Please dont cut yourself. Ive got scares from burning and cutting myself. I wish I never had. I know thats like telling you not to feel pain but there are other ways to deal with it. Do you use marijuana? I am bi-polar and can get manic for days and depressed for weeks. Marijuana snaps me right out of depression.
I like this video a lot. I think it's interesting and insightful. The sound effects seem to imply that the intensity of the anguish builds to a point when suddenly a quietness sets in, but not a restful, or peaceful quiet. It is a shutting down of emotion, a loss of perspective, a mental place were terrifying, monstrous decisions and actions can be taken without fear, or compunction.
I don't know whether to laugh or cry. This video is insane. You are one crazy chick and I mean that in a loving way. I hope you will find peace and happiness someday. In the meantime, please please, please checkout my website. (It's on my profile)
Take it easy and put that knife away or I'll have to come round there and smack your bum
The fact that this video can scare you or make you feel nervous means the message has been sent clear. The video was done good as an expression of how one feels in their head, the saddest part is at the end. I've been diagnosed with BPD but then another therapist will tell me it's something else.
dun cut urself it's bad fer u maybe if u feel lyke cutting urself go grab a chco or a sweet it may not b gd advice but if u dunlyke it juz ignore it(chco betta0 n n e way im juz 12 so my comments may not reely help u cos we r frm diff age grps
i've been there. i know. i've got traits, if not the full-blown d/o. i have to ask my therapist one of these days if i really have it, b/c it was said i did but lately after having gotten to know me they're not sure. but i definitely have traits. you remind me of me. it's very painful. it's more than depression. it's pain, and hurt. go you for having the courage to show and make this clip. it's brilliant.
hi nayomee im bran. i found your videos looking for info on bpd which my girlfriend has so i know a bit of how hard it can make life. but like her i hope you never give up and never lose hope every thing happens for a reason!
I know your probably all better now, but I understand the pain of what you went through, all you can do is take one breath at a time and live day to day, never look back meaning let go of the past, things have a way of turning out for the better in time, and one day you will have more than you ever thought you could have trust me.Remember he lost you he was the looser in the end not you,you have a bright future he doesn't. God bless
My stepdaughter is going thru depression at this time,She has cut herself not bad but she is doing it. She spend 3 days in the Hospital and we didn't know anything ,She is trying to keep it to herself. My Wife and I find out about this on friday. Iam worry cause Her Husband walk out of the house and She is staying by Herself. I want her to come home and stay with us until she gets better.
You are completely wrong. That would mean that one in three Americans has it. It would be a total epidemic.
I read the statistic once and *believe* it's about 2% of the population that has BPD. That would make it about 6 million people in the US that have it.
A freak? Yay for narrow-minded ignorance! I'm sorry if you had a shitty relationship with somebody suffering from BPD. See, the difference between somebody with BPD and a "psycho bitch" is the person with BPD can't help it.
The fact that you're pathetic enough to not be able to get over some person who you dated and to be reading books about his/her disorder and watching videos (after the fact) about it and commenting, calling other sufferers "freaks" is seriously sad
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As matter of fact by seeing some of the BPD trades I broke up with him. You suckers with BPD all enjoy is feeling sorry for yourself and looking for PPL to pitty on you guys past. So move on, get your self sry ass up and stop looking at your past.
&&& FYI I was reading the book while I was in the relationship.
hey nayomee77 an every1 u just wanna talk come over 2 facebook my names freedom stewart just check it out if u want to talk add me if not check my pro out anyways i use to be a cutter addicted to blood tattoos plz come talk to me and plz dont give up u are worth it
I want to hug you. I reconize the back ground from the movie Pulse. Ha Ha your smart. That movie is like the closest thing i've seen to manic depression. Oh you're beautiful by the way. "I ain't kindin neither". :P
Wow.. how'd u pick it was from pulse? Did u know it straight away or had to think about it? Orr i can't remember if i mentioned it anywhere else on here.
Damn. I can relate to this video. It describes how I feel a lot of times. I've been to the shrink and been on medication so I can totally understand where you come from. You look after yourself.
i have been touched by ur videos!Im very proud of you, that u admit u have problems, some people jus try to block them out and forget about them. Im here if you need me! you havent got to go through this by urself!
jus remember to put a BIG brave face on and try to overcome ur fears! we all have bad days so dont worry bout tht! i hope u find the strength to contact me! im HERE for u babe ! remember tht i look forward to hearing from u x
This is great! Just how I felt today. So depressed, socialy anxious and lonley (although I was among people, which is often when I feel the most lonley), that it was almost paranoia, which is the feeling in this clip. Me and the guy I work with don't talk very well and don't like each other and today I felt like he would be so sick of and bored with me he might just pull out a knife and stab me in the stoumach. Thanks for this post!
