interesting channel. thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. sometimes life is just hard, well actually it always is...best of luck to you and God bless.
I got out of the hospital December 14. It made the holidays even harder than they usually are. My family hasn't helped. They say things that make it seem like I should be guilty for getting the help I need. I wish I could say things are better now, but they aren't. Cutting and depression have consumed me like they never have before...
I didn't get a lot of presents for Christmas because I didn't ask for anything, which was fine with me. BUT the day AFTER we opened presents I remembered that I needed an external hard drive to store my documents and files since I need it while I'm in college. I ended up getting it and paying for it myself. So pissed at myself. >.<
My family does not know about my problems the only ones who know are my mom and sister and they have no idea what extent they go to. All everyone in my extended family knows is that I am no working and I have been living off the savings I had when I was living at home and working. They don't know that I was forced out of school for missing too much school due to my illness and that I eventually had to drop out of distance they just assume I am lazy and keep pressuring me and I can't stand it.
hello you have too make a new years video hun....i wanna see you ....& see what your up too on new yrs eve !!this is your buddy steven ...im still on my xanax i got 2mgs of xanax ..i have the blues too from the past 1mgs footballs ..they help ok i know alot about how you can get what insurance you deserve ..come and talk ytoo me even if you inbox me on fb thats fine ..just tell me what you want too ...your kooll..and have a happy new years
Had a kinda similar fallout (the uncle one) years ago in my teens, days after my mother died, and to this day it still affects my trust.
On a more positive note, I'm having a hard time today, urge-y and stuff, and expected to be in the hospital by now but I still haven't cut, and am watching your vids and one of the comments here reminded me to check out meetup.com as my T has suggested a few times but I keep forgetting.
good morning xsullengirlx ! thought id say gm too see how your doing....i got my medicine a few days ago myself ...anti-anxiety benzodiazepines meds ...yeah they help ok the dizziness ...during a panic attack ....they have what the doctor said was a seritonin reuptake drugs would have too try that first ....but the zoloft & prozac & paxil didnt work it takes 4 too 6 weeks too start working if it was going too work ...but a benzodiazepines works right away !!..weite me sometime
so yer me again :D just hope my little vent has made you feel better anyway Im at home nearly emotionally ate my body weight in biccys (Lol or cookies as you call them in the u.s) Im pretty lonely too but I feel ok that I have my mum and chuwowier haha ooo congrats on your engagement, I think your brave and strong for admitting you need help and getting it u inspired me cos its the best thing I did even tho I lost people over it I now see a therpist im getting back on my feet again thank u x
I mean its there problem for being not understanding had to short hand cos the youtube will only let you type so much but yes I have dyslexia dyspraxia and dyscalcular I have anxiety and depression I take prozac for that which works for me (but makes my short term memory worse) some of my challenges cos my life has been challenging and I have been bulied virtually all my life Im like a single briget jones charecter age 26 single and training to be a beauty therpist Lol (I LOL at myself alot)
Im sorry your havin a lonely xmas hunni, :(ur videos help me alot the how to tell ur bf/gf about your problems video. Im from the uk and Im really pleased I found ur channel Im glad I did tell my bf about my probs even tho it lead to our break up & hes left me for a girl with a baby which is very upsettiing as Ive thought about him everyday since da split he didnt understand just like your uncle and it hurts but there prob not yours or mine the only person u can depend on is yourself I think :)x
Hey girl I hope u feel better soon lol I feel the same way I went to a mental hospital on the 21-23 of this month and now my mom treats me like a kid I'm 26 not 4 that's me
My parents found out about me cutting cuz they hacked into my facebook and they say that my urges are fake and I'm just an attention whore. I want to cut all the time but I just can't. They think its a phase even though they kno way happened to me.
hello hun how did you do today .....you going too make another update video about christmas..happy holidays i enjoy you and would love too talk too you anyway you can i had an great christmas ...it sure goes by fast hun looking forward too hearing more videos of you darling its your friend steven
srry you had bad time about your car & you said you spent christmas alone !...but your not alone when you have friends like me and others too listen and chat with me your friend steven ....merry christmas ..
I'm really sorry about your life being so shitty at the moment. I really hope it will get better for you. I love you and my thoughts are with you this holiday season xx
OMGG! i can relate to this so much, you dont even know. Worst holiday season by far!! hope thngs get better though, they will! And who knows what the new year will bring :)
That so much sucks that your uncle won't have anything to do with you just because of your disability but please don't let your uncle get you depressed because of that . Don't feel bad I have a church friends who think I don't need my disability eather. I also got kicked outta church because of me not reading my bible and me screwing up an texting single women while my wife is at work the church elders have really beat me down an I so feel like crap .. But other then that merry Christmas
Don't let your uncle's ignorance get you down. That should be an example of how people who seem to be intelligent are actually very closed minded and their intelligence is limited to just what has been handed too them through "education", that they actually deserve NO respect, and you should now be aware of your superiority over them, even with your mental problems. Do not tolerate his presence again, he doesn't deserve you in his life. I hope some positive things come your way soon.
