:( i know this feeling all too well. I'm 21 and have been battling bulimia since i was 17...lost 80ish pounds and was really bad. Then I recovered only to have a horrible lapse and now i need a root canal because ive messed up my mouth so much with it. ugh :( but i hope that you are recovering better and i love your tattoo :) <3
I just wanna give you a Hug,and You may not want to talk to me,But I think I may be coming Bulimic.It sounds sill They way Ive just put it..But yeah.Inbox me :)<3
Your not alone, so many people starve themselves to be "pretty". This dieases could kill you. If you get help and try hard, you can get your old life back. You can be happy and healthy again.
@dancindiva12028 im not just saying this for attention. i dont really think it matters what age someone isto do this kind of stuff. i dont really care what i do with my life anymore.
@hellomonkeyish you should eat and not throw up i hope you get better wanna be my friend i fill the same way but i want to get better do you wanna get better with me we can be friends
@yasmin256987 you seem like a really nice girl. i would love to. i use to not be able to throw up but one day i was just like im gonna do this. i know most of my weight is muscle (im a gymnast) but i dont care. ive been so bad i got the idea in my friends head that throwing up is a good idea.....i would love to talk to you.
@hellomonkeyish I dont have ed, but I´m trying to stop SH. If you´d like an advice please don´t tell everyone what you´re doing, most people wont understand it and telling will only make your life worse. If you need to talk, talk to only really close friends you really trust. If ou havent got any, you can always talk to me. I´m 14 and I can tell you for sure I care. I hope you get better :)
Im 12 5'2 and 135 pounds. I told a friend i was anorexic and bulimic after she told me she was bulimic. It then spiraled out of control and everyone at school some how found out. No one knows it was fake. I tried to starve myself and the longest i could go was 5 days! the pressure got to me and i tried to throw up all the time. but only did 3 times. I then told people i cut myself once when it was only a scratch. I then started to really cut myself. I almost killed myself during spring.
of been a faster recovery if they had helped me before. If you feel the need to be helped, go for it, and if someone says you're okay Screw them go somewhere else. I hope you get helped and I know it's hard but you'll find the right help. I've seen 19 specialists in 3 years....and it's been only 9 months since I've been with a good psychiatric. Hope the best for you :) . <3
A couple years ago the hospital discharged me too for not being sick enough. They said I was maniac, depressed with ADHD among other things...Yep it was crap as u can see, but they wouldn't see it. They just said it wasn't bad enough for them to do anything at that time. 1 year later my family whom thought the doctors were completely right about everything, had to bring me at 1h in the morning at the emergency because they knew something was actually wrong. My point is NOW I'm better but I could
ALL girls please go to my profile and check my websites. We are building a nation of girls who are sick of the poisonous messages fed to young females about weight and beauty. Join the movement.
wow this is sad.. u know peoplee ask me if i have anorexia.. i eated alot.. only that i look thin.. now.. it's hard for me to eat.. i eat. but not so much.. im more thin than last year.. but i began eating again.. and now i have more weight..
last year.. like for november.. i fell down to the floor because of the "anorexia" i wake up at the hospital.. doctor said i have anorexia.. im recovering.. im getting weight..
wow this is sad.. u know peoplee ask me if i have anorexia.. i eated alot.. only that i look thin.. now.. it's hard for me to eat.. i eat. but not so much.. im more thin than last year.. but i began eating again.. and now i have more weight..
last year.. like for november.. i fell down to the floor because of the "anorexia" i wake up at the hospital.. doctor said i have anorexia.. im recovering.. im getting weight..
Wow... you could be me. I've been struggling for almost 9 years now... took down my videos though (afraid if someone from my job found it I could be fired)... however I still look around, and your video really struck me. I hope that you are getting better.... I know how hard it is though... you just keep on going imagining everything is fine... it's only once in a while that I actually recognize the horror that is my life.... Keep on truckin' girl!
I'm at 5 years bulimic with bouts of starvation and ednos. I admire your courage. Nobody except my therapist and two best friends have ever found out and I wonder if I can ever get "thin enough" to let myself try recovery, or ask for help. As a size 8/10 I am too fat to admit an eating disorder; I know the judgment would just make it worse.
wow u have such a courage to post this video online :) am not that strong yet..i've been bulimic for 4years now but after going to rehab i purge twice daily and sometimes i don't..i used to purge 12 times a day so maybe there is hope to recover :)
i know exactly how u feel girl im just the same i livew of virtually hardly any calories through the week then i fk it up with a huge binge n purge then the starvation cycle starts again its hell!!!!!