I was looking at some videos and i stumbled onto your depressed and lonely video. I feel for you girl and im sorry that you are going trough that. Do you believe in God. I do, i am a Christian. I dont know if you do believe in God but let me tell you. He is real and you need him. Jesus Christ will help you if you let him! You can experience real happiness if you pray to God for help in jesus name!
Life is hard. Some women are why they got divorced! They would sometimes push the men to mental anguish, and never be satisfied. Some men are the reason. Blow your nose some million times, stop making videos of you just crying and muttering what sounds like gibberish, and go do something about it!
I am unsure as to why people put this type of video up. The world is a hard cruel place to be ... and perhaps we just don't need to keep seeing others in misery - and frankly it feels manipulative - which is sure not what you mean to do. How does sharing your misery with us help you? This just depressed me.
just don't let this illness do this to you for 10 or 20 years more. you are a good person & deserve to have a full life. if all else fails watch Cheers clips! (or beverly hillbillies)
i've had social anxiety disorder, severe depression, depersonalization/dp etc. as of right now, i'm pretty much cured. a big part of the problem is that negative pathways have been activated in your mind, and you get stuck in them. i'm now almost 100% cured. no more thinking or focusing on myself/feelings + being busy, not taking life seriously and letting go of who i thought i "was". i also take a natural seratonin supplement (5htp) good luck.
Hi there, i no it says you want wont be replying to any messages on your profile but i had to contact you! i think youre a amazing woman and insperation too many, ive been suffering from anxeity disorder for about a year & half, it no way to live its just existence. I would love to get to no you better and feel strongly about this! i hope to speak to you soon babe and rember it will get better one day its just a matter of time
so good that allso this kind of videos are put on youtube. think so many people can relate to it. i just played a big part in a movie where I had to cut myself in one scene.. so difficult to start crying out of nowhere....
but when you live the role, it becomes more easier. nicely done...
i guess you only have to be in the same situation to understand what it's like to start to cry all of a sudden..only people who have been thru this will relate to this video. i am one of them...
it's crazy and painful...but as soon as the crying ends that's when you feel strong for a little while and as tho nothing can hurt you..you go to sleep and the next morning it's the same loneliness and sadness all over again...
very creative on how the feelings on the inside can come out on the outside i am a BPD OCD SELF HARM AND SEVERE DEPRESSION sufferer if u ever need to chat hola xx
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nayomee, i know you're against prescription drugs, but how about trying some illegal hallucinogenic mushrooms. You'll learn a lot about yourself and figure out better how to deal with all this and where to go and what to do next. Enjoy the crazy body high too. :) Also, weed will just intensify your depression. Stay away from it.
I get it. I think it's lovely and yes, art. As usual YT is filled with judgmental, bored idiots. Ignore them. That's why I haven't been on here in months! Love you tho, sweet sister...R
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I don't find your video disturbing at all. It's wonderful. I'm amazed at the extent to which you go to attract people into your little world. It works, doesn't it? Keep up the good work. Stay unhappy. Stay unhealthy. Stay lonely. You wear it so well. All the worst to you, sweetie!
Nice video. I dont think the last image was too provocative at all. That's the truth, and so be it. Alot of ppl cut themselves, I've done it myself, and it we should not be ashamed to talk about it. But it sucks though.. The reason behind it is sad, it's not about wanting to get the attention people!
I'm so sorry Jules that u are feeling like this. I really do understand how u feel more than u think. And know that u are my friend also..even tho we haven't met in person. I look forward to meeting u one day soon i hope.
I would like to send you some music that can take you to a magical place, its by an old composer named Ralph Vaughan Williams, two lovely compositions that will melt you and hold you close.
hi naomi ! hummm... i prefer to see you laughing ! promise me you will ? i have to say that it's good to hear that a friend is coming with you soon ...a good friend will help you ! alright then, take care of yourself gentle & good looking girl ! best wishes .sincerly ,franki .
I suffer the same way and i to am a christian. Every day i cry, sometimes for no reason. Nobody understands my pain. This is a great video of what mental anguish does. It's very painful.
You will be asked about him in your grave after death and you will be shock that all your work has been recorded listen to him before its too late and save your self to go to paradise..
I am a Christian and don't need to explain myself to u. I won't be shocked, i will finally be happy.
U really have no idea how many Christians (and non christians) are in so much pain. This was an expression of how i feel and think, also to show others what it's like to suffer in this way. Don't need to explain myself to u..so yeah i'm wasting my time.
