...I'm even a freaking straight A student! But I feel so stupid (people even tell me I am... stupid, crazy, you name it!). I try harder than most people I know but I'm still never good enough and I just can't stand myself. I don't know what to do anymore.
This is my life exactly... every last word. My friends and family try to help but a lot of times they just make me feel worse, so I push them away. Then I get yelled at for shutting people out and accused of wallowing in my sorrow when I'm not. I'm just trying to better myself/get through the day inconveniencing as few people as possible! I am a perfectionist when it comes to myself and I know that but I can't stop. I cut myself, I hardly eat.. but I am never good enough (for me or anyone else).
Wants to be Mary-Kate. Perfect weight 88. Is this girl reading my freaking mind?!? I'm 26 now. 13 year battle of ups and downs. It's not just a teenager thing.
Im not ana but i do cut and my best friend is anarexic and im scared for her. Shes tall and big boned so shes meant to have a bit of weight. Her ribs stick out si far and she keeps yelling and crying and freaking out because she cant lose the weight thats not fat and im so scared for her. But I punish myself for not being perfect. Yeah Im skinny but im hideous. Noone likes me and im not popular. No guys ever notice me Its only logical to cut
@crazaytaytayily I cut, and dont eat. my dad just died. I found out the guy I like only likes me cause i have a "hot body" and I have to work SO hard at it and im STILL NOT GOOD ENOUGH
I also have no one to go to with help I don't have parents I have to strangers that I live with till I'm old enough to live by myself I can go to "god" for help because I don't believe in him and I only have one to friend and we're starting to grow apart we never really talk anymore.
This song is just like me I hate myself and I'm an anerexic no one ever notices me not eating no one really cares they never notice that I cry myself to sleep every night and I cut myself everyday and that I punish myself for not being good enough and it makes even harder having to deal with depression and everyone making fun of me for everything. FML. :(
It is good to talk about this to other people. But a better trick is to try to live with GOD! he loves you. If you look in the bible and try to relate it to your life you'll see
@cuttergirl100 I know how your feeling but trust me one day you will over come ana and feel better about yourself cause no matter what you look like your beautiful like everyone else in the world :)!
This was me for years, but I got help and am proud to say I've been in recovery for 3 months. It's hard. It's probably one of the hardest things you'll ever do, but it's worth it. To anyone struggling or also in recovery, your life is far too precious to be treating yourself like trash. You are better than Ana/ Mia !!! Stay strong
It doesn't matter what everybody is expecting of you if it's not what you want for yourself. I've always been an over achiever, wanted to please everybody else around me, destroyed myself by not taking care of my body and still have to fight with the consequences. But now I know where it all went wrong. If you, everyone of you, ever wants to talk or needs someone to listen, FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME!!! I'll help wherever I can! Take care of yourself! Best regards from Germany - Lyn
to all of you out there who think that they'll never be good enough: PERFECTION IS A MYTH!!! You have to learn to love yourself bcs. if you don't like who you are - how can somebody else like you? Would you give them the permission to? No, you won't because you're not able to accept what they say about you (gorgeous, pretty, best person they've ever met etc.) I know how hard that is, believe me I've been down on that road, too!
I cut myself, I starve myself, I'm bulimic, I am never happy with myself. I want to be beautiful. I'm a failure. I'm suicidal. I'm 5"4 & 90 pounds. I want to be smaller. I want the love of my life to love me back. I want to be the kind of emo girl that you can google. But then again, I never get what ever I want.
I was in all of your shoes once, and whenever someone said "Recovery is better", I just laughed. But recovering myself now, they were all right. It does get better! There is so much more to you, you are not just a walking eating disorder. Recovering isn't easy, but its worth it. Get help. You will feel more happier and alive in the long run! Dont give into ED now, try towards recovery...
@unbeareble4ever I'm anorexic and have been for a while now and I've tried makin myself sick after eating but it just made me feel worse and I totally agree with what your saying ! Eating disorders are a tricky game and very hard to win.
I'm 16, I got over bullemia twice, but I'm begining to fall back into it again. I'm 5'7 and 110, if you can help it don't ever start. It fucks with your life more than you think.
@migotka271 your not trust me im practically dying just to be at least how much u weigh .i weigh more and im younger you saying your fat is saying im the size of the world
@lookatmenowchick you are Not, I know that without even looking at you! :) Please don't destroy your body, don't beat yourself up, I LOVE you and You are Gorgeous, because there could never be a more beautiful YOU! Look up "A More Beautiful You" by Jonny Diaz, b/c he can tell you how it is better than I can. If you ever want to talk, pleasee mail me!
you need to belive in yourself. i'm just trying not to look at myself in the mirror and then i can eat a little more evrey time. it's not easy and i'm tired of it but it's the only way.
This struggle never leaves me. No matter how many times I pray to see myself as God sees me or my fiance or friends do, I still fight the nagging feeling that I'm not good enough. But I never want to go to that place again... it's not worth it.
Im A Over Achevicer... I Want To Be The Perfect Weight! I Want People To Like Me.. I Want To Be Thin :/ I Hate Being 110 I'm So Fat :/ I Will Not Eat... I Will Not Eat Because Nothing Tastes As Good As It Feels To Be Thin... I Just Want To Be Perfect And Not Hate My Reflection..
