18. Bipolar Paranoia!!!

[rudeboystar23]

That's me and today is my awakening after 34yrs old and been in treatment for 11yrs. I don't blame anyone anymore for my suffering cause I made it hard for people to tell due to the thrama I suffered as a child. I am finally on the correct medication. Thanks for this video

[Brookieleelove]

Wow! Thank you so much for this video. Unfortunately, I can relate. I want to heal naturally. Your helping big time...

[bipolarorwakingup]

@Brookieleelove you're welcome!

[hilannie62]

@KennyReddwooddforest thankyou for your kind comment, last night i didnt sleep so its becoming difficult to concentrate today, trying to connect with people is draining me and its all in vain .i understand your lack of control over your dreams, they seem so real dont they? Panic is setting in so i am deleting all my contacts so that i dont have to know who they are , i dont want to go out and all blinds are closed so no one knows i am home x

[KennyReddwooddforest]

I disagree with the pharma drugs promotion. I agree with the other things you said. I am not sure about soul, reincarnation, after life, etc. I leave that open ended. But one thing is for sure, I do experience extra sensory perception during states of severe emotional stress, anxiety and paranoia. I wish I could go to a self help group which does not promote drugs and religion. I believe in freedom from religion and I believe in whole plant essences as medicine as well as other holistic methods.

[CyberSword10]

0:34 is from Doctor Who.

[hilannie62]

i want to heal but all i seem to do is punish myself , i feel ok at the moment but i have had very little sleep again and just need to keep busy so i dont think about anything.I push people away so they dont have to see the mess i am in and because i dont feel worthy or their company or attention .I function and exist, function and exist......

[KennyReddwooddforest]

@hilannie62 Oh, I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know exactly how it feels. You need lots of sleep. And I know that it is very hard to fall asleep when you suffer from brain terror. When I go to sleep I think of horror and terror, it thinks it for me, I don't have any control over it, and then it takes me a long time to fall asleep, then I have horror dreams, then I wake up debating political things with people in my head suffering again and again. Its a struggle for me.

[valeriereeves31]

One of the best explained viedos with the best graphics ive seen! Thank u for sharing

[bipolarorwakingup]

@valeriereeves31 You are welcome. I wish more people would tune into this one. I like it a lot!

[frank36930]

I am new to this..Im 40 and had a very tamatic life..long long story..but in the last month i have benn living this everyday..to a T..please contact me or keep me informed..its 3 am and i been up since 8 and busy all day and cant sleep..so i figured i do alittle research..and god sent me to this video...thank you..

[bobwantsyourspleen]

Lool "Our souls aren't pure"

aand couple who got kicked off a bus cuz of bdsm. kay xD

[hross233]

You MUST get sleep w/this problem. No alcohol or drugs or problem gets worse guaranteed. Not taking your meds no matter the side effects YOU should take or the symptoms will worsen, starting and stopping of meds causes you problems, so don't stop meds. Hope the best for u, really do.

[TheDeadBeatPoet]

there is no disorder

[dreamtwhispers]

2/2 don't have the disorder, I just wanted to say good luck to everyone out there who is struggling with it. I know a lot of people are in a constant state of fear.. for the people who watch these videos, work through it and face your fears, and hopefully you will come out on the other side a new person. :)

[dreamtwhispers]

1/2 -- I'm 21 years old and do not have bipolar disorder. However, I do have a (half) brother and my father also had bipolar disorder/mania. I remember my brother's episodes where he would tell me the things that he would see, and how his thoughts were extremely mixed up and confusing. I remember there was a period where he was off his medication and he would squint his eyes and smile all the time. I asked him why he did that and he said "Because i'm in a state of peace". So even though I

[horrificpunkfreak]

Did Anyone Hear Background Noises In This Video?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@horrificpunkfreak Sao Paulo is a NOISY city. My videos all have background noise. Sorry!

[EnergyOM]

@horrificpunkfreak you mean that computer beepings? yes, nothing to worry about ;)

[movadoband]

I'm surprised you advise medication here, I can understand how that might be beneficial to someone who has an acute episode of paranoia, I'm not sure about someone with low levels that affect everyday life though, that might just be an indicator of an oncoming psychosis, which can be extremely helpful in eliminating what's causing it in the first place. Is there a way to expidite the process I wonder?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@movadoband Breathwork will expedite things, and here I am referring to acute psychosis paranoia. But the thing to remember is that in any moment of paranoia, there is NO healing happening at all. It is all projected fear of a person who is not dealing with it as an inner process. And from personal experience, I can tell you that even moderate paranoia can destroy a person`s life. So for me, unless the paranoid person can start to deal with their fears, they are probably better off on the meds.

