Get off the pharmacutical posion. I have had this for a long time. I do not medicate. You can grow to understand what is going down and adapt to it well to some degree anyway. Lifes better of the flat line life you have with the druggs. Fuck them I would rather be dead.
see!!! this is exactly why i got off them years ago. I was depressed at the thought. but i don't know whats worse. feeling shell shocked from getting into arguments with people. Spending excessing money, maxing cards. Or that. I don't freaking know what to do!!!
I feel like that , I look at the pills everyday and think , these pills basically control my personality , if I stop I become someone else who is different and very ill.
Btw you are NOT a nutball, you are unique with problems that you have to find a way to deal with. Many "normal" people have problems too, they just hide them better.
@electrickabuki Well although there may be no empirical tests it does not mean mental illnesses do not exist. Many suffer from these illnesses every day. You're right about the meds, there is no way to know what will worrk except through trial and error. But lots of people do well with meds, and I have found meds that work for me as well so I am a believer.
@BipolarStateofBeing Once you start with the anti-psychotics its very hard to go back to not using them........but now that they are long gone from my system i would never ever take them again.......i couldnt even watch tv on those things........i still feel like shit most all the time...but im way better off without anti-psychotics...they made me nuts....but everyone is different....your very cute and love your honesty
@hotron26 thats great and all but obv you have a less serious form of this disease. if i stop taking my meds, within 3 days i will become psychotic. congrats and ann, but you come across and a bit patronising.
I'm starting to think meds are not the answer. At all...I took lithium last night and I woke up with intense pain in my legs, my joints. It hurts sooo much. I'm limping around. I also feel like my soul/mind are behind a brick wall. Needless to say, don't want to try this crap again.
The Citizens Commission on Human Rights (CCHR) is a nonprofit mental health watchdog, responsible for helping to enact more than 150 laws to protecting from abusive or coercive practices.
CCHR has fought to restore human rights in psychitry, including, full informed consent regarding the medical legitimacy of psychiatric diagnosis, Risks of Psychiatric treatments,and the Right to ReFuSe any TreatmenT. Dont lock the door , humiliate and call it help ! it didnt ! F--- fort lauderdale hosp!
@rotnjhny I'm doing much better now. I'm not on lithium anymore...that's what I was taking when I made this vid. I'm on zyprexa now, which has worked wonders for me. I trust my doctor and therapist. I've been seeing them regularly for over a year now so I think they know me pretty well.
My gf went off her meds and slept with a homeless person,brought him in our bed and had sex while I was home and all that time she knew that I was home but had sex anyway, encoutered police and was taken by ambulance crew and dragged in the hospital psych ward. It was the confirmation she needed that she has bipolar and she needs to stay on her medication. Of course, it's different for everyone but that's just her story. Remember, you can not control your brain when it misfires.
@BipolarStateofBeing ty for your concern, but I'm also concern for you if you experiment on going off meds. Some do well, but some are tragic. It just depends on the severity of your illness. Please be careful.
I really wanted to thank you for your brutally honest videos. I got diagnosed as BP last week, but wasn't really sure about the diagnosis until I watched your vlogs. You showed me that how I was feeling is how you felt, too. Thanks, and blessings. :)
hi.. i have been diagnosed with bipolar active disorder and wondered if anyone can answer my question... what is the difference between b p d and b a d??? cheers
@BipolarStateofBeing hi and thanks for replying.. yes i did although B P D also refers to borderline personality disorder as i found out the other night.. im just trying to find out if there's a slight defference to it being active rather that just bipolar disorder.. sorry if im not making sense..lo
@westerner74 I was actually on lithium when I made this video. It was by far the worst med I have taken, although I know it works great for some so I won't bash it too much.
I just want to give you props. You set out to open yourself up and shed light on the things you go through. And even on a low day, you stuck by what you set out to do. and I KNOW that had to take a lot out of you to do/post this video. kudos to you and good luck on your path. Im right there with ya! =)
@crazybeautiful3n Thanks, you're right, this was a tough day for me. But I've tried to stay up on making the videos and be as honest and real as I can.
I am supposed to take these meds but I can't. For over a year I told my pshyciatrist that they made me feel terrible and then I gotmyself off them and he began to say how well I was doing. I never told him I had stopped. JERK!!!!!
@JDUNNAGEable Wow, that sucks that you had a psychiatrist who didn't listen to you. I am lucky that my doc has been very caring and she listens to how I feel about my situation and tries to work with me.
@AntiVenomFangX I think they are if you find the right ones. I was on lithium when I made this video and it was the worst med I tried. I'm on zyprexa now an have no side effects except for some weight gain, and it has worked very well for me.
