold, it didn't. and again, this is in NO WAY the fault of ANY transguy who posts his transition on youtube. it was my own lack of self-esteem and [...]
[...] i was pressurised into transitioning because i felt that people wouldn't take me seriously if i STARTED uni as a girl and then transitioned to male. i thought i would be ridiculed or it would be harder for me, so i started uni as male. right from the word go, male pronouns (or at least, i tried, heh), male name, name gender on uni records. i threw myself into something that i thought was going to make me happy, but it made me miserable, socially anxious to a horrendous degree, and in [...]
[...] of my gender out online properly. (gender-neutral pronouns, neutral nickname/screenname, etc) it was only until the summer i turner 18 that i made the decision to transition to male. yes, "made" the "decision". i decided to transition because i was unhappy with my life and i knew i would be starting university soon and i wanted to get an early start so i could avoid any awkward "oh btw you all knew me as a girl but i'm becoming a guy now thx" mid-semester transitions. yes. [...]
and for the record, i am an XX-born person raised female as a child. i realised my rejection of a binary female identity from an early age and i came to (re)claim my identity as queer in both gender and sexuality from around the age of 14 or 15. i realised that i was at least genderqueer and/or wanted to do something about this around aged 17 and bought a binder, adopted a more androgynous style (although i was always dressing like a dorky skater boy wannabe anyway), and lived this aspect [...]
universially accepted or recognised in this age and time and i felt lost. i felt like i didn't have a place, and i felt that by transitioning medically (and socially, tbh) i would gain the self-acceptance and fulfillment i saw in the vlogs of other transguys. but not every transperson is the same, and we all certainly want different things and think in different ways. yet i equated happiness with transition. and it was an illusion, and i realised that i didn't HAVE to go on t to experience that.
[...] unequivocally (in some cases, not all) read as male in society now, and they gained, or at least i thought they gained, a lot of privileges through that. i wanted to be male so i wouldn't have to be female. but i realised, i don't have to be either. even if people read me as a female, it doens't mean i AM one. i wanted to transition because i wanted to find a recognisable space where my identity was accepted. non-binary, transfluid, genderqueer, agendered identities are not [...]
[...] i could relate to. but my identity is my own, and i realised that t wasn't going to make me happy - "becoming male" wasn't going to make me happy (because that's how i saw it; i saw myself as an unhappy person stuck in a female body and a female "role" in society wanting a trans body and a more liberal "male" role). only i could make myself happy. i felt trapped in the whole female role thing, i saw these transmen gain (SOME) privileges when they transitioned with t - they were [...]
[...] that by transitioning, i would experience happiness, because i saw it in so many other people's videos. their stories of happiness due to going on t and finally gaining the male sex characteristics they desired made me WANT those sex characteristics (i'm talking facial hair, low voice, body fat shape, etc) because i wanted to be happy, to fit in, to find an identity (which is so intrinsically linked to medical transition and taking testosterone in the ftm community) which [...]
...... that by transitioning and going on t i would share the same experiences of happiness and fulfillment i saw in these videos. but i was disillusioned by these experiences. i equated t with happiness. i saw top surgery as a way of feeling better about my body. and it is 100% certainly in no way ever the fault of the transguys who post these videos. it was 100% my deal. i had issues with my body and my life and my self-esteem and i was looking for a way to cure that. it seemed logical [...]
i definitely think you're right that young transguys suffer unconscious pressures from within the community itself to transition medically with hormones and/or surgery. as a young transperson myself, i watched hundreds of transition videos where young, attractive, desirable transguys documented their experiences on t, their changes, and i wanted to be like that. i wanted something to happen in my life that would make me happy and i thought transitioning was going to fulfill that. i thought ....
there ARE male lesbians! (I'm honestly not sure how it works, but it's real.) As for Chase? HE is super cool and good for HIM to have gotten where HE wants! I'm so happy for you Chase that you are where you want to be. You said you didn't want surgery and you're not having it. You wanted a lower voice and whatnot (I think, right?) you're successful. And HELL YEAH! you are not losing friends- that's just stupid!
i totally respect your decision and go you! but i don't think young trans people feel pressured by YouTube. I mean, as a young trans person, I feel that my decision to go on T and get surgery was NOT because of YouTube at all. I've been transitioning for 4 years and I think it's appropriate for me to transition. I've been on youtube the whole time and i feel like i have been educated about surgery and T through youtube, but I have not been influenced. I think that I deserve the body I want.