[aprilmalone1]

Oh yes yes. I had experiences as I moved upward to where the worst I could imagine came into being. This was for me the point of undeniable action. I had to deal with my shadows.

[LaBellaa1984]

I FEEL LIKE A DEMON IS CHASING ME. Oh wait it is society!

[OTRINITY]

@LaBellaa1984

EXACTLY!!!!!!

[IAMLEGEND2545]

@LaBellaa1984 haha right on! love ya!!

[TubebaSup]

STOP THINKING THAT YOU HAVE AN DISORDER, START THINKING YOU HAVE A GIFT THATS HARD TO HANDEL...

Self pity junkies ... so thankful i am born with the dutch open mind... and yes i think narrow sometimes and yes i feel self pity sometimes..

[myfanwyd2005]

This was a great video for me. Just to let you know I have had a small lingering 'fear' but until it is dealt with it will always come back to bite me on the bum. Got to be realistic about these things and face up and deal with 'it'.

[ecaple11]

@AngelSpiritConqueror first of all, praying isnt gonna do a thing for anyone as you should know. get her to face the fact that she is suffering from Something and that she should at least face the reality that however shes dealing with it, isnt working. try something new until something works.. ie counseling, medicine, or a different approach to the matter.

[UnknownCrypt]

This is such a christian point of view of spirituality. Either that or the only people talked about are christians. Decent information though.

[alexleitch37]

G'day. Just a quick note to say Hi n thanks heaps . I have had - and will probably continue to have - many of the experiences you so wonderfully describe (both the highs n lows n insights n delusions) and yes many people describe me as a deeply spiritual / religious person. I just wanted to encourage you to continue doing your thing as it is really loving, helping and supporting me. Cheers man. alex in oz (ie Australia). :) PS the tone of your voice is healing because your telling not selling us

[bipolarorwakingup]

@alexleitch37 Thanks Man!

[Isabels100day]

I just want to say something very important about this. I think your experiences are based in the beliefs you choose to agree with. IT IS SO IMPORTANT TO WORK ON OUR BELIEFS FOR THIS REASON. I had one VERY dark experience involving "devils" but now that I don't believe in that and have done lots of work to heal, my spiritual experiences are powerful and positive. I belive I have cleaned up my "karma" which is a result of darma (thoughts.) I love myself, so all that I can experience is a loving

[Isabels100day]

@Isabels100day reality.

[greenelf12]

You know Iove the sence of humer you tend to inject into these things. :)

[bipolarorwakingup]

@greenelf12 Thanks Man!

[798058502]

did you know in the old testimony of the bible where everything comes from god and the devil were one person, bipolar disorder much????

[Haleon1018]

There are some things a person can't talk about, especially if it was not a delusion that might put them behind bars.........puking. ( sitting behind bars?) Team America; Three kinds of people.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@Haleon1018 dicks...pussies...and assholes!!!!

[GothixZa]

1:28 Dude thats a Goth couple. If u ask me, we are happy with the darkness in us. We don't fight ore be scared of it. We see it as a part of our own :)

[greenelf12]

@GothixZa I tihnk that is why he put it in to be honest I like the goth's :o).

[kozychik]

That teddy bear was just not right. I think I'm going to have nightmares now.

[jagara1]

I used to see demons - and when this happened I also experienced what I would call sheer terror!

One woman would always appear to me as a demon, so one day I decided to stay with the fear and look at her and stay with the fear- what I then saw was a very sad lonely old lady.

My fear disappeared immediately and I felt compassion for the lady.

Since then I have seen very few demons...

Based on these experiences I agree with what you say - in a sense it is about facing our fears :)

[replytoomyass]

My mother told me that we were being spyed on by sick people and I was only 12 at the time. Stupid bitch.

