like u said that its hard to relate and understand what you go through when u have anxiety but how are ways are things i could do a a gf to help my bf with controlling and being supportive of my bfs anxiety....?
Wow I didn't realize how many people had anxiety and depression! I don't feel so alone anymore! I've had people who don't understand it tell me to "get over it" or because I actually am not afraid to talk about it, because talking about it helps, they call me a liar and say that if I really had it I wouldn't talk about it or that if I really had it I'd be on meds! I can't afford them and I hate the way they make me feel! But sometimes I feel like it gets so out of control and wish I was on them!
I cant tell you how much this has helped me... thank you so so much for posting this. i can totally relate and this helps me through my anxiety and depression even more. *subscribed :)
I like the vid and you explained everything very well. I suffer from anxiety and depression very bad. It has controlled my life for quite some time now. I believe I'm manic depressive but not diagnosed or anything. By the way you are cool. hopefully I will do some vlogging about my depression and anxiety soon. Thanks and hope you are finding some peace of mind.
Depression, Anxiety are simply the 2 worst feelings ever EVER, it's like u die every second , also i have ocd, but ocd with thought not rituals, when I hit Rock bottom, i went to a very very good psychiatrist, who gave me the SSRI cipralex, it's called cipralex here in the middle east and Lexapro in usa, i got gradually better day by day, until im 99% cured and back to normal today thank god, exercising (mainly cardio) and Fish oil HELPED A LOOOT, it gave an additive effect to the awesome med
i could understand the envy of u but i think its more of jealusy of not being in ur shoes... some poeple don't even get the right in life to cry and have someone care i mean trully since were subcribing and such u have alota poeple that care for u and love u and even tho its on the web ...personally most don't even get that. So keep up the goodwork everything changes in time so.
I have even more respect for you after watching this video. I've suffered silently for YEARS and have really just got the courage to tell my family about my struggle. It's a complete uphill battle, but it's one I want to take on. There have been countless times were feel like I could end it all, but just talking about it even the tiniest bit and knowing that I'm not alone has given me the push in the right direction. Thank you for opening up.
thank u so much for your video.It brought me to tears because it was like myself talking about how Ive felt since the day i could remember. Thanks a million time stay strong!
Girl... you are awesome. I really admire you, Im a hetero but you are like... I feel you are a pure soul and I feel kind of connected with you! My exbf is bipolar and I know how big is the struggle for this kinds of mental deseases... much love!
If you have an open mind, I think you should youtube abraham hicks. Someone very close to me suffered from severe panic disorder and this has helped him a lot.
Everything you said about Panic attacks spoke to me specifically. I have both panic attack and depression. I'm tons better now then when I was diagnosed. I'm just glad to hear someone who has similar problems to my own dealing with them.
Hey, I wondered what types of therapies have you tried? Did you follow them through to the end or stopped half way through? I'm not from the states, so I am not familiar with therapies where you are, but in England there are fewer therapies as there is much more regulation. I have been told by a Pyschiatrist that the most effective treatment for anxiety and depression is Cognitive and Behavioural Therapy - have you tried this at all? Thank you for your honesty in your video.
You're very brave & inspiring to post a video about this. Thank you for sharing your story with us:] This is just inspiring me more to make my own videos soon!
My problem now is combating the energy levels and pain from my depression. The physical effects are worst than the mental for me now. How did you overcome that feeling where u just don't want to face the world today. Demotivation of everything in life.
Wow I'm so glad u made this. O have mild anxiety n depression bc of meds. My first panick attack I was having n argument n a car. I suddently cldnt breath I started crying n my heart started racing n became dizzy. This was a bad situational anxiety n I am out that marriage. I still have hereditary anxiety n depression where I feel in inadequate which has really slowed me down with my artwork. Now I am at a point where when bad things happen I just pray about it n it has helped. yeah no dwelling.
Thank you so much for making this video. I suffer from anxiety and depression and I have always been ashamed of it. I feel better knowing that I am not alone.
Panic attacks are the worst. It is the most intensely fearful feeling in the world. It's really indescribable. I've learned that if I just cry, most of the time it goes away......and I don't have to go to the emergency room -_- I'm a recovering alcoholic/ recovering bulimic with a personality disorder. Excercise and therapy helps me so much, but some days waking up feels like the beginning of a nightmare. Thanks for this vid. Makes me feel less alone. Also, I love your vids.
I love this video! I suffer with panic attacks and depression too. It was just awesome to hear your experience because mine is very similar and it was great to hear that i am not alone and that someone understands what i am going through. Thank you so much!
Wow. U almost made me cry! I'm not really open about the way iam thought most of the time I feel alone and sad because I really don't talk of the way I feel.
Kitty! (Sorry, I will now watch the rest of your vlog xD) I have anxiety too, which made me depressed. I haven't been at school for six years and am just starting to get my life back together..
listen to this song by Mother's Finest - title "Love Changes",
anxiety and depression is basically stemming from an unbalance in your navel chakra/solar plexus. by sitting upright, closing your eyes, bring attention to the center where the problem and pain of the past is in, and bring that pain to life, and face it again, and it will gradually dissolve, and it will burn as that area is your fire, and that pain will be gone, a tough process but very worthwhile.
Blitzzz, ur the bomb. I think your frankness is cathartic.
My hubby's buddy once told him "You stress over some weird $hit." Everybody does. What freaks out one person might not bother another and vice versa. It's how we deal with the stress that counts.
If we're honest I think every one of us has wanted to die and be free of whatever torments us. Panic attacks are NO FUN! Been there.
Our animals have lessons for us. Your cat chillaxes just like mine. Sometimes Iwe should imitate them ;)
Im really openminded about Anxiety & Depression ,,, I have bi-polar with schizoaffective disorder,,I have to take meds everyday just to live a normal life !!! Sometimes it is so hard to deal with,,,that you can get lost in your fears,, you just have to remember you're perfect the way you are
wow i just went to the doctor because i was having chest pains and trouble breathing and they asked if i had anxiety. and ive always suffered from depression and anxiety, but have never really caught it in the act. it always just happens, it's so normal to me. seeing this video has def opened my eyes about anxiety attacks. i have the symptoms you explained so it was meant to be for me to find you. thanx so much for posting this, youre cool as fuck! ;)
your just like me. I've dealt with so many rough experiences. On the outside i seem like an ordinary girl, but in the inside i have fears of getting symptoms of my schizoaffective disorder. I've learned to cope very well in stressful times, and to also, not let ppls judgments get the best of me. Remember to stay strong and always keep progressing. <3333
my next step: going to a concert. ( i know Im about to be twenty and I never went to a concert....but guess what. I went to sixflags lol and I didnt let my S.A.D keep me from having fun. I wish you luck Blitzz. Lets kick anxiety in the ass and keep moving!
Anxiety is like a fear that you didnt know about and it is just sooo controlling. depression just comes from the fact that your anxiety isnt letting you live freely. the way you want to.... at least thats how it is for me sometimes. Ive definitely learned the best the way to beat my fears is to face them all the time! if I let up it comes back, but if I keep fighting everyday. it becomes less of a struggle. . I have what my shrink called Social anxiety disorder( S.A.D really)
i suffer from depression, anxiety and other mental issues.. i've subscribed to your channel because i think you make great videos. keep going.. you really make a difference to people.. i've just started my own channel and i know it takes a lot of guts to do this, so a big thumbs up to you and this video
I suffer from depression and anxiety also. Mine is is hereditary and it got worse when an event that took place n my life. My Friends don't suffer from depression and they cnt understand y I don't want to do things thy don't understand y I'm also ways so sad..ive wanted to commit many times.. I'm now on meds for anxiety and depression and I'm also very slowly getting better.. This video was very touching.
The part where you cried made me cried. I don't know you, but I think you are strong because of doing this video. It has to be known world wide and every single person needs to realize it's an disease and not something you want attention with. Some people still think that and that's sad because if they walk in your or someone elses shoes they would understand it. So it's very important, I think, that everybody knows about it. Be brave, stay strong! <3
thank you fo sharing this julia. it's so hard to make yourself vulnerable and tell people so much and i can't imagine being so brave. I honestly hope that you overcome your issues once and for all and lead a happy and wonderful life.
you are my insperation.i am only 16.and i have panic disorder and anxiety.the feeling of it is so unexplainable that its hard for people to understand.i have never been able to experience the "teenager" life.i have always been the girl no one wanted to take to a party because she would have a attack.i am very fortunate to have a boyfriend who understands somewhat how i feel.but even so he still has times when he asks me,why can you just tell yourself its ok?..because...i FEEL as if its not..
you are an incredible, strong person and i really want to thank you for putting up a video talking about these struggles. you are a beautiful person inside and out, we could use more people like you in the world! (hopefully this comment doesn't seem creepy haha, i just really admire your determination and courage)
In my personal experience, the more I thought of my depression as an illness the worse I felt. The idea of it being a disorder took my power away. When I came to the realization that I could control my thoughts and feelings I began to feel better. Now I have come to view my depression as a bad habit that I eventually kicked. Don't get me wrong, it was the hardest thing to do but I think you need to start by taking control and not relying on others to fix what's happening in your own head.
