I have done that disassociative thing for as long as I can remember, it's weird though now that I live alone, I can go get milk for an example and it's stressful and the whole time it's like a dream and when I get home I think to myself sometimes out loud, did that really happen and where am I. Why am I coming in and taking my shoes off, then I shake my head and there is stress.
I've never met/seen anyone else with a similar issue. Im an aggoraphopic to the point I dont leave the house much anymore and I have disasociative seizures. Basically, when I get around ppl I space out, I cant connect with whats going on around me, it feels like Im in another dimention or something. Anywho, I just wanted to thank you for uploading this cuz its good to know someone else can relate. Gives me something to connect to, ya know? So thank you. :)
Wow!!!Just discovered this. Amazing. Thank YOU so much for posting these videos. I am so glad that you took the time to create and post these very concrete explanations of BPD for others. I am unfortunately dealing with a close person who might have BPD. It is SO HELPFUL to have your real explanation. Thanks very much.
Thank you for this. I do love you and may God bless you for being so open. This is a difficult condition. I want to tell you that you are NOT bad! Your video reminds me of someone that I love VERY VERY much. How can I help? What can I do? Sometimes I am scarred.. Help me to understand. Please!
You just need to support your friend when they need a shoulder or an ear. Don't be judgemental. a sharp word or a cruel look ever so minute might be seen as something very ,very bad.
@thecrackwalker do you have airfresheners air wicks or any odor cristal? beacuse ever since my mom has put that at my house i lost memory and i also found that it causes estrees and anxiety
"Paranoid" is what describes me the most lately. I didn´t know how paranoid I was until I began taking sulpiride pills and clonazepam, which have pretty much taken away the excessive paranoia I was suffering from. Bwaahh! all the people plotting against me and criticizing me... Paranoia eats your soul ou if not treated! Have you ever been prescribed sulpiride or clonazepam?
I get like this a lot & it freaks me out when I don't remember. I've listened to all your videos & it's all me down to a tee. It would be good to chat sometime. If you have msn you can add me if you like.
I do too....at my job. I think that they are talking abuot me so I ignore them the entire shift...I used to trust everyone...but something happened along the way that made me not....I guess it's the BP thing.
There's many things I'd like to say, but so little space with a text comment..
But I find that whenever I have a problem, you have to think from the solution. This may sound stupid but in the end, everything has its root cause. Find that, and work from there, but don't forget you live in the present.
Not in the past, not in the future.
You are what you think you are, right? So think differently :)
Yes, no offence taken, I agree with you. The hard part is first realizing you can help yourself in your ways of thinking and seeing things. But at the same time, you have had a full life believing things about yourself. It is very hard to retrain the brain from a life of brainwashing. Your advice is excellent, But we need to learn how to do it, its not just a matter of saying oh I'll try that and feel better.
You are completely right there, it's easy for me to say such things, but I don't actually know what you've been through and what it's like. That is none of my business either to be honest, but nonetheless I do hope you'll ... find a way, succeed, it's hard to describe.
I re live events in my head. Usually just the sound. But it happens if something triggers the memory of an extremely embarassing or distressing event that may have happened years before. Once its in my head i cant get it out. It just plays over and over and i have to pull my hair or hit my head to try and make it go away
Oh don't you hate that. a memory will pop up and you obsess over it all over again. we have top stop doing that. the past is finsihed we can't go back.
ty mrs crackwalker the thing that scares me is i am 30 and i sometimes feel i am too far gone.And it worrys me that all the people i see who are recovered are alot older lol not saying you look old but you look great your eyes really shine...i hope im not 50 before that happens
my prob was i was unaware I had mental probs. I thought I was just a major defect. It wasn't until I attempted suicde that landed me in the psych ward where they figured it all out. that was in about '94. It took this long to accept the diagnosis, learn about meds and get the right therapy. Now I feel a whole lot better. But I still have major issues to deal with. I just "feel Better" now.
i am saving all your vids because they may be a lifesaver very good thank you for sharing your life and world with us all.i have bpd also its not an easy thing to deal with i am starting psychotherapy next week x
I used to get this alot when i was a heavy pot smoker. Dont know if it was related to the pot or not but since i dont smoke now i would guess it had alot to do with it. I love you videos. You are very insightful, and intelligent. Would be good to have a chat sometime.
if this happens to you only when you smoke pot, its not a mental illness criteria. lol its pot induced. :) Thank youi for the nice things you said. a chat would be nice.
I don't think I've ever blacked out but unless I had actually moved to a different location I wouldn't necessarily know I had so who knows. My experience of dissociation is that at times my feelings have been so overwhelming that I've lost touch with them and myself so that I had no clue who I was or what I felt or wanted. I wonder if the people with me at those times realised I had disappeared. A funny thought...