[lovebeauty41]

if i am having bipolar(taking zyprexa,depakine,camcolite for about 5 years) how could i prevent my self from paranoia,because i feel i am getting worse in my behaviours and feelings,also some thoughts in this vedio coinsides with mine:S they weren't exist in my personality..thanks alot for your vedios:)

[bipolarorwakingup]

@lovebeauty41 I know its hard, but I would try and find a therapist with some background in dealing with trauma. Usually paranoia is related to something in our past.

[lovebeauty41]

@bipolarorwakingup thanx alot for your reply..honestly i didn't expect it..thanks for caring in such issue though you are healed now..i decided recently (although am late) to work on healing my soul&get rid of pills..sure you'll vedios will help me strongly,my plan is to work mainly on them first..hope you'll have time always to keep helpping us...you have a great mind and organized clear thoughts..keep on plz..

[Toriianmichael]

this video is so interesting... 

[charissamarluk]

omg...

this is so scary... i have so been there...

[sparta117corza]

To think just today I was thinking that there was something wrong with me but know Im thinking clearly but still confused

[MickeyLWalker]

love in suffering

[JacobsJaffa]

Dark and fearful energies occur in every human being and animal, it is a protection mechanism to help us survive danger.

Opening oneself up completely may work for others or may not work for some, plenty of people live a life of denial quite happily whereas others need to face their fears. Each to their own I say, but great work nonetheless, if your one sole achievement ends up being to make people look at bipolar in a different way, then that is a fantastic achievement.

[Ayinall]

Thank you!

[boogiebuddy01]

why jesus and they devil though?

[theotherlaney]

Dude! You totally rock for putting these videos here and your expalnations and connecting of dots... Although I have been medication free for two years now, I still have some work to do. I appreciate your site and the support. Would love to share my story if it can help anyone... I was a paranoid manic episode bi polar and hospitalized and medicated. After nearly a year, I got help weening off the medication and am in the ongoing process of waking up now. Thank you sooo much for these videos!!

[spaceage614]

bipolar mania was the greatest experience of my life i truly believe most people who say theyve had a manic episode really didnt

[Darkfoster22]

Also I told them BTW Sick people don't ask to be sick...

I did what do I mean?

I ask God for "To gain Understanding & to know my ture emery" And the things I learned hands on was also in the nature of the Bible before I picked it up...The dotors hear the reports of me slaping the Bible win I was sick win people was trying to help me...Pure hate was coming in my life...Ephesians 4:26-27

"Look out for what you ask for you could get it"

[Darkfoster22]

My bipolar disorder is CURED, But I tryied to tell them I ever had it...But win I told them the turth they say I have bipolar disorder...I LOL at them and said sick people need Medications and I all ready taken my "ONE PILL JESUS" HAHHAHA My Proof to you is My History will be the Judge but you will forget because you will see me no more, and they have not...

They said I had it because what I told them, I was attacked by Satan from the inside and Only I know my own will of my Body.

[whtdoyouwant]

PROPER SLEEP and EXERCISE and AWARENESS of your disorder are my ingredients for success as a person living with bipolar disorder.

I'm terrified to ever go back to the place that was my psychosis. So it's a bunch of bull that they should embrace it.

[bipolarorwakingup]

A bunch of bull. All the research in this area shows that, in order to heal, your fears must be faced. You may contain it with sleep, exercise, etc...but you will never heal it unless you open yourself up to what is within you...good bad or ugly!

[MachineAmbition]

The key difference, and I believe its hard to control absolutely, is whether you are confronting fears to analyze them critically or indulging or escaping into them. I think the state of mind that allows psychosis also tends to favor the latter, because it's more experiential and less logical.

[t4ac3y1]

@bipolarorwakingup Agreed. That's really true about anything in anyone's life: To get through panic disorder, you face your fears gradually; to get through phobia's you face your fears, etc. Once you surrender you set yourself free. But what most ppl have the hardest time with is the actual act of surrender.

[coronaqueen221]

@whtdoyouwant i do agreee psychosis is a terrifying experience, having broken from reality for i year altho it was a blissful break, it is something i would not like to experience again...but i have to agree with bipolarorwakingup...meds will mess you up bad man ...i was derailing on lexapro

[Libertinedreamful]

@whtdoyouwant well i wouldnt completely say its bull. I know its dangerous but my creativity really flourishes - which i dont get once i take my medication.

