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  • I just took a handful of pills.

  • Ah, you really are a sweet girl. I wish the best for you.

  • thats why i praise satan,i hear voices at night and then i dont feel so bad....but the hurt restarts IN THE MORNING

  • Love how you told your story - very cre8tive

  • U R THE GR8EST!

  • Thank u so much. I'm crying here.

  • I love the message at the end. You are a very wise 17 year old :)

  • You are inspiring. <3 I wish I had your strength...

  • This viedo rilly enspierd me sorry about the spelling but it rilly did I was tezd all therw school and now and I am 18 yers old and it hard to exsplan but I just want to say thank you

  • Hey, this was a great idea. How old are you??

  • @Brema10 I say how old I am in the first 5 second of my video, ahahah. :P

  • @devilpanic oops sorry, I guess I didn't really start paying attention until a little bit further in... =(. still great though.

  • No one cares about me. My mom and dad both hate me, but they love my sister. I dont wanna talk to anyone because i feel embarrased. I wish death upon myself. I never got an answer from anyone. I cant smile when im at home. I wish someone would kill me because i'm to chicken to do it myself...

  • your parents didnt make you- God did- Jesus has a good plan for your life-

  • I want to kill myself too :) but don't do it

  • @animelovingfreak what??? Are u gonna kill yourself?

  • UR AWESOME!!! IM SUBING TO U YAY

  • Well good for you for being strong. I'm not, so bye.

  • @pinkandpurpleshoes2

    I will as soon as you do.

  • Also, was your boyfriend a muslim?....

  • This is sad! You can get better! You're not alone. Do you do any school activities?

  • C-O-N-G-R-A-T-U-L-A-T-I-O-N-S :D

  • Thank you for sharing your story...

    I understand how you feel, except, I've never had any relationships, bullies have never touched me, I've attempted suicide two or three times now and I don't cut myself because any form of pain or discomfort is too much for a sissy like me to handle.

    (random info)

    I can never fall asleep when I need to (it's 11:31pm) I never feel rested when I wake up (whether I sleep 8 or 12 hours) I always ask why I feel so selfish because I realize that most people are w

  • Call me mean if you want to but personally I think it's selfish to kill yourself. There's so much to live for and fuck what other people say. Yeah ive been picked on before cause I'm BLACK but I never thought to kill myself. I just do better than all those bullies and they hate it to. They never have put a hand on me and if they did I'd go to jail but seriously? Come on guys, don't kill yourself. It's not worth all the pain that comes to others in the Long run. Everyone will go through a rough

  • @NanisNanita Shut up nigger!...

  • you atleast have someone who cares..but not me.My life is done..it will be soon over.Nice vid though..God bless you

  • You are my hero :-)

  • @ThePersonallyRandom shut up...

  • @obscencexxx666 Nigger...

  • @ThePersonallyRandom im white jack ass

  • thanks for making this video. you are beautiful inside and out. !

  • Great Video, touching, moving and soo nice of you to be there for others who are going through what you have been through. So much for someone so young. Youre Great! :)

  • Hate that sing aaagghh

  • I dont know what to say other then I dont like life at this point.

  • good for you!

  • Great video,I know what its to go tru things like this and i also lost one of my best friends last year,He killed himself and no one knows why..I always hide it in front of my friends but i am thinking the same thing.Thankyou for your video,It did help nowing im not the only one thinking there is something wrong with me..I try to keep preocupied with things like playing gigs and stuff but there are some things i know i can never get away from.I hope others can see farther then i do in the future

  • you just saved me...THANK YOU

  • You are a good person

  • I used to be like you, bullied for being different. I used to be that one kid everyone picked on. I used to be that creepy kid who listens to 'satanic' music. I used to be you. All through High School I was bullied, it was so bad I dropped out and got my GED. Now I have 6 Certifications in IT, and Im in the Army. Those kids who bullied me are nowhere to be found. The only one I know of who bullied me is spending the rest of his life in prison. I may have been bullied, but now I do the bullying.

  • arg i cant use youtube right on my kindle so i cant inbox you. mind listening to my story ? its kinda hard to tell people i know:/

  • Why thank you...so much 3

  • I had to come back and watch this again...to stop myself...thank you so much for making this video....love the songs you used by the way, i didn't think anyone else knew them...here...email me at moosejj48@gmail.com...if you want i mean...i just need someone to talk to...

  • @xhellsxsorrow666x I inboxed you my lovely YouTube user :) message me back and tell me what's been wrong lately! D: I'd love to listen.

  • Se it stopped me from killing myself some how...i lowered the gun...idk...i loved the way you told the story, if you had been speaking...i don't think it would have touched me like it did...so thank you...you may have just saved my life...idk...inbox me please...i'm using a phone so it doesn't give me the option to.....