Chase, I can totally relate to this video.. I hate female pronouns and do not see myself as female. Call me they if you like, but don't call me she. The church I go to is doing pretty good so far, but I absolutely refuse to go to communion for someone to call me she after this long of knowing where I am at. Also, I am one who has come out late as trans and I still have ways to go regarding labels. This vlog in particular showed me how far I still have to go. It is thought provoking and I ty
good for you, chase! :D also, i have a question, what happens when you stop T? i mean, do all your changes that happened when you were on T stick or do they revert back? i'm sorry if it comes off as rude, i just am very curious about T and and the effects of it exactly.
hey man i was really surprised when i saw this video but very happy about it. i stopped T also a few months back and i feel the same way as you. theres more of us out there its just not talked about very often.
Hey Chase, do what you feel is right fuck everyone who disagrees, points you have made make perfect sense to me and hope everything works out great for you, we need to catch up sometime
you have the best attitude ever! Thank you for being so honest and sharing that you do not have to do what everyone else does to identitfy with a particular group or identity. You are a very awesome person!
@SammieDM09 are you kidding me? Chase is definitely not criticizing people who start transitioning young. He's the biggest advocator for doing what makes you happy. He's talking about kids who feel forced to start transitioning prematurely in order to fit the label and not because they felt it was truly the answer to their happiness.
@spurshoops00 As I said, no offense to Chase, AT ALL :P it just something people start talking about more and more, and I wanted to clear things up. Not every kid feels forced to transition because of labels.
Ughhh I don't understand how the lgbt community can marginalize certain members when they themselves are done so in the wider society. The hypocrisy astounds and disgusts me. Don't they know that they're only perpetuating homophobia and bigotry? Chase, I love you for being so level-headed and grounded in all of this.
Go u for puttin this out there, I totally identify with your trans lesbianism, only I feel myself to be a trans fag who somehow mostly dates cis females.. lol oh language why are u so limited to us queers, also really kinda just love the term queer I feel safe under it's umbrella!! I'm excited to see ur reasons video, it's something I dont hear talked about really all that much.
Lastly, definitely no offense to you Chase, or any other guy that stated anything about transkids. I watched you since the start and I think your a great guy and I think it's brave that you made a video about this.
...and it's the best decision I have EVER made. And no youtube-transguy is going to make me feel bad for what I want to do in my transition or make me think that I have to do a certain thing to "fit in" with the trans community. All my friends (who I met in a support group for trans kids under 16 in Amsterdam) are extremely happy with their decisions.
a non-gender specialized psychologist ALL FULLY AGREE on you starting puberty inhibitors, you may start. You can do this from the age of 12 and after starting you get 3-monthly examinations and appointments with your psychologist. And once you are 16, and again, your parents and all these specialist fully agree, you can start cross-sex hormones. I am 16 years old as of march and that is also when I started T. I started puberty inhibitors when I was 14. I'm am happier that ever...
It kind of pisses me of that many ftm youtubers/bloggers/whatever are starting to "bitch" about younger kids transitioning. It makes no sense. Here, in the Netherlands, the care for transgender youth is the best in the world.. the waitlists might be over 1 or 2 years long, but once you get into this specialized hospital in Amsterdam, you'll get years of appointments with psychologists, medical examinations every 3 months, and once your doctor, both parents, psychologist and (1/2)
Thanks so much for this. I hope that this is your last video responding to haters, because I hope that people stop bothering you about your personal choices.
anyways, bottom line of my story... YOU ARE FUCKING AWESOME. people need to shut the hell up. humans should not have to explain to anyone who they are and who they sleep with. it's such a preverse idea that people are so concerned with others in that way.
Dude, I'm a lesbian, but prefer to identify as gay. The term "lesbian" makes me feel weird. I feel more comfortable with the word "gay". Anyways,YOU are so awesome. and sexy and sassy. there needs to be more open and vocal people like you in the world. You help people feel more safe to be open about being who they are. It's so insane that people are so judgmental. They don't have the power to judge. So you know what I say.. fuck em'! Keep doing what you're doing. You owe no one an explanation.
Dude, I'm a lesbian, but prefer to identify as gay. The term "lesbian" makes me feel weird. I feel more comfortable with the word "gay". Anyways,YOU are so awesome. and sexy and sassy. there needs to be more open and vocal people like you in the world. You help people feel more safe to be open about being who they are. It's so insane that people are so judgmental. They don't have the power to judge. So you know what I say.. fuck em'! Keep doing what you're doing. You owe no one an explanation.
