Woah @MrManword .. Why so reactive? ..............Then again.. it seems as if you knew this person & had some.. "negative history". Other than that, @jhermbaby , What made you do all those things? (drug addiction) If you cannot answer this, I completely understand. [Im 14 yrs. & I'm studying to see why.. people do the things they do, even if they know the consequences good or bad]. BTW, I first saw you from your fang video! I frigging want those!(the Underworld one -Underworld fan).] ♥
Goncratulations ! Those are great choices in ur life besides the first ones. Way to express yourself! U turned yourself to what would have been ugly to gorgeous !
you horrible stupid ignorant cunt. keep your ugly fucking mouth shut and stop corrupting minds, then again anyone listening to this bull shit must already be totally fucked in the head. you dumb cunt, burn in hell
you are a stupid bitch, with a snitch brother, and you yourself have used kids to get yourself high, fuck you and everything you stand for... cant say shit cuz you know its true, huh? went out and reinvented yourself into some kind of inspirational speaker, if anyone that follows you had any brains theyd tell you your a fucking joke, giving kids heroin for the first time so you could get your fucking fix, fuck you, don't mention that in your fucking soeech do u?
You call your self an addict, u say u have a disease and can't be around any kind of drug but u still drink??. A little knowledge 4 u, alcohol is a drug, it kills more people than all the illegal drugs combined. Its your life you can do what you want but if you were living in hell why would you want to go back??? Drinking is a one way ticket back to a shit life.
jhermbaby i seen where it can go and what it can do to some1 and sinds i have no intension of going there lol il be fine a drink and a smoke is al i do and the smoking i only do when am at my best friend realy and only sometimes,am rooting for u stay strong and live life to the fullest!:)
This might sound horrible but I believe that people who have suffered trough drug addictions of all sorts in the end become so much more interesting and stronger than those who haven't tried and experimented with drugs. Yes yes yes! This is a horrible thing to say... But clearly you are just another proof of how amazing people who gone trough all that are.
@narcisstic Aww thank u! No I completely agree with you. While it's great to avoid those parts of life, they certainly teach valuable lessons. :) Thanks for the kind words, I appreciate them!
i dk u from eve but i respect for anyone that can do something like this.its a hard life.i lived w/dated an addict for 2 yrs,on probation he couldnt get away w much so it seemed ok then he got off i got pregnant&he couldnt deal&relapsed,HARD.we dealt with it for years now with a child involved,it can be nasty&affect more lives than just your own.but we didnt give up&im thankful to say he is sober&now a great dad.people like you&he are proof it can be done.youre a beautiful woman&inspiration!
@jzunig0912 this is so passionately told. thank u for your story. it can be a big thing in a persons life, and destroy a lot of relationships, so i know ur pain. congrats for getting thru it and staying strong!!
WOW! I can completely relate to this video, i know the feelings you were describing all too well. Three years down the line and I'm not in that situation anymore but this video is amazing and so are you. I just wish I would have found it sooner. It really is all about STRENGTH, regardless of what situation you are in, a little strength can go a long way and once you realise how strong you really are, nothing can stop you. Strength = Self Belief <3
i know this vid is old but i just wanna say i think your amazing! :) i never struggled with drugs but i know ppl who do/did and i love that u connect your life to Alice in Wonderland! i love your tattoos and America McGee's game is great! i still gotta play the second one! I love Alice in Wonderland too but my point of view on it is a little different. I see wonderland as the greatest place ever! i wish it was real cuz THAT would be my addiction to escape reality! that would be my high! <3
@pjd12093 that was my high, and I let it get foggy, and hazy.. if i could go back to that same wonderland but know myself as I discovered the first time around it'd be a helluva journey. PLAY THE SECOND one.. its more relatable to my tat cuz shes re-going through wonderland
it know its abit late lol but i admire you coming clean with al of that and that u can face it am not realy vulnrable for addiction but i smoke sometimes to and drink and i have it under controle thank god:),but i know some1 who is where u where with some additional stuf i tride to reach out but she wanted to go against the stream to badly u can call it a real rebel she can handle it but she slips eventualy stil kinda hurts i couldnt help and that she didnt wanna listen shit happens i gues.....
@marcus24000 dude I feel you, when ur smokin weed or drinking occasionally and having it under control those are adult decisions, just don't overdue them, and go to greater lengths further into curiosity,, curiosity killed the cat
Done just about everything you mentioned. Had a kid. Stopped it all cold turkey. I told everyone I knew what I was doing, and understood that what I was doing wasn't addiction, it was pleasure. I'm really sorry you had to struggle at all. I did in fact do a lot of narcotics. I know all about waking up to go beg a friend for an extra $10 while I stole from them while in their home asking for money. It's a hell of a ride. I never really liked alcohol. Jaggermeister is a bane for me though.
@1110100110 lol, thanks for the talk.. it makes me think i have hope for myself as well... u sound oddly like ur giving the advice back in a wiser way.. so thank u!
@jhermbaby Somewhat. I just related quite well to the experience. Never live to regret, but take care to repent (No, this is not a religious overtone. :P)
purely inspirational. I myself never grew up with drugs or alcohol but i have had friends who certainly fell victim to this and supportive friends every step of the way saved their lives. Its people like u who inspire us to believe that we can be something better than what we are, that we can do amazing things, can strive and free ourselves without relying on drugs. Im very happy to have found this vid and i assure u my friends (who have also been clean for several years) REALLY appreciate it.