@itsblitzzz - I am sure you have heard many, many things, but if you ever want to have a discussion, you can send me a message. I would love to talk with you about mortality and immortality. It can be quite a touchy subject, so I don't want to pressure you into anything. Just want to let you know that I care about you and what happens after you die.
hi julia, I have anxieties and depression too as you can see from my videos I am pretty held back. In the beginning, I couldn't handle my anxieties and as a result it lead to depression, I'm learning to cope better now just learning to be more positive I know it's easier said than done but you could try a few things, I do daily hypnosis and regular morning runs and taking a hot shower etc.... it actually helps:) take care girl you have many people supporting you here!
I love the fact that you are so open and so knowledgeable about the topics you discussed in the video as well in your responses to comments. Being able to educate people, especially those who have a loved one suffering from something they can't understand, is very helpful. Thank you for being a bad ass we can relate to, love your kitty cat too looks just like mine :)
Thank you so much for making this video. You are a strong person for talking about it and uploading it to the world. I haven't been diagnosed with anything but i do believe that i either have or borderline have some form of depression. I often feel sad or alone no matter who is around me or what's going on. Its a really intense feeling and I'm glad to know that i am not the only person who feels this.
Thanks for talking about this... i deal with social anxiety and most def dwell on things from my past... not good, like u said! Im starting to dig deep and find whats stresses me out and leads to my depression, i was talking to my mom about it and now your talking about it... must be a sign that i need to deal with this shit like NOW!
thanks for sharing been dealing with panic/anxiety attacks and the depression it has brought me mines began fall 2005 went away in 2007 but came back with a vegeance fall 2010 and its been a living hell since , worse is wake up in the morn with late afternoon and night time being my calm time usually.
Thanks for sharing your experiences with us. I have a health condition that leads to many anxiety disorders, including a serious depression. Believe it or not, but I've spent years without leaving my house. Completely dependent on my family. But now I'm gathering a lot of information about health. I've changed everything in my life style and I feel so much better. I am meditating, exercising, eating healthier and also challenging myself to do the things I fear the most. I am a new me.
@itsblitzzz I had no idea that my brain is THAT different! That's actually really cool. :)
Yeah, you're right! My councelor calls them "tears of futility." And once they're out you can deal with things with a clear(er) head. I've also found that talking about my struggles with people in the same boat as me helps A LOT. Because I'm using my experiences to help other people, while sorting through my thoughts and feelings, getting REAL with shit. Hooray for feeding two birds with one scone. ;D
I really admire you for speaking about these I deal wiht OCD and depresion since I have 14, im now 24 and the past week was very dificult for me,It is a struggle, but at least I know there are others out there, who understand. I also go to the acumpunture and its been very very helpful is so cool you do to.
YES. Thank you for this. I've had panic attacks off and on for several years. You hit so many points I relate to, one most recent for me is realizing I receive a lot of compliments on my looks from people who have no idea how I feel inside (even though I see/accept my outer beauty). I remember the compliments and I always give thanks but the compliments aren't always welcome, when I want to blend in. <3 B
@xExorcist0Rikkux I HATE needles too, I swear - The reason it took me so long to try acupuncture in the first place was because of my perpetual needle fear! Acupuncture needles are very thin and are very superficial meaning they do not penetrate the skin deeply....It actually feels kind of neat when they go in, similar to when someone plays with your hair....I know that sounds weird but it is a similar sensation to me. By the way....I still cry when I get shots! XO
I'm 17, i havnt been diagnosed with depression by a doctor, but have it. I dislike when people say that when they arnt diagnosed, but I've had this since I was little, my worst triggers school, i assosiate much bad feeling with it which makes daily life difficult. You are very strong. I've always wondered if people with anxiety problems could try to tern mild anxiety into excitment to calm it in some situation, if you could try and assosiate excitement with a gesture?
You mentioned psychology vs psychiatry, psychologists are more about talking and counselling where as psychiatrists are doctors first and counsellors second, who (unfortunately) are very eager to prescribe medication. I encourage anybody and everybody going through a hard time to see a psychologist, because a bad psychiatrist can ruin you chemically (through a bad/wrong prescription), the worst a bad psychologist can do is...nothing.
Thank you for filming this and posting it. You are right, people cannot understand unless they have experienced it, but that goes for pretty much everything. And your cat was being absolutely adorable through out the whole thing lol.
I think it is really hard to mentally accept that we have these disorders. I always wonder how my life would be if I didn't have to cope with anxiety and depression. But after opening up to my family and my friends, and really showing them how it affects me has made life so much more easier. It's also a comforting feeling to know that I'm not the only one who has these struggles by watching videos like yours on Youtube, it is truly inspiring!!
I'm so glad you made this video! I think it's important for more people to really be aware of anxiety and panic attacks. I've had quite a hard time explaining to a lot of people why I have panic attacks and it's because they've never heard of it and it probably sounds a bit bogus to them when they've never experienced anything quite like it.
Thank you for this! Nobody can really understand it if they haven't dealt with it. I would have dealt with it a long time ago if people hadn't told me it was nothing. I don't know why people can't realize they are real disorders.
Thank you for posting this. I've struggled with anxiety and depression most of my life, and early on (and even now) I still get the "oh, it's all in your head, just calm down" reaction, which just makes it that much harder to deal with. It is a struggle every day, but at least I know there are others out there who DO get it, who understand. Thank you.
It's great that you had the courage to make this video. So many people think of anxiety and depression as a terrible weakness, but that sort of thinking only perpetuates the problem and keeps them stuck. I've struggled with social anxiety and depression for a long time partially due to the fact that I have a hard time coming to terms with it. You're a total badass!
Thanks so much for this video. Not only does it offer so much insight to you as a person, but also it is very informative. I think there are so many people that could benefit from watching this. (Not only people that have the issues you have discussed, but also people who tend to look down on those with depression and/or anxiety.) You are brave, and bighearted! May you continue to conquer every obsticle!
Thank you so much for making this video Julia! Its so nice to see that were not alone in this. You've already helped out tremendously just by making this video. So again, thank you!!
Generally, what causes u to have panic/anxiety attacks? I have had ONE panic attack in my life and I don't wish that on my worst enemy...like u said I literally thought I was about to DIE! I did not know what was goin on..*scary* for sure!
Thank you for the video. My teen son is dealing with anxiety right . As his mom, it is affecting me & my husband. We feel helpless. I know diet & exercise is key to getting better. I don't believe that pharmaceuticals are the answer. Dr Mercola did a video on anxiety & depression. Krill oil, Vitamin D, exercise & not eating sugar are the main things he recommended. A Bikram studio just opened up near our house & I'll have to drag my son there with me. Accupuncture seems promising too. Will try.
I know what you mean about being suddenly more aware and fearful of death. But I got over it a little when I accepted it as one of those things you can't really help or worry about, you've just got to live your life now and do what you do. Great video, very insightful :)
You have no idea how much I appreciate you making a video like this. I know I have said this before but you inspire me so much to accept myself for who I am. You helped me understand what many of my friends are going through. Thank you so much.
thanks for talking about this. it's good to know that other people understand these issues. i also am a dweller, i will sike myself out of doing things, because i will worry about all the bad things that could happen and i end up not doing said thing. but afterwards i wish i would've just done it, and regret the fact that i let my brain do that to me again. if that makes sense lol
Continued, the only person in my life is my dog and i am very greatful for that , very thankful becasue she is the reason i breath , but literally my 3 friends did die and my husband left me for a big cow , and I truly have no one, if it was not for you tube I would not communicate with anyone ever, anxiety is horrid for me I have severe panic disorder and ocd , gosh we are both really tall , thin and kinda nutty , but i love your honesty wish you lived near cuz i would love to know you live
@MyPinkRainbow Hi Georgia! I checked out your channel and was really interested in some of the things you had to say! I can relate to your trichotillomania videos because I used to pull my hair out constantly when I was younger. Looking back, I feel like I was on the verge of developing full blown trichotillomania, although at the time I was unfamiliar with the disorder by its formal name...Luckily I was able to break those habits before they spiraled out of control, but from time to time...