2 years ago I was very depressed and self injuring because my bf was killed by a hit and run and last feburary my grandma died im 21 and have more then 20 deaths in my life I kinda know how u feel my sister stole lie and is very manulatify and no remorse but now 2 my sister moved out im engaged and no longer self injure and I find out in january if I got Ssi I love ur videos don't ever stop making them.
Christie, I'm so sorry to hear about the horrible holiday season you are having. This is my first christmas without my adopted mom in my life. I have chosen to walk away because I need to move on with my life and try to be happy and not held back. I tried to write you a message on facebook but I was taking medication for the pain and if I didn't make sense I'm so sorry. I really hope things get better for you. Sincerely, Lauren
I haven't had a social life (job or friends or otherwise) for 13 years. I've been sitting at home unable to do anything because of a mental disability, it upsets me that there are so many people out there who don't even think mental disability is even real. My own family just thinks I'm basically lazy, I don't know what to do. I saw a therapist but she didn't help, also dshs cut my support so I'm basically doomed to be alone forever. Have a merry christmas!
I am sorry the holiday season sucks for you! I hate the holidays also....this season is terrible for me. I know exactly what you mean when you say too depressed to self injure. I am at that point. I haven't been this depressed in a really hard time. My therapist confiscated my meds due to suicidal thoughts. Eh. I don't even know how to feel anymore.
You seem so nice, and only so much bad can happen to one person, but sometimes things get worse before they get better. And maybe invest in a bike? its more eco-friendly! Thank you for making this video, i really appreciate it c: I can really relate to what's happened to you lately, and solo christmas isn't quite so bad c: Exams are soo stressful; and my family just thinking i want attention when i try to talk to them or when i tried to explain my SI scars, and so on... Have a Happy ChristmasC:
I am so sorry this has all happened to you. You don't deserve it. Do you think you'll move to England with Em? You could start a whole new life there with someone who loves you dearly.
Well ive just had a letter off this shitty government for me to fill out a questionnaire , on my mental health basically they are trying to cut all the benefits in the uk too! So i'm depressed as shit , , will have to speak to my psychiatrist in january, they really know how to kick a girl when she's down .................. : (
I'm so sorry to hear about the ruth time you're going throuhg, you're not the only one who have family issueds infact i'm going through the simerlor thing that you are and been real close to harming myself again. so you not on your own, :D
Sorry to hear that things have been going down hill for you =(. People changing on you, car problems, family problems, ugh jeez. I have the same problem with people changing on me. Maybe not the same as you, but I know how that feels. Drives me crazy. I really do hope that things will start to look up for you in the future though. I really do =). Try to keep a positive mind set. I know that is hard, but not impossible ;-). Your brave making these videos. I get too self-conscious making videos.
I absolutely hate the holiday season because there is always so much family drama during a time that is supposed to be happy. Someone is always offended with someone else's lifestyle choices and decides to ruin get-togethers for everyone else. Holidays are supposed to be about setting aside differences and coming together in peace and love. It's just a shame that all this has happened to you. :( Keep your chin up is all I can really say!!! If nothing else, all of us are here for ya! :D
yes I have felt like that before... all you can do is to try and keep busy, I am the youngest in the family I am 17 now.. XD only 3 days... currently I am in the best finatial situation.. my sister is in debt and is working over Christmas and no one will employ my mum... my boyfriend lives miles away and so most of the money I earn goes on him... Christmas is canseled for me too... no where near as bad... XD just needed to complain to someone *flops head on desk*
Sorry to hear about all the problems you've been having. My holidays always suck but this whole year has been the worst one of my life so going through the holidays makes everything intensified. I've sunk into a deep depression and can't get out of it. I'm glad I have other people that vlog also about their anxiety and depression because it makes me feel a little understood. I hope something gets better for you.
I am sorry your having Problems with Family Members - I am having a lot of problems with a few of family members but I can't be even bothered with them!(they are not gonna get any Drama) - They will soon be themselves again - Why should my Blood Pressure go high! I don't want to go into a deeper depression and anxiety to go worse. I wish you lived closer I would have cooked for you over Christmas - Chin Up and Always Smile xxxxxx
I'm sorry things are so tough right now, I think what's going on would make anyone depressed, without taking into consideration depression and anxiety on top of that. I hope the start of 2012 will be better for you than the end of 2011. Congratulations on your engagement :) x
Congrats about the engagement. I am straight Christian with closed minded parents but I am open minded and I am happy for you. I am glad you are safe, stay strong I relate I only had 1yr of 29 yrs of life driving. But after 2 yrs seizure free finally going for my license. Also via mutual friend found out my ex husband is worked at a bar for one month, so after two years letting go (for good reasoning) of child support I am going to him about it, if he refuses I go to court so yea...
i know how you feel about your uncle situation. everyone in my family believes the same thing. that anyone can work even if you have disability so they dont really care. i dont have a job either or any money so im with you there. also im really sorry about your car.
question: where are you guys gonna get married? Because i know you lot can get married over here in england since its like still illegal.....SOOO ANNOYING!!!