I think you're great. fuck everyone and just do you. idk why people have to get into other people's business and tell them what they are and aren't. you're yourself and that should be enough for everyone else. keep being great :)
I was at a workshop at Philly Trans Health confrence called "What Happens if I Stop T" and Mieko who is on youtube used the metaphor that T and surgery are tools in our transitions and sometimes we need to use the tools and sometimes we don't need to use the tools and that's just how it is.
so, not to specifically categorize, you identify along the lines of genderqueer. that is perfectly acceptable and I'm glad you are happy with who you are. if, again, you decide that a change is needed, more power to you. congrats on the decision.
@groovearmani actually, no, i completely DO NOT identify as genderqueer, again, please watch that video, i identify as a LESBIAN TRANSPERSON. thank you. (not to be rude or anything)
@uppercaseCHASE1 I apologize. The first sentence was supposed to be a question, not a statement. Don't apologize, you weren't rude. I'm sure you're getting a lot of misunderstanding, so apologies from myself.
Don't let that idiot bring you down, Chase. The owner of that blog clearly has nothing better to do than hide behind a computer and feel sorry for herself. You are awesome and we are all here to support you.
good for you chase. i'm sorry you have to explain yourself. i don't understand why people are confused about what you are doing, its so clear. at least to me. good luck yo!
People are ridiculous. Everyone has their own identity and it's important for you to find comfort in your own body -- male, transgender, gender queer, lesbian, who cares? You're you. You're amazing and I'm glad you're happy.
As far as Dirt goes, she's not even really worth talking about. She just purposely tries to upset people. Glad you're not letting it get to you.
"Trans lesbian" what BULLSHIT. People like you are damaging the war for GENUINELY transgendered people to be taken seriously when you have such a flippant, indecisive, airy-fairy attitude towards something that is a matter of life and death to others. Going on T is not a form of body modification and the lesbian identity is NOT a label to be taken off and put back on again every few months or years. If this video became viral, do you realize what a joke transsexuality would quickly become?
IdleElectric 2 days ago
@IdleElectric I agree one trillion percent, Idle. I'm sorry, but this video is just ammo for people who want to argue that trans people are just confused or playing some kind of game. So, you are a 'lesbian', but you don't identify as a girl? Yet you also don't identify as a guy? Still, you want to be called 'he' although you don't identify as a guy...
Sorchify 1 day ago
@Sorchify ... Of course your gender identity and how you fool around with it is totally up to you. but as a so-called 'cis' female lesbian who already struggles with how my identity is dragged through the mud by bisexuals who want to feel they have a right to claim that they are lesbians and men who see this as proof that lesbianism is a joke that they can 'fix', your flippant, entitled attitude to the your 'rights' regarding the Lesbian label enrages me...
Sorchify 1 day ago
@Sorchify ... shoe on the other foot. If I woke up tomorrow and decided that I had the right to start declaring myself a Trans man yet still presented as a female in every way, referred to myself as 'she' and felt perfectly happy in a female body and expressing myself in feminine ways... and plastered videos all over youtube declaring that I am a Trans man and no one has the right to tell me that I'm not...
Sorchify 1 day ago
@Sorchify ...Do you seriously think that the Trans community would be ok with that? Would I have the 'right' to claim a Trans identity simply because I felt like it? Do you not think that there are certain criteria to rightfully claim the 'Lesbian' label, same as there are criteria to claim the 'Trans' label? Maybe tomorrow I will decide that I am a non-binary, bi-curious, gender-fluid, lesbian-identified, hetero-romantic, pansexual, female-bodied trans man, after all it's my right!
Sorchify 1 day ago
Wow. So who are you trying to convince? Us or yourself? Not buying ANY of this.
collegestudent4peace 4 days ago
i think i'll only do a year on t, i never thought people would think thats weird XD
thanks for the vid!
LooshkinTV 3 weeks ago
You're amazing and I relate to you so much. I'm also a trans* lesbian. Thanks for your videos. :) keep making more!
netflixandqueers 1 month ago
Thank you for being a camp male(ish) lesbian!!
Non-cisnormative identities ftw!!
Youssii 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
You are so right on the money, I fucking love you <3
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kidnoel53 4 months ago
"Your only obligation in any lifetime is to be true to yourself. Being true to anyone else or anything else is not only impossible, but the mark of a false messiah."
Blessings on your journey.
kidnoel53 4 months ago
It doesn't matter if you have decided to "identify" as neither male nor female--both labels which are biological and not socially constructed, man and woman are social constructs--you are still not a "lesbian." That's just a fact. The definition of lesbian doesn't change because you "feel like" one.