i was bulimic 3 years...i had to act like an insane person to get help...and it worked....i hate to say act like fuckin sible but DO IT!!! bulimia and anarexia are bitches and dont let them kick your asses!! I KILLED MINE AND THEY AINT NEVER GETTEN ME BACK
I kno to well what u r going thru. I have struggled w/ anorexia and bulimia for 11 years now and im only 19. I understand how hard it is to even get up in the morning bc u know your first meal will be a binge and purge. It almost hurts more to hide behind a painted smile when you feel as tho the world around you, a world that once felt peaceful so long ago, is falling down and ur falling with it. But I believe there is hope. Hope for all of us. I believe in recovery... do you?
hey, this is such a sad video to watch, i know how you feel. you hate and love it all at once. i'm 21 and in college, my Bulimia has gotten completely out of control too. you're not alone. xx
Sweetheart, this absolutely broke my heart. Your video really portrayed the hell that is bulimia. I'm 21 and have been bulimic since i was 9, and had anorexia from the age of 6. If you ever want a chat, i'm here. You are not alone :o) xxx
I suffer from the same thing as well. You are beautiful, I'd kill to look like you. Good luck in the future and if you ever need someone to talk to just message me. X
hey babe, i didnt realize you had made another video. I miss your ass on le purg but i hope you are doing better! contact me anytime so i know how you are doing and whats been goin on with ya. i know this shit disease is hard to overcome, as im still struggling, but I want you to know that I care about you as do many others. Please be safe.
Wow you made such a good video it really show what boulimia does. I'm a boulimic myself for 14 years now. Hope you get help and recover this horrible disease.
hi beautiful. this was such a well put together video. --i literally do not think i even blinked while i watched it, ---i could relate so deeply to feeling almost unsure as to a time when i wasn't 'sick' yet, knowing that it existed at some point. how it starts, and gets worse-how sometimes its just all consuming, and isolating even though there are times when we are with others. to feel---on the sidelines. aside from everyone else. please, hang in there sweetness. xo
This literally made me start crying for you. I hate how this takes over so many lives. You deserve to live again, I hope you can someday soon. <3 -hopingforhopee.
im glad you posted this so others can see what bulimia can do to yourself and those around you. this was done "beautifully" and i admire your courage for posting this.
This is happening with my best friend right in this moment, I don't know what the hell I'm going to do..
Kortcubain 2 months ago
:( i know this feeling all too well. I'm 21 and have been battling bulimia since i was 17...lost 80ish pounds and was really bad. Then I recovered only to have a horrible lapse and now i need a root canal because ive messed up my mouth so much with it. ugh :( but i hope that you are recovering better and i love your tattoo :) <3
lostshygirl777 2 months ago
I just wanna give you a Hug,and You may not want to talk to me,But I think I may be coming Bulimic.It sounds sill They way Ive just put it..But yeah.Inbox me :)<3
1998Loz 3 months ago
I understand u.. Bulimia is killing me too.. I hope you have recovered yet.. This eating disorder kills inside.. and all your life.. it's a beast
pinkymiafuckingirl18 4 months ago 2
@pinkymiafuckingirl18
there there to both of you know your never alone...and I too understand how u feel......
cephiro14 3 months ago
Please fight against this- you are so young, so beautiful and look like such a nice person.. don't let this kill you, get help, please! xxx
pilnametesanketa 4 months ago 3
That how i feel im very young and i have the same problems that u had :(
caitlin3447 5 months ago
Your not alone, so many people starve themselves to be "pretty". This dieases could kill you. If you get help and try hard, you can get your old life back. You can be happy and healthy again.
specialsary 5 months ago
i hope your better. if not and your in recovery, then power to ya sista
AnaXisXmyXfriend 5 months ago
FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS
XxXxOoOoOxXxX 5 months ago
You're not alone although it seems so sometimes.
arritmiaocasional 5 months ago
@dancindiva12028 im not just saying this for attention. i dont really think it matters what age someone isto do this kind of stuff. i dont really care what i do with my life anymore.
hellomonkeyish 7 months ago
i was considering this
TheUmmidk10 7 months ago
i am determined to not eat and throw up.
hellomonkeyish 8 months ago
@hellomonkeyish you should eat and not throw up i hope you get better wanna be my friend i fill the same way but i want to get better do you wanna get better with me we can be friends
yasmin256987 8 months ago
@yasmin256987 you seem like a really nice girl. i would love to. i use to not be able to throw up but one day i was just like im gonna do this. i know most of my weight is muscle (im a gymnast) but i dont care. ive been so bad i got the idea in my friends head that throwing up is a good idea.....i would love to talk to you.