p.s love your videos your an inspiration and have really helped me!! :)
I would write to the uncle and send copies around to the family. Make sure it is edited and thought out legally in advance. What CONSTRUCTIVE criticism is he offering you? Is he just disapproving? I have major problems with people on benefits, myself, but unless I've found alternatives for them or been able to help directly, I shut up. I live in a glass house. You need to let him know he's hurt you, and make your family aware. Let's see if they are spineless or not, eh?
i don't think you want anyone's pity. every person who has watched your videos for quite a while should know that you've been through so much and you've been so strong and such an inspiration to me and probably many others. i wish you just the best from the bottom of my heart and happy holidays <3 p.s. being alone on christmas sucks i know, but you could make it a little more bareable if you treated yourself with f.e. a mini-spa treat (face mask, feet bathing etc.) and a nice movie or something
@xxsullengirlxx hey I hope things get better soon. I know it's off topic but I absolutely love your make up and have really fair skin like yours and was wondering if you have any favorite foundation or anything :-)
i would have you come with me an my family an eat some gumbo but i live in tx i hop things look up for you an hop your sister learns that your her sister! an you get a car i know how it is not to have one it sucks! a lot! an congrats about you an your gf ^_^ an your uncle needs to be a adult!.ssi its hard to deal with i know form experience! hop your holiday looks up
My holidays are always a bit off too to say the least because of family drama which SUCKS...but trying to not let it get to me too much. Hope things start to look up for you soon though. And congrats on being engaged! I knew you had a gf, but didn't know she was now your fiance. :3 That's happy. Sucks that you don't get to see her though :(
I'm alone on every holiday, it's not tooooo bad, but as a person with conditions similar to yours, it's very very offputting. I've been in the same situation with my vehicle, it's never good You're not "bitching" about your life at all, everything you say positively impacts me and many other people so it's helpful. Congratulations to you and your partner, with how I am and being single, it's a volatile mix. Everything gets bottled up. Everything. You've been through so much Merry xmas!
I'm sorry your holiday season has been going so badly. I hope things perk up for you soon. My holiday has been lousy, but just in that every little thing seems to go wrong. And everything together just gets me down, you know? Fingers crossed for everyone that January brings good things!
Your uncle is dick. You may want to try a website called Meetup.com. There maybe some SI and mental illness groups in your area that you could join and go to and also they may have some Christmas events going on.
@xsullengirlx Good luck to you! Let me know how meetup goes for you. I know in my area I have found some SI and Anxiety groups. There are also PLENTY of other groups you can join just based on whatever you are interested in. You can meet people and get out and do things. Maybe there will be some Christmas or New Years partys going on that you can go to. Don't let certain members in your family get you down or the crappy Social Security people. They have no problem helping illegals
@xsullengirlx or people that don't need it but someone like you and others that DO need it can't get help or catch a break. It makes me sick. And also if one day it should happen to your uncle where he is stricken down and is unable to work and has to rely on public assistants let's see how he'll like it and the compassion he will get. Majority of people on SSI/SSDI or other assistance would rather be working and not getting crappy government assistance.
My mom really just couldn't work. She got fired for having a breakdown and just wasn't in that place to work, and it's not a choice. I knew at 11 years old it wasn't her fault or just being lazy. She just couldn't hold down a job. Too bad your uncle doesn't understand that. Family conflict sucks, been there done that. Sorry about your drama, hopefully it will mellow out soon. Happy holidays anyhow.
@retroscenery I'm sorry to hear about your mom, but I understand these things do happen and it's never fair, it's never a choice. I wish more people did understand that. Thank you for the comment & happy holidays to you too :)
Funny, I know how you feel about being too depressed to self injure. I feel depression for me has certain levels of being more or less awful. Sometimes I have no motivation to pick a blade up at all. As far as social security, I hear you. My mother has mental problems and was for a time, unable to work. Unfortunately she didn't feel benefits would be enough and went to prostitution. While I don't understand being ridiculed, I can provide sympathy.
I'm sorry things haven't been so great for you. Believe me, I know the feeling. :( I'll be alone on Christmas too. My immediate family (Mom and brother) haven't really celebrated Christmas for a while, but not at all the past couple years. This is going to be the 2nd Christmas without my oldest brother. And, extended family (cousins/aunts/uncles) have their own celebrations with their families and each other. So, i'm alone. It's not that bad. Hope we both have better a Christmas next year.. :)
@Sunshyne276 Aw, I am sorry you have to be alone too, it's not a very good feeling. :( I hope that it's not too bad for either of us, and maybe next year will be better. Happy Holidays :)
Many states have protection for people harmed by uninsured, hit and run drivers. This is not advertised. Your license and registration fees include a little money for a big fund, likely. You must sue your State, likely. I know a lawyer in NYS who explained this to me long ago, finds local counsel, and works on a contingency. (He must be very old now.) This info is not out there and many lawyers don't even know. I am having a horrible non-holiday. It's thoroughly dreadful & I'm ill.
