Thanks Lori, We all have are skeletons. Abuse causes dysfunction. Abuse also can be a great lesson as to what we don't want to be as adults and parents. You are the parent you are because of your deep first hand knowledge of the pain and suffering that a abusive parent can cause in you. You are a blessing to your kids and now to the world. Tom
@TVPEsquire Thank you... just wait to see what I post in a few weeks from now... I have more confessions....
WHO KNOWS why I do this.... actually, it is because it is soooo LIBERATING! I an not Catholic, but I am wondering if confessional time was liberating? Anyhow, I am being silly. I am sooo happy to know my courage has inspired you!!!!
I'm pretty much amazed by two things: How open and honest you can be with an audience that you can't see, and that you're able to talk for so long without any audience feedback. But as amazed as I am, I'm even more impressed. Kudos to you!
@mudhens4ever LOL! ME too!!!!!! I don't know why it is soooo easy for me.... but I admit.... I used to be scared. I think I just did it so much that it became easier! Also....just know that I have made hundreds of videos that have NEVER even been posted!
i think all those bad habits make you human and also very attractive :) i dont know why youre obviously very pretty but aside of that, the fact that you make public that yu arent perfect also gives me a good feeling hard to describe :s i like you :D
@ik1ik1ik1 Thank you! I think it is all about being REAL and not acting like everything is perfect! we all have ups and downs and baggage... but doing this let it all go!
i know 1 thing about EVERYONE: we all have 'secrets'. u r brave and should be proud.
i think billy joel put it so well, "honesty, is such a lonely word; everyone is so untrue. honesty, is hardly ever heard...AND MOSTLY WHAT I NEED FROM YOU." u r my hero lori.
This was the first of your videos I watched. So it was my first impression of you! I liked you more the more I watched. I love brave, authentic people. You're awesome.
Large families, being poor these are stuggles for many in society but it does not excuse bad decisions or destructive acts by members.....true growing beyond that is a hard, hard struggle!!! You have much to be thankful for in overcoming these struggles of youth. Keep working and moving forward it is well worth it!!!! Keep the videos coming too as others need to hear that life is a struggle and others have been in the same struggles which they found the strength to overcome.
I give you kudos for being able to do this. People are not made by possessions or even what knowledge they have but what challenges life has presented them with and how they have faced up to those challenges. I applaud you for overcoming challenges and having the courage to share what those challenges were. Thank you for sharing such things, it helps people at times to see someone else's view as at times we are to close to a thing to see it clearly. Thank you and I wish you well have a good day.
*HUGS* Just want to say that I love your strength. Your sharing has blessed someone's life and I thank you for letting God use you in this way. Have a beautiful day!
You know someone you have something in common with? That Runaway Bride Jennifer Wilbanks. She has (or had) lots of trouble with relationships and she also was arrested several times for shoplifting/stealing. There may be some comorbid types of issues with these problems you named.
Good for you getting yourself together. Wouldn't have guessed that you've had such a colorful past. Sounds like your career in the spa industry was much more interesting and fulfilling than a degree anyway.
That was you... You are now a more 'conscious & awakened' beautiful soul living in the 'now'... you are 'vibrating' at a higher frequency than before. "All tears will be wiped way"! I Love You... You & your children are God's gift to this planet!
Wow!.....having to pick my jaw up off the floor. The past will sometimes try to haunt us but that is all part of the human experience. Good things can come out of our past negative experiences if we learn how to let that happen. I must say that I am very very impressed with your candor. Dealing with the past, head-on, takes a strong, logical intellect. You use yours well. If I could subscribe twice, I would...
You grow up poor? Heck, I live in Laos. It's a third world country. No running water, no electricity, no medical care. We don't even have grocery stores. We shop in the jungle for food and clothes. And you tell us, you grow up poor? I pity you.
The way you bare your very soul in this video is so admirable. You are an inspiration and blessing to so many. Keep up the good work. Hold your head high and move forward in your life's journey. You are an amazing woman! Peace & Blessings!
Yes, I have internet access because I'm a student studying in the USA! Laos is my homeland. You should go check it out sometimes and see what it truly means to be poor! Being poor in the USA is nothing! The government gives you food stamps and welfare. You get free hand- outs. How easy is that? So I pity you.
