Honey, hope you reported this man to the police before something bad happen to the next girl. Anyway... Cmon girl, its not easy. But this is the best that a cave-man can do. This kind of man cant do or be anything else then SHIT in life. This animal cant use his brains so his pennis guides his miserable life.
But YOU can do it better. Deep breath, full your heart and soul with light. Be bigger then ANY MAN was. And when he become the "girl" in jail, smile at him and say "No regreats! lol"
Justice? 'Men' like him, are no men; no human being. If I see someone like him, I SWEAR TO EVERY LITTLE HUMAN BEING that I will rip his whole body apart, so no one will be able to find it anywhere. And why? Because I'm going to chew it all down. That's what I promise to everyone.
all i can say is im truly sorry. I know how you feel and what your going threw exept I had to face my rapest in the face every single day. I dont see how men can do that, We feel, and hurt just like anything or one else, Is it a power trip for them? They feel they have control over her? Just remember (for men), The only control you have is putting that fear & nighmares into our heads for the rest of our lifes!
how can somebody rape someone??? i just cant understand that. doing something like that to somebody??? how can they do that? ther must be somethyng mentally rong with them!
I don't even have words for you. I can't ever understand how you feel. But even thinking about it makes me SO MAD. If this ever happened to someone close to me, jail wouldn't be enough justice for me. You're very strong. Also speaking as a man, I am now very worried about the girl I like. Isn't there anything I can do to protect her without being invasive?
oh wow i am so sorry, I WILL NEVER HURT A WOMAN...i wish the best for your future and hope you can overcome your past. Karma will reign supreme and he will get his no matter what. It is pleasing to see a strong woman who can stand up for herself. Bless you and i will help in whatever way i can
How can people do something like that. Speaking as a man, I HATE you rapists, and you sexual predators and EVERYONE who commits a sexual based crime. You give us good men such a bad name. Well, for all you women out there, just know were not all monsters. Some of us truly care, and upon hearing stories like this just want o go beat the shit out of those bastards.
kicesie.. i have so much respect, and in-v you. you are so brave, and beautiful. im literally speechless because i know how you feel completely. but i dont want to admit this happened to me. especially because of who did it. this is the first time in years i have spoken about it other than my boyfriend.because every holiday i have to look at his face and go back to those 2 years when i was to young to know that what he was doing was wrong,all i knew was it hurt.but i still remeber it all.
Hey. I went through the same exact terror... I was in a horrible relationship 3 years ago... he was abusive. Hardly a day went by where I wasn't beaten... he raped me on several occasions. Your "letter to him" that you wrote.. was powerful... I respect you and anybody who's gone through this.... you're right.. you NEVER forget... NEVER. Even to this day, I still deal with PTSD because of it... stay strong.
I was never raped, but things have been done to me. God bless you for sharing your story. You are the face of so many of us women. It is people like you that give us hope. Thank you.
:( I am so sorry beautiful I have a friend that this happened to I still don't know exactly what happened to her but it stings knowing that happened I want to kill the man...I know its wrong but He deserved it....I was almost raped.... I kicked the guys ass though he was a whimp...I was lucky... I was so lucky... I support anyone who has had this happen to them its terrifying and wont ever leave your mind. Its scary, I wish everyone was this lucky. Sweet heart if you need to talk im here
thank you for this i was raped when i was 12 and i struggle with the affects of that night. This really helped to see someone who had come out of an awful thing and be stronger. i was beginning to think it would never stop haunting me but, you gave me some hope. Thank You
as a MALE victim, of female perpertrator,WHILE IN FOSTER HOMES, I Grieved for our loss ....been there,,and several times, out of nowhere,do that daily that is,I re-live those moments and retract deeply... Psychologically, I sludge thru life, made quiet by male victim shameing,'disregaurd and humility. The rage of socitial anger and self-devalvuation is palettable..We never recover, fully..and they never really care..especially if your a male Nowhere to turn or go.MAN-up...they say...
@g4gg4gg4gg4g I have a male friend that has been raped. he hasnt told many ppl & he kinda acts as if he doesnt care but I can tell that he does. he was raped by another man he was drugged. whenever the topic of rape would come up he would always say something about males being victims as well & that the statistics are low because they are afraid to tell. rape is a horrible thing but i truely feel sry for male victims. We live in a immature society and ppl often look down on male victims
@g4gg4gg4gg4g society looks down on male victims as wimpy or gay and its not rite. Speaking as a woman i truely empathize i may not kno your pain but I kno how hard it is to feel there is nowhere to go. I just want you to kno that youre not alone my friend isnt the only one I have met other male victim they are all still recovering. You can talk to me if you need to. or if not thats fine just kno that even tho this world is cruel and judging, YOU R NOT ALONE!
I am a survivor of child abuse, and still cannot comprehend the sense of violation from a rape. I am so inspired seeing someone able to rise above that, and be so fiercely in touch with the rage that allows her to keep going.
Serious respect and thanks for posting this and promoting RAIIN. I dated someone once whose first sexual encounter was being raped by her first boyfriend when she was 15. I met her 10 years after that and up to that time was the only person she ever told. I cant even describe how traumatized she was by this but I think she is doing much better now.
I think every girl should take some serious defense classes... or if the guy is caught the girls or boys should be allowed to decide if the rapist gets castrated.
Kiceie i am so sorry that happened to you. honestly i could not watch all of the video because i it really got to me. a good friend of mine was raped by her best friends boyfriend and i know first hand that the pain she bares even to this day is awful and unfathomable.
I have GREAT respect for you. I don't know you, but I really think it has made you stronger. That guy deserves to be in jail. Hopefully he will end up there some day.
I wish I had the guts to write my rapist like this. He is still my facebook "friend" but has never even acnkwoledged that something happened that night. He has never apologzed and probably never will. I still doubt myself too much to confront him. But this video was brave and amazing. Thank you for posting what I wish I could say.
this is so sad i almost cried i was raped when i was 13 so I feel you, stand up for yourself tell your friend his name and have her get a pfa on him. I've been abused more than once by guys and was punched in my face i stood up got a pfa your a pretty and smart women I hope you stay strong like the rest of us females it's hard but we can do it!
@ScalarPhotonZ not raped but they get sexualy abused in some way. all the girls in my history class got together and started talking, it turned out every single one of them had been molested. its sad and scary to think about.
many of my friends have been raped. I say this because for those of you that have been through this, or god forbid, will go through this, speaking up is your best option, go to the police, no matter if you think its a bad idea, it is not. and always remember IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT. no matter what circumstance it occurred in, it is not your fault...
or it is foggy, but i do know what it does to someone, two of my exes have been raped, and so has the woman i am dating now. one of my exes was raped by her ex when i was dating her, it took all i had not to kill him. My sister was raped by our uncle, i walked in on it when i was 9, he wont show his face around me, because he is scared of me.
Wow that left me speechless. those words. those emotions. are Raw, Beautiful and Powerful. I am Empathitic for you, I hope you are able to live the rest of your life as normal as possible. I have dealt with rape victims alot, im kindof my friends diary, crutch, mediator, listening ear, and shoulder to cry on. I cannot truly say i know what you are going through because i have never gone thru it. Yes my mother and father wre both sexually abusive, but most of it i dont really remember.
that was amazing i would have never thought about what happent to me like that... your right i have to be strong... thank you and i know someday when he finaly realizes what he did to you he will apologise.
My mum, Was raped by my uncle and repatadly bashed, Forced to use drugs. When she was younger, Hes not my uncle. But one day he will get what he desearves.
My Girlfriend, Was raped by her Pa, And my bestfriend was raped by his brothers step brother. It truely breaks my heart.
@MeGaLaZyCoW Raped by her father, and your friend by brother and step brothers? Jesus, was the best friend all at the same time with both people? :/ How can someone's Father rape their own daughter? just for incest? :( My 2nd ex gf was raped by her ex bf and now....she has had a CHILD with this bastard, intentionally! My latest ex was very close to being raped several times by her ex.