PearlMorphine 6 months ago
@PearlMorphine THANK YOU! My thoughts exactly! Please check out my channel in regards to some videos I've made about many of the things this "identity confused" person has brought up. I'd love to hear your thoughts.
collegestudent4peace 3 days ago
I really appreciate you taking the time to tease out the nuances and share your story and journey. Shades of grey may be harder to perceive than black and white, but make for much more interesting art :)
PS are you on twitter?
creativereduction 7 months ago
good for you. i'm sorry your video was exploited and lead to a shit ton of misgendering. anyway, keep on keepin on.
iradgray 7 months ago
right on. i understand. some people can't fathom that there are grey areas even in the trans community.
rarestcat 7 months ago
Your shirt is so white. It blows my mind... Sorta like some of the comments people left? Yeah but it truly is quite white
molliekaylarson 8 months ago
BTW don't ever feel like you have to clarify or justify yourself to dirt and people like her.
brynjartuck 8 months ago 3
I'm sorry
brynjartuck 8 months ago
@brynjartuck why?
uppercaseCHASE1 8 months ago
@uppercaseCHASE1 You said you've been feeling depressed and I assumed from the content of the rest of the video that you felt you regret going on T and ...well I made you a video but I don't know if I'm going to upload it. Maybe I should just send you a private message.
brynjartuck 8 months ago
Hey you mention there's not a lot of documentations on people going back except one movie. I saw one a little while ago, its swedish and called The Regretters (Ångrarna in swedish) it won the price for best documentary this year in my country, so just though I would mention it if you're interested. Wish you all the best! :)
nulezie 8 months ago
P.S I am not an angry sepratist lesbian.I'm a trans* guy who hates labels.Labels should be on cans.Just be Chase,whomever you love, however u f*ck them and irrespective of gender. Labels are only gonna box u in and bring u down.That's what queer theory was orginally all about. The only reason a person uses a label is to feel safe and part of something. The true pioneers don't need that sh*t to fence them in, they set the rules then break em' and call it freedom not 'ism'.
CandidCity 8 months ago
To be candid, it appears to me that you are pretty confused.It concerns me that you began on youtube as a seemingly happy young lesbian and then moments later you had jumped right into taking T.Now you're off T and you're a lesbian male.Perhaps u felt u didn't fit into any camp and you were exploring your identity, but you don't need to be in any camp, u can just be yourself. The msg to kids out there considering transition should be THINK ABOUT IT! THINK LONG AND HARD and THINK INTO THE FUTURE.
CandidCity 8 months ago
Seriously you're a male lesbian? U do realise that the term 'lesbian' refers to women who are attracted to other women? When u use the term as u are it renders it utterly meaningless. U pupport to b living your inner truth and eschewing traditional gender roles but seem very preoccupied with how soceity labels you and how u label yourself.Why u feel such an imperative to label yourself at all when the labels u are using are rendered meaningless by putting them in that context is beyond me.
CandidCity 8 months ago
Dude.
You are the most amazing person.
Your videos are great, and they've helped me with transitioning.
Fuck the haters. You be you.
<33
SimonePry 8 months ago
I think a really good word to help people understand is "genderqueer"
There is an entire spectrum with that, leaning towards a man or woman
You don't have to use that but I am in a similar situation and it helped me :)
MadisonsAccount 8 months ago
I wonder how dirt feels about MtF people.
jackjackshift 8 months ago
I am happy for you, you need to take care of yourself and if you think this is right for you then the FTM community will support you. I SUPPORT YOU!!!
MrAjr81 8 months ago
Hey man ya look good, get a haircut?
ducky2u18 8 months ago
Dude, do what makes you happy! "Real happiness does not have a label" (I don't know if someone has said that before but I just did! I like it I am gonna start quoting myself now! I agree about the younger trans peoples, they need to figure themselves out first, it makes life lot better, not easier, but like is not easy!
ninorth 8 months ago
Did you actually send this to her?
BeJustInTime 8 months ago
Your life is your life, just sayin'. You are who you are and if being a trans lesbian off T is what makes you happy, why not :) What blog is it that you're talking about?
911Some1 8 months ago
hey chase. not sure if you were referring to me or not about documenting detransitioning, but to clarify regardless, i meant just showing what changes happen to your body/brain as you go off of T, because changes will happen. i didn't mean you'd go on estrogen to reverse T changes which some people do, just continuing your vlog, basically, and you keeping on being awesome shizzy you. i heart you chase! don't ever look back. just keep growing and blooming and living to love and loving to live.
Zedie36 8 months ago
My thoughts on the pronouns issue -
My genitals are female and can be referred to as "she".
The rest of me is male and must be referred to as "he".
If you are referring to me as she, you must be attempting to communicate directly with my genitals and therefore you should probably bend a little lower as "she" can't hear you very well down there. But the only response you'll get from the rest of me is a knee in the face while you're down there.