@slobomotion But do you mean harmed as in personal property damage, or as in hurt physically? No one was in my car, and of course liability insurance on my side won't cover a dime. I will look into options though. The police are "investigating" but with no real hard evidence Im sure they won't investigate very hard! I hope you feel better soon. :)
@xsullengirlx No, no one was harmed but cars were totalled or seriously damaged. Whatever you are told by police or legal people, assume it is lies. People get upset with me because I charge money for referrals, but if I know someone such as this great old lawyer who with his wife has run a firm from home in NYC since the '60s with such success, I think I have a right to be paid, cuz Lord know I've given away too much for nothing and no thanks whatsover.
@xsullengirlx My brother in Ohio who got in a hit and run accident and had his valuable and necessary vehicle totalled was given by me the name of this lawyer but would not call! He ended up going with some local know-nothing and after years of waiting got "a pittance," as he described it. Why people do not hire me as a consultant and why family who have not listened to me with free contacts do not comply, I have no idea. sigh
I'm so sorry to hear about your holidays:( I probably not going to have a jolly one either I'm being diagnosed with major clinical depression and it sucks:/ and I'm lonely even though there is family and people around me:/ I feel like a disturbance to everyone in general, I really hope things get better for you :) keep your chin up :) if life gives you a hundred reasons to cry ;give life a thousand reasons to smile! and your so beautiful! you have gorgeous eyes!! an don't give up on a better t
well i hope mine doesnt go as bad as yours, damn that all just really sucks, i hope it gets better for you. When it rains it pours. Try to stay positive, hopefully someone will turn up about your car.
@Error4Life01 haha you may have noticed that I totally ruined the faux fur on mine because I put it in the dryer and it got all... weird! I love it and still rock it anyway. Thanks for the well wishes & happy holidays :)
@Error4Life01 I wondered how many other people did that. It wasn't clear on the washing instructions! grrrrrm cute hoodie, we will still pretend we look cool in them even with matted fur and bleach spots ;) tres chic!
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interesting channel. thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. sometimes life is just hard, well actually it always is...best of luck to you and God bless.
sillykidssong 3 weeks ago
I got out of the hospital December 14. It made the holidays even harder than they usually are. My family hasn't helped. They say things that make it seem like I should be guilty for getting the help I need. I wish I could say things are better now, but they aren't. Cutting and depression have consumed me like they never have before...
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efid6 1 month ago
I didn't get a lot of presents for Christmas because I didn't ask for anything, which was fine with me. BUT the day AFTER we opened presents I remembered that I needed an external hard drive to store my documents and files since I need it while I'm in college. I ended up getting it and paying for it myself. So pissed at myself. >.<
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My family does not know about my problems the only ones who know are my mom and sister and they have no idea what extent they go to. All everyone in my extended family knows is that I am no working and I have been living off the savings I had when I was living at home and working. They don't know that I was forced out of school for missing too much school due to my illness and that I eventually had to drop out of distance they just assume I am lazy and keep pressuring me and I can't stand it.
anonyuser459 1 month ago
hello you have too make a new years video hun....i wanna see you ....& see what your up too on new yrs eve !!this is your buddy steven ...im still on my xanax i got 2mgs of xanax ..i have the blues too from the past 1mgs footballs ..they help ok i know alot about how you can get what insurance you deserve ..come and talk ytoo me even if you inbox me on fb thats fine ..just tell me what you want too ...your kooll..and have a happy new years
XANAX2MGS 1 month ago
Wow....you're dealing with a lot. *hugs*
Had a kinda similar fallout (the uncle one) years ago in my teens, days after my mother died, and to this day it still affects my trust.
On a more positive note, I'm having a hard time today, urge-y and stuff, and expected to be in the hospital by now but I still haven't cut, and am watching your vids and one of the comments here reminded me to check out meetup.com as my T has suggested a few times but I keep forgetting.
thesoothingsurf 1 month ago
I hope that all made sense-my organized thinking sux tonight.