@MegaMissNinja im stuggling with aorexia and its the only thing im really good and i want to be no i need to be im going nto be thin and if it takes dying to get there then so be it
I try harder than the average teen I am an overachiver with secret low self-esteem I want to walklike a star But I take it too far I am never good enough I want to be Mary Kate Perfect weight 88, I will never be good enough.. I am still in denial. and noone knows Yes.. I am bulimic.. But I dont want help.. i wanna be thin.. </3
@LautnerTaylorMrs everyone in my family hates me because im fat and they are all really skinny so i havnt eate in 3 weeks going on 4 hoping to keep it going.......i hate me too
@despup Well, you know what? Tell them "Screw you" You are who you are. They cant hate you for that. EAT!!! Dont starve yourself. Remember this, you are beautiful.
@despup please eat i know its hard, but you need to! dont kill yourself for others, become healthy for you. I know it hurts to be the bigger one in the family but no one is worth starving yourself over. so please eat. message me if u need me, but please eat </3
This song is my life. No one cares too see how I'm doing. No one notices when I leave I'm never good enough and my friends don't see me. I'm not eating to get someone to look at me and help me
@2012Gymnastics God, I know what you're going through there. I tried that as well and...Yeah, none of them noticed yet again. So I became independent. If they really wanted part of my life, they should have been there when I really needed them.
I used to want to gain weight, then all my friends started sharing their weights and ugh.. i felt fat. I'm around 110 lbs, my goal is 90. I get so many compliments, but I;m still a nervous wreck. I want to have a stomach like those girls on those thinspo pictures on tumblr. Not even my boyfriend can help me anymore.
I hate everything about myself... I hate my hair, I am ugly, I'm smart but not smart enough, I work hard but not hard enough, I write well but not well enough, my eyes are blue (which is what I want) but too dull, I'm nice but not nice enough, I'm not popular, I'm violent according to my few friends... the list goes on forever. Why can't I just be who I've wanted to be for so long?
I look in the mirror,, and see a 105 pound girl,, with big thighs and fat girl breasts. I'm not thankful for my chocolate brown hair,, my average green eyes,, or my slightly crooked nose. My teeth are naturally straight,, and for a 13 year old girl everything about me is acceptable. But I'm still never good enough,, even though I've gotten 'better' and am now fatter than ever. I sometimes know I'm thin and pretty,, but usually all I see in the mirror is ugly.
This song fits me. I'm never good enough. My family doesn't see me crying and not eating. I am not happy with being me. Why can't I just be happy being me.
When you starve and you're getting skinny it's not that easy. You will still see yourself fat, still, even if you're losing weight. You hate yourself. No one understands you. You lose friends. You don't talk with family. You clam up, you talk to no one. The only thing, that you can control is food. And you lose control at evertything. The only thing, that aer you thinking about is to lose weight. You harm yourself. You are in depression.
You just destroy your life.It's not as easy as it looks.
Hey, Im Mariah, i used to cut... to ease the pain.. Anyway ive stopped because of my bf and amazing friends. If u ever need Prayer, or a simple talk im here :)) STAYSTRONG
I' ve been starving this month, my mom told me that if I keep like that, she will send me to rehab. It really doesn't matter to me, I just want to dissapear, don't be so depressed every day, everytime, with everyone.. I just want everything be like it was before ;(
My brother was complaining about homework the other day and I said " to me homework is nothing to complain about. Be grateful for what u have!" then he said " what do u mean?" and I said " I would give anything. ANYTHING to be where you are right now! Constantly it's ' does Ryan have a boy scout meeting does ryan have a nutritionist appointment?' Plus you've got all these snacks and full tubs of frozen yogurt all to yourself! Meanwhile I'm starving myself just to get our parents attention!" he
I lost my half sister Stephanie to anorexia 2 years ago when she was 16 and I was in 7th grade. I miss her every single day. She was beautiful but she couldn't see that, and she got down to 89 pounds at 5'3. My best friend lost her cousin to bullemia, and we started a support club at school for kids who've lost family members to eating disorders. If only Steph could see what i do today :'(
This song makes me laugh at myself.. I'm so dumb I'll never be perfect because I'm incapable I've got three B's in high school its not even second semester yet
I'm finding myself in these lyrics too. It makes me sad, that I don't want to be like that, I want to be just like every girl in the world.. And, on the other side, my dreams to be thinner and thinner are winning and I can't stop even if I want :(
@ATearInAWord, wow i am pretty much exactly same height/weight as u. thats kinda wierd, lol, age is close 2, im 17, but srsly i no how u feel. ive know how it all feels. ive done more than contemplated tho unfortunantly
Im 20. Im 5'8. Ive binged and purged and starved myself since i was 8. I wiegh 94 pounds now. Everyone has given up on me. I cut, i hate taking a shower because i have to see myself naked and see all the scars. I have the worst self esteem. I was going to be a professional dancer. Im too skinny now. I run over 24 miles a day to burn off everything ive eaten. And im about to give up.