Anyone agree?
ArashiTheBrave 8 months ago 11
@ArashiTheBrave In other words, speak to the person, not to their genitals.
ArashiTheBrave 8 months ago
I think you are wise and courageous to do what's right for you and your body. And I'm sorry you were targeted by dirt. I do wish that transguys would stop reading and responding to her blog, however. It's hate speech and has nothing valuable to contribute to our lives. If we stop reading, she ceases to have any relevance.
postgender 8 months ago
I really love you last couple posts, not that I havent loved your vids up until now...but I feel like these last couple you've matured to a point where you truly know you :)
DeclanIsHere 8 months ago
So how you have said it, your basically genderqueer? Its part of the Transgender spectrum.. Thats just what I picked up from what yourself. I'm not trying to trash you or offend you or anything. But yeah, I'm just trying to understand in my weird way..
xDangerousDisasterx 8 months ago
@xDangerousDisasterx And also, I'm not trying to tell you what you are. I agree with you on a lot of these videos. I'm trans, and I'm 14. But I don't want T yet because I know that even though I don't think I will, there's a slight possibility I could grow out of it. I'm not making any big decisions about transitioning until I'm a legal adult, and I'm 100% sure its not a phase. I support you either way dude.
xDangerousDisasterx 8 months ago
Dude, THANK YOU FOR THIS. As a young trans guy (17,pre everything, have only come out to a handful of people) it's kool to see that someone feels like this. I want to go on T, but not forever, and until now, I didn't know that it was possible to do that. You're awesome for not giving in to pressure or anything and just doing what you wanna do, and being who you feel you are. Way to stick up for those of us who only want to transition so far.
rockergrrrl 8 months ago
im sorry you got put on the dirtblog bs. u are who you are and only u can know what is right with you..i dont see you any different t or no t. i also love lesbians. i dont personally id as one but want to date them still. i also agree with you that i feel sometimes kids jump into it way too quick. i have questioned my gender since childhood, and at 17 really started to think about what i wanted to do. i am happy i waited until 27 to start my transition that way i knew for sure what was right4me
uncleriga 8 months ago
p.s you are my favourite person on youtube, HANDS down. utter chase fanboy here! i watch your videos as soon as they come out. it excites me to see your face on my subscriptions. jus' sayin'
felixtalks 8 months ago 6
@felixtalks awww thanks so much for the long comment, and the stalking of me, i like it haha :D
and im not saying that me making this vidoe will in ANYWAY make trans people "come out" and tell the world they dont feel comfortable, but im saying that its nice that you shared your story with me, means a lot :)
i hope your alot happier in life :)
uppercaseCHASE1 8 months ago
SOOOOOOORY for the huge mass of comments! i think i probably took up a whole page of comments, heh... in retrospect, it probably would have been better to post this to your page wall or message you, but i publicly wanted to express my experiences with the things you are saying because they relate a lot to myself. i've been looking for an outlet to get rid of all these thoughts because a lot of my friends don't get it, and yet it's so central to my history. so THANKS, and stay awesome, you <3
felixtalks 8 months ago
[...] self worth which made me think i had to change a major physical and social aspect of my life in order to be happy. but instead, it took me about a year and a half to realise that happiness comes from within. and just because i'm not using a male name or pronouns anymore, or have no desire to commit to medical transition any time soon, it doesn't mean i'm not trans*. i'm still trans*. but now i'm just myself as well. and it doesn't bother me that my identity isn't recognisable. i'm just me
felixtalks 8 months ago
[...] in a worse off position that i was already in. i felt pressurised to conform to a binary identity and a binary, "traditional" transition by getting an early start, going on t, changing my name and using male pronouns, because i thought nobody would take me seriously otherwise and because i thought it would cure my unhappiness. lo and behold, it didn't. and again, this is in NO WAY the fault of ANY transguy who posts his transition on youtube. it was my own lack of self-esteem and [...]
felixtalks 8 months ago
[...] i was pressurised into transitioning because i felt that people wouldn't take me seriously if i STARTED uni as a girl and then transitioned to male. i thought i would be ridiculed or it would be harder for me, so i started uni as male. right from the word go, male pronouns (or at least, i tried, heh), male name, name gender on uni records. i threw myself into something that i thought was going to make me happy, but it made me miserable, socially anxious to a horrendous degree, and in [...]
felixtalks 8 months ago
[...] of my gender out online properly. (gender-neutral pronouns, neutral nickname/screenname, etc) it was only until the summer i turner 18 that i made the decision to transition to male. yes, "made" the "decision". i decided to transition because i was unhappy with my life and i knew i would be starting university soon and i wanted to get an early start so i could avoid any awkward "oh btw you all knew me as a girl but i'm becoming a guy now thx" mid-semester transitions. yes. [...]
