sadness

[leezie666]

"Grow up, snap out of it, stip whining." Ugh! People who say those things have no idea what it is to be traumatized. That's the conclusion I've had to come to to not let that shit get to me. *hugs*  You can email me you messengers if you ever want to chat.

[sugarfreejello]

I sure to understand the feeling of being lost and being ambivalent about recovery; wanting it one minute and the next minute not wanting it. Hang in there. You are not alone.

[pinkkitten87]

Calcium and vitamin D help, but you need a certain body weight to produce enough estrogen to be able to stop the process, and hopefully help. Please take care of yourself, I always watch your vids and relate a lot. If you want to talk just let me know. I've been in that place many times. I hope I dont come across as harsh, i just wanted to get the facts out in as little words as possible.

[pinkkitten87]

So, with medication and excersice, it is possible to regain some, just some, of the lost bone mass. However, after a certain age it may only be possible to maintain the current level of bone mass.

[pinkkitten87]

It can only be reversed slightly before a certain age. By the age of twenty to twenty-five, our bodies lose the ability to gain bone mass. It maintains until age thirty, and then it slowly decreases after that.

[JagGirl38]

I'm sorry but you have to start taking care of yourself and eating...I have been watching your vids for a long time and you are really starting to look sick in the face...you are way to thin. You feel this way because you are not eating why dont you see that?

[deadweight92]

I know it's really scary but I have osteopenia from anorexia and I was told that you need to ingest dietary fat in order to absorb the calcium into your bones in addition to the vitamin D. It may be terrifying, but try to have at least a few grams, if only when you take your supplement.

[casgrl21]

i agree...you need a support system to get through the rough times..im feeling a bit like you too..it happens with doctor visits, i had mine today as well, geez.

[pinkkitten87]

Too young to develop osteoporosis? Within one year of developing anorexia I had osteoporosis at age 15.

It's irreversible. My spine and hips are bad, after being recovered for 5 years.

[justagurl23]

i thought it can be reversed, but not cured..?

[Nutmeg82]

You were experiencing anxiety, is all. That's what it sounds like. The heart pain, etc. And you need the vitamins...they're designed to strenghten your bones :)

Your too young to possibly develop osteoperosis.

((hugs)) Take care hun. Im here for you and praying today is better.

[deadweight92]

No one with anorexia is too young for osteoporosis!

[MinutemanICBM]

Yeah, you are definitely a highly sensitive person. Wish I could send you some strength..

[blumac81]

I just wanna give you a big hug

[caroline0912]

my support and my strenght come from talking online. my friends are not much help except one of them. if it wasn't for her i don't know what i would do. im dehidrated too but i cannot make myself drink enough.:(

[WideGauge]

Good thing you had the bone density test just in time to give you a heads up.

Sometimes I wonder how healthy it is for you to live in such close proximity to your family ... =(

[TJay9000]

I hate to see you having such a sad day! At least the vitamins are a good thing. I hope tomorrow is a little better :-)

[waterlogged22]

I'm sorry about the bad news about your hip. You are way to young to have bone problems. Please think about the price you are paying for your E.D. I care what happens to you. Take those calcium tablets!

[canadianchick74]

Instead of Ativan (spelling?) have you tried Immovane? It works really good for sleep. PS: Could you email me Ash? I have some questions on computer stuff & wondering if you u know? (a MySpace site I'm doing)

[CagedSongBird]

You're in my thoughts...

**Hugs**

Paula

[canadianchick74]

It's called osteopenia (spelling?). I've got it too, but it can be stopped and improved it u take calcium/magnesium supplements.Hang in there chicky.Drink H2O. Coffee dehydrates u. You look nice with your hair pulled back.

[SoulFlava141]

i wish ur older sister wud see this video....

[SoulFlava141]

i really like ur styling today,u look beautiful! u shud not feel ashamed of ur feelings sweetheart thats wat is human and if we let them come we are goin to deal better with ourselves...i hope u not gon feel stuck for longxoxoxoxo kat

[Candyann22]

I was just curious if you want to get better? It may be a stupid question and all, but I was just wondering.

[justagurl23]

i do and don't. i'm lost. i don't know what to do. logically i know what i NEED to do..but..i'm just..stuck.

[Candyann22]

I understand what you are saying. (((hugs)))

[knightflyte]

I think the hardest part of this (I mean my THIS) is that you don't see a future.... a dream.... or any hope.

It's a totally irrational thought process, but it's still there.

With out a hope or a dream the will to live dies. One may not be suicidal to lose the will to live. I'm there...and it's horrendous.

Keep fighting Ash.

[monnie110]

It's soooooo hard. For me it was a major loss of hope and ambition. I felt like I wasin a 20 foot whole trying to climb out then giving up and feeling like I'd never get out. Very very difficult to climb out, so sometimes I would give up. The mind can be a war zone. It's so hard.

[dobja4384]

i hope you are alright with the psychologist. Take care.

[turnthepage]

*hugs* hang in there...i hope you start feeling better. you really are a tough cookie :)