...I still have impulses to rip my hair out because I get so stressed! Anyways, I am very sorry to hear about your anxiety and some of your misfortunes....I can certainly understand how you feel! I am glad to hear about your canine friend - I don't know what I would do without my cats either! Sounds like you go through anti-social phases like me too....Sometimes I quarantine myself in my house for days at a time! Make sure you are making time for yourself to go out and do things! XO
great video, I am the same way as you , I have been struggling with this my whole life and sometimes I think I just cant go on any more and I see a video like yours and I dont feel alone, I have so much i want to share with the world but I have just been so sad latley and hurt inside , I am very lonely right now , and this is the first time in my life I have just been Georgia , and suicide is so touchy , i pray for some one to just say hello to me and i go for weeks and no one says anythingto me
When I was little, I went into therapy for almost a year to help me deal with the panic attacks I was getting from separation anxiety and agoraphobia. It was to the point where I didn't want to leave the house except for school. My panic attacks were just like the ones you described and it was so, SO scary. Thankfully, I was able to get things under control, and it only gets better over time.
I'm so glad there's someone on YouTube who's dealt with the same issues as me. Thank-You!
However i would be very affraid to die if you havent accepted Jesus as your savior because life will literally be Hell for you for eternity.The great thing is he gave us a choice.Im only sharing this with you because i experienced being saved and it was truley awesome!! Better then any drug or anything of this earth and all your anxiety and fear can be a thing of the past just for asking.
Hey, I know your a really smart person by listening to you but have never heard your opinion on faith.Do you believe in God? Im not here to preach to you but listening to you talk about affraid to die and stuff make me wonder where you stand.I wont tell you what you should believe in or should do but i will tell you from my personal experience i have no doubt that God does exist and Jesus is very real.I also know that there is nothing to fear including death when you give your life to God.
@wasp7269 I understand that you left this comment with good intentions, but you do realize that you are pushing your beliefs, right? If there is a god, I truly believe that he is accepting of ALL individuals no matter what their background, ethnicity, religion, or beliefs are. The idea that we are sent into a burning fiery pit of doom for utilizing our RIGHT to engage in the freedom to CHOOSE what we believe in, is ABSOLUTELY absurd. Laughable at that...
@itsblitzzz I guess i got my answer cause if you believed in God or Hell you wouldnt say something like that.The fear of dying is nothing compared to what Hell will be like.It took me a long time to come around and your still young,i will pray you dont die before you change your mind.I have nothing to lose for being wrong but you have everything to lose if your wrong.God gave me proof on Aug 18th 2007 and i hope he does the same for you.It wont be laughable when you die.God bless ya
This.. just.. thank you. I know how hard it is to talk about these sensitive issues. I have severe OCD&depression, it has not been easy. I've had OCD my whole life. Yesterday and today have been so hard for me. Honestly, I logged on to youtube just now to possibly find something that would disctract me, take me out of my head. When I saw this video by breath caught & my jaw dropped. After watching, I cried out the feelings of defeat. I know I'm not alone. I can rebuild now. Thank you for that.
@TaetrrTot OCD is actually really interesting from a scientific stand point...Did you know that people with OCD have an extra circuit in their brain which can be seen on a cat scan? To me, that is very intriguing - you should read more about your disorder, you may learn some interesting facts which may also help familiarize you with OCD and why you are experiencing it. I do not have the standard ticks that are characteristic of OCD, but I obsess over things constantly to the point where....
...they interfere with my life. Also, as corny as it sounds, sometimes crying things out really helps...Almost like you are eradicating my system of the negative energy so you can start fresh! I can totally relate. It's not always easy to look at things from a positive perspective, but if you try to take the "glass half full" approach whenever possible, it really makes a HUGE difference. Hang in there! XO
1st off I just want to comment on how much guts you have as a big youtuber to talk about this personal stuff. Most other youtubers try to stay far away from personal matters for understandable reasons. Just making this video showing us your vulnerability just shows us how much of a bad ass you are.
My boyfriend suffers from chronic depression and, even though I can't ever fully relate watching this gave me a whole new insight into anxiety and depression, so I would like to thank you for that.
I still deal with my depression and I'm still get anxiety when I'm around people I dont know but at least I have hope now. If I can go through this and live to tell my story then I'm must be a stronger person than I thought I was. Meds are good for certain people but I think the medical community needs to not depend on using this method to cure all people with some type of mental illness or disorder or whatever the prefered term is. It will always be a strungle for everyone.
@Pinkmafia90 Western medicine & the pharmaceutical industry, while very beneficial to some, is based on capitalism, which is a VERY frustrating FACT. That is the reason why so many people are on drugs who do not NEED to be. For anxiety and depression, there are always alternative solutions! Yes, drugs do help some people (I am one of them) but doctors definitely abuse their power to write prescriptions - really bothers me especially when the patient is very young.
I ended up going back to the hospital not long after the first time since my therapis sucked and I wasnt taught how to deal with my emotions. After many meds, sessions at therapy, etc. etc., I decided to get off my meds cause I missed feeling emotions. It was like I was pysically there but mentally gone. Everyone I knew said I looked emotionless and dead. I went through withdrawl for a while but I'm doing better now then I've ever done before. I find keeping myself busy helps alot.
It's good to be reminded that you're not alone when it comes to issues like this. The past couple of years has been a life of hell for me and I ended up in a psychiatric hospital couple of months ago after trying to committe suicide in front of my now fiance. Unfortionally I didnt get the help I needed over there and it was the worst experience I've ever had. The doctors gave me really strong meds to the point that days would pass and I wouldn't remember a thing. I was basically a zombie.
on facebook u said u were recording ur 100th vid n i was so excited while deep down inside i was going through some things n here is ur vid talking about anxiety n depression as if it were a sign for me to get help. thank u so much for this ur courage has helped me accept things i never thought i had the strengh to.
Aw you are so inspiring, I really loved it. I know how you feel too, but in the end you know who your true friends and family are and appreciate them even thought it gets tough to be around them. <3 Keep posting videos Ms Baddass :)
Been following you for a while now and its the first comment I ever wrote... Its amazing to see how people all over the world experience the same difficulties.
Really admire your courage to post such personal thing.
Being someone struggling with anxiety I just want to thank you for being so open. I am just coming to a point now where I have decided to stop lying and making excuses to the people around me and start trying to explain anxiety disorders to them instead. It is very intimidating and it helps to see someone who does so so confidently.
@haliereed TOTALLY have been there before - I remember literally convincing myself that I was not depressed, just sad....all the time. When you reach the point where you are able to recognize your disorder and come to terms with it, that is a HUGE step - First step to getting better! Once you can stop hiding from yourself, you can then focus your energy on conquering your fears and finding ways to make yourself happy! I believe in you! XOXO
that is so weird i have all the same symptoms as you and my triggers are the same too and when i first had one i went to the hospital too. every time i get depressed i think about how im going to die, how every thing is going to away and i don't know whats going to happen, it scares me. thank you for the tips. every one makes me feel like im crazy and for once i feel like im normal.
Thank you, Julia for being so real. I don't have constant feelings of depression, some days are good and I wonder who would ever want to end their life, but other days I wake up with an incredible understanding for just that and dwell on all the unpleasant things that have or could happen to me & the ones I love. Talking to others, even just to vent the feelings, has helped me overcome those days.
& you're even more of a badass for not being afraid to say what's on your mind ;) <3
this was so helpful cause my bestfriend is struggling with anxiety and then a few months later i started seeing signs of anxiety in my boyfriend too and i was struggling with helping them both to begin with but theyre both getting through it and it helps me having two people suffering with it cause i sort of know how to deal with it sort of?
ive also been in the state of depression when i was younger so much so i was suicidal at one point and im happy to be open about it to help other people
yoga & acupuncture are awesome, I would also highly recommend therapy. Make sure you find a good therapist though! It really matters whether he or she is a good match for you... act like a consumer and "shop around" for someone who suits you the best. You are AWESOME for making this video, I am sure you will make a difference in a lot of lives who can hear you be so open. I work as a counselor and I see people overcome anxiety and depression every day, so I know it's possible - HANG IN THERE!
You are such a strong person for making a video like this. I admire you for speaking about your struggles and how you are trying to overcome them. You are a total badass!!
