you havent posted any vids for a while, hope your ok anyway just thought i would put my video up and would love for you to watch it (9033key) and the video called journey, take care xx
i am so desperatly wanting to begin my transition but i'm still living at home and i dont think my mum would be open to the idea. i just feel so lost and unable to control my life. my only escape is writing music. but that only makes me forget for a short while. i just dont know what to do.
@StephenEOfficial You choose your path to happiness, this one thing is always clearest to us. You do know what to do, but finding 'how' to do it is your challenge. All I can tell you is to be guided by your heart on when to act, but act you must - because to hide in shadows, and lose 'you' to the fear of change and what it brings is a punishment more severe, I promise.
@urmwhynot i know that if i dont get the courage from somewhere i know that i'm gonna go through life unforfilled and i dont want that at all, i wanna to live a "female" life not a male life and not having that confort in my self will only tear me apart. thank you so much for your videos they all make me feel there is light at the end of the tunnel. i'm not clear on how to go about telling my parents especially my mother.
You have a big heart and a great message that could (should) apply to everyone no matter who or where they are in life. Kudos to you and all the best.
This is a beautiful message and it gives me confort even though I'm not trans my self. I have gone through life feeling misunderstood and I was mistreated as a child, so I know how it feels to be in a dark place, but I never give up. Thank You!
I am still fighting the insurance companies 2 get reconstructive facial feminization covered because it is reconstructive & not a mental disorder or cosmetic. People who R ignorant don't deserve your friendship or respect. I have lost a few friends over this but have gained better 1s.bigots brought me 2 deaths door 3 times be4 I came out & became a healthy T girl. I fight 4 transgender equality & rights. The ignorance & evils of society will be dispelled through science & love we stand together!
We all start of as girl in the womb & a hormonal change causes us to develop into a man, but if something mimics this same process or causes excess androgens to develop a transgender is born. Like any birth defect it should be corrected and denying it's existence wont change reality. Without proper help 2 overcome the deformities that hormone imbalance has caused we all find a dark place. I only wished I had come out sooner to avoid all the necessary surgery 2 fix these mistakes. Love & hugs :)
well put, you have a strong spirit and a will that will shine brightly in the darkest of places. You have gained the right to taste of the infinite bliss that is the universal sub-conscious. However I must warn you of the dangers of this new knowledge. (I will try not to sound like crazy person.) The universal sub-conscious is the base of your true personality that has been creating it's self from all the personalities you have met growing up. One could get lost in the infinite bliss. take care!
lts often said 2 have somethin u've never had b4 u must do somethin u've never done b4. 4 me dat means facin my fear and conquerin it. I face fears knowin dat each day l become stronger, better and more of da person l am meant 2 be. l know the judgements of others will not stop but the luv l have for myself is equally substainable. We can't have good w/o bad, love w/o hate nor darkness w/o light. So choose yor side carefully 4 dat which u live by, will also be yor demise...peace
I understand what you mean, even i am just a regular guy. I have a different problem, and the most people dont even understand it what i have. Problem whit Thyroid.I am at a point, that i have some good friends. And about the rest, i dont spent my energy to them, but to the real inportant things in life. There's a song, one my favourite, put it in all the right place. It's Inner Smile from Texas.
Lea, you've got a great soul and spirit. Only for that, your already a great woman.
@urmwhynot ,thank you for being around. You are a bright light in a strange weird world, we all living in. Just a BIG hug for you, and lots of love for you.
Despite how I think about myself that doesn't change the fact that I am a joke to society. Some days I go out so strong ready to take on the world and there are plenty of days I come back feeling like nothing because people see me for what I am, a self deceiving tranny. I think I'd feel more empowered if some unpassable women said this but it's always the passable ones, the ones who get respect and are treated like people not like a walking joke. Even my "friends" refere me like I am a man.
@MzBUZZKILINGTON I think your biggest pitfall is what you have just presented here. Being a woman is not about how you look. I know cisgender girls who are accused of being trans because they are masculine-looking, and transwomen who still resemble their pasts living happily. I also know what its like to be the laughing stock of what seems the entire world, I have walked in the shoes you speak of. I had been through the suicide rut very early on in my life, so rest assured I know how it feels.
