i would like to say to everyone, that i tried to commit suicide when i was 16. i suffer from depression and a few more things. i didn't know at the time i did it all the hurt it caused. i only can wonder how much worse it would have been if i died. that was 18 years ago. i think of it this way, god must have wanted to keep me here for a reason. i think of it as everyday i am here is a bonus. everyday is a gift from god. since then i speak to parents and children about suicide.
@imherewaiting - I'm so sorry that you lost your uncle and cousin to suicide. It IS a hard thing to go through. If you would like to join the group associated with the Wall, please do visit health.groups.yahoo.com/group/FFofSuicides/ Each person there can understand some of what you're going through because we've each had a friend/loved one die by their own hand. My condolences to you.
@csnellen my sister in law just committed suicide in February 2011 they found her on her daughters birthday which is valentine's day. It has hurt our family immensly. where do we go from here. Rip debbie grajales
@TheTammylynn69 - Tammy, I am so sorry to hear about your SIL - and on her daughter's birthday - what a horrible tragedy. I will e you at the address you show, here, and we can "talk" more about what to do from here. But what I would share with anyone who is going through this - allow yourself and each family member to grieve in their own way. Say her name. Talk about her. Cry. Seek professional counseling to help you and the kids with the grief. Don't feel guilty. Reach out for help!
A thousand thanks for the great love and compassion you share with us.It is so nice to see theres still people out there filled love and compassion for theire fellow man. This is a really bad way to lose a loved one,and my heart and prayers goes out to all of you thats going throug this horrible experiense. May God bless you all, and lets do our best to keep this from happening ever again. Thank you, and God bless.
I used to know a lady who as a child she had a terrible home life. So one night, she wrapped a rubber band around her finger as tight as she could. Someone told her it would cut off her circulation and kill her. She was going to commit suicide at 4 years old. Depression, like any other killer disease, has no age limit!
@CFHS018 - why would you hope for that? What is your trouble? Help IS available, you know? Sometimes it's not easy to find, but it is out there! Talk to me - what's going on?
i first planned my suicide when i was 7 so sadly it is possible in the very young. Each day is a battle for me not to have my name on that wall, a battle i'm sadly losing.
PLEASE do not give up. One year ago, Oct 1st, I spoke w/a young woman who was planning to kill herself THAT day. She wanted to add her name to the Memorial Wall before she died. On Thursday we will celebrate 1 year of life - it has not been easy but she is glad to be alive today. In one year, that could be your story - PLEASE keep looking until you get the help you deserve. It's not easy to overcome mental illness, but you are WORTH THE EFFORT!
@csnellen Hey, its been one year i guess since i wrote this. I've been hospialized and had a botched suicide but i'm still around. I'm running out of options when i have nothing but the PTSD stuff in my head or the screaming that won't stop everyone i reach out says go to the hospital. The hospital locks me up for 2 days and tells me to never come back. One doctor told me the only thing i would be good at is dying. Please tell me this gets better because i can't take much more.
@Elewyn - it DOES get better, but not perfect. Life is hard for most of us-but death is so freakin' final, and we never get to know if something wonderful is just around the corner if we choose to live. Hospitals might be fine in an emergency, but you need to find a good therapist, who can help you learn some coping skills so that you can face things - rather than try to kill yourself. A hospital is good for an emergency, a therapist is good for the long haul. Write me at cjs007@yahoo.com
Unfortunately, we have a couple even younger who have died by suicide. It IS sad. But then every life lost to suicide is a tragedy - we must do more to stop these deaths.
you're right i guess it just really opened my eyes and considering the fact the girl i babysit is 11 and i love her like a sister and the fact that she knows what suicide is scares me, but your right we do need to do more to stop this
I can understand why a person in your state would be so outraged, but you're getting at a wrong person,they are just trying to raise suicide awareness and help people,and they do all they can, it's not their fault people do kill themselves..
why doesn't someone make a wall for all of us who tried but failed, and are still suffering the pain and dispair of being alive? no one i have seen or watched so far seems to think of us.