There are so many things I want to say, but it all comes back to a simple 'Thank You.' I suffer (ugh. hate that word) from anxiety, depression, panic attacks, depersonalization, etc. and recently got myself off the "quick fix" prescription drugs. It's really comforting to hear someone else talk about the way they deal with these problems, without the "just take a pill" mindset. I'm definitely going too check out the yoga, and keep pushing myself every day to learn to cope and overcome.
@kkyte1 I did not want to discuss anything pharmaceutical related in this video because taking drugs on a regular basis for anything is a VERY big decision and not one to be taken lightly...definitely something that needs to be discussed extensively with your doctor/therapist/family before even considering!! That being said, I have been through drug after drug in search of a miracle cure, which I have yet to find! Drugs are certainly NOT a cure all and in no way replace therapy, but I...
...do believe that for some people they are very beneficial. After being on a drug for years that was doing me more harm than good in every way, I finally stuck out the withdrawal and brain shivers for what seemed like forever only to go through a long bout of depression. That was over a year ago. Of course everyone has their good days and bad days...sometimes it just takes time to see what works for you. In many cases, it may be simple steps like small lifestyle changes or counseling!
SO true! and the very part from 13:00 god! It's so scary, all this feelings, all this emotions...it's hard to hear people talking so easy about taking control and being brave, cause they don't know how is living like this, under such...pressure. For me exercise has had become my motivator, but still, hard times back when I feel like I suck in everything I do. BUT, we're all rounded by people who cares about us, so let's just be joyful about that and let life happen :)
i know this is a serious video, and i can relate because i have lost some of my friends to depression/suicide and drugs, and as tough as it sounds that's what keeps me going on, my way to escape depression is writing and photograph, and now reconstructing my clothes thanks to you :D!!! it has helped me a lot! p.s. OMG! your cat is having a bath at minute 4:30, looks so cute ^^ thanks for everything girl, keep strong and keep smiling (:
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with your viewers!
I have bad depressions for years now and have to admit, that I rather feel very sad than being depressed. Feeling nothing and being kind of numb is the worst condition in which your mind can be.
I do respect you THAT much for speaking about things which most people try to conceal!
(I hope you understand what I mean-my English isn't the best.)
I suffer from anxiety, stress and depression. It's hard for me, just to get through another day. I'm constantly scared, sad, and afraid of not being good enough. I'm scared of getting yelled at. I'm scared of disappointing people around me. I'm scared that people don't really like me. I have zero confidence. I have no access energy to do schoolwork, and sometimes I pretend to be sick, just because I can't handle going to school another day. On top of that, I battle with self harm. Every day.
@Vampiregirl1501 I know she's the best!!!!! She loves hanging out in my room when I'm on the computer or filming videos. Such a good girl! Meanwhile, I can only assume that my other cat is downstairs hoarding food haha....XO
haha i loved the end :3 and youve made me feel so much better :3 im 14 and i am suffering from depression, i have/still have suicidal thoughts every day, ive attempted it quite allot and yes im also very open about it :) its just so nice to know/see someone whom i can really connect to on that level. anyways
yeah thanks for the vlog <3 and happy 100th video !!!
i totaly understand everything that u r saying. i have depression and anxiety and i kno that it can be on of the hardest things 2 overcome, especially when having suicidal thoughts. thank u 4 making this video im shur it will help many others as it has helped me :) we will always stuggle with these kinds of things but they can get better and we can all be happier. i love watching ur videos. u have so much talent and u r beautiful on the inside and out. congratualtions on ur 100th vid :)
Thank you for making this video and talking about your experiences. I've suffered from panic attacks since high school, and depersonalization is the scariest symptom. It's terrible that so many people suffer from it and have to deal with it, but it's also comforting knowing that you're not the only one.
wow what an amazing story.im sorry you have to deal with these types of things but i am glad to see that you are still living your life to the fullest regardless of the bumps that are in your way
this is totally cool that i'm like the 35th viewer :) sorry about your depression though..(good that you found stuff to help you) and yay! 100 videos!
like u said that its hard to relate and understand what you go through when u have anxiety but how are ways are things i could do a a gf to help my bf with controlling and being supportive of my bfs anxiety....?
PRINCESSMC13 19 hours ago
Wow I didn't realize how many people had anxiety and depression! I don't feel so alone anymore! I've had people who don't understand it tell me to "get over it" or because I actually am not afraid to talk about it, because talking about it helps, they call me a liar and say that if I really had it I wouldn't talk about it or that if I really had it I'd be on meds! I can't afford them and I hate the way they make me feel! But sometimes I feel like it gets so out of control and wish I was on them!
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penwarnenlp23 2 months ago
I relate to this so bad...
lyvsix 2 months ago
the cat makes me want to sleep and be lazy haha.. I relate a lot to what your saying, cool video :)
futuredeath 3 months ago
This video helped me a lot tonight. It's just nice to know I'm not alone. Thank you for sharing your experience. I hope you stay strong. 3
AlyDisenchanted 3 months ago
Thank you so much for making this video. I have chronic anxiety and you have given me hope.
Carrie771000 3 months ago
I cant tell you how much this has helped me... thank you so so much for posting this. i can totally relate and this helps me through my anxiety and depression even more. *subscribed :)
xsunnyrainxo 3 months ago
this was uplifting, thanks :)
ninjaturtlesbang7 4 months ago
I like the vid and you explained everything very well. I suffer from anxiety and depression very bad. It has controlled my life for quite some time now. I believe I'm manic depressive but not diagnosed or anything. By the way you are cool. hopefully I will do some vlogging about my depression and anxiety soon. Thanks and hope you are finding some peace of mind.
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hardcorgamer007 4 months ago
there is one anxiety symptom that SUCKS, the feelings of unreality the DEREALIZATION, it sucksssssss, thank god it went away after getting treated
hardcorgamer007 4 months ago
Depression, Anxiety are simply the 2 worst feelings ever EVER, it's like u die every second , also i have ocd, but ocd with thought not rituals, when I hit Rock bottom, i went to a very very good psychiatrist, who gave me the SSRI cipralex, it's called cipralex here in the middle east and Lexapro in usa, i got gradually better day by day, until im 99% cured and back to normal today thank god, exercising (mainly cardio) and Fish oil HELPED A LOOOT, it gave an additive effect to the awesome med
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hardcorgamer007 4 months ago
i just kept looking at the cat the entire video.
666thestranger 5 months ago
i could understand the envy of u but i think its more of jealusy of not being in ur shoes... some poeple don't even get the right in life to cry and have someone care i mean trully since were subcribing and such u have alota poeple that care for u and love u and even tho its on the web ...personally most don't even get that. So keep up the goodwork everything changes in time so.
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I have even more respect for you after watching this video. I've suffered silently for YEARS and have really just got the courage to tell my family about my struggle. It's a complete uphill battle, but it's one I want to take on. There have been countless times were feel like I could end it all, but just talking about it even the tiniest bit and knowing that I'm not alone has given me the push in the right direction. Thank you for opening up.
InTheCornerDunce 6 months ago
thank u so much for your video.It brought me to tears because it was like myself talking about how Ive felt since the day i could remember. Thanks a million time stay strong!
NieceyPieceyMakeup 6 months ago
Girl... you are awesome. I really admire you, Im a hetero but you are like... I feel you are a pure soul and I feel kind of connected with you! My exbf is bipolar and I know how big is the struggle for this kinds of mental deseases... much love!
Pamitaux 6 months ago
If you have an open mind, I think you should youtube abraham hicks. Someone very close to me suffered from severe panic disorder and this has helped him a lot.
xoRawBeautyxo 7 months ago
Everything you said about Panic attacks spoke to me specifically. I have both panic attack and depression. I'm tons better now then when I was diagnosed. I'm just glad to hear someone who has similar problems to my own dealing with them.
CamiInc 7 months ago
Hey, I wondered what types of therapies have you tried? Did you follow them through to the end or stopped half way through? I'm not from the states, so I am not familiar with therapies where you are, but in England there are fewer therapies as there is much more regulation. I have been told by a Pyschiatrist that the most effective treatment for anxiety and depression is Cognitive and Behavioural Therapy - have you tried this at all? Thank you for your honesty in your video.
Sallygoesmad 7 months ago
You're very brave & inspiring to post a video about this. Thank you for sharing your story with us:] This is just inspiring me more to make my own videos soon!
hellopanda03 7 months ago
My problem now is combating the energy levels and pain from my depression. The physical effects are worst than the mental for me now. How did you overcome that feeling where u just don't want to face the world today. Demotivation of everything in life.