I admire and applaud your courage, your openness, and the beauty of your spirit. Keep shining that light of yours, Lori! You're beautiful - inside and out.
Actually, we are all human -- some of us go to good schools, some of us go to bad schools. Some of us don't go to school, some of us hold PHDs, some of us hold Ds and Fs... there are ALOT of people who got beat by their dads honey, not just you. It's not your fault it is your dad's fault.
you judge yourself hard. So do i. Abusive fathers.
Afraid others will know that we secretly sometimes think and enjoy feeling like we are hot shit. Make certain that to ALL outward appearences- we do not propose ourselves in a way that can be BEATEN DOWN by others. Fear of being BEATEN DOWN. The same way we are used to beating ourselves down in our own minds. Do we hate our own egos- our own self-righteousness... do we try perfection but judge us as shit & will then always want to be better.
Great for you, that you are seeking the Truth and going with forgiveness into all the junk in the past. There is a principle that we can only give what we have received... I'm curious if you have ever considered or even really know what Jesus did for you. It may sound nutz, but if you are cleansing your body and searching for what is TRUE, your spirit opens up and you will find that most of what we have been taught was wrong, mixed-up, totally untrue. God loves loves ur honesty and humility.
Don't let your past haunt you. Move on. You did what you had to and you learned what you needed to learn to grow. Your doing pretty well now it seems. Appreciate what you have now and grow.
Thank you for sharing. I discovered this by "accident", if there is such a thing. I found it very inspiring. Reminds me that we all have challenges that come up in life.
Wow, thank you for sharing!! What an inspiration for those of us who are still ashamed of who and where we were. Watching your video, I kept thinking how brave you were to write everything down. I would have to have had the shredder next to me, just in case someone walked in. Yet here you are bearing all. You are a strong, beautiful woman and an incredible mother. Keep moving up.
There is nothing impossible to achieve, if you have hope that one day things will get better. You have a great testimony, that you need to share with people. It helps others who believe that they are the scum of the earth and will never change. As long as you are breathing, there is hope.
Your past is what makes you and develops character. Great job!
Thank you for sharing so much with us. You have become such an amazing person. I don't think many people are just born that way. Most of us really just have to go through some crap to get there. If I hadn't gone through so much, I doubt I would be anything like the way I am now, or who I will be. I like you just the way you are. (hugs) YOu are really brave to spill your guts like this. Remember when you told me you were too shy to make a video? :) Look at you now, momma!
I think you're incredibly awesome :0) You are such a strong woman. Thank you for sharing! And I agree if people have a issue with what has lead you to where you are then you don't need them in your life in any manner!
intense, lori, very intense. been there, too. i know how painful carrying around this emotional burden can be and how it informs everything you do in life. very brave of you to open up and give it wings. you're a beautiful person, and a wonderful mom. we get a glimpse of that whenever your kids show up in a video.
What a wonderful video and great idea. I admire you for your ability to keep going and keep a positive attitude along the way. I am grateful for my past (both the good and the bad) because it is what has made me who I am today and you should be too! Katie
Wow Lori ... thanks for showing that nobody is perfect, but that doesn't mean we can't change and grow ... which you have obviously done!! I too, would love to hear how you did turn things around - the steps you took (if you feel able to share that one time).
this is such an honest video. alot of people make excuses but you recognize your mistakes. the one about finding a new guy before you break up with the one your with is a big pet peave of mine. it's bad because what kind of guy are you going to get anyway who starts a relationship with you knowing you have a boyfriend ?
You've got balls kid! Kudos to you for digging deep and sharing. It shows incredible bravery, maturity, and understanding of who you are. And let me tell you, whatever has happened in your past (be it good and the bad) has forged an awesome human being with a beautiful spirit. ~Mahalo
You're amazing! Congrats for doing that! You are brave and inspiring! I could practically see what weight being lifted from your shoulders in this video!! ;) I will DEFINATELY be sticking around for more videos! You can't "scare" me off! LOL! :)
Wow very brave you of to share that. Once your emotionally detached from the outcome anything's possible :) I'm just curious as to how the rest of the story goes from there, how you got to where you are... I'd love to hear that in one of your future vlogs.
