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  • Thank you for the Bipolar - A Secret Life - I believe that will help.

  • You nailed my feelings on the head, passing it on for my family to watch, only hoping they would understand or at least realize, I feel like a victim of my own mind's evil thoughts, manic or depressed........both ends have led to actions that I now regret, and I never see them until they have passed and Ive done my damage for the day........I hate living like this.

  • emeraldjimmy stop to trying to search the normal people's understanding. we are a different species. if they never feel depression or mania, your words will never reach their souls, because these are only words for them. they aren't deep like bipolar. i'm not saying that we are better, only different. too much different to serch a global understanding... bye bye :-)

  • So beautifully done. . .

    Andy Behrman, Author

    Electroboy: A Memoir of Mania

  • Diabetes and related complications like hyperglycemia, ketoacidosis, pancreatitis, coma, and death. These side effects can develop at any point during treatment, but we know whats best for you. Its our bussiness to sell drugs, that cause disability, and psychological suffering.

    There are No lab tests,MRIs, brain scans, X-rays or chemical imbalance tests that can verify any mental disorder is a physical condition. me -former victim of psychiatry

  • that was really well put! well done! :) Aimee xx

  • A psychologist friend told me that i have some features of having this and after watching this video I can say I have bipolar disorder :(

  • Great great video!!

  • I do everything you do in this video. My Mom and my Sister have this condition. Ive heard its hereditary, but Im afraid to ask or tell my Dad that I need to get help, i feel so hopeless ! Please give me advice on how to cope with it and get the guts to ask for help, thanks .

  • This is basically everything in my mind :-/ Its like i wrote that but i obviously didnt

  • ..depression today...what comes tomorrow? Don´t know, Don´t care...

  • the only medication i take is a couple of Lone Star Beers every day

  • Thats about right on, I've been looking at all the different theories concerning bipolar and I am lost, I'm glad I am bipolar and wouldn't change it for anything even though it sucks sometimes, there is a growing number of people who think this deals with spiritual enlightenment and can be extremely helpful in this area.

  • I find I can't stop watching this. It almost exactly mirrors my own experiences with bipolar. Having bipolar is a major struggle. Even though I'm medicated, I find myself storing away information on how I could kill myself if I ever wanted to again. I guess old habits die hard. But DON'T ever think you can go without medication. It took a major manic episode which lead to bad choices that ultimately lead to a major depressive episode and a suicide attempt that made me get back on meds.

  • @MaggieLovesJimmy I had been on and off meds for a while, but I was off of them for 2 years or so, thinking I could handle it. I had done really well, too, up to that point. But then, I hit a major manic episode without realizing it. I did horrible things just for the high it got me. I almost ruined my life and lost a wonderful man because of my mania. Then, at the thought of what I'd done, depression set it and I tried to kill myself...6 years after my last major suicide attempt.

  • @MaggieLovesJimmy I basically almost left a man who has never been anything but wonderful to me for a more exciting man. My mania made me almost LEAVE the man of my dreams just for more excitement! After "waking up" from the mania, I sunk right into the depression. I went from feeling on top of the world to hating everything about myself. And I downed 20-30 sleeping pills. Even while being in a great relationship & excelling in school, bipolar can creep in. Meds are NECESSARY.

  • i am schizoaffective, my mood swings can be extreme... this is a powerful video, artistically perfect, i had to let you know... big thumbs up and favored...

    take good care and peace2U

  • This is one of the greatest artistic videos on the subject I have ever seen. I have to favorite this to my channel. Excellent work.

  • NEVER GIVE UP.....it will pass...there are cracks in the dark where the light shines bright :) Told if i stopped meds I would be back in hospital in two weeks....two years later am at peace, healthy and strong....mad no....me n happy, Blessed Be :)

  • I genuinely believe I have this illness, I have a doctors appointment booked tomorrow. My Dad and sister have disowned me because of my behaviour in the past, I have felt so low, been so nasty and then after not known why, I can swap between the lows and the highs in a matter of hours :( It's ruining my degree (Am in my second year of uni) my relationships, my schooling, the only thing I'm fine with is work because it distracts me and I'm in control of it...