GfyEmyLouLou 7 months ago
Wow I'm so glad u made this. O have mild anxiety n depression bc of meds. My first panick attack I was having n argument n a car. I suddently cldnt breath I started crying n my heart started racing n became dizzy. This was a bad situational anxiety n I am out that marriage. I still have hereditary anxiety n depression where I feel in inadequate which has really slowed me down with my artwork. Now I am at a point where when bad things happen I just pray about it n it has helped. yeah no dwelling.
GfyEmyLouLou 7 months ago
Thankyou so much for having the courage to talk about this, I can relate to you and I know you understand what I feel. I don't feel alone.
erasersnightmare 7 months ago
Thank you so much for making this video. I suffer from anxiety and depression and I have always been ashamed of it. I feel better knowing that I am not alone.
DedicatedToMetal 7 months ago
-3 we will overcome this one day.
ElementalMisshap 7 months ago
Panic attacks are the worst. It is the most intensely fearful feeling in the world. It's really indescribable. I've learned that if I just cry, most of the time it goes away......and I don't have to go to the emergency room -_- I'm a recovering alcoholic/ recovering bulimic with a personality disorder. Excercise and therapy helps me so much, but some days waking up feels like the beginning of a nightmare. Thanks for this vid. Makes me feel less alone. Also, I love your vids.
plasmaticat 8 months ago
may I reccomend lucinda bassett SHE IS THE BEST!
MsDuran91 8 months ago
Wow, great video!
AnxietyDepression 8 months ago
I'm happy to be subscribed to you. You're a bomb-ass girl, you know that?
danamaze 8 months ago
I love this video! I suffer with panic attacks and depression too. It was just awesome to hear your experience because mine is very similar and it was great to hear that i am not alone and that someone understands what i am going through. Thank you so much!
vivaciousnikki 8 months ago
Wow. U almost made me cry! I'm not really open about the way iam thought most of the time I feel alone and sad because I really don't talk of the way I feel.
347damaris 8 months ago
Thank you for this vid. I just recently subscribed! I also suffer from anxiety (social anxiety)
MsTaurus4u 8 months ago
Kitty! (Sorry, I will now watch the rest of your vlog xD) I have anxiety too, which made me depressed. I haven't been at school for six years and am just starting to get my life back together..
theonlygoodthingVLOG 8 months ago
thank you. alot.
queen0fdiamonds 8 months ago
listen to this song by Mother's Finest - title "Love Changes",
anxiety and depression is basically stemming from an unbalance in your navel chakra/solar plexus. by sitting upright, closing your eyes, bring attention to the center where the problem and pain of the past is in, and bring that pain to life, and face it again, and it will gradually dissolve, and it will burn as that area is your fire, and that pain will be gone, a tough process but very worthwhile.
kalai131 8 months ago
Blitzzz, ur the bomb. I think your frankness is cathartic.
My hubby's buddy once told him "You stress over some weird $hit." Everybody does. What freaks out one person might not bother another and vice versa. It's how we deal with the stress that counts.
If we're honest I think every one of us has wanted to die and be free of whatever torments us. Panic attacks are NO FUN! Been there.
Our animals have lessons for us. Your cat chillaxes just like mine. Sometimes Iwe should imitate them ;)
nasusinmanasty 8 months ago
I like the cat in the background
iknowspoon 8 months ago
Im really openminded about Anxiety & Depression ,,, I have bi-polar with schizoaffective disorder,,I have to take meds everyday just to live a normal life !!! Sometimes it is so hard to deal with,,,that you can get lost in your fears,, you just have to remember you're perfect the way you are
beahbeahful 9 months ago
wow i just went to the doctor because i was having chest pains and trouble breathing and they asked if i had anxiety. and ive always suffered from depression and anxiety, but have never really caught it in the act. it always just happens, it's so normal to me. seeing this video has def opened my eyes about anxiety attacks. i have the symptoms you explained so it was meant to be for me to find you. thanx so much for posting this, youre cool as fuck! ;)
WickedStalker 9 months ago
your just like me. I've dealt with so many rough experiences. On the outside i seem like an ordinary girl, but in the inside i have fears of getting symptoms of my schizoaffective disorder. I've learned to cope very well in stressful times, and to also, not let ppls judgments get the best of me. Remember to stay strong and always keep progressing. <3333
sushi0802 9 months ago
:] your amaazing
HeyImAbi 9 months ago
my next step: going to a concert. ( i know Im about to be twenty and I never went to a concert....but guess what. I went to sixflags lol and I didnt let my S.A.D keep me from having fun. I wish you luck Blitzz. Lets kick anxiety in the ass and keep moving!
JazzRockablity 9 months ago
Anxiety is like a fear that you didnt know about and it is just sooo controlling. depression just comes from the fact that your anxiety isnt letting you live freely. the way you want to.... at least thats how it is for me sometimes. Ive definitely learned the best the way to beat my fears is to face them all the time! if I let up it comes back, but if I keep fighting everyday. it becomes less of a struggle. . I have what my shrink called Social anxiety disorder( S.A.D really)
JazzRockablity 9 months ago
i suffer from depression, anxiety and other mental issues.. i've subscribed to your channel because i think you make great videos. keep going.. you really make a difference to people.. i've just started my own channel and i know it takes a lot of guts to do this, so a big thumbs up to you and this video
mousedroplet 9 months ago
I suffer from depression and anxiety also. Mine is is hereditary and it got worse when an event that took place n my life. My Friends don't suffer from depression and they cnt understand y I don't want to do things thy don't understand y I'm also ways so sad..ive wanted to commit many times.. I'm now on meds for anxiety and depression and I'm also very slowly getting better.. This video was very touching.
Hippiechild555 10 months ago
The part where you cried made me cried. I don't know you, but I think you are strong because of doing this video. It has to be known world wide and every single person needs to realize it's an disease and not something you want attention with. Some people still think that and that's sad because if they walk in your or someone elses shoes they would understand it. So it's very important, I think, that everybody knows about it. Be brave, stay strong! <3
ohsnapitsroos 10 months ago
thank you fo sharing this julia. it's so hard to make yourself vulnerable and tell people so much and i can't imagine being so brave. I honestly hope that you overcome your issues once and for all and lead a happy and wonderful life.
Planetmariam123 10 months ago
and Julia don't cry ;'(
your so cute with your dimples. xD
BumbleBeeUnicorn 10 months ago
your cat is soo lazy :) lol but he/she is the cutest thing!
Your an inspiration Julia be happy :D
BumbleBeeUnicorn 10 months ago
you are my insperation.i am only 16.and i have panic disorder and anxiety.the feeling of it is so unexplainable that its hard for people to understand.i have never been able to experience the "teenager" life.i have always been the girl no one wanted to take to a party because she would have a attack.i am very fortunate to have a boyfriend who understands somewhat how i feel.but even so he still has times when he asks me,why can you just tell yourself its ok?..because...i FEEL as if its not..
sheilajanae123 10 months ago
you are an incredible, strong person and i really want to thank you for putting up a video talking about these struggles. you are a beautiful person inside and out, we could use more people like you in the world! (hopefully this comment doesn't seem creepy haha, i just really admire your determination and courage)
kmadden715 10 months ago
In my personal experience, the more I thought of my depression as an illness the worse I felt. The idea of it being a disorder took my power away. When I came to the realization that I could control my thoughts and feelings I began to feel better. Now I have come to view my depression as a bad habit that I eventually kicked. Don't get me wrong, it was the hardest thing to do but I think you need to start by taking control and not relying on others to fix what's happening in your own head.
chunderville 10 months ago
@itsblitzzz - What do you believe is going to happen to you when you die?
XxhiphipxX 10 months ago
@XxhiphipxX If I knew that answer to that.....I would sleep much better at night. I have mixed feelings about mortality....
itsblitzzz 10 months ago 5
@itsblitzzz - I am sure you have heard many, many things, but if you ever want to have a discussion, you can send me a message. I would love to talk with you about mortality and immortality. It can be quite a touchy subject, so I don't want to pressure you into anything. Just want to let you know that I care about you and what happens after you die.
XxhiphipxX 10 months ago
thank you for being so upfront about this.
stfutiffie 10 months ago
i see you i see you
bonethug321 10 months ago
you.are.amazing.
sockstains 10 months ago
I like you...