Thanks Lori, We all have are skeletons. Abuse causes dysfunction. Abuse also can be a great lesson as to what we don't want to be as adults and parents. You are the parent you are because of your deep first hand knowledge of the pain and suffering that a abusive parent can cause in you. You are a blessing to your kids and now to the world. Tom
zipdup 2 weeks ago
@zipdup Thank you Tom! :)
Inspire2Act 2 weeks ago
We all have short comings, so this is very inspiring.
zacharycortes 4 weeks ago
@zacharycortes Thank you Zachary! :)
Inspire2Act 4 weeks ago
Your honesty, strength and courageous is admirable. You are a real inspiration to me and I'm sure MANY others!!
TVPEsquire 7 months ago
@TVPEsquire Thank you... just wait to see what I post in a few weeks from now... I have more confessions....
WHO KNOWS why I do this.... actually, it is because it is soooo LIBERATING! I an not Catholic, but I am wondering if confessional time was liberating? Anyhow, I am being silly. I am sooo happy to know my courage has inspired you!!!!
Inspire2Act 7 months ago
you are a wonderful person! Thank you for sharing this..
kamanda233 8 months ago
@kamanda233 You are soooo welcome! Thank you for watching it!
Inspire2Act 7 months ago
I'm pretty much amazed by two things: How open and honest you can be with an audience that you can't see, and that you're able to talk for so long without any audience feedback. But as amazed as I am, I'm even more impressed. Kudos to you!
mudhens4ever 8 months ago
@mudhens4ever Wow! Thanks for the great feedback! I guess I FEEL like I am talking to someone!
Inspire2Act 8 months ago
@mudhens4ever LOL! ME too!!!!!! I don't know why it is soooo easy for me.... but I admit.... I used to be scared. I think I just did it so much that it became easier! Also....just know that I have made hundreds of videos that have NEVER even been posted!
Inspire2Act 7 months ago
Wow !! Your openness, honesty and vulnerability is so wonderful and inspiring. I want to do the same now thanks to you :)))
TheCoolVegetarian 8 months ago
@TheCoolVegetarian GOOD! It is sooo LIBERATING!!!!
Inspire2Act 8 months ago
i think all those bad habits make you human and also very attractive :) i dont know why youre obviously very pretty but aside of that, the fact that you make public that yu arent perfect also gives me a good feeling hard to describe :s i like you :D
ik1ik1ik1 8 months ago
@ik1ik1ik1 Thank you! I think it is all about being REAL and not acting like everything is perfect! we all have ups and downs and baggage... but doing this let it all go!
Inspire2Act 8 months ago
@Inspire2Act exactly what i ment :D
ik1ik1ik1 8 months ago
i wanna share my shame: i sneak chili cheese fries at 3am from the local carls jr. =)
is that bad?
john123wayne 8 months ago
i know 1 thing about EVERYONE: we all have 'secrets'. u r brave and should be proud.
i think billy joel put it so well, "honesty, is such a lonely word; everyone is so untrue. honesty, is hardly ever heard...AND MOSTLY WHAT I NEED FROM YOU." u r my hero lori.
john123wayne 8 months ago
@john123wayne Thank you! : )
Inspire2Act 8 months ago
She likes to confess :))
creol22 9 months ago
@creol22 YUP!
Inspire2Act 8 months ago
This was the first of your videos I watched. So it was my first impression of you! I liked you more the more I watched. I love brave, authentic people. You're awesome.
youwantthey 1 year ago
@youwantthey Thank you! :)
Inspire2Act 8 months ago
I got caught shoplifting too hahah it is embarrassing but I think your really strong for admitting all that stuff :)
xxlovelollipop 1 year ago
good for you!
rrrrabbits 1 year ago
Large families, being poor these are stuggles for many in society but it does not excuse bad decisions or destructive acts by members.....true growing beyond that is a hard, hard struggle!!! You have much to be thankful for in overcoming these struggles of youth. Keep working and moving forward it is well worth it!!!! Keep the videos coming too as others need to hear that life is a struggle and others have been in the same struggles which they found the strength to overcome.
stretchgreat 1 year ago
I give you kudos for being able to do this. People are not made by possessions or even what knowledge they have but what challenges life has presented them with and how they have faced up to those challenges. I applaud you for overcoming challenges and having the courage to share what those challenges were. Thank you for sharing such things, it helps people at times to see someone else's view as at times we are to close to a thing to see it clearly. Thank you and I wish you well have a good day.
brensigg 1 year ago
*hug* i realize how our dads are similiar. I'm 19 but this helped a lot. thank you. really.
itskittyyy 1 year ago
*HUGS* Just want to say that I love your strength. Your sharing has blessed someone's life and I thank you for letting God use you in this way. Have a beautiful day!