[wonderhappyness]

@whtdoyouwant imagine living there how it is

[whtdoyouwant]

I agree that the paranoia is a projection. When i came home from the hospital I came home too early. I was extremely paranoid and locked myself in the house by myself. I thought the FBI was after me the whole nine.... BUT i was on medication.

Obviously, they had me on the wrong medication, but they let me out before the medication could take effect.

Psychosis is not fun. I don't agree that it should be embraced. Psychosis did not end for me for an entire month when i was admitted...

[bipolarorwakingup]

For someone with serious paranoia, like yours, it may be too much for you to face it. I'm sure it was very, very scary and right now, there is very little support for someone in your position. But be patient...I think you will see positive change in your lifetime.

[amandaelizabethb86]

I have recently learned that I am manic-depressive after having an experience exactly like this. In fact, I was looking all over the web for information pertaining to this experience I had. I am glad to learn I am not alone.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Hey, you know I love that! Glad I could help.

[amandaelizabethb86]

Maybe I could send you some of what I experienced sometime. I ended up extremely paranoid from this experience while I was living in Scandinavia, and moved back to my native USA for treatment. Now, even though I am on Lamictal, I still cannot find myself doubting the spiritual significance of my mania. The pdocs keep telling me nothing that happened to me was real, but this does not sit well with me. Anyway, thank you so much for your work. I feel like I am finally getting some closure.

[KyaNight]

when fear takes over i know i get anxiety and depression ... but can the darker psychosis be another reaction?

i have little experince with the darker side except while i was depressed i always felt like i was evil .. but now i just understand that because i was repressing who i was .. and was taught my whole life that i shouldnt let certain parts of me out ...

Do you see my confusion?

[bipolarorwakingup]

Sure, see video #14. Its easy to confuse what needs to be repressed (our lower - evil) selfish and destructive urges with our also repressed higher self that wants to transcend the culture we find ourself trapped in. You need to learn to tell the difference between your selfish impulse and your Soulful intuition, which is fighting for the right of your higher self to exist.

[KyaNight]

nah .. because i am not sure anything needs to be repressed. What do you consider evil???

i dont see anything as good or evil ... so it would really help if you could explain what you consider evil.

[bipolarorwakingup]

What is evil´?....abuse. Sexual abuse, physical abuse, abuse of power and/or authority. Homocide, genocide, racism, corruption. All of the filth of mankind.

[KyaNight]

isnt that all out of insecuirty and fear!

[KyaNight]

all the things you listed are not evil! they are all things done by humans for the exact reasons you claim we are bipolar.

those who do all the acts you speak of where usually the victims themselves or taught so .. or there was another side ... but not original sin. i sy every other video makes 100% sense but you get to this and it doesnt fit.

[bipolarorwakingup]

So, molesting a 3 year old is out of fear. Fear of what? A three year old?

[KyaNight]

woah .. not fighting .. i want to understand!

not fear .. thats why i went on to say all the other negative feelings such as anger .. confusion .. a need for love ... a need for power ... !

these all come from repression and not dealing with feelings ... so yes .. in a sense it is fear ... fear to handle one thing so we do something else that hurts others.

i really want to understand what you are saying .... and i think you are so close

[KyaNight]

i am suprised you believe in original sin. I think the way you explained it is different then usual and a bit confusingl. It is because people let fear control them rather then letting love in .. like you said in your other video. Explain more what that has to do with evil energys please.

what i am asking is this dark psychosis the sameas the free and loving experience or is it what happens when fear takes over.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Unlike the new-age 'born innocent' impression of early childhood, I think real world experience and the experience of being in non-ordinary states reveals that we are born fearful, out of a resricted state of consciousness.

[bipolarorwakingup]

2. However, there is something else going on as well....we come into this world with 'issues' to work through. Things to improve within ourself. I a sense, we are here to purify ourselves. What needs to be purified is our Karma which can be loosely interpreted as Original Sin. Mind you, I think that concept is a little heavy, and it makes us sound inherently evil, which we are not. I see us as being born with both good and evil within us, even underneath it all is pure love.

[angelicaalex]

I found this piece challenging to some of my views regarding the necessity of medication, and important for reminding all of us that psychosis isn't always bright and shiny.

