The Pursuit of Happiness Sometimes Means Taking a Hard Road

[five4allday]

just smoke some weed if u got problems.. believe me.. i know that they may not get rid of them.. but trust me when i tell u this.. they will help you when u r havin a tough time..

[machikoneko]

The best of luck in your quest. I'm starting a similar one, and know how hard it is to deprogram yourself from beliefs implanted as a child.

[CaptainFrantic]

Very moving QMOD ... Ima be showing that to all my ex "born again" friends ( well, to the ones that aren't afraid to still have anything to do with me anywho =D ).

[clayLavl]

kuul..

[ReliableInsider]

Hey, this sounds amazing! Even on my little tiny speakers. 

It's cuz I have a subwoofer.

My subwoofer humbly thanks you.

LOL

[Brazdolph]

Also shared it with a few "buddies" here...very nice video, Thanks..!:o)

[thequestionmarkofGod]

Why Thankyou Braz. It was kind of a temporary personal note that hit home for a few people so I will leave it up.

[Brazdolph]

Awesome..faved it!xoxo

[journey2health]

this about sums up how i feel...thank you for putting it into words for me :)

[cavejourney]

Hey Sara - I just turned 45 yesterday and I'm also on the very emotional ride of deconversion. At times I mourn my invisable friend or the precious time wasted. Other times I celebrate moving forward.You and your vids have been very helpful to me.I wish you all the best in whatever paths you explore.

[thequestionmarkofGod]

Happy Birthday Sweetie!

And back at you on all the good wishes!

[agnostic2]

you always do good work  :) *****

[AtheistAaron]

Finally recorded material for the ASC, if you still want it.

[thequestionmarkofGod]

I do, unfortunately I am very distracted but please upload it if you have a full vid and put your launch vid clip up on private :D

Thank you Aaron, one day we'll make happen over there full force.

[rowsdowersavesus]

shit crapping fuck! I was supposed to make a supportive video to help the newly deconverted, wasn't I?

[thequestionmarkofGod]

you were? Well I didn't say you needed to. I just want to share the fact that my life is still changing, so no one will be surprised if now and then I don't seem to make full sense now and then. You know like if I say something that seems like it must be out of rhythm with my life as folks are aware of it.

[thequestionmarkofGod]

The support vids to the newly deconverted, well thats more some of us than others.

When I first deconverted one of the people who helped me most was kuntman because he always helped me laugh even in the toughest moments. Then he would reply to all my comments forcing me to go back and laugh again and again.

The point being, you might bring a person to safety and security by not wearing a poppy or by being doctor Nike.

We all have our own roles, our own places that we fit.

[rowsdowersavesus]

Shhh! Don't give away my Secret Identity. Dr. Kafir Nike (tm) is an enigma, and if the infidels knew who he was, they'd be able to find his weaknesses.

I was actually going to make a video to promote atheistsupport and to give one method of coping with deconversion. I still want to, but find myself with less time.

[thequestionmarkofGod]

Well if the day comes that you want to please do. We still fail to actually launch, one too many operators with other distractions : (

I should get my shit together, but I'm at chaos central in my life.

It will come, all things in their own due time. :D

[singularityrush]

Sara, is this your first foray into this sort of video composition? Nice job. Cheers. Looks like we've both had a BIG year of transition. We're fine. :)

[nicanicabad]

I can only offer that you use patience and caution. YT can give a false sense of elevated feelings. TT can be a trap in a way. Give it time, private time, not YT time.  Breathe, rest.

[thequestionmarkofGod]

its not and I have.

writing to you.

[nicanicabad]

nodding

[heatherlynblue]

sara, whatever turns your journey takes, i am endlessly grateful that i have come to know you. i'm not sure what's going on, but you can be assured of my support for your quest for happiness in this, our one life. may we all live it to its fullest.

[Canaximander]

And when you're done, you can sing "My way" and mean it ;) Good for you!

[4ancientarts]

of course you habve my support,.. an profound respect my friend

[thequestionmarkofGod]

I may really need that my friend. I will remember to turn to you if I must, I know we touched on the changes to my life I have come to see must happen in pm many months ago. I cannot recall exactly what was said but I know it arose. The time has come, my strength to carry on in this present condition has lapsed completely. I thank you for the hug I know you offer. {HUG}

[4ancientarts]

yes, HUG

[AgnosticGamer]

Beautiful! For some reason now, I feel like doing some traveling.

[thequestionmarkofGod]

that sounds like a wonderful idea!

[freetaught]

You probably don't need to hear me say it, but I accept you and support you completely, regardless of what direction you decide to take on your journey towards enlightenment.

[thequestionmarkofGod]

Thankyou Joseph. I am not sure this next part will lead to enlightenment but there is a chance it may one day allow for a little happiness of other kinds. I hope it does.

[HitchensFanatic]

Wow, beautiful video! Steph

[Hermgirl666]

(Raises glass) Here's to new roads to freedom and happiness, may we all have the courage to look for and find them!

[thequestionmarkofGod]

Thankyou.

[patflix]

Absolutely beautiful!!

[nadiaTeeze]

To being a dynamic character and not a static one!!

[TrueNorth15]

ditto that

[thequestionmarkofGod]

Trapped in static, my exact state of being. I hope I can muster the courage to follow through and change that. I really do.