@MzBUZZKILINGTON Anyone who refers to you negatively is not your friend. If you identitfy as a woman, then you have the right to be addressed as so. It is up to you to demand respect, and to replicate it throughout your own life. Which includes keeping friends who love you unconditionally, and support your needs. I've worked hard to get where I am, I wasn't born to look like this - happiness is not to be expected, it's to be earned. But first, you must believe you deserve it!
Well take it from me then, an average straight guy, you are NOT a walking joke, and it's not just 'passable' trans-women who will say that. I have seen many trans-women who look, to be fair, less passable/masculine than others, but I see them as women because_that_is_who_they_are. They are no less deserving of respect than 100% passable trans-women like Lea, and they get no less respect from me and other civil, right thinking people. Haters are another story, unfortunately.
I've thought about this some lately... and maybe its easy for me because I tend to be more optimistic and individualist, but I wonder if its unhealthy to create this attitude of "me and them." That is to say, putting down anyone who puts you down because of their ignorance or whatever. People are people, all of us have our own ignorances and biases, so who are we or anyone else to put someone down even if they have in turn put us down? Turn the other cheek and love people for who they are.
@mjfrattaroli Hmmm...I do see what you mean, but the point I try to make here is to not be defined by anyone elses impressions of you. Least of all, their judgements. And just because we can refer to them as "them" does not put anyone down, it hardly describes any one set of people, so of course "them" is a term that allows anyone who would make judgements on you. It places emphasis on the mentality, and not on observable attributes.
@urmwhynot I should also say, for what its worth, that I'm not yet into transition. The most I've had to put up with is "why are you wearing *girl* pants?" Maybe my attitude will change down the road. I'm just sitting here right now and trying to imagine my self as open minded and accepting as possible. IMO, the most tolerant person you can be is one who tolerates the least tolerant among you.
@mjfrattaroli Your optimism is sweet, and I like people who have a good sense of how they want to approach situations. But it's no good espousing advice when you haven't fully had enough experience in to topic to give it. I love the idea of tolerance...but if the world tolerated say, 'the abuse of children', many more children would fall victim to the crime. And the same is said for the abuse against transwomen.
Ah, well that promotes the age old myth that everyone (i.e. even a bigot) deserves an opinion... and they don't. People who are nasty to transgendered men and women are wrong... full stop. It is us and them. Civil, right thinking, liberal people who cherish freedom and respect transgendered men and women for who they are, and ignorant people who do not deserve an iota of the respect you just offered them. Tell them to get a life... and THEN turn the other cheek. :)
@GhibliFan1 To someone who is flaming with bigotry and out to hurt you, smiling and turning the other cheek is infinitely more powerful a statement than anything words can deliver. They want a response from you. Their egos are so inflamed that "get a life" or "grow up" will bounce right off the surface, regardless of the truth behind it. Plus, such a response is a defensive mechanism of the ego on your part. Turning the other cheek says to them and to you that you're not phased by their crap.
Girl!! i missed you soo much.Tears of happness i shead.Your thoughts profound & full of wisdom.Been through a lot since.My transition is going slowly even though the world around is trying it`s best to break my spirit.Some days it gets really bad and i want to hide in a deep hole somewhere.But i manage to survive another day. Other days i find a glimmer of hope to hang on to.Am growing tired so tired of fighting for the right to live.You are my insparation.Will try harder. Hugg & kiss. Bye!
Words of wisdom and love.. I wish you all the best Lea, and I hope you keep doing these vids.. They're an inspiration to a lot of us.. Thank you for being you! <3
@70sman4ever trans people won't change back into male, us lady lovers can only look and listen to trans people and be sexually attracted to them, they can use their male voice if they wish but not outside her friends or strangers should be cursing her and male ladies can curse males for a longer moment than ladies curse males !
you don't love my comment you know my comment is true ; )
It's impossible to completely transition from a biological male to a biological female. Most of the "transition" is really just cosmetic. Electrolysis to remove body hair, SRS to simulate female genitalia, etc.