felixtalks 8 months ago
and for the record, i am an XX-born person raised female as a child. i realised my rejection of a binary female identity from an early age and i came to (re)claim my identity as queer in both gender and sexuality from around the age of 14 or 15. i realised that i was at least genderqueer and/or wanted to do something about this around aged 17 and bought a binder, adopted a more androgynous style (although i was always dressing like a dorky skater boy wannabe anyway), and lived this aspect [...]
felixtalks 8 months ago
universially accepted or recognised in this age and time and i felt lost. i felt like i didn't have a place, and i felt that by transitioning medically (and socially, tbh) i would gain the self-acceptance and fulfillment i saw in the vlogs of other transguys. but not every transperson is the same, and we all certainly want different things and think in different ways. yet i equated happiness with transition. and it was an illusion, and i realised that i didn't HAVE to go on t to experience that.
felixtalks 8 months ago
[...] unequivocally (in some cases, not all) read as male in society now, and they gained, or at least i thought they gained, a lot of privileges through that. i wanted to be male so i wouldn't have to be female. but i realised, i don't have to be either. even if people read me as a female, it doens't mean i AM one. i wanted to transition because i wanted to find a recognisable space where my identity was accepted. non-binary, transfluid, genderqueer, agendered identities are not [...]
felixtalks 8 months ago
[...] i could relate to. but my identity is my own, and i realised that t wasn't going to make me happy - "becoming male" wasn't going to make me happy (because that's how i saw it; i saw myself as an unhappy person stuck in a female body and a female "role" in society wanting a trans body and a more liberal "male" role). only i could make myself happy. i felt trapped in the whole female role thing, i saw these transmen gain (SOME) privileges when they transitioned with t - they were [...]
felixtalks 8 months ago
[...] that by transitioning, i would experience happiness, because i saw it in so many other people's videos. their stories of happiness due to going on t and finally gaining the male sex characteristics they desired made me WANT those sex characteristics (i'm talking facial hair, low voice, body fat shape, etc) because i wanted to be happy, to fit in, to find an identity (which is so intrinsically linked to medical transition and taking testosterone in the ftm community) which [...]
felixtalks 8 months ago
...... that by transitioning and going on t i would share the same experiences of happiness and fulfillment i saw in these videos. but i was disillusioned by these experiences. i equated t with happiness. i saw top surgery as a way of feeling better about my body. and it is 100% certainly in no way ever the fault of the transguys who post these videos. it was 100% my deal. i had issues with my body and my life and my self-esteem and i was looking for a way to cure that. it seemed logical [...]
felixtalks 8 months ago
i definitely think you're right that young transguys suffer unconscious pressures from within the community itself to transition medically with hormones and/or surgery. as a young transperson myself, i watched hundreds of transition videos where young, attractive, desirable transguys documented their experiences on t, their changes, and i wanted to be like that. i wanted something to happen in my life that would make me happy and i thought transitioning was going to fulfill that. i thought ....
felixtalks 8 months ago
and hooray for happy!!!
shadowbeing3 8 months ago
there ARE male lesbians! (I'm honestly not sure how it works, but it's real.) As for Chase? HE is super cool and good for HIM to have gotten where HE wants! I'm so happy for you Chase that you are where you want to be. You said you didn't want surgery and you're not having it. You wanted a lower voice and whatnot (I think, right?) you're successful. And HELL YEAH! you are not losing friends- that's just stupid!
shadowbeing3 8 months ago 2
i totally respect your decision and go you! but i don't think young trans people feel pressured by YouTube. I mean, as a young trans person, I feel that my decision to go on T and get surgery was NOT because of YouTube at all. I've been transitioning for 4 years and I think it's appropriate for me to transition. I've been on youtube the whole time and i feel like i have been educated about surgery and T through youtube, but I have not been influenced. I think that I deserve the body I want.
GLBTQcommunity 8 months ago
Chase, I can totally relate to this video.. I hate female pronouns and do not see myself as female. Call me they if you like, but don't call me she. The church I go to is doing pretty good so far, but I absolutely refuse to go to communion for someone to call me she after this long of knowing where I am at. Also, I am one who has come out late as trans and I still have ways to go regarding labels. This vlog in particular showed me how far I still have to go. It is thought provoking and I ty
ImStillStandingFTM 8 months ago
good for you, chase! :D also, i have a question, what happens when you stop T? i mean, do all your changes that happened when you were on T stick or do they revert back? i'm sorry if it comes off as rude, i just am very curious about T and and the effects of it exactly.
lauremo1994 8 months ago
hey man i was really surprised when i saw this video but very happy about it. i stopped T also a few months back and i feel the same way as you. theres more of us out there its just not talked about very often.
discotechwolfe 8 months ago
Hey Chase, do what you feel is right fuck everyone who disagrees, points you have made make perfect sense to me and hope everything works out great for you, we need to catch up sometime
Maxwell241 8 months ago
Well Said. Be yourself.
afwalk 8 months ago
your amazing chase congrats on stopping T. Be yourself always man , so glad you speak the truth!