I used to struggle with poor self esteem and tried cutting a few times, but then i actually opened my eyes and saw how much my friends needed me. <3 it's kept me strong<3
I am 13 I have anorexia and I cut myself. My mom only pays attention to my brother and is blind to my stress. I have dyslexia but I've never told anyone not even my perents. I have attempted suicide over 9 times. I've givien up suicide but I'm not enjoying my life. No matter how hard I try my grades are in the sixdeys. I'm soooo depressed but I'm scared to take pills for it cuz I'm scared I'll try to overdose. This song describes me
@jkseiden I'm in the same thing. I am 12, and my parents only cares about my brothers, no one more. I'm anorexic, and I almost cut myself 2 times, but I just couldn´t. I've never told anyone about my depression, only my friends Alison, who really doesn´t matters, and Candela, who almost tell'em about it to my family. I'm very scared, but I can't to anything about that. Nothing matters to me now, and I just want to die, and disappear.
I'm sorry for my bad english, I'm from Argentina :)
I'm 14, and outpatient for anorexia nervosa started September 1st. I've always been a perfectionist, so giving this up is hard for me. I've been told that I'm sick enough to be in the hospital, and that's why I'm not resisting re-feeding. It's scary. Hell, recovery is the SCARIEST thing you will EVER have to do. It will scare you shitless, but I'm glad that I have a future. I'm going to go to a very prestigious school, and I will recover. No matter how hard this is, I'll be happy soon.
Im recovered from ana and bulimia:) And i understand what you guys are going through if you need someone to talk to im here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) Just message me:)
@ATearInAWord, I've been there. It gets better, darling, I promise. People still get mad at me for not eating certain things. My friends think it's stupid. Message me if you like, I'm here for you. <3
I love this song! It relates to me a lot. Im 12 and anorexic. Last year i was 58 poubds and went to the hospital cuz my ed. Then i got help and noticed i started to gain a lot of weight and i didnt like it. So i stopped eating. Again. Now im 73 pounds and still struggling with anorexia. So last week i got help. I talked to someone and it felt good to just let all ur feelings go. Its such a humbling feeling. Just remember the first step to recovery is TALK TO SOMEONE!!!
I'm a girl , 16 years old . I've been suffering from Depression and Anorexia for over 5 years now . I don't know why this happened to me , or when it did . The only thing i know is that i can't control it . ITS NOT ME .I'm the queen of pretending like it's all fine . Nobody knows what i'm really going through and nobody knows me.I isolate myself from everyone and i sometimes hate people around me . They act like they know , but the truth is , you can't know if you don't live it EVERYDAY .
What are good things to eat during the day? Like breakfast and lunch? My mom will make me eat whatever she makes for dinner, so I need the best possible things for during the day!
i get asked the same questions over & over again.. "you're life is so perfect why do you cut?..." or, "you're so beautiful, and skinny, why don't you eat?..." if i had a penny ever time someone said i was thin, i wouldbe rich, but i would be poor if it only accounted for it being true... )= i strive for perfection, but as you can see i am no where close to being there. so why do people say i have a perfect life?? Because no one sees through the fake smile...
'Whose in control now' uhm erm ana and i cant control her.
kyanamommy08 2 days ago
i´ve been there, and i know exactly how it feels. i´m writting about it here --> morkretshemlighet.blogg.se/
kampeninommig 5 days ago
I think that girl shes talking about is me. I have body dismorphic disorder and anxiety and low self esteem
animepanda1000 6 days ago
Ana is in control now. And I can't stop her.
xoxoDottyxoxo 6 days ago in playlist Liked videos
No one knows my secret, or my feelings. " I'm fine" you believe in that?
TheDarkLil 1 week ago 6
@TheDarkLil Nope. If you so important for people. Nobody who care about you won't belive
eaty97 6 days ago
...I'm even a freaking straight A student! But I feel so stupid (people even tell me I am... stupid, crazy, you name it!). I try harder than most people I know but I'm still never good enough and I just can't stand myself. I don't know what to do anymore.
BlackRoseWriter913 1 week ago
@BlackRoseWriter913 SAME.
Libbymariehaw 1 week ago
This is my life exactly... every last word. My friends and family try to help but a lot of times they just make me feel worse, so I push them away. Then I get yelled at for shutting people out and accused of wallowing in my sorrow when I'm not. I'm just trying to better myself/get through the day inconveniencing as few people as possible! I am a perfectionist when it comes to myself and I know that but I can't stop. I cut myself, I hardly eat.. but I am never good enough (for me or anyone else).
BlackRoseWriter913 1 week ago
Wants to be Mary-Kate. Perfect weight 88. Is this girl reading my freaking mind?!? I'm 26 now. 13 year battle of ups and downs. It's not just a teenager thing.
danzr31585 1 week ago
Im not ana but i do cut and my best friend is anarexic and im scared for her. Shes tall and big boned so shes meant to have a bit of weight. Her ribs stick out si far and she keeps yelling and crying and freaking out because she cant lose the weight thats not fat and im so scared for her. But I punish myself for not being perfect. Yeah Im skinny but im hideous. Noone likes me and im not popular. No guys ever notice me Its only logical to cut
crazaytaytayily 2 weeks ago in playlist Favorite videos
@crazaytaytayily I cut, and dont eat. my dad just died. I found out the guy I like only likes me cause i have a "hot body" and I have to work SO hard at it and im STILL NOT GOOD ENOUGH
Libbymariehaw 1 week ago
@Libbymariehaw i know life sucks.. you can message me if you wanna
crazaytaytayily 1 week ago
@Libbymariehaw Alrighty, I will
Libbymariehaw 1 week ago
I also have no one to go to with help I don't have parents I have to strangers that I live with till I'm old enough to live by myself I can go to "god" for help because I don't believe in him and I only have one to friend and we're starting to grow apart we never really talk anymore.