HRT produces the most meaningful physical changes, but even that doesn't do all that much for MtFs. HRT is much more effective for FtMs, because female is the default and it's the infusion of male sex hormones that make you male
Absolutely lovely and touching. I find myself dipping my toes in the waters of darkness once in a while. Thank the God I don't believe in that I'm strong enough mentally to get out of harms way.
By the way, you are incredibly beautiful. When did you start your transition, if you don't mind me asking?
so r u saying ur type is better than us NORMAL people
knowatimean 5 days ago
beatiful message very inspiring!!!!
aylenlake17 1 month ago
I love you Lea,
You are such a postive and inspirational gal!
PolarisPhoenix13 3 months ago
I agree. You are a wonderful person. All the best.
The28Tom 4 months ago
such a beautiful video!
almost cried ):
its so sad to see people hating themselves and sometiems resorting to suicide just becuase people are so hateful.
<3
JessicaElleXo 4 months ago 4
@JessicaElleXo Thanks for your comment, and yes, agreed!! Very sad, indeed xx
urmwhynot 4 months ago 2
@urmwhynot This vid was posted nearly a year ago, where are you? We miss you
TrippandRun 1 week ago
you havent posted any vids for a while, hope your ok anyway just thought i would put my video up and would love for you to watch it (9033key) and the video called journey, take care xx
9033key 4 months ago
Your as strong and smart as you you are beautiful, your amazing!
deltahunter692 4 months ago
Beautiful. Plain and simple
DeclanIsHere 4 months ago
You so need to post more videos!
MzBUZZKILINGTON 5 months ago
Subperb, and very well said! Your all Beautiful women!!!
wantashe 6 months ago
"I can stop the pain if I will it all away" - Whisper, Evanescence
AnAscendingAngel 6 months ago
I think I'm crying, am I crying? I'm crying.
Beautiful, sweetheart.
MsMarialiciousness 6 months ago
i am so desperatly wanting to begin my transition but i'm still living at home and i dont think my mum would be open to the idea. i just feel so lost and unable to control my life. my only escape is writing music. but that only makes me forget for a short while. i just dont know what to do.
StephenEOfficial 6 months ago
@StephenEOfficial You choose your path to happiness, this one thing is always clearest to us. You do know what to do, but finding 'how' to do it is your challenge. All I can tell you is to be guided by your heart on when to act, but act you must - because to hide in shadows, and lose 'you' to the fear of change and what it brings is a punishment more severe, I promise.
urmwhynot 6 months ago
@urmwhynot i know that if i dont get the courage from somewhere i know that i'm gonna go through life unforfilled and i dont want that at all, i wanna to live a "female" life not a male life and not having that confort in my self will only tear me apart. thank you so much for your videos they all make me feel there is light at the end of the tunnel. i'm not clear on how to go about telling my parents especially my mother.
StephenEOfficial 6 months ago
:O yeah I'm there and this helped alot. Thx so feicken much. Ur awsome.:')
bikechik82 7 months ago
@Thisisme20111 Youre most welcome Tia xx
urmwhynot 7 months ago 2
@Thisisme20111 Thanks for your feedback, Im happy it has helped:) - and no, the "life mantras" are my own, written by yours truly :)
urmwhynot 7 months ago
You have a big heart and a great message that could (should) apply to everyone no matter who or where they are in life. Kudos to you and all the best.
RHPolitz 7 months ago 2
@RHPolitz I absolutely agree. Thanks for your kind comment, and kudos!
urmwhynot 7 months ago 2
Be proud to be yourself.