PARKhereANYTIME11 8 months ago
you have the best attitude ever! Thank you for being so honest and sharing that you do not have to do what everyone else does to identitfy with a particular group or identity. You are a very awesome person!
jeezjess102 8 months ago
as long as you're happy with yourself, fuck what anyone else says! :D
MidnightCoulrophobia 8 months ago
Good on you! Seriously, you are a champion! Dirt... has far too much lonely-unlaid time on her hands. Anyway, keep smiling!
CaptainBexx 8 months ago
I would just like to say how amazing your analogies were. Haha. Great video for just saying what needs to be said.
uhmmidkkk 8 months ago
CHASE, do what makes you happy honestly. if youre happy how you are fuck everyone else.
KdoubleJ128 8 months ago
Good for you chase! I hope to run into you at Toronto pride!!
leesh924 8 months ago
@SammieDM09 are you kidding me? Chase is definitely not criticizing people who start transitioning young. He's the biggest advocator for doing what makes you happy. He's talking about kids who feel forced to start transitioning prematurely in order to fit the label and not because they felt it was truly the answer to their happiness.
spurshoops00 8 months ago
@spurshoops00 As I said, no offense to Chase, AT ALL :P it just something people start talking about more and more, and I wanted to clear things up. Not every kid feels forced to transition because of labels.
SammieDM09 8 months ago
Ughhh I don't understand how the lgbt community can marginalize certain members when they themselves are done so in the wider society. The hypocrisy astounds and disgusts me. Don't they know that they're only perpetuating homophobia and bigotry? Chase, I love you for being so level-headed and grounded in all of this.
spurshoops00 8 months ago
Its such a shame i can only like this once. I completley understand how you're identifying, you worded this whole video very well.
McCamley225 8 months ago
Go u for puttin this out there, I totally identify with your trans lesbianism, only I feel myself to be a trans fag who somehow mostly dates cis females.. lol oh language why are u so limited to us queers, also really kinda just love the term queer I feel safe under it's umbrella!! I'm excited to see ur reasons video, it's something I dont hear talked about really all that much.
flowerpot4147 8 months ago 2
Lastly, definitely no offense to you Chase, or any other guy that stated anything about transkids. I watched you since the start and I think your a great guy and I think it's brave that you made a video about this.
I just think this all needed to be said.
SammieDM09 8 months ago
...and it's the best decision I have EVER made. And no youtube-transguy is going to make me feel bad for what I want to do in my transition or make me think that I have to do a certain thing to "fit in" with the trans community. All my friends (who I met in a support group for trans kids under 16 in Amsterdam) are extremely happy with their decisions.
SammieDM09 8 months ago
a non-gender specialized psychologist ALL FULLY AGREE on you starting puberty inhibitors, you may start. You can do this from the age of 12 and after starting you get 3-monthly examinations and appointments with your psychologist. And once you are 16, and again, your parents and all these specialist fully agree, you can start cross-sex hormones. I am 16 years old as of march and that is also when I started T. I started puberty inhibitors when I was 14. I'm am happier that ever...
SammieDM09 8 months ago
It kind of pisses me of that many ftm youtubers/bloggers/whatever are starting to "bitch" about younger kids transitioning. It makes no sense. Here, in the Netherlands, the care for transgender youth is the best in the world.. the waitlists might be over 1 or 2 years long, but once you get into this specialized hospital in Amsterdam, you'll get years of appointments with psychologists, medical examinations every 3 months, and once your doctor, both parents, psychologist and (1/2)
SammieDM09 8 months ago
keepin it real. stay 100!
mg29611 8 months ago
You're the best. That is all.
theangrypedestrian 8 months ago
some people need to just learn to live and let live. props to you for doing what makes you happy.
purplepolymer1 8 months ago
What's the name of the documentary that shows people 'de-transitioning'?
Touquie 8 months ago
I* damn phone typo
thegaymaker 8 months ago
Bravo man. Regardless of any decision you make u support you
My fellow mighTmen peep!
thegaymaker 8 months ago
Thanks so much for this. I hope that this is your last video responding to haters, because I hope that people stop bothering you about your personal choices.