Your story really touched me, and, hey, I can tell that you did made difference in my life.I don't know you, we live in different countries and we have few things in common, but for sure, I can say I learned from your story, and I admire you so fuckin' badly.
Thank you soo much for putting how I felt into words. You really don't know people until they tell u about their past and their secrets. My best friend and I really became close when we broke down and cried in a public restroom and told each other our darkest secrets. We found out that we had the same past, and we helped each other get better. You helped me realize that its ok to have those types of secrets and experiences because they make us who we are. Thank you. :)
props to you girl and prayers to keep you strrong i live with and have a child with a drug addict and have been going on our relationship for 4 years this winter, its a hard thing to handle and to know what the right thing to do is, i feel like i watch him ruin his life and he cant even see it,im at a loss of what to do to help i feel like my fam is falling apart.i dont know where else to turn but god i suppose, its so hard.anyways,ill pray for you to keep strong <3<3<3
@jzunig0912 the only thing you can possible do is be THERE for him. don't yell or tell him you're disappointed. he needs help and he'll only get it if he wants it. once he does, make sure he has someone to help talk to him, sponsor him, bring him to others around doing or having done the same thing as him. it sounds "cliche" but it works... more important thing is you have to be his rock and never judge him.. only want to help :) thank u so much for ur story
your story was very thouching, im so glad you shared. i just got out rehab 2 months ago for a 4 year rock bottom heroin addiction. i am now 90 days sober and finally seeing what life i have to look forward to. thank you again, this inspires me to share my whole story someday, when im comfortable.
I've been a subscriber for a quite a while now & I just want you to know you are an amazing person! It took courage to make this video & I admire you for it. You have such a beautiful soul & I wish you all that's good, that this life has to offer <3
I applaud you... not only for the courage to get clean but also to share your story with us.
I to am an addict. Used everything I could find since I was 10 years old. I will have 10 years clean in July.. All thanks to my mentor.. Jimmy K. He wouldn't happen to be your friend too would he?... sounds like it anyway. Much love.. Alan
@D4RKSC4R3CR0W Alan!! Not a personal friend this Jimmy K.. but I've had many of people like him to help in my struggle. Congrats on the 10 year mark man! Not many get to that mark without fuckin up. It's sexy being sober.
Thank you so much for sharing your story with me..
I started drinking at the age of 13.. and didn't do anything else
untill the age of 17.. I was just going to try it out.. smoking weed.. one time.. you know.. I didn't grow up thinking * when i grow up i wanna be an addict..* Hehh.. yeh nope.. from there.. it took me 2 years.. to hit rock bottom..
today i share my story with people like me.. and you.. Addicts..
I Love my life.. I love people that are just like me..
dude... i didnt fall so deep b/c of one of my friends that took care of me at the time. he thru away my needles. heroin ran deep. no excuse except that i got carried away. i was hooked for a while. its sad. but whats worse? I've been clean for a year and a half. I'm 17.
@0v3rl0ad0074 FUCK YA, and thank god ur so young, starting later in life suxks cuz u have noone to turn to.. not anymore, parents have told u to move on, do ur own thing.. theyll be there for you, but who wants to end up 30 with teir parents cuz they have no money or job to pay bills, only scrounge off the rents for drugs.. no sir, not the life for me
i kno exactly what ur talkin about, when i was 15 i started to bang drugs for the same reason. i just quit 4 weeks ago cold turkey, i am in collage now an i feel great. but its the hardest thing to ever do. my drug of choice was D's. id shoot heroin if i could find it. it takes alot of will to stop, an u can only stop if you REALLY REALLY REALLY want to on ur own. in other words u wont. i want to congratulate u on ur success cuss i kno how hard it is. i had to move outta my home town 2 escape
@cobain0420 i feel you.. D's were the best, but All of those are completely wortless.. its for the day, and then you feel shit. thanks for the comment!
wow... a inspiring and beautiful video- I love your tattoo and the story behind it- just gorgeous- look forward to checking out your other videos too xo
wow... a inspiring and beautiful video- I love your tattoo and the story behind it- just gorgeous- look forward to checking out your other videos too xo
You are, SO, beautiful inside and out. I enjoy watching your videos cuz i get to laugh after a long day at work and hey i was able to bruch my dreads out lol =). you are a BAMF! ;)
the message you're sending is awesome, I just got 2 years sober May 10th. but I'm curious about something you said in your video, you still drink but you just don't get drunk, but then you said you've been clean for 6 years? do you mean from drugs but not alcohol? I've never heard someone say they're clean when they still drink
@skankyx0x0 i know what you mean. there are all sorts of arguments, but the addction thing was my main point.. to find out who i was, and what my strengths were, didnt necessarily mean I couldnt control myself, it was that I had to find my way through what i did do, and see what my weaknesses were, then realize hey guess what? im sober from the shit i never wanna see in my life again, but im strong enough to have one drink and stop. its different in a way, but i see ur side
I haven't found myself yet and happily you did. You keep me going strong and I thank you. You are brave and beautiful and I wish you the best. You are very strong and I won't be looking at people the same. You reached to us with such heart. Thank you and maybe you can help me with my troubled journey.
i havent done drugs or even drank im only 14 but this video inspired me to do something amazing, idk what that is yet but you are truely inspirational and i just wanted to say thanx for all the awesome advise and you will defenitly be an idol for me.