I think he was suggesting you become a Muslim and all your problems would go away. As we all know, Muslims have no problems and are happy all the time...
This was a very powerful, and striking video ! I hope you're trying to take it one day at a time. You've survived this horrible disorder, and may never be 100%, but the important thing to remember is not to give up the fight.
My inbox says I have 8 comments to be approved on this, but they aren't showing up for me to approve. Sorry to anyone who thinks i haven't approved them, thats not it..blame youtube. I hope they turn up.
Why did u think it was a little over the top? Did u think i was being unrealistic? Maybe it is only over the top to those who don't understand. This was a way of expressing my thoughts and emotions. If u were in my position or knew my full position in life right now, i doubt u'd say it was over the top.
Nayomee,I'm speechless.This vid touched me deeply.Hang in there girl.The world is a better place with you in it.A lot of us care about you deeply. Believe it. Only time will heal your heart.Your a beautiful person and one day a great guy will realize it.Take care. Beth
Very powerful and creative.. and disturbing. Maybe perhaps channeling your energy into art can be a way of releasing it. Like a kind of poetry. I hope you have someone to talk to near you..
Thanks..i wanted it to come across in a powerful way..but now i think some think it was too powerful. The ending is not what people want to see or know about.
I do like being creative in this kind of way but not often do i feel like doing anything at all.
I don't really have anyone to talk to except my psych. A friend is coming for a little while too.
It is NOT too powerful, Nayomee, people with depth and compassion can understand this, if others do not wish too, or it cuts too deep, perhaps, never mind. You need to do this, and it touched my soul immediatly, and I understood. Hugs.
Hey, lady. This is probably a little more than a project. I swear - right now, I am down there with you. That dark lady is my constant companion as well. I have no advice, because advice is useless. Just know, I am there too. Love ya!
I'm sorry if i scared u. The ending i guess is what most people are not happy about. But it wasn't suggesting suicide..it was self harm which i haven't done in a couple of months but i still think of doing it often and want to to take away the emotional pain.
Just wanted to show the reality of how i feel. I'm sure there are many others who feel the same or worse.
Thanks for saying it was creative tho..thats what i was trying to do.
very professional looking, the photography was focus perfect..... hope your well, chk out my video thanking you to sending me jules poem competition. thanks once again. tried to message you, but it wouldn't let me, so thanks anwyay.
Thanks for the nice compliments! I'll check ur vid out soon. Been busy for a while but will watch soon. No probs about sending u the info about Jules comp. I just wanted to help him out.
Nayomee, you know I feel for you, but I also agree with lloydhywel, it is creative, very much so, yes, and disturbing, but you do have a whole lot of inner creativity , which has come across in that as well as the pain and the sorrow. Hugs.
I'm sorry if this upset u. I just wanted to show people what it feels like. I noticed u put a vid up the other day but i had to run out and still haven't gotten to watch it..but will soon.
Thanks..yeah i really do hope i feel better soon.
I have a photo i took of a tunnel with the light at the end. I look at it often. I just need to get some hooks put in my new place so i can put it on the wall again.
Unquestionably this is disturbing Nayomi but what i take from these stills is your seperation from the essence of you and the pain you carry, recaptured in a creative moment to release the way you feel, deeply and profoundly. I'm sure these images will connect and move many who are fortunate enough to come across this piece and absorb. I only hope you can take strength from this as well. Thank you for sharing.
In the sense that your pain, clearly and explicity carried, frame after frame re-connected myself, to a place i once found myself. Cautiously, i think it is a good thing that you have made this. It is a dark place Nayomee but one i sense you can fly away from in time even if, as with myself, it is never that far away, we can learn to live with it even respect it. Disturbing because it pained me to sense your anguish acutely. Thoughts for you.
I hope this isn't nothing to worry about because that last pic was a little scary. But I guess you're just working on something. Well I hope you're doing ok and I'll stay tuned for your next vid.
I am worried....very disturbing, Naomi. Are you about to do something tragic? G-d forbid! Please get help immediately if you feel as bad as this vid portrays. Life is a precious gift no matter the pain involved.
lol
MarcfromTreasureNet1 1 year ago
I just heard a song called " IN YOUR MIND " by andrew gerbasi. good song have a listen. I think you'll like it
randyandy1960 1 year ago
Please dont cut yourself. Ive got scares from burning and cutting myself. I wish I never had. I know thats like telling you not to feel pain but there are other ways to deal with it. Do you use marijuana? I am bi-polar and can get manic for days and depressed for weeks. Marijuana snaps me right out of depression.
7255202 1 year ago
good for you.
fuck the people who don't like the end. how dare they tell you how to edit your own art.
keep being true and produce as you wish your great.
