Paranoid delusions in bipolar disorder

[purplehazee1000]

your symthoms are more schizophrenic than bipolar..

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@purplehazee1000 I agree with my diagnosis of bipolar. I have only experienced hallucinations/paranoia, etc. while being in a manic state. Not just on a regular basis or anything like that. I would think that if it was schizophrenia I would experience symptoms whether or not I was manic.

[29NHam]

locks on the doors and my bedroom window becaus eI thought a murder or serial killer would come through it and kill me.

[29NHam]

Wow, this is crazy. I feel like Im watching myself in your vid. Also hv had parnoid feelings or ideas. I obsessed at one point that my husband was cheating on me, crazy ideas even though he is with me everyday and we have a great relationship. This went on for awhile and got prograssively worse and then better again. Another point I would think co workers were talking about me if I was far away and could hear them talking, little things like that or at one point I had to obsessively check the..

[lexiloss]

You are really helping me right now, i felt so alone.. i don't know how to get any help tho nobody listens to me. They tell me i'm to young.

[macrent2]

I have been very paranoid in the past few weeks. I feel like everyone is out to either use me or get me in trouble. I am in college and feel like my peers (especially in my department) are wanting to hurt me. I also felt like my dad was lying to me and was conspiring to have me locked up and evaluated. 

[AuroraGreenleaf]

Really interesting. I am doing research for a character I'm writing with Paranoia, so this vid really helps, thanks...

[bipolardiscussions]

I have the same problem at the store it can be really paralyzing! I cant stand waiting in line or going to the deli. I don't want to feel like I have any attention focused on me. I'm sorry to hear about the other things you have dealt with but thumbs up for sharing. Also My boyfriend has helped me realize trying to advert your attention to other things while in the store help. Just trying to kinda goof off and be ok with it helps. Don't know if you get what I'm say but yeah.

[wonabzback]

my paranoia drives myself crazy on what they say delusion thoughts,people are really nosey ,im glad we can relate,our thoughts or actions arent "normal" to others but they are normal to us 

[multiversedancer]

I completely understand how you feel. I'm also a SAHM. Thank you so much for making this video. I'm finding a lot of comfort in working with healing my inner child, emotional freedom technique, yoga, meditation, chiropractic, exercise, clean nutrition, and Sean Blackwell's videos. His youtube channel is "Bipolar Or Waking Up". He also has a website and social network. Lots of love, light, and healing to you mamma.

[noahDnewport]

I've experienced most of what you've described, especially the feeling of being watched and feeling like people were plotting against me. During the fall of 2009, I started losing sleep, had a severe manic episode and ended up in a mental hospital. I was diagnosed with acute paranoid psychosis.

I usually experience moderate mood swings on almost a day to day basis. It's been over two years, and the problems staying awake all night are starting to come back again.

I'm convinced I'm bipolar.

[TheThreeWeavers]

I've had LOADS over the years. Interestingly the one which never quite goes away is the paranoia of a random attack e.g., me being purposely pushed off the platform when a train is set to come. As such I have to keep well away from the tracks and make sure nobody is behind me, or at least, nobody who looks likely to push me on to the tracks. Also, the fear of steps is an interesting one. I seem to think I'll crack my head open. Luckily neither of these things generally affects me living my life.

[Drhamburgerhill]

You know deep down....that everyone isnt watching you....if the paranoia comes.....dismiss it! you know deep down its not true......dismiss it as play of the mind....stay grounded on love for your family....everyones mind is capable of creative paranoia...its how all stories are written.....but with bipolar it seems to want to drag us into the story ...just keep your heart-light dismiss it ...the imagination will move onto something else...that's what i do ..it works allright :)

[Drhamburgerhill]

@Drhamburgerhill That is "if" it ever happens again

[BffsForLife24]

i'm 16 diagnosed with bi-polar. My paranoia gets extremely bad to the point where I don't feel safe sleeping without a knife beside my bed. even outside of mania it has become normal to have a weapon within hands reach. it's habit. And i don't feel like people read my thoughts it is the opposite for me, I know what people are thinking. I will type my reply to people before they answer me.

[TheBuzzrk]

my son says that he is hearing voices from time to time. he is 15 years old. what do you think we should do for him?

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@TheBuzzrk I think he probably needs to see a counselor or psychiatrist to evaluate him and see what they can do to help him with this problem.

[Ivehadbetterdays]

i never really had delusions that severe. when i walk at night i always look over my shoulder, but thats pretty much common sense and safety practice. i admit i dont trust people easily, and always feel like people dont see past my bipolar. I would call that a defense mechanism rather than a delusion, weve all faced judgemental people before who look down on our condition, so its only natural to be a bit defensive.

[ShaunberryiPod]

I had one experience, just one, of a paranoid episode. omg. It was terrifying. Could not rationalise at all.