I Love the video it reached out to me in so many ways, mostly cause i went throgh the same thing so i feel i can relate. I know how hard it was to quit the addiction, it consumes u and becomes who you are. At the age of 13 i was drinking and smoking weed by age 14 i had moved to pills and found crystal meth and was highly addicted to it for 3 years. Ive lost alot and seen stuff ive never should have that young. But have been clean for 5 years . It takes great strength to overcome it. Thank you.
@TheNikidans fuck yea it does.. 5 years is a while now! so awesome! it takes a long time to be able to admit it as well so the sharing of ur story is admirable! thanks for sharing with ME
I really do love this video. Thank you for sharing... I just lost a great friend April 9th 2011 due to his addiction to Heroin. He had just gotten out of rehab and a person whom he thought was his friend pulled him back down. It goes to show the hell drugs can put you through.
This video is very inspirational video. I thank you again. <3 <3
@RaeBies20 RIP to ur buddy... ive had it happen with somenone getting something from a dirty needle but never die.. thats a big thing man, im so sorry..
Very brave to be so honest. You are loved. Don't ever forget that. If you should ever feel tempted to slip, remember those that love you. Sometimes it's hard to love yourself enough to stay healthy. That's when loves purpose becomes clear. Love them when you can't love you. Be strong enough, brave enough, to fight for them! Your absence would hurt them so don't leave. Stay.
im arielle, i just suscribed to you today :P and i watched this video ive never done drugs or drank .. but for some reason your story makes me feel better like ive had alot of stuff happen in my short 19 years of life ive lost alot of ppl to alot of things but just knowing that there is a way out of it for them is amazing,, you story really inspires my because ive always been the stright edge kid with a strong will power but thats not true for alot of ppl ive known, but your an insparation to me
@goshbanana keep being straight edge.. it's the cooler thing to do things now anyways, lesarn from the fuckups so u can achieve over them... right?? you've got a bright head on your shoulders and should stay focused on someone your good at, so one day u can own the world
the day i got my alice tattoo no one understood what it meant. thank you. i went through a similar experiance, and i now know who and what i am. Thank you, and though you dont know me, nor will ever know me, i want you to know i love you. spread the love, and the happiness.
Woah, this is some hardcore shit right here. I'm really glad you made it out of everything that you've gone through. In my personal opinion, i think that addiction, when you kick it.. you sort of just.. replace it with something else, good or bad. You never know though, unless you really know the person.
Wow...im usually really hyper at night (Im watching this vid at night) and you calmed me down and made me stop and listen...your one brave person...Deep deep things expressed there Much props :)
Inspiring, amazing, for sure you reached the ones with addiction problems...
I know what you mean about that, I was so on the same way and then I realized I didn't want it for my life, for me, and for the ones who where around me though this.
How brave you were about telling this. Congratulations you're done with that and starting once again.
I'm 17 years old Nd u insper me so much I love it vids I think ur an amazing person ur so strong for getting up Nd saying all this... Ur an awsome person
Wow Thats Pure Amazing Your Story Is Just Like Wow to Just Get On youtube and Have The Guts To Say Ye Iv Did This And Ye I Did That Infront of like thousands That watch yer Vids Is Just So Breath Taking You are so Beautiful and i think you have made me think about things more i havent been watching your videos for long but you are truly amazing i admire you and respect you so much your really a awsome person :) ^^ x
@jhermbaby Well it really does take a lot of guts to do that even when you think your going to lose people it shows how real you are :) love your vids btw
Find a way to forgive yourself. Sometimes that is the hardest part.Finding Sobriety is a hard tough road and again So proud of you for reaching there. there are many many many that try and never get there. But forgiving yourself is the final step. I hope you do, you have or you will. again! So Awed by how amazing a human you are. ROCK ON MOMMA!
American Mcgee's Alice is amazing, tho she continues returning to Wonderland, so I hope you stay clear of it due to the first trip. :D This is quite an excellent story and i love that your tattoos have symbolism, Mine do to a degree but as I continue my gaming sleeve its just for the sake of gaming. I do have one tattoo that symbolizes my turn around also, so this is excellent. I must admit you don't make enough videos now ;)
@TreavorClark she continues, I know that, yes.. but the Alice I have isn't the one from the video games.. she's innocent.. and falls into that darkness. I'm familiar with McGee's concept and continual return, but the characters being so dark and demonic are what was the true drive behind choosing them. I have more vids but don't post often. keeps the suspense going right?
@TreavorClark no it makes me want to punch you cause i enjoy ur videos and there is a lack of modern ones. Just kidding about the punching...i saw u flex...dont hurt me! i still love ur story please dont think i was cutting it down by being that troller who is like 'ya but alice falls back in' cause i meant by saying what i did that you should keep it up and don't return, it takes a lot to walk away from addiction and stay away...such as your strength! (that big bicep) ;)
I have officially gained a completely different respect for you than I had before. And there is so much in this comment I would love to say. The typical congrats, for sobriety, my best wishes for you in the future and so on and so forth. There is so much, however, that I can't even begin to explain. Although they're not of the same subject matter I see so much of my own story in yours. And I wanted to say thank you, from the whole of my heart, for posting this for anyone who possibly needed it.