Thank you for coming out and sharing your story with us. It must be brutally difficult for you to do this. Your videos are always so humorous and lighthearted and I never guessed that there was this dark chapter in your life. But then again, little surprises me. I have known many pretty and intelligent girls who seem perfectly happy, stable, and balanced. And yet they have told me horrifying stories of having been date-raped or even gangraped. I'm sorry that you had to go through this.
i would like to also add the videos u make including this 1 have been very informative and helpful to me personally and im sure many others. perhaps if more people were to see this video there would b fewer women like u that have to suffer this. i have learned many things from ure videos that i feel have and will continue to help my relationship and i also feel able to understand my wifes situation more so then i did b4. tyvm for all u have done and i hope u continue. kudos to u for being strong
i dont know u at all. but in a way i can understand what u have had to deal with. my wife was raped many years ago by 4 youths and still remembers it. she talks to me about it when it bothers her and she says it helps her cope. this was not quite 8 years ago. its very hard not only on the victims but the people who care for them as well. i feel sry and ashamed that "men" tho i cant sat they really are men to have done this could do something so horrible to u.
Having sat and watched a few of your other posts I was stunned when this one automatically played. As a male in my mid thirties I cannot express how appauld I was that someone could do this. Sadly it also brought back some memories of a friend of mine in college that had a similar experience. I only wish my friend had your courage and strength, or that I could have helped her to get through it instead of losing her to a so called friend of mine I had introduced her to.
I guess what is important is that when this happens to someone, one shouldn't try to be all quiet and afraid of talking about it, though the person this has happened to may wish so.
As I believe I have understood from all those who have spoken forth, rape creates a wound that needs caring and work to grow, right? Not to be hidden behind fake plasters....
You are kind who speak freely about this, I believe it works : )
You seem like such a sweet girl. No one deserves to have that done to them. God bless you young lady. Be strong. I want you to know that the videos you make help people. You will be in my prayers
This made me Cry - Your a Precious woman - And thank you 4 having the strength to make this video (I couldn't have) -This will help Sooooo Many people!!!
I cry to think of what happened to you. Congratulations for being able to go on with your life. However, I pray you will somehow be able, someday, to forgive him. Forget? Never. But for your own peace of mind, forgive him . . so as to free yourself from the hurt you now feel. And keep telling your story. Perhaps you can dissuade some other cruel man from doing this to another victim!!!
Puts a real perspective on the subject. I think that anyone who sees this wishes you well. And as I've experienced in my life, these things that don't kill you, will make you stronger. Peace and Love to you.
I come live in a country (Oman) which by law if you see someone getting raped and you kill the rapist at the momment (while the rapist is on her/him), you are not held acountable. and if you are able t stop them without killing them then they are sentenced to death in more than 90% of the cases...I thank god for that.
I'm sorry you had to go through this. You are a very strong person for going through this then sharing it with a bunch of strangers. I wish you the best and stay strong. I hope one day he pays for what he did.
This is a very powerful video. I think every man and every woman and every boy and girl who reaches the age and stage of maturity should see this. In order to have an understanding of how rape affects a person first hand. The man who raped you will live with what he did till' death and hopefully the authorities will deal with him or already have dealt with him. Rape is a tragic thing, I know women who've gone through it and when they tell their stories my chest ache.
im so fking sry for what happened to you..if i was able to help i defiantly would.. <3 n for everyone else you people really need to stfu and grow up ok what if it was gf or ur daughter eh i mean really u people have so much fking balls to dis a person over the inter-webs it is sad and pathetic for , i think who ever rights disrespectful things n say nasty shit to a woman is a no good bastard's who needs there balls cut off then youll understand fully what Kicesie is going through till t/n stfu
u are a wonderful person and i think i speak for the 1,346,654 people who have watched this video when i say that u are a strong person and we respect u for sharing your troubles with us,i only wish i could help u like your videos have helped me
I feel so bad that this happened to you. I don't know you personally but I am glad you shared and you were able to overcome those torments. Hopefully I'm not casing you more pain by commenting on this vid. But I just wanted to say because of you I am proud to be a intelligent women of our era. Just because you are older doesn't necessarily mean you have that you have lived/wisdom. I can say this cuz I am only a year older but my dear you have my utmost respect and not just because of this vid.
When seeing articles about this subject, at first I feel ashamed to be a human of the same gender as those responsible. But then, I feel proud. Proud that I know I will never commit such an atrocity. Perhaps there is hope for my gender after all.
Its sad and pathetic that we've come so far as people yet these atrocities like rape and murder still happen . It's sad and I'm srry this happened to you . :( . And the sad thing is this doesnt just happen to women it happens to men as well . Men can get raped just as easily . But anyways I'm srry this happened to you . My heart goes out to you and I hope your healing process is quick and steady . :/ . Best of luck in your future . :) .
I don't know why but each time I ear about rape. It make me freakin violent inside. I have a creaving to kick there ass hard. DAMN IT!! Now I need to find a rapist and hit is bastard face around until he cries to make me stop and even then i will not stop i'll continue hitting. cause they dont stop when you're(victim) asking.
I wanted to tell you I am sorry that this horrible unimaginable attack happened to you and you still live with the pain and mental torment on so many level's. I wanted to tell you my girl friend was raped when she was 14. She was overwhelmed the other night having the thought's go thru her mind, she is now 39. I will keep you in my prayer's.
By talking about it, you give strengh to people to whom it may have happened, you show that it is not YOUR fault, that yes you have been a victim, but you force yourself to get a hold of your life again and be the leader of it . I admire this, you, and I thank you in the name of all the people out there who have been hurt ..
You are one strong lady, coming out like this and sharing the one thing that hurts a person's soul the most with everyone ; willing to seem vulnerable to the world because you went through something that wrongly shames all the people that it happens to , and that's what makes you so courageous.
So sorry for what happened to you. But like someone else said; How come you didn't tell the police? You should have done it. You're such a nice person. How could someone do that to you??? But you had the courage to tell about it on the web. Hope the best for you.
@rachelinou1 You never know what you will do until you are in a situation. I was raped, and I didn't go to the police right away. I was too embarrassed, and before the embarrassment I was in denial. The only reason that I eventually made a police report was because of my mother. She encouraged me to do so. When you question or second guess someone who has been raped just because you think they didn't respond the right way, you are only doing more damage. Thank you kicesie for you courage.
your words are haunting, but they also carry so much determination and strength and I pray that these traits stay with you, people can be callous and stupid and im glad you are strong and smart enough to ignore such hateful disgusting comments from people who honestly have no clue. this video is very powerful and a positive example of a survivor for other girls who havent yet found the courage to speak up, can know they can rise again 2. i wont tell u to be stong because you already are.
I feel the media has a duty to publicise rape cases to keep everyone alert of these monsters. Sometimes they do, 15 days before they dropped your case, the infamous Richmond California 2 hour long gang rape case got INTERNATIONAL attention for the horrendous behavior of young men in America! :(
thank you for the content and presentation - and most of all, for surviving... i stumbled into your world today in random wandering on youtube and have watched some of your 2007 and 2008 sex videos... i haven't found your other two youtube accounts you mention, so i am ignorant of you beyond the six or seven videos i've seen... i admire your attempts to educate... i am confused by the date (nov 2006?) on this video and 4 years ago mention at the start (2002?)... in any case, stay strong :)
And to be quite honest, we're very lucky that it was you and not some other girl. Many girls I know would be driven to suicide after such an ordeal. You're strong enough to publish a video like this to show us first hand how it feels years later. Your other videos also make you so easy to relate to, and in a way this video was like an older sister reading that letter to me before sending it through the mail. You're one of the few girls that I genuinely DO want to meet IRL now.
You should have called the police...we live in a free country where you CAN tell...and you did not. I am from the middle east where if women do tell they are the ones who are beaten or put to death...I dont understand how you can live in the free world and not TELL. Until you do this you will remain haunted. I wish you the best of luck. Stay strong.
@thebellydancer28 Please read the description. I DID make a police report and he WAS arrested. When you make assumptions like you did it makes you look like a jerk and it hurts me.
I am so sorry about your past experiences but give you credit for willing to tell your story and help other people going through the same hard time that you did
I am sooo sad to see this video.may Allah fill your heart with peace, and bless you with better reward for taking this pain in patience, ameen. what goes around comes around, make Allah Almighty your advocate, your attorney you will never regret in life. I pray,may God give you the power to over come this pain,ameen.
can we get his address ? we will make him a surprise. WE WILL GANG BANG HIM TILL DEATH ! Soz for happening to you, my sister got aggressed too but I beat the fuck out of that guy.