*shudder* Ah, paranoia, paranoia, paranoia, "spacing out" and rehashing or pure Imagining thorny, scary social scenarios over and over is my common trait too, unfortunately. Much so involving family and dear clung-to friends I'm codependent on. Fun-ness. Stating we're normal people with feelings too? MOST important. Thank you.
Yeah pretty damn difficult to think about the other's side or try putting yourself in their shoes! If I didn't believe so highly in forgiveness and constantly saying you're sorry when it's usually warranted, I know I'd have No friends, No life.
well, u always seemed normal to me....but what the hell is normal anyways....some brains are wired different....or some brains get brainwashed....like mine was....but u and i do have feelings we are human....compassion for all.
well thanks you scared me :/
specialchannel 1 month ago
thank you for posting this - it really helped me to understand myself better.
jessrackover 1 year ago
I have done that disassociative thing for as long as I can remember, it's weird though now that I live alone, I can go get milk for an example and it's stressful and the whole time it's like a dream and when I get home I think to myself sometimes out loud, did that really happen and where am I. Why am I coming in and taking my shoes off, then I shake my head and there is stress.
Yikes,
Cheryl
kody9333 2 years ago
I've never met/seen anyone else with a similar issue. Im an aggoraphopic to the point I dont leave the house much anymore and I have disasociative seizures. Basically, when I get around ppl I space out, I cant connect with whats going on around me, it feels like Im in another dimention or something. Anywho, I just wanted to thank you for uploading this cuz its good to know someone else can relate. Gives me something to connect to, ya know? So thank you. :)
Anaprince 2 years ago
This why I made the video, to connect with others like myself, and to show others we are not alone, keep on coping.
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
Wow!!!Just discovered this. Amazing. Thank YOU so much for posting these videos. I am so glad that you took the time to create and post these very concrete explanations of BPD for others. I am unfortunately dealing with a close person who might have BPD. It is SO HELPFUL to have your real explanation. Thanks very much.
fvbien 2 years ago
You are so welcome. I am glad to share my life with others so help combat this dreadful affliction
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
Thank you for this. I do love you and may God bless you for being so open. This is a difficult condition. I want to tell you that you are NOT bad! Your video reminds me of someone that I love VERY VERY much. How can I help? What can I do? Sometimes I am scarred.. Help me to understand. Please!
bbhwana 2 years ago
You just need to support your friend when they need a shoulder or an ear. Don't be judgemental. a sharp word or a cruel look ever so minute might be seen as something very ,very bad.
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
@thecrackwalker do you have airfresheners air wicks or any odor cristal? beacuse ever since my mom has put that at my house i lost memory and i also found that it causes estrees and anxiety
mexico1697 1 year ago
"Paranoid" is what describes me the most lately. I didn´t know how paranoid I was until I began taking sulpiride pills and clonazepam, which have pretty much taken away the excessive paranoia I was suffering from. Bwaahh! all the people plotting against me and criticizing me... Paranoia eats your soul ou if not treated! Have you ever been prescribed sulpiride or clonazepam?
youtuba87 2 years ago
I understand being paranoid is so devastating to think those closet to you are plotting etc.
I have taken clonazepam before, but got off it because I got addicted. now i take nozinan which is not addictive and works for me.
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
This & the rages is me today.
pantyraider230 2 years ago
I don't so much get the outbursts of rage, i internalize my rage, and I get paranoid alot.
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
I get like this a lot & it freaks me out when I don't remember. I've listened to all your videos & it's all me down to a tee. It would be good to chat sometime. If you have msn you can add me if you like.
pantyraider230 2 years ago
you can find me on my profile page there is chat link there
thecrackwalker 2 years ago
I get those paranoa (sp) feelings a lot.
jaxkipi 3 years ago
Its hard sometimes, because I become paranoid of innocent people. :(
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
I do too....at my job. I think that they are talking abuot me so I ignore them the entire shift...I used to trust everyone...but something happened along the way that made me not....I guess it's the BP thing.
jaxkipi 3 years ago
thank you..I like hearing your experiences and can relate to some of them....you are so informative! what is normal anyway?
bipolarkelli 3 years ago
There's many things I'd like to say, but so little space with a text comment..
But I find that whenever I have a problem, you have to think from the solution. This may sound stupid but in the end, everything has its root cause. Find that, and work from there, but don't forget you live in the present.
Not in the past, not in the future.
You are what you think you are, right? So think differently :)
Think positive, take care, and peace.
(ps.: Sorry if my comment seems harsh.)