desterymooreluvr01 2 weeks ago
This song is just like me I hate myself and I'm an anerexic no one ever notices me not eating no one really cares they never notice that I cry myself to sleep every night and I cut myself everyday and that I punish myself for not being good enough and it makes even harder having to deal with depression and everyone making fun of me for everything. FML. :(
desterymooreluvr01 2 weeks ago
@desterymooreluvr01 stay strong for the cutting try the butterfly project. draw something you love on your wrtists and if you cut it the thing dies
musiclover131213 2 weeks ago
It is good to talk about this to other people. But a better trick is to try to live with GOD! he loves you. If you look in the bible and try to relate it to your life you'll see
Supadupa1909 2 weeks ago
This song is me i never feel good enough ppl tell me im beautiful but other ppl call me fat im 5'3" and 89lbs i hate myself
ilUvGyMnAsTiCs23 2 weeks ago
@cuttergirl100 I know how your feeling but trust me one day you will over come ana and feel better about yourself cause no matter what you look like your beautiful like everyone else in the world :)!
missRW98 2 weeks ago
I love you ana
i hate you ana
i need you ana
cuttergirl100 3 weeks ago 18
This was me for years, but I got help and am proud to say I've been in recovery for 3 months. It's hard. It's probably one of the hardest things you'll ever do, but it's worth it. To anyone struggling or also in recovery, your life is far too precious to be treating yourself like trash. You are better than Ana/ Mia !!! Stay strong
forever804 3 weeks ago
It doesn't matter what everybody is expecting of you if it's not what you want for yourself. I've always been an over achiever, wanted to please everybody else around me, destroyed myself by not taking care of my body and still have to fight with the consequences. But now I know where it all went wrong. If you, everyone of you, ever wants to talk or needs someone to listen, FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME!!! I'll help wherever I can! Take care of yourself! Best regards from Germany - Lyn
LynIoxI 3 weeks ago
to all of you out there who think that they'll never be good enough: PERFECTION IS A MYTH!!! You have to learn to love yourself bcs. if you don't like who you are - how can somebody else like you? Would you give them the permission to? No, you won't because you're not able to accept what they say about you (gorgeous, pretty, best person they've ever met etc.) I know how hard that is, believe me I've been down on that road, too!
LynIoxI 3 weeks ago
I cut myself, I starve myself, I'm bulimic, I am never happy with myself. I want to be beautiful. I'm a failure. I'm suicidal. I'm 5"4 & 90 pounds. I want to be smaller. I want the love of my life to love me back. I want to be the kind of emo girl that you can google. But then again, I never get what ever I want.
Emochickjazzie 3 weeks ago
I was in all of your shoes once, and whenever someone said "Recovery is better", I just laughed. But recovering myself now, they were all right. It does get better! There is so much more to you, you are not just a walking eating disorder. Recovering isn't easy, but its worth it. Get help. You will feel more happier and alive in the long run! Dont give into ED now, try towards recovery...
sweetxhugs 3 weeks ago
this song is really about me.
but i don't try hard enough.
im 5'8 & 108 pounds.
still fat >.<
no-one knows.
sometimes i wish they knew,
and that they give me warmth.
and the feeling that they care about me </3
but I don't want anyone 2 know.
elinexxxx 3 weeks ago
@unbeareble4ever I'm anorexic and have been for a while now and I've tried makin myself sick after eating but it just made me feel worse and I totally agree with what your saying ! Eating disorders are a tricky game and very hard to win.
missRW98 3 weeks ago
I'm 16, I got over bullemia twice, but I'm begining to fall back into it again. I'm 5'7 and 110, if you can help it don't ever start. It fucks with your life more than you think.
unbearebel4ever 3 weeks ago
So... this probably isn't the song you want to be listening whilst sitting, clutching a pot noodle and crying...
MiniMioneexx 3 weeks ago
I'm 16 5'4 and 115 pounds god i'm so fat ;(
migotka271 3 weeks ago
@migotka271 your not trust me im practically dying just to be at least how much u weigh .i weigh more and im younger you saying your fat is saying im the size of the world
julietgrey21 3 weeks ago
I'm 14 5'7 and 156 pounds I'm so fat
sk8terdiva 3 weeks ago
My only wish is to be perfect, it feels like I never will be my definition of perfect though. :(
xElleVictoriax 3 weeks ago
Love this <3
mangamadme 4 weeks ago
EXACTLY How I feel..... My life's story in 3:33 seconds. All wrapped together with a catchy little tune.....
vanityrose1203 1 month ago 5
@MusicInMahSoulXD Dear God, I'm so jealous.
RowanGabrielle 1 month ago
@RowanGabrielle Me too -____-
Libbymariehaw 1 month ago
I am fourteen and weigh 188 pounds. Yeah I know I am fat. I don't mind the truth. How I wish to be pretty. To be good enough...