I've talked to girls who've been raped. I didn't think it could happen until I saw a female friend of mine sexually harrassed on a night out. It wasn't full rape, but it was still horrific.
I wish that you never had to go through what you did, but there's no point in wishing. Ever since I heard my first rape story, I resolved to be the best that I can be for any future lovers of mine. I can't stop people getting hurt, but I'd like to think that I could make at least one person happy. - Kaz
i dont know what to say, but im amazed by how u have overcame it and ur capability of sharing ur story with us ...ur very courageous ^_-! ...btw i totally wanna kill the guy 4 u, i'll do the jail time
you know what I'm sick of all this passifist bull shit violence is a tool and it can be used for good "people" like that guy are'nt worth the air they breathe. If he raped you he raped his wife an prolly raped his own damned children, what the fuck happend to REAL men, people need to start growing a backbone again there are alot of things worth than death, I will chose to fight to the bloody fucking end for me and my own what ever the outcome may be, I will always choose death before dishonor.
Hey I just wanna say I'm so sorry about what happened, this never happened to me, but a few of my friends have. The govornment needs to do more about rapes, that should be the death sentence, because, like most wemon, I would rather die then be raped. Again I am so sorry about what happened to you if you ever need anyone to talk to about anything you can always come to me
this may be a side note, but you write beautifully. i can truly feel how totally true you are. i dont understand how people could possibly feel that any of what you are saying is fake. this is a horrible problem and i am so sorry. but the fact that you are so strong is amazing. you are an amazing person, really. i have known friends who were raped by relatives of theirs, and i have even been in some close encounters myself. you never forget them. i hope everything turns out well for you kicesie.
Thank you for that. You are actually very similar to a Holocaust survivor I met at the Holocaust Museum in Washington DC just last week. He actually likened the Hitler and the other Nazi leaders to rapists and showed us his tattoo to describe it as the everlasting mark from it. It takes the strength of a Navy Seal or a Marine to talk about both subjects, rape for you and the Holocaust for him. So, as I have said to a few veterans from Vietnam and Korea, thank you for your service.
i am so sorri that that happened to u i no how it feels i have had it happen to me by someone very close to me and it killed me becuz no one listen and it stilll hurts today knowing that that person can act like it was ok .....
Oh my God, seeing this video makes my chest burn in anger... i will never be able to understand your pain, but even if we don't know eachother, even if a whole ocean separate us, my heart is with you and everyone that shared the same fate as you, God bless you,
@feetwad lol, because with my luck you'd be undercover FBI or something.
But no, really, I believe with my whole heart that you can't fight evil with evil. You can only fight evil with good. So I try to be good to create some sort of balance in the world. Meanwhile he works at the US Department of Defense and has enough power I worry very much for future victims. But I did everything I could.
@kicesie you're so naive.........you fight fire with fire, nothing else works...an eye for an eye ensures the perpetrator won't be able to "see" his next victim...with that said, hope you find justice and I hope that scum rots in hell
If the punishment was death for rape nothing would change.they would still be desperate for a lay.Girls can always get laid.Men need self control.Sometimes I wish they were all dead,cause we don't need them,we have technology now,and if the male population's excuse is that they are the only ones that can do hard labor.Think again,cause I've been at it building houses for years now,and I'm one happy mother fucker.
I agree here. Even if MORE juries convicted rapists to be executed, they don't deserve death anyway. It's far too merciful. You made it very clear in the video that the ultimate punishment for such people is for them to grow up, have their own loved ones and possibly children, then spend the rest of their lives living in fear for them. It's the only way.
@talsajstar And what about all the other victims they will have in the meantime. Research shows the average rapists has TONS of victims before being caught or dying.
I do realize this, but it's not like the problem will stop just like that. Even if a rapist is caught, there's still what his punishment will be. I do agree that they need to be locked up, but the most important thing is rehabilitation. Only after the rapist is free from whatever is wrong with him (eg: sex addiction, obsessive love, other disorders) can he realize that what he did was wrong that everyone he knows and loves is in danger of the very same thing.
@NARUFRIEK9 I feel very sad for the males who rape women, because its like raping someone is capable of being a mother and someone, who males are nothing without.... I'm a male and I respect women, I've never hurt one intentionally, I will keep it that way.
Hell yeah!!! all guys are evile and none should live. we HAVE the technology now... we dont NEED them. studes have shown htat the average woman is capable of
1:building a house
2: making money
3: tending children
ALONE!!!!!!!!! GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so rite on girlfriend!!
I was molested by my father off and on for two years. I know It's not the same thing but it still fucks somebody over.The last time it happened was almost 2 years ago but I still have nightmares about it.
true, he may be scared for his daughter or maybe, lets hope he doesnt, hell be one of those fathers who abuse their kids, and probably his wife, again, i hope not... sometimes i try to push things aside, but i dont know if that makes me stronger or insensible, i mean, im still really sentimental even thoguh i dont show it, this things really make me sad and angry, i just try to cope with some people by acting stone cold, but honestly i still think im a nice guy. i hope youre all better now =]
We speak the same words. Like SERIOUSLY. The when talk about when he gets married and has a kid. I have said the same thing. I'm sorry that we share the same experience. You are so strong. I hope I can be as strong as you.
I was raped about 3 or 4 years ago. can't remember because im deliberately trying not to think about it as I have ptsd as a result.
Anyway, it sucks. There is no excuse. These people are cunts and deserve to be tortured. I have no interest in the guy ever apologising, I just want him to die. I have no sympathy for these people. Eye for an eye.
Hope you feel better and deal with this in a more healthy fashion than I am. I never used to hate.I now feel it's my duty to be as pissed as possible.
As far as for you kicesie I pray that the day of judgement for your rapest. He may spend internity with the crys of he victims and have his heart ripped from his body and burned infront of him so he may feel his burning heart in the devils realm for internity.
My wife was also raped and never knew who he is, but I know that he will burn in hell for turning my wife into a woman who does not enjoy sex with the man she loves. only now after 7 years of marriage is she finally recovering. You and your soul will burn for what you did to her. All my wife knows is he was a ex marine. She was powerless and scared. The doctor says by the way the assult was she was most likely not her first vicitm. So know this you peace of trash you will get caught you will
So sorry you had to go through an experience like this Kicesie, you seem like quite an intelligent, witty, and an overall well-rounded girl so hopefully this hasn't desensitise your zest for life. It's reasons like this I believe castration should be re-introduced as a form of punishment.
Finally, keep your chin-up and forever walk tall :-)
Hi I'm a first time watcher. My wife was also raped and it effects us bothe and I have the feeling it always will. Im so sorry that people can treat other people that way. Have you seen any counseling? My wife went on to get her BS in Phsycology but said it hurt too much to actually go to therapy.
I am so so so so sorry to hear this happened to you, you are a strong strong woman because of it though, it made you who you are today, a strong, beautiful, fearless, young lady. And you're beauty shines bright. He will rot in hell. You always remember how strong and how much every admires you and your strength. :)I know I sure do
i make me weep to think that other males do this and think it is ok i am normally a detached person not very emotionally but when i heard this i started to cry what is done here is an atrocity if i was to get my way rappests would be hung drawn and quartered for this but unfortunately i cant i hope someday he does release what he has done but i am ashamed to think others of my gender dont think as i do
well i know i may not be able to help but for what its worth im sorry it happened to you. Id never wish that on anyone. Im doing my best to help prevent it and god help if i catch a rapist in the act. He wont walk away I can promise you that. I hope you feel better. I know it may sound stupid but if i could take your place so you wouldnt have to deal with it I would in a second. *hugs* i hope this helps you in some way. If not just regard it as someone saying stupid things.
Rape is a crime that should be punished by hanging. There is no way a rapist can be "rehabilitated". This world would be a lot better without rapists, pedophiles and batterers.
i feel like i should ask you this a girl that mine and my brothers best friend was seeing went and told the police my brother raped her, after our bestfriend and this girl had been apart for 3 months and her and my brother had sex, but i want to know is why do some girls do that and lie about things like that, do they know it can ruin someones life? and why would they lie about something so serious that they dont even know the pain of it actually happening to them?