  • @xhellsxsorrow666x I'm so glad you stopped to watch this my dear. You are not alone <3

  • I came here to find a song about killing myself...i saw the title, and saw it was a person, and decided to check it out, our stories are extremely similar, i'm sorry those people did what they did to you, you seem really nice and not fat at all, actually, you're cute. But anyways...I came looking for a song because I had a gun to my temple, and I wanted a song to match the feeling and what I was about to do...but I stopped to look at this video before I did it...and I guess I'm glad I did becau

  • Thank you..

  • @mandaaduuh <3

  • I get so depressed its like a dark tunnel that never ends and I have no one

  • Hay im from Vancouver to

  • this video is actually amazing <3

  • This video is inspirational, touching, and moral. It shows to people that others understand what they're going through, and they've made it through. Even to the people who've never been bullied, it sheds light on how effective their actions can be. I wish you the best and thank you for being brave enough to help others. Live, Love, Believe.

  • Hi devilpanic =] Cheer up k?? U ok now?? i've been bullied too , it was rly depressing , i have no true frens at all.. it was saddening for me , but i've bare it till the end , everything are ok now =] I got new frens,new hopes and new goals . I hope that u r feeling better now =] God Bless You!

  • Your not remotely fat.. Lol

  • I love how u suddenly changed the music to a persona song lol

  • @itzKellyTime Yesss finally someone understood the Persona song. I <3 Persona.

  • Same here

  • Chill dam kids

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  • @SuperM1998 Kid, you're only 14. 

  • @devilpanic lol it was joke :)

  • @SuperM1998 Never, ever, EVER fucking joke about suicide you stupid little twat. For every 1 person who kills themselves, 30 people around the world attempt suicide. Someone kills themselves every 40 seconds. With THAT many people wishing they could die, or dying, we don't need your immature little fucking ass boohooing falsely that you want to kill yourself.

    It's people like you that make me sick. Fuck off.

  • @devilpanic man i loved your vid...but after i read your comment...now i really wanna kill myself...i though u are nice person...those who were bullying you, were right...you are not nice :(

    why u ruined my perfect day?

    i was just kidding, but no...ok that shows what kinda person u are...

  • @SuperM1998 No, one comment on YouTube does not show what kind of person I am. You are just like a bully, judging someone without getting to know them. Perhaps you should look at what you're joking about before deciding that I'm "mean." You are kidding about people killing themselves. You are kidding about being depressed. When you're older you will understand how wrong this is. For now, shut your mouth and stop commenting on my videos.

  • @devilpanic mhmm...im in that mood lots of times...anyways sorry ok?

    i was dumb:D i take everything back...i need to apolagize:)

    im sorry...

  • You are so sexy!

  • •_•

  • Sweetheart, you are not fat at all. That is a ridiculous notion and whoever said it is an idiot.

  • i am in 5 class and hate my life im bullied but when i saw you'r message you changed my mind i have had many shanses of taking my life but always when i almost do it i think to my self why should i do it only for these jerks in class so i never do it now the guys in my class are much more nice to me hope you respond to this message im swedish btw

  • Metaphorical suicide? BRILLIANT!

  • @Gerald360halowowness Can't tell if you're being serious or sarcastic, but thank you either way. :P

  • that is really true. Thanks for uplading this video.. It helped me alot. I'm feeling better now

  • any one who commented on this complaining about it, needs to grow up. she doesnt need to get over her self. you do. shes trying to help.. leave her alone.

  • wow, i dont have any of these problems, but this was very touching. :)

  • Big like :)

  • this bought me some time...im only in 8th grade,i cant imagine high school :(

  • i need u to help me!

  • can i have your email address i just don't fell very comfortable spilling the beans in front of so many people, by the way, "mad world" awesome song, kinda trippy ;)

  • @trevdog110 everythings a game to someone when teyre the ones who r winning. I agree people must try to get over their problems but you werent being blunt you were being a careless shit bag. Ur gonna be the guy who grows up an has a child that commits suicide because to u everything is "get ove urself/it" not caring about anything at all doesnt constitute being a douche bag

  • Whats her email.. I needa talk to her .. I needc

  • When I'm off my pill I go crazy I can't control myself and if I sleepover my friend don't wanna be my friend anymore when I grow up I just know that I'm gonna smoke I'm gonna take drugs and do alot of other things I CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF I just wish I could die

  • @Amy24x7Official i wish i could die to :( but everyone says its get better..i guess im still waiting for that

  • I weigh 70 pounds and get.made fun og alot I cant helo myself when im off my pill nor control myself...i dont want to live

  • Im skinny and I get looked at alot I weigh 70 ib

  • I have adhd I want to kill myself I'm 11

  • Everyone has their issues. Get over yourself, stop blaming others and overcome your problems on your own. I hate to be "mean", but it's the blunt truth. I'm talking directly to people who exagerate their life dilemas in attempt to give everyone a guilt trip.