hellomonkeyish 8 months ago
@yasmin256987 i hope u dont feel as bad as i do! sure
hellomonkeyish 7 months ago
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@hellomonkeyish I dont have ed, but I´m trying to stop SH. If you´d like an advice please don´t tell everyone what you´re doing, most people wont understand it and telling will only make your life worse. If you need to talk, talk to only really close friends you really trust. If ou havent got any, you can always talk to me. I´m 14 and I can tell you for sure I care. I hope you get better :)
doodleorme 6 months ago
Im 12 5'2 and 135 pounds. I told a friend i was anorexic and bulimic after she told me she was bulimic. It then spiraled out of control and everyone at school some how found out. No one knows it was fake. I tried to starve myself and the longest i could go was 5 days! the pressure got to me and i tried to throw up all the time. but only did 3 times. I then told people i cut myself once when it was only a scratch. I then started to really cut myself. I almost killed myself during spring.
hellomonkeyish 8 months ago
of been a faster recovery if they had helped me before. If you feel the need to be helped, go for it, and if someone says you're okay Screw them go somewhere else. I hope you get helped and I know it's hard but you'll find the right help. I've seen 19 specialists in 3 years....and it's been only 9 months since I've been with a good psychiatric. Hope the best for you :) . <3
manueess 8 months ago
A couple years ago the hospital discharged me too for not being sick enough. They said I was maniac, depressed with ADHD among other things...Yep it was crap as u can see, but they wouldn't see it. They just said it wasn't bad enough for them to do anything at that time. 1 year later my family whom thought the doctors were completely right about everything, had to bring me at 1h in the morning at the emergency because they knew something was actually wrong. My point is NOW I'm better but I could
manueess 8 months ago
This could almost be my story...it's so sad to watch.
kh8223 8 months ago
how do you stop it ?
soonsims 8 months ago
omg! is that what i look like!
Kayleighgirl14 8 months ago
is this bulimia or anorexia ?
im sorry but i don't know ...
NushaTheBlack 10 months ago
@NushaTheBlack Anorexia is when you make urself vomit to lose weight, and Bulimia is when u starve urself.
Sugarlandjackson 10 months ago
@Sugarlandjackson
No you got it a lil mixed up... Bulimia is when you vomit.. Anorxia is when you starve.
SkinniiCow 9 months ago
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@Sugarlandjackson
No you got it a lil mixed up... Bulimia is when you vomit.. Anorxia is when you starve. :]
SkinniiCow 9 months ago
have you gotten better. are you in treatment. this is so sad to watch (i can relate to a alot of it) love to you babe
Shriyogihoops 10 months ago
very brave film!
Bennis83 1 year ago
Thanks for this. I share nearly the exact same story. It's nice to know I'm not alone sometimes.
ktothacute 1 year ago
ALL girls please go to my profile and check my websites. We are building a nation of girls who are sick of the poisonous messages fed to young females about weight and beauty. Join the movement.
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wow this is sad.. u know peoplee ask me if i have anorexia.. i eated alot.. only that i look thin.. now.. it's hard for me to eat.. i eat. but not so much.. im more thin than last year.. but i began eating again.. and now i have more weight..
last year.. like for november.. i fell down to the floor because of the "anorexia" i wake up at the hospital.. doctor said i have anorexia.. im recovering.. im getting weight..
jinize 1 year ago
wow this is sad.. u know peoplee ask me if i have anorexia.. i eated alot.. only that i look thin.. now.. it's hard for me to eat.. i eat. but not so much.. im more thin than last year.. but i began eating again.. and now i have more weight..
last year.. like for november.. i fell down to the floor because of the "anorexia" i wake up at the hospital.. doctor said i have anorexia.. im recovering.. im getting weight..
jinize 1 year ago
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jinize 1 year ago
Wow... you could be me. I've been struggling for almost 9 years now... took down my videos though (afraid if someone from my job found it I could be fired)... however I still look around, and your video really struck me. I hope that you are getting better.... I know how hard it is though... you just keep on going imagining everything is fine... it's only once in a while that I actually recognize the horror that is my life.... Keep on truckin' girl!
jennifersara 1 year ago
You're beautiful, and you have done an excellent job on this video.
I see myself in you... and it's getting better.
It really can.
Please invest in saving your life.
rashedly 1 year ago
p.s. google webiteback. [youtube dislikes links as we know.]
rashedly 1 year ago
I'm at 5 years bulimic with bouts of starvation and ednos. I admire your courage. Nobody except my therapist and two best friends have ever found out and I wonder if I can ever get "thin enough" to let myself try recovery, or ask for help. As a size 8/10 I am too fat to admit an eating disorder; I know the judgment would just make it worse.
BlissBomber 1 year ago
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FannyMiley 1 year ago
You're beautiful.
I hope one day you'll fully believe that.