Every vid I make that deals with suicide, offers phone numbers to call for help if you are depressed and/or suicidal. I hope you will call one of those numbers. Perhaps YOU could start a wall for those who have attempted. Maybe you could start an on-line support group - do you think that is a possibility?
pingilina The music is so haunting, it's beautiful. I lost my daugher, Sarah Lisa Guerrero on 11/16/2006, I added her to the wall last winter and it's been very painful. Martha Castanon
If you are addressing the question to me, I did not lose a relative. A friend's son, and a personal friend both died by suicide, tho. Please feel free to watch the FFOS vid and join the on-line support group.
@ukgreaterlondon y would u post that on a suicide video??????
brittanyandhercrew 1 month ago
@brittanyandhercrew - I don't understand your question - why would we post what on a video?
csnellen 1 month ago
i would like to say to everyone, that i tried to commit suicide when i was 16. i suffer from depression and a few more things. i didn't know at the time i did it all the hurt it caused. i only can wonder how much worse it would have been if i died. that was 18 years ago. i think of it this way, god must have wanted to keep me here for a reason. i think of it as everyday i am here is a bonus. everyday is a gift from god. since then i speak to parents and children about suicide.
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ukgreaterlondon 1 year ago
I go on that sometimes, when I miss my uncle and cousin. Makes me remember I am not the only one going through things.
imherewaiting 1 year ago
@imherewaiting - I'm so sorry that you lost your uncle and cousin to suicide. It IS a hard thing to go through. If you would like to join the group associated with the Wall, please do visit health.groups.yahoo.com/group/FFofSuicides/ Each person there can understand some of what you're going through because we've each had a friend/loved one die by their own hand. My condolences to you.
csnellen 1 year ago
@csnellen my sister in law just committed suicide in February 2011 they found her on her daughters birthday which is valentine's day. It has hurt our family immensly. where do we go from here. Rip debbie grajales
TheTammylynn69 11 months ago
@TheTammylynn69 - Tammy, I am so sorry to hear about your SIL - and on her daughter's birthday - what a horrible tragedy. I will e you at the address you show, here, and we can "talk" more about what to do from here. But what I would share with anyone who is going through this - allow yourself and each family member to grieve in their own way. Say her name. Talk about her. Cry. Seek professional counseling to help you and the kids with the grief. Don't feel guilty. Reach out for help!
csnellen 11 months ago
the truth never is
sdavis732010 1 year ago
@sdavis732010 wow,not very nice.
cindy1000000 1 year ago
My son age 14.....Calif Skilar Fonville....March 21 1995- Jan 19 2010:(
djkissbird 1 year ago
A thousand thanks for the great love and compassion you share with us.It is so nice to see theres still people out there filled love and compassion for theire fellow man. This is a really bad way to lose a loved one,and my heart and prayers goes out to all of you thats going throug this horrible experiense. May God bless you all, and lets do our best to keep this from happening ever again. Thank you, and God bless.
3qk 1 year ago
Eagle Butte S.D. on The Cheyenne River reservation is now got the highest suicide
rate in the world,Thank you for helping and making people aware of this.I want to
remember my sister Rita Slides Off,she did this last year.
randy6335 1 year ago
I used to know a lady who as a child she had a terrible home life. So one night, she wrapped a rubber band around her finger as tight as she could. Someone told her it would cut off her circulation and kill her. She was going to commit suicide at 4 years old. Depression, like any other killer disease, has no age limit!
gwammatoangels 1 year ago
thats' a cool trilogy. Wish Jonathan's name was up there. I may go there and try to get it on there.
sailingburd 1 year ago
@CFHS018 - why would you hope for that? What is your trouble? Help IS available, you know? Sometimes it's not easy to find, but it is out there! Talk to me - what's going on?
csnellen 1 year ago
ok Jan.1 2010
7melyssa 2 years ago
i first planned my suicide when i was 7 so sadly it is possible in the very young. Each day is a battle for me not to have my name on that wall, a battle i'm sadly losing.
Elewyn 2 years ago
PLEASE do not give up. One year ago, Oct 1st, I spoke w/a young woman who was planning to kill herself THAT day. She wanted to add her name to the Memorial Wall before she died. On Thursday we will celebrate 1 year of life - it has not been easy but she is glad to be alive today. In one year, that could be your story - PLEASE keep looking until you get the help you deserve. It's not easy to overcome mental illness, but you are WORTH THE EFFORT!
csnellen 2 years ago
@csnellen Hey, its been one year i guess since i wrote this. I've been hospialized and had a botched suicide but i'm still around. I'm running out of options when i have nothing but the PTSD stuff in my head or the screaming that won't stop everyone i reach out says go to the hospital. The hospital locks me up for 2 days and tells me to never come back. One doctor told me the only thing i would be good at is dying. Please tell me this gets better because i can't take much more.