Mikelamont 3 years ago
Yes, no offence taken, I agree with you. The hard part is first realizing you can help yourself in your ways of thinking and seeing things. But at the same time, you have had a full life believing things about yourself. It is very hard to retrain the brain from a life of brainwashing. Your advice is excellent, But we need to learn how to do it, its not just a matter of saying oh I'll try that and feel better.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
You are completely right there, it's easy for me to say such things, but I don't actually know what you've been through and what it's like. That is none of my business either to be honest, but nonetheless I do hope you'll ... find a way, succeed, it's hard to describe.
I just hope things get better for you :)
Mikelamont 3 years ago
I re live events in my head. Usually just the sound. But it happens if something triggers the memory of an extremely embarassing or distressing event that may have happened years before. Once its in my head i cant get it out. It just plays over and over and i have to pull my hair or hit my head to try and make it go away
JustxAnotherxCut 3 years ago
Oh don't you hate that. a memory will pop up and you obsess over it all over again. we have top stop doing that. the past is finsihed we can't go back.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
I know I do try to stop it but once its in my head it takes a lot to get out
JustxAnotherxCut 3 years ago
ty mrs crackwalker the thing that scares me is i am 30 and i sometimes feel i am too far gone.And it worrys me that all the people i see who are recovered are alot older lol not saying you look old but you look great your eyes really shine...i hope im not 50 before that happens
screamstalkgrindteet 3 years ago
my prob was i was unaware I had mental probs. I thought I was just a major defect. It wasn't until I attempted suicde that landed me in the psych ward where they figured it all out. that was in about '94. It took this long to accept the diagnosis, learn about meds and get the right therapy. Now I feel a whole lot better. But I still have major issues to deal with. I just "feel Better" now.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
i am saving all your vids because they may be a lifesaver very good thank you for sharing your life and world with us all.i have bpd also its not an easy thing to deal with i am starting psychotherapy next week x
screamstalkgrindteet 3 years ago
good luck with your psycho therapy. Its hard and it takes time, but boy is it worth it.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
I used to get this alot when i was a heavy pot smoker. Dont know if it was related to the pot or not but since i dont smoke now i would guess it had alot to do with it. I love you videos. You are very insightful, and intelligent. Would be good to have a chat sometime.
Take care
vickyf06 3 years ago
if this happens to you only when you smoke pot, its not a mental illness criteria. lol its pot induced. :) Thank youi for the nice things you said. a chat would be nice.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
I see you are talking about me again.
PGHMEDIA 3 years ago
lol a little paranoid are we, lately. Its all good. so you related to this one?
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
Yes, But dont tell anyone.
PGHMEDIA 3 years ago
my lips are sealed ;)
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
This was interesting to listen at this. You are the greatest. Have a nice day!
SirTrueheart 3 years ago
Thank you. Have a nice day too
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
is this a joke???
if it is not who listens to this AND who could take this seriously
dEpro-bomb shit
Traumatyzer 3 years ago
Thats true..everything she say is true.
SirTrueheart 3 years ago
we can all use wikipedia
Traumatyzer 3 years ago
I don't think I've ever blacked out but unless I had actually moved to a different location I wouldn't necessarily know I had so who knows. My experience of dissociation is that at times my feelings have been so overwhelming that I've lost touch with them and myself so that I had no clue who I was or what I felt or wanted. I wonder if the people with me at those times realised I had disappeared. A funny thought...
maximotion 3 years ago
It's scary when it happens, because people are telling you things you did that you have recollection of.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
*shudder* Ah, paranoia, paranoia, paranoia, "spacing out" and rehashing or pure Imagining thorny, scary social scenarios over and over is my common trait too, unfortunately. Much so involving family and dear clung-to friends I'm codependent on. Fun-ness. Stating we're normal people with feelings too? MOST important. Thank you.
cambridgejane 3 years ago
I am trying to kill my past to relieve myself of those situtations.. but believeing you were right is also important.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
Yeah pretty damn difficult to think about the other's side or try putting yourself in their shoes! If I didn't believe so highly in forgiveness and constantly saying you're sorry when it's usually warranted, I know I'd have No friends, No life.
cambridgejane 3 years ago
I got to saying I'm sorry even when it wasn't my fault.. I am learning not to do that now. I've been told that makes me look helpless
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
Hmm, I don't think I mind looking helpless. ;) But I have to watch a lot about not coming across as manipulative, that's for sure. Because I'm not.
cambridgejane 3 years ago
some people mistake the two.. well most of the time. lol in my experiences I guess.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
well, u always seemed normal to me....but what the hell is normal anyways....some brains are wired different....or some brains get brainwashed....like mine was....but u and i do have feelings we are human....compassion for all.
michael
mettanc 3 years ago
I am normal, I have problems sometimes. :) But thx for the compliment
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
you have 104 videos "sometimes" might be the wrong word
Traumatyzer 3 years ago