BPDsucks 2 years ago
un jour a la fois vers la mort
phrozen3 2 years ago
creative expression is always a good thing.
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inspireyoursoul 2 years ago
I like this video a lot. I think it's interesting and insightful. The sound effects seem to imply that the intensity of the anguish builds to a point when suddenly a quietness sets in, but not a restful, or peaceful quiet. It is a shutting down of emotion, a loss of perspective, a mental place were terrifying, monstrous decisions and actions can be taken without fear, or compunction.
antoine1138 2 years ago
I don't know whether to laugh or cry. This video is insane. You are one crazy chick and I mean that in a loving way. I hope you will find peace and happiness someday. In the meantime, please please, please checkout my website. (It's on my profile)
Take it easy and put that knife away or I'll have to come round there and smack your bum
EndingSA 2 years ago
i really enjoyed watching this vid. i hope it was not diffacult but if it was't good 4 u.
blackquiver 2 years ago
The fact that this video can scare you or make you feel nervous means the message has been sent clear. The video was done good as an expression of how one feels in their head, the saddest part is at the end. I've been diagnosed with BPD but then another therapist will tell me it's something else.
Americangirl787 2 years ago
this is a great video. you should become an artist.
capthecat 2 years ago
dun cut urself it's bad fer u maybe if u feel lyke cutting urself go grab a chco or a sweet it may not b gd advice but if u dunlyke it juz ignore it(chco betta0 n n e way im juz 12 so my comments may not reely help u cos we r frm diff age grps
leekig 2 years ago
just thought it was a weird that I caught the video at the 6,666 view. lol
soon2bfit 3 years ago
i've been there. i know. i've got traits, if not the full-blown d/o. i have to ask my therapist one of these days if i really have it, b/c it was said i did but lately after having gotten to know me they're not sure. but i definitely have traits. you remind me of me. it's very painful. it's more than depression. it's pain, and hurt. go you for having the courage to show and make this clip. it's brilliant.
red12512 3 years ago
hi nayomee im bran. i found your videos looking for info on bpd which my girlfriend has so i know a bit of how hard it can make life. but like her i hope you never give up and never lose hope every thing happens for a reason!
ravenwithfire 3 years ago
I know your probably all better now, but I understand the pain of what you went through, all you can do is take one breath at a time and live day to day, never look back meaning let go of the past, things have a way of turning out for the better in time, and one day you will have more than you ever thought you could have trust me.Remember he lost you he was the looser in the end not you,you have a bright future he doesn't. God bless
w8tlftr4u 3 years ago
Do you like David Lynch films? This reminds me of his style of film making. Hi Nayomee! Hope this finds you well. :)
KTMkeesvanderven 3 years ago
My stepdaughter is going thru depression at this time,She has cut herself not bad but she is doing it. She spend 3 days in the Hospital and we didn't know anything ,She is trying to keep it to herself. My Wife and I find out about this on friday. Iam worry cause Her Husband walk out of the house and She is staying by Herself. I want her to come home and stay with us until she gets better.
carmelo1966 3 years ago
Did You know the population of PPL with BPD in the U.S is OVER 100,000,000???
Elaheh1naz 3 years ago
You are completely wrong. That would mean that one in three Americans has it. It would be a total epidemic.
I read the statistic once and *believe* it's about 2% of the population that has BPD. That would make it about 6 million people in the US that have it.
That's still 1 in every 50
Drewb18c1 2 years ago
Just read the book "I hate you don't leave me" I dated a freak with that illness where I was feeling I was walking on the egg shell.
Elaheh1naz 2 years ago
A freak? Yay for narrow-minded ignorance! I'm sorry if you had a shitty relationship with somebody suffering from BPD. See, the difference between somebody with BPD and a "psycho bitch" is the person with BPD can't help it.
The fact that you're pathetic enough to not be able to get over some person who you dated and to be reading books about his/her disorder and watching videos (after the fact) about it and commenting, calling other sufferers "freaks" is seriously sad
Fuck you, get over it.
Drewb18c1 2 years ago 3
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As matter of fact by seeing some of the BPD trades I broke up with him. You suckers with BPD all enjoy is feeling sorry for yourself and looking for PPL to pitty on you guys past. So move on, get your self sry ass up and stop looking at your past.
&&& FYI I was reading the book while I was in the relationship.
Go & FUCK YOURSELF YOU BPD CUNT.
Elaheh1naz 2 years ago
lol.
WearACondum 3 years ago
I know it cuz its one of my favorite flicks. How'd you find me on yahoo? I would have e-mailed you but I don't know youtube that well yet.