At the same time, I feel there are a couple of oversimplifications that perhaps could be dealt with more clearly in the future. I'm writing down my thoughts elsewhere and would be willing to share once I've got them squared away. :)

[bipolarorwakingup]

Look forward to it!

[angelicaalex]

I've finished it up and will be transcribing to e-mail tonight. :)

[Tressco]

Great video again!

I also plead for money to be a tool rather than being a way of life!

There's far better things to do than playing Monopoly...!

[Jammminnn]

thank you

[occultpriestess]

Great video. I had issues with the Illuminati and remote viewers ;). The paranoia was a very interesting addition to the awakening. Thank you!

[notartnow]

I believe paranoia has become evolutionarily adaptive because an expression of an intense religious experience has been persecuted throughout history. We all know the story of Jesus, then the church used to persecute heretics, we have witch trials, and now we are forced into the hospital. If we believe we are being watched, etc. we are more careful about who we express these feelings towards. The way through paranoia is knowing this and overcoming our irrational fears with rational thought.

[07hesky07]

lovely! exactly! right on the head!

[muzeam]

I thank you for your innovative approach to bipolar. I've experienced all of this. It's one big learning experience. I thank God that I get better year by year and it's good someone is looking at mental illness as more than just an illness and a spiritual problem as well. Again, thanks, you do good work.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Glad to hear you are getting better!

[MsChrispy]

Thanks for posting this. Great vid!!!

[MachineAmbition]

I'm not sure if "purity" or "contamination" of a soul is a valid concept. Or that if you experience evil, it is your fault or comes from you, from karma, some kind of fall, etc. Or that someone who only has positive experiences in bipolar are somehow more pure or actualized already.

Isn't attributing good motives to people during positive psychosis also a problem? But it's the good side, so it's okay...hmmm. I think that causes just as many problems for someone and is just as untrue.

[MachineAmbition]

It seems more like something the brain does when it for some reason can no longer experience good feelings, or when it's overloaded with excitement. It can be spiritual as well, but more of like a journey to the underworld or to the heavens than as some kind of evidence for type of soul or level of actualization.

[maladaca]

As always Sean brilliant video :)

[LostMente]

Hi,

forced treatment is usually fine when it is not insidious. The feeling that people caring for you do not actually care is really hard to stomach.

I haven't fully watched your series, to me it was a source of inflation to my ego..a sense of realism to my surreal experience. I often find the resolutions I experience are very personal.

I would wonder why do people seem so proud of this enduring experience? like its a rite of passage..the rite you create to allow self love, for me at least

[07hesky07]

well when you think everyone is out to get you and that even your first teddy bear is watching you (and omg it's been there for how many years?!) and that your cats were sent by alien government officials to watch your every move one tends to reject any treatment... paranoia is mistrust... questioning everything..i feel the same way about it being a path towards self love and i think it is because you break yourself down.you learn acceptance and reasoning and it leads you on a life journey

[LostMente]

its good to go in, warts and all :)

[bipolarorwakingup]

In my video, I am assuming that the support team would have a ´´be with`` approach like I talk about in video #11. In that situation, if the person remained paranoid and refused help...that is where I am suggesting medication would probably be necessary, especially in today's world, where there are few clinics with experienced staff who get the 'be with' approach.

[shadeofteal]

Okay, okay, you win. BUT: never ever against the person's will! Oops. That means, we're back to square one... Anyhow, involuntary treatment is abuse, is re-traumatizing the individual. I won't give in on that one: no forced treatment.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Trust me, they were not analytic at all. Perry´´s book goes into detail on the ´´being with´´ approach. About Soteria´s work, all I know is from the book, Soteria. Do you have any more expeience with them? From that reading, it sounded like a great clinic, but the staff, being mostly undergrads with high turnover, had little knowledge regarding what they were tapping into..(which may have been a good thing).

[shadeofteal]

Well, I haven't been there myself, but I've read everything available on the net or in print, watched vids, listened to interviews... you name it.

I think, the staff's non-professionalism indeed was a good thing. Professionalism can create a biased distance - consciously or unconsciously - where unbiased presence is what is needed.