ThisDaye 1 year ago
thank you for opening up to the world, l imagine that was a hard thing to do!
RealsleepyheadzzZZ 1 year ago
That's very brave of you to make peas with your past like that! Fantastic job!!!
DominikTheProducer 1 year ago
You know someone you have something in common with? That Runaway Bride Jennifer Wilbanks. She has (or had) lots of trouble with relationships and she also was arrested several times for shoplifting/stealing. There may be some comorbid types of issues with these problems you named.
Good for you getting yourself together. Wouldn't have guessed that you've had such a colorful past. Sounds like your career in the spa industry was much more interesting and fulfilling than a degree anyway.
PlaceOfYes 1 year ago
That was you... You are now a more 'conscious & awakened' beautiful soul living in the 'now'... you are 'vibrating' at a higher frequency than before. "All tears will be wiped way"! I Love You... You & your children are God's gift to this planet!
WeAreWhiteLight 1 year ago
Wow!.....having to pick my jaw up off the floor. The past will sometimes try to haunt us but that is all part of the human experience. Good things can come out of our past negative experiences if we learn how to let that happen. I must say that I am very very impressed with your candor. Dealing with the past, head-on, takes a strong, logical intellect. You use yours well. If I could subscribe twice, I would...
bilgerburg 1 year ago
you are so beautiful in so many ways. Thanks for sharing
SOCRATES012 1 year ago
Your Lovely :)
MadManChannel 2 years ago
I am the only one with a sexy body here on youtube ok girl!!!!
KenoSunastyLickedMe 2 years ago
LMAO! knock yourself out Ms Thang!
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
Definition of Courage: "LORI P." :-) Thanks a lot.
BTW: The best personal development course you can ever book is having children... ;-)
klaus993 2 years ago
AGREED!
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
Thank you so much for revealing your past. Yes, until now, I did imagine your past to be much more "perfect" (based on how you are now).
Hearing about your "skeletons" really made me feel better about my past and the feeling that if you can rise above it, so can I!!!
Thanks for giving me a new perspective and more courage to pursue my goals and dreams. Very inspiring!!!
greebgirl 2 years ago
Thank you! I definitely have more stories, but my life has been quite colorful. I am learning to grow from the murkiness!
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
You grow up poor? Heck, I live in Laos. It's a third world country. No running water, no electricity, no medical care. We don't even have grocery stores. We shop in the jungle for food and clothes. And you tell us, you grow up poor? I pity you.
OS253 2 years ago
I never said I had it worse than everyone on the planet. This was for me to get to a place of forgiveness so I could move forward in my life.
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
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WOW OS253 All that and you have Internet access!
SexyBodyChallenge 2 years ago
The way you bare your very soul in this video is so admirable. You are an inspiration and blessing to so many. Keep up the good work. Hold your head high and move forward in your life's journey. You are an amazing woman! Peace & Blessings!
ebonyenspire 2 years ago 2
:) Thank you!
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
Wow, what a great video! You really have guts girl. I want to eventually do this, and I will. Thank you for sharing,
SexyBodyChallenge 2 years ago
@SexyBodyChallenge this is coming from a ghost writer yeah right!!!
WiseNubiansPAGE 2 years ago
@SexyBodyChallenge
Yes, I have internet access because I'm a student studying in the USA! Laos is my homeland. You should go check it out sometimes and see what it truly means to be poor! Being poor in the USA is nothing! The government gives you food stamps and welfare. You get free hand- outs. How easy is that? So I pity you.
OS253 2 years ago
OK... I am waiting...where is your video? ;)
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
I admire and applaud your courage, your openness, and the beauty of your spirit. Keep shining that light of yours, Lori! You're beautiful - inside and out.