MrAdamWayneGistarb 7 months ago
Great message you're amazing I wish I had the courage to start my transition!
blondegirl5887 8 months ago
You are a very beautiful person, inside & out, and your message was beautiful as well, quite inspiring!
john3809 8 months ago
This is a beautiful message and it gives me confort even though I'm not trans my self. I have gone through life feeling misunderstood and I was mistreated as a child, so I know how it feels to be in a dark place, but I never give up. Thank You!
brusselstarlight 8 months ago
@brusselstarlight Youre most welcome!
urmwhynot 7 months ago
I am still fighting the insurance companies 2 get reconstructive facial feminization covered because it is reconstructive & not a mental disorder or cosmetic. People who R ignorant don't deserve your friendship or respect. I have lost a few friends over this but have gained better 1s.bigots brought me 2 deaths door 3 times be4 I came out & became a healthy T girl. I fight 4 transgender equality & rights. The ignorance & evils of society will be dispelled through science & love we stand together!
WheedWhack3R 8 months ago
We all start of as girl in the womb & a hormonal change causes us to develop into a man, but if something mimics this same process or causes excess androgens to develop a transgender is born. Like any birth defect it should be corrected and denying it's existence wont change reality. Without proper help 2 overcome the deformities that hormone imbalance has caused we all find a dark place. I only wished I had come out sooner to avoid all the necessary surgery 2 fix these mistakes. Love & hugs :)
WheedWhack3R 8 months ago
Absolutely beautiful
ersaamen 8 months ago
well put, you have a strong spirit and a will that will shine brightly in the darkest of places. You have gained the right to taste of the infinite bliss that is the universal sub-conscious. However I must warn you of the dangers of this new knowledge. (I will try not to sound like crazy person.) The universal sub-conscious is the base of your true personality that has been creating it's self from all the personalities you have met growing up. One could get lost in the infinite bliss. take care!
MrULTIMATEOMEGA 8 months ago
Thankyou, I needed reminding of this today x
LitheLisa 9 months ago
lts often said 2 have somethin u've never had b4 u must do somethin u've never done b4. 4 me dat means facin my fear and conquerin it. I face fears knowin dat each day l become stronger, better and more of da person l am meant 2 be. l know the judgements of others will not stop but the luv l have for myself is equally substainable. We can't have good w/o bad, love w/o hate nor darkness w/o light. So choose yor side carefully 4 dat which u live by, will also be yor demise...peace
NMYCORNER 9 months ago
@NMYCORNER OMG - This is gorgeous! YOU are gorgeous! Thank you sooo much for sharing your wise, wise words.
urmwhynot 9 months ago
I understand what you mean, even i am just a regular guy. I have a different problem, and the most people dont even understand it what i have. Problem whit Thyroid.I am at a point, that i have some good friends. And about the rest, i dont spent my energy to them, but to the real inportant things in life. There's a song, one my favourite, put it in all the right place. It's Inner Smile from Texas.
Lea, you've got a great soul and spirit. Only for that, your already a great woman.
breen38 9 months ago
@breen38 Thank you for your beautiful words:)
urmwhynot 9 months ago
@urmwhynot ,thank you for being around. You are a bright light in a strange weird world, we all living in. Just a BIG hug for you, and lots of love for you.
breen38 9 months ago
@breen38 Thank you:) x
urmwhynot 9 months ago
Nice video, I glad your back making more.
scifitime77 9 months ago
Thanks for the post...it is good medicine...keep living the good life and good things will come your way...."pay it forward". Thanks.
ScrappyTrialsDude 9 months ago
Despite how I think about myself that doesn't change the fact that I am a joke to society. Some days I go out so strong ready to take on the world and there are plenty of days I come back feeling like nothing because people see me for what I am, a self deceiving tranny. I think I'd feel more empowered if some unpassable women said this but it's always the passable ones, the ones who get respect and are treated like people not like a walking joke. Even my "friends" refere me like I am a man.