WearACondum 3 years ago
Good movie yeah!
Umm What tha? I don't remember finding anyone on yahoo? Confused o_O
nayomee77 3 years ago
hey nayomee77 an every1 u just wanna talk come over 2 facebook my names freedom stewart just check it out if u want to talk add me if not check my pro out anyways i use to be a cutter addicted to blood tattoos plz come talk to me and plz dont give up u are worth it
freedom22yeshuua 1 year ago
I want to hug you. I reconize the back ground from the movie Pulse. Ha Ha your smart. That movie is like the closest thing i've seen to manic depression. Oh you're beautiful by the way. "I ain't kindin neither". :P
WearACondum 3 years ago
Wow.. how'd u pick it was from pulse? Did u know it straight away or had to think about it? Orr i can't remember if i mentioned it anywhere else on here.
Thanx for the compliments.
nayomee77 3 years ago
Damn. I can relate to this video. It describes how I feel a lot of times. I've been to the shrink and been on medication so I can totally understand where you come from. You look after yourself.
scareglow77 3 years ago
Hi Naomee,
I want you to know I think you are a very strong person it gets better everyday.
One step at a time.
If you ever need to talk Im here
brissitta48 3 years ago
Listen to me Nayomee!
i have been touched by ur videos!Im very proud of you, that u admit u have problems, some people jus try to block them out and forget about them. Im here if you need me! you havent got to go through this by urself!
jus remember to put a BIG brave face on and try to overcome ur fears! we all have bad days so dont worry bout tht! i hope u find the strength to contact me! im HERE for u babe ! remember tht i look forward to hearing from u x
jadelianm 3 years ago
This is great! Just how I felt today. So depressed, socialy anxious and lonley (although I was among people, which is often when I feel the most lonley), that it was almost paranoia, which is the feeling in this clip. Me and the guy I work with don't talk very well and don't like each other and today I felt like he would be so sick of and bored with me he might just pull out a knife and stab me in the stoumach. Thanks for this post!
longgone23 3 years ago
I was looking at some videos and i stumbled onto your depressed and lonely video. I feel for you girl and im sorry that you are going trough that. Do you believe in God. I do, i am a Christian. I dont know if you do believe in God but let me tell you. He is real and you need him. Jesus Christ will help you if you let him! You can experience real happiness if you pray to God for help in jesus name!
Killatee87 3 years ago
If you care enough to type a reply, then view the rest of her videos. Get to know her first. She has stated her beliefs is past videos.
picklepick 3 years ago
Life is hard. Some women are why they got divorced! They would sometimes push the men to mental anguish, and never be satisfied. Some men are the reason. Blow your nose some million times, stop making videos of you just crying and muttering what sounds like gibberish, and go do something about it!
madnessfather 3 years ago
I am unsure as to why people put this type of video up. The world is a hard cruel place to be ... and perhaps we just don't need to keep seeing others in misery - and frankly it feels manipulative - which is sure not what you mean to do. How does sharing your misery with us help you? This just depressed me.
thedgoddess 3 years ago
just don't let this illness do this to you for 10 or 20 years more. you are a good person & deserve to have a full life. if all else fails watch Cheers clips! (or beverly hillbillies)
iindiar 3 years ago
You're in my prayers. I don't know what else to say but that Jesus & Mary love you very much.
Peace & God bless.
Sandy
1Hope4All 4 years ago
Dear nayomee77
Your videos are so compelling. I love your work.
Take care and be safe
Peace
thecrackwalker 4 years ago
i've had social anxiety disorder, severe depression, depersonalization/dp etc. as of right now, i'm pretty much cured. a big part of the problem is that negative pathways have been activated in your mind, and you get stuck in them. i'm now almost 100% cured. no more thinking or focusing on myself/feelings + being busy, not taking life seriously and letting go of who i thought i "was". i also take a natural seratonin supplement (5htp) good luck.
o7levi 4 years ago 5
Hi naymomee,
Your stories are so very good. I too suffer almost exactly the same diagnioisis as you. I hear you and thank you for sharing!
cinnamonsunshine 4 years ago
Hi there, i no it says you want wont be replying to any messages on your profile but i had to contact you! i think youre a amazing woman and insperation too many, ive been suffering from anxeity disorder for about a year & half, it no way to live its just existence. I would love to get to no you better and feel strongly about this! i hope to speak to you soon babe and rember it will get better one day its just a matter of time
olicr123 4 years ago
aww hunny i hope everythings ok
mbrun92 4 years ago
It isn't, but temporarily is at times. If that makes sense.
nayomee77 4 years ago
Okay that would be a good trailer for a movie. No disrespect, but you could probably make a good psychological thriller.