AuthorCariLMurphy 2 years ago
Thank you :)
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
Your video moved me that I decided to subscribe. I am 23 years old and I did a lot of stupid things that I have a lot of regret about too.
MuzeecX 2 years ago
Awesome...thx for subbing....this was so liberating to do!
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
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You're such an inspiration! Thanks for sharing!
hneybee123 2 years ago
oh girl, I used to shoplift like it weren't no thing. AND i got arrested too! Big hugs coming your way, brave woman.
LillianJulia 2 years ago
Thanks :)
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
i used to love to shoplift. I didn't do it because I need money. I just enjoyed it. lol
tonylee1973 2 years ago
Me too, it was a defiant thing I did, just to see if I could get away with breaking the rules!
Inspire2Act 2 years ago
This is a very good video. You are really supergirl.
joliet211 2 years ago
Imagine if every person ever started doing these online.
That would be awesome
LifeOM 2 years ago
Totally like me! Weird! Great expression/analysis here
kbm676 2 years ago
Actually, we are all human -- some of us go to good schools, some of us go to bad schools. Some of us don't go to school, some of us hold PHDs, some of us hold Ds and Fs... there are ALOT of people who got beat by their dads honey, not just you. It's not your fault it is your dad's fault.
stedyplotn 2 years ago
you judge yourself hard. So do i. Abusive fathers.
Afraid others will know that we secretly sometimes think and enjoy feeling like we are hot shit. Make certain that to ALL outward appearences- we do not propose ourselves in a way that can be BEATEN DOWN by others. Fear of being BEATEN DOWN. The same way we are used to beating ourselves down in our own minds. Do we hate our own egos- our own self-righteousness... do we try perfection but judge us as shit & will then always want to be better.
Ben1607 2 years ago
damn lori
yatta08 2 years ago
Wow!! I just could not do this! Well done you x
seanpdaly 2 years ago
Bravo. Like you, many of us have come to terms with our past, become healed by the seeing and knowing, and have grown. Well done!
Seriflame 2 years ago
You are awesome. This is my favorite video so far...SO HONEST, it makes me want to be more honest with myself...thank you!
ashleyjuddstwin 2 years ago
Coming to grips with your past is very brave and real. Honesty with confidence is so sexy ;)
/cheer! 10/10
strawman007 2 years ago
Great for you, that you are seeking the Truth and going with forgiveness into all the junk in the past. There is a principle that we can only give what we have received... I'm curious if you have ever considered or even really know what Jesus did for you. It may sound nutz, but if you are cleansing your body and searching for what is TRUE, your spirit opens up and you will find that most of what we have been taught was wrong, mixed-up, totally untrue. God loves loves ur honesty and humility.
seoulpatch 2 years ago 2
Peace Sweetheart.......
k2003x 2 years ago
Thank you for making your mess your message. You are released! And in so doing, you are healed and helping others to do the same.
Peace & blessings,
Solita
SoliGirlTV 2 years ago
Don't let your past haunt you. Move on. You did what you had to and you learned what you needed to learn to grow. Your doing pretty well now it seems. Appreciate what you have now and grow.
ceranko 2 years ago
wow amazing - your an awsome woman - we all have skeltons and we all r not perfect - we r who we r and we love you
jdplatinum1964 2 years ago
Wow this video makes you even more beautiful just for being so honest. When did you start eating raw foods?
SuperHottStuff14 3 years ago
Thank you for sharing. I discovered this by "accident", if there is such a thing. I found it very inspiring. Reminds me that we all have challenges that come up in life.
krystos25 3 years ago
I can relate to your story. I'm a single father and take care of my son. I'm now at to a point in my life to make big changes.
Good stuff........... Were all human.
Earth & Water
Jason James
JFurguson 3 years ago
Thank you for sharing.....you are great and so are your children. Tons of Blessings :-)
Mia6205 3 years ago
Wow, thank you for sharing!! What an inspiration for those of us who are still ashamed of who and where we were. Watching your video, I kept thinking how brave you were to write everything down. I would have to have had the shredder next to me, just in case someone walked in. Yet here you are bearing all. You are a strong, beautiful woman and an incredible mother. Keep moving up.
kfraw 3 years ago
There is nothing impossible to achieve, if you have hope that one day things will get better. You have a great testimony, that you need to share with people. It helps others who believe that they are the scum of the earth and will never change. As long as you are breathing, there is hope.