Anyway I hope you're doing better... :- /
thesoothingsurf 1 month ago
I hope things have turned around by now :)
herfall 1 month ago
good morning xsullengirlx ! thought id say gm too see how your doing....i got my medicine a few days ago myself ...anti-anxiety benzodiazepines meds ...yeah they help ok the dizziness ...during a panic attack ....they have what the doctor said was a seritonin reuptake drugs would have too try that first ....but the zoloft & prozac & paxil didnt work it takes 4 too 6 weeks too start working if it was going too work ...but a benzodiazepines works right away !!..weite me sometime
XANAX2MGS 1 month ago
so yer me again :D just hope my little vent has made you feel better anyway Im at home nearly emotionally ate my body weight in biccys (Lol or cookies as you call them in the u.s) Im pretty lonely too but I feel ok that I have my mum and chuwowier haha ooo congrats on your engagement, I think your brave and strong for admitting you need help and getting it u inspired me cos its the best thing I did even tho I lost people over it I now see a therpist im getting back on my feet again thank u x
maryburk07 2 months ago
I mean its there problem for being not understanding had to short hand cos the youtube will only let you type so much but yes I have dyslexia dyspraxia and dyscalcular I have anxiety and depression I take prozac for that which works for me (but makes my short term memory worse) some of my challenges cos my life has been challenging and I have been bulied virtually all my life Im like a single briget jones charecter age 26 single and training to be a beauty therpist Lol (I LOL at myself alot)
maryburk07 2 months ago
Im sorry your havin a lonely xmas hunni, :(ur videos help me alot the how to tell ur bf/gf about your problems video. Im from the uk and Im really pleased I found ur channel Im glad I did tell my bf about my probs even tho it lead to our break up & hes left me for a girl with a baby which is very upsettiing as Ive thought about him everyday since da split he didnt understand just like your uncle and it hurts but there prob not yours or mine the only person u can depend on is yourself I think :)x
maryburk07 2 months ago
yeah she loves your videos too hun we have tons of friends hun ...but we still can be friends ...i take xanax for my anxiety ..panic attacks
XANAX2MGS 2 months ago
OMG, YOU'RE ENGAGED!!! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU! CAPS LOCK TO EMPHASIZE MY EXCITEMENT!!!!!!!!!!! :D
You're having one hell of a time though, I'm so sorry D:
xxashleyRxx 2 months ago
Hey girl I hope u feel better soon lol I feel the same way I went to a mental hospital on the 21-23 of this month and now my mom treats me like a kid I'm 26 not 4 that's me
MaNdYmUcH23 2 months ago
You inspire me to do my best and to fight when it comes to bad urges. Thank you.
EmiliWednesday 2 months ago
My parents found out about me cutting cuz they hacked into my facebook and they say that my urges are fake and I'm just an attention whore. I want to cut all the time but I just can't. They think its a phase even though they kno way happened to me.
EmiliWednesday 2 months ago
hello hun how did you do today .....you going too make another update video about christmas..happy holidays i enjoy you and would love too talk too you anyway you can i had an great christmas ...it sure goes by fast hun looking forward too hearing more videos of you darling its your friend steven
XANAX2MGS 2 months ago
srry you had bad time about your car & you said you spent christmas alone !...but your not alone when you have friends like me and others too listen and chat with me your friend steven ....merry christmas ..
XANAX2MGS 2 months ago
Hey merry christmas and stay strong luck will come your way. Ive been watchib
longboardguy 2 months ago
congratulations on your engagment! :D
I'm really sorry about your life being so shitty at the moment. I really hope it will get better for you. I love you and my thoughts are with you this holiday season xx
thesmilebeforeyoudie 2 months ago
OMGG! i can relate to this so much, you dont even know. Worst holiday season by far!! hope thngs get better though, they will! And who knows what the new year will bring :)
KeepHope0821 2 months ago
That so much sucks that your uncle won't have anything to do with you just because of your disability but please don't let your uncle get you depressed because of that . Don't feel bad I have a church friends who think I don't need my disability eather. I also got kicked outta church because of me not reading my bible and me screwing up an texting single women while my wife is at work the church elders have really beat me down an I so feel like crap .. But other then that merry Christmas
kansasjamiemcmurray 2 months ago
hello you have a merry christmas ...stay good attitude...no negative thoughts hun ok!im now your friend steven
XANAX2MGS 2 months ago
ima be alone for chistmas too i hate being stuck here away from home stupid japan i wana be back state side good luck girl an merry christmas
tracer813 2 months ago
Don't let your uncle's ignorance get you down. That should be an example of how people who seem to be intelligent are actually very closed minded and their intelligence is limited to just what has been handed too them through "education", that they actually deserve NO respect, and you should now be aware of your superiority over them, even with your mental problems. Do not tolerate his presence again, he doesn't deserve you in his life. I hope some positive things come your way soon.
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2 years ago I was very depressed and self injuring because my bf was killed by a hit and run and last feburary my grandma died im 21 and have more then 20 deaths in my life I kinda know how u feel my sister stole lie and is very manulatify and no remorse but now 2 my sister moved out im engaged and no longer self injure and I find out in january if I got Ssi I love ur videos don't ever stop making them.
onlyhope1513 2 months ago
Christie, I'm so sorry to hear about the horrible holiday season you are having. This is my first christmas without my adopted mom in my life. I have chosen to walk away because I need to move on with my life and try to be happy and not held back. I tried to write you a message on facebook but I was taking medication for the pain and if I didn't make sense I'm so sorry. I really hope things get better for you. Sincerely, Lauren
BlueBirdInspiration 2 months ago
I haven't had a social life (job or friends or otherwise) for 13 years. I've been sitting at home unable to do anything because of a mental disability, it upsets me that there are so many people out there who don't even think mental disability is even real. My own family just thinks I'm basically lazy, I don't know what to do. I saw a therapist but she didn't help, also dshs cut my support so I'm basically doomed to be alone forever. Have a merry christmas!