SpacyStacy32 4 years ago
Thanks..i guess i'll take that as a compliment. I love thrillers :)
nayomee77 4 years ago
Keep your head up, honey
hijodeargentina 4 years ago
THanks...tryin.
nayomee77 4 years ago
hey girlfriend im tayra
beeryce88 4 years ago
Hi :)
nayomee77 4 years ago
LOL u dum bitch
desertbdk 4 years ago
Laugh it up cow!!
nayomee77 4 years ago
I wish I could be with you...
DYRKK 4 years ago
you cry a lot lol :(
yoshii88 4 years ago
And u find that funny?
nayomee77 4 years ago
wow.... !!
what a video.
so good that allso this kind of videos are put on youtube. think so many people can relate to it. i just played a big part in a movie where I had to cut myself in one scene.. so difficult to start crying out of nowhere....
but when you live the role, it becomes more easier. nicely done...
really, keep up the good work
cheers. Sam
sammekedeman 4 years ago
Thanks for the compliment.
What was the movie for?
nayomee77 4 years ago
i guess you only have to be in the same situation to understand what it's like to start to cry all of a sudden..only people who have been thru this will relate to this video. i am one of them...
it's crazy and painful...but as soon as the crying ends that's when you feel strong for a little while and as tho nothing can hurt you..you go to sleep and the next morning it's the same loneliness and sadness all over again...
i hope you'll feel better soon
jazzmanEE 4 years ago
perfectly executed and made
jazzmanEE 4 years ago
very creative on how the feelings on the inside can come out on the outside i am a BPD OCD SELF HARM AND SEVERE DEPRESSION sufferer if u ever need to chat hola xx
HollyoaksInTheCity06 4 years ago
im a 20 yr old male with BPD, depression, and social anxiety disorder...you should know you're beautiful and you're not alone.
Tapicero111 4 years ago
I really hope you get better
treeman2007 4 years ago
Vividly conveyed m'lady. I wish you well.
d3adpoet 4 years ago
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nayomee, i know you're against prescription drugs, but how about trying some illegal hallucinogenic mushrooms. You'll learn a lot about yourself and figure out better how to deal with all this and where to go and what to do next. Enjoy the crazy body high too. :) Also, weed will just intensify your depression. Stay away from it.
Robtron3030 4 years ago
Beautifully done
mikabeans 4 years ago
I get it. I think it's lovely and yes, art. As usual YT is filled with judgmental, bored idiots. Ignore them. That's why I haven't been on here in months! Love you tho, sweet sister...R
surfr71 4 years ago 2
Whoa
Goraiou46732 4 years ago
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I don't find your video disturbing at all. It's wonderful. I'm amazed at the extent to which you go to attract people into your little world. It works, doesn't it? Keep up the good work. Stay unhappy. Stay unhealthy. Stay lonely. You wear it so well. All the worst to you, sweetie!
iu4older 4 years ago
Making art from pain-one of the best ways to deal with it! Excellent use of sound and visuals, and I am just now off to watch your vlog!
samsarajade 4 years ago
Nice video. I dont think the last image was too provocative at all. That's the truth, and so be it. Alot of ppl cut themselves, I've done it myself, and it we should not be ashamed to talk about it. But it sucks though.. The reason behind it is sad, it's not about wanting to get the attention people!
Prissie27 4 years ago
The emotional impact of this video is like being hit by a truck. No-one seeing this video will fail to understand its message.
That is the mark of a skilled communicator who knows her subject, working in a familiar medium. Your mastery and confidence are growing, Naomi.
I'm pulling for you, on many levels. *Hugs*
Urgelt 4 years ago
Nayomee i just said this from my own experience..
I didn't mean to hurt you..
Sorry if I did, I only want it for you for your good..
Ofcourse you are free to express what you feel and believe.
Thanks
Gentleman779 4 years ago
Wheres all my commetns going shit!!
nayomee77 4 years ago
WHhhen u comin down? I'm so drunk right now i cant type.
>love ya back XOXOX
nayomee77 4 years ago
I'm so sorry Jules that u are feeling like this. I really do understand how u feel more than u think. And know that u are my friend also..even tho we haven't met in person. I look forward to meeting u one day soon i hope.
Please take care. Lotsa love XOXOX.
nayomee77 4 years ago
If you know him and be patient with your pain .. guess what?? Paradise
Gentleman779 4 years ago
Yes i long for heaven. Maybe u should learn some patience too for other people rather than say what u said to me before.
U do not know how long i have tried to be patient for.