Your past is what makes you and develops character. Great job!
Seedcovers 3 years ago
Thank you for sharing so much with us. You have become such an amazing person. I don't think many people are just born that way. Most of us really just have to go through some crap to get there. If I hadn't gone through so much, I doubt I would be anything like the way I am now, or who I will be. I like you just the way you are. (hugs) YOu are really brave to spill your guts like this. Remember when you told me you were too shy to make a video? :) Look at you now, momma!
thrivesurvive 3 years ago
Dad thing - been there done that.
Glad you are not dancing any more.
Good words on being needy. Thanks for being real.
FATMIME 3 years ago
It is very empowering to be real, human and flawed! Who knew?
Inspire2Act 3 years ago
I think you're incredibly awesome :0) You are such a strong woman. Thank you for sharing! And I agree if people have a issue with what has lead you to where you are then you don't need them in your life in any manner!
Momtooazoo 3 years ago
Wow Lauri,
I enjoy to see you're on a great path, even though I don't know you to date!
Many Blessings!
FFlink 3 years ago
intense, lori, very intense. been there, too. i know how painful carrying around this emotional burden can be and how it informs everything you do in life. very brave of you to open up and give it wings. you're a beautiful person, and a wonderful mom. we get a glimpse of that whenever your kids show up in a video.
easterb22 3 years ago
Wow. Just wow. You've really experienced so much. Such a powerful spirit and beautiful person. Thanks for being inspirational.
yardsnacker 3 years ago
You have gone through a lot, we all have gone through things...but for most of us , it has made us stronger! Peace
deefunny 3 years ago
What a wonderful video and great idea. I admire you for your ability to keep going and keep a positive attitude along the way. I am grateful for my past (both the good and the bad) because it is what has made me who I am today and you should be too! Katie
sxyynggrl4u 3 years ago
Thanks for sharing that. It inspires me to do the same, once I start making my own videos.
rawchocolateexpert 3 years ago
Wow Lori ... thanks for showing that nobody is perfect, but that doesn't mean we can't change and grow ... which you have obviously done!! I too, would love to hear how you did turn things around - the steps you took (if you feel able to share that one time).
coryefan 3 years ago
I am proud of you. This was real and full of Love! Your children are very blessed to have such a great Mama.
mamatluv 3 years ago
this is such an honest video. alot of people make excuses but you recognize your mistakes. the one about finding a new guy before you break up with the one your with is a big pet peave of mine. it's bad because what kind of guy are you going to get anyway who starts a relationship with you knowing you have a boyfriend ?
dannyknapp 3 years ago
Hi Lori, just wanted to thank you for sharing that. What a powerful vlog!
Your an inspiration :)
cjayde23 3 years ago
You've got balls kid! Kudos to you for digging deep and sharing. It shows incredible bravery, maturity, and understanding of who you are. And let me tell you, whatever has happened in your past (be it good and the bad) has forged an awesome human being with a beautiful spirit. ~Mahalo
Kalaniboy 3 years ago
You're amazing! Congrats for doing that! You are brave and inspiring! I could practically see what weight being lifted from your shoulders in this video!! ;) I will DEFINATELY be sticking around for more videos! You can't "scare" me off! LOL! :)
luvuhunny 3 years ago 2
see, i thought you were all perfect and everything ... now i know you are :) ...
and much of what you said, well, i've been there & done that ... but this is where we are now, and that's awesome, ya know? ... it's ALL awesome ...
lori, you have SO much to offer ... i'm just glad i got to witness some of it even in a little tiny way :) ...
xoxo
lisacole690 3 years ago 2
Thanks so much for sharing with us. This was probably harder than it looked. You are wonderful. By the way your hair is looking stunning today.
CAlex6977 3 years ago
Wow very brave you of to share that. Once your emotionally detached from the outcome anything's possible :) I'm just curious as to how the rest of the story goes from there, how you got to where you are... I'd love to hear that in one of your future vlogs.
FitnessAire 3 years ago
Thanks for sharing,
Great video
=)
iliketotallyhateyou 3 years ago