NausicaaMisa 1 month ago
@NausicaaMisa im 13 in march 117 5'2 height no one thinks im fat AT ALL they think im 99 pounds ugh not i hate my weight
Libbymariehaw 1 month ago
my life in 3:33 seconds
Xxxevilangel 1 month ago
Is it bad im 15 and weigh 89 pounds? xP
MusicInMahSoulXD 1 month ago
@MusicInMahSoulXD No, its LUCKY
Libbymariehaw 1 month ago
@MusicInMahSoulXD 14; and 81
NovembersSunShine 1 month ago in playlist More videos from SR3319846
Who's in control now?
Not me.
ExtraElectric 1 month ago
@ExtraElectric not me :[
julietgrey21 1 month ago
story of my life.
EmmaLittleDove 1 month ago
Secrets, secrets, secrets... they make me tired.
Oranges1own1you 1 month ago 2
im ugly
lookatmenowchick 1 month ago
@lookatmenowchick you are Not, I know that without even looking at you! :) Please don't destroy your body, don't beat yourself up, I LOVE you and You are Gorgeous, because there could never be a more beautiful YOU! Look up "A More Beautiful You" by Jonny Diaz, b/c he can tell you how it is better than I can. If you ever want to talk, pleasee mail me!
Warrior4Christ18 1 month ago
i love the beat especially in the intro!
sandalinalang13 1 month ago
@megamissninja
must be nice.. i'm 5'4 and 130..but i cut back majorly on eating so the pounds will start dropping RAPIDLY.
Haleydevoss2 1 month ago
This song describes me perfectly :/ my family expects me to be perfect so I'm always striving for perfection but I keep failing...
noxium7 1 month ago 3
@megamissninja
i dont see the real me i weigh 102 and im 5'4 but i see myself 202
dyingtobehappy 1 month ago
I hate when they stare at me.. I thought they were my friends..
KylerKillsKandy 1 month ago
yestarday my mom had a talk with me, and at the end she said "what's the problem? just eat."
but i keep leting her down
maayanl16 1 month ago
@maayanl16 yahh my mom had a talk with me too and she thinks im eating but im really not
despup 1 month ago
@despup
you need to belive in yourself. i'm just trying not to look at myself in the mirror and then i can eat a little more evrey time. it's not easy and i'm tired of it but it's the only way.
maayanl16 1 month ago
This struggle never leaves me. No matter how many times I pray to see myself as God sees me or my fiance or friends do, I still fight the nagging feeling that I'm not good enough. But I never want to go to that place again... it's not worth it.
10soccerstar10 1 month ago
Im A Over Achevicer... I Want To Be The Perfect Weight! I Want People To Like Me.. I Want To Be Thin :/ I Hate Being 110 I'm So Fat :/ I Will Not Eat... I Will Not Eat Because Nothing Tastes As Good As It Feels To Be Thin... I Just Want To Be Perfect And Not Hate My Reflection..
xXTwilightGrl14Xx 1 month ago
you can never take it to far
dyingtobehappy 1 month ago
@dyingtobehappy what about people that make it the death of them?? is that not to far there dead because of how the world veiws and judges others...
MegaMissNinja 1 month ago
@MegaMissNinja im stuggling with aorexia and its the only thing im really good and i want to be no i need to be im going nto be thin and if it takes dying to get there then so be it
dyingtobehappy 1 month ago
@dyingtobehappy but why would you want to be so thin??
MegaMissNinja 1 month ago
scenexGORE98 2 months ago
i dont enjoy starving myself
i dont enjoy making myself throw up
i dont enjoy cutting myself
i just want to be perfect</3
despup 2 months ago 5
I am so fat and mayb if I lost my weight my family would love me :((
LautnerTaylorMrs 2 months ago 4
@LautnerTaylorMrs everyone in my family hates me because im fat and they are all really skinny so i havnt eate in 3 weeks going on 4 hoping to keep it going.......i hate me too
despup 2 months ago
@despup Well, you know what? Tell them "Screw you" You are who you are. They cant hate you for that. EAT!!! Dont starve yourself. Remember this, you are beautiful.
ShizalariAshe 2 months ago
@despup please eat i know its hard, but you need to! dont kill yourself for others, become healthy for you. I know it hurts to be the bigger one in the family but no one is worth starving yourself over. so please eat. message me if u need me, but please eat </3
habbogirl62 1 month ago
......Story.Of.My.Life....... Sighhh
IssyBearXLayneeboo 2 months ago
am I the only one who thinks rachel sounds like avril lavigne?
weepingwillows21 2 months ago 4
@weepingwillows21 nope i do too
despup 2 months ago
This song describes the life of every ana, because we aren't good enough.
xGiovine 2 months ago 32
my mom is on my trail. i faked eating today. but im scheduled to go to my ed doctor soon. what am i going to do????
xgoodgirl1114xx 2 months ago
This song is my life. No one cares too see how I'm doing. No one notices when I leave I'm never good enough and my friends don't see me. I'm not eating to get someone to look at me and help me
2012Gymnastics 2 months ago
@2012Gymnastics God, I know what you're going through there. I tried that as well and...Yeah, none of them noticed yet again. So I became independent. If they really wanted part of my life, they should have been there when I really needed them.