MzBUZZKILINGTON 9 months ago
@MzBUZZKILINGTON I think your biggest pitfall is what you have just presented here. Being a woman is not about how you look. I know cisgender girls who are accused of being trans because they are masculine-looking, and transwomen who still resemble their pasts living happily. I also know what its like to be the laughing stock of what seems the entire world, I have walked in the shoes you speak of. I had been through the suicide rut very early on in my life, so rest assured I know how it feels.
urmwhynot 9 months ago
@MzBUZZKILINGTON Anyone who refers to you negatively is not your friend. If you identitfy as a woman, then you have the right to be addressed as so. It is up to you to demand respect, and to replicate it throughout your own life. Which includes keeping friends who love you unconditionally, and support your needs. I've worked hard to get where I am, I wasn't born to look like this - happiness is not to be expected, it's to be earned. But first, you must believe you deserve it!
urmwhynot 9 months ago
@MzBUZZKILINGTON
Well take it from me then, an average straight guy, you are NOT a walking joke, and it's not just 'passable' trans-women who will say that. I have seen many trans-women who look, to be fair, less passable/masculine than others, but I see them as women because_that_is_who_they_are. They are no less deserving of respect than 100% passable trans-women like Lea, and they get no less respect from me and other civil, right thinking people. Haters are another story, unfortunately.
GhibliFan1 9 months ago
I've thought about this some lately... and maybe its easy for me because I tend to be more optimistic and individualist, but I wonder if its unhealthy to create this attitude of "me and them." That is to say, putting down anyone who puts you down because of their ignorance or whatever. People are people, all of us have our own ignorances and biases, so who are we or anyone else to put someone down even if they have in turn put us down? Turn the other cheek and love people for who they are.
mjfrattaroli 9 months ago
@mjfrattaroli Hmmm...I do see what you mean, but the point I try to make here is to not be defined by anyone elses impressions of you. Least of all, their judgements. And just because we can refer to them as "them" does not put anyone down, it hardly describes any one set of people, so of course "them" is a term that allows anyone who would make judgements on you. It places emphasis on the mentality, and not on observable attributes.
urmwhynot 9 months ago
@urmwhynot I should also say, for what its worth, that I'm not yet into transition. The most I've had to put up with is "why are you wearing *girl* pants?" Maybe my attitude will change down the road. I'm just sitting here right now and trying to imagine my self as open minded and accepting as possible. IMO, the most tolerant person you can be is one who tolerates the least tolerant among you.
mjfrattaroli 9 months ago
@mjfrattaroli Your optimism is sweet, and I like people who have a good sense of how they want to approach situations. But it's no good espousing advice when you haven't fully had enough experience in to topic to give it. I love the idea of tolerance...but if the world tolerated say, 'the abuse of children', many more children would fall victim to the crime. And the same is said for the abuse against transwomen.
urmwhynot 9 months ago
@mjfrattaroli
Ah, well that promotes the age old myth that everyone (i.e. even a bigot) deserves an opinion... and they don't. People who are nasty to transgendered men and women are wrong... full stop. It is us and them. Civil, right thinking, liberal people who cherish freedom and respect transgendered men and women for who they are, and ignorant people who do not deserve an iota of the respect you just offered them. Tell them to get a life... and THEN turn the other cheek. :)
GhibliFan1 9 months ago 4
@GhibliFan1 To someone who is flaming with bigotry and out to hurt you, smiling and turning the other cheek is infinitely more powerful a statement than anything words can deliver. They want a response from you. Their egos are so inflamed that "get a life" or "grow up" will bounce right off the surface, regardless of the truth behind it. Plus, such a response is a defensive mechanism of the ego on your part. Turning the other cheek says to them and to you that you're not phased by their crap.
mjfrattaroli 9 months ago
Very beautiful! thank you! Please check out my new web talk show. Blessings sisters.
JSavano 9 months ago
This video is more proof that you are a beautiful, brave and insightful soul both inside and out. Keep up the good work!
6672rock 9 months ago
In love <3
lpfix2007 9 months ago
Girl!! i missed you soo much.Tears of happness i shead.Your thoughts profound & full of wisdom.Been through a lot since.My transition is going slowly even though the world around is trying it`s best to break my spirit.Some days it gets really bad and i want to hide in a deep hole somewhere.But i manage to survive another day. Other days i find a glimmer of hope to hang on to.Am growing tired so tired of fighting for the right to live.You are my insparation.Will try harder. Hugg & kiss. Bye!
underloved1 9 months ago
You're beautiful... why are you in a dark place?