i think you are so brave. it takes a big person to admit they are flawed and have had struggles. the fact that you allow yourself to be so raw and exposed makes your struggle and p9wer come to the surface even more! Damn I am so proud of you! I just thought you were a cool gothy chick but man! i really admire the f(&^% outta you. Rock the fu&& on Momma! and keep doing you! You are AWESOME! i wish you nothing but the best in life! U R AMAZING never forget that!>
@jhermbaby are you wearing a S.O.P.H.I.E wristband? I never stop wearing mine :) x
247GagaFan 6 hours ago
Woah @MrManword .. Why so reactive? ..............Then again.. it seems as if you knew this person & had some.. "negative history". Other than that, @jhermbaby , What made you do all those things? (drug addiction) If you cannot answer this, I completely understand. [Im 14 yrs. & I'm studying to see why.. people do the things they do, even if they know the consequences good or bad]. BTW, I first saw you from your fang video! I frigging want those!(the Underworld one -Underworld fan).] ♥
breezer407 19 hours ago
Goncratulations ! Those are great choices in ur life besides the first ones. Way to express yourself! U turned yourself to what would have been ugly to gorgeous !
giantsrock247 6 days ago
you horrible stupid ignorant cunt. keep your ugly fucking mouth shut and stop corrupting minds, then again anyone listening to this bull shit must already be totally fucked in the head. you dumb cunt, burn in hell
MrManword 1 week ago
without your rich parents youd be just another cunt on the street. you were the rat praying on the innocent, die slow
MrManword 1 week ago
fuck your whole family. i hope you od
MrManword 1 week ago
you are a stupid bitch, with a snitch brother, and you yourself have used kids to get yourself high, fuck you and everything you stand for... cant say shit cuz you know its true, huh? went out and reinvented yourself into some kind of inspirational speaker, if anyone that follows you had any brains theyd tell you your a fucking joke, giving kids heroin for the first time so you could get your fucking fix, fuck you, don't mention that in your fucking soeech do u?
MrManword 1 week ago
You call your self an addict, u say u have a disease and can't be around any kind of drug but u still drink??. A little knowledge 4 u, alcohol is a drug, it kills more people than all the illegal drugs combined. Its your life you can do what you want but if you were living in hell why would you want to go back??? Drinking is a one way ticket back to a shit life.
sskin4life 1 week ago
your an attention whore, have fun acting like a junky to your tweens fuckin joke
kevhowe1 2 weeks ago
wow what a fucking joke, video n all comments included
kevhowe1 2 weeks ago
jhermbaby i seen where it can go and what it can do to some1 and sinds i have no intension of going there lol il be fine a drink and a smoke is al i do and the smoking i only do when am at my best friend realy and only sometimes,am rooting for u stay strong and live life to the fullest!:)
marcus24000 2 weeks ago
This might sound horrible but I believe that people who have suffered trough drug addictions of all sorts in the end become so much more interesting and stronger than those who haven't tried and experimented with drugs. Yes yes yes! This is a horrible thing to say... But clearly you are just another proof of how amazing people who gone trough all that are.
narcisstic 3 weeks ago
@narcisstic Aww thank u! No I completely agree with you. While it's great to avoid those parts of life, they certainly teach valuable lessons. :) Thanks for the kind words, I appreciate them!
jhermbaby 2 weeks ago
@jhermbaby aww thanks for replying =) you're such an inspiration
effyhalloweeny 3 weeks ago
@effyhalloweeny anytime! and thank u so much! I try and get back to everyone but it can be difficult getting to everyone ya kno?
jhermbaby 2 weeks ago
i dk u from eve but i respect for anyone that can do something like this.its a hard life.i lived w/dated an addict for 2 yrs,on probation he couldnt get away w much so it seemed ok then he got off i got pregnant&he couldnt deal&relapsed,HARD.we dealt with it for years now with a child involved,it can be nasty&affect more lives than just your own.but we didnt give up&im thankful to say he is sober&now a great dad.people like you&he are proof it can be done.youre a beautiful woman&inspiration!
jzunig0912 4 weeks ago
@jzunig0912 this is so passionately told. thank u for your story. it can be a big thing in a persons life, and destroy a lot of relationships, so i know ur pain. congrats for getting thru it and staying strong!!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
WOW! I can completely relate to this video, i know the feelings you were describing all too well. Three years down the line and I'm not in that situation anymore but this video is amazing and so are you. I just wish I would have found it sooner. It really is all about STRENGTH, regardless of what situation you are in, a little strength can go a long way and once you realise how strong you really are, nothing can stop you. Strength = Self Belief <3
effyhalloweeny 1 month ago
@effyhalloweeny right-er-roo. :O I love this comment!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
you are such an inspiration :')
xxxamyg123xxx 1 month ago
@xxxamyg123xxx thank u!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
marry me!!!
mignatta1 1 month ago
@mignatta1 sorry, lol but thanks
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
i know this vid is old but i just wanna say i think your amazing! :) i never struggled with drugs but i know ppl who do/did and i love that u connect your life to Alice in Wonderland! i love your tattoos and America McGee's game is great! i still gotta play the second one! I love Alice in Wonderland too but my point of view on it is a little different. I see wonderland as the greatest place ever! i wish it was real cuz THAT would be my addiction to escape reality! that would be my high! <3
pjd12093 1 month ago
@pjd12093 that was my high, and I let it get foggy, and hazy.. if i could go back to that same wonderland but know myself as I discovered the first time around it'd be a helluva journey. PLAY THE SECOND one.. its more relatable to my tat cuz shes re-going through wonderland
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
your so gorgeous i love u
rhiannon677 1 month ago
@rhiannon677 thank u!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
it know its abit late lol but i admire you coming clean with al of that and that u can face it am not realy vulnrable for addiction but i smoke sometimes to and drink and i have it under controle thank god:),but i know some1 who is where u where with some additional stuf i tride to reach out but she wanted to go against the stream to badly u can call it a real rebel she can handle it but she slips eventualy stil kinda hurts i couldnt help and that she didnt wanna listen shit happens i gues.....