  • @trevdog110 I didn't blame anyone in this video. And I'm still alive, aren't I? This video was made to serve an example to those who are in my shoes and need to know to hold on.

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  • i was picked on since 1st grade and i was chubby because i had a disorder and i still have it and im still big but i wanted to comit suicide a couple of weeks ago because i was moved 2ooo miles away from everyone i grew up with and knew and the guy i fell in love with after talking to him for 2 minutes i never told him i cry to sleep every night but i knew theres 2 people that will be here for me no matter what i love my family and friends to much to hurt them by taking my life

  • I hope you smile for many years to come and remember your own video if you ever go through tough times.

  • Someone Inbox Me €¥£

  • Thank you.. this actually helped me because I felt like the only one in the world who felt like this.. I too was first being pick on in 4th grade and I have gotten in multiple fights over this topic though out my life . I also sing dance, act, and play video games, as I have seen you do in other vids of your, and I too thought high school would be better but it was almost the same....so now that there is some I can relate to there seems to be a small light at the end of a terrible path. Soo tha

  • @DuffmanCPT That's what I'm here for, m'dear. If you ever need to talk, drop me an inbox! ^_^

  • i feel so sorry for you and i hop you have a good life now and you have really nice friends and i care about you that tunch my heart alot. do you want to be friends and i live in wa my friend killed his self and i was sad for months i didnt go to school for along time well ever thinks better now so thats good i hope you have a good live and have alot of good friends good luck to the future

  • DO IT FAGGOT

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  • R.I.P. what a beautiful soul

  • i wish it was not all bad times but i just dont know how to do this

  • i wis i did not have to fell like this

  • i like ur video but i have a hard life and i want to kill my self no one will miss me

  • @devilpanic what, by writing words on 60 sheets of paper set to that sad song off of donnie darko? tell me you didn't do that because you thought you were being "deep". get over yourself; you just want to be some wise galpally agony aunt to some silly little girls on youtube with some silly little invented problems.

    do you know how many people your age think they have it tough? fucking all of you!

  • @moralreef Mad World was the first song I ever learned to play on piano. Music is a huge part of my life. It's not being deep, it's personalizing my video. Maybe you should consider what the song MEANS to a person before jumping to conclusions. And secondly, I chose to write on paper because I could not organize my thoughts otherwise. I'm not good with speaking to people. This was easier for me. Take your misguided misanthropy somewhere else, you're just looking like a fucking idiot.

  • @devilpanic i'm sorry the time on which to prepare a talk in this context is pretty much as long as you can; i'm calling bullshit on not being able to organizing your thoughts in any other way than what you thought that you were trying to be artistic but failing for hilariously bad effect.

    blah blah blah "what a song MEANS to a person" extraneous bullshit blah blah blah who fucking cares.

    and for the record i'm really, really not looking like an idiot in this situation, hahahaha

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  • @devilpanic  please some one message me back

  • @moralreef

    Get over yourself? Did you even read the fucking cards? You're a stupid cunt, she was abused horribly and had many tragic experiences you can't even begin to imagine.

  • @MrFunxy what bad boyfriends and bullies? every girl has those!

  • @moralreef

    Not all girls suffer such unbelievable abuse you idiot. She was fucking beaten.

  • @MrFunxy yes, yes they do. its called being in a fight; something very, VERY common at school

  • @moralreef

    You're pathetic

  • @moralreef

    Why would you come onto a video like this to abuse her? She's offering help to those who are vulnerable and you're attacking her for it. Get out.

  • @MrFunxy not abuse, education

  • @moralreef

    You have clearly never had such experiences, you are not at all educated in this area. You are blatantly ignorant, attacking someone on a suicide video? What's fucking educated about that you idiot!?

  • @MrFunxy why are assuming i wasn't beaten up and targeted at school? i have ginger hair for christs sake. these problems relate to literally everyone and it is pointless being this melodramatic.

  • @MrFunxy actually, can you please not bother replying now? i'm really really bored with you and your whiteknighting

  • @moralreef

    Why would you come onto this video to abuse her when she's told her tragic tale, *which isn't easy*, and offered help to others. You would attack her for that? Well done, you're a disgusting person.

  • @moralreef

    Why would you come onto this video and abuse her when she's told her tragic tale *which isn't easy* and offered help to others? Congratulations, you're a disgusting person.

  • @moralreef Maybe you should shut up, you have no idea what it's like to be between life and death!

  • @MrKartoffelmos neither do you; you hysterical child

  • @moralreef You don't know me, so shut the fuck up

  • @MrKartoffelmos erm... no?