Thanks for your words <3
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LostInTransitionx84 9 months ago
Words of wisdom and love.. I wish you all the best Lea, and I hope you keep doing these vids.. They're an inspiration to a lot of us.. Thank you for being you! <3
TheEirin18 9 months ago
Thank you so much.
ufo8mykat 9 months ago
Very well said Lea, thanks for making this video. I've been to the dark places but managed to escape.
NaomiClareNL 9 months ago
All sunshine warms the heart of people, rain cleanses and nurishes the earth.
There is no absolutum, but soul... there´s no thruth, but misunderstandings...
chances to improve, relations and one self in harmony.
thx lea, beautifull!
LaxinTwilight24 9 months ago
TRANSSEXUALS AND TRANSGENDERS ARE LADIES 100% AND THEY MUST BE LOVED LIKE OUR MOTHERS CREATED US.
ukgreaterlondon 9 months ago 11
@ukgreaterlondon Exactly! I lvoe you for saying that, honest. take it from me, a transgender just came out.
70sman4ever 8 months ago
@70sman4ever trans people won't change back into male, us lady lovers can only look and listen to trans people and be sexually attracted to them, they can use their male voice if they wish but not outside her friends or strangers should be cursing her and male ladies can curse males for a longer moment than ladies curse males !
you don't love my comment you know my comment is true ; )
ukgreaterlondon 8 months ago
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froggykodok 8 months ago
@ukgreaterlondon Ah...only some of them are. You forgot about FTM. They matter too.
froggykodok 8 months ago
@froggykodok i am no homosexual,
i will fight a ftm tran because she may be a male pretending to be a ftm tran .
ukgreaterlondon 8 months ago
@ukgreaterlondon ???? What I meant is you cannot call all transgendered people ladies. FTM are transmen, not "ladies 100%".
froggykodok 8 months ago
@froggykodok if the tran ftm or mtf is a good person then this arguement of is it male or is it lady means zero .
ukgreaterlondon 8 months ago
@ukgreaterlondon well. not quite 100%
It's impossible to completely transition from a biological male to a biological female. Most of the "transition" is really just cosmetic. Electrolysis to remove body hair, SRS to simulate female genitalia, etc.
HRT produces the most meaningful physical changes, but even that doesn't do all that much for MtFs. HRT is much more effective for FtMs, because female is the default and it's the infusion of male sex hormones that make you male
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much love to you
sumthingangels 9 months ago
Good to see you again....looking great btw....
takeapiss12 9 months ago
@youngTS10 Remember, if you ever feel down, talk to someone. Find someone you can trust, and reach out. We are all around you! Including me:) xx
urmwhynot 9 months ago
thank you <3
ljuze 9 months ago
Great video Lea. Well said :)
karmatic1110 9 months ago
@karmatic1110 :D - <3
urmwhynot 9 months ago
Your words are an inspiration to us all. Thank you.
Sarahannhur 9 months ago
Well said, Too bad there are those who didn't hear your words before they gave up.
rdbuilder2010 9 months ago
Absolutely lovely and touching. I find myself dipping my toes in the waters of darkness once in a while. Thank the God I don't believe in that I'm strong enough mentally to get out of harms way.
By the way, you are incredibly beautiful. When did you start your transition, if you don't mind me asking?
I'm 20 myself and on the edge of starting my own.
Leafs81Chick 9 months ago
@Leafs81Chick Thanks for your comment, and thanks for watching! I began transition at 17. Best wishes x
urmwhynot 9 months ago
@TwistedNether17, @lizette880, @secretsareboring - Thank you all for your comments!
urmwhynot 9 months ago
All throught this video I found myself agreeing completly with you, thank you for sharing the truth with such perfect words. :)
TwistedNether17 9 months ago
thank you your words have a lot of truth behind them and touched me
lizette880 9 months ago
well said ;-)
secretsareboring 9 months ago
This is deep, it touched my soul.Do you write poetry?If so I would love to here more.
slickrickjohnson 9 months ago
@slickrickjohnson I don't write poetry, but I can. I used write poetry as a teen, and it stuck with me. Thanks for watching x
urmwhynot 9 months ago