@azza13mad Only 3% of police reports regarding rape are false reports according to FBI statistics. That's a very small amount and is the same as the percentage of other false reports (Robbery, Murder, etc).
In 2006 my sister got raped by a group of guys in there car and up until 2008 my sister kept it from my older brother and i, i know who the guys are but yet my sister insists that i do not go after them because she once "loved" one of the guys that did it, each and everytime i hear about someone that has gotten raped it tears me apart, i feel like i wish i could do more to stop this happening to people, men and women, the people that do this need to get what they deserve
@azza13mad Justice is deserved.... but your sister's peace of mind and letting her feel as if she has control NOW is much more important. It will likely take her a very long time to reconcile the fact that the man she loved is the same man who did something so awful to her and that she likely never really knew him. Intimate partner rapes are some of the most psychologically confusing situations I can fathom. Because everything you thought you knew about them was... wrong.
I am so sorry I even crying.I dont know what to say. I am a man and dont now how a man could ever do any thing to a lady or a girl let that. Man that does stuff like this are not man they are worst than dogs. Keep your head up stay strong and there are people out that stands with you on this.
actualy its not about the violence or sex its about the guy not having power in himself probably because of low selfesteem or aspergers syndrome or something and getting power by dominating someone else, its exactly like how a bully feels in school but a lot less extreme
I love your videos, even though I just found them. I can't watch this specific video because it won't play on my iPhone but it's pretty clear what happened. I just wanted to say that you're awesome and strong and really funny. Hug* as a tribute to your awesomeness and everything, here's a little dance:
I'm a big fan! I've just stumbled on your videos and even though I've watched only a few, I like how calm and poised and just plain not awkward you are when talking about your subjects. You even make it kinda funny sometimes. It's also a lot less awkward than hearing about from my mom or something. I can't watch this specific video. But it's pretty clear what happened and it makes me sad to hear that that would happen to someone as cool as you :(. As a tribute to how cool your videos are, here'
Well done on getting past it, I imagine you take a hell of a lot less crap from people because of it but I do wonder if this had any effect on your career path.
@nugor1 I've always been interested in human sexuality. However because of my experience I will most definitely volunteer as a victim advocate after I get my degree. And I get tons of crap BECAUSE of this video.... but the message is too important for me to stop. The victims who write to me are too important for me to stop. I'll never stop talking about the reality of rape, unless it stops all together.
Honey, hope you reported this man to the police before something bad happen to the next girl. Anyway... Cmon girl, its not easy. But this is the best that a cave-man can do. This kind of man cant do or be anything else then SHIT in life. This animal cant use his brains so his pennis guides his miserable life.
But YOU can do it better. Deep breath, full your heart and soul with light. Be bigger then ANY MAN was. And when he become the "girl" in jail, smile at him and say "No regreats! lol"
Nemuriah 6 months ago
Justice? 'Men' like him, are no men; no human being. If I see someone like him, I SWEAR TO EVERY LITTLE HUMAN BEING that I will rip his whole body apart, so no one will be able to find it anywhere. And why? Because I'm going to chew it all down. That's what I promise to everyone.
smfreak1515 6 months ago
all i can say is im truly sorry. I know how you feel and what your going threw exept I had to face my rapest in the face every single day. I dont see how men can do that, We feel, and hurt just like anything or one else, Is it a power trip for them? They feel they have control over her? Just remember (for men), The only control you have is putting that fear & nighmares into our heads for the rest of our lifes!
Nukia19 6 months ago
how can somebody rape someone??? i just cant understand that. doing something like that to somebody??? how can they do that? ther must be somethyng mentally rong with them!
mongolmees 6 months ago
I don't even have words for you. I can't ever understand how you feel. But even thinking about it makes me SO MAD. If this ever happened to someone close to me, jail wouldn't be enough justice for me. You're very strong. Also speaking as a man, I am now very worried about the girl I like. Isn't there anything I can do to protect her without being invasive?
K1arke 7 months ago
I think you are a very courageous person.
xdanierox 7 months ago
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lorettaft19 7 months ago
oh wow i am so sorry, I WILL NEVER HURT A WOMAN...i wish the best for your future and hope you can overcome your past. Karma will reign supreme and he will get his no matter what. It is pleasing to see a strong woman who can stand up for herself. Bless you and i will help in whatever way i can
omgfmlwtfsmb 7 months ago
How can people do something like that. Speaking as a man, I HATE you rapists, and you sexual predators and EVERYONE who commits a sexual based crime. You give us good men such a bad name. Well, for all you women out there, just know were not all monsters. Some of us truly care, and upon hearing stories like this just want o go beat the shit out of those bastards.
FreakDaMIghet 7 months ago
I know you're hurting Kicesie. I'm sure these videos help other women to deal with the same issues. Keep up the good work.
Rescue1325 7 months ago
Thats so Sad who ever did this to you is a very sick minded person :'(
FrankIeroRocks182 7 months ago
I feal so sorry for u, bless your heart. No 1 deservs this
No1sLoots 7 months ago
kicesie.. i have so much respect, and in-v you. you are so brave, and beautiful. im literally speechless because i know how you feel completely. but i dont want to admit this happened to me. especially because of who did it. this is the first time in years i have spoken about it other than my boyfriend.because every holiday i have to look at his face and go back to those 2 years when i was to young to know that what he was doing was wrong,all i knew was it hurt.but i still remeber it all.
hannahjj2009 8 months ago
Hey. I went through the same exact terror... I was in a horrible relationship 3 years ago... he was abusive. Hardly a day went by where I wasn't beaten... he raped me on several occasions. Your "letter to him" that you wrote.. was powerful... I respect you and anybody who's gone through this.... you're right.. you NEVER forget... NEVER. Even to this day, I still deal with PTSD because of it... stay strong.
beckasha83 8 months ago
I am so sorry:( This is a horrible subject that no one takes seriously nowadays
waywonder13 8 months ago
I was never raped, but things have been done to me. God bless you for sharing your story. You are the face of so many of us women. It is people like you that give us hope. Thank you.
Lovepolkadots43 8 months ago
I was raped... And I will never forget. But I will throw his name out there. WILLIAM GREGORY FREEMAN JR.!
forever420xxx 8 months ago
@forever420xxx keep spreading his name everywhere you can!!!!
leiapeison 8 months ago
:( I am so sorry beautiful I have a friend that this happened to I still don't know exactly what happened to her but it stings knowing that happened I want to kill the man...I know its wrong but He deserved it....I was almost raped.... I kicked the guys ass though he was a whimp...I was lucky... I was so lucky... I support anyone who has had this happen to them its terrifying and wont ever leave your mind. Its scary, I wish everyone was this lucky. Sweet heart if you need to talk im here
toolshed777 8 months ago
thats messed up. people who rape should be put in for life, and castrated.
ripetomatoes 8 months ago
Thank you.
so much.
that's all I need to say.
jadegray 8 months ago
thank you for this i was raped when i was 12 and i struggle with the affects of that night. This really helped to see someone who had come out of an awful thing and be stronger. i was beginning to think it would never stop haunting me but, you gave me some hope. Thank You
TheCircean 8 months ago
as a MALE victim, of female perpertrator,WHILE IN FOSTER HOMES, I Grieved for our loss ....been there,,and several times, out of nowhere,do that daily that is,I re-live those moments and retract deeply... Psychologically, I sludge thru life, made quiet by male victim shameing,'disregaurd and humility. The rage of socitial anger and self-devalvuation is palettable..We never recover, fully..and they never really care..especially if your a male Nowhere to turn or go.MAN-up...they say...
g4gg4gg4gg4g 9 months ago
@g4gg4gg4gg4g I have a male friend that has been raped. he hasnt told many ppl & he kinda acts as if he doesnt care but I can tell that he does. he was raped by another man he was drugged. whenever the topic of rape would come up he would always say something about males being victims as well & that the statistics are low because they are afraid to tell. rape is a horrible thing but i truely feel sry for male victims. We live in a immature society and ppl often look down on male victims
idrcsostfu 7 months ago
@g4gg4gg4gg4g society looks down on male victims as wimpy or gay and its not rite. Speaking as a woman i truely empathize i may not kno your pain but I kno how hard it is to feel there is nowhere to go. I just want you to kno that youre not alone my friend isnt the only one I have met other male victim they are all still recovering. You can talk to me if you need to. or if not thats fine just kno that even tho this world is cruel and judging, YOU R NOT ALONE!
idrcsostfu 7 months ago
:( this made me cry, i hope your ok <3
Taylofilmcreations 9 months ago
Thank you for doing what i never could
KshortyH 9 months ago
@KshortyH You aren't alone. Maybe that means I'm not alone...
projectdarkness 8 months ago in playlist Poppin'
I am a survivor of child abuse, and still cannot comprehend the sense of violation from a rape. I am so inspired seeing someone able to rise above that, and be so fiercely in touch with the rage that allows her to keep going.