  • @vegeorge. CONT'D I live with my partner and I am so nasty to him sometimes and don't know why, and then when I feel balanced again I realise it's because I was in a low, I've started to recognise when it's coming on and I warn him so he's prepared. I told my Mum that I thought I might have it and her instant response was that I'm an attention seeker and have nothing wrong with me, right now when I'm fine I agree, but try telling me that in a low when I'm contemplating topping myself :(

  • @vegeorge. CONT'D 2 Don't have any support except one friend who used to have depression and recognised the signs in me. It's all well and good people saying I'm making it up for attention but they aren't the ones who have to live with it in their head 24/7. Thanks for the vid, it's so reassuring knowing there are other people who feel the same and have come out the other side.

    <3

  • Like the video, but agree with "AxMataz" about it being good until it said medication can help. Most meds make you feel like crap!!!

  • @kryptonianson38 Thanks for your comments. Like I said to AxMataz, Medication works for some, but not all. I spent 10 years on and off all kinds of medication, you've probably taken them all as well, maybe even more. They all made me feel crap too. But now I have medication that works for me, but only with lots of other changes like diet and exercise. Everyone finds their own way to survive.

  • I liked the video right up until it said: Medication can help. Common medication for these types of "disorders" can take away the highs and the lows, but it doesen't really help the situation as a whole. Watch the "bipolarORwakingUP"-videoes, they go more in depth of the solution. :)

  • @AxMataz Thanks, I'm always pleased when people like my video. I agree with your comment about medication. I would never suggest to anyone that a tablet will make everything better, because like you said, it won't. I can only speak from personal experience and lot's of things have helped my life improve, medication is just one of them. It works for some, but certainly not all.

  • @emeraldjimmy My experience is only with bipolar type 2, so I haven't really known the depths type 1 cases can reach, in terms of depression and mania. So of course, as a remedy to save lives when needed in acute cases, I'm sure medication is cruicial! :)

    However, in the grand scheme of things, don't accept medication as the only lifelong solution, to this state we call bipolar disorder, because it really just is a temporary AND solvable illness.

    See the "bipolarORwakingUP" videos. ;)

  • Thanks for this video, it gives me hope...... i lost everyone i love the most, my three children, that do not understand what i have and rather stay away. I survived that one, but it has me now at my lowest. I know Im in trouble at the moment as I need to run, the feeling of run, or I just hide as I have no one that can understand trully. Im educading myself on the subject so I can help myself. Thanks for putting such nice video.......

  • @cocorita45 Thanks. I made this video a long time ago as a way to express my feelings without shouting at people! I love how everyone sees something different in it, when actually its just a few pictures, words & a song. Its nothing special. Bipolar people are complicated and see things differently. You always have hope, this just reminded you. Take care.

  • I love this man, it starts off all sad...then BAM YA! I'm on top of the world!

    I have to say though, I don't really suffer from intense lows, I get really intense highs however. I guess I've been given more the gift of bipolar than the curse of bipolar, as it is truly a gift and a curse. If I had the chance to be normal, fuck it, I enjoy the highs, and the lows I get give me insight. I wouldn't have it any other way!

  • @Squeegee33 Thank you! I always like getting good comments. I'm pleased you've found a balance you're happy with. Now I'm more stable I'd have to agree I wouldn't want to loose Bipolar it does make me a more interesting person.

  • EXACTLY!

  • Thank you for sharing. I found comfort in your masterpiece. 

  • @DaughterofJerusalem ~ now why did U do that 4 ~ I don't have any videos of U postd & I don't know pyrrho ~ U know that ~ I know friends ~ I know Gary abit, bcoz he's so straight forward ~ I could b a friend 2 U ~ if U didn't sooo continuely b3tch ~ like Ur video warns

  • @DaughterofJerusalem ~ The deal w/ the video was ~ educational value ~ mayb other(s) could have benefited ~ if U don't want it postd ~ I won't ~ allrite * pls confirm ~

  • @DaughterofJerusalem ~ how R U doin' btw ~ I guess a greeting won't hurt ~

  • That's me

  • My secret life my living hell!

  • Wow, it really does catch the feel of bipolar.

    Check out my video blog for my experience with the condition...

  • amazing you sum it up really well

  • im unlucky, i have all these things that the video shows, but i can go for help, my sister is already spileptic so i would be huting everyone anound me and i think everyone would judge me harshly, the world is so fake....

  • ur not alone.. never giv up the fight

  • HA! Have fun explainning bipolar to my foreign parents. Lovely Expections to the max. its retarded.