Dreldams 2 months ago
hello ty for chatting tonight this morning
XANAX2MGS 2 months ago
I am sorry the holiday season sucks for you! I hate the holidays also....this season is terrible for me. I know exactly what you mean when you say too depressed to self injure. I am at that point. I haven't been this depressed in a really hard time. My therapist confiscated my meds due to suicidal thoughts. Eh. I don't even know how to feel anymore.
Jaydensmama19 2 months ago
You seem so nice, and only so much bad can happen to one person, but sometimes things get worse before they get better. And maybe invest in a bike? its more eco-friendly! Thank you for making this video, i really appreciate it c: I can really relate to what's happened to you lately, and solo christmas isn't quite so bad c: Exams are soo stressful; and my family just thinking i want attention when i try to talk to them or when i tried to explain my SI scars, and so on... Have a Happy ChristmasC:
xiibu 2 months ago
everyone is getting hit with a wave of bad luck in the last few months. :( cheer up!
TheRoadpilgrim 2 months ago
well thanks, and no my holidays, aint that greatest, and yeah I will keep checking your videos out. take care.
MsJamesworld 2 months ago
Sorry to hear about your car and everything. I hope it gets better.
visualxjinsei 2 months ago
sorry for everything, but congrats on get proposed and the holidays suck for everyone!
flymofo3eb 2 months ago
I am so sorry this has all happened to you. You don't deserve it. Do you think you'll move to England with Em? You could start a whole new life there with someone who loves you dearly.
leighannenoelle 2 months ago
Well ive just had a letter off this shitty government for me to fill out a questionnaire , on my mental health basically they are trying to cut all the benefits in the uk too! So i'm depressed as shit , , will have to speak to my psychiatrist in january, they really know how to kick a girl when she's down .................. : (
missdarkangelxxx 2 months ago
I'm so sorry to hear about the ruth time you're going throuhg, you're not the only one who have family issueds infact i'm going through the simerlor thing that you are and been real close to harming myself again. so you not on your own, :D
TheMinimouse20 2 months ago
Sorry to hear that things have been going down hill for you =(. People changing on you, car problems, family problems, ugh jeez. I have the same problem with people changing on me. Maybe not the same as you, but I know how that feels. Drives me crazy. I really do hope that things will start to look up for you in the future though. I really do =). Try to keep a positive mind set. I know that is hard, but not impossible ;-). Your brave making these videos. I get too self-conscious making videos.
agrl20 2 months ago
I have a Fiance in the states and the U.S. will not let me in , I relate to that.
I Sincerly hope 2012 is great for you Hun.
Hoopybluefood 2 months ago
<3
Parrenort 2 months ago
I absolutely hate the holiday season because there is always so much family drama during a time that is supposed to be happy. Someone is always offended with someone else's lifestyle choices and decides to ruin get-togethers for everyone else. Holidays are supposed to be about setting aside differences and coming together in peace and love. It's just a shame that all this has happened to you. :( Keep your chin up is all I can really say!!! If nothing else, all of us are here for ya! :D
fruitikay 2 months ago
hello i listened to your video and just wanted to say hello i live in ca.....im glad too see you on youtube wheres your fb
XANAX2MGS 2 months ago
yes I have felt like that before... all you can do is to try and keep busy, I am the youngest in the family I am 17 now.. XD only 3 days... currently I am in the best finatial situation.. my sister is in debt and is working over Christmas and no one will employ my mum... my boyfriend lives miles away and so most of the money I earn goes on him... Christmas is canseled for me too... no where near as bad... XD just needed to complain to someone *flops head on desk*
deadyeeeyyy 2 months ago
Bless your heart. I hope things really look up soon!
SoHereIAm3 2 months ago
Sorry to hear about all the problems you've been having. My holidays always suck but this whole year has been the worst one of my life so going through the holidays makes everything intensified. I've sunk into a deep depression and can't get out of it. I'm glad I have other people that vlog also about their anxiety and depression because it makes me feel a little understood. I hope something gets better for you.
mentalmakeup 2 months ago
..despite all that you look pretty edible
BelialHexed 2 months ago
I am sorry your having Problems with Family Members - I am having a lot of problems with a few of family members but I can't be even bothered with them!(they are not gonna get any Drama) - They will soon be themselves again - Why should my Blood Pressure go high! I don't want to go into a deeper depression and anxiety to go worse. I wish you lived closer I would have cooked for you over Christmas - Chin Up and Always Smile xxxxxx
Umi10 2 months ago
I'm sorry things are so tough right now, I think what's going on would make anyone depressed, without taking into consideration depression and anxiety on top of that. I hope the start of 2012 will be better for you than the end of 2011. Congratulations on your engagement :) x
DemonsToSome1987 2 months ago
Your birthday is January 8th? Awesome mine is on the 9th!
ItsFlapJack 2 months ago
How is your sister doing if you still talk to her? You are in my prayers though cause drama likes to stalk me so I relate.
AngelBug109 2 months ago
Congrats about the engagement. I am straight Christian with closed minded parents but I am open minded and I am happy for you. I am glad you are safe, stay strong I relate I only had 1yr of 29 yrs of life driving. But after 2 yrs seizure free finally going for my license. Also via mutual friend found out my ex husband is worked at a bar for one month, so after two years letting go (for good reasoning) of child support I am going to him about it, if he refuses I go to court so yea...