Be strong, phoenix, and always rise again.
ncc74656m 9 months ago
i think your an amazing strong woman, good luck with life.
marvelboyliam 9 months ago
Im 14 and I can still understand this.... sorry for what happend
Revlemid 9 months ago
stay strong my godsister had the same thing happen and i know that i will pray for you ever moment possible
MultiJuggalette101 9 months ago
I am so sorry about what happened to you. Stay strong. You will be in my prayers.
MsPrettyParadiso 9 months ago
i am so sorry, dont let anybody put you down, or get in your way:)
LalaWolf8 10 months ago
Serious respect and thanks for posting this and promoting RAIIN. I dated someone once whose first sexual encounter was being raped by her first boyfriend when she was 15. I met her 10 years after that and up to that time was the only person she ever told. I cant even describe how traumatized she was by this but I think she is doing much better now.
patbirder 10 months ago
I think every girl should take some serious defense classes... or if the guy is caught the girls or boys should be allowed to decide if the rapist gets castrated.
malone1221 10 months ago
Your tuff for speaking out like this not too many people have the courage to do this. Your tuffer than most us men.
MrFryguy001 10 months ago
god bless, thinking of you...
jerryswallow 10 months ago
Kiceie i am so sorry that happened to you. honestly i could not watch all of the video because i it really got to me. a good friend of mine was raped by her best friends boyfriend and i know first hand that the pain she bares even to this day is awful and unfathomable.
RantingRedHead1988 10 months ago
I have GREAT respect for you. I don't know you, but I really think it has made you stronger. That guy deserves to be in jail. Hopefully he will end up there some day.
sassy12696 10 months ago
I wish I had the guts to write my rapist like this. He is still my facebook "friend" but has never even acnkwoledged that something happened that night. He has never apologzed and probably never will. I still doubt myself too much to confront him. But this video was brave and amazing. Thank you for posting what I wish I could say.
LostNotBrokenSoul 11 months ago
@LostNotBrokenSoul I can empathize almost exactly with you except I was 14. Be strong :)
oXoPandasRuleXoX 10 months ago
this is so sad i almost cried i was raped when i was 13 so I feel you, stand up for yourself tell your friend his name and have her get a pfa on him. I've been abused more than once by guys and was punched in my face i stood up got a pfa your a pretty and smart women I hope you stay strong like the rest of us females it's hard but we can do it!
alynng08 11 months ago
I find it incredibly hard to believe that as many as 1 in 3 women are raped at some point in their life. Is this really true??:(
ScalarPhotonZ 11 months ago
@ScalarPhotonZ Not raped, sexually assaulted. This doesn't just mean rape. Google it.
petpluto233 11 months ago
@ScalarPhotonZ not raped but they get sexualy abused in some way. all the girls in my history class got together and started talking, it turned out every single one of them had been molested. its sad and scary to think about.
GIRisHOTandSPICY 11 months ago
@ScalarPhotonZ Yes it's very true
CocoPuffpbpjc 11 months ago
the very act of rape is rong and pitifully egotistic. it is horrible! absolutly
tazer74 11 months ago
many of my friends have been raped. I say this because for those of you that have been through this, or god forbid, will go through this, speaking up is your best option, go to the police, no matter if you think its a bad idea, it is not. and always remember IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT. no matter what circumstance it occurred in, it is not your fault...
AngelBytesEternal 11 months ago
@AngelBytesEternal that is so true to speak up and that its not ur fault cause its not. my heart gose out to those victums of sexual asalt.
45ozzy65 11 months ago
or it is foggy, but i do know what it does to someone, two of my exes have been raped, and so has the woman i am dating now. one of my exes was raped by her ex when i was dating her, it took all i had not to kill him. My sister was raped by our uncle, i walked in on it when i was 9, he wont show his face around me, because he is scared of me.
AngelBytesEternal 11 months ago
Wow that left me speechless. those words. those emotions. are Raw, Beautiful and Powerful. I am Empathitic for you, I hope you are able to live the rest of your life as normal as possible. I have dealt with rape victims alot, im kindof my friends diary, crutch, mediator, listening ear, and shoulder to cry on. I cannot truly say i know what you are going through because i have never gone thru it. Yes my mother and father wre both sexually abusive, but most of it i dont really remember.
AngelBytesEternal 11 months ago
that was amazing i would have never thought about what happent to me like that... your right i have to be strong... thank you and i know someday when he finaly realizes what he did to you he will apologise.
kassymorrissette 11 months ago
My Mother...
My Girlfriend...
And Bestfriend...
Have all be raped by family.
It breaks my heart.
As im sure it breaks everyone's.
My mum, Was raped by my uncle and repatadly bashed, Forced to use drugs. When she was younger, Hes not my uncle. But one day he will get what he desearves.
My Girlfriend, Was raped by her Pa, And my bestfriend was raped by his brothers step brother. It truely breaks my heart.
Everyone please know, Your not alone out there.
There is help, So be strong. <3
MeGaLaZyCoW 11 months ago
@MeGaLaZyCoW Raped by her father, and your friend by brother and step brothers? Jesus, was the best friend all at the same time with both people? :/ How can someone's Father rape their own daughter? just for incest? :( My 2nd ex gf was raped by her ex bf and now....she has had a CHILD with this bastard, intentionally! My latest ex was very close to being raped several times by her ex.
thEannoyingE 10 months ago
i hope this guy burns in hell for what he did
bloodiyman 1 year ago
you are a very strong women for coming out and tellin your story....
MzTryMe 1 year ago
yea eventually he drown on his own guilt sooner or later, and the more he pretend he never hapend the harder its gona hit him, karma is beautiful.
taymaz1 1 year ago
Thank you for coming out and sharing your story with us. It must be brutally difficult for you to do this. Your videos are always so humorous and lighthearted and I never guessed that there was this dark chapter in your life. But then again, little surprises me. I have known many pretty and intelligent girls who seem perfectly happy, stable, and balanced. And yet they have told me horrifying stories of having been date-raped or even gangraped. I'm sorry that you had to go through this.
kingjayapala 1 year ago
whoever this guy is he will burn in hell for all eternity. i am so sorry to hear that he did this to you.
SuperCmoney18 1 year ago
You (or anyone going through this) should read the book "Reach for the Rainbow" it's about sexual abuse and healing. it helped me greatly.
BitterSweetZombie 1 year ago
@BitterSweetZombie Thanks, I love reading! I'll look into it!!
kicesie 1 year ago
@BitterSweetZombie bless you <3
pamcaymol777 9 months ago
i would like to also add the videos u make including this 1 have been very informative and helpful to me personally and im sure many others. perhaps if more people were to see this video there would b fewer women like u that have to suffer this. i have learned many things from ure videos that i feel have and will continue to help my relationship and i also feel able to understand my wifes situation more so then i did b4. tyvm for all u have done and i hope u continue. kudos to u for being strong
Amdoravel 1 year ago
i dont know u at all. but in a way i can understand what u have had to deal with. my wife was raped many years ago by 4 youths and still remembers it. she talks to me about it when it bothers her and she says it helps her cope. this was not quite 8 years ago. its very hard not only on the victims but the people who care for them as well. i feel sry and ashamed that "men" tho i cant sat they really are men to have done this could do something so horrible to u.
Amdoravel 1 year ago
Having sat and watched a few of your other posts I was stunned when this one automatically played. As a male in my mid thirties I cannot express how appauld I was that someone could do this. Sadly it also brought back some memories of a friend of mine in college that had a similar experience. I only wish my friend had your courage and strength, or that I could have helped her to get through it instead of losing her to a so called friend of mine I had introduced her to.
You truly are remarkable!