marcus24000 1 month ago in playlist Favorite videos
@marcus24000 dude I feel you, when ur smokin weed or drinking occasionally and having it under control those are adult decisions, just don't overdue them, and go to greater lengths further into curiosity,, curiosity killed the cat
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Done just about everything you mentioned. Had a kid. Stopped it all cold turkey. I told everyone I knew what I was doing, and understood that what I was doing wasn't addiction, it was pleasure. I'm really sorry you had to struggle at all. I did in fact do a lot of narcotics. I know all about waking up to go beg a friend for an extra $10 while I stole from them while in their home asking for money. It's a hell of a ride. I never really liked alcohol. Jaggermeister is a bane for me though.
1110100110 1 month ago
@1110100110 Got to say, shrooms were the best though. Fav thing in the world to do is lay rugs in a circle and spin and watch them vibrate.
1110100110 1 month ago
@1110100110 lol been there
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
@1110100110 lol, thanks for the talk.. it makes me think i have hope for myself as well... u sound oddly like ur giving the advice back in a wiser way.. so thank u!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
@jhermbaby Somewhat. I just related quite well to the experience. Never live to regret, but take care to repent (No, this is not a religious overtone. :P)
1110100110 3 weeks ago
purely inspirational. I myself never grew up with drugs or alcohol but i have had friends who certainly fell victim to this and supportive friends every step of the way saved their lives. Its people like u who inspire us to believe that we can be something better than what we are, that we can do amazing things, can strive and free ourselves without relying on drugs. Im very happy to have found this vid and i assure u my friends (who have also been clean for several years) REALLY appreciate it.
clueless1redwolf 1 month ago
@clueless1redwolf anytime, thank u!!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Your story really touched me, and, hey, I can tell that you did made difference in my life.I don't know you, we live in different countries and we have few things in common, but for sure, I can say I learned from your story, and I admire you so fuckin' badly.
(sorry for my bad English, I'm Brazilian)
pinupzumbi 1 month ago
@pinupzumbi no it's perfect english! thank u so much! this comment made my night
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Thank you for being brave & for sharing your story.
As I continue to grow, heal, & deal in my own life I've learned that there is healing in the telling of our stories...
You are beautiful. God bless.
jjc
dogyarnknit 2 months ago
@dogyarnknit it is so very true. took a lotta will power to see it
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Thank you soo much for putting how I felt into words. You really don't know people until they tell u about their past and their secrets. My best friend and I really became close when we broke down and cried in a public restroom and told each other our darkest secrets. We found out that we had the same past, and we helped each other get better. You helped me realize that its ok to have those types of secrets and experiences because they make us who we are. Thank you. :)
LittleMissSmokinHot 2 months ago
@LittleMissSmokinHot anytime smokinhot! congrats for gettin there!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
You're fucking awesome. Thanks for sharing. Much respect lady.
tinnaballerina 2 months ago
@tinnaballerina mad props back boo
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I really like that you speak the truth well done for this (:
xevanescencex4evax 2 months ago
@xevanescencex4evax anytime, i had to ya know? its made me who i am
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
props to you girl and prayers to keep you strrong i live with and have a child with a drug addict and have been going on our relationship for 4 years this winter, its a hard thing to handle and to know what the right thing to do is, i feel like i watch him ruin his life and he cant even see it,im at a loss of what to do to help i feel like my fam is falling apart.i dont know where else to turn but god i suppose, its so hard.anyways,ill pray for you to keep strong <3<3<3
jzunig0912 3 months ago
@jzunig0912 the only thing you can possible do is be THERE for him. don't yell or tell him you're disappointed. he needs help and he'll only get it if he wants it. once he does, make sure he has someone to help talk to him, sponsor him, bring him to others around doing or having done the same thing as him. it sounds "cliche" but it works... more important thing is you have to be his rock and never judge him.. only want to help :) thank u so much for ur story
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
your story was very thouching, im so glad you shared. i just got out rehab 2 months ago for a 4 year rock bottom heroin addiction. i am now 90 days sober and finally seeing what life i have to look forward to. thank you again, this inspires me to share my whole story someday, when im comfortable.
taylorsmodernlife 3 months ago
@taylorsmodernlife and thats just it, when ur comfortable. it was time for me.. good luck on your journey babe
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Wow, not only are you a beautiful person physically, but mentally. I thought you were just another person on Youtube. But damn was I wrong.
Proud of you <3.
emovampie345 3 months ago
@emovampie345 awwww, so considerate! thank u ma'am!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I've been a subscriber for a quite a while now & I just want you to know you are an amazing person! It took courage to make this video & I admire you for it. You have such a beautiful soul & I wish you all that's good, that this life has to offer <3
rdelida 4 months ago
@rdelida it's true, and not too many people talk about it openly whe they should. i think it could help in SOME small way, right?
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
You Deserve an Oscar....
PresidentialBeatz 4 months ago
@PresidentialBeatz pffft, oh ur gonna make my head swell
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I applaud you... not only for the courage to get clean but also to share your story with us.
I to am an addict. Used everything I could find since I was 10 years old. I will have 10 years clean in July.. All thanks to my mentor.. Jimmy K. He wouldn't happen to be your friend too would he?... sounds like it anyway. Much love.. Alan
D4RKSC4R3CR0W 4 months ago
@D4RKSC4R3CR0W Alan!! Not a personal friend this Jimmy K.. but I've had many of people like him to help in my struggle. Congrats on the 10 year mark man! Not many get to that mark without fuckin up. It's sexy being sober.