[tkathryyn]

fck bipolar. I don't blame people with bipolar but I detest the disorder. My gf has bipolar and always picks fights for no reason. She constantly raise her tone of voice for no obvious reasons. Then I end up reacting to it. The next thing I know she is smiling and happy and she asks me why I'm in a bad mood. What the fck? The worse part is that she does things she doesn't remember and keeps repeating the same mistakes which is frustrating on my part. I'm sorry but I have to leave her. Iduncare

[danjonesdj]

Hey Sean, just wondering if you've ever watched 'The Devil and Daniel Johnston'? I highly reccomend it!

[bipolarorwakingup]

No, I´ll keep an eye out for it!

[07hesky07]

i love you for posting this!! you nailed it right on the head.. even down to the teddy bear.. just hearing you speak i can tell you honestly understand and sympathize.. i've been waiting for you to talk about paranoia and you did so marvelously!! keep up the great work!! for all of our sakes!

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thank you, and say hi to your teddy bear for me!

[keepsitreals]

illuminatti is real haha. seriouse

[shadeofteal]

Great vid, all in all, yeah. But I still don't quite agree in your paranoia needs drugs-approach. "...if it's justified, it ain't paranoia!" I'd say, it's always justified. The people I know who are labelled "paranoid" have altogether been invaded, assaulted, traumatized by over-protective, surveilling caregivers. Either their family or the professionals. Mostly both in fact.

[shadeofteal]

On another note, paranoia maybe isn't that common in what's called "bipolar", but it's quite common in "schizophrenia". Nevertheless, most of the residents of Soteria did well without drugs. I was somewhat paranoid too. I didn't run, because the door stood wide open, if you know what I mean. I think, what makes people refuse help and run for the hills is when the help itself is intrusive, and forced on them against their will.

[bipolarorwakingup]

I should mention thought that even Stan Grof and JW Perry saw that if people refuse help they could get stuck. I know Soteria says it didn't have this sort of problem, but I´ve seen it in my own family, and it was a situation where my neice should have been medicated earlier. True, her environment was stressed, but in the big picture, she just wasn't ready to deal with what was happening to her. It was a complicated situation.

[07hesky07]

can you give me any insight on the out of body experience? sometimes i look at my hands or i'm eating something and it is as if i am not even a person anymore.. i'm just an energy controlling a heap of meat..everything seems huge too.. and heavy

[metaldrummer3211]

FINALLY! somebody I can relate to. I've been feeling this quite a bit lately.

[07hesky07]

i ended up in a mental institute due to a manic episode. they told me over and over again that i was schizo and put me on every pill for it.. i don't think i am schizo.. the meds didn't help really, just made me very lethargic and depressed.. i think mania can make you hypersensitive to your surroundings so you start to lose sight of reality..or simply form your own.. also racing thoughts can raise all kinds of questions.. but it is a struggle to choose which to believe sometimes..it takes work

[bipolarorwakingup]

You know, that´s the one thing I left out of this video...I just forgot. I'll try and make it up in a future video. And you are right about paranoia being more common in schizophrenia. I'll be bringing that up in the future.

[odddom4]

great video, Sean. thanks a lot !

[josemanuelsalgado]

But. What about justified paranoia. For example, when I was taken to the hospital during my episode, I was told lies about where I was going to. No one explained to me what the pills were for. Looking backwards, I still think that the personnel in that place looked at the interns with morb and maniulation. Never honest.

This can also happen in the social atmosphere you live at, when you resist the mainstream way of thought and behavour. Unconscious, impersonal forces trying to punish. ¿?

[bipolarorwakingup]

Hey, if its justified, it ain´t paranoia!

Our society has crushes people with mental disorders. It IS better to keep your mouth shut about your experiences, unless you are with people that you can trust that are open to your experiences.

[MachineAmbition]

It's completely true that if you ask what the pills are for or about side effects, they just tell you it will make you feel better. That's really not true, but is an expression of what they hope it will do and probably what they tell people so that people actually take them. Read "I'm not sick, I don't need help" -by Xavier Amador - it explains the system somewhat. The hospital doesn't trust people - I'm not sure some people in psychosis can be trusted, though some can. Those who can suffer.

[DelIriSentA]

True words, MachineAmbition....they do not explain your medication to you, in order to keep you ignorant...I found out I was taking the WRONG kind of medication...all because they failed to make a proper diagnosis (they never actually had a session with me) and further failed to explain my medication and the reasons why I was to take them....the medical field gets sloppier every day.