MyOddman 1 year ago
I guess what is important is that when this happens to someone, one shouldn't try to be all quiet and afraid of talking about it, though the person this has happened to may wish so.
As I believe I have understood from all those who have spoken forth, rape creates a wound that needs caring and work to grow, right? Not to be hidden behind fake plasters....
You are kind who speak freely about this, I believe it works : )
Nabo00o 1 year ago
You seem like such a sweet girl. No one deserves to have that done to them. God bless you young lady. Be strong. I want you to know that the videos you make help people. You will be in my prayers
clayton1575 1 year ago
:( this just made me cry :( God bless you.
cutiemecfee 1 year ago
Awww:( Fuck Who Ever That Man Is!!
CoMaNdErNeRd 1 year ago
This made me Cry - Your a Precious woman - And thank you 4 having the strength to make this video (I couldn't have) -This will help Sooooo Many people!!!
-God Bless you :)
stonemanmark23 1 year ago
I cry to think of what happened to you. Congratulations for being able to go on with your life. However, I pray you will somehow be able, someday, to forgive him. Forget? Never. But for your own peace of mind, forgive him . . so as to free yourself from the hurt you now feel. And keep telling your story. Perhaps you can dissuade some other cruel man from doing this to another victim!!!
proberenu 1 year ago
I'm i'm so sorry to hear this. This is so so sad hun. Fuck that bastard who did such an evil thing to you.
I read the update on facebook. Thank you so much for updating us. You are so very brave and an incredible person. Never forget that
schumeister87 1 year ago
Puts a real perspective on the subject. I think that anyone who sees this wishes you well. And as I've experienced in my life, these things that don't kill you, will make you stronger. Peace and Love to you.
anabanna87 1 year ago
I am so sorry for what happened to you. It pains me that you had to go through something as horrible as that. Lots of love to you from Denmark<3
TrinneLovesAll13 1 year ago
I come live in a country (Oman) which by law if you see someone getting raped and you kill the rapist at the momment (while the rapist is on her/him), you are not held acountable. and if you are able t stop them without killing them then they are sentenced to death in more than 90% of the cases...I thank god for that.
platinum7zeppelin 1 year ago
I'm sorry you had to go through this. You are a very strong person for going through this then sharing it with a bunch of strangers. I wish you the best and stay strong. I hope one day he pays for what he did.
lillwhitegirl 1 year ago
RAPE IS THE MOST HORRIBLE THING EVER!!!!!!
KusinerneAF 1 year ago
I hate rapists, child molesters, and anyone similar
batistaker123 1 year ago
This is a very powerful video. I think every man and every woman and every boy and girl who reaches the age and stage of maturity should see this. In order to have an understanding of how rape affects a person first hand. The man who raped you will live with what he did till' death and hopefully the authorities will deal with him or already have dealt with him. Rape is a tragic thing, I know women who've gone through it and when they tell their stories my chest ache.
Rapist are sick people.
lovelyladynostalgic 1 year ago
Thanks for being strong.
anticliche321 1 year ago
im so fking sry for what happened to you..if i was able to help i defiantly would.. <3 n for everyone else you people really need to stfu and grow up ok what if it was gf or ur daughter eh i mean really u people have so much fking balls to dis a person over the inter-webs it is sad and pathetic for , i think who ever rights disrespectful things n say nasty shit to a woman is a no good bastard's who needs there balls cut off then youll understand fully what Kicesie is going through till t/n stfu
TheDevilsTrade 1 year ago
u are a wonderful person and i think i speak for the 1,346,654 people who have watched this video when i say that u are a strong person and we respect u for sharing your troubles with us,i only wish i could help u like your videos have helped me
campbellaidan101 1 year ago
this is an amazing video, you're so beautiful, thank you for surviving
LaFemmeCelena 1 year ago
I'm a guy and i honestly have no idea how men who have raped someone can live with themselves.
microfoo88 1 year ago
Really powerful, emotional stuff.
DJDeCiBeL01 1 year ago
OMG you're So courageous for posting this awful video please tell us more facts about your life the internet must know about
icarus313 1 year ago
Sorry about what happened to you.
My friend got harassed before not as serious as rap'e but I made sure that guy wasn't rapin'g anyone that night!
94moore28 1 year ago
OMG!! I LOVEEE YOU! I don't know you but I love you. You are one strong lady! :D ♥
emo44608 1 year ago
I can't believe that! i feel sososososoossoososo bad for you!:\
xcourtxcutex 1 year ago
I feel so bad that this happened to you. I don't know you personally but I am glad you shared and you were able to overcome those torments. Hopefully I'm not casing you more pain by commenting on this vid. But I just wanted to say because of you I am proud to be a intelligent women of our era. Just because you are older doesn't necessarily mean you have that you have lived/wisdom. I can say this cuz I am only a year older but my dear you have my utmost respect and not just because of this vid.
Art23Freak 1 year ago
When seeing articles about this subject, at first I feel ashamed to be a human of the same gender as those responsible. But then, I feel proud. Proud that I know I will never commit such an atrocity. Perhaps there is hope for my gender after all.
S31Syntax 1 year ago
this made me cry, i felt your anger and sadness
i'm so sorry it happen to you, a great amazing women, i idolize you even more now
you are so strong
LittleRock145 1 year ago
I absolutely love you (:
Chasityds111 1 year ago
You are amazing stay strong
mokalatte02 1 year ago
Its sad and pathetic that we've come so far as people yet these atrocities like rape and murder still happen . It's sad and I'm srry this happened to you . :( . And the sad thing is this doesnt just happen to women it happens to men as well . Men can get raped just as easily . But anyways I'm srry this happened to you . My heart goes out to you and I hope your healing process is quick and steady . :/ . Best of luck in your future . :) .
scottweise18 1 year ago
I don't know why but each time I ear about rape. It make me freakin violent inside. I have a creaving to kick there ass hard. DAMN IT!! Now I need to find a rapist and hit is bastard face around until he cries to make me stop and even then i will not stop i'll continue hitting. cause they dont stop when you're(victim) asking.
Herlastod 1 year ago
I wanted to tell you I am sorry that this horrible unimaginable attack happened to you and you still live with the pain and mental torment on so many level's. I wanted to tell you my girl friend was raped when she was 14. She was overwhelmed the other night having the thought's go thru her mind, she is now 39. I will keep you in my prayer's.
racrx32 1 year ago
By talking about it, you give strengh to people to whom it may have happened, you show that it is not YOUR fault, that yes you have been a victim, but you force yourself to get a hold of your life again and be the leader of it . I admire this, you, and I thank you in the name of all the people out there who have been hurt ..
canexy 1 year ago
You are one strong lady, coming out like this and sharing the one thing that hurts a person's soul the most with everyone ; willing to seem vulnerable to the world because you went through something that wrongly shames all the people that it happens to , and that's what makes you so courageous.
canexy 1 year ago
So sorry for what happened to you. But like someone else said; How come you didn't tell the police? You should have done it. You're such a nice person. How could someone do that to you??? But you had the courage to tell about it on the web. Hope the best for you.
rachelinou1 1 year ago
@rachelinou1 Read the muther f'n description!!!!!
kicesie 1 year ago
@rachelinou1 You never know what you will do until you are in a situation. I was raped, and I didn't go to the police right away. I was too embarrassed, and before the embarrassment I was in denial. The only reason that I eventually made a police report was because of my mother. She encouraged me to do so. When you question or second guess someone who has been raped just because you think they didn't respond the right way, you are only doing more damage. Thank you kicesie for you courage.
briauny 1 year ago
@briauny Thank you so much for your comment!!
kicesie 1 year ago
thank you sooo much for sharing your story! its really touching.
annierism 1 year ago
Hearing it made me even sad...I'm sorry.
daniisme3 1 year ago
your words are haunting, but they also carry so much determination and strength and I pray that these traits stay with you, people can be callous and stupid and im glad you are strong and smart enough to ignore such hateful disgusting comments from people who honestly have no clue. this video is very powerful and a positive example of a survivor for other girls who havent yet found the courage to speak up, can know they can rise again 2. i wont tell u to be stong because you already are.
ihopeuralright 1 year ago
it has made you a stronger person no doubt.. smart beautiful and strong
rogerbegin1970 1 year ago
I feel the media has a duty to publicise rape cases to keep everyone alert of these monsters. Sometimes they do, 15 days before they dropped your case, the infamous Richmond California 2 hour long gang rape case got INTERNATIONAL attention for the horrendous behavior of young men in America! :(
athrunmanly 1 year ago
thank you for the content and presentation - and most of all, for surviving... i stumbled into your world today in random wandering on youtube and have watched some of your 2007 and 2008 sex videos... i haven't found your other two youtube accounts you mention, so i am ignorant of you beyond the six or seven videos i've seen... i admire your attempts to educate... i am confused by the date (nov 2006?) on this video and 4 years ago mention at the start (2002?)... in any case, stay strong :)
candortube 1 year ago
Cont.