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Thank you so much for sharing your story with me..
I started drinking at the age of 13.. and didn't do anything else
untill the age of 17.. I was just going to try it out.. smoking weed.. one time.. you know.. I didn't grow up thinking * when i grow up i wanna be an addict..* Hehh.. yeh nope.. from there.. it took me 2 years.. to hit rock bottom..
today i share my story with people like me.. and you.. Addicts..
I Love my life.. I love people that are just like me..
Thank you..
so much..
Monalind 4 months ago
@Monalind anytime, freal girl.. i feel you. thanks!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
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Monalind 4 months ago
thumbs up if your prowed of her for telling the truth :D yay
MsLittlemonster100 4 months ago 2
@MsLittlemonster100 lol
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Subbed for your bravery=)
estevens2011 4 months ago
@estevens2011 thanks!!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
yyour Alice comparison gave me shivers.
rorommanticentz 4 months ago
@rorommanticentz dark i kow, but true
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
dude... i didnt fall so deep b/c of one of my friends that took care of me at the time. he thru away my needles. heroin ran deep. no excuse except that i got carried away. i was hooked for a while. its sad. but whats worse? I've been clean for a year and a half. I'm 17.
0v3rl0ad0074 4 months ago
@0v3rl0ad0074 FUCK YA, and thank god ur so young, starting later in life suxks cuz u have noone to turn to.. not anymore, parents have told u to move on, do ur own thing.. theyll be there for you, but who wants to end up 30 with teir parents cuz they have no money or job to pay bills, only scrounge off the rents for drugs.. no sir, not the life for me
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I love the Alice in Wonderland tattoo and how you expressed the Alice journey. - You are Alice ~ Strength & bright blessings ~ xo
MesaMynx 4 months ago
@MesaMynx thanks mesa!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
i kno exactly what ur talkin about, when i was 15 i started to bang drugs for the same reason. i just quit 4 weeks ago cold turkey, i am in collage now an i feel great. but its the hardest thing to ever do. my drug of choice was D's. id shoot heroin if i could find it. it takes alot of will to stop, an u can only stop if you REALLY REALLY REALLY want to on ur own. in other words u wont. i want to congratulate u on ur success cuss i kno how hard it is. i had to move outta my home town 2 escape
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@cobain0420 i feel you.. D's were the best, but All of those are completely wortless.. its for the day, and then you feel shit. thanks for the comment!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
NICE SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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@cobain0420 thank u!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
beautiful girl, i hope you always know that even without drugs you ARE invincible. always.
NerdfaceMcgeeFTW 5 months ago 7
@NerdfaceMcgeeFTW thanks nerdface! u rock!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
wow... a inspiring and beautiful video- I love your tattoo and the story behind it- just gorgeous- look forward to checking out your other videos too xo
amygrigg 6 months ago
@amygrigg thank u so much!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
wow... a inspiring and beautiful video- I love your tattoo and the story behind it- just gorgeous- look forward to checking out your other videos too xo
amygrigg 6 months ago
You are, SO, beautiful inside and out. I enjoy watching your videos cuz i get to laugh after a long day at work and hey i was able to bruch my dreads out lol =). you are a BAMF! ;)
slipknotstevo 7 months ago
@slipknotstevo hahaha awesome! i only hope to do the same for others!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Wish i could see the video, tO bad it doesnt Play on mobile devices. :/
pruetoricangirl 7 months ago
Thanks for sharing your story, & wonderful music in the background.
I just have one question..What does your knuckle tattoo say? x)
1victoriag 7 months ago
@1victoriag REAL and LIES as in REALIZE
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
the message you're sending is awesome, I just got 2 years sober May 10th. but I'm curious about something you said in your video, you still drink but you just don't get drunk, but then you said you've been clean for 6 years? do you mean from drugs but not alcohol? I've never heard someone say they're clean when they still drink
skankyx0x0 7 months ago
@skankyx0x0 i know what you mean. there are all sorts of arguments, but the addction thing was my main point.. to find out who i was, and what my strengths were, didnt necessarily mean I couldnt control myself, it was that I had to find my way through what i did do, and see what my weaknesses were, then realize hey guess what? im sober from the shit i never wanna see in my life again, but im strong enough to have one drink and stop. its different in a way, but i see ur side
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
This video is so beautiful.
You have helped me so much.
Thank you.
You will always be my guiding voice.
It means so much.
<3
Thank you for sharing.
You're beautiful by the way.
XxTodEngel666xX 7 months ago
@XxTodEngel666xX thank u so much! this is beautiful!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
You really helped me. Thank you
Averyeatsrainbows 7 months ago
@Averyeatsrainbows anytime love
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
woow this is so deep and this is nice .. its like listening to genuine experience ...
erikyuribee 7 months ago
@erikyuribee thank u so much!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I haven't found myself yet and happily you did. You keep me going strong and I thank you. You are brave and beautiful and I wish you the best. You are very strong and I won't be looking at people the same. You reached to us with such heart. Thank you and maybe you can help me with my troubled journey.