  • you killed like 60 trees

  • this video helped some but it still feels like no one care my life sucks ive been kicked out of my house about 6 time in one month for speaking my feeling and suside is my frist thing i think about everyday when i.get told tht im worthless and everything else

  • did you steal this from that film love actually

  • Nice hate comments by the way hating on a girl whos putting herself out there ... Your fuckin scum

  • @420BIOHAZARD420 she has to learn sooner or later. she'll be embarrassed of this soon enough.

  • @moralreef why would someone be embarrassed about creating awareness? Not everyone is selfish and self-centered like you...

  • @WITJessica09 because its really, really fucking embarrassing to watch? and nothing i have said has anything to do with selfishness or narcissism.

  • @moralreef No, I am not embarrassed of sharing my past with people. Stop being a jerk.

  • @devilpanic only when you stop clamouring for attention

  • @moralreef If simply putting myself and part of my story out there for people to relate to and possibly gain something from is "clamouring for attention", I don't want to know what you think isn't being "attention seeking". Honestly I haven't been replying to many of these comments. I've been replying to people inboxing me for help. Yes, this video is actually HELPING PEOPLE so maybe you should stop trying to sound high and mighty on the internet.

  • Really powerful when you said permenent solution to tenporary problem .. good job

  • whats the song in the start

  • @rwlexington2003 Gary Jules - Mad World

  • Just make sure you do good at school and everything will be fine

  • Thank you for making this video <3

  • you shouldn't listen to these people they dont mean anything if u need a talk im always around for everyone

  • Suicidal bitches deserve to die. If they want to go and kill themselves, and waste such a precious thing as life... and hurt everyone around them... if they are really THAT selfish, then they deserve to die.

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  • I find it funny because everyone who has been or is being Bullied need to UNDERSTAND you need to get help or its the same fucking problem...Dont killl yourself over some worthless piece of shits who dont understand.most of the time they dont realize that they hurt you so much you need to at least try to create a conversation and tell them that it is wrong because you were about to kill yourself dont killyourself every good person has a million reason to live dont kill yourself its not worth it<3

  • Great video. Ignore the immature sad people, their statements are 100% invalid. Only stay focused on constructive criticism.

  • thanks for the video, the part about you saying someone cares actually made me tear up, and im a guy! but the point is: thank you, i felt alot better after watching this

  • thank you sweet heart God Bless you.

  • puberty.flv

  • I would beat her too if she used 50$ worth of my paper.

  • kill yourself 

  • @HunterLunter If you have nothing nice to write, then dont comment. Get some fucking respect...

  • That was hilarious, you just made my day!

  • That's a lot of paper you wasted.

    Poor trees.

    They could've been put to better use.

    I don't get why you couldn't have just talked.

  • @DinorawrG9x I wouldn't call it "wasted"

    I used the paper to make origami afterwards :3

    Anyways I tried talking. I either started to cry, went into far too much detail, or stammered/paused a lot. I'm awkward as fuck. Take a look at my Sign Language video and tell me how many times I say "um". It's painful :(

  • @DinorawrG9x I don't understand why you just wanna criticize!! I bet you'd save paper before you would a dying kid...you jerk!

  • Take no notice of all these wankers saying shit about you mate, they are just complete fuck ups to say crap like that to someone They know nothing about, you seem a real sweet lass to me and I know how you feel, Best wishes from England :-)

  • @Beanaka Thank you kind sir! I don't really care about mean comments, I mean these guys obviously don't know that I've heard and seen it all so their comments mean nothing, haha :P

  • I have same story but diffrent i almost killed myself :( but then i wuz in a other group with nice children... And now i have a GF!

  • great video keep up the good work

  • Btw I'm only 13

  • I have tried to 5 time I'm such a failure lol I'm at where u were over the summer I was in the hospital most of the time because I about lost all of my blood I have no friend my mom and dad don't even know I love with them till my sister and I have to leave to the other ones house still think some one cares?

  • @MJL3354 stop lying

  • great stuff  from a 38 year old english man living in that dark place at the moment

  • you shouldve killed your self,dumb cunt

  • @NYpUnk914

    Nice cabbage hair, fruitcup.

  • "I tried to kill myself"

    *happy music plays*

  • @doghouse144 The happier music was timed with "My friends visited me."

  • well then, trying to make people feal sorry for you... o.O some do but there just other emos probs, i used to be shy, but i changed cuz i was bored haveing like one friend, then i opend up, o.O so... i think you are being a bitch, we dident want you to tell us all what you said, you could of just said, '' its ok life will get better'' insted of literaly giving us you life story hoe!, well i think my work here is done, bad bad choice of mkusic btw, it dident make me feal sad at alll... :p >:)