FARFALLONEBICCHIERE 10 months ago
hi julia, I have anxieties and depression too as you can see from my videos I am pretty held back. In the beginning, I couldn't handle my anxieties and as a result it lead to depression, I'm learning to cope better now just learning to be more positive I know it's easier said than done but you could try a few things, I do daily hypnosis and regular morning runs and taking a hot shower etc.... it actually helps:) take care girl you have many people supporting you here!
violinist881 10 months ago
I love the fact that you are so open and so knowledgeable about the topics you discussed in the video as well in your responses to comments. Being able to educate people, especially those who have a loved one suffering from something they can't understand, is very helpful. Thank you for being a bad ass we can relate to, love your kitty cat too looks just like mine :)
PurrtyCat83 10 months ago
How about a kitty dose of kisses,hugs,and pets. They tend to be the best medicine :))
merce0909 10 months ago
Thank you so much for making this video. You are a strong person for talking about it and uploading it to the world. I haven't been diagnosed with anything but i do believe that i either have or borderline have some form of depression. I often feel sad or alone no matter who is around me or what's going on. Its a really intense feeling and I'm glad to know that i am not the only person who feels this.
vivaritchie 10 months ago
Thanks for talking about this... i deal with social anxiety and most def dwell on things from my past... not good, like u said! Im starting to dig deep and find whats stresses me out and leads to my depression, i was talking to my mom about it and now your talking about it... must be a sign that i need to deal with this shit like NOW!
ApricotArtLover 10 months ago
thanks for sharing been dealing with panic/anxiety attacks and the depression it has brought me mines began fall 2005 went away in 2007 but came back with a vegeance fall 2010 and its been a living hell since , worse is wake up in the morn with late afternoon and night time being my calm time usually.
sebastainknight 10 months ago
Thanks for sharing your experiences with us. I have a health condition that leads to many anxiety disorders, including a serious depression. Believe it or not, but I've spent years without leaving my house. Completely dependent on my family. But now I'm gathering a lot of information about health. I've changed everything in my life style and I feel so much better. I am meditating, exercising, eating healthier and also challenging myself to do the things I fear the most. I am a new me.
IamNotWhoUthinkIam 10 months ago
it took a lot of courage and strength to share this. Thank you :)
theweekatie 10 months ago
@itsblitzzz I had no idea that my brain is THAT different! That's actually really cool. :)
Yeah, you're right! My councelor calls them "tears of futility." And once they're out you can deal with things with a clear(er) head. I've also found that talking about my struggles with people in the same boat as me helps A LOT. Because I'm using my experiences to help other people, while sorting through my thoughts and feelings, getting REAL with shit. Hooray for feeding two birds with one scone. ;D
TaetrrTot 10 months ago
I really admire you for speaking about these I deal wiht OCD and depresion since I have 14, im now 24 and the past week was very dificult for me,It is a struggle, but at least I know there are others out there, who understand. I also go to the acumpunture and its been very very helpful is so cool you do to.
marrona86 10 months ago
YES. Thank you for this. I've had panic attacks off and on for several years. You hit so many points I relate to, one most recent for me is realizing I receive a lot of compliments on my looks from people who have no idea how I feel inside (even though I see/accept my outer beauty). I remember the compliments and I always give thanks but the compliments aren't always welcome, when I want to blend in. <3 B
JackeyCan 10 months ago
Thank you for making this vlog! I would try acupuncture, but, my phobias are my triggers, and needles is one of them XD
xExorcist0Rikkux 10 months ago
@xExorcist0Rikkux I HATE needles too, I swear - The reason it took me so long to try acupuncture in the first place was because of my perpetual needle fear! Acupuncture needles are very thin and are very superficial meaning they do not penetrate the skin deeply....It actually feels kind of neat when they go in, similar to when someone plays with your hair....I know that sounds weird but it is a similar sensation to me. By the way....I still cry when I get shots! XO
itsblitzzz 10 months ago
What nail polish are you wearing?
glitterzombies 10 months ago
I'm 17, i havnt been diagnosed with depression by a doctor, but have it. I dislike when people say that when they arnt diagnosed, but I've had this since I was little, my worst triggers school, i assosiate much bad feeling with it which makes daily life difficult. You are very strong. I've always wondered if people with anxiety problems could try to tern mild anxiety into excitment to calm it in some situation, if you could try and assosiate excitement with a gesture?
oldgregg93 10 months ago
thank you fore posting this, i think you are a positive role model for anyone, of any age, any gender or race stuggling wth this problem.
campushippie 10 months ago
You mentioned psychology vs psychiatry, psychologists are more about talking and counselling where as psychiatrists are doctors first and counsellors second, who (unfortunately) are very eager to prescribe medication. I encourage anybody and everybody going through a hard time to see a psychologist, because a bad psychiatrist can ruin you chemically (through a bad/wrong prescription), the worst a bad psychologist can do is...nothing.
drivebypsychology 10 months ago
Thank you for filming this and posting it. You are right, people cannot understand unless they have experienced it, but that goes for pretty much everything. And your cat was being absolutely adorable through out the whole thing lol.
Oysterbluestoday 10 months ago
I think it is really hard to mentally accept that we have these disorders. I always wonder how my life would be if I didn't have to cope with anxiety and depression. But after opening up to my family and my friends, and really showing them how it affects me has made life so much more easier. It's also a comforting feeling to know that I'm not the only one who has these struggles by watching videos like yours on Youtube, it is truly inspiring!!
partyongarth 10 months ago
I'm so glad you made this video! I think it's important for more people to really be aware of anxiety and panic attacks. I've had quite a hard time explaining to a lot of people why I have panic attacks and it's because they've never heard of it and it probably sounds a bit bogus to them when they've never experienced anything quite like it.
partyongarth 10 months ago
Thank you for this! Nobody can really understand it if they haven't dealt with it. I would have dealt with it a long time ago if people hadn't told me it was nothing. I don't know why people can't realize they are real disorders.
dwennifer 10 months ago
"it's also important to keep in mind that im still a badass" lol ^_^ <3 love it. thanks for sharing
scruptious100 10 months ago
Thank you for posting this. I've struggled with anxiety and depression most of my life, and early on (and even now) I still get the "oh, it's all in your head, just calm down" reaction, which just makes it that much harder to deal with. It is a struggle every day, but at least I know there are others out there who DO get it, who understand. Thank you.
silvertales 10 months ago
It's great that you had the courage to make this video. So many people think of anxiety and depression as a terrible weakness, but that sort of thinking only perpetuates the problem and keeps them stuck. I've struggled with social anxiety and depression for a long time partially due to the fact that I have a hard time coming to terms with it. You're a total badass!
weebeastiebaby 10 months ago
Thanks so much for this video. Not only does it offer so much insight to you as a person, but also it is very informative. I think there are so many people that could benefit from watching this. (Not only people that have the issues you have discussed, but also people who tend to look down on those with depression and/or anxiety.) You are brave, and bighearted! May you continue to conquer every obsticle!
lhyde2010 10 months ago
"Also keep in mind that I'm still a badass" <3 Haha. Yes you aree. I wonderful and stronggg as hell badass.
karat3g1rl 10 months ago
Thank you so much for making this video Julia! Its so nice to see that were not alone in this. You've already helped out tremendously just by making this video. So again, thank you!!
Xoxo, Cheyenne
ThisMind11 10 months ago
Generally, what causes u to have panic/anxiety attacks? I have had ONE panic attack in my life and I don't wish that on my worst enemy...like u said I literally thought I was about to DIE! I did not know what was goin on..*scary* for sure!
MSLOVETHAANG 10 months ago
Thank you for sharing, it helps to relate...:)
foodansme 10 months ago
Thank you for the video. My teen son is dealing with anxiety right . As his mom, it is affecting me & my husband. We feel helpless. I know diet & exercise is key to getting better. I don't believe that pharmaceuticals are the answer. Dr Mercola did a video on anxiety & depression. Krill oil, Vitamin D, exercise & not eating sugar are the main things he recommended. A Bikram studio just opened up near our house & I'll have to drag my son there with me. Accupuncture seems promising too. Will try.
luloops 10 months ago
I know what you mean about being suddenly more aware and fearful of death. But I got over it a little when I accepted it as one of those things you can't really help or worry about, you've just got to live your life now and do what you do. Great video, very insightful :)
cosmiccoolgirl 10 months ago
that was so honest, you can be so proud of yourself. I love you for being yourself. Keep strong! =)
LittleInnocentOne 10 months ago
wow this video really hit home =/
alex1sage 10 months ago
You have no idea how much I appreciate you making a video like this. I know I have said this before but you inspire me so much to accept myself for who I am. You helped me understand what many of my friends are going through. Thank you so much.