  • LOVE THIS SONG, And i sometimes see good things in my furture.. But its shot down.. with another idea... or nothing at al.. and i want to die.

  • This is a nice vid+has alot of hope in it amongst the gloom..ppl are very ignorant about bi-polar..I dont hide it as I've always been nuts anyway,,just has yet another label now ...does anyone feel angry at the way celebreties many of who are drug/drink users are suddenly coming out as Bp,lets face it most of the so called British celebs are too stupid to have it anyway....Kerry Katona...fine example!! Nice vid..cheers x

  • wow- and a kick ass song too - love you :D xxx

  • Pretty good video you managed to relfect the downs for me pretty acurately, the ups not so, well every person suffering Bipolar is a differntt case, professional help, medication, patience can help, sometimees though they arent enough, this whole thing is like a curse. Thanks for the video and merry X-Mas for you and your loved ones

  • if im bi-polar the only thing i learned was how to hate this world.

  • this is so fucking sad!!!!!!! its crazy how i feel the exact same thing. When i'm manic I can't stop working out. I want to fight people. ALL THE TIME. I'm almost always manic. 80% of the time.

  • wow what a video...thanks

  • It angers me that people assume people with mental illness murder people. Get a grip! The % of murderers that do have a mental illness are much lower than the % of murderers who do not have a mental illness.Mentally ill people are not dangerous, you would find more danger on any street or estate from strangers. Stop being hysterical.

  • That was great and creative!! You should submit it to NIMH as an awareness vid

  • I feel a little nervous now b/c I just met someone who has this. This person angrily went off on me then apologized a week later explaining he`s bi-polar. I thought "no big deal, all is forgiven" but I wanted to know more about what he has so I watched this video & another where violence was mentioned. Now I`m a little scared this man may be dangerous. I wonder what % of bi-polar ppl commit violence like slapping or hitting & what % do things like murder or really beat a person to a pulp?

  • With medication I don't think most people are that extreme. If he is aware that he's bi-polar he is probably taking proper meds and controlling his sleep and other life factors, I wouldn't worry to much unless he starts acting worse.

  • @paisleyyama who knows, When I wqaqs Manic, all I wanted was peace in the world, love everyone and good things :), untill those jerks at the hospital locked me i went spycho on the door, but when the door was open i was ass up to take my needle like a good boy.

  • i think i have bi polar and no-one else knows.... oh well...... suffer in silence is the only way..... doh!

  • trust me :D if you have bipolar...they KNOW

    its hard not to notice a person who is crying, screaming and pulling out her hair one moment and on the next is making plans to go skiing on rooftops xD i should know

  • got that right!! i'm bipolar----up down in out over and under---manic highs......

  • i hide my episodes. i lock myself in my room and dont come out til im happy. usually these episodes last one day for me or even one evening.

  • are u mocking the creator of this video?

  • plz dont suffer in silence make some noise i have bi-polar and ive just about lost everything to it..plz get some help

  • Wow! You nailed it! You said it just right!It is powerful knowing I 'm not alone . And yes, there is hope! A tip from me, write in a journal as if to leave messages for yourself. When happy leave messages of hope . When depressed leave a note for your manic self to remind her that this too shall pass. After awhile a pattern will emerge. you will then know that you will not always be depressed and, inevitably you will be happy again.

    Go easy on yourself and, above all else, take your meds

  • Many of these feelings I do experiance. Although I'm not Bi-polar, says my doctor, I do experiance the rush of mania, and the abyss of depression. It is one fucked up of a ride.

  • I like your video bacause captures the essence of this illness.

    I would like traslate it in spanish cause the information in some videos in spanish are very confused.

    And i think that could be useful to latin people Know that kind of illness.

    May i copy and translate it

  • I love your video. I have accepted my "bi-polar" label, although I hate that my "mom" saw it first.

    You video captures the essence of it. BUT...you forgot the suicide aspect. The feelings of intense shame that come from the up and downs around friends and family...the loneliness...

    Sound familiar?

    This condition...stinks...Down out controls highs. How about you?

  • Thank's for your comment. I'm glad you liked it.

    To answer your comment...I personally dont feel comfortable putting suicide into a video. I'd hate to put the idea into the head of someone whose not considered it before.

    Those of us who recognise these feelings will also know how bad you can feel. No video will ever be able to express that properly to others.