AngelBug109 2 months ago
I will say something positive for once...CONGRATS ON YOUR ENGAGEMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish you all the happiness you can have. Love. Lei. xxx
GLEIGHA 2 months ago
I'm thinking of you don't give up! xxx
Alexandrine151515 2 months ago
I was also 23 when, it happened
LETmeLIVElifeANXIETY 2 months ago
i know how you feel about your uncle situation. everyone in my family believes the same thing. that anyone can work even if you have disability so they dont really care. i dont have a job either or any money so im with you there. also im really sorry about your car.
TimSimm2 2 months ago
Im really sorry about your christmas
But really happy to here about your engagement
question: where are you guys gonna get married? Because i know you lot can get married over here in england since its like still illegal.....SOOO ANNOYING!!!
p.s love your videos your an inspiration and have really helped me!! :)
notohaterz 2 months ago
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notohaterz 2 months ago
Aww, If you lived in my area I would invite you over for Christmas dinner. :)
TheKookieKiller 2 months ago
I would write to the uncle and send copies around to the family. Make sure it is edited and thought out legally in advance. What CONSTRUCTIVE criticism is he offering you? Is he just disapproving? I have major problems with people on benefits, myself, but unless I've found alternatives for them or been able to help directly, I shut up. I live in a glass house. You need to let him know he's hurt you, and make your family aware. Let's see if they are spineless or not, eh?
slobomotion 2 months ago
Dear sullen, does ur fav Uncle think u somehow chose to hav mental problems?
weasalw 2 months ago
i don't think you want anyone's pity. every person who has watched your videos for quite a while should know that you've been through so much and you've been so strong and such an inspiration to me and probably many others. i wish you just the best from the bottom of my heart and happy holidays <3 p.s. being alone on christmas sucks i know, but you could make it a little more bareable if you treated yourself with f.e. a mini-spa treat (face mask, feet bathing etc.) and a nice movie or something
TheKampfkeksi 2 months ago
@xxsullengirlxx hey I hope things get better soon. I know it's off topic but I absolutely love your make up and have really fair skin like yours and was wondering if you have any favorite foundation or anything :-)
pinkcoffeebn 2 months ago
I started the video while reading, then I had to skip back to check if I got it right:
Fiance?!! Ohhhhhhh sweet, thats great!
I´m sorry you´ll be alone on Christmas, but I hope you´ll have at least a little fun, perhaps making cookies or watch Dvd...just hope you´ll be fine.
pointtop123 2 months ago
i would have you come with me an my family an eat some gumbo but i live in tx i hop things look up for you an hop your sister learns that your her sister! an you get a car i know how it is not to have one it sucks! a lot! an congrats about you an your gf ^_^ an your uncle needs to be a adult!.ssi its hard to deal with i know form experience! hop your holiday looks up
Alexisqueertube 2 months ago
My holidays are always a bit off too to say the least because of family drama which SUCKS...but trying to not let it get to me too much. Hope things start to look up for you soon though. And congrats on being engaged! I knew you had a gf, but didn't know she was now your fiance. :3 That's happy. Sucks that you don't get to see her though :(
jessiebelle623 2 months ago
I'm alone on every holiday, it's not tooooo bad, but as a person with conditions similar to yours, it's very very offputting. I've been in the same situation with my vehicle, it's never good You're not "bitching" about your life at all, everything you say positively impacts me and many other people so it's helpful. Congratulations to you and your partner, with how I am and being single, it's a volatile mix. Everything gets bottled up. Everything. You've been through so much Merry xmas!
ahoymyboy1 2 months ago
I hope things get better for you soon
TheHomunculi 2 months ago
I'm sorry your holiday season has been going so badly. I hope things perk up for you soon. My holiday has been lousy, but just in that every little thing seems to go wrong. And everything together just gets me down, you know? Fingers crossed for everyone that January brings good things!
Irmavep11 2 months ago
I'm very sorry about everything. I wish i could offer you more advice/sympathy SOMETHING to make you feel better, but I can't really do that. :(
Holidays can be a rough time.
navvellines15 2 months ago
@navvellines15 Just that you took the time to watch me ramble, and comment... That is enough, and it does make me feel better. Thank you.
xsullengirlx 2 months ago
Your uncle is dick. You may want to try a website called Meetup.com. There maybe some SI and mental illness groups in your area that you could join and go to and also they may have some Christmas events going on.
DasFremde 2 months ago
@DasFremde Thank you for the info! Will check it out & I'm sure other people will see this and check it out too! :)
xsullengirlx 2 months ago
@xsullengirlx Good luck to you! Let me know how meetup goes for you. I know in my area I have found some SI and Anxiety groups. There are also PLENTY of other groups you can join just based on whatever you are interested in. You can meet people and get out and do things. Maybe there will be some Christmas or New Years partys going on that you can go to. Don't let certain members in your family get you down or the crappy Social Security people. They have no problem helping illegals
DasFremde 2 months ago
@xsullengirlx or people that don't need it but someone like you and others that DO need it can't get help or catch a break. It makes me sick. And also if one day it should happen to your uncle where he is stricken down and is unable to work and has to rely on public assistants let's see how he'll like it and the compassion he will get. Majority of people on SSI/SSDI or other assistance would rather be working and not getting crappy government assistance.