Shanabananiful 10 months ago
thanks for talking about this. it's good to know that other people understand these issues. i also am a dweller, i will sike myself out of doing things, because i will worry about all the bad things that could happen and i end up not doing said thing. but afterwards i wish i would've just done it, and regret the fact that i let my brain do that to me again. if that makes sense lol
iamakitty85 10 months ago
Im sooooo glad you made this video
It helps me relate to you soo much more
I appreciate this video so much... thank you
sammehwong 10 months ago
Continued, the only person in my life is my dog and i am very greatful for that , very thankful becasue she is the reason i breath , but literally my 3 friends did die and my husband left me for a big cow , and I truly have no one, if it was not for you tube I would not communicate with anyone ever, anxiety is horrid for me I have severe panic disorder and ocd , gosh we are both really tall , thin and kinda nutty , but i love your honesty wish you lived near cuz i would love to know you live
MyPinkRainbow 10 months ago
@MyPinkRainbow Hi Georgia! I checked out your channel and was really interested in some of the things you had to say! I can relate to your trichotillomania videos because I used to pull my hair out constantly when I was younger. Looking back, I feel like I was on the verge of developing full blown trichotillomania, although at the time I was unfamiliar with the disorder by its formal name...Luckily I was able to break those habits before they spiraled out of control, but from time to time...
itsblitzzz 10 months ago
...I still have impulses to rip my hair out because I get so stressed! Anyways, I am very sorry to hear about your anxiety and some of your misfortunes....I can certainly understand how you feel! I am glad to hear about your canine friend - I don't know what I would do without my cats either! Sounds like you go through anti-social phases like me too....Sometimes I quarantine myself in my house for days at a time! Make sure you are making time for yourself to go out and do things! XO
itsblitzzz 10 months ago
great video, I am the same way as you , I have been struggling with this my whole life and sometimes I think I just cant go on any more and I see a video like yours and I dont feel alone, I have so much i want to share with the world but I have just been so sad latley and hurt inside , I am very lonely right now , and this is the first time in my life I have just been Georgia , and suicide is so touchy , i pray for some one to just say hello to me and i go for weeks and no one says anythingto me
MyPinkRainbow 10 months ago
When I was little, I went into therapy for almost a year to help me deal with the panic attacks I was getting from separation anxiety and agoraphobia. It was to the point where I didn't want to leave the house except for school. My panic attacks were just like the ones you described and it was so, SO scary. Thankfully, I was able to get things under control, and it only gets better over time.
I'm so glad there's someone on YouTube who's dealt with the same issues as me. Thank-You!
serendipity4212 10 months ago
having your cat on your bed distracts me so much
acid999 10 months ago
However i would be very affraid to die if you havent accepted Jesus as your savior because life will literally be Hell for you for eternity.The great thing is he gave us a choice.Im only sharing this with you because i experienced being saved and it was truley awesome!! Better then any drug or anything of this earth and all your anxiety and fear can be a thing of the past just for asking.
wasp7269 10 months ago
Hey, I know your a really smart person by listening to you but have never heard your opinion on faith.Do you believe in God? Im not here to preach to you but listening to you talk about affraid to die and stuff make me wonder where you stand.I wont tell you what you should believe in or should do but i will tell you from my personal experience i have no doubt that God does exist and Jesus is very real.I also know that there is nothing to fear including death when you give your life to God.
wasp7269 10 months ago
@wasp7269 I understand that you left this comment with good intentions, but you do realize that you are pushing your beliefs, right? If there is a god, I truly believe that he is accepting of ALL individuals no matter what their background, ethnicity, religion, or beliefs are. The idea that we are sent into a burning fiery pit of doom for utilizing our RIGHT to engage in the freedom to CHOOSE what we believe in, is ABSOLUTELY absurd. Laughable at that...
itsblitzzz 10 months ago
...And if hell exists then ALL of my friends are coming with me so I'm set. I always liked warm weather better anyways.
itsblitzzz 10 months ago
@itsblitzzz I guess i got my answer cause if you believed in God or Hell you wouldnt say something like that.The fear of dying is nothing compared to what Hell will be like.It took me a long time to come around and your still young,i will pray you dont die before you change your mind.I have nothing to lose for being wrong but you have everything to lose if your wrong.God gave me proof on Aug 18th 2007 and i hope he does the same for you.It wont be laughable when you die.God bless ya
wasp7269 10 months ago
This.. just.. thank you. I know how hard it is to talk about these sensitive issues. I have severe OCD&depression, it has not been easy. I've had OCD my whole life. Yesterday and today have been so hard for me. Honestly, I logged on to youtube just now to possibly find something that would disctract me, take me out of my head. When I saw this video by breath caught & my jaw dropped. After watching, I cried out the feelings of defeat. I know I'm not alone. I can rebuild now. Thank you for that.
TaetrrTot 10 months ago 15
@TaetrrTot OCD is actually really interesting from a scientific stand point...Did you know that people with OCD have an extra circuit in their brain which can be seen on a cat scan? To me, that is very intriguing - you should read more about your disorder, you may learn some interesting facts which may also help familiarize you with OCD and why you are experiencing it. I do not have the standard ticks that are characteristic of OCD, but I obsess over things constantly to the point where....
itsblitzzz 10 months ago
...they interfere with my life. Also, as corny as it sounds, sometimes crying things out really helps...Almost like you are eradicating my system of the negative energy so you can start fresh! I can totally relate. It's not always easy to look at things from a positive perspective, but if you try to take the "glass half full" approach whenever possible, it really makes a HUGE difference. Hang in there! XO
itsblitzzz 10 months ago
thank you for making this video. this is amazing.
harmfulart 10 months ago
I can relate so much to what you're saying. It is a daily struggle for me too. Thanks for posting.
Cge066 10 months ago
1st off I just want to comment on how much guts you have as a big youtuber to talk about this personal stuff. Most other youtubers try to stay far away from personal matters for understandable reasons. Just making this video showing us your vulnerability just shows us how much of a bad ass you are.
My boyfriend suffers from chronic depression and, even though I can't ever fully relate watching this gave me a whole new insight into anxiety and depression, so I would like to thank you for that.
actressalert13 10 months ago
This video couldn't have come at a more perfect time as I have just fairly recently been diagnosed with depression.
Thank you so much for being such an inspiration to so many people.
emily16taylor 10 months ago
I still deal with my depression and I'm still get anxiety when I'm around people I dont know but at least I have hope now. If I can go through this and live to tell my story then I'm must be a stronger person than I thought I was. Meds are good for certain people but I think the medical community needs to not depend on using this method to cure all people with some type of mental illness or disorder or whatever the prefered term is. It will always be a strungle for everyone.
Pinkmafia90 10 months ago
@Pinkmafia90 Western medicine & the pharmaceutical industry, while very beneficial to some, is based on capitalism, which is a VERY frustrating FACT. That is the reason why so many people are on drugs who do not NEED to be. For anxiety and depression, there are always alternative solutions! Yes, drugs do help some people (I am one of them) but doctors definitely abuse their power to write prescriptions - really bothers me especially when the patient is very young.
itsblitzzz 10 months ago 7
I ended up going back to the hospital not long after the first time since my therapis sucked and I wasnt taught how to deal with my emotions. After many meds, sessions at therapy, etc. etc., I decided to get off my meds cause I missed feeling emotions. It was like I was pysically there but mentally gone. Everyone I knew said I looked emotionless and dead. I went through withdrawl for a while but I'm doing better now then I've ever done before. I find keeping myself busy helps alot.
Pinkmafia90 10 months ago
It's good to be reminded that you're not alone when it comes to issues like this. The past couple of years has been a life of hell for me and I ended up in a psychiatric hospital couple of months ago after trying to committe suicide in front of my now fiance. Unfortionally I didnt get the help I needed over there and it was the worst experience I've ever had. The doctors gave me really strong meds to the point that days would pass and I wouldn't remember a thing. I was basically a zombie.
Pinkmafia90 10 months ago
WE ARE WITH YOU <3
on facebook u said u were recording ur 100th vid n i was so excited while deep down inside i was going through some things n here is ur vid talking about anxiety n depression as if it were a sign for me to get help. thank u so much for this ur courage has helped me accept things i never thought i had the strengh to.
unorthodox12 10 months ago
Aw you are so inspiring, I really loved it. I know how you feel too, but in the end you know who your true friends and family are and appreciate them even thought it gets tough to be around them. <3 Keep posting videos Ms Baddass :)
Shellyloves2dance 10 months ago
Been following you for a while now and its the first comment I ever wrote... Its amazing to see how people all over the world experience the same difficulties.
Really admire your courage to post such personal thing.
Love your videos.