HawkWhisper23 2 months ago
Story. Of. My. Life.
I starve myself for perfection.
I hate my reflection.
angelsinger1000 2 months ago
This song describes my life.
BubbleyBlue01 2 months ago
What's wrong with comments to this song? lol Also, how did I land up here!!??
Anyway, for all the ones with low-self-esteem please start respecting yourself, love yourself or else no one else will.
TheYinful 2 months ago
@TheYinful you don't get it
cuttergirl100 2 months ago in playlist Favorite videos
I used to want to gain weight, then all my friends started sharing their weights and ugh.. i felt fat. I'm around 110 lbs, my goal is 90. I get so many compliments, but I;m still a nervous wreck. I want to have a stomach like those girls on those thinspo pictures on tumblr. Not even my boyfriend can help me anymore.
What have I become?</3
VictoriaxVanityxXx 3 months ago in playlist Favorite videos 18
@VictoriaxVanityxXx I know how you feel
BoReDoM1414 2 months ago
@VictoriaxVanityxXx i feel the same way. im like exsactly like you
TakeMyHandAndDance1 2 months ago
This song is my life.
2012Gymnastics 3 months ago 3
I hate everything about myself... I hate my hair, I am ugly, I'm smart but not smart enough, I work hard but not hard enough, I write well but not well enough, my eyes are blue (which is what I want) but too dull, I'm nice but not nice enough, I'm not popular, I'm violent according to my few friends... the list goes on forever. Why can't I just be who I've wanted to be for so long?
bookworm3431 3 months ago 4
People just don't understand..
Sydkneewriteslove 3 months ago
I look in the mirror,, and see a 105 pound girl,, with big thighs and fat girl breasts. I'm not thankful for my chocolate brown hair,, my average green eyes,, or my slightly crooked nose. My teeth are naturally straight,, and for a 13 year old girl everything about me is acceptable. But I'm still never good enough,, even though I've gotten 'better' and am now fatter than ever. I sometimes know I'm thin and pretty,, but usually all I see in the mirror is ugly.
CutieSceneNextDoor 3 months ago in playlist Secrets..
Nobody is perfect. No point in trying to be.
You ARE good enough for everybody...everybody except yourself.
How sad it is.
jtsudinski 3 months ago
@jtsudinski you don't understand unless you've been though it.IT IS SAD.
cuttergirl100 3 months ago
This song fits me. I'm never good enough. My family doesn't see me crying and not eating. I am not happy with being me. Why can't I just be happy being me.
2012Gymnastics 3 months ago 13
everything about this song is me all over :/
elisadelsette 3 months ago
This song almost descirbes me perfectly. Except I'm not completly starving myself. But the rest of it really applies to me exactly.
rnassirammarissanr 3 months ago 2
@coloradogirl6 yeah me too except i eat like a fatty al the time cause im too weak to say no to food when im hungry
butterflygirl123ful 3 months ago 4
I'm not struggling with any weight issues, but I know what it feels like to never be good enough...</3
Shawty453 3 months ago 2
Everyone has a different voice. No need to criticize :)
PoOhNeEyOrE123 3 months ago
I wish this was on itunes
cutieblue502 3 months ago
I dont liike the feeling of throwing up,
I dont like the feeling of being hungry,
I dont like feeling fat!
I dont like cutting myself!
But I want to be perfect!
My Only Wish! </3
be3dreamer 4 months ago 122
some else should of sang this song, someone with a better voice like dmei or somthing..
sourapplegurl 4 months ago
@sourapplegurl This song gives a good life lesson, I dont really think voice matters(:
BvbForLife98 3 months ago
i know i'm fat. i can see it.
i don't understand how they can ignore it...
i want to stop,i don't like being hungry, but i can't stand feeling fat.
maayanl16 4 months ago
When you starve and you're getting skinny it's not that easy. You will still see yourself fat, still, even if you're losing weight. You hate yourself. No one understands you. You lose friends. You don't talk with family. You clam up, you talk to no one. The only thing, that you can control is food. And you lose control at evertything. The only thing, that aer you thinking about is to lose weight. You harm yourself. You are in depression.
You just destroy your life.It's not as easy as it looks.
migotka271 4 months ago 6
I don't starve myself...I perfect my emptiness.
rainydaygurl97 4 months ago 7
I'm not starving for perfection...But I still hate my reflection.
HawkWhisper23 4 months ago 186
Hey, Im Mariah, i used to cut... to ease the pain.. Anyway ive stopped because of my bf and amazing friends. If u ever need Prayer, or a simple talk im here :)) STAYSTRONG
Mymybabypie 4 months ago 5
-/3
DanceFreak780 4 months ago
<l3
meggiexo11 4 months ago
I' ve been starving this month, my mom told me that if I keep like that, she will send me to rehab. It really doesn't matter to me, I just want to dissapear, don't be so depressed every day, everytime, with everyone.. I just want everything be like it was before ;(
mandusanchez 4 months ago 3
@mandusanchez If you ever need to talk message me?, I have a channel on eating disorders, feel free to have a look. Stay strong!<3
DiarySecrets303 4 months ago
is this song wrote for me?