MegaRainbowNarwhal 7 months ago
@MegaRainbowNarwhal always and forever!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I cried watchin this. goin thru it right now. Subbed u for this vid. :)
HeatherAIYA 8 months ago
@HeatherAIYA aww thank u so much darlin!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Yesterday was my 1 year sobriety. Thank you for posting this and showing the world what a lot of us go through and how we can overcome it. :)
oxcolettexox 8 months ago
@oxcolettexox HAPPY 1 YEAR AND 7 MONTHS
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
this vid really helped me
xXTuRb0xxFr3AkXx 8 months ago
@xXTuRb0xxFr3AkXx im glad
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Damn, Your story really makes me think twice about what im doinq t o myself now.
I really learnrd from your alice story. It really relates to my life riqht now.
-You are an ispuration ! <3 Keep it up. Your a bravee beautiful women
love your vids. nd your tats !
zombeekinkznskiski 8 months ago
@zombeekinkznskiski thank u! hope it helps in all ur endeavors
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
What is the awesome song called?
bulletbabe3114 8 months ago
@bulletbabe3114 dont follow by alice in chains
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
what a divvy
purespanner 8 months ago
i havent done drugs or even drank im only 14 but this video inspired me to do something amazing, idk what that is yet but you are truely inspirational and i just wanted to say thanx for all the awesome advise and you will defenitly be an idol for me.
hawksmith9 9 months ago
@hawksmith9 go you! lol im glad i reached to someone!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I Love the video it reached out to me in so many ways, mostly cause i went throgh the same thing so i feel i can relate. I know how hard it was to quit the addiction, it consumes u and becomes who you are. At the age of 13 i was drinking and smoking weed by age 14 i had moved to pills and found crystal meth and was highly addicted to it for 3 years. Ive lost alot and seen stuff ive never should have that young. But have been clean for 5 years . It takes great strength to overcome it. Thank you.
TheNikidans 9 months ago
@TheNikidans fuck yea it does.. 5 years is a while now! so awesome! it takes a long time to be able to admit it as well so the sharing of ur story is admirable! thanks for sharing with ME
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I really do love this video. Thank you for sharing... I just lost a great friend April 9th 2011 due to his addiction to Heroin. He had just gotten out of rehab and a person whom he thought was his friend pulled him back down. It goes to show the hell drugs can put you through.
This video is very inspirational video. I thank you again. <3 <3
RaeBies20 10 months ago
@RaeBies20 RIP to ur buddy... ive had it happen with somenone getting something from a dirty needle but never die.. thats a big thing man, im so sorry..
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
this is very inspirational thank you so much for sharing your story :)
deadlydestiny72 10 months ago
@deadlydestiny72 anytime
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Wow. It's rediculous how awesome this girl is.. Finally youtube makes sence again.. FCKIN SUBBED
PayBiIls 10 months ago 2
@PayBiIls ahahahaha this is excellent
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Very brave to be so honest. You are loved. Don't ever forget that. If you should ever feel tempted to slip, remember those that love you. Sometimes it's hard to love yourself enough to stay healthy. That's when loves purpose becomes clear. Love them when you can't love you. Be strong enough, brave enough, to fight for them! Your absence would hurt them so don't leave. Stay.
MichaelArcAngel1028 11 months ago
@MichaelArcAngel1028 and that makes me so happy.. it makes me want to continue staying sober and happy.. thank you!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
im arielle, i just suscribed to you today :P and i watched this video ive never done drugs or drank .. but for some reason your story makes me feel better like ive had alot of stuff happen in my short 19 years of life ive lost alot of ppl to alot of things but just knowing that there is a way out of it for them is amazing,, you story really inspires my because ive always been the stright edge kid with a strong will power but thats not true for alot of ppl ive known, but your an insparation to me
goshbanana 11 months ago
@goshbanana keep being straight edge.. it's the cooler thing to do things now anyways, lesarn from the fuckups so u can achieve over them... right?? you've got a bright head on your shoulders and should stay focused on someone your good at, so one day u can own the world
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I may be strong, but its not often I hear that. So I dont think so. ._.
xMARiLyNMAnSoNFaN 11 months ago
@xMARiLyNMAnSoNFaN u are!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Your fucking amazing !!!! :D
x0Yellowismellow0x 11 months ago
@x0Yellowismellow0x thank u so much
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
You fuckin inspire me . Im into shit now but not even close to how deep you were. Congrats on bein clean.You really made me think about things.
AmzieRulzie 11 months ago
@AmzieRulzie thanks!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
wow, how inspirational.
ClassicEdgeElite 11 months ago
@ClassicEdgeElite aww thank u!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
the day i got my alice tattoo no one understood what it meant. thank you. i went through a similar experiance, and i now know who and what i am. Thank you, and though you dont know me, nor will ever know me, i want you to know i love you. spread the love, and the happiness.
ElviraDarkbird 11 months ago
@ElviraDarkbird for sure! fly away high and be happy girl! :)
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
wow i never thought of Alice and wonderland like that but it fits so well and i'm really happy for you.
RougeRoseKatMarie 11 months ago
@RougeRoseKatMarie thank u!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Woah, this is some hardcore shit right here. I'm really glad you made it out of everything that you've gone through. In my personal opinion, i think that addiction, when you kick it.. you sort of just.. replace it with something else, good or bad. You never know though, unless you really know the person.
LexieWONDERLAND 1 year ago
@LexieWONDERLAND true, thank u!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Im so high...
MamDylemat92 1 year ago
@MamDylemat92 make sure it's green
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Wow...im usually really hyper at night (Im watching this vid at night) and you calmed me down and made me stop and listen...your one brave person...Deep deep things expressed there Much props :)
DemonicMrCheezburger 1 year ago
@DemonicMrCheezburger wow thank u!! i love being able to talk to people, so it;s been great hearing those things thank u!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Thanks for this.