I will no longer talk about this issue with u, or about this video. I am free to express myself how i choose.
nayomee77 4 years ago
I liked the vid as an art piece. You have talent.
I didn't like the message/impression I got from it.
Make more vids. :-)
Sturdyhart 4 years ago
The message needs to be told. People ignore this kind of thing too much. Glad u liked t as art.
nayomee77 4 years ago
I would like to send you some music that can take you to a magical place, its by an old composer named Ralph Vaughan Williams, two lovely compositions that will melt you and hold you close.
Blacklistedgang 4 years ago
hey nayomee...
for some stupid reason.. ur vid didnt show up.. and when i looked .. it said i wasnt subscribed to u...
bizarro! i sub'd to u months ago..
im glad ya back love.. sms us when ya feelin good enough for a drink and some pool..
choppa xXx
choppa79 4 years ago
hi naomi ! hummm... i prefer to see you laughing ! promise me you will ? i have to say that it's good to hear that a friend is coming with you soon ...a good friend will help you ! alright then, take care of yourself gentle & good looking girl ! best wishes .sincerly ,franki .
franki1001 4 years ago
I suffer the same way and i to am a christian. Every day i cry, sometimes for no reason. Nobody understands my pain. This is a great video of what mental anguish does. It's very painful.
twoallbeefpatties 4 years ago
You are wasting your time..
go find the true creator who made you...
You will be asked about him in your grave after death and you will be shock that all your work has been recorded listen to him before its too late and save your self to go to paradise..
work for it before its too late.
Gentleman779 4 years ago
U don't know me, don't judge me.
I am a Christian and don't need to explain myself to u. I won't be shocked, i will finally be happy.
U really have no idea how many Christians (and non christians) are in so much pain. This was an expression of how i feel and think, also to show others what it's like to suffer in this way. Don't need to explain myself to u..so yeah i'm wasting my time.
nayomee77 4 years ago
Let He Who Is Without Sin Cast The First Stone.
nayomee77 4 years ago
I think he was suggesting you become a Muslim and all your problems would go away. As we all know, Muslims have no problems and are happy all the time...
retread01 4 years ago
**hugs** sweetie
thesoothingsurf 4 years ago
I'm just glad to see you are alive.
retread01 4 years ago
This was a very powerful, and striking video ! I hope you're trying to take it one day at a time. You've survived this horrible disorder, and may never be 100%, but the important thing to remember is not to give up the fight.
Sincerely,
*Erika*
anothernight82 4 years ago
I understanding totally. That's exactly how i feel.
twoallbeefpatties 4 years ago
My inbox says I have 8 comments to be approved on this, but they aren't showing up for me to approve. Sorry to anyone who thinks i haven't approved them, thats not it..blame youtube. I hope they turn up.
nayomee77 4 years ago
I thought that was really good, except for the last picture. That was a little over the top.
gallowspole 4 years ago
Why did u think it was a little over the top? Did u think i was being unrealistic? Maybe it is only over the top to those who don't understand. This was a way of expressing my thoughts and emotions. If u were in my position or knew my full position in life right now, i doubt u'd say it was over the top.
Anyway glad u liked the rest of it.
nayomee77 4 years ago
why?
xxXNoctisXxx 4 years ago
Nayomee,I'm speechless.This vid touched me deeply.Hang in there girl.The world is a better place with you in it.A lot of us care about you deeply. Believe it. Only time will heal your heart.Your a beautiful person and one day a great guy will realize it.Take care. Beth
HeavensSacrifice 4 years ago
Very powerful and creative.. and disturbing. Maybe perhaps channeling your energy into art can be a way of releasing it. Like a kind of poetry. I hope you have someone to talk to near you..
urbancyclist1 4 years ago
Thanks..i wanted it to come across in a powerful way..but now i think some think it was too powerful. The ending is not what people want to see or know about.
I do like being creative in this kind of way but not often do i feel like doing anything at all.
I don't really have anyone to talk to except my psych. A friend is coming for a little while too.
nayomee77 4 years ago
It is NOT too powerful, Nayomee, people with depth and compassion can understand this, if others do not wish too, or it cuts too deep, perhaps, never mind. You need to do this, and it touched my soul immediatly, and I understood. Hugs.
ElunedLOTR 4 years ago
Hey, lady. This is probably a little more than a project. I swear - right now, I am down there with you. That dark lady is my constant companion as well. I have no advice, because advice is useless. Just know, I am there too. Love ya!
fever103 4 years ago
I know u understand and i'm sorry that u do have to understand such pain.
I really wish for u to feel better, u are an amazing person..u make me laugh, smile and cry. Hold on please girl!