  • That was the best thing I've seen about Bipolar blad, love it, respek

  • Thank you for your comment, it's really appriciated. I'm sorry I never get around to thanking everyone...but i'm rubbish like that! I'm greatful for every comment though. Your kitten is very sweet Bockyhal! :)

  • i don't know if i'm bipolar or not, my depressive moods are real low, but my manic moods havent happened in a really long time, and ive never taken medication...maybe its something different...

  • I believe people with bi polar can be geniuses in this life! Control it,dont let it control you!

  • @gussgoose as long as society doensn't try to make a square peg fit in a round hole they will do ok.

  • @gussgoose Best thing I heard since 1994...

  • like that video

  • I recently came to the conclusion that im Bipolar. However, now that i understand it i dont see the point of taking meds, it sounds stupid to try and repress it. If you cant control it then yes seek help.

    My childhood/adolesnce was in a very competitive society, mainly due to the crazy history of my country. Respect is gained thru having no fear, physical fights were common, sports etc. who's better.

    Now that i understand why and how, the only question is what? What to do with this "gift"?

  • What a great video, I wish I had seen it ten years ago when I was first dianosed with Bipolar.

    At the end of the day Bipolar is not that bad if you compear it to other disabilities.

  • in 5 months ive lost almost 70 lbs from obsesive dieting/starving and excercising while being on all time low depression....i need help and medication!

    my mind gets rushed wih thoughts it feels like its gonna blow or burn fire

    your vid pretty much sums me up to a tee!

    nice to know your not alone!

  • awesome video! sums it up perfectly!

  • This is how I feel. I haven't been diagnosed but I am pretty sure.

  • having been diagnosed with bipolar disorder waaay back in 1983 i know all about this. and call me manic but this video is strangely hilarious!this is the most accurate depiction ive seen in so long about how the rollercoaster will take you at speeds that would frighten almost anyone and then leave you hanging upside down on the loop. brilliant.

  • thats what i go threw

  • its difficult to explain to people friends even doctors about bipolar this will help thankyou :)

  • Welcome to your world. Welcome to my world. Welcome to our world. I have Bipolar and totally understand. Thanks for the vid.

  • nice vid, one day soon i will seek help, i fear i may be bipolar, i feel all those feelings, but they change fast. one second im happy the next sad, sometimes i get angry while im depressed and i often verbally and emotionally hurt family that just wanna know if im ok. thanks man.

  • If you're feeling like this then I think you're right to seek help. Thanks for your comment. Take care.

  • I prefer the term "manic depression",it's descriptive,that's exactly what this thing is,we all have two polarities-learn to accept+embrace it,you'll be ok.Certain sections of society are trying to make MD trndy,there's nothing trendy waking up in a pool of your own vomit after a suicide attempt.Believe me,you eyther ARE or you're NOT manic,kill the stigma+tell a doctor,if not a loved one,it will be fine ,love+peace Dylan

  • Thank you all for you're comments. I'm glad you like my work. It feels good. Especially when a lot of you go through the same thing. I'm hoping to add another video soon. I hope you're all doing ok.

  • whats the name of this song

  • it's called 'les fleurs' this versions by

    4Hero (not minnie ripperton as i originally though!)

  • i liked it

  • thanks

  • wonderful

  • short, but sweet! thanks

  • very well-done. now I know what bipolar means.

  • i'm pleased it helped

  • Fuck you(In the friendliest possible way) lol.Now i feel happy sad anxious after 3 mins of this video.Before i started watching this i was on an even keel.But you nailed my life to a t.I think i better go cry now for no reason other than i just watched this vid

  • Thank you (in the friendliest possible way!) I was scared you were my first critic when i saw this comment...hope i didn't cause you too much distress

  • Thank you.

    I hope to use your video in our

    Mental Health week activities.

    Living in rural Australia many people wont discuss.

    I have Bi Polar,but the medical profession thought i had Adult ADHD.

    Saved to my favorites.

  • Sounds like you're doing some good work out there. I'm glad i could help a little.

  • The best I have seen on this sickness that keeps me up at nights and drives others sick. Thanks.

  • I like being called 'the best', thanks! I hope you're doing ok.

  • This video is so amazing. I get chills every time I view it. I am using it tomorrow in a presentation I am giving to cadets in the police academy as part of their training in dealing with people living with mental illness. Thank you.

  • Thank you. I'm pleased, and a little shocked, my little film's in a presentation. Sorry i've taken so long to reply. I hope it went well.