@neoherrera101 That's something only your doctor could suggest since everything works different for different people. I personally have not had luck with either one of those meds but they may work better for you.
@BipolarStateofBeing Maybe I should just take the whole bottle of asprin and a bottle of vodka, I think that would do the fucking trick. This life is bullshittttttttttttttttttt
I was told to take Lithium 600mg,Lamictal 25mg,Seroquel 100mg at bedtime and Ambien for a backup sleep aid.I couldn't handle the zoned out dumbo lifestyle so I cut the meds exept the lithium (down to 300mg)and Ambien for sleep.I use high doses of Vitamins,Fish oil, and Ginkgo I'm still just alittle manic right now but I'm thinking over time my condition will improve,
I've been on all the classes of drugs for bipolar and I USED to think that they made me fatigued, but it was in my head. A lot of us think too much about our meds and it causes placebo side effects. Yes, some meds are severely sedating, like Seroquel, but I take that at night and I wake up just fine in the morning. Lithium made me groggy for a bit, but then I grew out of it. We're all different, but once you get used to your meds, you should have only bearable side effects. If not, switch.
@LukeShetler Yeah, I think the key is just finding what works for each individual. It's weird how the same drug can react totally different with various people's chemistry.
Im sorry but I didn't catch the names of the medications you are taking and the amounts. I just started Lithium 300 mg once morning, once evening and 150 mg. Seroquil XR at night only. They started me out with very minimal dosages of the medications, but I had been on Seroquil XR 50 mg before when they thought it was just depression. In any case, there are times when I looked drugged-up, but after seven to ten days it goes away.
@BipolarStateofBeing My doctor reduced me back to the Lithium I started out with - 300 mg AM and 300 mg PM and he's going to take me off of Seroquil XR totally. The medication was making me worse than I was as Bipolar.
Sorry to hear about your problems with your meds. Maybe they can back off on the dose until you find a balance that keeps you stable & the side effects are tolerable. I will be going on a antidepressant soon (1st time in 15 years), they have never helped in the past but maybe this one will help. Hang in there.
Get off the pharmacutical posion. I have had this for a long time. I do not medicate. You can grow to understand what is going down and adapt to it well to some degree anyway. Lifes better of the flat line life you have with the druggs. Fuck them I would rather be dead.
urbanmessiah1776 1 day ago
im relating to this well at the mo!
CordeliaOphelia 1 week ago
You look just how I feel
SlumberCloud 2 weeks ago
...yeah, med adjustments suck. I'm usually useless for a couple of days afterwards.
ladyhrist 2 weeks ago
see!!! this is exactly why i got off them years ago. I was depressed at the thought. but i don't know whats worse. feeling shell shocked from getting into arguments with people. Spending excessing money, maxing cards. Or that. I don't freaking know what to do!!!
judutchinski 3 weeks ago
I feel like that , I look at the pills everyday and think , these pills basically control my personality , if I stop I become someone else who is different and very ill.
MrGoodartist 4 weeks ago
this is why i refused medication... i hope your doing better.
sk220691 1 month ago
i wish i could take something that doesnt make you gain weight; (ex:abilify)
pyramidhead138 1 month ago
you look so sick now.. .omg
KristiiS 1 month ago
Thanks for helping us to understand... seriously I appreciate it!
Reddigitalmusic 1 month ago
try to cut down,I know its hard,but its the best for you and your loved ones.
inagod 2 months ago
it sucks to see people on meds. are those meds helping???
bipolardiscussions 2 months ago
You need to get off the pharms and get on the raw food lifestyle with herbal teas. For real.
lovedubpt 3 months ago 4
@lovedubpt No peer reviewed evidence supports that nonsense. Conspiracy MORON
MrGrevy 1 month ago
@lovedubpt if if this woman slits her wrists because of your sound advice, how would you feel?
hh73 1 month ago
there is no cure for bipolar got to find things to do
hotron26 3 months ago
Thanks so much for putting this up.
trufflesmell 4 months ago
However,this video actually does seem convincing that you´re on meds.
greatleaderleopold 4 months ago
Btw you are NOT a nutball, you are unique with problems that you have to find a way to deal with. Many "normal" people have problems too, they just hide them better.
electrickabuki 4 months ago
No tests for this "illness" they determine what drugs (toxins) to give you based on absolutely nothing!
electrickabuki 4 months ago
@electrickabuki Well although there may be no empirical tests it does not mean mental illnesses do not exist. Many suffer from these illnesses every day. You're right about the meds, there is no way to know what will worrk except through trial and error. But lots of people do well with meds, and I have found meds that work for me as well so I am a believer.
