64. Not a Freak, a Monster

[TheSnowyice]

I wouldn't even bother getting worked up in the least about a waisted idiot. Your uncle or whatever needs to get a life.

[moomintroll8]

Hang in there. Take it one day at a time. One hour at a time. Breathe.

[Studio99Nashua]

Your dad should be setting the tone here...and it seems he's letting everyone else set the agenda. Tiresome.

I can't imagine that PFLAG wouldn't be a good idea. I've been thinking about hosting one in Nashua (there's no meetings in Nashua) at the Studio. Shall we talk about it? I'd talked to PFLAG awhile back but the Studio wasn't settled enough for me to be able to get it together. I've had email exchanges with Gerri, NH chapter President re: it. I'll email her again now.

[thejakski]

I would be super excited to talk to you about this. Give me a call.

[Studio99Nashua]

If things get uber-bad one of these days and you need a change of scene, we've got a guest room and a guest bath and a cozy air mattress, Jack.

Just keep telling yourself "In 4 months, will this matter? No."

[thejakski]

Thank you so much for the offer. Don't be suprised if I take you up on it one of these days.

[Studio99Nashua]

I'm actually COMPLETELY amazed that it didn't come to this sooner, judging by what you've told us about your family situation...

[Studio99Nashua]

Rant away, sweetie. It's good for you, and it's good for lots of folks watching your vids.

Keep on keeping on...

[quasiamoebic]

I'm pretty sure there's a group that meets near Nashua, and my therapist mentioned a couple months ago that she might start a group for her FTMs. I know of one other guy who's somewhere in the Derry or Londonderry region. I have some friends who are a more common queer, but they are great people. You would like them, I think. Hooksett's not so bad a drive, man, it's less than an hour. And that's avoiding tolls. You can stay over here any time you need to get out of your dad's place.

-Lee

[thejakski]

Thanks, man, you are awesome. I can't wait to hang out again.

[ThatPunkBrent]

i am sorry you are going through this shit bro...March isn't that far away just try to hang and not let it get it to you..i know it's easier said then done but you know how awesome you are and you know that once you get out of there you won't have to deal with that shit ever again...keep your head up

[thejakski]

Thanks, bro, I'll try to keep my head up :)

[TheRoseBones]

You're the love of my life. If I could bundle you into a suitcase and bring you here to me right now, I'd go as far as I had to, bribe anyone, and break any international laws to do so. You have to get out. That or make your father understand what's going on.

[thejakski]

I would suffocate in a suitcase, then I would have even more problems :)

[Wilmie82]

Im so sorry that your family is ignorant. I hope it gets better.  try to ignore them and move SOON!

[thejakski]

Ignoring them is my basic strategy right now.

[sarahsway]

they're the monsters to treat another human that way.. let alone family. Ur a trooper dude.

[thejakski]

Thank you

[kalmanlyman]

Can you get a job or take some classes? Anything to get out of the house for as much time as possible? Yes, go to some meetings. Develop a local network in any way you can. I want you to feel better because you are a great guy!

[generalleemiller]

Man I'm so sorry for what you're experiencing right now. Surrounded by ignorance. I have to say, strangely, your video made me feel like I can really relate to right now. Not because I'm having the exact same experience, but I can totally relate to how you express yourself right now, at least in this video.

Again sorry for what you're going through

[thejakski]

It's not weird to relate to someone for any reason. I feel honored!

[naturaljumper]

you pass 120% !!

[thejakski]

That means so much, thank you! You made my day!

[tobyr3]

I'm sorry that you are feeling so frustrated. It sounds like you do need to see if your dad can help. Perhaps you could see if their is some theater related activities in your region. Good luck, man.

[thejakski]

Thanks for the support, you're are always encouraging!

[CurtisFTM]

I'm really sorry that you are feeling this way Jack. I don't understand ... why are you stuck there until next year? Ignorant people come and go but our friendship is for life mate so if you wanna shoot me a personal message we can chat on messenger if you'd like. Maybe you should write your dad a letter even if you don't send it just getting your views on paper might help with getting some of this stuff off of your chest.

[thejakski]

I have to be here for money reason, unfortunately. I'm just a big chicken when it comes to talking with him.

[jaysongamble1111]

people r just ignorant, they don't understand us. U r not freak, society r just too tied up in their rigid views on gender.