Stay awesome.
-Miles
mediumdietcoke 8 months ago
anyways, bottom line of my story... YOU ARE FUCKING AWESOME. people need to shut the hell up. humans should not have to explain to anyone who they are and who they sleep with. it's such a preverse idea that people are so concerned with others in that way.
scubagirl100 8 months ago
Dude, I'm a lesbian, but prefer to identify as gay. The term "lesbian" makes me feel weird. I feel more comfortable with the word "gay". Anyways,YOU are so awesome. and sexy and sassy. there needs to be more open and vocal people like you in the world. You help people feel more safe to be open about being who they are. It's so insane that people are so judgmental. They don't have the power to judge. So you know what I say.. fuck em'! Keep doing what you're doing. You owe no one an explanation.
scubagirl100 8 months ago
Dude, I'm a lesbian, but prefer to identify as gay. The term "lesbian" makes me feel weird. I feel more comfortable with the word "gay". Anyways,YOU are so awesome. and sexy and sassy. there needs to be more open and vocal people like you in the world. You help people feel more safe to be open about being who they are. It's so insane that people are so judgmental. They don't have the power to judge. So you know what I say.. fuck em'! Keep doing what you're doing. You owe no one an explanation.
scubagirl100 8 months ago
FUCK THE LABELS! FIGHT THE POWER!
LoogyLoogles 8 months ago 8
@LoogyLoogles PREACH!
uppercaseCHASE1 8 months ago 2
I think you're great. fuck everyone and just do you. idk why people have to get into other people's business and tell them what they are and aren't. you're yourself and that should be enough for everyone else. keep being great :)
rachelxeff 8 months ago
I was at a workshop at Philly Trans Health confrence called "What Happens if I Stop T" and Mieko who is on youtube used the metaphor that T and surgery are tools in our transitions and sometimes we need to use the tools and sometimes we don't need to use the tools and that's just how it is.
<3 you
DrunkenLullaby52 8 months ago 11
@DrunkenLullaby52 :D
uppercaseCHASE1 8 months ago
so, not to specifically categorize, you identify along the lines of genderqueer. that is perfectly acceptable and I'm glad you are happy with who you are. if, again, you decide that a change is needed, more power to you. congrats on the decision.
groovearmani 8 months ago
@groovearmani actually, no, i completely DO NOT identify as genderqueer, again, please watch that video, i identify as a LESBIAN TRANSPERSON. thank you. (not to be rude or anything)
uppercaseCHASE1 8 months ago
@uppercaseCHASE1 I apologize. The first sentence was supposed to be a question, not a statement. Don't apologize, you weren't rude. I'm sure you're getting a lot of misunderstanding, so apologies from myself.
groovearmani 8 months ago
@groovearmani aww its ok, i just feel like i need to defend EVERYTHING i say now hahha sorry i was rude!
uppercaseCHASE1 8 months ago
so cute
SkyelarPuberty 8 months ago
Don't let that idiot bring you down, Chase. The owner of that blog clearly has nothing better to do than hide behind a computer and feel sorry for herself. You are awesome and we are all here to support you.
hypercuriosity 8 months ago
good for you chase. i'm sorry you have to explain yourself. i don't understand why people are confused about what you are doing, its so clear. at least to me. good luck yo!
xcarpathiax 8 months ago
Thank you so much for being so fucking honest... for real. Much love <3
toxicshockscenario 8 months ago
@toxicshockscenario :)
uppercaseCHASE1 8 months ago
do you regret starting T, or are you glad you had the experience? do you ever plan on going back on T later on in life?
wollybalooza 8 months ago
@wollybalooza i dont regret starting, like i said in the video, im glad i had the experience, and i donno if ill ever go back on
uppercaseCHASE1 8 months ago
you said you started T too early.. How old were you?
sionv2009 8 months ago
dirt is dirty dirt
KmAcRkSeOwNn 8 months ago
Fuck people, juste be you. You don't need labels or people to tell you who you are.
GabTheDrummer 8 months ago 13
Oi! :D <3
Thank-you for the clarifications, sir. Super helpful. I laughed at "they".
Hope all of this stuff blows over eventually.
drgnballz 8 months ago
People are ridiculous. Everyone has their own identity and it's important for you to find comfort in your own body -- male, transgender, gender queer, lesbian, who cares? You're you. You're amazing and I'm glad you're happy.
As far as Dirt goes, she's not even really worth talking about. She just purposely tries to upset people. Glad you're not letting it get to you.
ThisIsRyansLife 8 months ago