Elewyn 1 year ago
@Elewyn - it DOES get better, but not perfect. Life is hard for most of us-but death is so freakin' final, and we never get to know if something wonderful is just around the corner if we choose to live. Hospitals might be fine in an emergency, but you need to find a good therapist, who can help you learn some coping skills so that you can face things - rather than try to kill yourself. A hospital is good for an emergency, a therapist is good for the long haul. Write me at cjs007@yahoo.com
csnellen 1 year ago
i couldnt help but cry when i saw an 11 year old killed themselves
emptybliss2 2 years ago
Unfortunately, we have a couple even younger who have died by suicide. It IS sad. But then every life lost to suicide is a tragedy - we must do more to stop these deaths.
csnellen 2 years ago
you're right i guess it just really opened my eyes and considering the fact the girl i babysit is 11 and i love her like a sister and the fact that she knows what suicide is scares me, but your right we do need to do more to stop this
emptybliss2 2 years ago
I can understand why a person in your state would be so outraged, but you're getting at a wrong person,they are just trying to raise suicide awareness and help people,and they do all they can, it's not their fault people do kill themselves..
gvlarchnili 3 years ago
why doesn't someone make a wall for all of us who tried but failed, and are still suffering the pain and dispair of being alive? no one i have seen or watched so far seems to think of us.
jtaforJesus 3 years ago
Every vid I make that deals with suicide, offers phone numbers to call for help if you are depressed and/or suicidal. I hope you will call one of those numbers. Perhaps YOU could start a wall for those who have attempted. Maybe you could start an on-line support group - do you think that is a possibility?
csnellen 3 years ago
The aim is to REMEMBER our loved one & most of all show the REALITY of the numbers. Behind numbers, there are people & a family.
I think this is fair and precious.
Then, I don't understand why you would go see these pages. Suicide is a tragedy beyond words. There is help and so much to live for.
In memory of Eric. Brother. 21yo.
cacanerveuxxx 3 years ago
I love the concept! goodluck to everyone who has lost someone to suicide.
proudnarutard11 3 years ago
pingilina The music is so haunting, it's beautiful. I lost my daugher, Sarah Lisa Guerrero on 11/16/2006, I added her to the wall last winter and it's been very painful. Martha Castanon
csnellen 3 years ago
so sorry for your loss
fatlina 3 years ago
We lost our only son last Sept, 2007.
He is on the wall.
Jayson Roche
1974-2007
mainemorgellons 4 years ago
I am so very sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers. cj
csnellen 4 years ago
I'm so sorry for the loss of your son.
Your family is in my prayers.
WolfnHawk 3 years ago
When and how did you lose your son.
I lost someone as well
3Decadesago 3 years ago
If you are addressing the question to me, I did not lose a relative. A friend's son, and a personal friend both died by suicide, tho. Please feel free to watch the FFOS vid and join the on-line support group.
csnellen 3 years ago
"The time came, when the pain it took to stay, was greater than the pain it took to go."
Missing Brian Apr 18/59 - Apr 27/05
The tragedy of life is what dies inside a man while he lives. ~ Albert Schweitzer
My heart is forever shattered losing my husband, Brian to suicide.
I cry for all of us that are left behind.
Only we know the pain & horror it marks on our lives forever.
WolfnHawk 4 years ago
i like your first quot its helped me diside
runescaperpglover 3 years ago
I know how hard it can be to "stay".
I hope your decision is to stay.
Sometimes we have to stay alive moment to moment.
WolfnHawk 3 years ago
I am really sorry for all the people who have lost love ones.
RIP to every single person who has died.
missloss173 4 years ago
There are too many who are gone - and they've left so many grieving people behind. Suicide isn't the answer. Thanks for your comment, Missloss173
csnellen 4 years ago
Rest in peace Danelle.
a7xrar 4 years ago