And to be quite honest, we're very lucky that it was you and not some other girl. Many girls I know would be driven to suicide after such an ordeal. You're strong enough to publish a video like this to show us first hand how it feels years later. Your other videos also make you so easy to relate to, and in a way this video was like an older sister reading that letter to me before sending it through the mail. You're one of the few girls that I genuinely DO want to meet IRL now.
talsajstar 1 year ago
Son of a bitch need's to be put in prison, or eliminated. I think they all should be put to death.
racrx32 1 year ago
You should have called the police...we live in a free country where you CAN tell...and you did not. I am from the middle east where if women do tell they are the ones who are beaten or put to death...I dont understand how you can live in the free world and not TELL. Until you do this you will remain haunted. I wish you the best of luck. Stay strong.
thebellydancer28 1 year ago
@thebellydancer28 Please read the description. I DID make a police report and he WAS arrested. When you make assumptions like you did it makes you look like a jerk and it hurts me.
kicesie 1 year ago
I am so sorry about your past experiences but give you credit for willing to tell your story and help other people going through the same hard time that you did
1ericreeses 1 year ago
I am sooo sad to see this video.may Allah fill your heart with peace, and bless you with better reward for taking this pain in patience, ameen. what goes around comes around, make Allah Almighty your advocate, your attorney you will never regret in life. I pray,may God give you the power to over come this pain,ameen.
margachi123 1 year ago
can we get his address ? we will make him a surprise. WE WILL GANG BANG HIM TILL DEATH ! Soz for happening to you, my sister got aggressed too but I beat the fuck out of that guy.
RandomSerial 1 year ago
This is horrible. I'm a man and I can't even watch a movie with a rape scene or I get so disturbed I can't watch it. Stay strong much love,
metalmaster4686 1 year ago
I've talked to girls who've been raped. I didn't think it could happen until I saw a female friend of mine sexually harrassed on a night out. It wasn't full rape, but it was still horrific.
I wish that you never had to go through what you did, but there's no point in wishing. Ever since I heard my first rape story, I resolved to be the best that I can be for any future lovers of mine. I can't stop people getting hurt, but I'd like to think that I could make at least one person happy. - Kaz
Stolanis 1 year ago
i dont know what to say, but im amazed by how u have overcame it and ur capability of sharing ur story with us ...ur very courageous ^_-! ...btw i totally wanna kill the guy 4 u, i'll do the jail time
LyricallyFree21 1 year ago
you know what I'm sick of all this passifist bull shit violence is a tool and it can be used for good "people" like that guy are'nt worth the air they breathe. If he raped you he raped his wife an prolly raped his own damned children, what the fuck happend to REAL men, people need to start growing a backbone again there are alot of things worth than death, I will chose to fight to the bloody fucking end for me and my own what ever the outcome may be, I will always choose death before dishonor.
King88David 1 year ago
Hey I just wanna say I'm so sorry about what happened, this never happened to me, but a few of my friends have. The govornment needs to do more about rapes, that should be the death sentence, because, like most wemon, I would rather die then be raped. Again I am so sorry about what happened to you if you ever need anyone to talk to about anything you can always come to me
LilBabyGirlie 1 year ago
this may be a side note, but you write beautifully. i can truly feel how totally true you are. i dont understand how people could possibly feel that any of what you are saying is fake. this is a horrible problem and i am so sorry. but the fact that you are so strong is amazing. you are an amazing person, really. i have known friends who were raped by relatives of theirs, and i have even been in some close encounters myself. you never forget them. i hope everything turns out well for you kicesie.
Narusayshi 1 year ago
I'm gonna give you the scalpe of that freak. That's my word.. to you ;)
smfreak1515 1 year ago
NOTHING WILL HAPPEN IF YOU DO NOTHING!
raclimja16 1 year ago
@raclimja16 Read the f'n description. I did plenty!!!
kicesie 1 year ago
Cont.
Thank you for that. You are actually very similar to a Holocaust survivor I met at the Holocaust Museum in Washington DC just last week. He actually likened the Hitler and the other Nazi leaders to rapists and showed us his tattoo to describe it as the everlasting mark from it. It takes the strength of a Navy Seal or a Marine to talk about both subjects, rape for you and the Holocaust for him. So, as I have said to a few veterans from Vietnam and Korea, thank you for your service.
talsajstar 1 year ago
I am SO sorry this happend to you. I respect you
dawnbreakers888 1 year ago
I don't even know what to say.
Thankyou.
absolutelyneverr 1 year ago
i am so sorri that that happened to u i no how it feels i have had it happen to me by someone very close to me and it killed me becuz no one listen and it stilll hurts today knowing that that person can act like it was ok .....
nicole19912fly 1 year ago
Oh my God, seeing this video makes my chest burn in anger... i will never be able to understand your pain, but even if we don't know eachother, even if a whole ocean separate us, my heart is with you and everyone that shared the same fate as you, God bless you,
From Italia
Bigsnake210 1 year ago
why wouldn't you just murder him or hire someone to murder him I'll even do it for maybe like 600 plus expenses get @ me
feetwad 1 year ago
@feetwad lol, because with my luck you'd be undercover FBI or something.
But no, really, I believe with my whole heart that you can't fight evil with evil. You can only fight evil with good. So I try to be good to create some sort of balance in the world. Meanwhile he works at the US Department of Defense and has enough power I worry very much for future victims. But I did everything I could.
(Link in description will give you all the info)
kicesie 1 year ago
@kicesie you're so naive.........you fight fire with fire, nothing else works...an eye for an eye ensures the perpetrator won't be able to "see" his next victim...with that said, hope you find justice and I hope that scum rots in hell
kishaba1980 1 year ago
If the punishment was death for rape nothing would change.they would still be desperate for a lay.Girls can always get laid.Men need self control.Sometimes I wish they were all dead,cause we don't need them,we have technology now,and if the male population's excuse is that they are the only ones that can do hard labor.Think again,cause I've been at it building houses for years now,and I'm one happy mother fucker.
NARUFRIEK9 1 year ago
@NARUFRIEK9 Remember that rape isn't about needing/wanting sex... it's about anger and violence and control.
And you're right, a death sentence wouldn't help because even LESS juries would convict. And SO few convict as it is!!!
kicesie 1 year ago
@kicesie Thank you for the advice I'll have to keep that in mind from now on.
NARUFRIEK9 1 year ago
@kicesie
I agree here. Even if MORE juries convicted rapists to be executed, they don't deserve death anyway. It's far too merciful. You made it very clear in the video that the ultimate punishment for such people is for them to grow up, have their own loved ones and possibly children, then spend the rest of their lives living in fear for them. It's the only way.
talsajstar 1 year ago
@talsajstar And what about all the other victims they will have in the meantime. Research shows the average rapists has TONS of victims before being caught or dying.
kicesie 1 year ago
@kicesie
I do realize this, but it's not like the problem will stop just like that. Even if a rapist is caught, there's still what his punishment will be. I do agree that they need to be locked up, but the most important thing is rehabilitation. Only after the rapist is free from whatever is wrong with him (eg: sex addiction, obsessive love, other disorders) can he realize that what he did was wrong that everyone he knows and loves is in danger of the very same thing.
talsajstar 1 year ago
@talsajstar They say that there is absolutely no rehabilitation for rapists. I've never heard a reputable therapist say otherwise.
kicesie 1 year ago
@NARUFRIEK9 I feel very sad for the males who rape women, because its like raping someone is capable of being a mother and someone, who males are nothing without.... I'm a male and I respect women, I've never hurt one intentionally, I will keep it that way.