Royal17Bitch 4 months ago
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Prettyperfect14 4 months ago
I cant tAke this . Im tired of my eating disorder I want to die!
Prettyperfect14 4 months ago
@Prettyperfect14 I'm sick of my eating disorder too. hang in there and be strong. You can beat this. =)
xElleVictoriax 4 months ago
@Prettyperfect14 I'm sorry..if you ever need to talk, feel free to message me <3 I'm praying for you.
NOTperfect4ever 4 months ago
Im tired of all of this . Im tired of being fat . Im tired of it all . I really want to die . I wish I was dead .. I want to die . I really do. Ugh .
Prettyperfect14 4 months ago
My brother was complaining about homework the other day and I said " to me homework is nothing to complain about. Be grateful for what u have!" then he said " what do u mean?" and I said " I would give anything. ANYTHING to be where you are right now! Constantly it's ' does Ryan have a boy scout meeting does ryan have a nutritionist appointment?' Plus you've got all these snacks and full tubs of frozen yogurt all to yourself! Meanwhile I'm starving myself just to get our parents attention!" he
jkseiden 4 months ago
I'm starving myself so I can be lovely.
NwieNobody 4 months ago
PRO ANA IS PRO DEATH
sarabeth1410 4 months ago
I lost my half sister Stephanie to anorexia 2 years ago when she was 16 and I was in 7th grade. I miss her every single day. She was beautiful but she couldn't see that, and she got down to 89 pounds at 5'3. My best friend lost her cousin to bullemia, and we started a support club at school for kids who've lost family members to eating disorders. If only Steph could see what i do today :'(
danismilez25 4 months ago
13, 5'1 100lbs getting sucked into ana. I am FAT
AlexandraxxFaith 5 months ago
It reminds me of myself..
kasy187 5 months ago
cant stand how true this is, get help girls I did you can do it :)
sarabeth1410 5 months ago
This song made me cry so much..it's all too similar to myself..
x3blackrainbow 5 months ago
This song reminds me of my life
MusicInMahSoulXD 5 months ago
This song makes me laugh at myself.. I'm so dumb I'll never be perfect because I'm incapable I've got three B's in high school its not even second semester yet
sadkitty4 5 months ago
Everybody said she was a winner... no one knew the secret kept within her.. </3 :/
OoPainfulLiesoO 5 months ago in playlist Liked
I'm finding myself in these lyrics too. It makes me sad, that I don't want to be like that, I want to be just like every girl in the world.. And, on the other side, my dreams to be thinner and thinner are winning and I can't stop even if I want :(
migotka271 5 months ago
@migotka271 I am at a normal weight. Anorexic. I missed my period this month idk what's wrong u can talk to me I know how u feel :[
IrishFig 5 months ago
@ATearInAWord, wow i am pretty much exactly same height/weight as u. thats kinda wierd, lol, age is close 2, im 17, but srsly i no how u feel. ive know how it all feels. ive done more than contemplated tho unfortunantly
NJgatto 5 months ago
Im 20. Im 5'8. Ive binged and purged and starved myself since i was 8. I wiegh 94 pounds now. Everyone has given up on me. I cut, i hate taking a shower because i have to see myself naked and see all the scars. I have the worst self esteem. I was going to be a professional dancer. Im too skinny now. I run over 24 miles a day to burn off everything ive eaten. And im about to give up.
Sorry. English not my first language...
Thanks for listening. <3
MireTheGreat 5 months ago 2
@MireTheGreat Never give up.
YuiMewMew 5 months ago
"but shes still in denial...."
mizzcullen101 5 months ago
who's in control now?
not me...
maayanl16 5 months ago 5
I used to struggle with poor self esteem and tried cutting a few times, but then i actually opened my eyes and saw how much my friends needed me. <3 it's kept me strong<3
tallperson605 5 months ago 2
I have EDNOS. I weigh 115 pounds. I'm 5'5 or 5'6
i hope im not fat
xElleVictoriax 5 months ago
@xElleVictoriax your not fat and don't need to loose anymore! Stay strong:)
crystalynn2006 5 months ago
@xElleVictoriax You're perfect, even underweight.
ilovelibertyTYC 5 months ago
@ilovelibertyTYC thats not underweight, its considered normal weight actually.
xElleVictoriax 5 months ago
@xElleVictoriax Good for you then. I'm 5'5" and 135. That's considered borderline.
ilovelibertyTYC 5 months ago
@xElleVictoriax 115 is a perfect weight. for your height dearie
EssenceEvans 5 months ago in playlist Sad D:
@jkseiden heey, if you ever need someone to vent to, im here. stay strong, your worth so much<3
shayshay0203 5 months ago
@lovePINK1117 you hav no idea how much that ment to me! Thank you soooo much! Just knowing somebody cared made me go eat! Thank you :D
jkseiden 5 months ago
@lovePINK1117 thanks sooo much!!! :) but I just got a YouTube account so idk how to message people
jkseiden 5 months ago
I'm 13, I'm anerexic , I weigh 88 pounds. People call me hot. But.... I'm not I'm not where I want to be -/3
mylifeofmusic916 5 months ago
Everybody said she was a winner . No one knew the secret kept within her</3
She tries harder than the average teen , an over achiever with low self esteem</3
She's never good enough</3
She feels like she's on trial , but she,s still in denial</3
Who's in control now ?</3
mickeyandbubbles 5 months ago in playlist imperfection..... 56
I am 13 I have anorexia and I cut myself. My mom only pays attention to my brother and is blind to my stress. I have dyslexia but I've never told anyone not even my perents. I have attempted suicide over 9 times. I've givien up suicide but I'm not enjoying my life. No matter how hard I try my grades are in the sixdeys. I'm soooo depressed but I'm scared to take pills for it cuz I'm scared I'll try to overdose. This song describes me
jkseiden 5 months ago
@jkseiden If you ever need someone to talk to and understand im here!!!!:) just message me!!!