[yocbjone]

Just let everyone read ur mind as much as they want, give up, just let go. Even if they could, they could not prove it anyways, so if they think something bad about you, they might just feel that they have a problem thinking negative about others, right? People can judge me as much as they want, and i'l just like you, ok? My trick for all fears is for me to just give it up, let it go, it's totally fine, just go ahead and hate me as much as you possibly can, it's really not my problem.

[Jairzinho121]

@yocbjone I agree,but in reality its not that simple, but I agree with where u r comimg from.

[yocbjone]

Trick is to give up, just let everyone look as much as they want to. Ask urself whats the big deal if the hole world looked at you and judged u as much as they possibly could. If someone tries to put you down, they fear u and wanna put themselves above you cus they truly feel belov. Dont need meds for that, only understanding. That goes for every fear.

[apotheker73]

I feel that people are watching me when I leave my kids at school, and at lots of other places. Sometimes I think a lot of the number 3, . I think: "3, I like that number, but I do not like that it is an odd number, I do not like odd #s, but if you count "0" as a # then 0,1,2,3 is 4 numbers, then 3 can be seen as an even #, and still makes 3 since 0 is nothing! So #3 is OK.. Also pi (π) is good since it goes on forever, then 3 is not "alone" since endless of even #s in pi". WIERD or what.!

[AntisocialVirtuoso]

@apotheker73 Sounds like OCD stuff. I don't like the number 3. Not sure why.

[AntisocialVirtuoso]

@apotheker73 I hate the number 5 too.

[Jairzinho121]

@apotheker73 Human beings can not comprehend infinity. Pie is infinity. I personally think the universe is infinite. There is nothing wrong or weird in believing that, only if it detriments you or your family, then you might need help with dealing with these thoughts.

[5WDFREE]

2nd psychosis. I did not speak because in my mind if I spoke Satan could here it. I was the only patient that my psych doctor in the hospital

had ever had that went silent when manic.

[CookingJoy]

Once i thought i was being watched in my own room, but when i turned the lights on there was a huge Beast Like Creator, That came Through A Hole from the ground, and then i woke up!

[ziganda26]

Every time i walk down the street i feel like im being watched and people can read my thoughts, i also hate supermarkets where i feel really paranoid like my very presence is offputting for other people, like im a social pariah.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@ziganda26 Are you on meds right now?

[ziganda26]

@BipolarStateofBeing Im currently on zyprexa, but i might try a higher dosage or another drug, its not getting rid of all the psychotic symptoms.

[lovebiotech]

@ziganda26 I've at that feeling like no one would want to be around me, also. It was part of my post partum depression, but lasted for far longer than one would have expected. My most recent diagnosis is PTSD. I think that's right, but not the whole story. I just want to feel like myself, the me I know I am.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@ilikecocoakrispies I think that is probably what happened. I know now he was concerned about me but at the time I thought he was monitoring me in some kind of negative way.

[thecartuneman]

the same thing has happened to me before with what u said about being at the store thinking everyone was monitoring you. wow. cool to know i'm not the only one whose been through that. do u take meds?

[thecartuneman]

@thecartuneman oh sorry, still watching got ya.

[pdp1170]

BSB,

Xyprexa did nothing for me. I have tried 12-15 different meds and the only one that ever helped was lithium. I have a big problem in grocery stores, like there is a swat team following me around so cannot go shopping by myself. If I eat Asian food with MSG I always become psychotic and have to head straight for home. I hallucinate nearly every day, seeing 6.5 foot aliens walking around all the time. Even my cat moves her head as they walk by so I know they are real which is OK.

Don

[thecartuneman]

@pdp1170 crazy, i get massive headaches and some delusions whenever i eat MSG. it sucks so bad, throw up all night and massive migrane

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@pdp1170 That sounds terrible. I'm sorry you have to experience these things.

[Cathryn1962]

i've gotten to the point in my life that no one is watching me, that i am invisible. my husband suffers from scizophrenia and has had paranoid delusions but is well controlled with zyprexa. he became ill while serving in Iraq. that sucks you got paranoid about your dad. finding the right meds is a constant challenge. our brains change and meds always need tweaking, at least that is my experience.

[Olivares1207]

Thanks for letting us know what It's like to have bi-polar disorder, It must be very hard to live with this.

[Irene211084]

Great video, thank you :) x

[nb23ify]

you should write a story about a person with all of those experiences. hmm call the character 'Alice'

[Hornilope]

also how are the side effects from the zyprexa? do you have alot of cognitive dulling?

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@Hornilope Not really. I do think it affects my memory somewhat because it doesn't seem to be as good as it used to though.

[Hornilope]

ive been paranoid towards my parents and friends in periods when ive been sick, mostly during the turning point between hypomania and depression. Whatever they say I just feel like what they say has a double meaning (with a bad intention). I can get quite hostile, and hurt the feelings of the people I love =(.

I also feel like people watch me and think "what a pathetic person, weirdo etc" when I'm depressed.

Atleast now I know why I feel these things and I'm able to do something about it =)

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@Hornilope That's interesting, I've never gotten paranoid when depressed, only when manic.