[josemanuelsalgado]

I do feel that thoughts can be radiated and read, sometimes not immediately, I dont know if they are coded in the behavour and the combination of other circunstantial cues.

[rockafeladave]

could bipolar be linked to drug use, social isolation, etc?

[cashfan123]

well if is is im double fukd lol

[bipolarorwakingup]

See my meditation videos cashfan. You need to unfuck yourself!

[cashfan123]

haha ive been trying mate but nothing seems to work so i end up just smoking more pot an popping pills but i will never give up i will keep fighting peace bro

[bipolarorwakingup]

That's a simple question with a long answer. But there are connections, yes. But which is the symptom and which is the cause? That's the tricky part to answer.

[swim888]

It seems like the symptom feeds on the cause then the symptom becomes the cause. Then u get treated for the symptom instead of the cause. We wait too long to reach out. It seems like the amount of time it takes to get back on track is proportional to the amount of time we waited to reach out.

[Calibus71]

Thanks Sean for another great video! I find your videos helpful to clearly convey to my family what it is I am truly going through. The little bipolar manual the doctors give just doesn't cut it! I can't wait for your 'Synchronicities' video! I've had some bizzare experiences with this, and I am looking forward to here more of what this is about.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks Calibus...its coming soon! I think this is a good one for families too.

[Brownsweiger]

Hey Sean, you mentioned devilish voices inside ones head saying this and that etc. as a cause of not releasing ones traumas properly and thus projecting it (am I right on that?), and I came to wonder if you, by this, also meant OCD conditions? Intrusive thoughts insides ones head and all that, usually is within the OCD spectrum.

[bipolarorwakingup]

I was not referring to OCD conditions and, actually, I will get into audible and visual hallucinations more in the next video. However, since you brought it up, the roots of OCD as well of many other mental illnesses are also the same feelings of fear and trauma which move someone towards paranoia. As RD Laing said...(something like) mental illnesses are just coping mechanisms for managing one´s deepest fears.

[MachineAmbition]

I think that thought (mental illness as coping mechanism) is probably true for something like anorexia or OCD - for depression or bipolar, I'm not sure what someone would get out of it that it could be said to help them in some way. Anorexia is about having control over at least one thing in life...though yes, it does get out of control...I'm not really sure if depression really offers anything at any point.

[atheio]

Thank you, very good

[cashfan123]

yup ive thought i was jesus at one time haha mad

[LostMente]

i thought i was the anti christ. but i also thought that wasn't a bad thing

[bipolarorwakingup]

Some people think they are the Christ one minute, and the anti-christ, the next!

[mananirvana]

Thanks always man, I appreciate your vids so much, I have experienced the evil demons coming to get me one time, actually I felt demonic fairies inside me killing my internal organs, creepy shit. But thats all over now! Peace. I send my love to the whole bipolar community.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks for sharing! I am curious...which organs...heart, or stomach/intestines? Or others?

[bajan13k]

another great video,

and quite timely, I was just thinking about this yesterday!

[bipolarorwakingup]

Synchronicities! that´´s coming soon.

[ecstatica23]

Thanks Sean, this video has been very helpful in understanding someone I've been talking to on NLB.

[akinomt]

Thanks Sean, great video again. I never though about the "evil" I have seen as a captured bad energies... You are so god to explain thinks clearly.

[wolffenhaus]

you have gone out on a limb again. I appreciate your work.

[bipolarorwakingup]

What part felt risky to you?

[mistyred8]

Also, smoking cannabis during psychosis will make you extremely paranoid!

[bipolarorwakingup]

I´ve heard that a few times!

[LostMente]

A lot of drugs will. I think panic and paranoia have a common thread, panic on drugs is very easy...changes your breathing substantially, and with changes of breath come altering of ones state of mind..you can have a meditative experience without really wanting to, fighting it makes it worse some times

[bipolarorwakingup]

In a non-ordinary state, fighting it always makes it worse, regardless of the experience. Thats one of the big things I've learned over the past 2 years.

[ozjthomas]

Good video, Sean, really feel this one. Working through it can be very healing, but you can get stuck and need help as well.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks Oz. Actually, Zezt jumped in early and showed me I had a bit of an error in my approach on the video. So I pulled it and made a few small revisions from this afternoon´s version.