Love ya back XOX.
nayomee77 4 years ago
i must admit i was freaked out a little by this. lol, creativity can be scary sometimes!
TJay9000 4 years ago
I'm sorry if i scared u. The ending i guess is what most people are not happy about. But it wasn't suggesting suicide..it was self harm which i haven't done in a couple of months but i still think of doing it often and want to to take away the emotional pain.
Just wanted to show the reality of how i feel. I'm sure there are many others who feel the same or worse.
Thanks for saying it was creative tho..thats what i was trying to do.
nayomee77 4 years ago
Hey, Nayomee. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Big hugs, Gemm
Gemm73 4 years ago
Thanks for the hugs..i need them! Just wish i had someone to hug in real life.
Hope ur well. *HUGS BACK*
nayomee77 4 years ago
I know you have a brighter side to you! xx
mdekq007 4 years ago
At times i do..but not often now.
This was just something i wanted to show others of how i feel most of the time, especially lately.
nayomee77 4 years ago
very professional looking, the photography was focus perfect..... hope your well, chk out my video thanking you to sending me jules poem competition. thanks once again. tried to message you, but it wouldn't let me, so thanks anwyay.
JohnDoylepoems 4 years ago
Thanks for the nice compliments! I'll check ur vid out soon. Been busy for a while but will watch soon. No probs about sending u the info about Jules comp. I just wanted to help him out.
Take care!!
nayomee77 4 years ago
hang in there, hope you managed to move house ok, take care
mattd28 4 years ago
The move was a nightmare. Big fights..just 1 giant mess.
Thanks and u take care too.
nayomee77 4 years ago
Nayomee, you know I feel for you, but I also agree with lloydhywel, it is creative, very much so, yes, and disturbing, but you do have a whole lot of inner creativity , which has come across in that as well as the pain and the sorrow. Hugs.
ElunedLOTR 4 years ago
I'm sorry if this upset u. I just wanted to show people what it feels like. I noticed u put a vid up the other day but i had to run out and still haven't gotten to watch it..but will soon.
*HUGS*
nayomee77 4 years ago
Fuck.... hope ya start feeling better soon there is light at the end of the tunnell trust me:)
vetz79 4 years ago
Thanks..yeah i really do hope i feel better soon.
I have a photo i took of a tunnel with the light at the end. I look at it often. I just need to get some hooks put in my new place so i can put it on the wall again.
nayomee77 4 years ago
Unquestionably this is disturbing Nayomi but what i take from these stills is your seperation from the essence of you and the pain you carry, recaptured in a creative moment to release the way you feel, deeply and profoundly. I'm sure these images will connect and move many who are fortunate enough to come across this piece and absorb. I only hope you can take strength from this as well. Thank you for sharing.
lloydhywel 4 years ago
May i ask why this was disturbing to u? I'm getting that from a few people. Is it the whole thing? Or just the end picture?
I'm holding on. Have a friend coming to stay with me again in a couple of days, so i'm looking forward to that. Hope ur well.
nayomee77 4 years ago
In the sense that your pain, clearly and explicity carried, frame after frame re-connected myself, to a place i once found myself. Cautiously, i think it is a good thing that you have made this. It is a dark place Nayomee but one i sense you can fly away from in time even if, as with myself, it is never that far away, we can learn to live with it even respect it. Disturbing because it pained me to sense your anguish acutely. Thoughts for you.
lloydhywel 4 years ago
wow, powerful video!
SxYkitten85 4 years ago
Hi good to see ya - hope all is back to normal again - stay safe ;-)
juhler 4 years ago
No offence, but do you think you may be in love being sad?
hyterwhop 4 years ago
hey. hope you're doing ok. take care..
dejuan
dejuanp 4 years ago
Was wondering how you are doing....would love to see a vid of you from your new place.
teeteelaw 4 years ago
I hope this isn't nothing to worry about because that last pic was a little scary. But I guess you're just working on something. Well I hope you're doing ok and I'll stay tuned for your next vid.
TheBluePistol 4 years ago
this is heartbreaking; yet even in such clear mental torment you are exquisite..
x.
rosetintedwishes 4 years ago
Where are these pictures from? How is your new place?
Nimnoms 4 years ago
Hope you are ok and have moved into your new place without too much trouble. Hugs for you.
Willowthebluefairy 4 years ago
Hey nayomee! Long time no see *hugs*
I hope you don't do anything stupid.
katatonickate 4 years ago
I am worried....very disturbing, Naomi. Are you about to do something tragic? G-d forbid! Please get help immediately if you feel as bad as this vid portrays. Life is a precious gift no matter the pain involved.
Fancyfeetz 4 years ago