lovePINK1117 5 months ago
@jkseiden I'm in the same thing. I am 12, and my parents only cares about my brothers, no one more. I'm anorexic, and I almost cut myself 2 times, but I just couldn´t. I've never told anyone about my depression, only my friends Alison, who really doesn´t matters, and Candela, who almost tell'em about it to my family. I'm very scared, but I can't to anything about that. Nothing matters to me now, and I just want to die, and disappear.
I'm sorry for my bad english, I'm from Argentina :)
mandusanchez 4 months ago
I'm 14, and outpatient for anorexia nervosa started September 1st. I've always been a perfectionist, so giving this up is hard for me. I've been told that I'm sick enough to be in the hospital, and that's why I'm not resisting re-feeding. It's scary. Hell, recovery is the SCARIEST thing you will EVER have to do. It will scare you shitless, but I'm glad that I have a future. I'm going to go to a very prestigious school, and I will recover. No matter how hard this is, I'll be happy soon.
MiaRelevio 5 months ago 2
Im recovered from ana and bulimia:) And i understand what you guys are going through if you need someone to talk to im here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) Just message me:)
lovePINK1117 5 months ago
i wish i weighed under 115lbs....
rchl2010 5 months ago
@rchl2010 me too :(
JamieTheBlondeChick 5 months ago
Didn't eat much today , maybe ill do the same thing tomorrow . i could be skinny finally !
mickeyandbubbles 6 months ago
@ATearInAWord Wow, i got exactly the same problem!
Only I'm 18, 5'8 and 102 lbs.
I really do have the same things..'
Staystrong <3.
elinexxxx 6 months ago
Im still struggleing with bulimia. I am never good enough.
mizzcullen101 6 months ago
@mizzcullen101 You are good enough!! People should except you for who you are!! If you need someone to talk to im here!!!Just message me!
lovePINK1117 5 months ago
I feel the same. /:
mizzcullen101 6 months ago
I thought if I changed who I was I would be good enough. I'm never good enough.
How did I let it get this far? I don't even know who I am anymore
Curlycute96 6 months ago
And @vlatkacobain, good god, tell me you're joking. You don't want this. You don't ASK for this. It's not lucky. It's hell. Get your facts straight.
misscrabbyabbie 6 months ago
@ATearInAWord, I've been there. It gets better, darling, I promise. People still get mad at me for not eating certain things. My friends think it's stupid. Message me if you like, I'm here for you. <3
misscrabbyabbie 6 months ago
I love this song! It relates to me a lot. Im 12 and anorexic. Last year i was 58 poubds and went to the hospital cuz my ed. Then i got help and noticed i started to gain a lot of weight and i didnt like it. So i stopped eating. Again. Now im 73 pounds and still struggling with anorexia. So last week i got help. I talked to someone and it felt good to just let all ur feelings go. Its such a humbling feeling. Just remember the first step to recovery is TALK TO SOMEONE!!!
MsBelieberz 6 months ago
Is this song on iTunes?
swimmer24100 6 months ago
I had anorexia and i really did love my decease sorry. Please dont comment back on this if its gunna be something mean.
ceacheers 6 months ago
@xBigIsntBeautifulx I recommend eating kiwi..
HahaItsCatherine 6 months ago
@ xBigIsntBeautifulx nothing.but a slice of apple for every meal works too if you need to eat.
4everzoey4242 6 months ago
I'm a girl , 16 years old . I've been suffering from Depression and Anorexia for over 5 years now . I don't know why this happened to me , or when it did . The only thing i know is that i can't control it . ITS NOT ME .I'm the queen of pretending like it's all fine . Nobody knows what i'm really going through and nobody knows me.I isolate myself from everyone and i sometimes hate people around me . They act like they know , but the truth is , you can't know if you don't live it EVERYDAY .
Linksmilk13 6 months ago 7
What are good things to eat during the day? Like breakfast and lunch? My mom will make me eat whatever she makes for dinner, so I need the best possible things for during the day!
xBigIsntBeautifulx 6 months ago
@xBigIsntBeautifulx any fruits like organes, apples, peaches. plus they will give you energy
xLavenderBlossomx 6 months ago
i get asked the same questions over & over again.. "you're life is so perfect why do you cut?..." or, "you're so beautiful, and skinny, why don't you eat?..." if i had a penny ever time someone said i was thin, i wouldbe rich, but i would be poor if it only accounted for it being true... )= i strive for perfection, but as you can see i am no where close to being there. so why do people say i have a perfect life?? Because no one sees through the fake smile...
kamayla2015 6 months ago 6