DasFremde 2 months ago
My mom really just couldn't work. She got fired for having a breakdown and just wasn't in that place to work, and it's not a choice. I knew at 11 years old it wasn't her fault or just being lazy. She just couldn't hold down a job. Too bad your uncle doesn't understand that. Family conflict sucks, been there done that. Sorry about your drama, hopefully it will mellow out soon. Happy holidays anyhow.
retroscenery 2 months ago
@retroscenery I'm sorry to hear about your mom, but I understand these things do happen and it's never fair, it's never a choice. I wish more people did understand that. Thank you for the comment & happy holidays to you too :)
xsullengirlx 2 months ago
Funny, I know how you feel about being too depressed to self injure. I feel depression for me has certain levels of being more or less awful. Sometimes I have no motivation to pick a blade up at all. As far as social security, I hear you. My mother has mental problems and was for a time, unable to work. Unfortunately she didn't feel benefits would be enough and went to prostitution. While I don't understand being ridiculed, I can provide sympathy.
retroscenery 2 months ago
I'm sorry things haven't been so great for you. Believe me, I know the feeling. :( I'll be alone on Christmas too. My immediate family (Mom and brother) haven't really celebrated Christmas for a while, but not at all the past couple years. This is going to be the 2nd Christmas without my oldest brother. And, extended family (cousins/aunts/uncles) have their own celebrations with their families and each other. So, i'm alone. It's not that bad. Hope we both have better a Christmas next year.. :)
Sunshyne276 2 months ago
@Sunshyne276 Aw, I am sorry you have to be alone too, it's not a very good feeling. :( I hope that it's not too bad for either of us, and maybe next year will be better. Happy Holidays :)
xsullengirlx 2 months ago
Many states have protection for people harmed by uninsured, hit and run drivers. This is not advertised. Your license and registration fees include a little money for a big fund, likely. You must sue your State, likely. I know a lawyer in NYS who explained this to me long ago, finds local counsel, and works on a contingency. (He must be very old now.) This info is not out there and many lawyers don't even know. I am having a horrible non-holiday. It's thoroughly dreadful & I'm ill.
slobomotion 2 months ago
@slobomotion But do you mean harmed as in personal property damage, or as in hurt physically? No one was in my car, and of course liability insurance on my side won't cover a dime. I will look into options though. The police are "investigating" but with no real hard evidence Im sure they won't investigate very hard! I hope you feel better soon. :)
xsullengirlx 2 months ago
@xsullengirlx No, no one was harmed but cars were totalled or seriously damaged. Whatever you are told by police or legal people, assume it is lies. People get upset with me because I charge money for referrals, but if I know someone such as this great old lawyer who with his wife has run a firm from home in NYC since the '60s with such success, I think I have a right to be paid, cuz Lord know I've given away too much for nothing and no thanks whatsover.
slobomotion 2 months ago
@xsullengirlx My brother in Ohio who got in a hit and run accident and had his valuable and necessary vehicle totalled was given by me the name of this lawyer but would not call! He ended up going with some local know-nothing and after years of waiting got "a pittance," as he described it. Why people do not hire me as a consultant and why family who have not listened to me with free contacts do not comply, I have no idea. sigh
slobomotion 2 months ago
I'm so sorry to hear about your holidays:( I probably not going to have a jolly one either I'm being diagnosed with major clinical depression and it sucks:/ and I'm lonely even though there is family and people around me:/ I feel like a disturbance to everyone in general, I really hope things get better for you :) keep your chin up :) if life gives you a hundred reasons to cry ;give life a thousand reasons to smile! and your so beautiful! you have gorgeous eyes!! an don't give up on a better t
MissEni97 2 months ago
well i hope mine doesnt go as bad as yours, damn that all just really sucks, i hope it gets better for you. When it rains it pours. Try to stay positive, hopefully someone will turn up about your car.
realmofoz 2 months ago
I have the same hoodie ^_^ Hope your holiday season get's better. :D
Error4Life01 2 months ago
@Error4Life01 haha you may have noticed that I totally ruined the faux fur on mine because I put it in the dryer and it got all... weird! I love it and still rock it anyway. Thanks for the well wishes & happy holidays :)
xsullengirlx 2 months ago
@xsullengirlx I noticed because I did the same thing >.< I also spilled bleach on it xD
Error4Life01 2 months ago
@Error4Life01 I wondered how many other people did that. It wasn't clear on the washing instructions! grrrrrm cute hoodie, we will still pretend we look cool in them even with matted fur and bleach spots ;) tres chic!
xsullengirlx 2 months ago
@xsullengirlx LOL. For sure. xD Ruined hoodies ftw.
Error4Life01 2 months ago