Orly
Israel
orlyeyal 10 months ago
I m now in depression.... coz of my sad marriage life. I m married only 1.5years, and it is very difficult for me to admit it is over...
anyway u have a nice body, so it is no problem for u to take all the confidence back, and u have a nice bf, it helps...
koalafrancehk 10 months ago
Woah when the cat did a fully body twist at 17:20 O_O
mrstwilight18 10 months ago
<3 stay strong, we love you. (:
killsarawr 10 months ago
Being someone struggling with anxiety I just want to thank you for being so open. I am just coming to a point now where I have decided to stop lying and making excuses to the people around me and start trying to explain anxiety disorders to them instead. It is very intimidating and it helps to see someone who does so so confidently.
haliereed 10 months ago
@haliereed TOTALLY have been there before - I remember literally convincing myself that I was not depressed, just sad....all the time. When you reach the point where you are able to recognize your disorder and come to terms with it, that is a HUGE step - First step to getting better! Once you can stop hiding from yourself, you can then focus your energy on conquering your fears and finding ways to make yourself happy! I believe in you! XOXO
itsblitzzz 10 months ago 4
that is so weird i have all the same symptoms as you and my triggers are the same too and when i first had one i went to the hospital too. every time i get depressed i think about how im going to die, how every thing is going to away and i don't know whats going to happen, it scares me. thank you for the tips. every one makes me feel like im crazy and for once i feel like im normal.
burritolessfool 10 months ago
Thank you, Julia for being so real. I don't have constant feelings of depression, some days are good and I wonder who would ever want to end their life, but other days I wake up with an incredible understanding for just that and dwell on all the unpleasant things that have or could happen to me & the ones I love. Talking to others, even just to vent the feelings, has helped me overcome those days.
& you're even more of a badass for not being afraid to say what's on your mind ;) <3
EscorpionPelirroja 10 months ago
this was so helpful cause my bestfriend is struggling with anxiety and then a few months later i started seeing signs of anxiety in my boyfriend too and i was struggling with helping them both to begin with but theyre both getting through it and it helps me having two people suffering with it cause i sort of know how to deal with it sort of?
ive also been in the state of depression when i was younger so much so i was suicidal at one point and im happy to be open about it to help other people
floralface 10 months ago
yoga & acupuncture are awesome, I would also highly recommend therapy. Make sure you find a good therapist though! It really matters whether he or she is a good match for you... act like a consumer and "shop around" for someone who suits you the best. You are AWESOME for making this video, I am sure you will make a difference in a lot of lives who can hear you be so open. I work as a counselor and I see people overcome anxiety and depression every day, so I know it's possible - HANG IN THERE!
greenmonkeypoo321 10 months ago
I've had anxiety disorder since I was about 12 years of age,I am now 22.
Thank you for sharing your story =]
Foresee 10 months ago
You are such a strong person for making a video like this. I admire you for speaking about your struggles and how you are trying to overcome them. You are a total badass!!
officialsuperficial 10 months ago 32
There are so many things I want to say, but it all comes back to a simple 'Thank You.' I suffer (ugh. hate that word) from anxiety, depression, panic attacks, depersonalization, etc. and recently got myself off the "quick fix" prescription drugs. It's really comforting to hear someone else talk about the way they deal with these problems, without the "just take a pill" mindset. I'm definitely going too check out the yoga, and keep pushing myself every day to learn to cope and overcome.
kkyte1 10 months ago 4
@kkyte1 I did not want to discuss anything pharmaceutical related in this video because taking drugs on a regular basis for anything is a VERY big decision and not one to be taken lightly...definitely something that needs to be discussed extensively with your doctor/therapist/family before even considering!! That being said, I have been through drug after drug in search of a miracle cure, which I have yet to find! Drugs are certainly NOT a cure all and in no way replace therapy, but I...
itsblitzzz 10 months ago 3
...do believe that for some people they are very beneficial. After being on a drug for years that was doing me more harm than good in every way, I finally stuck out the withdrawal and brain shivers for what seemed like forever only to go through a long bout of depression. That was over a year ago. Of course everyone has their good days and bad days...sometimes it just takes time to see what works for you. In many cases, it may be simple steps like small lifestyle changes or counseling!
itsblitzzz 10 months ago 4
and you're GREAT! love ya :D
lauraoriordan 10 months ago
SO true! and the very part from 13:00 god! It's so scary, all this feelings, all this emotions...it's hard to hear people talking so easy about taking control and being brave, cause they don't know how is living like this, under such...pressure. For me exercise has had become my motivator, but still, hard times back when I feel like I suck in everything I do. BUT, we're all rounded by people who cares about us, so let's just be joyful about that and let life happen :)
lauraoriordan 10 months ago
suicide is the only decission that is totaly up to someone. the possi bility of suicide is freedom to me. wether u do it or not.
ssymck 10 months ago
i love how EVERYONE who had written a comment has said that they ave depression/anxiety.
mizzfitroses 10 months ago
i know this is a serious video, and i can relate because i have lost some of my friends to depression/suicide and drugs, and as tough as it sounds that's what keeps me going on, my way to escape depression is writing and photograph, and now reconstructing my clothes thanks to you :D!!! it has helped me a lot! p.s. OMG! your cat is having a bath at minute 4:30, looks so cute ^^ thanks for everything girl, keep strong and keep smiling (:
ladykhyra 10 months ago
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with your viewers!
I have bad depressions for years now and have to admit, that I rather feel very sad than being depressed. Feeling nothing and being kind of numb is the worst condition in which your mind can be.
I do respect you THAT much for speaking about things which most people try to conceal!
(I hope you understand what I mean-my English isn't the best.)
AliciaAusmWunderland 10 months ago
I suffer from anxiety, stress and depression. It's hard for me, just to get through another day. I'm constantly scared, sad, and afraid of not being good enough. I'm scared of getting yelled at. I'm scared of disappointing people around me. I'm scared that people don't really like me. I have zero confidence. I have no access energy to do schoolwork, and sometimes I pretend to be sick, just because I can't handle going to school another day. On top of that, I battle with self harm. Every day.
TrinneLovesAll13 10 months ago
You're the best. <3 Stay positive!
sopheakydeaky 10 months ago
Your cat is so mesmerizing! I couldn't take my eyes off him/her haha
You are awesome Julia! <3
Vampiregirl1501 10 months ago 12
@Vampiregirl1501 I know she's the best!!!!! She loves hanging out in my room when I'm on the computer or filming videos. Such a good girl! Meanwhile, I can only assume that my other cat is downstairs hoarding food haha....XO
itsblitzzz 10 months ago 2
haha i loved the end :3 and youve made me feel so much better :3 im 14 and i am suffering from depression, i have/still have suicidal thoughts every day, ive attempted it quite allot and yes im also very open about it :) its just so nice to know/see someone whom i can really connect to on that level. anyways
yeah thanks for the vlog <3 and happy 100th video !!!
TiiniiBiHayes 10 months ago
i totaly understand everything that u r saying. i have depression and anxiety and i kno that it can be on of the hardest things 2 overcome, especially when having suicidal thoughts. thank u 4 making this video im shur it will help many others as it has helped me :) we will always stuggle with these kinds of things but they can get better and we can all be happier. i love watching ur videos. u have so much talent and u r beautiful on the inside and out. congratualtions on ur 100th vid :)
freakalitious95 10 months ago
Thank you for sharing this. It help us to don't feel alone with our issues
TheSweetNicolette 10 months ago
how did you diagnose your condition? and also what is your occupation?
rozzidozi 10 months ago
I have bad Anxiety. And It's like NOT subtle. I will tremble like as if I am in the nude in the cold.
rayallove 10 months ago
Thank you for making this video and talking about your experiences. I've suffered from panic attacks since high school, and depersonalization is the scariest symptom. It's terrible that so many people suffer from it and have to deal with it, but it's also comforting knowing that you're not the only one.
MissLeigh78 10 months ago
i'm 18 and i just started on anti-depressants...awesome video and touching getting to hear about your experience with it, something i can relate too
veeahxx 10 months ago
I suffer from anxiety and depression and in the same way like u do. Im glad i watched this vid :) ur so strong. keep it up <3 x0ox0ox
VampirePrincess989 10 months ago
wow what an amazing story.im sorry you have to deal with these types of things but i am glad to see that you are still living your life to the fullest regardless of the bumps that are in your way
eVerythingPinkk 10 months ago
this is totally cool that i'm like the 35th viewer :) sorry about your depression though..(good that you found stuff to help you) and yay! 100 videos!
mahalleapaZz 10 months ago
yay 100th video! congrats!!:)
mellowjan4 10 months ago