BipolarStateofBeing 4 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing I cant believe how honest u r, its so refreshing.
Ur soul is so sweet.
Jairzinho121 4 months ago
i had bipolar since i was fourteen stop taking meds at 18 years old now i m 26 i just handle it on my own
hotron26 4 months ago 3
@hotron26 Sometimes that can be hard to do. That's great if you are able to manage without meds.
BipolarStateofBeing 4 months ago 3
@BipolarStateofBeing Once you start with the anti-psychotics its very hard to go back to not using them........but now that they are long gone from my system i would never ever take them again.......i couldnt even watch tv on those things........i still feel like shit most all the time...but im way better off without anti-psychotics...they made me nuts....but everyone is different....your very cute and love your honesty
Drhamburgerhill 2 months ago
@hotron26 i wish i could do that.
dustin741 4 months ago
@hotron26 ya me too man lmao.
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italianman004 1 month ago
@hotron26 thats great and all but obv you have a less serious form of this disease. if i stop taking my meds, within 3 days i will become psychotic. congrats and ann, but you come across and a bit patronising.
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pray to God for help to live a normal life
yungromesince2011 5 months ago
pray to God for help to live a normal life
yungromesince2011 5 months ago
I'm starting to think meds are not the answer. At all...I took lithium last night and I woke up with intense pain in my legs, my joints. It hurts sooo much. I'm limping around. I also feel like my soul/mind are behind a brick wall. Needless to say, don't want to try this crap again.
Anyone experience this?
EyesofGeisha 5 months ago
@EyesofGeisha I was on lithium and I woke up with excruciating pain in my leg and foot...I thought I was going to pass out.
A08041988 4 months ago
the way u r feeling is hwy I don't take meds anymore.I just smoke weed & I'm great. :)
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The Citizens Commission on Human Rights (CCHR) is a nonprofit mental health watchdog, responsible for helping to enact more than 150 laws to protecting from abusive or coercive practices.
CCHR has fought to restore human rights in psychitry, including, full informed consent regarding the medical legitimacy of psychiatric diagnosis, Risks of Psychiatric treatments,and the Right to ReFuSe any TreatmenT. Dont lock the door , humiliate and call it help ! it didnt ! F--- fort lauderdale hosp!
AkathisiA101 6 months ago
@rotnjhny I'm doing much better now. I'm not on lithium anymore...that's what I was taking when I made this vid. I'm on zyprexa now, which has worked wonders for me. I trust my doctor and therapist. I've been seeing them regularly for over a year now so I think they know me pretty well.
BipolarStateofBeing 6 months ago
My gf went off her meds and slept with a homeless person,brought him in our bed and had sex while I was home and all that time she knew that I was home but had sex anyway, encoutered police and was taken by ambulance crew and dragged in the hospital psych ward. It was the confirmation she needed that she has bipolar and she needs to stay on her medication. Of course, it's different for everyone but that's just her story. Remember, you can not control your brain when it misfires.
tkathryyn 6 months ago
@tkathryyn Wow what a sucky experience for you. Hopefully your gf is better and getting treatment now.
BipolarStateofBeing 6 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing ty for your concern, but I'm also concern for you if you experiment on going off meds. Some do well, but some are tragic. It just depends on the severity of your illness. Please be careful.
tkathryyn 6 months ago
@tkathryyn could not have said it better myself.
hh73 1 month ago
I really wanted to thank you for your brutally honest videos. I got diagnosed as BP last week, but wasn't really sure about the diagnosis until I watched your vlogs. You showed me that how I was feeling is how you felt, too. Thanks, and blessings. :)
01101010h 7 months ago
@01101010h So glad that my videos have helped you!
BipolarStateofBeing 7 months ago
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hi.. i have been diagnosed with bipolar active disorder and wondered if anyone can answer my question... what is the difference between b p d and b a d??? cheers
TheRigger77 7 months ago
@TheRigger77 I assume by BPD you mean bipolar disorder, not sure what you mean by BAD?
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@BipolarStateofBeing hi and thanks for replying.. yes i did although B P D also refers to borderline personality disorder as i found out the other night.. im just trying to find out if there's a slight defference to it being active rather that just bipolar disorder.. sorry if im not making sense..lo
TheRigger77 7 months ago
You´re very beautiful young woman, dont fu*k up ur life using meds like risp.
It will destroy your brain and drive you like zombie in long term;
believe me and find out more from internet that´s truth.
Ask your doc/therapeut something else.
I will pray for U.
Take care !
westerner74 8 months ago
@westerner74 I was actually on lithium when I made this video. It was by far the worst med I have taken, although I know it works great for some so I won't bash it too much.