Maloney001 1 year ago
Inspiring, amazing, for sure you reached the ones with addiction problems...
I know what you mean about that, I was so on the same way and then I realized I didn't want it for my life, for me, and for the ones who where around me though this.
How brave you were about telling this. Congratulations you're done with that and starting once again.
cagitolamia1 1 year ago
@cagitolamia1 thanks amigo, means a lot!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I've just found your videos, and Oh my freakin' God, you're a beautiful and strong woman, you inspired me!! Please, never stop <3
Gothfan23 1 year ago
@Gothfan23 wont ever!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
You gave me chills.
Congratulations for putting your life back together, and finding a passion in life!
catherineistoocool 1 year ago
@catherineistoocool thankv u so much
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
I'm 17 years old Nd u insper me so much I love it vids I think ur an amazing person ur so strong for getting up Nd saying all this... Ur an awsome person
JuggaletteFreaky 1 year ago
@JuggaletteFreaky ur just as awesome! kwep it up!
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LadyMellBourne 1 year ago
Your story really has touched me, and seriously brought me to tears. thank you for the person you are, and being brave enough to tell your story. :)
juggaletteKidYo 1 year ago
@juggaletteKidYo thank u! it means a lot hearing that!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
Wow Thats Pure Amazing Your Story Is Just Like Wow to Just Get On youtube and Have The Guts To Say Ye Iv Did This And Ye I Did That Infront of like thousands That watch yer Vids Is Just So Breath Taking You are so Beautiful and i think you have made me think about things more i havent been watching your videos for long but you are truly amazing i admire you and respect you so much your really a awsome person :) ^^ x
AmiiRawrsChu 1 year ago
@AmiiRawrsChu i kno right? i was so nervous id lose people and they wouldnt ike me, but i felt i had to say it, and tell people who i was.. thank u!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
@jhermbaby Well it really does take a lot of guts to do that even when you think your going to lose people it shows how real you are :) love your vids btw
AmiiRawrsChu 3 weeks ago
Find a way to forgive yourself. Sometimes that is the hardest part.Finding Sobriety is a hard tough road and again So proud of you for reaching there. there are many many many that try and never get there. But forgiving yourself is the final step. I hope you do, you have or you will. again! So Awed by how amazing a human you are. ROCK ON MOMMA!
Divaxi 1 year ago
@Divaxi thanks fellow mamma
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
American Mcgee's Alice is amazing, tho she continues returning to Wonderland, so I hope you stay clear of it due to the first trip. :D This is quite an excellent story and i love that your tattoos have symbolism, Mine do to a degree but as I continue my gaming sleeve its just for the sake of gaming. I do have one tattoo that symbolizes my turn around also, so this is excellent. I must admit you don't make enough videos now ;)
TreavorClark 1 year ago
@TreavorClark she continues, I know that, yes.. but the Alice I have isn't the one from the video games.. she's innocent.. and falls into that darkness. I'm familiar with McGee's concept and continual return, but the characters being so dark and demonic are what was the true drive behind choosing them. I have more vids but don't post often. keeps the suspense going right?
jhermbaby 1 year ago
@TreavorClark no it makes me want to punch you cause i enjoy ur videos and there is a lack of modern ones. Just kidding about the punching...i saw u flex...dont hurt me! i still love ur story please dont think i was cutting it down by being that troller who is like 'ya but alice falls back in' cause i meant by saying what i did that you should keep it up and don't return, it takes a lot to walk away from addiction and stay away...such as your strength! (that big bicep) ;)
TreavorClark 1 year ago
@TreavorClark shit i meant this to be a reponse not a comment...sorry but it continues off what you said...my bad
TreavorClark 1 year ago
@TreavorClark believe me more like this to come been keeping busy with a lot lately!
jhermbaby 4 weeks ago
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missXmarie0990 1 year ago
I have officially gained a completely different respect for you than I had before. And there is so much in this comment I would love to say. The typical congrats, for sobriety, my best wishes for you in the future and so on and so forth. There is so much, however, that I can't even begin to explain. Although they're not of the same subject matter I see so much of my own story in yours. And I wanted to say thank you, from the whole of my heart, for posting this for anyone who possibly needed it.
missXmarie0990 1 year ago
@missXmarie0990 awww thank u so much!!!
jhermbaby 1 year ago
you are inspirational.
jayzaax123 1 year ago
@jayzaax123 thank u so much. It means a lot knowing i hit someone somewhere. :)
jhermbaby 1 year ago
I'm really happy for you.
You're a strong, amazing person.
GootenZoot 1 year ago
@GootenZoot thank u! ;) means a lot~
jhermbaby 1 year ago
i like all ur vids,but i rllly like this cuz ur real about everythin
EsvinMrRR 1 year ago
@EsvinMrRR why thank u so much!
jhermbaby 1 year ago
i think you are so brave. it takes a big person to admit they are flawed and have had struggles. the fact that you allow yourself to be so raw and exposed makes your struggle and p9wer come to the surface even more! Damn I am so proud of you! I just thought you were a cool gothy chick but man! i really admire the f(&^% outta you. Rock the fu&& on Momma! and keep doing you! You are AWESOME! i wish you nothing but the best in life! U R AMAZING never forget that!>
Divaxi 1 year ago
@Divaxi wow thank u so much! this means a lot to me :) its fantastic knowing i've hit someone hard with my words. :)