YouMusicalTube 1 year ago
i know wxactly 100% how ur feelin right now it was like lookin at my life.:(
lillm2010 1 year ago
wow u have such a courage to post this video online :) am not that strong yet..i've been bulimic for 4years now but after going to rehab i purge twice daily and sometimes i don't..i used to purge 12 times a day so maybe there is hope to recover :)
sou90 1 year ago
i know exactly how u feel girl im just the same i livew of virtually hardly any calories through the week then i fk it up with a huge binge n purge then the starvation cycle starts again its hell!!!!!
lillm2010 1 year ago
Um, so I'm only to 2:11, but your story is like identical to mine so far. Weird to see someone with the exact same progression/timeline as me...
Kittles0212 1 year ago
i was bulimic 3 years...i had to act like an insane person to get help...and it worked....i hate to say act like fuckin sible but DO IT!!! bulimia and anarexia are bitches and dont let them kick your asses!! I KILLED MINE AND THEY AINT NEVER GETTEN ME BACK
CaliCocoLove 1 year ago
it really kills, if you cant stop.
i´m bulimic, too. I think ..whoa..2 years till now?
It´s a good vid. And i hope, you stayed stronger then mia!
LG from Germany .
guttitiefel 1 year ago
I kno to well what u r going thru. I have struggled w/ anorexia and bulimia for 11 years now and im only 19. I understand how hard it is to even get up in the morning bc u know your first meal will be a binge and purge. It almost hurts more to hide behind a painted smile when you feel as tho the world around you, a world that once felt peaceful so long ago, is falling down and ur falling with it. But I believe there is hope. Hope for all of us. I believe in recovery... do you?
eagleenergy 1 year ago
i've got the same problem;/ almost 5 years..;/ back to the tharapy, fight for your life..:))
amartmal 1 year ago
we have the same tattoo (:
I wish you the best in recovery !
livtoria 1 year ago
I belive in u :)
liamcoleman2010 1 year ago
hey, this is such a sad video to watch, i know how you feel. you hate and love it all at once. i'm 21 and in college, my Bulimia has gotten completely out of control too. you're not alone. xx
andrea00mc 1 year ago
Sweetheart, this absolutely broke my heart. Your video really portrayed the hell that is bulimia. I'm 21 and have been bulimic since i was 9, and had anorexia from the age of 6. If you ever want a chat, i'm here. You are not alone :o) xxx
ready4itnow 1 year ago
please dont die :(
selectrentals 1 year ago
I suffer from the same thing as well. You are beautiful, I'd kill to look like you. Good luck in the future and if you ever need someone to talk to just message me. X
fingerscrossed13 1 year ago
=*[
bestemore 2 years ago
I'm going through the same thing. I'm bulimic
chixalove 2 years ago
hey babe, i didnt realize you had made another video. I miss your ass on le purg but i hope you are doing better! contact me anytime so i know how you are doing and whats been goin on with ya. i know this shit disease is hard to overcome, as im still struggling, but I want you to know that I care about you as do many others. Please be safe.
chmpnk_cheeks <3
casanasie 2 years ago
....this video is so hard to watch as a person struggling with bulimia as well, but so moving. You are a fighter, and are very inspiring...
HowBadDoiWantThis 2 years ago
This was a beautiful portrail of what an eating disorder is truly like...
You did a brillaint job.
Meganisawhat 2 years ago
Amazing video!
BrokenAngel0967 2 years ago
Wow you made such a good video it really show what boulimia does. I'm a boulimic myself for 14 years now. Hope you get help and recover this horrible disease.
x
Pamela
engine741 2 years ago
hi beautiful. this was such a well put together video. --i literally do not think i even blinked while i watched it, ---i could relate so deeply to feeling almost unsure as to a time when i wasn't 'sick' yet, knowing that it existed at some point. how it starts, and gets worse-how sometimes its just all consuming, and isolating even though there are times when we are with others. to feel---on the sidelines. aside from everyone else. please, hang in there sweetness. xo
rowalyrow 2 years ago
Agreed.
Meganisawhat 2 years ago
This literally made me start crying for you. I hate how this takes over so many lives. You deserve to live again, I hope you can someday soon. <3 -hopingforhopee.
lindserrrx3 2 years ago
im glad you posted this so others can see what bulimia can do to yourself and those around you. this was done "beautifully" and i admire your courage for posting this.
casanasie 2 years ago
Is the photo with the NEDA tattoo yours?
safetypin00 2 years ago
yes, it is. :)
accidentalkaos 2 years ago
Ik i'm prolly being stupid but, what's a NEDA tattoo?
twilighizawesome 2 years ago
@twilighizawesome NEDA stands for National Eating Disorders Association.
The tattoo I have is the symbol they use...it's often seen as a symbol of recovery. :)
accidentalkaos 1 year ago