BipolarStateofBeing 8 months ago
I just want to give you props. You set out to open yourself up and shed light on the things you go through. And even on a low day, you stuck by what you set out to do. and I KNOW that had to take a lot out of you to do/post this video. kudos to you and good luck on your path. Im right there with ya! =)
crazybeautiful3n 8 months ago
@crazybeautiful3n Thanks, you're right, this was a tough day for me. But I've tried to stay up on making the videos and be as honest and real as I can.
BipolarStateofBeing 8 months ago
I am supposed to take these meds but I can't. For over a year I told my pshyciatrist that they made me feel terrible and then I gotmyself off them and he began to say how well I was doing. I never told him I had stopped. JERK!!!!!
JDUNNAGEable 9 months ago
@JDUNNAGEable Wow, that sucks that you had a psychiatrist who didn't listen to you. I am lucky that my doc has been very caring and she listens to how I feel about my situation and tries to work with me.
BipolarStateofBeing 9 months ago
are drugs worth it?
AntiVenomFangX 10 months ago
@AntiVenomFangX I think they are if you find the right ones. I was on lithium when I made this video and it was the worst med I tried. I'm on zyprexa now an have no side effects except for some weight gain, and it has worked very well for me.
BipolarStateofBeing 10 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing
i'm also asking about long term side effects. do you know the toll it takes on your vitals?
AntiVenomFangX 10 months ago
Those drugs made me feel way way worse, then i did without them
Its hard to stop takin them though, you have to go real real slow, cause the withdrawal from them breaks you
fushapanther 10 months ago
I want to try lamictal and paxil. What do you recommend?
neoherrera101 10 months ago
@neoherrera101 That's something only your doctor could suggest since everything works different for different people. I personally have not had luck with either one of those meds but they may work better for you.
BipolarStateofBeing 10 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing Maybe I should just take the whole bottle of asprin and a bottle of vodka, I think that would do the fucking trick. This life is bullshittttttttttttttttttt
neoherrera101 10 months ago
omg you look ..................spent
rottentommy 11 months ago
@rottentommy I know right? I look totally haggard here!
BipolarStateofBeing 11 months ago
I was told to take Lithium 600mg,Lamictal 25mg,Seroquel 100mg at bedtime and Ambien for a backup sleep aid.I couldn't handle the zoned out dumbo lifestyle so I cut the meds exept the lithium (down to 300mg)and Ambien for sleep.I use high doses of Vitamins,Fish oil, and Ginkgo I'm still just alittle manic right now but I'm thinking over time my condition will improve,
riffranger 1 year ago
You look like Cody Weber a.k.a. saturninefilms.
My point? Life is stupid. My proof? What I just wrote.
Cubicle0 1 year ago
I've been on all the classes of drugs for bipolar and I USED to think that they made me fatigued, but it was in my head. A lot of us think too much about our meds and it causes placebo side effects. Yes, some meds are severely sedating, like Seroquel, but I take that at night and I wake up just fine in the morning. Lithium made me groggy for a bit, but then I grew out of it. We're all different, but once you get used to your meds, you should have only bearable side effects. If not, switch.
LukeShetler 1 year ago
@LukeShetler Yeah, I think the key is just finding what works for each individual. It's weird how the same drug can react totally different with various people's chemistry.
BipolarStateofBeing 1 year ago
Im sorry but I didn't catch the names of the medications you are taking and the amounts. I just started Lithium 300 mg once morning, once evening and 150 mg. Seroquil XR at night only. They started me out with very minimal dosages of the medications, but I had been on Seroquil XR 50 mg before when they thought it was just depression. In any case, there are times when I looked drugged-up, but after seven to ten days it goes away.
chiriquiTV 1 year ago
@chiriquiTV I'm so sensitive to meds...that's one of the hardest things to deal with. I always get the weird/rare side effects.
BipolarStateofBeing 1 year ago
@BipolarStateofBeing My doctor reduced me back to the Lithium I started out with - 300 mg AM and 300 mg PM and he's going to take me off of Seroquil XR totally. The medication was making me worse than I was as Bipolar.
chiriquiTV 1 year ago
Sorry to hear about your problems with your meds. Maybe they can back off on the dose until you find a balance that keeps you stable & the side effects are tolerable. I will be going on a antidepressant soon (1st time in 15 years), they have never helped in the past but maybe this one will help. Hang in there.
2LucidDream 1 year ago
@2LucidDream Thanks for the sympathy. This whole rollercoaster of finding meds is almost worse than dealing with the disease sometimes!
BipolarStateofBeing 1 year ago