  • Hi, good vid.... i am sure i have bi-polar but have never been diagnosed with anything... the extremes in mood, feelings of suicide, hopelessness, no sleep, alcohol, losing friends, cannot be bothered with anything... loss of feelings for family etc etc oh dear....

  • thank you. hope you're ok...keep trying. I'm told it's worth it eventually.

  • hi,try if you can to keep a mood diary for a few weeks,even keep it by the bed when you haven't slept for nights,the best things from the heart arte written in hypomanic exhaustion.Pluck up the courage to see a psych+show them the diary.I worked in mentsal health+have suffered now for 11yrs myself,diagnosed for 2yrs.The diary got the diagnosis,good luck to you

  • i got bipolar too dude and it sucks the only thing who can fight over it its doing some type of body training during the day no matter what happen it can get low your depression or maniac fellings

  • i agree totally. i've excercised a lot this last year and i feel better for it.

  • Q) what does the acronym S.A.D stand for????

    A) Dslexyic Suffers Association

  • Very good. Even funnier because you spelt Dyslexic wrong! (I'm sure it was on purpose)

  • Seaonal affective disorder,ie winter blues

  • omg i really think im ni polar yo!!!

  • Thank you very much.Great video.My friend has

    bi polar but it is ignored by the council in our area.

  • The voice requires my undivided attention. It promises insight, and support.

    And sometimes it DOES feel like i have been thru a process, but what it was is a mystery.

    Is it a outside demon?

    Should i ignore it? Should i talk back to it?

    It seems so genuine in wanting my best interests

  • i was once on the high state with lots of ideas, but somehow no one supported them. They were really good ideas.

    But i came across smart ass, and everyone did their best to make me wrong.

    In fact I attract people in my life that are unsupportive.

    i have dropped out of the outpatient at the hospital , as i dont like them after 2 years.

    not even trying to make friends because i wont be able to be myself.

    with all my mania, there is a truth. if i could just distill it.

  • My mum has bipolar, and she has experienced many of these symptoms. She also experienced psychosis, to such an extreme that she was sectioned. She is on medical treatment, and only once has she had symptoms again (there was some confusion - she was taking diet pills which disrupted her medication). Most people do not know what its like - not just for the patient themselves, but for their friends and families. For everyone with bipolar - the medication can work wonders.

    Thanks for the video x

  • This is really excellent

  • your words are very dangerous. its hard enough to get yourself around to the idea that you have bipolar and its very hard to tell yourself you have to take your meds to to be able to live any sort of normal life. you eventually do and then you come along and say you dont need them this is very risky especially for someone who has just been diagnosed and trying to get to grips with their drug regimine.

  • Wow. I've never really looked into what bipolar really is or what its about. Acually, I don't know many that do, which is why its so good that you posted this.

    I really respect you for sharing so much and putting out awareness.

    The art choices are great too, as well as the music (I love this song so much! I have a feeling it might be the 4Hero version of the song though, but i've never heard the minnie riperton one so i may be wrong.. :P)

    But yeah, nicely done.

  • i'm glad you liked it. i've checked and you're absolutly right this is the 4hero version of les fleur. in my defence they both sound v similar! thanks for correcting me. take care.

  • In the mania state, i can hear the censor but I bypass it.

    When in the depressed state the censor dominates and controls.

    Sort of like having some drugs whcih bypass the inhibition.

    But its more like an internal voice.

    I think i lot of thetre people have it. .

    The goal is to have a voice which dispenses good advice.

    The confusing part is the voice demnding you attention for hours on the premise it has something useful to say.

    But after, i cant recall anything useful.

  • brilliant video. ive never talked to anyone yet though i feel i am in a similar state, but i may now. thankyou.

  • I, too, am bipolar

    Very well done =)

  • thank you very much for this. i loved the use of art to bring the descriptions alive. i think i'll start showing family and friends this video when they clearly don't understand what bipolar is like.

  • i am bi polar two. i know how it is. you say it so well! i showed this to my best friend to explain thankyou

  • nicely done

  • did you make this yourself it is very good when my psychiatrist asked me to describe how i was feeling on a certain day i said i feel just like the subject in painting of the scream. thanks for posting

  • that was really great, im glad you chose that music, couldnt have been more effective.

  • thanks for your kind comments...its really apprciated.

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