CHOHAN67 1 year ago
@NARUFRIEK9
Hell yeah!!! all guys are evile and none should live. we HAVE the technology now... we dont NEED them. studes have shown htat the average woman is capable of
1:building a house
2: making money
3: tending children
ALONE!!!!!!!!! GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so rite on girlfriend!!
peniosasdasd 1 year ago
I was molested by my father off and on for two years. I know It's not the same thing but it still fucks somebody over.The last time it happened was almost 2 years ago but I still have nightmares about it.
RinRanThatWay 1 year ago
true, he may be scared for his daughter or maybe, lets hope he doesnt, hell be one of those fathers who abuse their kids, and probably his wife, again, i hope not... sometimes i try to push things aside, but i dont know if that makes me stronger or insensible, i mean, im still really sentimental even thoguh i dont show it, this things really make me sad and angry, i just try to cope with some people by acting stone cold, but honestly i still think im a nice guy. i hope youre all better now =]
jimmy15151 1 year ago
me as a guy cant understand how sick you can be to do this to people. i think rape is even worse than must of the murders done.
Barokah 1 year ago
i feel so bad for u but good for u that ur standing up and forward towards ur new future everyone has to find a fresh start some where sometime
Deathrocker95 1 year ago
We speak the same words. Like SERIOUSLY. The when talk about when he gets married and has a kid. I have said the same thing. I'm sorry that we share the same experience. You are so strong. I hope I can be as strong as you.
m1ssychr1ssy09 1 year ago
I was raped about 3 or 4 years ago. can't remember because im deliberately trying not to think about it as I have ptsd as a result.
Anyway, it sucks. There is no excuse. These people are cunts and deserve to be tortured. I have no interest in the guy ever apologising, I just want him to die. I have no sympathy for these people. Eye for an eye.
Hope you feel better and deal with this in a more healthy fashion than I am. I never used to hate.I now feel it's my duty to be as pissed as possible.
m0thland 1 year ago
As far as for you kicesie I pray that the day of judgement for your rapest. He may spend internity with the crys of he victims and have his heart ripped from his body and burned infront of him so he may feel his burning heart in the devils realm for internity.
jamforlife2009 1 year ago
My wife was also raped and never knew who he is, but I know that he will burn in hell for turning my wife into a woman who does not enjoy sex with the man she loves. only now after 7 years of marriage is she finally recovering. You and your soul will burn for what you did to her. All my wife knows is he was a ex marine. She was powerless and scared. The doctor says by the way the assult was she was most likely not her first vicitm. So know this you peace of trash you will get caught you will
jamforlife2009 1 year ago
So sorry you had to go through an experience like this Kicesie, you seem like quite an intelligent, witty, and an overall well-rounded girl so hopefully this hasn't desensitise your zest for life. It's reasons like this I believe castration should be re-introduced as a form of punishment.
Finally, keep your chin-up and forever walk tall :-)
martycelticfc 1 year ago
Hi I'm a first time watcher. My wife was also raped and it effects us bothe and I have the feeling it always will. Im so sorry that people can treat other people that way. Have you seen any counseling? My wife went on to get her BS in Phsycology but said it hurt too much to actually go to therapy.
MrBillybrittain 1 year ago
@MrBillybrittain I had many many years of therapy.... yes...
kicesie 1 year ago
I am so so so so sorry to hear this happened to you, you are a strong strong woman because of it though, it made you who you are today, a strong, beautiful, fearless, young lady. And you're beauty shines bright. He will rot in hell. You always remember how strong and how much every admires you and your strength. :)I know I sure do
13Wiers 1 year ago
i make me weep to think that other males do this and think it is ok i am normally a detached person not very emotionally but when i heard this i started to cry what is done here is an atrocity if i was to get my way rappests would be hung drawn and quartered for this but unfortunately i cant i hope someday he does release what he has done but i am ashamed to think others of my gender dont think as i do
janjgra 1 year ago
woww
gotentertainment 1 year ago
well i know i may not be able to help but for what its worth im sorry it happened to you. Id never wish that on anyone. Im doing my best to help prevent it and god help if i catch a rapist in the act. He wont walk away I can promise you that. I hope you feel better. I know it may sound stupid but if i could take your place so you wouldnt have to deal with it I would in a second. *hugs* i hope this helps you in some way. If not just regard it as someone saying stupid things.
A7Guitar 1 year ago
Rape is a crime that should be punished by hanging. There is no way a rapist can be "rehabilitated". This world would be a lot better without rapists, pedophiles and batterers.
jmurphy914 1 year ago
Its sad to see that people like him represent my gender, I wonder how people like that don't see or feel the shame of what they do.
All I can say with *some* certainty is that we are not all like that. He will get what he deserves, be in it in this life or the next.
Keep the faith, stay strong and God bless.
ham699 1 year ago
@ham699 I have a feeling (now) that rapists must be sociopaths (can't feel guilt or remorse, have no conscious, etc).
kicesie 1 year ago
i feel like i should ask you this a girl that mine and my brothers best friend was seeing went and told the police my brother raped her, after our bestfriend and this girl had been apart for 3 months and her and my brother had sex, but i want to know is why do some girls do that and lie about things like that, do they know it can ruin someones life? and why would they lie about something so serious that they dont even know the pain of it actually happening to them?
azza13mad 1 year ago
@azza13mad Only 3% of police reports regarding rape are false reports according to FBI statistics. That's a very small amount and is the same as the percentage of other false reports (Robbery, Murder, etc).
kicesie 1 year ago
In 2006 my sister got raped by a group of guys in there car and up until 2008 my sister kept it from my older brother and i, i know who the guys are but yet my sister insists that i do not go after them because she once "loved" one of the guys that did it, each and everytime i hear about someone that has gotten raped it tears me apart, i feel like i wish i could do more to stop this happening to people, men and women, the people that do this need to get what they deserve
azza13mad 1 year ago
@azza13mad Justice is deserved.... but your sister's peace of mind and letting her feel as if she has control NOW is much more important. It will likely take her a very long time to reconcile the fact that the man she loved is the same man who did something so awful to her and that she likely never really knew him. Intimate partner rapes are some of the most psychologically confusing situations I can fathom. Because everything you thought you knew about them was... wrong.
kicesie 1 year ago
I am so sorry I even crying.I dont know what to say. I am a man and dont now how a man could ever do any thing to a lady or a girl let that. Man that does stuff like this are not man they are worst than dogs. Keep your head up stay strong and there are people out that stands with you on this.
1974Jett 1 year ago
actualy its not about the violence or sex its about the guy not having power in himself probably because of low selfesteem or aspergers syndrome or something and getting power by dominating someone else, its exactly like how a bully feels in school but a lot less extreme
fordalul 1 year ago
I love your videos, even though I just found them. I can't watch this specific video because it won't play on my iPhone but it's pretty clear what happened. I just wanted to say that you're awesome and strong and really funny. Hug* as a tribute to your awesomeness and everything, here's a little dance:
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Insomniacwithnolife 1 year ago
I'm a big fan! I've just stumbled on your videos and even though I've watched only a few, I like how calm and poised and just plain not awkward you are when talking about your subjects. You even make it kinda funny sometimes. It's also a lot less awkward than hearing about from my mom or something. I can't watch this specific video. But it's pretty clear what happened and it makes me sad to hear that that would happen to someone as cool as you :(. As a tribute to how cool your videos are, here'
Insomniacwithnolife 1 year ago
Stay strong, beautiful.
More strength than I think I can muster to go through what you've been through and be able to put it out in the open.
geoffderidiot 1 year ago
Well done on getting past it, I imagine you take a hell of a lot less crap from people because of it but I do wonder if this had any effect on your career path.
nugor1 1 year ago
@nugor1 I've always been interested in human sexuality. However because of my experience I will most definitely volunteer as a victim advocate after I get my degree. And I get tons of crap BECAUSE of this video.... but the message is too important for me to stop. The victims who write to me are too important for me to stop. I'll never stop talking about the reality of rape, unless it stops all together.
kicesie 1 year ago
Women all u need a meat cleaver take it and chop his thing off its the best you can do. I know the feeling i was molested too.
MrWearewolf 1 year ago
i really wanna give you a hug now :(
greenabbey12 1 year ago